Shaarei Teshuva 1:10 with Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

[Music] welcome everyone back to the what the the shari chuva kabura for women of course men are watching now uh on the video but they're not part of the live kabura which i have on zoom we have a few attend attendees and i just want to mention that tonight's shior is dedicated to the rafa shalema of rabbi pinto his his hebrew name is yoshiyahu yosef benzek zachary and also to the refuge element of rabbi ephraim sprecher his hebrew name is ephraim ben rifka so mizrat hashem hashem should send quickly and complete a complete recovery to both of them this rather shim now last week i began paragraph 10 in char alef in the first jar and i don't think i did it justice we only did a few lines so i think it would be proper to just go back and start again one of the main points of this paragraph is dealing with regret there are three major principles remember the the um the romanian is going to break it down to 20 easy steps easy steps steps easy to swallow regret forsaking the sin meaning um building up enough will not to repeat and confession so tonight we're going to deal with just regret okay i'm sorry we're going to actually also deal with uh forsaking the sin as well bizrat hashem we'll get to that so i'm going to start the first few lines we did last week but it's a good um it'll be a good review just for the first few lines so he says now we're going to deal with the principles the main principles of the main principle the first of the three the first principle is kharata having regret javin la vavo it's very important to hear his words are so sweet that one should really understand in the depths of your heart kiravamar evil and bitter or terrible and bitter as hashem that we actually abandoned hashem because that now i also mentioned last week that i'm this sweet marshmallow guy who doesn't really like to give harsh review because i know i'm already critical as it is so i i am critical and i have a very observant eye and i pick out um i pick out things people don't see um but i want you to know that i worked on it so much that i hardly do it but this chapter he's going to really drill in the severity of the sin and we have to take it to heart we have to like feel the emotion of how bad it is to sin what what what does it do to us what does it do to our soul what does it do to our own right we're in the we're in the month of el and yes there's always a meme and there's a sweet side and a love that hashem has for us and he wants us to return but if we don't realize ourselves how tragic a mistake we made then why would we return so we have to feel we have to know we have to be cognizant of the tragedy of the sin and what it does to us so bear with us hang in there the first thing you have to know in understanding your heart how terrible and bitter that you have abandoned hashem he brings down a verse in in jeremiah this leaks in the comments that jeremiah chapter 2 verse 19. now remember i just want to reiterate what does the navy what do the prophets do it's so important to know this so for those who don't those who do know it fine it's a review the prophets are never coming to tell us anything new they're coming to remind us of what we already know and to guide us to come back on to the right path okay so and this is very important because other religions have hijacked have stolen our tanakh and claim claims it is their own and have what's the word perverted okay not just plagiarized but perverted the meanings behind it so what is jeremiah in chapter 2 verse your evil will chastise you and your backslidings will reprove you okay but here are the words he wants us to know you should know and you should see [Music] how terrible and bitter it is that you have removed yourself from god and he translates it like this when i say he it's i take i took this from the chabad website you shall know and see that you're forsaking the lord your god is evil and bitter what does that mean it's evil and bitter unless you understand it's very hard to go on this is the ultimate point of creation the point you know that the takli the purpose of creation is to have a intimate loving relationship with god a closeness to god and if we when we sin when we make mistakes when we transgress when we commit crimes we are creating barriers in our relationship with god the word mitzvah this is a very interesting idea the word mitzvah which people translate as command ready for this it doesn't mean only command there are many levels to every word it means to connect to unite to join together and you have opportunities okay now how do i know listen to this the word sevit when you have a a group of people working together it's a unity of a group at seven would be a staff right you have um all the employees together they're called the staff and they work hand in hand when you have a chef when you have a waitress when you have a main d when you have a busboy and that's just there whether you in any organization you have a staff they have a common goal that unites them and so the word the the root of mitzvah is also there's a thing called at bash you can look it up i think it's do it in english bash it actually is a hebrew you look it up in english and it will tell you that this is a code that the army the u.s army used to deliver secret messages how does it work it's like instead of the a it's a z in our case instead of the aleph it's a tough that's why it's called at aleph tough and then beth instead of the bend it's a shin because shin is the second to the last letter bet is the second letter and you can do that with any alphabet and create a code like pig latin right however they do that so here it's called atbash the word mitzvah the last two letters is evolving that's the two last letters of god's uk name and what about mem sadiq believe it or not in the athbash the memsadik is yud and hey so basically when you're doing the mitzvah not only you connecting to hashem but you're revealing his true name that's when you're connecting to the ultimate name of hashem okay i'm just going through this idea because anybody that it's like basic judaism right judaism is not just about nationally connecting with hashem but it's about a personal relationship with hashem and you can see in jeremiah that if you forsake the lord because you are sinning you're sinning what do you mean you're evil you're a rothka and he's going to give you rebuke and guess what you should have known and seen that just leaving me that is called evil and bitter okay so that's the first a comment i wanted to make on this paragraph and he says the yashiv el you have to know that there is vengeance and punishment and a full retribution something to pay for for every so in jeremiah 8 6 it says i hearkened and i heard this is the prophet jeremiah speaking they do not speak properly he's giving rebuke to the people and he says no man regrets his wickedness saying what have i done obviously when we've regret we'd realize my gosh what have i done right so this is what he is saying here this is the point over here right you're having regret for your actions for evil actions the yomer belibo you say in your heart very important that it goes into your heart how is it possible that i didn't have a proper fear a healthy fear of god in front of my eyes below yogurt and i didn't have any fear or dread or from god forbid terrible judgments how come i wasn't contemplating how i was aware this this i mentioned in the last last um the last session how important it is to study torah because then you'll know what's right and what's wrong obviously we have it our own internal compass we basically know right from wrong but we don't know all the laws there's a lot of who came there a lot of things that are beyond logic and we violate them just as well this is the way we connect with hashem so you ask yourself wow what did i do right i had no dread of the rebuke that i would earn from my sins in terrible judgments and there's a verse in at psalms 32 10 i want to share with you many of the pains of the wicked king david says many are the pains of the wicked but as for him who trust in the lord kindness will encompass him robbing the clavine see when you hear the hebrew it's like it hits you in the heart nobody wants to be kev ko ev is a pain robbing is so much pain loreshayim to whom the wicked they will get their due and what about those who trust in hashem about hashem that will surround him encompass him [Music] basically what else should you say to yourself i didn't have any mercy on my body all love me and i didn't even pity i wouldn't have any compassion towards it right we're going to get into this idea of freud now i'm not a big guy on secular um philosophies philosophers but one of my students when we started to discuss this idea today he said that sounds exactly like freud so i looked it up because we knew that he had he was a nice jewish boy or at some point he was and he had some jewish upbringing so he had some insights and he's famous so apparently most psychologists i don't know if they all agree but at least learn him so i'll use some of his language to relate what we're going to talk about shortly okay so he says so basically my i was not compassionate toward toward it meaning in order to prevent it from being destroyed i'm i'm hurting my body i'm hurting my my being that god will punish me all on account of just a fleeting few minutes of pleasure the nimshaw tealish i could be compared to a person the yoko the isba who maybe is a robber or a violent uh thief and then i'll eat whatever i i stole and i will know that after i eat the acharya shota and after i drink yigalese i'll be crushed by the chauffeur um basically the judge will grind his teeth on gravel i will not have good standing in front of hashem i have really destroyed a part of my soul we're going to talk about how you can make your soul impure and of course through truva had a purified as we spoke about last week but in the meantime we're talking about how much regret where's the regret coming from you have to know what you're doing to your assault you know shaman and in michele in proverbs chapter 20 verse 16 sorry 20 verse 17 uh a rave right the pleasure of a person when he eats i'm going to call counterfeit bread a bread of falsehood the achievement but afterwards his mouth is filled with gravel this is the regret this is part of the process of having regret and feeling regret i just wanted to go back because i know i skipped something here with the rambam the rambam in his 13 principles he talks about it again in the parish of mishnayot and i want to quote what he says because i want to drill this idea home about knowing this punishment in store for us but it's not just about the punishment the rambam defines the great reward that hashem promises those who obeys his commandments the world to come the world that is coming and now the other side and the terrible punishment in store for those who willingly transgress them as cars willingly transgress cars means cut off this is one of the things that helped me become about truman i always thought of myself as a jew and i was a proud jew but when i heard there's a punishment called karate cutting off i said one second you mean i could do something that severe that i have no more relationship not just with god with the jewish people i'm actually cut off from the jewish people and they're my key to alma right my and that's why i also it's converts when you when someone converts they're not just joining a relationship with god they're actually joining the jewish people right as ruth said where you my your god is my god that's fine but your people are my people where you go i will go there's a connection to the jewish people god has a special love for the jewish people as a whole individually you could you know mess up but this was something that really struck me i don't want something to cut me off from this special people so there are 36 by the way 36 specific sins that you get this punishment if you did it on purpose you know to chuba okay so the terrible punishment in store for those who willingly transgress them as karis being cut off from eternal life in the spiritual world now he adds after one of the grievous sins of the children of israel hashem made a promise a proposition to moshe whether or not he really meant it is unclear but that he will make moshe into the nucleus of an entirely new nation i'm gonna wipe out the jewish people and start over with you moshe responds if you forgive the jewish people well and good but if not erase me from the book that you have written that's where moses hashem says to moses who is the faithful shepherd of the jewish people and he says these words i will erase those who sin against me and that's how we know that such thing as karius implying that hashem knows he knows who's righteous and who's not right this russia shun is coming up the books are open he knows who is righteous and who is not only he knows right we look at people we don't know we don't know we can never know but only hashem knows what's in the deepest innards of people's thoughts and what they do behind closed doors implying that hashem knows the righteous and the sinner and he will reward the righteous by inclusion in his book and punish the transgressor prince transgressor by erasure of his entry from that book the book of life the book that we all want to be in where the book refers to the book of life that we speak on rosh hashanah and the day of judgment when we ask hashem to include us in his book of life for the coming year that's the prayers for the holidays that are coming up and we might as well be cognizant of it right now and i thought that was a good thing to bring in now the robanda yona is going to point out additional costs of the sin which should add to the penitence sense of regret i believe this is where we stopped uh last week up until this point and now what we're whatever we're going forward i hope we'll finish paragraph 10 and we'll start 11 next week but this is what he says the ramizos worst in this what could be worse than that worse than this he tells us because i was cruel to the soul which i possess you have this this is part of the regret i was actually cruel if you know you're cutting yourself off from eternal life you're cutting yourself off in that most precious relationship that possibly exists and that's to unify with hashem you were cruel to yourself the nitma the yitzeri that he has contaminated himself with i'll call the feces of his own inclination but he recall he translates as filth right you made yourself contaminated and what is going to help all the good deeds you spent in your whole life you acquired so many mitzvahs so many good deeds you worked so hard your whole life doing good acts you know what it's like compared to the things you didn't you didn't do right this is what he says this is what you should be saying to yourself what has my soul accomplished with all the positive achievements if what i did was so evil and it's evil in the eyes of god we read the verses it's evil in his eyes and how can i possibly exchange a in a work the world a fleeting world like the blink of an eye so to speak for an oil oi maid i'm exchanging for a few seconds of pleasure for eternity it doesn't make any sense what an insult it is to god and what a damaging thing i've done to my own soul additional points of regret based on the moral failure of sin now this is very interesting because you're basically saying how could i have behaved in a matter that's compared to animals now he's actually going to say we're worse than animals animals they do what they do because that's that that's their nature we were given a holy soul and that's where we're going to get into this whole thing with freud sigmund freud so let's just continue what happened i followed my own inclination cassus like a horse who parried like a mule ain't having they have no comprehension they don't understand now one of my wife's favorite uh verses is in isaiah 1 3 and ah this is member isaiah is giving rebuke to the people as an ox knows his owner and a donkey his master's crib meaning the trough the eating what do you call that where you eat from a trough a stall but israel does not know my people do not consider in hebrew yoda sure khanayu even the ox knows its master hamur abusb and the the donkey knows the the the stall or the trough of his master is bonane israel does not know my people do not consider and understand i will talk about that more when we get to the verse i brought it out because i was just getting ahead of myself but basically at this point we're saying i followed like them like the animals and we're going to see later even the animals don't act the way we did i have strayed from the path of intelligence so in other words human beings are not animals we're way above animals and yet the first line here is we sunk to the level of animals and you that's part of the regret but wait we're going to take a step further up remember in genesis where was it in genesis 2 verse god breathed into the human being into adam a living soul slave a wise heart the tovas seiko and good intelligence he translates it as fine intelligence fine hero in order to recognize him ulira and to have proper and uh healthy awe and fear of him the limb shall be goof and to actually have mastery over our body the cold in all of our actions and produce our activities like we are in control of all the animals right we are the king of the earth right the human being we control all the animals right we have zoos we have whatever it is we can have guns we can have traps right we shouldn't be afraid to go anywhere because we have you know electric shocks uh dark guns that could put animals to sleep we're you know we're the masters okay so interesting comment he says man rules over the animal kingdom by virtue isn't of his intelligent soul not his physical prowess but just as the soul rules over all animals it ought to rule over man's animalistic instincts so in other words if the man rules over all the animals how much more so our body which is just pure animal instinct it should be able to rule over that too and yet we're going to find out we didn't even we didn't even live up to that obviously because this the body was sinning the body had was ruling over the intellect and again i mentioned already we're going to get into the concept of id ego and superego in a second question is where let's just go read another few lines based on a verse and in isaiah 43 4 god says through isaiah right rebuke since you are dear in my eyes you were honored in other words god created us different we're not animals right listen to the hebrew masha yukara baine [Music] okay that's how he uses the words and the rabbina yonah uses a little bit of the catchphrase but he's telling you you were so esteemed in god's eyes therefore bhav or out on account of this racy i created you that's why god created you to be above the animals the he be but i acted opposite from this i was an animal and wait it's going to say he was even less than an animal at least the animal does what he do what an animal normally does llama lee can you imagine asking yourself i think someone who's let's say a drug addict an alcoholic some kind of could be a gambler whatever it is when you hit rock bottom so you ask the question la maliham why what is life to me what is it worth you feel so worthless can you imagine and i would have thought is talking about a little sin if you were such a sadiq and you did such a little sin so he says no we're not going to go that far right we're talking about people who sin on a regular basis that's how you should feel what is life adam it says in a verse in mishlai that's proverbs 21 16. so a man whose toe who strays from the way of the fine intelligence he was created with a soul that he's going to rest in the kahal in the congregation of refugee what is refined just 50 meters from here is emick refined street it's the valley of the ghosts ghosts are dead people silence how does he translate over here we do so in michelle 26 21 16 a man who strays from the way of understanding will rest in the congregation of this is uh the the chabad shades shades mean demons others translated as lifeless i would translate it as ghosts but it doesn't matter right it's all the same idea these are the dead people these are there's no longer life because that's what you asked lam ali khayim once you stray away from the intelligent path you will rest with the congregation of the lifeless now i want to read the comment because very interesting the intelligent way is the path in life on which one fulfills the true purpose of creation to let the fear of hashem permeate him so that his soul subdues his bodily passions a person who completely abandons his soul to the control of his body thus forsaking the true path and embarking on the opposite one has no justification for existing now this cannot be said about someone who generally tries to control his passions but has stumbled in one specific instance nevertheless even this person should take to heart that in his area of weakness he is departed from the intelligent way that justifies his existence now this is where i think it's appropriate just to mention again i'm not pushing sigmund freud on anyone i just think that he it's interesting that he came to some of the similar conclusions and perhaps freud's single most enduring and important idea was that of the human psyche the personality that has more than one aspect so i'm not sure what it means here in 1923 that's when he developed his personality theory he saw the psyche structured into three parts it's called true triprtite the eid that's the id the ego and the super ego all developing at different stages in our lives these are systems not parts of the brain or in any way physical according to freud freud psycho and radical psychoanalytical theory the it is the primitive and instinctual part of the mind that contains sexual and aggressive tribes drives and hidden memories so let's talk about the body the thing that runs the body the nephesh we have the nephesh is the lowest it's basically the animal soul that we have then the super ego operates as a moral conscience and the ego is the realistic part that mediates between the desires of the id and the super ego although each part of the personality compromises comprises unique features they interact to form a whole and each part makes a relative contribution to an individual's behavior right i think it was just interesting that my student picked up on it he learned philosophy and there's this idea like we have to have our intellect control our body not the other way around it should not be that the boo-boo that the body the lower instinctual part of us is running the show right that would be animals okay so i thought that was very interesting okay this is the last part of the 10th paragraph vote furthermore this is where we actually realize even an animal we didn't even raise ourselves or live up to the level of animal but lower than that of all chiffon nimena moreover i have not even acted in the manner of an animal but i have actually sunk lower than it and this is on isaiah i think i actually quote isaiah 1 3 this is where he quotes the verse the sure the ox knows his master right but the the the uh donkey knows this stall of his master lanilo yadatti low hit bonanti this is something was part of the regret that i did not contemplate about hashem about his existence i wasn't i didn't know and i wasn't aware of it that's that's part of the sin so here number 11 so that was the remember the rest of the verses but israel does not know my people does not contemplate we want to part be part of the jewish people we have to know and contemplate and get on the level of of israel israel and yaakov are two different names we're going to speak about that shortly listen to this and at the end of this he says i have set my soul free from its master allowing it to disregard the commands this world is not hefcker it's not a free for all right we are and i'm going to use the word we're of the hashem we are servants of god we have a responsibility on this planet and you can't be free from it to think that you could be free from it is is a big mistake in fact true freedom comes from knowing that you're an evan hashem because that's the greatest level one can be on so the word for freedom is and the word for engraving is haroot it's the same word right because when you let's say you take a quill and you add ink from the ink pad right people don't know what i'm talking about but there's such a thing as taking a feather right off the back of a duck so wait till it's dead okay you don't want to give it any pain fine so you take the quill and you write you're adding ink to a piece of paper that's called writing but what about engraving engraving is where you chop out you're carving out from within the stone and you're creating borders through this is what the luchas the leucos were engraved right the the ten commandments are engraved this is the law the fiery law right that everyone's so afraid of don't be afraid this is where you will find your true freedom through having borders and that's why i'm gonna tell i know there's men watching this if you're single get married because your wife will create borders for you this is where you'll find your true freedom okay so and i think it works the other way around too but listen the women will have to comment let me know what they think so true freedom is through setting borders not hoshi when we go on vacation it's called akko fish vacation is a vacation there you know no responsibilities basically that's not a jewish life and he mentions right here that basically i set my soul away in freedom from allowing allowing it to disregard his commandments and that is the mistake so he sums up three ideas that we spoke about till now that the sinner failed in his human calling in three ways one he followed his evil inclination into yet and he acted like an unthinking animal number two by letting his body rule his soul right the body ruled the soul he acted in the opposite manner in which he was created and number three by forgetting his master he has sunk even lower than the the level of an animal okay that's uh we're almost there i mean this is a pretty heavy trip so far he says like this tom t remember we're talking about regret so he's really laying it on the line here what else am i going to regret that i've tasted the nectar i've tasted the honey i've tasted the sweet stuff the nishiti sophie and i forgotten my end what do you mean what's my end that i'm going to be judged that i'm going to eventually one day be in the ground once in judaism right once someone is dead they have no longer any opportunities to do mrs mitzvahs or for the living pleasure the ultimate pleasure is in the world to come it's like a um i don't know it's a mirror all the work and responsibilities in this world obviously you can get payrolls there's going to be fruits that you can benefit from but the real pleasure is waiting for us in the world to come interestingly the word for when a jew dies and i think that it's misused i think look by non-jews also if you're niftar it means they're not obligated in the seven mitzvahs either but the word niftars from the word patur from exempt our job in this world is to be hashem to serve hashem we have work to do right that's what an evident does a servant is working okay so if we're working we're we're we're serving we have obligations once we're dead we are exempt that's why when we go to cemeteries the men tuck in their seat it says if you walk around with your seat it's like you're mocking the dead you're saying i can still do mitzvahs and you can't in other words it's not really mocking the dead in the sense of mocking the dead it's trying to drill home a message you this is your time in this world it's so important to remember i think it's in michele if you have an opportunity to go to a funeral or to go to a wedding now i'm talking about whenever all the variables are the same it's a close relative they're both gonna be mad at you if you don't go to one or the other guess what when all the variables are the same and you can only go to one you're supposed to go to where to the funeral so let's go to the funeral it's so important we spoke about it in the last few classes when the he's trying to get the people ready for war don't be afraid don't be afraid meaning don't be afraid of sin get rid of sahara get with the get with the program he says three times lest you die right if you didn't have uh you you planted a vineyard but you have not eaten from it you didn't type right you built a house but you didn't live in it yet right you just got married but you didn't consummate the marriage you haven't lived for a year married go home right the clear car explained that this is i don't have in front of me but king david said if you want to fight your yatzara your gods right you have to be angry and work on yourself and if that doesn't work then learn some torah and if that doesn't work then do what shema say the shema and if that doesn't work remember the day of your death and in last week's portion parsha show team when the melech the the mashiach he speaks about these things it's in that order because i'm not going to go through it now you can look back to the i think the title was the ultimate jihad and how to win the war but remembering the day of your death is supposed to free you from the aids of iran as a last resort but it's not a bad thing you could say why don't we start in the beginning the clear class says if we start in the beginning it would it would trouble people too much and they would lose hope okay so there's um a series steps that we go into i'm sorry so he's basically said i've tasted the nectar and i've forgotten the end the gazati the hamas right i have stolen i plundered al dao regarding the trampled on the weak bososti i've trampled right regarding the week i've trampled and i have not remembered the day of my death [Music] what's going to happen on the day of my death that all that will remain before my soul will be my corpse and my burial plot that's all that's going to remain now i want to read one more comment and then we'll finish with the last sentence because this comment is very again we kind of sum things up and now he's going to sum it up in seven steps remembering the day of the death is the last step in confronting the yates or as we quoted in last week's parsha in broncos 5a robano yonah sets out seven aspects of regret in terms of regret this is what we spoke about tonight number one the pleasure of sin is outweighed by the pain of punishment in this world in other words you have to know it ain't worth it right the pleasure of sin this cannot even compare to the pain of the punishment we will experience in forever sin contaminates the soul it actually creates that stain by sinning one loses his share in the world to come four by being let in being led by lust one acts like an unintelligent beast so on the same level five the creator gave man an intelligent salt to rule over his body and one whose body rules over his soul cannot even justify his existence and number seven when one dies the pleasure of that sin will long be forgotten but the reckoning of it will remain and that we have to be cognizant of and this is how the robe no yona concludes the indian biarnu this idea that we just talked about who i shared your miyawa love of shalom this is what jeremiah spoke about in chapter 8 verse six and we've already quoted it i believe that i was looking for it earlier when he's giving rebuke to man i hearkened and heard but they don't speak properly there's the prophet speaking no man rejects his wickedness saying what have i done that's regret when you reject your wickedness by saying let's see the hebrew nikam al-ratto no man seems to have regret nike about his evil about his sin saying what have i done if we can get to the level at least to say what have i done meaning even if you don't know you just know this might be something and look into it learn the torah and learn find out what it is that's bothering you nudging you you may come to awareness of what you've done but it would be the highest higher level is knowing what you've done and taking the steps towards repentance so listen to what rashi says on that verse because the the rest of that verse let me read the whole verse i hearkened and heard they do not speak properly no man regrets his wickedness saying what have i done each one turns away in his course as a frightening horse into battle so he's rashi says what does it mean each one turns away in this course in the first way they sin and repeatedly sin you must this is the problem right this is the problem if you don't have regret most likely you will continue to sin so figure dive into hashem ask him to make you aware make him you know we're talking from the heart here ask him to bring the proper regret in the proper way for the proper sin that you should become aware of what you're doing wrong and have regret it's something that we it's about the relationship with god if we have to rely on him maybe he'll help you find the harusa to learn with and then you'll find you're learning exactly what you need to learn to find out what you were doing wrong right we want to move in the right direction we want to have that intimate uh closeness with a sham how are we going to get there we have to start somewhere so anybody who's listening to this tape this recording is obviously starting in the right place right and so i bless you to have an ultimate week a great week a great month of elo where we actually come to the king who's in the field and wants us to write this 40 days from the first available until yom kippur and the last 10 days of like the climax so we're building we're getting there we started a few weeks ago today's i think the sixth class we're gonna go on way after right we're going at a slow pace but i hope you enjoy it and please write comments in if you're watching this after the after the class and now i'm going to take questions if there are any i know that only one person has a microphone that works otherwise we'll have no questions right now okay so write them in i'm happy to uh to try to uh to answer whatever i can and thank you all for coming and joining and shana tova martov and let's uh have the the chauffeur awaken us right the word shofar means ready yes it's true it has to do with a horn but it's this shot pear to improve right the shofar is a little sha pair the word the chapel means to improve so this is why it's tilted up going up towards hashem we are in a relationship with him step by step listen to the chauffeur every day this month figure out ways how you can improve your life the life of your family the life of your city you make a difference [Music] it's [Music]