Zohar - Parashat Shelach - "What's your spiritual salary?" - Part 13 - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] yesterday without even paying attention we switched to a page a hundred and sixty a we were on 159 B and throughout the way I didn't even a set out loud which is not important we switched to 160 a and this is where we're gonna continue in the land that it says well yeah Luba negative if you remember I don't want to repeat what I said the last couple days just we're talking right now that we are explaining this is a Bishamon value hi already not a be a Baba Buddha or other of the students its rabbi shimon explaining the text in power such love how it's referring to the world above and not necessarily to Eretz Israel or at the time was the land of Canaan as the spies went to check it out so he says well yeah looper Negev and they came up from the Negev via vodka born they all came up in the Negev but only one person Kalev went to have one Valley of Voe at have warned he came to have warned what is it really saying via a loop and I gave when they it says it went up in the Negev it comes to him to me banane nasha sulk in bhagava blaine Asha is human beings they they sit and applied learning Torah but Negev what is the Negev mean yellow means yellow is that they're sitting and learning Torah when they gave what is the Negev mean Negev is the desert in the south of Israel but here he says belieber at SLAC amanda stood album Magana been been given this is lazy heart and and also liver like somebody that is doing something for free but in a very dry way without any excitement he says Leroux quit like no criticism moisture because then the desert is no water there's no humidity there sure sure the no humidity or excitement of excitement of Keio the simcard live is results and jolly happy heart and doing the Mitzvah very quickly so that sounds kind of familiar to many people they do the Torah there's no excitement there's no no fire there they just do it like a heavy heart now a lot of people to just read the text here says a lazy heart you do it but you know with the head on the table and and there's no excitement they do the Torah but nothing they're going on the Hashi it's considered delayed ba Agra why why is the person will do that because he doesn't understand that he's gonna get a reward if I will now tell you now can you clean here the floor now you don't know seem not a nice guy or what everything you know okay and he will start sweeping and you don't really sleep sweep you do it not so great but if I would come and tell you know you don't know if I'm I might tell you at the end of the sweep oh here's $100 for you for thank you for your job but I didn't want to tell you that in the beginning now since you don't think there's any money involved okay you know kind of like a wipe it but how would you react if I come and tell you would you sweep the floor for $200 yeah yeah I'll mop - you want me to mop also that's the windows so why is the person doing or performing or learning the Torah with with the laziness because he doesn't think that there's going to be any benefit here this is why I'm very happy that I was born not religious because if I would born into a religious family most likely when the age of 15 I would be going away from the religion so that way I was born not religious not observant so I can come back so I feel sometimes bad for the ones who were born into it because they're doing it like a machine because they were you know taught to do that from an early stage and I won't even say condition I would just say they were placed into it they don't have anything else they're like programmed to do it you said condition you said program the same way that you you get the point when you do something I mean when you do something nobody's forcing you to do it you came by yourself to the realize I'm saying you because everybody in this room or are they came to it it's like converts why why a convert is in the Torah considered in a very high level because the convert chooses to do it now he puts a gun to your head he came he she came by themselves to the realization went through hell and now they're choosing to do it that's a different level of service of God and I'm saying that the importance of a convert because many people think converts are second-class citizens but ha special um but the Torah warns us about many things and usually it will warn us more when something is important how many times it says in the Torah not to kill how many times it says in the Torah not to steal so for example certain desecrating Shabbat we have 12 warnings killing is only three warnings this other lotta modeled America one can care consider that another one but but how many times it was warning us about respecting and honoring and being patient and understanding with the convert 36 times so obviously the Torah found it pretty important so but what's the difference here and I consider about Java or convert the same idea and I chose to do it nobody forced me to do it and I wasn't born into it that I'm doing it like a pre-programmed machine and the sad reality is that I see many people who are born into the Torah and they're doing it with no excitement because they were that's their way of life they don't know much other Sam I'm not saying it as a general rule I'm just saying I experienced many people who were born into it that it's how did he say dry there's no moisture there's no like a machine there's no oil and squeaking and again not Constitution I'm trying to put anybody down everybody's efforts are are important and amazing but I'm just making a point that usually about Java and a convert they come in a kit with a completely different attitude because they chose to do it they won't program into it now the bow Java in the convert in most cases don't do it for a reward they do it because they realized what's going on but a person who was born observant and please don't take my words out of tonkin sake context and other people view the videos are I born observant as they call it from from birth observing from birth and I'm not saying utilize worthless I'm just saying just trying to for making an observation that I have seen many that are born into the toilet there's not much of excitement I did see many that they do it the excitement it's not the point what I'm trying to say what I'm trying to say here is sometimes people need a little push to do the Torah and mitzvot and about you I'm a convert can say you know what of course I'm gonna get a reward from what I'm doing because I have to clean 40 years of a mess that I did so I don't want to come up to the heavens and be judged for the junk that I accumulated of course I need a reward here I need to be forgiven for everything that I did but in many cases a person will say I'm not getting any reward why bother but the reality is that everybody gets a reward even if you didn't put much effort there's gonna be a reward a little bit but it's gonna be something huh maybe they are ultra the high Alma Arvid 'bageena the person when a person works in this world and he gains something he sees the wealth or the reward if I go in invest time and I learned and I go and start a career and for 10 20 30 years I work hard at some point I see the reward I can come to the age of 50 60 and say oh gosh am the last 40 years paid off I have property I have money I have achievements I have whatever it is in this world it's very easy to see the reward and in this world it's very hard to see the reward that is of my spiritual work sometimes you see it but in many cases you don't see gosh if the hala Ober Negev and he thinks that everything that he does it's like a desert I don't see any reward I've been working ten years coming to the manana and praying and giving charity and learning Torah and fulfilling them it's vote I don't see anything I just see problems challenges okay and and all sorts of problems I don't see the reward here so he considers everything like a desert I don't see nothing here oh my video yeah and now he's giving a proof or something to support that the word Negev they will show you wish then the word Negev how do you say in Hebrew for the ones of you know Hebrew when I spill water on the table what do I do I dried the table how do you say the neighborhood let me not give so negative comes from the word Yogesh something dry so the the the desert the negative is not the Sahara or another that desert this is negative negative the desert negative comes from the word it's dry so sometimes why I can look at it that my servants of a Shem is dry there's no excitement or no fire there because it's like a like a desert negative there's no excitement on the other hand a person can work serve a Shem and I see I don't see anything there's no reward I didn't get a check at the end of the day if you would get some type of an email once a month or the report this month you did great you should have told them in your name you learn Torah you performed all the mitzvot can you imagine getting an email like that you know once a month we have a very popular YouTube channel videos go on YouTube once a month I get an email from YouTube how great I did this past month you have 5,000 new subscribers 500,000 new views 37 million minutes of video I remember video I get a report it's very impressive the report I'll send you sometimes they report you won't even believe of their reports there the quantity how many views how many chair subscribers how many minutes of videos they report to shows you how well you did I didn't never get a report from a sham said you know the last month you were doing pretty good you made it to all them in your name you learned a lot of Torah you're very nice to your wife you were very charitable to many people I never got such a report so one might say it's like a desert dry here not getting any feedback here comma that Imam as it says hallelujah mine this is a this is a verse from the book of Bereshit a chapter f8 that's talking about the flood of knock and it says Who am I doesn't make much sense cause VOC comes from the word halt ban so the water got destroyed yeah but the water is what destroyed my nevertheless what is the translation of the word how Who am I omote algemene and what was the transition negiah negiah mean is they wiped it what did the water during the flood they wiped the face of earth the water disappeared at some point they went back to to their source and I mean for the first day we don't know how long the water was out there and no hoping the the top sent the crow didn't want to go said that the Dove in the beginning there was no way there was nothing it was just water and then was a certain period of time that the water either went down went up whatever it was but at some point the water went back - it's a - it's a original shape now it's not the time to elaborate on that but you know that before the flood there was only one continent there wasn't seven continents it's interestingly because I learned that in geography class when I was I don't know in fifth or sixth grade when they you know we cut the continents and put it together like a puzzle and then when I became observant I thought okay that's probably some evolution hoax but we do know that before the flood there was one there was one continent Dominic says Burkittsville moodier Shiva that the continents got broken into seven and split into seven continents geography will tell you took 40 billion years some ominous tells you it took one slap of a sham and everything cracked and then the water showed been between because the flood did demolish the land nevertheless if you remember I gave all the sources and all the the texts where it's coming from in one of the last lectures that I want to elaborate on that let's continue so just to conclude this short paragraph when it says but yeah Luba Negev they went up in the Negev so it's referring to this service of a Shem with no excitement on one hand everything is dry then one needs to take from that a big lesson can serve a Shem with no excitement on the other hand one can sir not serve a Shem without excitement because one doesn't see necessarily the reward takes a very big man or a woman to continue serving a Shem with excitement without getting any reward and worse than that that you getting punished all the time most people especially when they do chew ha they're not getting boxes of chocolates delivered to their home then the first comes a financial and disaster then we'll come other here are physical disasters I don't know many ballet Chua or converts that everything they were greeted there with beautiful flowers and chocolates usually it's a disaster after disaster after disaster and then when he is finally gets here your balance another disaster which is good news it means the kenosha was accepting your chula and he's starting to cleanse you if you did you my nothing happened you better be very worried you know the Talmud says if a person doesn't have any hardship for 40 days start becoming very concerned because it means the shim is not paying attention for 40 consecutive days so if everything is smooth in my life that's not a good sign I always say that that if in the first 48 hours after Yom Kippur a disaster happens say thank you Kano's bajo accepted my Java then I'm getting the slap right away if the first 72 hours after Yom Kippur til Sukkot everything is smooth be very very unhappy because it means that maybe your Chihuahuas not accepted most people are happy everything's good as you know because if your Coover was accepted on Yom Kippur then the matzah a young people already get the the some notification that the boiler exploded now you have to pay ten thousand shekels or somebody's suing your hospital or something M is above now oh gosh am that you guys accepted let's start doing the process the cleansiness so one has to be very very strong spiritually to understand that even if there's not a reaction it doesn't mean that what I'm doing is wrong it just means the complete opposite because if a sham accepts my Juba then what would be the next stage let me start cleaning you and how do I get clean it will come with hard champions I'm gonna come with a with flowers it will come with a lot of hardship why because it has to the the dirt has to be washed off so it says it says that when they came up in the Negev he does interestingly he doesn't even explain why plural they went up in the Negev by Evolis have one and only one came took a lot interestingly resolves not elaborating on that later on I don't know if we'll reach it it's talking about have warned because it says have one took seven years to build it prior to that arrival here is going to another I are not sorry he's actually gonna elaborating on that I think we're gonna continue tomorrow just because the the paragraph is long and they will take some time to explain it but just to go back to what we're learning in this paragraph to simplify it is that we're all striving to satisfy the kailash mahal we're striving to become a better individual i mean if you're not then you're not sitting here for the for the money nobody's giving your money here you're sitting here right now or you're learning torah because you understand this is the truth this is the path of truth this is the will of the collage abajo and this is a much bigger picture than what I see here there's a spiritual world that is waiting for me my actions will reap reactions so a person is doing it because they understand nobody becomes observant for anything else but emunah like I told you the story with my sister that came to pass up asking me if I believe in that and my conclusion was what you think I'm getting a check for what I'm doing it can only be a muna now if they would go to some religion there are some religions some some religions tell you just believe in the leader and everything will be cut okay right that's what they teach you in Christianity you can do whatever scene you want just believe in Jesus and He will save you from your sins that's the approach basically he will save you he would he died in your name no he didn't so the point is that this is not the the Torah the Torah tells you excuse me no no you have a long list of things to do and now you're gonna be accountable for what you did and what you didn't do can't now lean on some it's not a Jewish concept that I believe in the in the leader of the Siddiq and it's a nick will redeem me pull me from genome this is nonsense and if somebody tells you that in Judaism don't believe that there's no such a thing in Judaism but anyways in in the Torah nobody's giving you false hopes you believe in something and don't worry everything will be okay so what tells you no no you have lost a lot of long list of things to do if you mean something they punished by the way but if you don't you'll get a reward this is one of the 13 principles that we have to believe we have to not only believing that I have to read that every day that I understand that the colossal who punishes the wicked people and rewards the righteous people it's no way bribing here I have with the Kailash Mahal so when a person chooses to become observant and follow the Torah it's not like another religion that he says you know that's a pretty easy easy religion I just kind of like Hari Krishna you know they just say you know what they say just see how the Krishna over and over and over everything will be fine so they walk around in circles out of the Krishna Hari Krishna Krishna Hari sometimes it's a douche yeah you know the other way around and I'm not making fun I mean I am making fun but but I'm not trying to hurt anybody's feelings but I was associated once with somebody to have a krishna all they have to do is say allocation towards that's it you seal the deal that's not that's not that that's cannot be true that's if somebody were looking for a way out and saying oh really I just chant a few words that I'm done right I can kill I can murder I can slander I can rape I can cheat I can do whatever I want all I need to say is a few words I'm good to go that's a pretty good system so the Torah doesn't offer you this system the Torah tells you no nobody's taking responsibility for your stupidity you have to take responsibility for your actions so when a person choose to become observant or to change their faith to become a Jew you're doing it 100 percent because it's your will but at times it might get hard that you're saying I worked so hard and I don't see any reward now you know sometimes it can take a person 20 years to see something shifting you don't know how much junk you have accumulated all these years and I also come back to this world with junk that I accumulated in previous lives by the way in many of the times that you go through a challenge has nothing to do with your actions in this life you're carrying with you baggage from a different life and then you have to be very happy that something that this happens you will not know that really that's happening but that's our sage gave us the million dollar advice Cabella taser wimba Ava accept the hardship and the suffering with love because that's a shame way to wash off the dirt so when it says Luber negative and they went up in the negative I have to take from that something very practical my actions first of all I'm doing it with shame shame I'm and I'm gonna tell you quickly a story I know we're going a little bit over our time the mouth shelter was a very holy individual very high level of Hakodesh and he had a McGee McGee it means a little angel that whispers in his ear or everything that he needs to know and we know that he's not had a Megiddo Scavo many have a McGee McGee it is like like a little angel that whispers information anyways the story says that the Baal Shem Tov his dream was to come to reality so he'll and one of his journeys he ended up in Turkey in Istanbul and it was right before Pesach they didn't have matzah they didn't have wine they didn't have even they didn't even have a place to stay what about Shem Tov's he has 100% emunah nothing to worry about happened to me that the second that I arrived in Istanbul with no preparations for pays off somebody heard that the Baal Shem Tov is in town a very wealthy individual somehow found his daughter because the Baal Shem Tov used to travel with his daughter and he called her and he says you gotta get me a meeting with your father and okay so she gets him a meeting and he told her don't worry I'll take care of you of the whole piece of your with me okay so this guy walks into the room and the Baal Shem Tov like I told you Adam McGee so before the person even said anything about Shem Tov knew exactly what he needs and he says I'm giving you a blessing that this year you're gonna have a son and of course that's the problem was the person didn't have a kid the child for many many years and he wanted a blessing from the marsh anthem so the Baal Shem Tov we're gonna give you gave him a blessing that he should have a son that year right away came out a heavenly voice and said to the Baal Shem Tov you just lost your entire llama baa because this person was not supposed to get a child in this world that was the decree that was what's supposed to happen to this person and you now reversed it because we know the power of a Siddiq to dig gizelle like a Josh Booher make I am the Tzadik says in the Kailash poem hands to know and they said because you did not consult with the world about you did not ask if this person deserves a child alone you right away gave him a child you lost your entire Lama ba now if you would now get a notice that you lost your Lama ba you would jump out of the window the mouth Shem Tov's started jumping smiling clapping his hand breakdancing the whole thing he was like a static so her heavenly voice was questioning why are you so happy so he says now finally I can serve Hashem a hundred percent with no reward because I lost LM about so now my service through Shem is a hundred percent leash ma a hundred percent to the Kailash Mahal when our motives Oh agenda any reward here so right away the heavenly voice is you know what now you go wo llama but just because you said that so oh no now he's in bigger trouble so the point to take from that is my service to Assam is not for me it's for Jim and I want to reach to a level that I do everything in the shrimps your mind not because I'm worried about my tokus I mean that's more of a slang that I need to take care of cook worry about my sorry said in English Hebrew say that well nevertheless your service regime is is first of all too ashamed because that's his will not because I'm gonna get a reward not because maybe he will forgive me who says it's gonna figure you but by the way you can do to run out for 40 years with Sherman who says you have a guarantee that a shamble forgive you and if somebody gives you a guarantee don't listen you're gonna come because there's only one judge in the universe and that's the master of the universe you can make chumma for 40 years and then go up to Shyam I'm then look through the book and tell you sorry nope then accept it y-you know I have to tell you why don't you tell you anything so our service to regime has to be a hundred percent for the sake of serving a shame happens to be that there'll be a reward good I'll take it but what I need to take from that even if I don't see any major changes in my life I can't put this as a condition you know many people I heard that they came and told me you know I'm doing such Siobhan I'm this and I stopped saying the Shana hi and I stopped cheating or lying in this what am I asking for a little bit of livelihood for NASA what am I asking to meet my other half it's not fair this is what they hear where does it say the word in the Toa fair doesn't say that word by the way it's about fair sure no the famous question will be a Kiva one of the greatest leaders we ever had was murdered brutally and his students saw it in front of their eyes and saying Zito have is this ha ha that's the TOA that's the reward he gets for that to her and the reaction of the calash bahu was look stuck that was that rash cha shut up say mashaallah librivox shava that's what i thought of that's what the kadosh moco said that's what I feel like doing of course it's levels that we don't understand and needless to say there'll be a Kiva and the rest of the ten martyrs were begging a shame to down kedusha shame but the point is that we do not understand what's going on in the world above all the world below the point you want to take from that practically that don't get how I don't have to save in cold feet but don't get this disheartened and I'm looking for a different word discourage maybe more when things are not working for you as you want and you kind of start saying that's not fair I gave it my heart and I'm talking about between you and a shame right now not that you helped a person for a whole month and then they turned around against you that's humans but many people the yetzer Allah will develop some type of animosity to a shame hey I've been working my tokus here for for months already I don't see any any changes here so don't get disheartened or what what did you say discouraged disappointed old this okay because you don't know how far you need to go and maybe sometimes the shrimp says it's not the time for you to get your other half or your part on the side your livelihood or whatever it is a sham decides he knows better it's a very important lesson to get here because I don't see what's in front of me I'm really flying now on information of a radar you know sometimes pilots they fly only with the radar they don't see what's in front of them so we're flying only with radars we don't see what's in front of us I don't know what's in front of me can be a pit in front of me can be anything in front of me I don't see it I have to go with the radar and the radio is the Torah the Torah tells me what to do if a ship decides to reward me then I have to be triple thankful and show gratitude but I have to show gratitude and be thankful even when things don't work out how I want because that's what a shame wants nothing happens in this world without a ship's approval even the worst thing that happens do it comes with a shames approval nothing in the world no entity no leader no world leader no angels can go behind the Shamus decision no such a thing so even the worst thing that happens to you had to get the stamp the approval of a ship if you have any complaints then don't have any complaints because that's the way the will of a shame this is a lesson of Indian humility except what the calash people gives you the good and the bad equally even the band you should accept equally because it really is good by the way you just don't see it because you're flying on a radar you don't see that the bad that a ship did it's not bad he actually saved you from a bigger headache we just perceive it in a very limited way so take out the word negative from the Bukit vocabulary nothing is dry nothing is boring the Torah you have to dig hard to find the excitement and everything don't accept the reward you get one that's great be always thankful for the good and the bad even more the bed and remember that you're serving a shame for his will I was created to serve Him any fashion once he will go like this and I will cease to exist so I'm doing it a hundred percent of shim-sham I'm whatever Shem decides for me I will accept and with that we'll continue later what it means later with Siobhan is a big secret behind everyone why Colette was able to come to heaven what was was what's going on there and why the Torah chose to tell us that everyone took seven years to build obviously - what doesn't waste words another shameless who could be continued tomorrow till then just remember that Hashem loves us even when times are hard when things are not good shame always wants our benefit and the reward that you will reap it's sometimes enough at some point down the line that you just understand the manoeuvre the regime did and as the Mishna says altom shamsher targeted of Elmen applicable class don't serve the master for the sake of the reward and how does it conclude the Moho my mother came and you have the fear of wash of the heavens on you I befriended ebony cash amulet psychological who lets the coated israel due to obvious [Music] [Applause] [Music]