Women's Sukkos Class: Why Did the Most Revered Sages Juggle Torches while they Danced on Sukkos?

there's one source sheet if you didn't take it yet there's more on the beima so please take your Source sheet today's class is dedicated by Donna Amira with prayers for peace in Jerusalem and the holy land and the safe return of all the hostages and the protection of all of the Jewish and ID IDF soldiers honoring the memory of Gabriel Gabriel Salman Nissim and sulana Amira and Samuel H and Donna baruk thank you very very much and amain to all your blessings I also want to make a special mention I received a uh a voice note from a young man his name is Yakov and he told me that he was on the border of Lebanon and he was going in with his friends to Lebanon and he said his phone is now going to be off and he can't specify where he's going and why he's going and what he's doing he said he'll tell that to me when he comes to visit face to face but not on the phone but he told me that him and a bunch of his friends over there they listen to the sh and he says it gives them tremendous 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sukus each year in the time of the B Mikes and it's like you know as always you could just read it and it's okay it's it's nice it's Charming it seems fun when you go a little deeper into it we see like in everything in t sometimes things that seem very simple contain profound profound layers of significance one of the greatest one of the the not one of the greatest celebration during the year was known Asim literally means Sim's Joy B means the homea means to draw like is a water carrier water somebody who draws water what was this about so we know that every single morning in the B they would pour wine on the altar was part of the service but during the day of during the holiday of it was a special Mitzvah known as the pouring of the water water libations for this there was a prey that took place every single morning at dawn break it's very early in the morning could be around 5: in the morning 5:30 in the morning before Sunrise they would go down from the Temple Mount from the arabas to a well maybe maybe some of you have been at that well spring it's called shilak the shilak Spring the shal spring is on the bottom of the harabas it's in a section today no known as IR David the city of David and uh draw water from there early early in the morning and bring back come back with a pray back up the slope to the Temple mount to the harabas and then this Ava was done with pouring of the water in the morning on the M on the altar in the bikes but a whole night before this prayed there was dancing and it's called because the dancing was all about the which is the drawing of the water like the P says we say it in you should draw water with joy from the wells Springs of Salvation so this was the joy that used to happen and it was dancing literally a whole night so all the Jews that came to Jerusalem from all over ER or wherever else they came from on sukus which was one of the three holidays that they would make the pilgrimage to Jerusalem so they would all participate whoever wanted in this all night dancing and then after that in the morning they would go down and take the water and bring it back they would blow the trumpets and Scher and then pour the water and this was the exciting experience of to the point that the gor says in su wasua he was one of the greatest sages of the time and he was also a Ley and he was part of the MU he was one of the musicians or vocalists in the second B his name was Rua and he once said it's quoted that when we celebrated we did not sleep we did not taste this taste of sleep why he said because in the morning the first thing there was What's called the the morning offering which was done right by sunrise and we went to theik and then we went to Dak and then we went back CU they offered the mus offering because it's the holiday so it's a special then we went back to DAV mus and then from there we went to learn and then from there we went to eat and drink and then from there was already time to go do and the second offering the Ted offering and then it was dancing a whole night so says nobody slept so the gor says how could people not sleep for seven days it's physically not possible so he says when they were dancing they would fall asleep on each other's shoulders while they danced they took a little snooze but this just he's just describing the power of but there's one detail in this that for some reason our sages highlight and explain and elaborate even though at the surface it would seem that it was nice and cute and certainly charming and fun but would wouldn't seem that it would have been an essential part of it but nonetheless they make it as a very essential part of it so let's see inside this is Suka that's the trct Suka which is dedicated to suas page 51 a mish the Mish says M we have it in the Hebrew and I also took from Safar an English translation one who did not see the celebration of the place of the drawing of the water never saw Sim in their entire life which is a very Grand statement know if you did not see this you never saw what joy is you never saw What happiness is person could say I saw I was at other occasions I experienced other things they said no if you did not see this you never saw this was the greatest and he starts describing it had began on the first day the the first night after the first day of yam because was done with musical instruments and they used to light fires Etc so therefore it was done after yam meaning the first what we would call the first night remember so there's only one day of suus the first day so that night they would go down y they would go down to the EZ which is the whole section of the harabas which was designated for the women to come they would repair it they were large candas made of gold that were Litt the light of the candelabras was so bright there was not a courtyard in Jerusalem that was not illuminated from the light of the in other words the Manas were so tall and so Grand and there was so much light that they ignited that night that the whole Yim was lit up and it was not a that was not bright you're talking about the middle of the night from this literally means Pious ones Pious people an are people of action people of positive action in other words people who are who are involved in doing good things so these were great great people they would dance in front of all the people all the guests means is a torch is fire light fire so they had flaming torches and they would dance with them juggling them they would juggle these torches and they would say before all the people passages of song and praise to Hashem this is what the mishna says what does it mean they were dancing with torches of fire they were just holding them so the gor will explain it was so bright that a woman would be able to sort Wheat by the light of one of the processes was people obviously had grain from which they would bake bread or whatever they wanted to bake so there was the Sorting of the wheat to separated it from Pebbles or from or from dirt or from filth or from Earth or whatever it is or the chaff the chaff from the kernel so it was you need light it was so light that the woman could be which is a very interesting expression they said about when he was dancing when he was rejoicing in this Joy he would take eight flaming torches of fire eight torches that's not just candles a torch is of course many Wicks together to create a torch so it's a large flame so he would take eight different ones he would toss one of them up catch another one in other words juggle them so each one was tossed and then caught and another one was tossed and it was eight and even though they were all in the ear at the same time they would not touch each other this was the feet of great Ley one of the great sages Le he would walk before rebi re juggling eight knives eight knives he juggled next would juggle before King shapur one of the Virg Kings eight glasses of wine without spilling them I don't know how but he did it would jugle before at eggs eight eggs and you know we don't want an egg to fall somebody's going to have to clean it some say it was four eggs wasn't so dramatic what do we see here here we see here something very interesting this was a celebration obviously of sukus it was a celebration of Jewish love and unity it was a celebration of and the question is as follows why was the juggling of the Torches such a highlight in to the point that it occupies such a space that when the mishna wants to describe what happened this aspect made its way in and it's described as being done by and by the whole was obviously a was a was a Divine Joy it was a joy of the dwelling in the especially in theik but apparently this aspect was so essential or so innate or so intrinsic that the miss and the gamor highlighted in other words I understand that when uh you know there's a joy somebody a juggler may come and start juggling you know it adds to gak it adds to the Delight but here we see that this was no this was planned this was almost an essential indispensable part of it to the point that the mishna which is very very brief and concise and just highlights the most important things in brings out this point like this was what had to be done it wasn't just somebody having fun not only that you see who did it meant the greatest of the great especially who was he was the spiritual leader of the entire Jewish nation was the N of the sanedrin the Sanhedrin was the body of 71 sages ordained person to person to person back to M raenu who ordained the first 70 sages the first 70 elders and and every generation you had a body of 71 people and they were like the the spiritual leaders of the Jewish people is known as the Sanhedrin until it was until it was abolished it simply couldn't be maintained once the Exile became so intense and everybody was scattered all over the world because the Sanhedrin really requires that concentration and the training and being in one place so who was in the Sanhedrin M was the head of the Sanhedrin in his generation next year's Yeshua bon in that generation of shim was the head of the it's called the Nasi the Nasi like the president the leader so essentially this was the person H Nasi is like a son oh Nasi okay n no his name is NS no May so of course came from the dynasty of Hill his father was all the way back to hak who was also the head of the Sanhedrin sadly lived during the time of theb and he was one of the he was Mur murdered by the Romans on yipper there's a whole poem known as a es where we talk about the murder of the killing how they murdered but you're talking about and but it was was a very very intense story this was the person so when you were looking for a jugler who did they get it's like get here so imagine you know here's literally the spiritual greatest giant of the Jewish people and what is he doing he's busy juggling he's not giving he's not just dancing he's the juggler and how many torches eight torches all of this demonstrates that the juggling was not just some charming fun thing you know so you get some the to give some entertainment but the fact that the mishna mentions it the gar mentions it it's from the few things we know indicates that this was somehow a very significant part of the joy now I could understand the other things I can understand lighting the manous you need light when it's dark it's very hard to have a a meaningful time you know it's pitch dark so we understand light creates momentum it creates Joy it creates passion it creates togetherness which is the reason instituted the whole Mitzvah of lighting shabas candles by the women and the girls in order to be able to have a meal with light so that we could understand of course the pouring of the water that was the Mitzvah but here it seems like this aspect of juggling was so important so Central so Central that who's doing it all the everybody's watching them do it one of the it's called there was a Jew his name was from he wrote very beautiful commentaries on medish so he writes over here he says I don't understand why why why this why these tricks are being discussed here and this is what they were involved in and he he he believed that it was it's a metaphor that's how much he was bothered by this question of why in the bikes on sukus at this holy moment this becomes the Highlight to the point that the sage has turn it into such a spectacular element of it and he therefore he he believes it may be just a metaphor but I'm showing you how difficult people had a how hard it was for them to understand [Music] this another very interesting thing is it seems like they weren't just juggling at it seems like this became part of their life throughout the whole year cuz theor brings stories about four people le le now here you're talking about the greatest sages Ley was a student of and he wanted to entertain his teacheri suffered from illness so what would he do he would throw eight knives now you have to know what you're doing with a knife I mean even with other with fire as well the knife Falls so he was juggling King eight knives in order to entertain rasi now again rasi was considered the prince of the Jewish people he's the editor of the mishna so how is he going to entertain him I have a for you I'm G to juggle eight knives Shmo is considered one of the greatest sages of his time he was the head of the yes of in Babylonia present day Iraq SCH said that the Pathways in heaven are as are as clear to me as the pathways of nard you say like the Pathways in heaven are as clear to you as the as forche or the 59 that's what a great astronomer he was he was a physician he was one of the greatest leaders of the time and he would juggle eight cups of wine and thees is not a drop of wine would spill they weren't clothed bottles they were eight eight glasses of wine and they didn't spill it's not like he caught them that's also a feat none of them spilled Rashi says not a drop of wine spilled again I don't know how I don't know how you do that how do you juggle eight cups of wi I don't even know how you throw up one cup of wine without wine spilling some people even when just pick up the bottle to pour Kish to already wine spills all over the place especially on PES but uh but that's what he did and then you have abay abay is considered there's not not a single page in gamar almost that doesn't mention his name so in front of Raa who was his colleague but also they always argued he does eight eggs so I understand this is it certainly juggling is a lot of fun but you see who's doing the juggling here you're talking about literally the greatest sages of the time abay Ley what is the meaning of this what is this apparently the sages saw in this they saw in it's something so special Grand spectacular and again if it was just something fun that happened okay so why you mentioning it so it happened the mishna puts it in and who's doing it the greatest leader of the generation that means it's not just you know let's have some fun oh you're a good juggler come andain the finally if you look in the last Source this is talking about a wedding how would they dance at weddings the last Source they said about would take a a Myrtle Branch what we use on sukus and he would dance in front of the bride and he would exclaim she's a beautiful a beautiful and gracious right rud was also one of the greatest sages of his day he would go to weddings he had a Hadas he would dance in front of the kala with a Myrtle branch and say but now comes the next one the son of said no we don't use one Myrtle Branch he would dance with three juggling three had in front of the kala so the first oneuda he had one Hadas that was enough he would dance with the Hadas and say no he took three and when he took three he would juggle them again you toss one up you catch the other one you toss the other one up and they're flying and you catch each one of them and that's how he would dance in front of the Kal said he did not mince words he says this old man is humiliating us why because was considered one of the greatest sages of his day and he became now a juggler at weddings as they say the old man is humiliating us this is not for him to do why is he doing it SOA didn't like that he did this at weddings you want to dance it's a big Mitzvah Dan what are you juggling go find somebody else to juggle and then the gar continues the story when passed away there was a funeral and Abus saw that it was a pillar of fire separating the deceased and everybody else and he said I made a mistake his Insanity what I called in he says his Insanity what I called muga This is actually something that put him on a different pedestal so he actually retracted his position but you see his initial reaction was this is humiliating this is embarrassing for all of us this is not how he should behave but had no problem with these eight torches and even throughout the year the knives and the eggs and the [Music] wine and the truth is throughout the wedding throughout the generations if you ever went to a a wedding in the stle if you ever went to a wedding in the stle or in the mle or other stles the juggling still exists in theel this used to be a big highlight where the jugglers would come they had this whole system but where did it start it started from so here we're going to see how really the kazal are sages in this brief description of are really expressing something extremely profound about life and that is why it was precisely who did it it wasn't a mistake that they took the N of the Sanhedrin to do the juggling this wasn't just oh he happened to know how to juggle it was like one of his talents you know on his resume he was also a juggler leyo but but this was a very profound experience physically it was very entertaining no question and it was enthralling and it was captivating and it was dramatic as when anybody juggles at torches of fire like your son however in addition to that it it captured it embodied a very profound message that was being viscerally and somatically expressed through the juggling especially at and that is why the G mentions it the mishna mentions it as a highlight were the ones who did it in front of everybody else it wasn't just it happened this was a major part of it and I'm going to share with you a beautiful uh one one one aspect of a very very profound explanation that was once presented on this by the was 1957 he would have and he explained an extraordinary profound idea here I'm going to talk I'm going to give over B one point now we actually discussed this a few years ago but a little bit from a different angle here we're going to go a little a little deeper when we talk about torches of fire they're there to cast light but they also represent something much deeper well whenever we talk about light what is light light is a very very extraordinary creation the speed of light is extraordinary light travels 186,000 m per second you know how long it takes for the light of the Sun to get to earth 8 minutes because it travels 8 186,000 miles per second so we talk about a light year right we talk about a light year you have to understand what that means a light year means that every second it's 186,000 miles so imagine what it is an hour a day a week a month and then a year the speed of light is unbelievable then you have the reality of light for many generations science thought that light was a part of then they realized it was a wave then they realized that it's still a particle so they realized it has a paradox it's a particle and a wave together but it's a paradox either you're a particle or you're a wave so they try to do the experiments and they realize that it's both it's a particle and a wave but when the person looks at it it collapses into one model because we can't deal with the Paradox so light is an extraordinary phenomenon it borders on that which is completely Beyond logic till today light is so enigmatic and profound what is the definition of light it allows us to experience something if there was no concept of light things could exist but nobody would be able to see them light is what allows just like when there's light in this room the if there's no if this room is dark in middle of the night there's no light the tables are here people may be here everything still may be here but nobody sees light is what allows us to see to perceive to experience when you say this person r radiates light it means there's something that's radiated that others can perceive so light is essentially transmission of energy that allows the entity whatever isid everything inits light to be able to be seen and perceived therefore when you really talk about light in all of the term for God's energy in the world is called the light of the infinite what does it mean the light of the infinite the infinite is infinite Hashem is Hashem the light is the way it's expressed it's manifested light means expression right you bring it to light what does it mean you bring it to light you reveal it you express it the light of a person the way it to manifest how is Hashem manifested in the creation of the world every single thing in the world is divine energy because the chemistry of every creation is essentially hashem's energy that sustains it and creates it every single moment the word the Hashem that sustains the world that's called light that's where Hashem is manifested and expressed and transmitted in the creation and every creation expresses it in a different way as we say in the heaven tells the story and everything tells a story so from a little anend to a bee to a butterfly from a black hole to a star from an elephant to a lion to a beer to a mosquito every shrub and every Bush and every tree every mammal every insect every reptile every bird every fish every human being every planet every Star really every atom every atom every cell every neuron is a manifestation of divine energy the Divine energy created it and continues to create it giving it its it's chemistry it's spiritual chemistry and it's physical chemistry when I look at something I see something physical but the physicality of it is just the manifestation of divine energy that's what it is it's the way Divine energy is being manifested in the physical and the same is true with every single creature every existence in the world that's why in Hebrew it's a very interesting thing in English there's a word for word it's called word speaking words saying words if you want to talk about a thing it's a thing in Hebrew it's the same word how do you say a thing in Hebrew davar what else does davar mean so in Hebrew a thing and a word is the same word why because everything is really a word it's the word of hem D is it's not two separate things it's not like there's a thing and everything is really hashem's word it's his energy being manifested in this thing Hashem spoke so you see B Hashem said let there be light there was light was it does that mean we have in English Abra kabra right Abra Kadabra but Abra Kadabra is Abra I didn't make that up the speech actually creates what is light light is's word the same is true it says it say fth chapter the whole world was created through 10 utterances it says in with the word of hem the heaven is made and all of its all of its Legions so essentially the world the every is aor it's a that's what it is that's why when we make a you drink a coffee if you had a coffee this morning or a cup of water of course with lemon you made a blessing which means everything came into existence through the word what does it have to do with a cup of water I'm drinking a cup of water why am I not talking about cosmology the answer is it says in Prav somebody says something in the name of the one who says it you bring Redemption to the world if I'm paraphrasing I shouldn't plagiarize I should quote quote the one who said it but there's also a deeper interpretation if you say something something in the name of who said it who said [Music] everything so whoever says anything in the name of the one who said it meaning when you identify in everything the one who said it you redeem the world the word for is world the word comes from the word hel which means concealment naturally the world conceals the one who speaks it into existence but if you're when you identify the speaker in every single thing you unravel you remove the shell and you identify the sh maybe you redeem the world from its own concealment because you reveal the true chemistry the true energy of it so this is true about every single thing in the world this is called the the of the light of that's manifested in the world but like always it can be revealed or it can be blocked in the vessel we say dwells even in the T Purity godliness is Purity it's holy it's not evil but it can dwell in a place where there's a shell where there's a hus that blocks it that's why there's the work of to reveal in everything the the to reveal the true nature of it it begins with the person in him or herself and it begins with the world around that person because everything is this D and that is why when we speak about light in its most spiritual sense in its deepest sense it's essentially the way the Divine energy is manifested in every single thing in the world that's called the light again you have Hashem himself but the light is the way it's revealed it's expressed through creation the whole creation is his light everything is his light it's now whenever something whenever this light is present in something it can be in two ways one is that the vessel the K manifests it one is that it eclipses it that's what's called a cipa shell a banana peel is very important without a banana peel the banana won't survive if you have a banana on a tree without a peel it's not going to it's going to become it won't be able to grow it'll be decomposed immediately you can even leave a banana without a peel on your counter for a few hours and it's already not recognizable you leave it there for a week it's it's a different type of banana so the peel protects it the same is true with an orange peel all the peels they're called kipos they shells they protect it but that's a type of shell that protects the fruit but then you have a different type of shell that eclipses the fruit completely it doesn't even tell you what's inside our world as well we call it a world of kipa what does it mean a world of kipa there could be a shell that protects it channels it's there for the banana but there could be a shell that wants to hijack it actually the banana pill says I am the banana there's no banana I am the banana so with bananas it never happens the banana peel never says I am the banana but in this world it can happen very easily what happens is like in a person themselves we can have a situation if you about a person the of a person that's the we say in the morning the word in AR it means pure in Aramaic means light even in Hebrew it says means light so the soul that you've given to me is light it's your light it's div it's a Divine it's a frequency of Divine Light but very and then there's the peel that protects the light so we have an animal Consciousness we have a body that's like the B that contains the light what can often happen is the banana pill knows that it's there to protect the banana what happens if the peel hijacks the soul and says I am your soul and that could easily happen in life when a person is not in touch with their own inner flow of energy with the light because the light is blocked by the ciper and the ciper wants to substitute for the light that's when a person practically operates from their own external self rather than their internal Eternal self so the my my my banana peel which is trying to protect the banana it takes over it takes over to the point that I don't know my own inner energy I'm not in touch with it why because it's blocked this can happen very easily in life this is the AV of a person to be able to open up the vessel to be able to see the to be able always not to substitute my fake external counterfeit energy with my own internal energy the way this sometimes happens in a person's development although there's so many different examples but just one very classic example and me we mentioned this not so infrequently is when a person is growing up the banana peel is there to protect the banana my body and my animal Consciousness are there to protect my Divine Soul that's what they're there because without an animal conscious the animal Consciousness is the soul that gives life to the body without that you can't live I need to be able to sleep and eat and drink and all the biological systems that's the body and the animal Consciousness but it's all there to protect the banana it's all there to protect the light of God that's flowing through it but what often happens is the light of God goes into Exile and becomes concealed and the banana peel quote unquote says oh I am going to be your new soul and then the person instead of being in touch with their own true divine flow I'm now using different instincts thoughts feelings coping me mechanisms that substitute my own inner soul and therefore there's a dissonance there's a a separation between my pneus my inner and the K The Vessel that's containing the in Practical and very very practical thing one very just very practical example with mean if I grow up and I never get in touch with my own inner soul my animal Consciousness and body feel they have to take over right it would be an example would be there's a puppy in the house a puppy is very happy to be a puppy as long as there somebody guiding the house telling the puppy do this do that what happens if Mommy and T if if the people running the house are gone and now the puppy suddenly decides it has to take responsibility for life so the poor puppy now is burdened with a whole new burden of running life but a now a puppy has to figure out so now the puppy also has to become a philosopher and a psychologist and have all these types of opinions we also have an inner puppy so as long as the puppy is being led the puppy is very happy to do its thing but some times the puppy needs feels it takes over that's what it means the CIP like the banana peel takes over and suddenly it develops all these ideas Fantastical or crazy ideas about me and how to react and how to think and how not to think and this poor puppy is now burdened with running the entire show because it doesn't know its place and it wasn't taken care of so if a person for example at some point my soul got eclipsed how did my soul get eclipsed so a classic example would be a child who was filled with love and C I acity and inquisitiveness and bonding and the Divine love and that love is not reciprocated for this child or the child can never experienced it or the child reached out but the response was the exact opposite so sometimes the child May internalize that shame and their soldiers goes into hiding and now all different surviving mechanisms and survival instincts take over in order to run the body and say you know we will keep you safe so I will keep you safe but becoming a person maybe who doesn't know how to trust or doesn't know how to live with an open heart or doesn't know how to love or I'm always in a state of fear or anxiety or or loneliness or aggression or fight or flight or people's pleaser or I'm in Free State all these states is with a poor banana peel instead of just being a channel for the banana now takes over my life and the inner Divine energy is completely eclipsed so that's why the Earth could be in two ways one is that the light is trans ucent it's called translucent and one is that the light is completely eclipsed so in a person's life the whole idea of a what is AEM is that the Kiper should be a channel for the soul it shouldn't be a blockage for the soul it should be a channel for the light it shouldn't be a blockage for the light that's the idea of whenever I look at myself can I distinguish between my true inner energy and the out shell which is here to protect that energy but may sometimes go out of whack and become what it was never supposed to become because it's taking too much responsibility how is this majority people I can't answer that question everybody has to ask that about themselves but this is the challenge of Life the CH this is this is this is it's not a mistake this is the Divine Soul comes into an animal Soul it comes into a body and it goes through this process where they become completely connected and they're living together throughout life and because they're living together they're all impacting each other it's literally like the banana in the banana pill but in a banana pill it's not complicated because the banana pill is usually not wounded to the point that it says you know what you banana you get out of here I'm taking over the show but within life my personality this can happen very very easily right I may become a people's pleaser my entire life because that's the way I'm going to feel safe in a very very difficult worlds I just have to please everybody or I may be very aggressive I may very stubborn I may be very I may you know I may develop anxiety insecurity because the anxiety is going to protect me if I have anxiety 24/7 I won't say stupid things so everybody's going to like me if I have anxiety 24/7 I'm going to behave I'll be normal if I have anxiety 24/7 I'm hyper Vigilant why did I have to develop these things cuz obviously they maybe internal shame so my real self just you stay quiet and the anxiety takes over so this poor person thinks that they essentially were created to be anxious you know when people say this is who I am take it or leave it it's not who you am it's not who you are it's who you NE became because you don't know who you are and this is not of choice even sometimes we do this at such a young age the only choice we have is to become aware of these things Victor Frankle once said between stimuli and reaction there's a tiny moment and that's where all the freedom lives right my wife tells me something my child tells me something somebody else tells me something I'm triggered that trigger I didn't have a choice I'm triggered because of a reason it may be it evoked a very very deep pain wound insecurity that wasn't a choice my animal soldiers got scared but before I respond I have a moment and that's where a weirdness and freedom is say wow what just happened to me wow what just happened in my heart why did I have this telephone call and get so overwhelmed what just happened something happened if I could become a so very often I could just respond and just go down that rabbit hole and that's called living without awareness living with awareness means right I want to know what just happened and then you I could begin the process of un blending and seeing what is my scared animal Soul what is my Divine Soul that's called to realize that essentially a person is divine energy and if you're Divine energy really you're in a very very wholesome place you're infinite you're full of love you're full of light you are light it's not like do you are light you say I'm not light you crazy I'm Darkness I'm not light you know how much Darkness I have inside of me that's that's that's that's the cipa that takes over and the ability be able to distinguish is to see so all of is really what is it it's the courage and the daily work of identifying in everything the soul identifying in me the soul identifying in in in in my loved ones their soul identifying in every person I meet their soul and everything in the world so when I take a cup of water a cup of coffee the first thing I say this not just a regular cup of coffee this is a miracle this is divine energy being manifested in the coffee beans depends how good a coffee is but even if it's not such a good coffee it's still it just went through some more stages of filters and condensing right everything I'm I'm I'm I'm I'm I'm I'm I'm drinking a cup of orange whatever it is a piece of cheese or whatever whatever the is but that's the idea so it's really using the cup of order to identify the truth of it and that's how we redeem the world we redeem ourselves so it's not living in the external facade but it's living with the internal light how much is the light revealed that depends in on every in every single person right it says is called light but like all light it can be concealed the gar says that sometimes a person could learn says is like the word Sam Sam means medicine so there's two types of medicine there's S and S there's poisonous medicine and then there's life life-saving medicine the Torah says if a person is refined it's a if if they're not refined the same Tyra can become poison how can ter become poison because if I'm not refined I can manipulate it I can exploit it a person could take the T and use it as a crotch or as an opium or as a as a cover up or as an excuse for obnoxiousness or for stupidity and they're using the tah why cuz the t is light but if the vessel is not open to the light the banana pill can hijack it and say you're mine I do with you what I want I don't even know I'm doing it because I'm so unrefined I didn't work through my own vessel so the light is always in the vessel hashem's energy vivifies everybody even when par says the river is mine and I made myself who gave him the energy at that moment to say that when an atheist says there's nothing outside of me somebody once told me that this person is a self-made man and he worships his creator so who gives the atheist the ability to be an atheist also God yeah whose oxygen is he breathing who who gave him the oxy he created the oxygen yeah who created the 70 trillion cells in his body allowing him to be an atheist it's also God but that's that the Divine Light could be completely concealed it will continue to give life it will continue to vivify it even gives life life to that which fights the very source of life that that's how that's how that's that's what CIP that's what the shell is so the the the gift is to identify the light inside the vessel always to identify the Earth inside the K whether it's in a Mitzvah in the person in the entire world Etc and that's why the M says that all the mitzvas were given like the Mitzvah were given to refine a person what does it mean refine right when we take silver and we refine the silver in a Refinery it removes all the sediments What's called the d d r o SS you know the D the the the the pyus yeah is like a Refinery what does it mean to refine that the light should be able to be manifested in the vessel The Vessel should be transp AR translucent that the light should shine through it the the Sun the the light of the Sun reaches here it takes 8 minutes but it comes but if I if I put up a wall instead of a window you know people who build houses and instead of Windows everywhere they put walls everywhere it's a Pity the light of the sun is waiting to come in but I'm blocked so there's no transparency there's no translucency there's a difference between transparent and translucent but you can Google for the difference but there's a difference if it's a completely coming through or not completely coming through it's different levels of how refined the K is but at least on some level it's it's shining through so now the body becomes like a bikash the soul shines through the body the the the the the animal the animals on the body are not bad they're beautiful they're conduits they can also become blockages that depends on the person's work a lot of work in a person which always begins with awarness not with judgment just with awareness and compassion cuz a lot of these blockages are part of the story of life that I didn't have a choice with I can only have a choice to be aware of it and then work with it with a lot of compassion and love so therefore the is that the K becomes a channel a channel for the light so that's step one now let's go to step two even when the light is revealed through the vessel by definition a vessel is a container I can't go take water from the Niagara Falls it's not a good idea because I'm not be able to drink it it's going to overwhelm The Vessel a vessel by definition is a container that limits whatever comes into it so you have a 7 oz cup or 8 oz cup or 11 oz cup and you have 11 ounces of water if you put in 100 gallon 100 gallons of water into a cup it's just going to overflow it will overwhelm the definition of a k is always it has to be measured right we all know that and if I put in too much it's not good it's not going to work a means a vessel a container so even when the vessel is a container that manifests that which is coming into the vessel by definition it limits it it limits it within a vessel and that's why even the Nish coming into an animal soul and a body and the body and the animal Soul are really revealing it they're manifesting it but it's still a limit it constrains the soul why does it constrain the soul because the soul has to function within the parameters of the body the gamar says that before we're born in the womb of our mothers we see from one end of the world to the other end of the world how do you see from one end of the world to the other end of the world in the womb in the womb the answer is because the Soul's eyes see from one end of the world to the other end of the world but then the Soul's eyes work through the physical eyes and the physical eyes have physical limitations so I could see what is in front of me if I have good eyesight 2020 you could see even further but I can't see to the other side of the world but the soul before it's born and after passing the Soul's VIs vision is a different type of vision the soul also hears but now when I have to hear something the soul can hear it through my physical ears I smell through my physical nose I understand through my physical brain I can't understand without my physical brain that's how I process information that's what it means to have a goof that goof is a b mikdash but like the B mikdash it has a measurement because it's a body so the soul inside the body even if it's manifested and expressed it has to limit itself to the properties of the body body and that's not a curse that's the that's the blessing of life but because of that its energy is condensed relative to its Pure Energy the pure energy of the soul is completely infinite it's it's the light of Infinity but then it becomes Mish which means you touch it because it goes into the body Mish from the word mamosas yeah yeah yeah yeah that's why it says it says in Tanya that even a greatest sadic who lives with love and a of hem constantly it's completely not comparable to the love and the O they experienced before the soul came into the body why not not because of a mistake but because by definition it has to be processed through the physical container we have to respect that we have to hon that's what it means to be that's why n a was so frustrated with life why did n you want to die says they wanted to kiss God they were very happy to expire cuz they they didn't like the Kaye stop with the Kaye when somebody is so sensitive it's like this is you're condensing the energy stop this I want to I want to be one with infinity the only challenge is one with infinity means there's no vessel because the vessel by definition is a form of finiteness so right there they did a sin but it was a very holy sin they just wanted says they just wanted to kiss God that's why it says about Prophets The it says in of per says when sh became a prophet says he also took off all of his clothes the Nim would prophesize when they were without clothes not only that in tanak the navi is called a muga three times the navi is called a muga the Rak says they used to call a n mug now when we call somebody muga it's not so nice so why does t call Prophets muga The answer is because to be a prophet what's a prophet a prophet is your antenas are picking up the Divine energy if they remained in their K it would limit it would like create static so that's why they removed their clothes it wasn't their physical clothes they also removed but it was also emotionally they were ma themselves they divested themselves from any type of garment during their prophecy and that's why people look at them and they say mug what does mugar really mean yeah somebody once tell me the difference between somebody who so to speak has mental illness and a big Mystic is basically the Mystic knows who to say it to you know what I mean sometimes people who we call muga you'll forgive me see much more than other people it's just they don't have the Cale they don't know how to say it they don't know when to say it it's you know people who know about this know about this sometimes people are very very challenged in very very deep ways and it's a tragedy but their souls are unbelievably lofty unbelievably Sublime the difference is they just don't have the Caleb they don't know what you say who to say it to not because they don't have what to say sometimes they have much much much more to say but it's unfiltered it's not filtered they don't have the art of of diplomacy and this and that's why you know he sometimes Grant oh this person is sick this person it's not so simple the navi was called a mish they looked at the no says and this is God's Prophet this isn't tanak I'm not making this up the tanak wants us to know that what does m we call muga means you just don't fit in right tell me you know any person who's who's who's not crazy any person if you know them well enough right there's a book called The Myth of normal right we're still looking for the normal person like do you know a normal person do you know a normal family like anybody maybe some families I don't know but uh right this this idea of normal just means that other people okay babes you fit into my box sometimes it's not a compliment the navi says you know what I don't care about anybody's boxes I'm I'm I'm I'm anybody who's people who are very very in touch with deep deep energy by definition people are going to say that's weird you know why cuz it makes me uncomfortable whenever you make me uncomfortable you're weird you ever notice on the Highway the guy in front of me doesn't know how to drive cuz he D drives too slow the guy behind me is a maniac so drives too fast I'm the only guy who knows how to drive I'm the only one on the Palisades on the George Washington on the FDR I'm the only one who knows how to drive in front of me I don't know what he's in he's over a Buttle I don't know he's about whatever he doesn't how to drive the guy behind wants to kill everybody right so the bottom line is you know when you make me uncomfortable of course you suar so the B so so the the idea of that the prophet really needs to divest themselves from all the we live in kalum we live in containers we call it etiquette we call it mannerisms we call it struct it's called structure we live in structure we're supposed to live in structure but the na'vi went beyond that that's why he was he heard very very deep things there's an element of of break of breaking those that's the navi in fact the Mish says that they used to spend nine hours a day in meditation you know people think meditation comes from the East but the mishna says in chapter 5 that the early Pious Jews used to meditate an hour before took an hour they meditate an hour after and this was three times a day it was nine hours a day they did meditation 9 hours a day meditation it's hard to meditate for 60 seconds try to meditate for 60 seconds right it's called the effort of effortlessness one of the hardest things in the world is to be effortless like just to be just to be without anything else without a 100,000 messages of how bad and how guilty and how lazy and how stupid and sukus is coming and like just that full presence is so so difficult because the voice inside of us says no no whole world is standing on you and if like you don't right now get your act together you know the world is about to be destroyed like God God forbid for me to be present presence is a very very hard thing but they did this nine hours a day now you want to know who did the laundry I don't know you have to ask them but the bottom line is they had I guess okay so this is brought in that before ding it says they would reach close to prophecy what does it mean close to prophecy they were fully fully present the soul is always hearing God's voice the souls in tenas are connected to you're in the flow you're always in the flow so you're saying why are we not Prophets The answer is we are prophets it says when comes every boy every girl is going to be a prophet when two people started to prophesize Elder and Ma then Yeshua came to M and said arrest them arrest them this is a who are they to prophesize and what does m say to you're jealous for me I'll tell you my goal in life is that everybody should be a Prophet this is this is not a competition where it's my stock I run the show you don't understand my goal is every Jew should be a prophet you're jealous for me what you think like I own this Enterprise like I own this stock called Judaism m i own God it doesn't work that way a real Prophet is is just a channel so there's no ego there so essentially everybody is a prophet so you'll say really yeah it's just we have I have so much I'm not going to say we I'll talk about me I have so much static Statics we have blockages blockages blockages banana pills that go crazy and they decide they have to give all the messages they have to but if I could really clear it up and get into the antenna you there's moments people have a certain Clarity in life there's a very deep Clarity the soul has Clarity because the soul knows exactly who it is what it's supposed to be it doesn't mean there's no pain but there's a Clarity the soul has a confidence the soul is joyous the soul is in touch with the source so the navi knew how to divest themselves from the K to become to become a very very powerful in like during daving so as a result of that say something very deep the says that there's times in life that a person has to remember the day of death most people interpret it as almost a pessimistic thing like if my ego is getting out of hand and I'm losing it so it's good for a person to remember you know what you're not Eternal it's almost like almost like you know put it in perspective like get off your get off your high horse you know get out of your Ivory Tower that's one way of looking at it but it's really much deeper than that what they were saying is something very powerful in a very positive sense and we say it also in in in the morning when we speak about the soul you may have seen a you see a clip there was a boy he was killed in the Nova festival and on the way to the festival he had a friend who told him he's in a bad mood if he could sing him a song so he videoed himself singing right so he speaks over there the soul is pure and you created it and you put it into me you GNA take it from me you gonna give it back to me as long as it's inside of me I want to live with gratitude so this is what he was singing literally it's beautiful unbelievable and you could see see the Adel cut on his face and a few hours later he was his soul was taken he was killed by the Kamas terrorists so I had a zoom with the parents of Nova of children who were killed at Nova because a huge amount of them were religious children who came from religious families and they left they left he was one of them so I had a whole evening with the parents and their siblings so uh this the father and mother they were talking to about this boy be and I could see from the song that this was a spirit you could see you don't have to be a racket scientist to see the depth of his soul and uh and you and and I told the father I'm going to say something my hunch correct me if I'm wrong I may be wrong is it possible that he was just too deep for the system he was in to be able to survive the father said you hit the nail on the head this kid was so full of love right it it was it was it was so bursting was Bur first thing and and unfortunately the environments he was they couldn't appreciate it and he really you know he broke out unfortunately he broke out in a certain direction but that's it's it's so powerful I saw it in the song when he was saying that song you can feel it but there's a question here why did the kazal right away have to be pessimistic you just woke up in the morning why talk about death I mean we know Jews are hypochondriacs and we know that we're paranoid and we know that I'm about to die or I almost dead or I died already whatever fine but like you just woke up you gave me a beautiful salt I know you're going to take it away okay we know that nobody lives forever I got it but first thing in the morning the answer is it's really very profound it's not pessimistic at all it's actually reminding the person who they are the Nish doesn't die there's aish can't die like God doesn't die a soul doesn't die a soul doesn't die even when you unplug a refrigerator the electricity doesn't die what happens to the electrons they just go back to the source of electricity what dies is that the the refrigerator doesn't cool off the food but not like electricity doesn't die when you unplug the refrigerator when we speak about Talus passing a soul doesn't die the electricity Divine electricity doesn't die it just goes back to its source it's not manifested in the physical body what often happens in this world is I forget who I am I forget that my soul is not to death it's Infinity it's a I start taking seriously my ego my contain coners my blockages they hijack me and they talk take take me away from am so every morning we say my soul is pure infinite light you created it you formed it you put it into me this is before I was born it was pure infinite light after it's also going to go back to Pure infinite light that's what it is so is this if this is who I was if this is who I will be why should I allow these years in my body to be an aberration a disturbance from Who I Really Am why should I allow these years in my body that my soul shouldn't be what it really is why should my soul be an exile be eclipsed be buried be repressed if this is who I really am so then the body is a container for Infinity why should the body and the animal Soul hijack it and turn me into something else that's what it means to remember the day of death is not pessimistic it's the idea of remembering the real person that the soul is completely not contained and confined because even if it goes into a goof essentially it's beyond it the Goof is a k so there's two steps one step is that the body shouldn't block the soul even deeper than that is to remember that the soul even in the body is contained the soul essentially is pure pure Ain it's pure [Music] Infinity now you'll understand the secret of the juggling the secret of the juggling is a very very profound Secret a there was a torch of fire what's the torch of fire remember a torch of fire is not just one candle when you have like Hava you have a few Wicks together interwoven so is it's not just one light it's more than one light because this is already after so the person renews themselves through chuva and now the light of the soul is not just in the soul itself it's also in the animal Soul it's also in the body like my animal Consciousness becomes a conduit rather than a blockage that's a lot of work so you have a when I juggle what happens I toss it upwards but it doesn't stay up for a long time something called gravity if it would stay up juggling wouldn't be so hard your some wouldn't be paid for it everybody could do it you throw a football it's going to fall down you throw up a torch you throw up an egg or throw it's going to fall down so what's the Kush of the juggler that when it falls down he catches it but it goes right back up so this is this is this is how I juggle you see how good I am right it works you know why because there's nothing falling and nothing flying so you toss it up high and the great jugglers know how to do it very very high because the higher it is the higher it is and then it can drop you catch it but as you catch it it doesn't stay there long cuz you have to catch a new one coming down you got to throw and imagine when you have eight so it's very very intense so what does this represent that in life the greatest comes when when I always have that ability to take this my light of Hashem the which comes into the animal soul and comes into the body and can become contained and toss it upward back to its source in other words connect the soul here to the soul in its ultimate source so that it's never fully imprisoned and confined and contained by the K it can refresh itself with its Pure Energy so that when it comes back down it's uph it's like after sleep the soul is completely fresh that's what it says says all the all life is up is it runs upwards but it returns back like the heartbeat right the heart expands the heart contracts or we inhale we exhale everything is that process when I inhale I'm bringing the energy into my body cuz without oxygen all the blood will not be able to be oxygenated I won't be able to get my nutrients my blood so we have to bring in the life so just stay let it stay there hasem said no now it's time to Exhale the ex oxygen has to go back to its source and then but if it's only back in its source I can't live you got to inhale you got to bring it back and then why why did God make it like this like why I don't know if we know you know how many times a day you do this thank God we don't know because it's constant because if you stop for two minutes it's kaput because this is the whole source of it if the energy stays inside of me it can get severed from its Infinite Source it always wants to go back to get refreshed now but if it stays up there I can't be in a body so it's the same is true with the circulation of the blood the heart expanding the heart Contracting the heart expanding the heart contract when the heart expands the blood could come back in when it contracts it squeezes the blood out of the heart of the left ventricle you remember your biology classes in 11th grade I don't mean to bring up nightmares but this is how it works it's fascinating cuz spiritually the whole system works like that on all the worlds everything is like that means the ability for my soul to be tossed upward completely not contained muga so to speak but that's that's what prophecy prophecy is to remember that your soul is a pure channel for Divinity but theid is not to stay up there that's not the way God sent me down here for a reason the soul used to be there it got to go back down when it goes back down don't let it get stuck don't turn it into a prison don't confine it don't let the banana peel hijack it remember what the soul is so when you refresh it even when it comes down it has its energy now it can give life to the body and the animal Soul rather than become a victim of it you want the peel to work for the banana not the other way around you want the animal soul and the body to be able to look up to the soul as a mentor okay we're here we're here as your channel there's Hashem there's the Divine Soul which is Hashem in you and then there's the bik the K the K is the animal soul and the body and that's why that's why this was done by because this is actually it's a very very it's it's an extremely extremely profound profound Ava you know if if we look we look in each of our lives in a very practical sense every person is infinite light you and you and you and you and you and me and her and her and every person you're but life is chaotic life is burdensome even a day before suus I mean certainly a day before suus but a whole year there's chaos there's pain there's Brokenness there's confusion there's fear there's anxiety so your Divine flow or my Divine can easily be concealed it can easily be repressed it can easily be even crushed to the point that I may not even know what it is all I know about myself is I'm tense I'm uptight I'm anxious I'm scared I'm afraid I'm overwhelmed which are all normal emotions it's a little puppy TTI and Mommy left the house what happens to the puppy you don't come back huh I never had a puppy so I don't know but I can imagine what happens puppy gets very scared when the puppy gets scared it starts developing philosophy maybe the philosophy is I'm a horrible puppy Everybody Hates Me Maybe the puppy says a philosophy you know this world is the worst sickest place in the world whoever comes close I will attack that's the St human story a tiny little puppy that tati and Mommy left and this poor puppy doesn't have any guidance so it develops all of these instincts and emotions so I may not even know who I am because the soul completely completely is entangled invested and maybe even buried in layers and layers of debris this is where every person needs to learn how to juggle learning how to juggle is to be able to un blend to be able to take the the torch of Fire and lift it up disentangle it and let it go purely back to its source emotionally speaking where it's completely unburdened it's Hashem himself it's in his space there's confidence and his joy and each person needs to find the methods of how to juggle there's physical juggling but there's emotional juggling now we always say women are jugglers right they juggle not eight torches of fire but sometimes a 100 torches of fire and if you're having 49 guests over suus I don't know how many things you're juggling and right now as I'm talking you may be juggling in your mind around 936 things that you have to do so I'm going to talk to you the quintessential multitaskers of God's world about how to juggle but here we're going to talk about a different type of juggling and that's sometimes if I may say even a harder form of juggling but really the source of all joy and that is to be able to figure out what in my day will give me those few minutes that will allow my soul to be juggled to be tossed up literally the way it was before birth when it's pure infinite now I know we're not regular n or the who meditated for nine hours but for one person it may be their time of meditation or daving or learning or singing or connecting or or physical work or emotional work some people a meditation or breath work RAB why she okay that's just once a week you have to juggle more often and there's a long yam coming for each person it may be five minutes I may not have more than five minutes some person people can have more time but that moment there's nothing else there's just you and Hashem and it's really leaning into it and you'll see it's harder than it sounds what do you mean especially especially if whenever I sat on my couch if your mother had a comment oh there's nothing to do in the house so for you to sit been in one place for more than 6 minutes especially when we all know that the world is falling apart and you have the this is all in the head I know nobody's going to say this to you but what whatever it is it's like but what but what does it do wants to take me away from the truth it says that the Suk is God hugging you right so imagine somebody loves you like crazy and they want to give you a hug your child comes imagine your teenage child comes says my I want to give you a hug that ever happen your 17-year-old daughter thanking you for how hard you work for our whole family okay so they give you a hug and all you I don't have time now you know how many things I have to cook for sukus all the cooking is for that moment so the Suk is Hashem giving you a hug so can I just sit and lean into it like ah without anything there's no doesn't have to be Ain it's called intimacy exclusivity and intimacy that's what the idea is to be able to toss up the soul every day in its own way that's where s comes from because there there's no burden there's no heaviness on the other hand the soul got to come down it's not aish to stay up the soul got to come down that's and as a result of that we have here this concept of the going up and going down but here is the here here is the now we understand why and did this they couldn't they couldn't hire a juggler it's precisely it's precisely for two reasons both in both directions many people would say I don't have to I'm perfectly fine here it's only he was so sensitive to the truth of infinity that he knew that the container is eclipsing the soul everybody even in this room you know that every person there's different levels of sensitivity some people this idea they know right away how true it is I have to say last week There's a woman here in the class she's here this week also and I saw her crying and I didn't think I said anything so emotional so she told me afterwards whenever the soul hears real truth it starts crying when the soul hears real truth it starts crying what does that mean it says whena would learn he would cry is not a sad book it's a very beautiful book it's about love he wasn't crying out of grief he was crying because the Sals like when there's a sense of of of of of internal depth that emerges in such Glory it's very powerful was so sensitive to this that they understood of course in life you got to juggle if I just make peace and I become complacent it's a form of paralysis a form of numbness it's another protector you know that feeling of blondness I'm numb I don't care there's no such a thing you don't care I never met a person who doesn't care I don't care because it's a very good way to protect myself if I don't care about anything I won't get disappointed right I I don't care I'm numb I'm dead I'm frozen you won't disappoint me I don't care I don't care I don't care it's like when those teenagers say I don't care I don't care I don't care I don't care it's a desperate Cry for Help I had to become the person who doesn't care because I'm so afraid or there's so much pain inside of me of course the soul cares of course it cares it cares you met anybody ever met a child or infant doesn't you ever met an infant say oh you don't want to nurse me I don't care I don't care I don't care why only by teenagers do they stop caring I never met a one-month old baby says mommy you don't want to wake up tonight I don't care I'm fine I'll stay in the Pamper till tomorrow midday sleep in for 12 hours I don't care suddenly they do care because infants care because they're in touch with themselves of course we care about attachment we care about truth we care about relationships we care about love of course we care there's no the soul cares the body cares these are living creatures they're full of life they care I become blind as a protective mechanism he was so sensitive to the truth they juggled because they were teaching people don't surrender to mediocrity don't resign to smallness on the other hand other people when they go up sometimes they don't want to come down anymore it's too good it's very didn't want to come down understood wants you to be here to make a home for him in this world very good it's always Kipper you can go to the holy of holies you got to go home at night why do you have to go home stay in the holy of holies cuz the holy of holies is in heaven and that's amazing and that's where the soul always was but the whole point of creation was like we spoke last week what happens afterwards the integration the coming back that's why by this was such an essential thing because after when a person reestablishes their life spiritually now comes sukus and we go out of our home we go out into the world so to speak into the Suka and a new year begins the key is to be able to possess to profess this Duality and synthesize them of the art of the juggler of the which comes into a ky first of all that the K shouldn't block it but even when it doesn't block it it's still contained to be able to toss it up to touch the Infinity with his pure Serenity and Clarity and tranquility and then R and then the is the sh coming back it's refreshed from The Source once you're refreshed now you can go out to do your mission I can't be sent into a foreign territory to do a mission if I'm not anchored in my true energy because then I'm going to be depleted I'm going to be overwhelmed right the key the key thing is to be able to be anchored in the true self that's the power of the Soul it never loses focus of who it is what it is it was sent on a mission it doesn't belong in prison it doesn't have to be repressed it doesn't have to be afraid it's it's completely connected connected to that light now we see it also with different types of people you know there are people that you know all day they they live with the news you remember that when you remember when you used to listen to the radio there's FM radio and AM radio you remember that what's the difference AM radio you know you give me 22 minutes I'll give you the world the world is always about to be destroyed within the next 10 minutes and then suddenly you go to FM so who got it right when you're in the car FM or FM what if an AM is married to an FM right it's unbelievable the FM looks at the am and like you're always intense like relax relax and the am looks at the F says you're out for lunch you're detached you live in heaven somebody got to take care of stuff you know yeah suas doesn't happen on its own yeah the food doesn't show up like M from Heaven laundry doesn't get done on its own yeah no I'm not a m I'm not a slave like you wake up and like and F like and then am is like right and we often gasl and ston wall and Drift Away Boom the truth is the truth is that life is the courage to be able to learn how to juggle that's what the life is jakob's dream was the ladder didn't have to run away from the earth it was etched into the Earth but it never ever forgot there's the cable there's the Rob there's the cable there's the flow there's the antenna that with one ear can hear the madaka the silent voice of ano M where really the whole world in some ways is a joke as crazy as it is it sometimes you got to laugh wow somebody once said God is the greatest comedian but the audience Forgot to Laugh this is a funny funny world so they call you your grandmother used to call it Shelt and every day the insanity barem or whatever however you want to Define it could get crazier and crazier so there's a point where the soul is like the soul is good it's in the Embrace of its mother it's beyond it's in an infinite place but not from Detachment because that's what it really is in hashem's world in the a there's a Clarity there's a joy there's a there's a wholesomeness not because I understand I don't have to understand it's not with my doesn't have to be with my the soul is higher than but then the because he was this quintessential leader he knew what it means to hold the nation on his shoulders he embodied this he manifested this to always be connected to that infinity even during insane times but not to use it as an excuse of not being empathetic and sensitive to the needs of the people you know sometimes people could run away to heaven but it's another defense mechanism I don't have to deal with anything I don't have to listen to anything everything is Rosy and perfect there's no Injustice no not here that's another form of Escape that's not coming from the soul that's just my opium everybody has their their you know their Tylenol that they use this one is escapism and this one is Indulgence this one gets more stressed and this one becomes more detached you ever see that this one goes more crazy and this one is like goes out for lunch now forever and usually they're married to each other huh and often they're married to each other because it's a gift if they become aware of it it's a gift for them to help heal each other everybody has to heal themselves but they can become a support system for each other it's a very very powerful gift they once asked the holy what's the definition of a Jew he said three things to be a Jew is to dance even when you're sitting in one place and not moving to be a Jew is to scream even while you're silent and to be a Jew is to be alone even when you're among a thousand people VAR is a city in PO he one of the great Masters VAR he was one of the great he said the greatest form of prous prous means like disengagement is among people and the greatest form of loneliness is amidst our people what that means is you could be with a lot a lot of people and there's something called social etiquette if I'm among people I'm not going to go to the wall and like who are you stop telling me good morning right there's being integrated it's a very special thing some people have a gift for it some people don't have such a gift for it they like being hermits you know they like being alone it's different types of people it's not AER but that ability to be able to be fully to be able to be fully here with without fear without that anxiety but at that very moment there's also a part that remains very very deeply connected so that instead of being pressured and consumed and slept down I actually realize that I was chosen like you were chosen to be a source of light for myself and for the people around me that's the art of juggling and now we'll understand why eight and here we come to the final why eight so you say well eight is gak but it could have been six it could have been 10 I mean maybe 10 is too hard but you see they all did eight ate torches and ate knives and ate eggs and eight and huh very good number eight and there's also something even deeper and that is the soul has five aspects five names it says in Med nees is the element of the soul that is manifested in the body like it's the soul that's in the blood it's literally this soul that gives life to the blood that's NE R is the breath R is called breath R like it's breath that's why breath work brings up so many emotions it represents the emotive aspect of the Soul represents the cognitive faculties are the spiritual longings of the soul the Transcendent spiritual yearnings of the Soul a soul looks for meaning a soul wants to know who it is why am I here for is the fifth level the Quint essence of the Soul which has no name besides means it's one with and has no definition is never ever separated can't be is the spark of God that's what we learned a few weeks ago the M about about chva the level of is there's no chva because it's not disconnected you just have to align yourself with it but over there that can't be any disconnection those are the parts of the soul that come down and are manifested each one in their own way so in these four parts you have the juggling you have the r and you have the you have the element going up and you have the element going down so you have eight so the eight torches represents the which is also the four letters of hashem's name yud and he and V and he those are the four channels of energy through which Hashem creates the world remember what I spoke about when he creates the world the energy goes up and then it goes back down like inhale and exhale it goes up to refresh itself it comes back down in order to be in the world and be present so each one of the four has double aspect when it's up so to speak and down it's also four worlds so the eight torches which are going up and down is that constant flow the eban flow of the coming in and out and that's why coming up and down and that's why which represents the new year after featured this powerful element and that's why it say because this is the the source for and everything else is the ability for me to be happy not only on suus the ability to be able to be in a state of s yeah it's not you can't tell somebody you should be happy I'm not I'm anxious I'm overwhelmed it's never you should you know whenever you tell somebody you should feel what am I supposed to do I don't feel it's one of the most ridiculous things to tell people you should you should you should basically they get more guilty and it reinforces the trauma from which which caused all the problems initially it's never you should it's the ability of understanding what is really happening the more I become aware of the energy of the more I could be in a state of an equilibrium and serenity and joy throughout the then finally we see that women would sort out their wheat for the light of B why did the gar give that example I mean you give lot of examples but here again you see the depth of the the says the tree of knowledge that ate was it was grain it was wheat that's what the says she was sorting out the wheat is not just physical it's also spiritual what happened by theas was you remember before theas and dressed like Prophets they were without clothes just like prophets why the answer is the word didn't didn't didn't fit into the vocabulary then of course it passed the body was just a vehicle it was just channeling the light I'm not embarrassed with my pinky you all see my pinky what's wrong with my pinky before the the whole goof the shal says just like a person is not embarrassed to put on on their hand why should it's a Mitzvah so every other part of the body was just a Mitzvah after the at there's like a diss there's like a garment that blocks the from the K now I could look at the body and instead of seeing its Holiness I could see a lot of other things that's why we need to protect ourselves that's why there's modesty that's why there's appropriate garments what is it for it's in order that a person shouldn't get distracted by the external and separate the external from the internal it's even the person themselves it's called self-respect not see myself only as a body the body is part of aish so therefore the starts creating that that that Gulf between the two things is of the be the ability to un blend to un blend the blockage from the light the light of B was so powerful because they threw up the light and come back so therefore there was a element of un blending in the the to be able to fix and repair that split in a person's life and that's where the secret of joy is because the soul is always in a state of flow and joy the soul is never never anxious it's just as the soul Soul comes back down it gets entangled and I don't know what is the soul what is not the soul when I learn the art of juggling internally there's always that space where I find that Clarity and inner inner Oneness and serenity which is the source of all Bliss everybody have a beautiful H okay we'll have to uh everybody have a beautiful y an amazing y a good and it should be a good and happy and Victorious and Redemptive year for all of the Jewish people and everybody should have a good gch for you and your families and we should celebrate this year in the and maybe your son will juggle something so powerful in therapy when someone is anxious what do we say Brea in bre breathe in breathe out right putting it together so powerful yeah to breathe in and breathe out the reason it's so powerful is because essentially it's tuning in to the rhythm of the whole energy that's the power of breath work the breathing in and breathing out that's exactly the point R sh yeah I love it it yeah thank you yeah that's why on you're able to reach such Heights with soul soer it's like the soul is up like like Angels so that's essentially the whole issue yipper exactly yipper the soul so to speak goes back it feels so good it feels beautiful it's Blissful exactly but now we come yeah now we come back so sukus tells you even when you come back you don't have to come back fully you bring what you had there into the world so without anxiety yeah yeah so it's really Su iser in the world it's not different than Yer yeah you learn how to yipper should be in a way that could be yeah you're welcome May beautiful mayor beautiful yeah yeah you told me last week okay have a good year sweet year than today really put it all together in our heads yeah let me just confirm but yeah very I'm by the way very impressed with the number of women that showed up today too it's a very hungry generation we're living in very we're not living in simple we need time to find a way to juggle women everything yes [Music] yes so doesn't go down and up it always remains connected but are in a flow so they go back and forth you understand is one like doesn't go up and down ask is here is there is up up down down he doesn't go up and down he's here so doesn't go through the flux there's no waxing and waning you know the moon waxes and wanes the sun doesn't wax and Wayne anywhere doesn't go anywhere it's the essence what saying withm books that they write de kids with autism and other special needs sometimes see much more things they just don't have the they don't have the kalum to integrate it in what we call socially appropriate comes out so it comes out like I can't deal with this person I can't deal with them they can deal with themselves say I don't have the humility sometimes to go out of my structure and say you know maybe there's a different way of living it's hard for us especially it's true with mental challenges some of them it's very gifted spiritually but some some there was a bre there was a Breaking Point in in in in in the integration which is very very difficult my point is that the healing doesn't happen by just by by by just trying to fit them into everybody else the healing happens by really tuning into their power and giving them the tools of how to integrate it more which is a which is a different Ava you understand what I'm saying I don't need you to be like him you're not going to be like him it's a different Our Generation we're getting rid of all these boundaries a little bit trying to yeah have a beautiful y good yes yes yes actually your wife an amazing serving yesterday I said where for said her family comes her family comes her in my in-laws and her sister is home yeah yeah yeah where where we went very yeah like her mother takes after her mother each one 3 hours what the they didn't do together I'm saying so they they basically they meditated an hour before the the itself took an hour they just did okay people doess in four minutes they did it an hour and then an hour after 3 333 that was fantastic I just thank you I've always said when I go to a she if I cry and I know it was a good she something touches me and it was just interesting it hit the spot it hits the spot [Music] am