Your Soul Is Searching for Its Song - Torah Ohr Maamer Vayikach Haman #8

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Tom it page 240 the second column I tired of her he suffers McGillis Esther cook-off Amidala cook-off column for page 240 the second column a few lines before safe guess few lines before the eighth pay requests yes few lines before line starts I forgot do like Cosima's Oh Lila my Ma's Lila my Lacaze like four lines before the beginning of chapter eight is the Zev Oh shamrock Nessa sister all this is the meaning of something the Jewish people say to Hashem ensure a serum there's an expression seemed a Nika Kasem Alabama place me like a seal on your heart see mainly place me could hoist Somali Becca like a seal on your heart what is the meaning of this for um rubies Erica - is on this posit is an interpretation in Zohar since are in two places and passions for your feet and a partial mesh bottom that the emphasis here is Karissa semana que hoy Somali Becca I'm asking you that the relationship should be like a hoisin of seal Y says desired a fog of the özil Hakka Hakka the you Connor Ishtar becau even though it go you go here and you go there the the you kana the imprint the vissa Jim egde of the seal remains in you forever saya explains their what's the novelty of a hoisin what's the finish of a seal when you imprint the seal the hoisin we spoke a say about the table ass on something on a document etc the seal that the seal itself goat is gone doesn't remain there but its imprint remains fixed so see mainly keiki Somali Becca says the Zohar that sometimes a Jew asks are Sherman says I want you seal to be on my heart this is hoisin the seal of ella course of truth of godliness of infinity should be on my heart what does that mean I may go here I may go there there may be what's called a form of detachment because the wholesome is gone the house of the seal doesn't remain there but the imprint remains forever so mainly conclusive do you connect Astoria bahala alum in the words of desire özil ha kavaja a person goes in many different directions but this do you can the imprint of the seal hoisin that remains fixed forever and it's also the other way see me Nika hi Somali Becca place me like a seal on your heart so that the relationship always remains Peters the yuka me I know I see a high so the word the you Canadians are means the letters of the seal like the signature the signet that is imprinted that's the UK the Isis or ISIL shibori nisha regime oh my penis premiers VII carrot and then you have the residue a rush an imprint the residue the leftover not leftover erase him an imprint of the pious of the core of the Rutzen that was coming out in the seal like we learned that a fish Vader said that Kesava a nest of an estimate abbas am Allah enlarges I can't retract a document and edict that has the case of the seal that comes from the tapas that comes from the ring of the king the signet of the king why because the signature the notarized signature sealed represents your your conviction your will your testimony what's what we're calling here in spiritual language your enemy is Herat some I it's just a seal it's just a few letters removing Ben Yaakov or whatever your name is but nonetheless those letters capture they embody the soul that desire you they Rutzen of the king over the person signing and even though the seal is already gone but its imprint remains fixed forever and that's the nakid of a Jew that even though Harmon tries to get the ring of the King but ultimately it goes over to Mordecai Mordecai gets it as the ballot Anya explained what's the idea that Martha gets it that kanessa sister all is dark it's linked essentially with apps masala coos with the essence of the ain't safe and this is what he said you see this that with all the pleasures in the world there's the void that remains unfulfilled why it comes from this - so algarve the özil Hawk of aha you go here and there you're not any more part of the closer it would seem like you it would seem like and this is the great traditional dessert that you detached may live this seal remains on you so you remain connected but the seal has touched you and then it's gone but once it touched you it's never gone because it remains entrenched and grained in your very essence and your very core and therefore ultimately you go to come back to this indeed that's why it could be such a powerful testimony right yeah yeah yeah so he may turn here and may turn there and may run here and may run there and look for this it looks for that and it's all part of that void that he or she is trying to fulfill but until the person doesn't find that Chi sub until the person doesn't find the true yearning what the void really is about so all of the comforts and all of the treasures that the person may come across and all of the distractions ultimately will not fill that empty space in the heart which feels vacant because deeper than everything there's a rough sign that he has to address and that's the Ben amia Serrat son of Hashem that's in him the Haissam of Ilocos the Ainge so if the infinity that he's looking for that he wants to touch that he wants to connect to there's a parable that was given for this for this concept by the Hillel of courage the pillow love pirates pirates is a city in Ukraine I think right and the rebbe hillel was a hostage of the ballot Anya and the Sun the Mittler event his grandson atomic sonic he once gave they say a marshal from him that there was a person who who was very musical had a tremendous horse a tremendous sensitivity for Nagina for music for song and when he heard a song it touched them deeply people who are sensitive to ligand it can transport you music and transport you to a different world you could melt in the music so to speak so this Jew this person he once heard a song hewed somebody singing a song and the song just triggered such profound experiences and emotions and awareness in him it transfixed him and he took the song with him and he vowed to himself that he's going to remember it forever but alas he forgot the song and it drove him insane he was yearning to read reclaim that song because the song mama she touched him in his deepest core and he started to travel to all the possible places where he might have heard the song and he asked people to sing songs to him because he wanted to hear that song and whoever was capable of seeing the song and even people who weren't capable of singing he went to every concert in every symphony every concerto and every performance and every opera and every cantorial presentation in order to be able to maybe hear that song and he spent money and paid singers and composers and musicians and he heard a lot of beautiful songs some not such beautiful songs and even though he forgot the original song but he knew that the songs that he's hearing is not that song they didn't touch him in the same way you know you could forget a song but you know that you're not hearing it and he searched and searched and searched to find that song and people were singing this it was velu he said it's a song but it's not that song it's not my song she said that the neshamah the soul has a caisson it has a seal somany could hoist Emily Beca it has a song it has a in it heard this song and it's it's the souls that's my you come into the world and the soul is looking for the and it travels everywhere to hear that in and it pays money and it buys these toys and advise other toys and it travels interesting places and meets interesting people and discovers interesting things but really I'm looking for the now so I finish with this I get bored of this next I'm looking for that song and you hear a lot of songs some songs are nice some songs are lousy Lakota in my around there's an expression and everything has a in everything in the world even every blade of grass has a never eats rubbers and they can every tree as a so it works well with it there is a Nakota that's identical by every jew but of course there is an individual neshama as well but it's that and i'm looking for that and then and then when you hear the and you know that's the that's the song there's an explanation from the traditional rhythm it says in Lima Malik says Mabini Musa Rivera well he touched Irasema huh right listen my son to the muster of your father and don't let go from the terror of your mother so here it says Mooser and here it says Tyra right the father like gives Musa and the mother teaches the mother gives Tyra but a more important difference here it says Mabini Musa Ravi huh listen to the Mousavi father vowel t touch and don't abandon piracy maha who it could have such Mabini Musa Ravi and SH mabini mastery Mahesh Babu sir a vehicle B Mecca which would have been more more logical so you could say it's just you know for the poetry for the pros but antonov every passing obviously is precise and meticulous so the chapters it's brundun citrate cinders that there's to formless two sources of information the two sources of tire the Schwaben emu Sarah Vika there's the tire you hear from your father a good father is supposed to educate his children in a loving and nurturing and meaningful way with discipline but mostly love so it's mousse Arabic but then there's another tyrant but I'll teach terrorists in Mecca this player doesn't have to be talked to you who was already talk to you because the Gemara says it needed a flaw meet in magma am I'm alarmed and icicle a tire Cola that a child a fetus in the womb of its mother learns the whole tire so already free in the pre verbal self in the pre self-conception with myself when the embryo is beginning to form and the fetus is beginning to develop there is the sea may make a high Somali Becca there is the Tyler that's that's ingrained entrenched in the psyche and the soul of the child so this you don't have to have a LT Tosh Tyra Samantha this is the tire of your mother just the tire the tire that comes from your mother in the womb of your mother it came into you and therefore throughout your life you'll hear a lot of things you'll hear a lot of things if it's if it's real Tyra will resonate because you already heard it if it's real Tyler you've already heard it it resonates deep inside because the do-kyun the eucken a story about coal oil um it's going to resonate you know in many ways how do you know you're hearing turner how do you know it's real Tyler how do you know you go to a shear yeah will you read how do you know it's real real Tyler that even though it's real Tyler the answer is you knew it already you knew it already it doesn't mean you knew all the information obviously not different but it means you knew it already it with resin it resonates in a very deep place system Fatima Connor Sharma the depth of the song now this doesn't mean it doesn't challenge you it may challenge me may challenge me very deeply it's good if it's challenging me but it doesn't challenge me in a way that it turns me into another person who I'm not it's not information that uproots me from myself and turns me into some zombie then you gotta be very careful you have to be very careful it in the deepest place it resonates it may challenge me because that deep place may be very concealed and repressed but if if I'm hearing new tighter really new tighter it's not tight I think Amara says cold Masha Talmud Vasa Carson lukovitch how called little moisture Messina if it's a real condition is good it's a real real conditions finish is good but if it's a real kiddush isn't it a second because it means it's detached so this is the do you connect our Bahama Island wherever our juegos we don't only mean geographically of course you mean spiritually emotionally the house of a hook I made but the you Kanha there's the Haissam of inch so there's the Haissam of Ilocos that if story but color element as a mallet Anya said as we learnt yesterday that a person could go and chase his whole life so many different things and he thinks he's chasing that and he is chasing that and yet he gets it and the still that the aspiration to something this there's a depth there's an unquenchable thirst and yearning that comes from a different type of voice and this void must be addressed and this is the tobias amela the Tobias is the market its deceiveth the market and the size of means that which may not be conscious in you that it it suits your capacity you can identify what it is you understand it what we call Lamai Lumina tomba das la Milam and I say hell even though it's it's it's it's it's your momís your essence special muscle it's a special muscle and then and then when you hear the in your like ah ah ah ha maybe one person started off saying that is to learning another circle burning another one it's like coming home yeah it's so the music of my soul yeah the music of my soul yeah and and you can you know you know this is this is a nervous Enosh my no it's not - um listen again it's a deacon doesn't sometimes do resistance and the negative is also part of this I want to share with you my think I heard it from rabid in from rabbi Adina Stein's of revered in Ebenezer all you know revered in Stein South's commercial i'ma the the one who made the Gomorrah the stains out Gomorrah a lot of smaran he's a brilliant man number two for Schliemann so I once heard from him many years ago I can't say I remember the story verbatim but the person I remember quite well it's very for very powerful message on this on this mahalik on this gang was shot this morning he was going to Dava he lives or lived then in the moshav AHA chairman in the German colony in Yerushalayim and he'd avid Shabbos morning in the old stopped in the rava in the whole city of your shall I am is a rava there's a show called some accident over there that was built by the Thomas other the grandson of a Latonya in the 1800s and it was actually the one show that survived did Jordan Jordanian a cube the Old City of Jerusalem from 1948 to 1967 nineteen years Jews that had no access to the castle and to the old city of your life when Israel liberated to those territories in 1967 so the shoes were terribly disgraced destroyed in this this shall remained intact and they rededicated it and rebuilt other Souls ultimately so he goes there Shabbos morning mm it's like a nice little shawl over there in the old city in the Indy Rover ah the Jewish quarter yeah and the ultratop yeah the robots click hold the rover he was walking from the German colony off it's a 45-minute walk 40 minute walk an hour walk mystical mahalo and we meet somebody in the street somebody he knew he was acquainted I think he identified him as a extremely left-wing Israeli artists and you know that left-wing Israelis are really left-wing and I'm like American left-wingers American left with America's catching up today but Israeli left-wingers have a special coach because of this Haissam because of the high summer ever it's unique shabbat shalom shabbat shalom Ashlyn comical how are you fo halakhah ah this is where you going a little bit Knesset going to table and Shabbos morning was really the morning who every time says that forever colloquy going she said that you're shall I am there's a place you could still get bacon and eggs will covered Shabbos dish you make sure to go to this place we can eat lava rock he can eat Gaza for Shabbos this is what are you doing for lunch this for breakfast what are you doing for lunch there's a place you can get shrimp and lobster so the covered Shabbos he goes to that place for some show this for shall should is a place where you can get real yeah and NASA so that's where he goes what are you doing between then between he says he makes sure to go to the beach with books so it could be over on til $2 Thomas carry these books and read them and so forth Serbia inch signs of smiles and he says three words I mean McKenna Baca I'm jealous of you so the guy says but - a tumbler cannot be of course he jealous you go into a boring show to do your religious things I'm a free person I could do what I want of course you're jealous of me I don't have the burden the yoke of religion she says philosophers anemic on Ibaka I'm not the reason he actually grew up as a secular boy of stating songs he became about Trouville later that's not the reason why you're jealous of me she said I'm jealous of how deeply Shabbos affects you I can't say that about myself I go to show I go I come back right there and on another Shabbos he says for you Shabbos affects you so deeply you can't just stay home and do nothing relax read sit on the couch look you have to look for a place with bacon and for shrimp and for non kosher wine if you make sure to violate job as as much as possible so he says I think it would be true to say should gum etosha my Shabbat you also observe the Shabbos you just do it in a different untraditional way he you also commemorates our bus you just do it in an untraditional way and I think you do it even more than me that's what he told them the rest but but the ye'd became a Shimer Shabbos the it became a Shia Shabbos because he noticed from this itself what's what's dis resistance you don't you know writing a ghanian that's why you'll see very often the Jewish atheists I often say this in lecture is the best way to say it is Jewish atheist deny God with a religious fervor am atheist is supposed to be not religious but we have today Jewish atheists they're very religious their religious and their atheism but if you're real atheist we where's this passion coming from an atheist by definition I guess that's an agnostic really the definition atheism is a little complicated cuz how do you know that you don't know yes there's also an azure but this the passion with the passion coming from it's almost like I'm trying to get rid of something that's very deep in me so the hint is shared included about Tanya's teaching us here which became by his side a tremendous fundamental idea in you described the clown and emphasized specially the entire semester by this to Baal Shem Tov and the students and a terrace Chabad this dissonant coda that the poison of an aged soy is imprinted in the very core of his psyche even if it's not consciously understood and processed and accessed and explained and that's why it's called at Abbas it's called MacOS it's called sovath it's called no Milam and I say he'll it's called no Milam and Tomba das it's called the hoisin I'm not indifferent to it I once heard from Elie Wiesel a lavash although he was a Holocaust survivor he came from vision 'its came from a vision it's family in sigit he went to Auschwitz so he used to coddle that said he once said of wine he said it's a deep line he said Jews can love I'll call him as he put it I'll he said it verbatim Jews can love God Jews can hate God Jews can't ignore God they can love or they can hate they can't ignore they can't ignore what what it what do what is the why can't they can't what you can't ignore it's like when you're married to somebody you can love your spouse you can have a lot of issues with your spouse you can't ignore them you can try to ignore them good luck it's gonna last for a few hours it's gonna last I grew up in a house my father was an editor of a Yiddish newspaper Algy manager now so we have a lot of you dish system in our home it was an error for a few decades more than a few decades where in America there were many you desist and Jews who spoke secular Jews many of them socialists they spoke a brilliantly dish and their whole culture was revolved around you did but nothing do with religion this is called the are battering you heard of the arbitary nobody knows about it anyone the workmen circle the far that's the far vets was a daily a dish newspaper socialist newspaper at one point that had a quarter of a million readers if to understand the power quarter of a million readers daily since before internet was your one source of news to the world so I thought that a lot of interactions with them he worked with them they were an interesting breed all Yiddish all Yiddish but despised Judaism he dish on your dish guide it was a whole culture with literature rich literature at one point that 600 Jewish schools either schools 600 dinner schools today this may be three left in the States South America and the states at Canada yes parrots parrots schools youth llamas parrot Shalom Aleichem schools all these either distance schools the whole world there was a whole world of hundreds of thousands of Jews maybe millions well nothing remains because their children already you know assimilated into larger culture which they speak Yiddish in your America what's the value of Yiddish if you're living in Williamsburg you'll speak Yiddish you're living amongst you living a barbecue speak Yiddish yeah but what was the value for them to speak in it when they wanted to integrate yeah you've oh yeah just officers yeah a lot of money left over there yeah okay so so I knew a lot of them well because growing up they would come to the house it was they were they were an interesting breed very interesting breed and so I was one speaking to the head of the Favre it's the Favre it's FRN which was the forward it later converted into the forward say with me they used to do an annual ball a baller a banquet like a dinner us of a festive festive evening for all of the employees and all of the members of the workman circle hundreds and hundreds of people as I said did you have a date for the ball when did you do and he said you had the night of him Kippur the night of Yom Kippur said was superseded what system I will Kippur why do you do it on to be shot so young I'm gonna do that to be shot why don't you do it you'd science rot why'd you do a test order well if you keep it doesn't mean shoes it happened random like hormones go ahead Oh fell out on you'd give a lot of it it happened randomly they have to do something on Yom Kippur a Jew needs to observe your Kippur cuz there's a high surface of sarcasm he has to observe him Kippur he doesn't know how to observe it and there's a gravitational pull sometimes it's in a positive way and sometimes it's like I'm not gonna fast in people like I might say they used to do I'm gonna eat on Yom Kippur but that's way I've maintained a relationship negativity is maintaining a relationship we know in psychology sometimes when you want to be connected to somebody you have to continue to hate them it's never that this is the way you have to connect but sometimes I can let go of you but I can't love you because there's so much pain so I have to hate you but hating you there's an expression of the middle area but the depth of hate is always commensurate with the depth of love the emotions that you have towards your mother is like no emotions you have towards anybody else but the emotions you have towards your children or towards you spouses why sometimes very negative because Siri tone a site if it touches you in the essence of your soul but you never made peace with it you never embraced it that's what the chat see mainly COS high Somali bajo and this is not something that he can always consciously identify and clarify if yeah you would know exactly what his void is what he's looking for he doesn't know what he's looking for if he just knows this is not good this is not good this is good this is not good he needs another revolution another revolution and something else is something more and something else but what you're looking for is not all of this you're looking for something else you're looking for something deeper just you don't know your mama's don't know so somebody who doesn't see the penis of a year just sees the fits ideas will look at this person and say he's the furthest from Shabbos this guy's the furthest from Shabbos somebody who understands the Penan he says no he's also connected to Shabbos he's connected to Shabbos there's a gomorian mrs. cadogan in barley and in you shall be even more by riches same I couldn't rule the gomorrah says my sultana ravana half with the camisa giga daftest wealth we once spoke about the story from another angle on the names but here I want to focus on wonder could there was a leadership and a fuya we should've used the only time that we know who went ot ideas they call it today yeah over the derrick kitchen spin the tears he completely left you describe now this was quite news at the time because Alicia pan of oil wasn't a kid who was abd ADHD PDD thrown out of nine schools by the time he was bar Mitzvahed and thrown out of the house and ended up in footsteps leadership an avoider was considered to have a very elaborate may he was like numbers from the gundalia Dorf the greatest generation was her a gone i'll on my huge thomas I mean he was like from my creme de la creme and he left he left so this was you understand what it did it then it wasn't a regular story and it's the only we know there were hundreds of tonight Amanda Mariah we know of only one at least chipping away I made an impact it made such an in fact that they don't call him by his name anymore they call him out there the other one so there's a story there that Mayor was once giving a shear on Shabbos tomorrow says and Alicia Bonneville was horseback riding on Shabbos and he came by and they thought that they told him may you never is outside he stopped her she he went out and he started to follow Alicia pandava Alicia panov oh yeah started to the move go horseback riding and it may was running after him and he was giving a shoot as he was worse back riding at some point de Lucia but not where he told the mayor go back I was counting the steps of the horse it stole Shabbos you know let it go any further it may said you also come back he meant both things come back and come back and she whenever he said I can't come back why you radio show me says it it was 1cm Kippur Shabbos I was horseback riding on the Hara bias around the place of the coitus a Kardashian would used to be the creditor Kenosha the Hara bias used to be a real mountain Adrienne lowered the mountain by a thousand feet or more but it used to be a higher like this a real huge mountain and he was horseback cries a great place for his back riding and it was after the hurting based on mukesh a few decades on yom kippur aren't sharp as he was was back riding weird the place with these to be credited nah now he knew with the credit check russian was he was probably alive when the base i McNish was still there and I heard a basket and the basket I heard from behind the curtain I heard a sham saying Shuvo Bonhams Evolvin hoods Mayock all children are welcome back besides Alka so I can't come back this is what he tells it Amit I can't come back I heard a Bosco you have capricious Holly's Bashevis sugar bottom cervical smack now when you think about the story yeah the whole shade of your Chabert salivated ones gave on this what's this shoe a bunch of cosmic hadith Rara eats from sure every Jew could do children now why is there be a bus fascicle coming them who goes horseback riding him keeping his pascal's Russian people and shoot on here bicycles this guy was a horseback riding on Yom Kippur stalking not an issue minute Iverson is submitted a bond on such debates and he's hearing a Bosco super bottom chef of incants my action and he wasn't planning to do children the shot is that the Reba inertia Leland was telling him you're not an actor you're not an alien you're a child of a hard-r you look at what you're doing it seemed kipper you want to go horseback riding so go to Montana go to a lot go up north take a hike and go horseback riding why do you have to come horseback riding on Yom Kippur in the base coach Hadassah the shot is your heart is gravitating to Kadesh a conduction because it's in Kippur instead of embracing it in a positive way you're doing it through showing that you don't get in this poll from Yom Kippur you're gonna go horseback riding zest us that you're a child you're not enough here sure the bundle chef of them could smash so explain why I'm Bob Lee incest quotes my action you shall meet so scutes merely shibuya because really the bicycle set holds my action but he heard good smelly shibuya the bicycle was telling him you're not an iShare you're a child then he heard that it's Alicia Pandava because for him Alicia Bonneville and Ashley became synonymous it's all the same Nakota that the yueqin a storybook hollow eylem I forgot the özil hakama haka you can go here and you can go there that the DI Caen the imprint of the star makélélé remains forever but you feel something in Kippur once it remember - Frieden when he said go imagine somebody stands some day yeah I'm not telling you to do this at home but for some imagine somebody stands Sunday outside of a church this is not homework I'm just theoretically and a fellow Christian comes out and you say hi good morning good afternoon good afternoon how are you beautiful Sunday day in New York what how's your day awesome coming out of the church tell me do you believe in the Lord course I believe in the Lord I wasn't believing the law why that I just stand there three hours screaming hallelujah of course I believe in the Lord okay Friday a person stands in front of a mosque somebody comes out good afternoon have a good weekend do you believe in Mohammed course I believe in Mohammed why was I now kneeling for five hours why was i kneeling if I don't believe in Mohammed why did I just finish fasting a whole month of RAM Madonn why am i praying five times a day and why am i soon going to Mecca if I don't believe in Muhammad of course I believe in Muhammad then go to a Buddhist ashram and some Buddhist monk comes out and ask him do you believe in Nirvana of course I believe in Nirvana why have I been doing Transcendental Meditation for 35 years I want to have one and all and all in one of course I believe in Nirvana and then go to a a Hindu a Hindu monastery where a Hindu comes out and asked him do you believe in karma of course I believe in karma why have I had this worm in my garden for the last forty nine years if I don't believe in karma now he says go to temple Emmanuel or 5th Avenue I am Kippur okay drew comes out takes off his yarmulke and if he was winged waves down a taxi hails a taxi there well away before you go into the taxi tell me you believe in God me me what do you think I am some assure you no of course not what do you mean but you're coming from the pet pool what does that have to do with anything so you believe in God haven't you heard of of Charles Darwin of evolution I don't believe in God natural selection I believe a graduate of Columbia University so why did you go to the temple he says cuz it seemed kipper says look but you don't believe it of course not so so why am Kippy Gordon and he looks at you straight he says are you kit or do goes to the temple and it makes sense it makes sense what what is that because that's the finisher Judaism is not a religion we call Judaism a religious Christian inators Islam there's so many types of and there's a religion called Judaism and the question is if it's true what's true what's not true the vortex Judaism is not a religion you can't be an atheist and be called a Christian you not by definition if you don't believe you can't be an atheist and we called the Muslim you can't deny the Buddha and we call the Buddhist and yet you could be an atheist and I'll push a you strolling you call the true reason tomorrow in Sanhedrin about Oakland Oakland a from M Dalit I for peaches hotter you stroll and this is not some cata ox almost yen ataxia Moshe said don't take he took issue said don't take three rubber Montgomery says period I avoid is our awesome was a real real gun Volusia sake no alpha copies or what do you mean your Julia you don't believe in anything the shot is that the relationship of a Jew and Judaism if Judaism was just a religion either you religious so you're not religious so if you're religious you're a Jew if you're not religious you're a guardian there I talk to people when I came to Muncie I didn't know this because I didn't grow up with it but somebody was talking to me once and he says my brothers are going my brothers are going so I didn't understand what he means so in my naivete I started to think what happened did his mother convert later like and it was it really came of a very prominent Hasidic family so his father married a non-jew and that a baby and then his mother converted and they had him sound like wow this is gonna be a juicy story I'm like looking forward to the story of of how it happened I was father Methos shiksa right and Sweden somewhere I'm waiting for the story was in my simplicity if his brother is a guy he means he's a guy he's not Jewish and it took me like a few minutes to realize NoHo his mother is is you know the consider should sneeze decay fry huh let nori dish the guy that you dish yeah and then I realized it's not even a sharpest guy it's a zoom to go him with a monkey going with a density goeth because the definition of a guy by him is if he's not doing what the family does or he's not follow Tyrel Mitzvah season good what is it based on it's based on a very simple equation the definition of a Jew is your religious if you're not religious you're not a Jew so my brother became a god but we see that the halacha doesn't see it that way FRP Shikata yes Rallo even a Jew that shamanism forget about a Jew secular Jewish man sir if he's my condition Asia if he betrothed is a woman halacha she needs again I if he's not a Jew if a Jewish woman marries an average doesn't need to get it's not condition here it's called condition called condition so even though the gabbie different our office yeah the wine or other things will have the status of a non julep oil mama sh t douche of condition so what's the havona here the Havanna here is that Judaism and the relationship of Judaism in a Jew is not a religion Judaism is like the color of his soul you can't change the color of your soul change the color of your eyes Judaism in a Jew are essentially connected it's a soul identity I can observe it I could not observe it I could be aware of it I could not be aware of it but I can't not be it it is Who I am it's my spiritual genetic composition I could say I'm not this person but it won't change the fact that this is who I am this is my essential and Nate identity a person could decide one morning that he's a horse you could decide it right and you could live that way there are people who decide that then they live that way they live like horses you could decide you're a behave man live that way but it's not gonna change the fact that you're not a baby you're a person not that there's anything wrong and being a Bahama Bahama is a wonderful thing talk about Chef McCall for ask him about myself it's just you have to know what it is there's a bird and there's a mammal and it's not about judging better worse everything even in this world has its parameters the rabbi once from Sydney sent me an email interesting email he got somebody sent them a question he grew up in a Jewish home and Sydney it's very secular so much radition 'el and he never liked Jews he didn't like them so when they started to date he started to date he told his mother I don't want to date Jewish Jewish girls I want to date non-jewish girls and that's what he did and he married a non-jew and he never even told her that he's Jewish because he didn't want to observe anything Jewish in the house not Chanukah and not in Kippur and not Rosh Hashana in other words mom is no vestige they have children the children are Jewish he never even told them they come from a Jewish family huh he's Jewish and he writes he sent me the letter he writes that recently he knows that his parents have a fair plant in a cemetery for the family for him too he doesn't want to be buried with Jews so he bought himself a plot in the Christian Cemetery so then when he dies he's gonna be buried with non-jews so like this letter is getting more inspiring by the minute what's his question from the rabbi he says I have one problem I still feel jewelry so I want to know if Judaism has a tradition through which I could officially become not Jewish for example baptism they sprinkle the holy water on you and you become a Baptist as Judaism have a way we they could sprinkle some water on me and on Jewish size me because it's really bothering me I just I really don't like it I want to get rid of it completely and I want to know if Judaism has such a ritual and he says thank you for your help with this question I know it's a question that's not usual for you probably you don't usually receive such questions now think about this question think about the man ran away as far as possible he's not even ready to be buried after death with Jews Africa dica for whatever reason I don't know if there was some pain or some abhi I don't know the reason I don't know the background of the story but something in Judaism that he can't stand he can't tolerate and yet he's coming to a rabbi and he wants to know if Judaism has a ritual to make him officially not true it but if Judaism is fake phony and fraud let's say we have a ritual let's say we could sprinkle on you Commission saw Mayim show oven and make you and make you not Jewish line of came in is the whole a joke you're running away from it go back to him so there's good news and bad news the bad news is that Judaism has no ritual through which you could become non-jewish that's the bad news the good news is you're as Jewish as Moses as King David as king Soloman as rabbi akiva as Rashi as Maimonides you're as Jewish as all of these personalities and you may not be as knowledgeable and as observant of them but you're as Jewish and because it's who you are instead of hating it try to learn how to make peace with it how to embrace it because look at your letter you ran away as far as possible but you're still looking for Jew to Judaism to help you disconnect and the funny thing is you think it's normal it's saying it's rational I once had a teacher indian oil man mr. MELAS we believe once said our story I don't know if it's a real story or not but it's certainly a an interesting story my sure Mendelssohn was the father of reform jury Moses Mendelssohn he himself an interesting person they say you said Alvin chakras Mintz I might have the actual truth most of them converted to Christianity and he lived in this Sawyer Germany and he had a Talmud he was the father of many of the reform the reform leaders and rabbis of the first generation in Germany he had a student who completely left the other side and he once came to an old Reber of his and he asked him how he's doing and he said that he's doing very well but he has absurd that he can't get rid of you can't get rid of it she said I thought that because you're a Jew she says how do I get rid of it she says and you need more to menu if you'll have Mortimer you'll get rid of it he said how do I do that she says you have to drink the Negev ass of water you wash morning Negev hasta so take some of the rural Hatami drink that water you'll digest the tumor and then you'll get rid of it you'll be a happy person says what does episode Esther so the way he told the story was the drew took it seriously and he went home and he started to drink Negev osawa to be able to ingest the Torah and guess what it was like a drug it was like a pill he started to feel better he filled manaka-san Africa she became a friend he realized this is the power of the neck of us it became an hour he'd it's all the same Mukunda the new kuda is that the UConnect Arabic Allah Allah Alpha Gamma özil a person the nades are here they're the traits of him there's a lot of her coffers a person makes in life but did the yueqin does the hoisin semana que hoy Somali baka and therefore ultimately as long as he doesn't fill that void and the void there's not a concern is that a void that he joins people to look a certain way the void is a very deep one it's a very internalized one it's that know is safe that of infinity so because the hoisin is there it also can be obliterated cause it's lamella and that's the finish of maka 'the if it was an Indian of penning me then if you don't feel it you don't have it the idea of sovath means even if you don't feel it it doesn't mean you don't have it that's the difference of mammalian cipher molly means it depends on your experience of it as much as you experience it that someone should have it the table a switch represents Marcus means it's above you it's around you will try to surrounds you it's not there because you feel that it's there it's there because it's severe even beyond your feeling in fact the fact that you don't feel that is not because it's not it's because it's deeper than your feelings it's much deeper than your feeling so your fill your the filter that allows for you to feel things doesn't contain it because it's deeper so it's not the it's less market means it's deer more so the fact that I don't feel it doesn't mean it's not it's not here there's things I don't feel it it's not here that's my male so even me there's nothing to do with that it's it's it's it's essentially here if it's essentially here it has a tremendous impact it has a tremendous tremendous impact on the person know my reaction I'll be Visayan with the story I heard this story first for my father all of us all of many years ago he heard it's in the person himself then I read it in an autobiography that he wrote I saw the story there also it's a very it's a very deep story there was a Jew in Israel he was known as Zalman shazar Zalman shazar was the third President of Israel the first one was high and Weitzman second one was Yeats figments V and I believe the third one was almond shows I became a president in 1963 and he was a president was ten years till 1973 he was a left-wing a real left-wing Jew scholar speaker a poet socialist left-wing he was the first education minister in Israel secular Jew his real name wasn't shazar his real name was rubbish off and he came from the lid they came from Lithuania from a little town called Damir today it became very famous because the mirror yeshiva came from there the mirror is Shiva the city is not called Mir the city is called dim near the mirror Shiva is not the mirror Shiva it's Damir the name of the yeshiva is Damir right it's not the mirror just for a Jewish virtual a Jewish was a Jewish information here so he came his family came from that town he was named after the ballot Anya Schneider's almond he was named to the vault on him because his ADA was a kebab Fawcett his elders a there was a comment of the ballot Anya so they named him for this ball of time but this was the generation early 1900s late 18-hundreds were most Russia and Lithuania and jury left the in disguise people don't realize but 50 60% left you described including him he himself and he became a socialist Zionist which was very compelling then hundreds of thousands of Jewish youths were were were alert into the divisions of this grand utopia that will transform the world and turn it into a paradise Carole Marxist socialism and Theodore Herzl secular Zionism and the combination of both and this swept through Eastern Europe and now is not the time to elaborate on the history but it was was it it alert it it brought in it spoke to millions of Jewish youth because many of them didn't see a future within Judaism and the blood Gomorrah and they did for them this was just a perpetuation of 2,000 years of persecution and they were looking for new isms every day there was a new ISM right saumensch as I was 15 years old so lady changed his name from Aruba chef to shazar because rhubarb doesn't sound Israeli it's not Sabra it's a it's a European Eastern European name rubbish offer you the tsunami rubbish off Cesare is more a Zionist sounding and Cesaro is an acronym of snare Salman rhuebottom's as I just called Salman shazar that's how he's known the he was going up there to stroll was then called Palestine in the early 1900s this is he was he was born probably 1890 so he was around 15 years old this is right before the first world war or or I think shortly before the First World War II was a young teenager he was making alia he would be from the college sim you know what the colored samaya the workers to build the land and he really integrated and he became my first Education Minister and then the President of Israel he was very well known in his day the last Shabbos before leaving to Palestine territories slowly the Sun is gonna go visit his ADA his ada was acid Russia say there was a Habad Hassan living in the mirror and like a very Norfolk sight to show you the real real to find ears shamaya and he decided one shop is simply out of respect to the zeta he's gonna be with him and he's gonna follow that shop is he's gonna be with this aid that completely despite his personal persuasion he's gonna be there fully his grandfather was excited to see him obviously and he put on his yarmulke and he women you know ahead of shoppers so he describes this my father told it to me when I was a kid yeah I think he heard it from us almond shows are he went to the mikveh with his aide there before Shabbos and they went to shul early and they sang shil I should have together and he said is a they learned with him Lakota Toyota from the ballot Anya and then they got ready for couple of Shabbos and they dove and he said it was so beautiful you know the old that old simple Jews most Jews over they were elder they were singular Authority and they went home he says at the table there was nothing but new gunam and the retire of his ADA and then shop this morning they woke up early and they learned so they went to the mikveh again and they went to shul and he learned with him again look at the tailor from the ballot Anya and they dove in then the whole shop was it was just a Shabbos in a in a very very observant niche in a cocoon in the MIR and makalah should this and the whole Shabbos day if I'm bringing together and spoke and whose they loved the fact that the a Nicole was there they say there was a tomahawk but sorry Shabbos my lava Malka Sunday morning chakras past chakras breakfast and then he was taking the there were no trains in the mirror but there was a place where the bow Legolas were the coaches and you rented a couch and he took you to a nearby larger city with it was a train station he would take a train ultimately would bring him to Turkey and from Turkey he would get to register so after breakfast Sunday morning the Zaid that took him with his charm and not with his gym and on with his suitcase to the Bible was to the coaches over there in the mirror over there the Zaid that told him I'm sorry before he left he said we didn't speak about this a whole Chaves but now you're leaving and I know that you're going your own way I want to tell you something I want to tell you a tradition that I have and I ever heard this before this I heard through zom my father through Zalman shazar that he hid some is a we have a messiah there are three types of songs in life there's a in that you hear it you hear it and you like it but you forget it you forget it and that's it there's another you hear it and you like it but it doesn't stop playing in your head like a mosquito buzzing you know you're a like the CD plays over and over and over again and it drives you crazy you want to get it out of your head it comes back says both of those in the good name are not connected to your neshama the first one you forgot the second one is driving you crazy the third Onegin you hear it it becomes ingrained in you and it doesn't drive you crazy it's not always playing but whenever you need it you remember it and you could sing it and it's available that's the in that's connected to your sugar Shama Shama your soul is rooted in that and then he set it by us it's a messiah then I see the Habad or their neshama is rooted in the alter rebbe is negative the of the download Baba's you know the yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah she said we have a tradition that Habad systems neshama is rooted in the ulti representation but mainly such days almond and you're named after tips I want you to know you're gonna go through life you're gonna go through life at different stages of your life if you see that you forgot this it means you disconnected from yourself from your roots because your soul's roots are this negative so if you forget this anagen it means you disconnected from your roots don't forget this that's what he thought and then he said says all you Potter other make a very elevated viral akka the governor says in Broca's so let me tell you how lovely told him over a rumble man he'll just rumors about HS raw he asked him a contradiction to another number tried to answer the question find the halacha he gave him a kiss on his forehead and he told him goodbye he was a Jew in his eighties how much as I said he came to stone a few months later got a telegram from home that is ADA passed away very shortly after so he continues the story and he said those words stayed with me he was completely not connected to either strength or is that every major juncture in my life whenever there was a fork in my life since I had thyroid misère as the secular president of a secular state a Jewish state but secular when I have to make a serious decision have two ways to go in life and I'm not sure which is right I asked everybody to leave the room I closed the door and I sing the alter rebbe is naked even again comes to me I feel good and wholesome and if the doesn't come to me then I know I have to stop everything and make a hash banana fish and go back all the way to the source see what's happening in my show and this has escorted me and ahoy massa this is what Zalman shazar set in the later years even though he was much older than him he started to come to the lubavitcher rebbe in Brooklyn he came quite a few times as president and he became much money never they never brought him very very close to you this guy much much closed a little while before he died he came here to New York and it was youth based Thomas it miss Thomas is a big young tough in the beverage because it's a hag Akula of the Reber ayats who was arrested by Stalin and sentenced to death and he was saved so it's a big day so Zalman shazar who came from Russia he knew the mots of their what they went through what what about Jews and hid them went through in Russia he came to the from rankin/bass Thomas I saw the video of this and I heard this from people but nobody knew the reason well I heard I read about this years years later and I don't know if this was become one and not pick up on at the end of the fabric in the rebels said they should sing the alter rebbe isn't again good which they used to sing that different occasions at the end of the when it came to the high part before they started there was a mahogany ryokan he was frightened and Goodman so they never went like this that they should sing the the climax off the ramp is making ten times which goes and goes you know which part yeah yeah yeah yeah now this is a digging the baton you made it has four stanzas and it's movin connected and down with oil Loomis it starts with ASEA then you go to get Syria then you go to Bria and then this stands is that sillas the high and then they call come back and unite it's a very very it's called a movin it's a very very it's considered his his even though he made a lot of any good in my Covino my okay no one called Dorothy and many other name but this so they sang the in ten times the high point and since I was sitting there and as I was sitting there so I was a baby so I can tell you I remember but I saw they have a video of its I saw it and I saw that he was sitting and he was completely like like in a in a in a trance he was like completely transformed now the ovum just thought you know he came from business again I can dig and thousands of people were sitting it I don't know there was anyone in the crowd when the store the meaning of that story he was a man he was already in his 80s shortly before his death he ran away to the other extreme from from Judaism and certainly considers and at the end of his life he's sitting by the lubavitcher rebbe was an a Mical of the altar ever his name is Nia sama surrounded by said that in New York and they're singing about her is negative it was an incredible incredible moment there ever was singing he was singing the oil was singing and it represented you know this this powerful hoisin the stamp the seal that sits in the subconscious of a person's soul and you can go here you can go there you can go there when you have a premie stick approach so then the connection is never lost and it it it remains it remains for eternity the same is true in every person's own life you have to know you go here you go there but the rates are moderate sir people get lost people get overwhelmed but the hoisin never goes away the de Caen the hoisin is maybe not here but the D you can of the customers is imprinted in your heart forever [Music] this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net / donate