Why So Much Sexual ABUSE Today? KABBALAH Has The Answer

always get letters where I meet people and they say talk about adite talk about Kus what do you have to talk about this so I say we have thousands and thousands of sh about beautiful topics right and most people don't talk about this I'm from the only few M so what do you have to listen to it so why do I talk about it the reason is because after every such class I get probably 10 emails of people who say that they were completely destroyed they wanted to take their lives they were in a depression and finally they felt a little empathy and understanding of what they went through without telling them their whole life the yeshiva.net so everybody understood yesterday's class I hope or if not understood at least felt or experienced which is better than understanding so let's continue we're up to page 64 lamad B column two lamed B I mean Amed B the line starts b 1 2 3 4 five six seven8 eight lines from the top talking about the story of yud Judah and yud andar which was yud and Tam so to speak seeded spiritual territory to unholiness but it was extremely strategic because through that they both managed to Extra act as he puts it the spark of mashiach the seed of M mashiach the ultimate Redeemer and all of the kings of Bas David which represents royalty the royal family that Hashem chose and also many prophets that came from this family because Yehuda and T they were the progenitors of the twins parrots and zorak and parrot and zorak ultimately parrots was the great great great great grandfather of bayaz who was the father of IID who was the father of yesi who was the father of d as we read on and Mill Rus and uh and thus the whole all the way to and says has to come it's one of the criteria that mhia comes from the seed of it all comes from this flawed and blemished relationship between Yehuda and T which certainly was not conventional it was not would have been would have not been sanctioned by convention to put it mildly there was no sh involved uh quite to The Other Extreme the way T was presented itself the way Yehuda engaged in it the whole thing is problematic from H and moral perspective and uh how is it then possible that from such a relationship from such a what would seem Unholy relationship comes such goodness so this is a classic example of this whole concept that t understood that it's precisely through this that she's going to be able to ultimately defeat the Clipper it's precisely through this relationship that the Clippers came out and they weren't afraid of bringing out all their ammunition and all their energy and all their Sparks seemed very very promising and in that process they uh managed to so to speak lose the battle and win a war some people win the battle and lose the war because it looks like the battle is what's most important but in this case you lost your Pawn but you won the war you lost your battle but you won the long-term war and uh this is a big theme in cabala that uh sometimes the greatest Sparks of Holiness come out in the most unexpected places and it's not a mistake it's precisely that way and there's a few reasons for it number one whenever there's intense goodness the kipa surrounds it from all sides because it's like bees with honey the bees go for the honey wherever there's more Holiness there's always a greater attraction of obstacles of of negativity of toxicity right if I want to Rob if I want to go rob I'm not going to go to a beggar to Rob what am I going to find a few hundred that he collected here in China's sh if I really want to do it I go to the bank if I want to do it right if I want to do it wrong you go to the bank that's where you you go for the money right when Kiper wants to do it right it doesn't go to a beggar it goes to the source that's why the gor says in that somebody who's greater the challenge is always greater it's not just a mistake or it's just you want to you know he has more power so you have to challenge him more it's much deeper than that that's exactly what's attracting it it's exactly what's attracting it because there's so much light there's going to be an equal amount of negativity that's drawn to it because that's where you could feed from that's where you could feed from you know when the Lions bring back a buffalo right now the meal starts a little bird nobody's running to you know this is going to feed them for weeks this is where you run to such a carcass there there's good if you can only defeat it so a person has to realize this that sometimes the intensity of the darkness or the anxiety is commerate exactly with the intensity of light and the worst thing is to get entangled rather than separate as we discussed in the previous classes in order to get that light out very often the Clippers are going to protect it so much so there is a form of seeding territory so to speak in order to go into that space and where they seem to be claiming Cas to be claiming you as a casualty But ultimately it's all to destroy them there's unin arel writes that da blemished relationships they'll put out these nitsas because they don't think anything is going to come out of it it says in kazal that ter was married to a woman named amas and when she conceived a she was a nid she was the middle of her Nida period and her husband was T who was not so what type of Soul already is gonna so so so who came out of ab ainu the worst thing AB ainu could have done is become entangled with his father's issues and mother's issues the greatness of ab was that he knew who he was versus his parents don't don't take that for granted CU a child generally wants to be close to you want to be similar to your parents you want to reflect your parents that's good if you have parents like y had if you had parents like AB had you got to be careful what's you and what's your parents it's not such a simple thing especially when the parents scream you know ter was screaming that right what happened to respect respect respect your father respect your father you can only respect your father if your father respects the real father if your father becomes what are you going to respect so does if a father is AES know some say yeah but nobody holds that if a father is abusive to a child you don't even have to respect your father with your money it has to be with his money so to respect your father with your health and with your life there's no Mitzvah like that if a father did things to a child I get a lot of emails about this and then he tells the son you have to respect respect me if it's causing a person anxiety and stress and difficulties they're not allow to do it it's it's not it's a very serious issue this okay but anyway that's not our topic today so what happens here with yud and for example if you have a I don't know if you have a concert and there's 50,000 people there 100,000 people there and uh the main singer who's like a a world rowned celebrity needs to come in the worst thing you can do is bring him in through the main entrance why he's never going to get to the stage everybody's going to want to give him uh give him greet him and everybody's going to want an autograph and everybody's going to want a selfie and everybody's going to ask him for a favor by the time he gets to the main stage it's already the night is over so what do they do everybody walks everybody walks in through the main doors beautiful doors they walk in and they get their seats and where do they take the main celebrity of the evening they usually take him through a back door they take him through the boiler room they take him through side doors through basements right then he has to crawl through rabbit holes he has to slip on the kitchen because they just mopped it so he slips and Falls he goes through the ugliest and weirdest entrances to get to the backstage that's how what happens by most of these events how you talking the answer is there's no way to get him ining you have to the biggest nitsas in the world don't come in through regular ways they they don't come in through conventional ways they go go through conventional ways there's too many too many things will stop them they always come in through weird strange ways it says so the med says I found David where do you find him he says I found them in D cuz light with was with his daughters and from there came out May and may was the grandfather of Rus and Rus was the great- grandmother of David so David from one side comes from yud and and then from the mommy side he doesn't do any better he comes some light in his daughters now how how holy was that relationship the reason he's not bringing that an example is cuz L was drunk yud and T they were both conscious so it was more strategic they were in a different place L had happened but that God arranged L's daughters were knew what they're doing but L himself he was completely drunk but the same concept that threw a very very crazy promiscuous even worse than yud a father and daughters complete incest like inous V with the story is from that came R from this relationship came R and this was problematic for all generations the gor says in y that told that you know D shouldn't be able to marry a Jewish woman because he comes from and says but for Generations this was a question if David is allowed to marry ordinary Jewish woman when his great-grandmother was a moite woman that itself shows you that D the question was even if he's Jewish but he's not a regular Jew like he can't marry a regular woman and not only that it says in that his father separated from his wife D's mother at some point because he got older he became FR and he decided his wife is he's not he's not koser for his wife cuz he comes from R he comes from say and what happened he decided to go to his shus he made a condition if he's a Jew he's liberating her if he's not he could marry a shus but she was a smart woman and she told his wife the whole story and she told his wife I don't belong there in the room in the bedroom you belong there and yes thought he was with his sh really with his his wife and D came out of that relationship and when he so his wife was pregnant he thought that there was adultery and therefore they all treated d as a m that's why it says the children of my mother saw me as an alien m is M they saw me as a not from the family literally a Mamer but why because the mother was pregnant and yes said this has nothing to do with me I know that and that's so wheni came to uh to um to to yesi and he said that Hashem wants to coronate one of your children as a king so he asked you to bring out all of the sons and he brought out seven sons and each one Hashem said this is not the king and then he asked yesi do you have any more Sons so he said there's one more shepherding the flock and that's when he brought him if he asked him to bring out all of his sons why didn't he bring out all he brought out seven because he didn't treat doid as a son doid as a mza he was raised in the family but it's his mother's son his wife's son it's not his son cuz he had no relations with with his wife and his wife was pregnant obviously this was a mza and Hashem is going to coronate a mza as a king just understand the drama here and theni said no no he's the boy and that's when yes found out the whole story and it says in Med that all the and are about this story when was Vindicated because he thought he was treated as a m his whole life he said the stone that the builders dis were were repulsed with became the Cornerstone the brothers were horrified was horrified and said and together they said brings this whole Med she explains it what do you see from here that every element of this relationship yud and and L and his daughters and even boas and Rus themselves if you learn Rus it wasn't so simple how how Rus came to boas again there was no sh there the middle of the night every element of the relationship seems to be more problematic than another you would think such a holy family ultimately Mas is going to come from there Mash is going to clean the world purify the world it should be no everybody can get up and speak at the you make a you me come once then it's good H so this is what is explaining that this wasn't a mistake it was precisely this element when has such a powerful hold and it does because there's so much light there there's so much so much light there so somebody has to go into that place in order to get it out the worst thing though is to get entangled and that's the tragedy and that's the whole n that's being brought out that when you a person understands that what I went through and what I what the pain I experienced and the journey I went through which was entangled with Clipper number one it has nothing to do with my soul the soul itself remains completely pure Theus of the s affected not the pus number two even Theus of the Soul why did it get affected not in order to be destroyed but in order to ultimately defeat a Clipper a person needs to remember that so when these two Yas are very very clear that I went down there and the eye can never get tarnished despite everything even though it feels that way and number two the reason that I got tarnished was only to be able to ultimately defeat it I lost a pawn to win the chess game and the reason the person can can appreciate both of these truths is cuz the person understands essentially that the soul is so it's the that went through this experience it's infinite Consciousness that went through all of this experience and infinity can get T through Tuma so even that which was affected is only the the way it's processed through my own perception it's like the moon get getting diminished only from our Vantage Point even though from our Vantage Point there's no moon it's dark but the moon itself is not dark and the whole reason for that itself is only to be able to defeat the Clipper so then ultimately the soul has the person doesn't have to worry there's going to be complete Liberation but that journey is not an easy Journey there's a there's a there's a there a dog that's called blood hound a blood hound huh you know how they train blood hounds blood hounds they're called yeah you could just see from the name you can hear from the name what type of dogs they are they're extraordinary in identifying right toxic people and toxic materials and they're used especially in aggressive situations and in times of war and in violence and they're very very lethal and they need them to be able to smell and identify certain things in the enemy how do they train them they don't one they become professional blood hounds so if I'm not mistaking I'm not an expert in this but uh you could probably look it up in today's world whatever they want them to smell let's say it's a bomb it's a certain type of bomb let's say certain type of radioactive material let's say it's blood whatever it is a certain type of body certain type of odor whatever it is as they're younger they give them a lot of that so and whenever they smell it they get a prize so as they're growing up they have so much access to this particular smell because they constantly give it to them they constantly over they'll give them blankets that has this odor and paper that has this odor and wood that has dis odors they're always around it so this becomes like this is what they're so used to mamal and they get rewarded now when they're in the wild and they're in dangerous situations and and it's not so easy but when they sense the smell uh they know it they know it they grew up with this you know a smell that's familiar you know this I know it's like the language you know so when they smell it when they're big boys and they smell it from far they right away identify it but why do they identify they know exactly what it is you understand my Nim here the only people who can root out abuse from the Community are people who know how to smell it the only people who know how to smell it for real are the people who experienced it there's no other way of rooting really things out when you went through something and you went through for years you smell it people who are very pure and they grew up with Purity are gavala people but they can't smell impurity people who went through impurity and they didn't become entangled when they see it they know this is toxicity and they bark and that's what Roots it Roots it out so they they had casualties they had to go there they had to go into that Bloody place to know what it feels like so now they can they can destroy it so it's always going into that place going into the which is a difficult Journey but in that process in that process you bring it out you bring it out it's a attracted to you you know it and you feel it and you experience it and you get it and then you have the ability to defeat it now let's see V he says V in parenthesis once to was given he's now making a qualification with does everybody come and if they in a situation where they see a t they say you know what I'm going to go in there I'm going to seed my moral territory and the V I'll be able to destroy the clipp just like y so he says once the to was given a person is not allowed to do this there are situations that the nvi tells the Jew temporarily to beab or likei was Mo of a carbon outside of the bik in the story with mount I think chap right he does that whole contest between the 400 prophets of the B you know the story and he created he made brought the two axen outside how do you allow to be Mak outside of the bik it's called the answer is was and is a even if he tells you to violate the temporarily you have to listen to them if he's already an established Prophet if he permanently changes a mitvah for example he says shabas is not chabas anymore it's Sunday then you know he's a false Nai cuz then he's undermining the of M and mha's prophecy is more greater than all because mha's prophecy was seen by everybody it's not heay it wasn't one person who convinced us all Jews were at so the power of a Nai comes from M so if the Nai undermines M he loses his own power but if the navi doesn't change what mha said but he says Hashem said that today we should be Mak carbon outside and he authenticated n from the past you have to listen to the same is true if he says just this shabas besides if he says then you never listen to him then you know he's so there are those situations of AI That's even if explains this at length Esther right to go say so so so he says so that can also be after Mountain but those are unique situations a person on his own to go say I'm going to go beab I'm going to go eat I'm going to go to I'm going to go to situations like because I have the strategy if I'm put into a situation I'm put into a situation to go create that situation for this you have to have a vision that after mat we don't have and we can't have and we're not supposed to have what's this idea of saying to be outside it's the same idea you surrender some in order for a lot of profit just like when a person invests you're giving up money and maybe for five or 10 or 20 years and this money you could have used but you're imagining and hoping that this money that you're losing you're but the prophets are amazing so to be m carbon outside of the B is not a simple thing in other circumstances it would be an a it would be a sin what does it mean a sin a sin means that is something that belongs to Clipper the Clipper wins so it's like in the casualties of war that you sent your own troops to be defeated by the enemy that's what happened but or similar situations understood that this is exactly what's necessary in order to bring out the clip and then defeat it VOS there's a concept of shabas there's certain things you for like saving a life so the question is if it's if shabas is or let's say you eat on because you for health reasons you have to eat so is it what's the difference means it's rejected shabas is rejected Ed it's pushed away means it's permitted the difference is means that it's actually a problem but the says I'm fine with doing something wrong because of a greater benefit HRA means that in this situation the laws of shabas were not said do you say that when it comes to when somebody goes to save a person's life the laws of shabas were not given in this situation in other words fora person it's like Thursday it's Thursday or you say no it's shabas and you're not allowed to but the to says even though it's a problem I'm telling you do it because saving a life is more important a doctor amputates a part of a person's body right he's not going to say it's not a problem it's a big problem but it's worth it to save the life unlike the other doctor who said the surgery was successful and the patient died better it shouldn't be successful the patient should live so that's a difference in means it's not an isue means it's an issue but there's a bigger issue so the bigger issue overrides this so he says you see that the that's it's not means there was no issue you didn't give into means no there was an issue the Clipper got something here but the victory is much more power you lost the porn it's not like you didn't lose a porn you lost the porn like in the Marshall of the war I went into a place where there were casualties but because of that the enemy came out and massed and now I into an open open field and I can destroy it that's the this explains the words of the Zoya that we started with when the moon was blemished in that element of of the negativity of the snake this is the idea that the the external forces could nurture from her when you allow yourself to be struck by the clipp by the enemy you allow yourself that's the moon got blemished the moon got blemished as a metaphor for this element when I go into those places we I can be struck I can be hurt it's a fascinating there comes a time when the rules over the for his own detriment what does this mean literally it means sometimes when you're ruling over somebody else it's not so simple it's going to bring you down for example in occupation sometimes a government takes over another country they think oh we have all this power and then you realize you don't know what to do with it the people hate you every Sunday and Thursday there's a Guerilla war against you you can't feed the people suddenly all the resources you thought you got are all for your detriment you have to run a country you have to know how to occupation is not a simple thing you think you're going to rule over somebody else L it comes to your detriment L to rule over somebody else is not a simple thing Diel explains that this PK is saying something very deep about history there's two ads there's of K and there's of is the of Holiness is the of unholiness sometimes theum of negativity rules the adum of Holiness and he's all excited I took over the person of kadus I took it I took him I got him I kidnapped him I abducted him I'm in I'm inside of you the virus came in I got your cells it's ultimately the beginning of his downfalls the beginning of his destruction from his perspective he got a foot into the door from K's perspective I have your foot now I'll have your hands now I'll have your head I'll be able to chop you off as long as you as long as you didn't control me I didn't have access to you you were in your rabbit hole you were in your in your in your cage I didn't have access to you you came Now to control me now I have access now you can get destroy it and that's the whole nuda of the of what we're saying that a person goes through Journeys in life who took you over the clipp it took you over isn't that the most accurate definition of real trauma a counterfeit takes over the real Adam and the real Adam's brain is now hijacked by a counterfeit Adam who's feeding off your energy just to feed the Clipper whatever that looks like it looks like it's the anxiety the guilt the shame the depression the Suffering The anguish the heaviness the burden the disassociation everything we've been speaking about people's Journeys theam the fake Adam took over the real Adam and as I said yesterday I became artificial intelligence the real heart is gone the real soul is gone and the clip is dancing from ecstasy comes cus and says the emesis it's Lalo it's Lalo theama went into there and the only reason is lall to be able to ultimately destroy him because if he wouldn't be inside here I don't have access because he thinks he's inside now he comes with all of his troops like in the story The Marshall of the war I got them out into the open field and now I can bring in my real power and boom knock him out that's theat in thek that's the blemish of the Moon and based of the based on this last night I had an epiphany it may be correct it may be incorrect but I'll share it I wondered already for years what happened in our generation that so many people have been abused it's unfathomable relatively we live in one of the best generations of Jewish history with prosperity and freedom that our great grandparents couldn't even dream of I speak to shim Russell Rabbi shim Russell and he tells me he saw 10,000 teenage he says one in four or five Jewish kids in the religious Jewish community before puberty have gone through a traumatic sexual experience whatever that means one in four or five and and I say are you being a little dramatic he says no the to The Other Extreme I speak to AI fishof who has dealt with thousands of of hundreds and thousands of families and kids and he tells me sometimes it's more than one and four or five but even if you want to say that whoever deals with it gives crazy numbers both by boys and by Girls by girls maybe even a little more so in the secular World it exists in the non-jewish world it exists but exists in the the whole Orthodox Jewish world and you're talking about one and four one and five but even if you want to say it's all an exaggeration which it's not zign one and 10 so here this so one in 10 people sitting here in this room so maybe you could say this class is different because it attract people think it attracts uh fine but you go in here to any of the tents so 1 and 10 you're talking about mind staggering numbers mind staggering numbers so on one level it demonstrates how unwell we are we're unwell the world is unwell we have beautiful gadgets we have beautiful homes we have lots of food we make beautiful kadush and mitzvas and weddings it used to be Donald Trump and another two people in the world BL private planes and today in Tom's river and in m and in B Park you can find that won't go not on commercial airplanes they only go on private airplanes so you're talking about unbelievable progress in so many ways and yet on another level there's there's toxicity and illness and unwellness and impurity and Tuma that that is very very deep so that's one part of it but my Epiphany was it there's another part of it this is a generation of healing it's a generation before the GH everything has to be cleansed so I don't think it's a random tragedy and mistake it's horrible but it's not random it's horrible and horrific but it's not purposeless it's not meaningless The Blood Hound the blood hounds can only defeat the enemy because they know the smell of blood they know what it feels like the ultimate T the ultimate Clipper gets destroyed by those who were affected by it by those who their souls went into those places their souls recognize it their souls know what it feels like their souls know what it smells like our healing is not going to come from denying it our healing comes from when we can all realize that it was your soul which is infinite which is divine that went through this journey and the Soul was chosen for it it wasn't a random tragedy that you're a loser like Yad the soul was chosen to go there and it was chosen to go there for one reason it was trusted that it can take on these experiences and take on this pain and not only not be defeated by it but ultimately use it as a springboard to uproot and weed out all the impurity toxicity illness unholiness sickness Brokenness lie deception cruelty especially when it's in the name of Judaism and God and camouflaged by people who are supposedly religious I have no other way of explaining it I get an email I get a few email at least every day at least a few emails sometimes it could be five it could be 10 it could be 50 but every week dozens and dozens and dozens of emails with the same with not the same St but he has another story imagination of clipp is very fertile everybody has another story but it's like so it's like it's like a it's like it's not a because only one a but it seems like it's a it's like endless and whatever it is is from and this is from benra and this is from gold is green this is from Stanford Hill this is from Lakewood this is from m it's everybody it's not like you could say oh this community is a very healthy they got it right somehow nobody got it right Clipper uses everybody and everything it doesn't matter and for sometimes places where there was more where there was more K become more sick that's the point of this MIM that's for sure that's for sure trauma is not caused only by sexual abuse there's verbal abuse there's emotional abuse there's emotional neglect which is not even abuse in a way that's more abusive because at least if I'm abused I could say there's an abuser and there's abused emotional neglect your parents were sadim father was in SCH all day your mother was s all day they're both sadim huh and there's intergenerational stuff and epigenetics yeah and there's bullying and there's emotional neglect and there's so many different experien and then there's what's called developmental trauma a person sits in a school for 10 years and feels like a failure even though the principal is nice and the teacher is nice and at the end of the year he gets a plaque for Midas I heard from Dr David palt a psychologist in why teacher of psychology in yu so I heard from him that he was in Camp one year was a kid and he was not athletic and he was not very good m whatever so you know they give the certificates best camper he was not best in sports he was not color War he didn't win he wasn't but they didn't want to insult him so they wrote Good mid which for him meant basically you were the of Camp so you have good Midas so when he came home he didn't even want to show it to his parents he put it in the suitcase like he buried it you know like in a b under T so nobody should act access it but his parents I guess found it and he said his father and mother called him into the kitchen and they looked at it and they said doid we want you to know that this that you're a mench that you have midis for us it matters more than everything else and he said it was that moment you know they they they touched them in such a positive way so a person sits for 10 years if I'm sitting in a school for 10 years or even for 5 years think about yourself adults yeah you're not kids nobody forces you if you sit at a Shear every single day for 8 hours and 99% of it you don't get or doesn't interest you what are you going to feel like after a while and you're forced to be there what are you going to feel like huh you're going to say I'm a loser even though they tell you you have good Midas and you're a cute kid and you're going to get a lollipop and you'll get a milkshake once in a while but ultimately you know and even if they say you're trying hard you feel like a loser so nobody abused anybody I'm these are things we have to be sensitive to what I'm bringing out here though is another point and that is abuse of of sometimes such profound explicit impurity and disgustingness that it's almost unfathomable and it's not that it's most people but you can have one one monster who affects so many people and sometimes hurt people can hurt other people very often not they work on themselves but often hurt people hurt people when somebody has experienced uh prepuberty certain things when they develop puberty a lot of challenges set in so you have to ask is it just a a tragic phenomenon and it's all that's what we have to deal with but I think based on what we're learning that there's a much deeper and very powerful positive element here and that is this is all a preparation for transformation for healing for developing and inculcating in the Jewish people a consciousness of purity of G of redempti it doesn't come without a lot of pain from these people but that pain essentially is the blemish of the Moon allowing itself to be controlled by to take him down and this is the secret of the it's one of those or or rashis you learn as a child and you're like okay it says that the serpent had intimacy with K and he inculcated her with his dirt with his filth what do mean so he says the words is it's a secret what we call a secret if you're writing it so it's not a secret anymore yeah it's a the is it's a secret it's a secret cuz it's a very hidden reality it's very Sinister it's exactly like molestation it happens behind closed doors nobody sees the guy Grooms you for two years and gives you cotton candy every day and and and learns Kish with you and gives you prizes that's how these things are done they're very professional it's a secret means the had intimacy what's intimacy what's b b means intimacy like v v in be is intimacy what's the idea of intimacy intimacy is not that two people are friends that's not intimacy intimacy is they become one flesh and as Rashi says in the child you don't have this is the father this is the mother it's a mixture the genes of the child is tati and momy chromosomes of the mommy and chromosomes of tati the cell is the that starts off this fetus is momy and tati So it's b in the child you don't say oh okay I see your right cheek is from your mother your left cheek is from your father we sometimes say your nose is this one your eyes is this one but the child who who's the child the father and the mother together so what does intimacy accomplish there's no more two there's one you are inside of the other person the other person is inside of you it's connection So when you say the comes into it doesn't just mean he speaks to intimacy of with means at some point doesn't know who she is and who the snake is that's the what happens if the snake gives me advice and I could say this is the snake speaking then I'm good b means it's intimate the now becomes part of when you're married to somebody yeah you're part of that person hopefully it's a very good thing if it's not a snake if it's a snake my sister-in-law told me say years ago she went for color classes this is the early ' 80s so there was an old woman like got one of these who get teaching so she gets up to the girls and she says girls I'm going to be honest with you okay a certain percentage of you will realize you ended up with a lemon that was the opening to to her colge classes boom you're not going to have to wait 20 years I'm telling you right now some of you will realize you ended up with a lemon and others with an EST now you have to figure out who's the lemon who's the EST right gives foron them how to figure out a lemon from an estri but for all of them you have to C cut open the EST you can't see it on the outside there force on him you have to cut open the EST so what's the is not a simple thing it's that at the moment that moment H what happens at the what's what do you care if a tree has good and evil that's the worst before theas there was also evil but it wasn't mixed means I don't know what is and I don't know what I'm looking at a person you have a child he's looking at a person the person looks like an ad the person person screams KES KES the person is a the person may unfortunately be a too but they're a snake the person is a snake the person is a venomous serpent there is Venom that comes from him he is he's he's controlled by Tuma could be by sexual Tuma or by other forms of t a beard he has and P he has and put and he could also know sh came to the he say he said I learned the gamar the question of the gar taught me anything or not I'm not saying dka person you can have a person who doesn't know any of these things however the comes but this comes in and I don't know who I am I don't know who he is that's the challenge of it's it's that's the lethal element of it and that's what happens that's the challenge of being entangled with the Clipper and that's why it's you rule over me because you took me over and for years I may not even know the difference this is intense stuff really I'm already depleted from this sh huh B sh we got to get to Bitter Shain but you can't get to bit sheni if you don't go through bit is you know why because then I take the clip it to bit sheni too you can't get to B Shen without B people made that mistake they want to take a spaceship and go straight to the Moon they don't realize that the Clipper comes within the spaceship it's very important this we want to go up but the only way I can go up is if I get rid of my if I'm carrying excrement with me it's going up together with me and it's going to block everything and it's a humbling process because I already got rid of it I got rid of some of it but you have to purge everything you have to purge everything when you purge everything you can go up huh you can't go go to the mikah with the sherids the r says why because of the Sher is in the mik I'm in the mik it's a beautiful place but the sherid doesn't let me become pure so that's the whole idea here so there's aam and I have to acknowledge that that Adam took control over me but don't think for a moment that your core was compromised your soul was not sold your soul was sent and the reason it was sent is because of its power because of its courage what you say shame yeah the the one of the most Sinister forms of clipper is shame and and it's it's so Sinister because it uses because shame is a good thing we say the Jewish people are you have Bush you blush you're shy you're sensitive yeah in a way yeah it's good the bush is it's the opposite of aity and then and aggressive brazenness listen there's a lot of people who get upset at me for talking about this openly including in today's class I don't think people sitting here cuz you keep on coming back so apparently you're not too appalled but there's people I always get letters where I meet people and they say G talk about adite talk about Kusha what do you have to talk about this so I say we have thousands and thousands of sh about beautiful topics right and most people don't talk about this I'm from the only few Mish so what do you have to listen to it so why do I talk about it the reason is because after every such class I get probably 10 emails of people who say that they were completely destroyed they wanted to take their lives they were in a depression and finally they felt a little empathy and understanding of what they went through without telling them their whole life who tells them sh themselves they're they're their worst enemies CU that's what the abuser did that's the worst part of it after everything that happened I'm alone in the world you know sandok told me he says trauma is not what happened trauma is what's happening right now trauma is not the event trauma is the loneliness that was created it's what I told myself as a result of the event somebody can go through events if they had a mother or a father or somebody else to really be there with them I'm not going to say they're not not experiencing pain but they're in a completely different situation it's the loneliness I'm completely lonely and there the shame feeds into that loneliness you're going to say a word everybody's going to look at you and they'll throw you on the tracks of the train your family will be ruined forever so what happens to that so the result of that is devastating we have to speak up everybody has to speak up I told you people who experience this they smell it they know right away but we don't have a culture where people can speak people have to speak about this there's therapy but there's Al to be enlightened to be a weird to be educated to communicate on this level to educate children what's right and wrong to empower children to empower teenagers and to stop making people feel that they're the only crazy people in the whole New York City even though what they're feeling there's millions of people feeling to be able for them to be able to share for them to be able to express themselves we don't have to be afraid of talking about truth authenticity a Judaism that can't face truth is not worth anything if all of Judaism if what Judaism needs to survive is to cover up what's happening then it's not worth it if this is what God amounts to that you have to cover up truth what type of God is it so it's another we're worshiping so what do we have to call so we should call ourselves what we are if yish doesn't amount to truth if for yish to survive we we have to cover up corruption abuse lies deception right impurity it's not worth anything I can go to the Catholic Church they they also know how to cover up things I can go to others who know how to cover up things so what 4,000 years of yish gu amounts to that you're not let to speak about what's going on I can't understand that well here everybody speaks they don't have to email but I'm not pessimistic I'm very optimistic because I think that what we're learning here is is the source of all healing and it's the truth you see truth is more powerful than lies Ms prevails Ms May ER it may be buried deep in the ground but it comes out reality always prevails that's its nature it's real if it's real it prevails fakeness is powerful but not really powerful because it has no substance so truth will prevail and Truth is prevailing because truth is real you could you could scream you could ban you can ex you know you could put truth in you could tell people don't listen to it you could say it's the worst thing that ever happened but it's true you know the V from the C it says inim that when Hashem created the world there were teams right EMS said don't create the world EMS truth told don't create the world because this world is filled with lies so truth said don't create the world H did before it knew it smelled Emma smelled it that's what it said shom said Peace said don't create the world they're all going to fight said yeah they're going to do a lot of create the world and SED said they're going to do create the world so what do you do you have two against two so the the says took EMS and he threw it away so now it's two against one against fine two against one he threw away the EM means you can't find that's what the a difficult M to understand so the I don't understand why did he throw away EMS why didn't he throw away Shalom so he says because if EMS is here I don't care how many opinions are against it it's going to remain true you understand you can have one opinion of EMS and a billion opinions against it who's going to win win the one opinion that's the nature of Truth means people think means you follow the majority follow the majority when both views have truth in them and you have to know which one is doesn't mean when you have many opinions that are full of it and one opinion of course I once got an a teenager once came to see me and said he doesn't understand why we're Jewish we should become Christian I said why he says says you should follow the majority well there's only two and a half billion Christians and 14 million Jews and from the 14 million Jews most Jews are not observant I don't know two three million so I said a better question you don't have to go to chrisan goes to the Jews themselves most Jews are not he says good question I said the Muslims one point 8 billion Muslims right but the question of course is based on a Mis doesn't mean to follow the majority when the majority is making a mistake if I know the directions in a certain way everybody could be screaming it's wrong you don't follow the r if it's em I don't care if it's it's notem May R doesn't mean it's true R only means Unfortunately they have a lot of power that's what it means doesn't mean anything you have to know when it means something if you have a sanedrin that's aanin and andik and are having a debate and they're both using the formula of then if you have a bunch of criminals or a bunch of ignorant people who are clueless and not interested in knowing and not knowing anything thing make sense what I'm saying does the majority agree with me does the majority here agree with me or disagree with me it's irrelevant that's the point it's irrelevant listen when you hear truth you know it right unless you're very sick when you hear truth you know it and if you don't you need some x-rays you need some X-rays I hope this is not coming across as a depressing she cuz it's not it's actually a very Redemptive message that's how I see it it's a painful message but it's a very Redemptive message such when the takes over the of K it's to its own detriment all of the entanglement is to its own detriment because the truth is that the soul cannot become impure the only thing can become impure is the way we perceive the soul it's like the Moon the Moon is not really blemished the Moon looks blemished and that looking the fact that it looks blemished is important cuz that's what we see but the Moon is is not blemished the Nish is never blemished because clippa can't blemish the Nish what's blemished is the way we experience the soul and that was a sacrifice the soul made in order to be able to destroy once and for all all the powers of impurity within itself within its family within its home within its Community within its nation and ultimately within the world so when you're dealing with such things don't get discouraged and don't fall into despair because you weren't sold you were sent and the Soul knew exactly what it was going into and the Soul was happy to go into it even though you have been crying for years and that itself the so new to because the love inside of you is much more powerful than all of the dirt and filth that comes from others who are perpetrators and who are unfortunately have been stuck in Clipper for too many years and never learned how to liberate themselves from it and you're not making the same mistake so be thankful they say when the CL Beba was in one of the camps so there was a Nazi who asked him if he believes that the Jews are the chosen people so the Clen beg said yeah so he gave him a kick in his head you know with his boots these strong good-looking handsome tall SS soldiers gave him a Ki in his head and he fell and he was gushing blood and he said you the cursed Jew you still believe the says that the Judah that the God chose the Jewish people he says AV of course so he took his club and he beat him and he was literally in a river of blood he didn't think he would survive and he says how in the world do you could believe that Jews are the chosen people look look where we are and look where you are they said that the close looked up at him and he said as long as you're the ones doing it and not we then we're the chosen people we're not murdering children we're not murdering innocent people you are so we're the chosen people that's what he said there was a yid he he was uh he taught in Mount Kisco by Vice Mandel in U in Mount Kisco Nitra Yeshiva name was Rd first first he was in awz he once said something incredible say only the Nazis the Nazis a Nazi came in an SS Commander came into the Barrack and he said I'm blind on one eye one eye is real one eye is fake if anyone could identify which eye is real and which eye is fake which eye I could see from and which eye I can't there's a whole pot of food you put in a whole pot of food you get the pot of food but if you make a mistake I shoot you on the spot now it's hard for us to understand what hunger means but you talking about people who were hungry 24/7 and all you could you know when you imagine you have y Kipper 3 days in a row all you think about all day is what food food food water that no water no food you were given a drop of a little bit of food you couldn't survive on it so all it takes away your humanness you know we we could think about we could talk about all these sophisticated things only because there food because because I have a drink in front of me right if for three four five six seven days you have a drop of water you stop thinking like a human being you become a mosquito looking for food like an insect so just understand what the Jews went through people don't understand what that means wasn't just the torture and the death it was even if you were alive you were dead all you could think about is food so he comes with this pot of food right and he says if you identify the Blind Eye from the real eye you get the food but if not if you make a mistake I shoot you so nobody said anything they'd be hungry but they'll be alive there was one Al and he said yeah I'll tell you and he pointed to the eye and he said this is the fake eye he said you're right he gives him the food he says but how did you know DAV first was there you know what this Jew answer you have to be astonished he says from your real eye I always see the hatred that you have to the Jewish people I looked at which eye I don't see hatred and I knew that's the fake eye I didn't see your hatred over there I knew that's not a real eye first said gal that's why B says in I am a man who has a blind eye three times he says it I don't I never heard a blind person walk around say by the way I'm a prophet and I have a blind eye by the way I'm a great man and I'm Hunchback by the way I have a fine you're blind you're blind the answer is billum was blessing the Jewish people right but he hated the Jewish people he said I have a blind eye and that eye doesn't hate the Jewish people I can't see negativity his blindness allows him not to not to hate them so much so this he explained based on what he saw in awz what I'm saying that what I'm saying is that it's important to understand who the winner is when the said I feel chosen because you're beating me I'm not beating you I'm not murdering German children you're murdering Jewish children it didn't make him feel good he lost his whole family but it made him feel chosen made him feel chosen so everybody has to remember it could have been also the other way around imagine if you were the perpetrator and your perpetrator was the victim how would life feel then I know it's not easy to be hurt by somebody trust me I know this but just imaginea the other way if you had to live if you were sitting in my classes and you had to live your whole life knowing that you killed somebody else how would that feel that's what the CL B said as long I I I I'm going to come out of this war knowing I didn't murder innocent people you're not going to come out of this war that way I don't think the Nazi even understood what he said because if he would have understood he wouldn't have been a Nazi maybe he did I don't know but the ver is the Insight is important that's a form of Victory because the perpetrator unfortunately for him the kip is so powerful it took away everything took away hisim it ate him up the victim you were hurt but you didn't murder anybody you were murdered you didn't murder anybody that that's the beginning of realizing that you're in a much more powerful place cuz your soul is pure and then the moment you realize that all the negativity is the clip not you that's already a path to Redemption okay I have a woman's class in a few minutes 9:30 so we'll take a break here and uh but I really want to finish the m so tomorrow we'll have a class okay 7:45 Wednesday morning see you then have a beautiful meaningful inspiring and truthful and authentic day and don't be afraid of anything the only thing we have to fear is fear victims coming out with the stories the perpetrators probably enough of course they're they're they're hiding ah so okay Devol it so his perpetrators are corus or what story they need to do cha but it's it's painful victims is peret I cannot even imagine exactly that's my point as painful as it is for victims at least I know I didn't kill anybody I have pain I have to deal with it it's a whole different level of of of so you understand how much they're running away from it that's why they hate when you talk about this cuz it's shining a light and they can't have a light shine on it they're running away their whole life from it there those of them who repressed it they don't even know they did it subconscious it's subconscious by them than you you're welcome thank you for being here and actually for agreeing with me even though for truth it's not n but still feels 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