Yiboneh Chanukah Kumzitz - Three Holy Intentions w/ Rabbi Kalman Flaks and Rabbi Aaron Dovid Poston

Heat. Heat. [music] [singing] [music] [singing] My birthday. [music and singing] [music and singing] [music] So tonight in honor of Kaneka, we're going to have a little bit of a kumzit. We're going to sing. We're going to share Tyra and me and Poston [music] are going to share together. It's going to be a combined force [music] teamm [music] [singing] [music] [singing] I [music] die. [singing] >> [music] >> Yeah. Oh, [singing] [music] I did it. I [music] [singing] Yeah. I [singing] [music] am I [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] feel like I [music] [singing] I [music] [singing] [singing and music] I [singing] [music] [singing and music] am I [music and singing] I I [music] [singing] [music and singing] Nah. [music] [singing] [singing and music] I [singing] [music] Oh [music and singing] yeah. Oh. [music] [singing] >> [singing] >> So, as always, we're going to dedicate our Torah study [music] to the protection of the whole Jewish people in particular, all those who are injured in the terrible [music] attack today. And Hashem should protect all of our Israel wherever they're at. >> [music] >> So I'll just say one word and then hopefully Rabbi Poston will uh come [music] come in just it's the 25th day of Kisv which is a very very special day first of all we know that the world is created on the 25th day of El so what's 3 months after the 25th day of El 25th [music] day of 3 months months after the creation of the world and we know according to the shame is something comes to its true kind of fruition 3 months into the process. Talk more about that when we talk to get to tubish. But so today is a day where the world comes to its maturity. So it's a very special day. It's also the day according to that points out was told which day did Hashem tell to come to is hey first night of Kaneka the only holiday which happens init of course until the modern day but uh special special day of connecting to each other connecting to Israel connecting So so special to be together. Maybe Poston can start us off. Welcome everybody. Welcome >> a war a warm welcome right to the yate midash. Uh we usually have on Sunday evenings a backtoback share but you know it's Hanukkah it's family time time to reflect especially we're a deep galut you know uh we have that song me wow we're looking forward to the building of the bas mikdash the in gathering the exiles coming of msiach on the 25th of kisv when we were in the desert that's when everything was is really ready to go and God says hold on a second I have a special day the first of Nissan will make the dedication but I'm going to keep this day in mind for the future and the second bas mikdash was rededicated on the 25th of kisv [clears throat] concept called or haganuz the hidden lightishon experienced 36 hours of superernal light there's two ways to look at it either Remember the luminaries were created on the fourth day. So the first three days 12 hours times three he experienced 36 hours of supernal light. That's one way to look at it. Or as I like to look at it from he was created Friday morning. So he had 12 hours on Friday 12 24 hours on Shabbat altogether. And then unfortunately he was exiled right Shabbat when he created fire. [snorts] And so he got to experience 36 hours. Why am I mentioning 36? How many candles do we light? Every box says 44. They say 44. Don't be mistaken. Remember there's a shamish. There's a shamish. So there's eight shamashim. I don't know if that's what you call it. Right. is so there's really 36 mitzvah candles. Hashem created the world. He looked into the Torah and then he took that light and he hid it in the Torah for the sadikim and we're all sitting here learning Torah. It's amazing. So when it says the good news, good news means hidden, but it doesn't mean inaccessible. It's effort. There's there's right man was born for toil. What kind of toil? The ultimate toil. The toiling of the Torah. >> [snorts] >> Going back to the 36 hidden lights, how many mak are there? You can count. There's like 60 some maybe 64 60. But how many trackct tates in the bi are there actually 36. So hashem not only hid the light in the written Torah, but it's the oral Torah that helps us access access. So we were learning in the clear car this morning and uh he mentions in paras that there are different types of nourishment mazone one type is a physical nourishment keeps the body alive there's another type called kakma it's it's a nourishment for the soul wisdom and then there's a third type which is a combination of the two [clears throat] and that's ultimately tone hamidos working on your character, fixing yourself. So he mentions that that's the hardest that's really the toilet work is the work that we have to work on ourselves in terms of our character. But the physical right by um by the sweat of the bre man is going to toil make right he has to go maybe a distance maybe he has to go where across the sea maybe he has to leave the city or go out of the out of his environment just to find a parnasa food when it comes to kma it's it's karov it's not across from the sea it's it's it's close to you of course that makes it easier, but you still have to toil. You still have kavana. And that's what we're doing here tonight. We're going to hear the rabbi flax speak. And the third idea again is the combination is the synthesis between the physical food, the spiritual food, which ultimately is bringing it into fruition ultimately. Why do we learn Torah ultimately to do the mitzvah? Okay. So, um without any further ado, I don't want to Oh, actually I do. So in the cleara and pares mates he really brings this idea to light you know that at the end of two years you know pharaoh he finally heard he finally heard that there's an interpreter of dreams and he takes ysef out of the dungeon so he brings this medish midish tanum [clears throat] and I'll just read it real quickly right so pharaoh sent and called yseph so Yeshua son of ley says out of adversity comes tranquility out of darkness comes light out of the degradation of of the righteous, their exaltation. And he gives a bunch of examples later on. So, we're in the darkest time of the year. This is the longest night, the longest nights of the year. There's no coincidence that Yseph comes out of the prison and is exalted to the highest. To Am Israel, we've had a long dark exile. We sing the song I mentioned discusses the different the different um travails the different exiles we had and ultimately we're looking forward to this exaltess this uh this being raised up from out of the darkness into the light with the Torah that we learn we should continue to go from strength to strength. >> Amen. [music] >> [singing] [singing and music] >> I am young. [music] [singing] [music] Oh, I'm young. [singing] Get [music] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing and music] N I N I [music and singing] I [singing and music] [singing] [music] [singing] posted I wanted to give him some gratitude but maybe when he gets closer I'll say some kind words. So I want to start off my friends. Oh there he is. I just want to say that you know sometimes in life people get into competitive natures but not here at Yanet. We understand that we're all in this together. they're all fighting for Jewish consciousness and Jewish identity together. So when I approached Poston about I don't know a year ago um and or even less and I said I'd love to work together with you to you know spread Torah and he it was such a he he had such an openness there and we knew that we were a good a good team and it's it's a rare thing sometimes people get a little bit competitive in their own mitzvah but in Kaneka we understand that it's amish are all together here all one. So it's just such to be together they're posting here at Iban rebuilding the beta mdash together bringing the light the orig the hidden light down together. I want to start off with a interesting question and I want to bring us a new kavana that maybe none of us never knew when we light our kaneka candles. So it goes like this. We all know I hope why we light kanaka candles. What is the miracle that happened on Kaneka? The garra and shabus. Eight lines in the garra and shabas. The only source for the miracle of shabas tells us that when the makabes and theashim came and they won that war but they didn't have oil to light the right. So what happened? They lit one little candle and unbelievably, miraculously it lasted not one night but eight crazy nights. Right? That's what the Gamarra recounts. And therefore it was decreed [clears throat] to do what? to thank Hashem and to do halal. So when do we do halal? Tomorrow morning at hal. I hope you guys go a minion that really sings and does halo. When do we do well says the Rambam when we say that's our recognition of the miracles of Hashem and that's the end of the garra now my friends what was missing what mitzvah is in scum is missing is is is is strangely missing from the desript the description of the garam of what we do on Kaneka. What mitzvah of Kaneka is not in the description of the garam? >> Lighting the candle. >> Amazing. What's your name? >> Meat. Got it. Knocked it down. Exactly. What about Kaneka lighting? Why didn't the Gamarra tell us about Kaneka lighting? It's gasha, right? not mentioned in the Gamarra the to light candles. So the Rambam says we have an obligation to do halal and then the Ram says to light candles. What is he missing the Hodos? Does the Ramom hold you don't have to say Alanim? No. Later on the Ram says you have to say Alan and if you forgot it you don't have to redo it don't worry but the Ram holds of Alanim. So what is what's going on here? So says and others the is like this h when the gum says how do we express that how do we express our gratitude to hashem when we light the candles when we light the candles we're thanking Hashem for the miracles that happen on kaneka and more lighting [snorts] candles is not just a ceremony, a ritual. It's an expression of our gratitude to in fact say if you lit your candles but for some strange reason you didn't come to the sh and you didn't know that lighting candles is an expression of gratitude you're missing the there's even some who say that you weren't m your mitzvah says if you just light the mitzvah like every other mitzvah to fulfill a mitzvah like I wrapped film to fulfill a mitzvah. I put on scissors to fulfill a mitzvah. Very nice. If I did that for I don't I don't fulfill my mitzvah because the whole idea is you have to be thinking thank you Hashem thinking thank you. You don't have to do that specific niggan. You think whatever nan you prefer but you have to think thank you or you don't fulfill your mitzvah. Now I'm not going to we're not pasking that but according to the of lighting the candles is to express your gratitude. The candle lighting is an expression of gratitude. By the way now we understand another garra says one who lights candles he will have but a lot of people like candles people like chabas candles. people like candles not everyone's have [laughter] so the son of the sag no was his name he says you know what it means because most people don't realize that when you light candles you have to be thinking I thank you they're not thinking that kavana but if you think that kavana if your life is full of gratitude your children will become that's Pretty good. No, it's good. You guys came tonight. Now you know. Now you know. Point is that gratitude is a fundamental element of Kaneka. Okay? Without gratitude, you're missing the icker of Kaneka. On that note, I want to ask you guys maybe the most famous question. I don't I don't want to say in all of Judaism but certainly the bas's most famous question the habo asks >> was only seven days >> ah very good so mayor knows the question we know that the the candle was supposed to last one day but ultimately it ended up lasting eight days who's good at math eight it was supposed to last one day it ended up lasting eight days how many days should we celebrate Kaneka >> seven days seven days of miracles So why do we celebrate 8 days? Now I know you all have your own answers because there are at least 500 answers. I'm not exaggerating. There's a book 500 answers on this one question. There's many many beautiful answers on this question. In fact, I would say it's not even a suda. If you don't ask this question, you have to ask this question. Okay, the bas basiosis question. Why is Kaneka 8 days? It should really be seven days. But my favorite answer maybe by the end of tonight's year it'll be your favorite answer is the answer of the altar of quoted in many also Mosha Feinstein give this answer says why do we celebrate eight days because seven days are celebrating the miracle that the oil lasted seven miraculous nights that it shouldn't have lasted but there's one night that we're not celebrating the fact that of there was a miracle Allah rather what are we celebrating the fact that when I light my candle or my lighter somehow miraculously a fire happens that itself is a miracle the fact that I could light a little bit of an oil like our dosa teaches us that's a miracle nature is a miracle so the first seven days of Kaneka they're celebrating miracles may Allah but the eighth night of Kaneka Kaneka is celebrating the miracles that happen every day which we forget that they're a miracle but they're mamish a miracle. That's the answer of the altar of like the famous story of the malim. One night the malim wakes up his children at 4 in the morning. He says kind wake up. Wake up. At 4 in the morning he wakes them all up. They're all groggy. He gets them all up and he points up and he says, "Kinder, it's a miracle. The sun rises." Unbelievable. Unbelievable. You should all be to do that. That's that's that's the the teaching of the BF that m that nature itself is a miracle. Who says that there's something called photosynthesis? Who says there something called the rain cycle, the what do they call it? a water cycle and the clouds and the moisture and they evaporate and then they come down and there's a respiration system and all these crazy system that that should just happen. It's totally a miracle. It's totally unbelievable. And we get one extra day where we we we focus on that. And that's and that's and that's the answer of the why we celebrate 8 days not seven days. And after you heard that beautiful answer, I'm gonna ruin it for you guys, okay? Because here's a problem. What about sukus? What are we celebrating on sukus? We're celebrating the clouds of glory, right? So wait a second. Maybe we shouldn't celebrate eight days of sukus. We should celebrate nine days of sukus. Eight days of the clouds of glory and another day clouds. Aren't clouds also a miracle? We shouldn't do another day. [laughter] Yeah. Pes right okay maybe instead of celebrating seven days of Pes we celebrate another day the water itself water itself and a sea it's miraculous so per like why specifically do we go out of our way to add an extra day >> because it says in the Torah >> yeah maybe we should do an extra day to celebrate the the miracle that nature itself you know that the thing itself is also We do celebrate the last day for the year >> but we may do an extra day. We we celebrate the we celebrate the miracles. We should celebrate the not miracles just like at Kaneka. So why in Kaneka do we also celebrate the not miracles maybe perhaps a second day that we can breathe in the first place. It's very nice the drasha that the nature itself is a miracle. Ramban says from the small miracles of life we can learn the big miracles of the supernatural very nice but then why don't we do that every holiday you hear you hear the kasha I don't mean to ruin all of our nice drushes but don't worry I'm going to give you a good answer by the end of it okay so says Rabbi Gladstein our holy rabbi like this the essence of kaneka is tapping in to the supernatural within the natural What do we mean by that? We know that when God created the world, he created with 10 words of creation, 10 emanations. But really, according to the Kabala, there's 10 cabalistic cphirote emanations, right? So, what is the eighth emanation? I'll give it away. Hod. What does h mean? Okay. So is in contrast to what's the difference between and means >> is the inner >> exactly the M says is beauty on the external mahaj is the internal spiritual beauty. Okay. And on we tap into our own. We tap into hold. We tap into the rashi lmer. What's hold? What's the essence of hold? Hold is recognizing the beauty, the inner dimensions of beauty. And that's exactly the opposite of the Greeks. What do the Greeks hold? Anything on an external level that we can see with science, with science, that's what we believe. If it's physically beautiful, oh that that we respect. But if you can't prove it, it's a bunch of bubble mices of the rabbis that we don't we don't believe in. That's the Greeks. So what's Kaneka? The opposite is telling the whole idea is to tap into recognize that there's an inner dimension of reality. There's a kadesh. Why is there the clouds and the and the rain cycle? Not because of what your biology taught you in teacher taught you in eighth grade. The rain cycle. It's called the schma cycle. You do mitzvah, God does good for you. You do a you get punished. That's how God creates the world. That's the essence of everything. And when do we feel that? We feel it on Kaneka is when we tap into that real reality the opposites of the Greek is and so yes it's always true but to do the Hashem to be go over nature Dava is about is about the inner beauty. From the inner beauty, we can make mahad and mahad. We can make everything beautiful by recognizing that that everything is really a miracle. And that if if it's raining outside, it's only because of the mitzvah we do. And we don't see that on a physical level. We're not going to see that. But that's why we have to tap into our muna. That's what Kaneka is there to tap much more deeply into our muna. That's the whole idea of Kaneka. We're when when we all feel tonight that everything is from Hashem that every little thing that happens to us from Hashem. There's no other night that's stronger than on the headquarters of Kaneka than tonight to cap tap into the the headquarters of if you think about it that's the whole idea of why we celebrate the the the candle that lasted eight nights. Let me put it differently and then we'll take a song break. Okay? Cuz a lot more stories to say. Maybe I'll take a story break and then a song break. We'll figure it out. But the point is, [clears throat] what were you just talking about? I lost my train of thought. The candles. Okay. So, what's the bigger miracle? What are we celebrating Kaneka for? The fact that we beat the Greeks, the world superpower, or the fact that a candle lasted not one night, but eight nights. What are we actually celebrating? >> Everyone's entitled to their opinion. I'm going to tell you the Maharal's opinion. The Maharal says for sure it's beating the Greeks. For sure it's a military miracle. There's no question. We wouldn't be sitting here celebrating thousands of years later a little miracle that happened anyway to you didn't really need the the miracle of of it lasting 8 days. We would have been okay without it. There's been many many many more miracles in Jewish history. Much bigger or smaller. There's been thousands and thousands of miracles. So, we're celebrating the fact that we beat the Greeks and that we're still alive today. So, then what do we what's why why do the rabbis not even mention the miracle of beating the Greeks in the garra? Why do they draw all of our attention to the miracle of the candles? Because that's the whole point that we may have thought in fact solvate with the lighting of the candle walls until the the end of the second beta mikdash until the beginning until the bet mdash was destroyed. After the beta mash is destroyed the rabbi decreed we have to celebrate it through the lighting of the candles because people were going to forget. People were going to start saying oh we won the war it was just natural. Yeah, we had good soldiers. Oh, 1948, like they claim today, yeah, the Zionists were just good fighters. Oh, 67 it was just, you know, we had excellent tanks or people make up all sorts of stuff and we were forgetting the miraculous nature of what Hashem did for us. So, come the rabbis and reminded us that the military war was actually a miracle from Hashem. And how do they remind us of that miracle? Through the miracle of the oil. Through that little miracle of the supernatural, we remember that all of the the the war natural was really from aesh. You understand the point of the candles, why we highlight the candles, why we don't light little G.I. Joe robots shooting one another, but rather we light the candles to say that that the stress is yes, of course, it's fighting for the Jewish people, but [clears throat] who gave us the strength to fight our enemies? and who ultimately allowed us to beat our enemies. It was the miracles of don't forget that and that's why we need to put the stress on the spiritual nature on on on the lighting of the candles because we were forgetting that that that military victory was really you understand. So the that the that the the miracle of the oil is there to remind us that the military victory was ultimately from and at the same time was a tag team because we were moer nephish. We held Hashem's hand and Hashem got us through it and let us win the war. It was it was a tag team. You understand? So it's both. Okay. So, so Khan is a time we tap into recognizing we tap into recognizing that all those things within nature are really supernatural. Very supernatural. Yeah. Question. I don't know where the answer is but regarding the [cough] [clears throat] is there a specific >> I think that on a very specific level we should be have in mind that Alanim specifically what happened in the era of Kaneka beating the Greeks but of course as we're talking all out the idea is to take from that one event and bring it into our personal lives and more and more gratitude the better right I'll give you a good formula formula what's 6040 so I'll tell you a story that I heard from Gladstein about the bells the rebu is it gur I think it's rebur Reba, there's once a a man named Usher and Usher was going through some hard times. He had to [clears throat] marry off five of his girls and get the mash. You know how expensive that is in your you know it's very expensive and [clears throat] he was very stressed out about this. Not only that, but he was the of his friend who also needed to marry off his daughter and he had to pay off his debts. He's very stressed out. So he went before the Reb. He said, "Reba, I need your help. I need a Yeshua. Help me out here." So the Reb goes to him and says, "Are you dven?" He says, "Rebacu that I haven't been crying for the last two years." Of course, I've been dabbing. So the Reb says, "Okay, very good. But but are you dabbing?" So he says, "Maybe he's not good in his hearing. Reba, I'm dabbing all day. Everywhere I go, I'm just dabbing. I'm I'm des I can't think of anything except my daughters. I need to marry them off. I I need help. So the Reb says, "Okay, but are you dabbing?" [laughter] So the guy says, "I'm confused. Can you help me out? I I don't know what you want for me." So he says, says the Reb, "Davening doesn't just mean asking for stuff. Are you also thanking Hashem?" He says, "I mean, I'm just too stressed out. I can't really think of what's good in my life. I I'm just I'm the Reb says, you know, when we say hal, we have four anashems." But you know how many hoodus we have? Six. >> Six hus. So 60% of the time you have to be thanking Hashem. And then the other 40% of the time you can be asking. That's davenining. Davening is thanking 60% of the time. And then you can also ask. So that's what the rabb taught us. You always have to be starting with gratitude. That's the that's and it all begins on. So of course we start from the the miracles like the Ramban says and we go into the specific things that we have to be thankful for. Once you start re start focusing in on the blessings in our lives, we're just going to feel more and more and more blessing. And we're going to hardly even uh feel like we need anything. And we're going to start seeing that the miracles are going to flow into our lives like like the book, thank Hashem and see miracles, right? Like Raarish writes, and when you thank Hashem, you're going to see miracles. So that's what happens. That's mamish. What's going to happen to all of us right here? We're going to start thanking Hashem and we're going to start seeing unbelievable blessings and it all begins on Kaneka Hashem. So, let's sing a niggan um and um one story and then we'll do one more story and then we'll get niggan. There's once a man and uh he did a kittish. So, they come up to him true story. He says, "What are you doing kittish for? You see that that block over there? Last week I walked down the block. I got hit by a car. I was taken to the hospital and unbelievably I'm okay. It's a miracle. The next week they get another kdish cholin the whole the works. So they asked the guy what's what's your story? Why are you making a kdish? What's up? He says you see that block over there? I've been walking through it 20 years. And I've never been hit by a car. [laughter] Unbelievable. So, you know, it's all about what what you focus on. You know, there's miracles all all around us. The question is what do we focus on? Yeah. [music] One miracle. My tune my guitar is not so out of tune. [singing] [music] I [singing] [music] [singing and music] give my [singing] body and I [singing and music] Oh, I broke [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing and music] I [singing] love [singing] it. And when I die, I [music] [singing] give my [singing] [music] la. [singing] [music] [singing] 99. [music] [singing] [music] I never I [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] ke I'll try to get to the point. I want to highlight um two more aspects of Kaneka lighting uh for us tonight. The second element that I want to draw our attention to is is a beautiful of the has an atomic and the says like this says I and the child are going to go until yonder until co says what does it mean that really was alluding to the fact that me and we're going to meet up at what does that mean it means where does get the k of ms nesh of self sacrifice for is we get our energy from Kaneka all of those fighters the last couple of years and even tonight thousands of putting their lives on the line to protect us from terrorists thousands of yen each in their own way for Jewish people is through the when he was at the he was willing to give his life but he continued to live his life with kesm that's the source of the and that's the source of all of them serious for the Jewish people which gave us the strength of Kaneka. So Kaneka is [clears throat] a night you know there's somewhere at a Kavana before you light the candles imagine the Mcabes running to fight their enemies outnumbered. Imagine those in 1948 Holocaust survivors willing to die, not scared of death, willing to fight their enemies so that we would be here in Arit Israel. That is what we're tapping into in Kaneka. Now, not everyone here is going to be joining the Israeli army, but each one of us in our own way can be Moer Nephesh for Yiddishkite. Sometimes it's not easy to be a yid. Every single one of us has our own challenges. But is the time we tap into that messes and it gives us that strength for the rest of our lives. I'll tell you two stories. Bring that home. There was a boy and it was he was escaping the Nazis and somehow they had gotten a passport and a fake passport of course and they were on their way on the last train riding away from the Nazis. But the Nazis were going to check their passports one last time and they're very nervous. They're very scared. But it also happened to be Kaneka. And there was one boy, true story, this is inraver stand miracles, one of my favorite books. And he had a pack of candles and lights. He was still yearning to light Kaneka candles. He knew it was Kaneka, but he also knew that it was dangerous on that train if a Nazi would catch them. O. So he's yearning for it, but he knew that he couldn't do it. And then there was a blackout and all the electricity went out on the train. And right at that moment, Yasi took his candle out when everything was totally dark and he lit nine candles. Eight candles for the eight nights of Kaneka and a Shamish. And right at that moment when he lit the candles, he heard the Nazis running stomping and they get onto the train and they say passports cuz this smart kid had litten candles so they actually could see the passports. They went over to the kid and they said not not in that language. They said great great thinking that you're always bringing traveling candles just in case. And we were able to check the passports. So I gave him a, you know, a high five. And this kid was able to light Kaneka candles because he was yearning for it. True story. But there's many other stories which are not as happy of Yidden during the Holocaust and Awitz, many different camps who gave their lives, who did everything to light Kaneka candles. We all saw the video of hers and thera lighting kanaka candles in aza the katuim. In our generation we can never imagine such a thing but people bring mister nefes to light candles. So before you light your second second kavana besides being grateful of course just think about all those yen throughout all the generations who are willing to sacrifice everything to be a Jew. We could think about that and uh and and be so proud that we're here in you know through a lot of my nephesh for some of us and uh to try to tap into the wellsp springsings of my nephesh and ask hashem to give us clarity what does that mean in my own practical vote how can I be mister nephesh a little bit more so let's sing one more niggan I want to give one more idea of One, a third kavana and a last kavana [music] for marav. Okay, just sing it again. Get ourselves in the mood. [singing and music] [singing] [music] Hey [singing] [music] honey, [music] [singing] [music] I need [singing] [music] [singing] [music] the Lord. Honey, [singing] honey. [music] Heaven [singing and music] [singing] [music] [singing] na [music and singing] [singing] na. >> [music] >> Hey n [singing] hey [music] [singing] [music] [singing] Hey [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] there. [singing and music] There go. [singing] I'm better. [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing and music] >> [singing] [music] [singing] [music] >> Okay, one personal story I have to share. So about uh I think 17 years ago I was in the army [music] and it was my first Kaneka in the army and I was very very excited to light candles with myra and a strong religious group. I was one of the leaders of the spiritual [music] singing. I was very excited for Kaneka. And so uh we had a shift [music] and uh I was supposed to uh be at a regular shift. All was good. I was excited. And then [music] sometimes it happens. There's a a switch a switch in the shift. [music] And I woke up. I I had taken a nap cuz I had done like an all nighter the night before. And I I quickly woke up and someone said, "Get up. Get up. It's your time for a shift." And I said, "What do you mean? My shift's later." They said, "Get up right now. There's a switch." Said, [music] "Get up." And I realized that I basically had a choice to make [music] because it was Arab Shabas. So I could either light candles, but if I lit candles, I would be late for my shift. I'd come 3 minutes late. It wouldn't be the end of the world. And [music] I was looking so forward to lighting Hanukkah candles. At least I light Hanukkah candles. I'd run there and I'd run. I'd be 3 minutes late. Not the end of the world. 5 minutes late. Big deal. Then I thought to myself, what am I doing? [music] The whole idea of the lighting is to remind us what is it is to fight for the Jewish people. [music] And here I have a chance to come to my shift on time and I'm going to come late to light a candle to symbolize that we should fight. I'm going to go fight. So I went to my shift. I was moer nephesh a little bit. I told my friend, his name is Guy. He said, "Guy, light me. Light for me. Have me in mine." And he did. He had me in mind. So I didn't like Hanukkah candles, but he but he had me in mind cuz they're all one. So I think I [music] made the right decision. We have to find the right balance. To find the right balance for me, my serious nation was to not light that [music] Kaneka. >> But I lit. But I lit. Exactly. Okay. One last one last third kavana and the last one for tonight. So everybody knows It's about seeing it's about seeing the lights of the Kaneka candle. And teaches when you look at the Kaneka candles, everyone knows say you have to look at least a half hour at the Kaneka candles, you look at the Kaneka candles, you fix your eyes, you do the tikun of the n, you do the tikun of the moraglin. So what does a mean? It means that sometimes we look like she looked at the food in order to derive pleasure benefit. You look at it what can I get from that but in Kaneka we learn to look not because we want to get something from the light. We look at the light because it's beautiful. We look at the light because we love it. We look at it with Messiah eyes. We look at like the eyes of a mother of a father who looks at her children not because I want to get something out of it like Hashem looks at God's always looking at because he loves and says when you look at the lights you fix your eyes and you start learning how to look at Israel not what is it good or is it bad like the moraglin Not judging it but deciding to love it. And in our para we always have the story of Ysef and the brothers in Kaneka. The brothers looked at Ysef Mir. They looked at him from afar. They looked at him not like a brother. They looked at him. They judged him. And that's why Ysef accuses them being moraglin. Says a moragel is someone who doesn't look put Hashem into the picture. He looks at him, he judges. But someone who always puts Hashem into the picture can never really view someone as pure evil because he sees in he sees in the picture. [clears throat] And so Hashem should bless us that he should fix our eyes to only see the good in our only see the good in everything that happens in our lives that everything's from and maybe most importantly to only see the good in one another to start having eyes to start having the eyes to only see the to start seeing souls within one another and that's what's happening when we look at the candles of Kanak it's fixing our eyes to only see the good and it's all related. We see the good in Hashem. We see the good init. We see the good in one another. And we start seeing the bad. We start seeing the bad in everything. So Hashem should bless us to fix our eyes to only see the good in one another and everything that happens being from end with one niggan. Three kavanas, gratitude, a serious snafish and only sing good to one another. [singing and music] [music and singing] I [singing] [singing and music] am I Nal. 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