Yesod Hateshuva #2 - "Casting Away Your Sins" - How To Start Over

this Tower class is brought to you by torahanytime.com and welcome everyone salam alaikum we continue in the estate hachuva of Rabino Yana and Robin began and let's begin we want to thank the sponsor of the series Joseph uh the fat the Saka family in honor of the 50th yard safe Ben Salim Joseph we're continuing in the usaid achuva robin says Jewish people return cause others to return from all your sins let it not let your sin no longer be a stumbling block when you cast off all of your avarice and make for yourself a new heart and a new spirit why should you die so we're learning now there's a new kind of chuva and that is why ravenuyano quotes and this new chuva says you could throw away your average and not only do you throw away your videos you make for yourself a new heart and a new spirit so a what does it mean to throw away your average the radak says it refers to harata but we're going to see that Robin has a completely different interpretation of this kind of chuva what does it mean to make a new spirit and this is probably the most important technique that we could use when it comes to chuva because as we're going to learn this type of chuva is addressed to someone not someone who sins occasionally not to someone who sins regularly this is talking to someone who is overloaded with sin someone who is immersed in sin perhaps us and such a person feels very dirty and very sullied and very overwhelmed says who committed a misdeed he may have sinned unintentionally he sold sinned rebelliously CI to the point where his sin elevated up to the Pinnacle of Heaven meaning he has sinned egregiously but a spirit of Purity entered his heart you know he says yes I've sinned I've committed wrongdoing I acted improperly but I would like to improve myself he places in his heart to repentance and take refuge under the wings of the skin of the shrina foreign so what inspired him if you look in the second shower of talks about six motivations to do chuva but before he introduces the six motivations to do chuva he he says even without a particular specific motivation one should one should do chuva just thinking about our College the memory the remembrance of should be enough to inspire someone to do chuva a if somebody had this inspiration to come under the wings of the screen and now sister of Goldberg come under the wings of the shrina that means the person was cast away from the wings of the srina that means we're talking about someone whose sins so egregiously he lost his share in the world to come what is the world to come what's the world to come the world to come is Basking under the wings of the shrina so if this person is looking to come back under wings that means the person has sinned so egregiously that he's lost his share in the world to come but even so there's still a method that he could do chuva now if Goldberg brings a very very interesting and beautiful discussion about this phraseology under the wings of the srina because he quotes that when somebody says he should not say because the souls of the Jews are above the wings of the srina only gerim are under the wings of the shrina now that itself is the soul of a convert and the soul of a native Jew will not end up in the same place that's a big but the shlust says don't say under the wings of the shrina because only gerim are under the wings of Israel gamor is above the wings of ashina the uh of David gold Goldberg brings from the margolius hayam and Sanhedrin who brings from the vines that in the illah we say what do you mean that's a Pella under the wings of the srinah only the garam are there asks also asks we say yes that were protected under the wings of the screen so it seems like the vinay saskar says that yeah the real reward is above the wings of the but the protection when we talk about being protected by that the reference to that is under the wings of the shrina so says if Goldberg what the what the rabbin means is that so long as a person has sinned he's not protected by the special and in any event this person who has sinned egregiously his his sins have risen up to the heavens he wants to enter the pathways of chuva says I will Enlighten you uh which Road you should take you ready everybody fasten your seatbelts we're now going to learn how even the most wicked can overcome their fear and apprehension and feeling of dirtiness to do chuba [Music] on that day what does that mean on that day not tomorrow don't wait till tomorrow once you have it in your head you're gonna do chuba you have to do chuba that day you can't wait there's no waiting there's no waiting like we know the mauritian Hashem said oh yes so the matter says the word and now refers to chuva cinema theaters the word means now it doesn't mean foreign says well actually the principle of chuva is now because we all know what we need to do we all know okay we have to wake up early to serve Hashem we have to learn every day we have to be careful what we say what we think what we look at we all know what we need to do our problem is I know what I need to do that's why I'm going to start tomorrow I'm going to start you know it's so it's so anti-class it's so anti-climactic undramatic to start doing juvenile middle of Ella like what are you doing it's not here or there either you start you start Rosh Hashanah I'm going to start Rosh Hashanah actually I'm going to start Yom Kippur actually you know what I'm going to start Hashanah rabba I'm going to start chanukkah there's a banana sauce I'm going to start on rabi shaila's yard site we know exactly when we know exactly what we need to do the only thing is we're doing it tomorrow we're always pushing it off till tomorrow we have so many great ideas of things that we want to do but we're doing them all tomorrow on that day I almost don't want to start this yet because it needs like a full it needs a beginning of the share but we can't wait on that day yes throw away your sins foreign now what does that mean how do you throw away your sins so Goldberg means says it means you stop sinning on that day stop sinning and throw away your sins and May and have in mind you're never going to do it again if I may humbly disagree I don't think that's what Robin Williams means throw away your sins take your sins and throw them in the trash how do you do that he says make it as if you were born on that day is now I don't understand I heard about chuva where you throw away sins now there's a kind of chuva where you throw away a mid slice why are you throwing away Mitzvahs what's wrong with the guy he's throwing away mid-spice he's not going to get rewarded if somebody regrets doing him and so he's not reward from him it's how can you throw away the mid slice this because because today is the first day of your actions is make believe that you were born on that day by the way the nepheim writes person's better off not being created now that you created your massive investigate your actions says means a person always has to consider himself as if he was born now and he never lived before now this is very unusual what's happening talking about sir Goldberg says you throw away your sins you stop sinning but I don't think that's what he means I don't think that's what he means when he says you throw away your sins I think he means that he you use the following psychological trick and that is for a person who's sinned egregiously and repeat and re repeatedly and he feels very dirty and he feels sullied and he feels that everything he does is Habitual he has no motivation to do Shiva because he doesn't think he could get out of the rut however who gave a special tool let's call it the introduction to chuva and that introduction is I could say you know what let bygones be bygones actually not only did I never do a Navara I never even did a Mitzvah in my life now why would you throw away your mid-spice you're not throwing away your midst because you're not even throwing away your others what you're doing is new start news today's a new start I what do you mean but you're gonna have to pay for all your averas Avada we're gonna get back to that but I need to start the process I need to want to do chuva before I could start thinking about correcting my past Deeds I need to want to do chuva and to want to do chuva I have to have a certain feeling like okay um this is a new beginning New Beginning I'm 57 years old I have 50 billionaveros my nashama is black like somebody who's been a chain smoker right imagine so as a chain smoker the guy the the goes to the uh pulmonologist the guy says your lungs look like you know a chimney you know if I if I stuck my hand down my hands would be contaminated forever so why would somebody like that do chuva he's not a guy like that imagine if the pulmonologist you know your lungs are like a chimney so that that's not very motivating to stop smoking let's say he says you know and if you stop smoking you're probably gonna live another three and a half minutes so the guy who said I might as well smoke with the next three and a half minutes so it's the same thing with shoes if somebody feels dirty he has to be able to feel like he was born today so here's the question but a person wasn't born today and he didn't yet do chuva for his misdeeds apparently the navi is giving us a prophetic message for my brothers that it's within human capacity at any time in life to say starting now we're starting now once we're starting now we'll we'll deal with past later we're gonna have to deal with it there's no escaping the past but we can't even want to deal with it until we could have that new beginning so you said why do you have to throw away your mid-spice because if you don't throw away your midsole well you say I'm born today with a billion mid-spice and no avails that's a fake then you're not born today if you gotta fake yourself out for real in other words if you're if you're gonna go with this mode of the navi khadasa you got to go with it and if you're going to go with it that means you have to say no mid-spice and no other rice that's how I understand I don't think yeah means okay today no no you're psychologically casting it away in a way where nothing ever happened before I'm not gonna deal with it right now by the way as your opinion we'll we'll say we'll see you tomorrow because he says if you don't throw away your aveiro is the heaviness of the averos will frighten you he doesn't say the heaviness of the averos will make it that you're like being toy velvets now it will frighten you you won't even want to go into the Mikvah in the first place you're not even going to want you can be frightened okay let's continue this more tomorrow you've just experienced another Torah class brought to you byctoranytime.com