Why Only Reb Akiva Survived the Mystical Orchard

so what did we learn last what what did we learn in last class we spoke about the rhythm of life life has a rhythm it's called ratsay and shaiv razian shaiv is a term from yechezkul the prophet ezekiel chapter one he describes the angelic beings means longing yearning running aspiring shaiva is returning it's the balance between tension and resolution in a person's life dr ebba said it begins with avram the sense of always traveling i always have to move on and the nasa is returning coming back he represents he explains this is fire and water it's represented by the elements of fire and water fire is the longing the passion is always ascending fire is always rising water will soon see as the antithesis of fire usually the two don't coexist if there's fire there's no water there's water there's no fire but life is about the balance between the two that's the rhythm of life longing and returning this is all the beginning of the explanation why was there a need for a shafer at the giving of the tire was this a concert was the need of a musical instrument and even if you want a musical instrument they're better with musical instruments more appealing more pleasing to the ear than the ram's horn as we all know have a violin have a violin at that uh i'm laughing it's not so funny i once met a person in a particular country and she was a progressive spiritual leader of a particular synagogue and she told me it's from your corner of the world rabbi daniel and she told me that rosh hashanah and her synagogue actually instituted no no i said from your corner of the world it was europe i was once in europe and i met a female progressive spiritual leader of a synagogue i'm using the word progressive because i think that's the word they use in europe here we use different words and she told me that in her synagogue she substituted on rosh hashanah the shaifer with a violent mystery she told us to me we were sitting in the in the lobby of a hotel i said why she said the scheifer gives migraine headaches to 100 sounds the violin it's a beautiful concept right so this alternative question it's fascinating dalton ebert's question is if you want a musical instrument use something else use a violin use a harp use a cello use a guitar use a liar like we say in the morning right every single morning in the hallelujahs but then there's been navel a liar and a hinoy and a harp and you have saif tambourine and mahal drums mini various symbols sulcelei shama tilts but here we use a shaft so the beginning of this whole of whole explanation is that there's a rhythm of life and as i explained last time in last week's class we see it in the very this is not just a rhythm that is coincidental this is essential to life because it's the way we breathe it's the rhythm of exhaling and inhaling it's also the rhythm of the heart responsible for our life our circulation with the heart both the heart the heart contracts and then the heart expands and there are the special muscles that are responsible for this it's the incredible miracle of of of living organisms of how the heart works of biology and the same is true with our lungs because the job the job of our lungs is to provide our bodies with oxygen with new life ruach and also to get rid of the waste gas of carbon dioxide so we have this rhythm where i i inhale and then and then you exhale so this was our our this is the summation now let's go further inside if you if you didn't open your source sheet yet if you're on zoom you can open it on zoom if you're on the yeshiva.net you can open the source on the issue with net people who are watching the replay source sheet always remains on the issue without nuts you can always see it there okay so the alternate now continues again we're on page 146 we did the first paragraph we're middle of the second paragraph close to the end of the second paragraph the line begins it's approximately let's see how many lines from the top 146 column two one two three four five six seven eight nine ten eleven twelve thirteen fourteen fifteen seventeen eighteen nineteen twenty two one twenty two twenty three twenty four twenty five lines approximately twenty five lines from the top of the line starts mainly hashem what it is in the service of hashem there is the longing there is the yearning to be subsumed in the ultimate truth and the ultimate reality which comes from a person's deep realization and awareness of what the world is and where the world comes from and the limits of our knowledge and our experience of truth in our world as we explained at length and therefore there is this desire to be subsumed and he compared it to the verse you crave for your husband hashem tells kaval which is really an allegory for life where there's this desire that i want to be subsumed in the light of infinity like a flame that ascends upwards on its own this was the concept of raza that al-tarab elaborated upon what ratsay is in life what ratsay is in the service of god what ratsu is in judaism he says it's the element of fire it exists in the heart be nalibu and this if he had syria it's called imratz it's the concept of fire islam raymond we say god makes peace between the fire and the water among him among his own angels there's the concept of fire and there's the concept of water and this is the highest ratsavers who are aware of their source are on fire like a torch kamara halapidim and they are affected by this constant longing and constant yearning that we call rotsen you can never get enough of it because there's always more awareness and deeper awareness and hence a deeper craving and the concept of razzie is really you know there's to be and to be not right is to be or not to be there's to be and to be not this is the desire to be not to to melt away of course it can only come with deep trust that you're not going to be hurt because if there's no trust on the contrary i don't want to melt away i want to defend myself i recoil i i don't want to be exploited so we're talking about razzie and sheriff comes from a very healthy rhythm where there is no there's no trauma that impairs that that natural flow just like in a relationship just like in a marriage there is that real desire to be able to be subsumed in the other but only if it comes from a place of of confidence and wholeness because if it's coming from a wound then to the contrary i'm going to resent it and it's going to undermine a relationship and that's why razzie and sheriff is always a balance the healthy balance between these two trends in a person's life and dalton continues after we explained what after we explained what razi is he now goes to shuv and as we said what is shruff shuv is the returning so he says after ratsay comes which means returning kameimer this is the expression again in sephie syria if your heart is racing you must return to oneness it's a fascinating expression and say foreign is the foundation it's one of the probably the earliest kabbalistic texts that we have and there the sephie syria says if you're running come back to one what does this mean this is connected to the element of water is the element of fire shrub is the element of water and this represents the brain the mind rather than the heart the age is primarily felt in the heart it's a heart experience it's a very emotive experience the mayan the element of water is associated he says means wisdom is a combination of two words which means the power of what or the expression of desire is pashta what have you found maya datta what do you know what does this mean the ability it's the humility of a person realizing that as much as i try to understand i can't really wrap my brain around reality and it's okay not to be okay it's okay that i don't understand it's okay that i don't grasp the mind is a blessing a brain has to be used to its maximum as we always emphasize but part of using your brain to its maximum ability every person according to their capacity is the ability and the awareness to be able to say ma what that curiosity that inquisitiveness when wisdom becomes a tool of arrogance you know i say the worst thing you can hear from a doctor is everything there is to know about biology i know the worst thing you can hear from a therapist is everything there is to know about how the human brain works i know the worst thing you can hear from a rabbi is everything there is to know about truth i know it's the worst thing you can hear and it's people you want to run away from because if there's ever if if you know everything then obviously there's not going to be any growth here on the contrary so ma kayak is the ability to say what it's the curiosity it's the inquisitive it's the understanding that as much as i understand there's so much more that i need to learn there's so much more that i don't understand or the famous expression of jewish philosophy the ultimate knowledges that i don't know it's the ultimate knowledge so a person reaches that point and says ma pispasto what have you discovered pispus is to search and discover maya data what do you know and this is what creates the humility of returning of returning of of understanding what is my mission what is my my role and this is the element of water because fire is that inspiration that that search that yearning i want more and more and more shuv returning resolution comes from the humility of asking myself so what is my mission right here right now and it's to be present to my reality that's what he says that's the expression come back to oneness this is unbelievable this also comes from we said that comes from an understanding of when the person understands and the way the world articulates divine infinity is in a very filtered and limited way and therefore the person wants and yearns and longs for the essence says also comes from just like the ratsay comes from the shiv it's an unbelievable art the shu also comes from but from a different element the shuff comes from the understanding that i don't understand that i can't comprehend and therefore there's a certain awe there's a certain reverence there's a certain humility there's the understanding that my role is to embrace what is so this is the rhythm between tension between longing and resolution and returning relaxation in other words there's two elements ratsoy is the longing i want to grasp more i want to understand more i want to experience more i want more ecstasy that's razi what is shuv shuv is even more humility shuv is a deeper humility shuv is the understanding that i don't understand shuv is the concept of map it's the ability to snow that whatever i understood it's as though i didn't understand anything not because i didn't understand anything and not because i didn't try but because truth is really infinite it's completely beyond beyond my brain and this creates a certain respect a reverence it's it's it's true it's the opposite it's the returning it's where the person becomes silent the person embraces his or her position that's what he's going to explain is now this doesn't mean that a person experiences shuv the water completely quenches the thirst of fire and there's no fire anymore and that the person completely loses their thirst and their yearning no that's not what happens the heart again will experience a deeper form of fire and thirst although maduro's asia shall have his brazil says and the torch of fire the flame will only grow with more intensity with more of a commission as again the expression of syria he says god takes out fire from water god extracts fire from the water what does it mean god extracts the fire from the water so the al-taraba says that from the shove you come to a deeper rat after the mayan from the mind you come to a deeper ratsay and he continues the kamehameha discusses there's many different types of fires there's a helles there's a fire that eats fire that consumes a fire that drinks which is an expression from sarcasm cause i'll say that there's a fire that eats and there's a hell of what does this mean there's a fire that consumes but doesn't drink there's a fire that consumes eats and drinks what is this supposed to mean so what altered is explaining here is as follows asia helles is a fire that's lower than water so the water extinguishes it the water can extinguish this fire a sheis a fire that drinks is a fire on the contrary it dries up the water it causes the water to evaporate it it it it drinks up it drinks up the water it drinks up the water like the story by your navi you remember this turbo you navi that they poured he built an altar he was competing against the prophets of idolatry and he asked them to offer a sacrifice to their idol to the bow god and he would offer an offering to hashem and he took the two oxen right and they poured water on his altar and then a fire came down what happened it licked up the water it dried up the water that's called scheisse a fire that drinks there's a fire that gets eaten up so this gets dried up by the water gets extinguished by the water sorry a fire that gets extinguished by the water that's a a shaisa means a fire that drinks up the water in other words this fire dries up the water and the water can't extinguish it sometimes the fire is so intense you pour more and more water but the ferociousness of the fire just causes the water to dry up to be subsumed in the fire so that alternative says the same is true with razia and sheif there's different levels that's what he says there's many different types of fires after the shuv which is water which is shrub it only creates a deeper fire and that fire dries up the water it dries up the water so what happens is the water now over the fire overpowers the water and it increases and then there is a deeper shove that challenges the fire it extinguishes the flame and so on the rhythm of life continues there's always that process that's what he says this is what afram represented he was always in this rhythm i am longing and returning water fire and water is let me explain one moment let's just finish the practice there's fire that transcends water meaning it overpowers the water and then mayamla my lame and then water that overpowers the fire it's just like physically you know you have a fire and you could pour water and pour water it's not happening the water is just it's just becoming dried up in the fire and the fire gets stronger and stronger sometimes it's the other way mayam the milan the water transcends the fire the water actually extinguishes the flames and the flames are out now there's water adroil and this rhythm continues till the greatest of heights until of rama became a conduit for the divine for the divine energy as he will explain what markov is a little later in the mind so you're asking how does this work it's a paradox either you're in a place of either you're in a place of of rats in your place of shuff you're asking a very good question so that's why the al-trebba said rats comes from echoed also comes from everything comes from it comes from an understanding of oneness achara gives rise to ratso and it gives rise to shuff and let's explain what this means what did he say he said shuv comes from mayam it comes from maya data it's the silence it's the humility it's the reverence of it's appreciating the limits of knowledge the limits of experience and therefore it's respecting the boundaries and therefore there's an element of return let's let's let's go deeper into this what are these two elements of razer and shift you need something you can open the door you want to open the door sorry what are these two elements razza is i want more i want more i want to get more i want to put my i want to put my hands on more i want more of you i want more let's take in the human relationships what's the element of rod so he says you're going to have this intense craving i want i want more of you and i want to be part of you and that's an incredible element in a relationship and then there is the antithesis of that and the antithesis of that is the real appreciation that as much as i know of you i really don't there's a respect for otherness there's a respect for boundaries there's a respect for an element in another person that transcends me and in a relationship we must have both there's the element where i want to know you and i do know you and i connect to you and i feel your pulse and you feel my pulse and i want to be able to have the the to be able to be completely vulnerable and vulnerable really means allowing yourself to be embraced by somebody else vulnerability is a risk because if i'm going to get a dagger in my chest if i'm going to be misunderstood or manipulated or mocked or made fun of people sometimes open up to somebody and they're so vulnerable they take over their garments and they completely expose themselves and at that moment it's critical that you know how to hold them you know how to embrace them you know how to be there for them you know how to contain them you know how to be what's called an embracing presence in their life because really they they surrendered you know you could do anything with them but that's a very powerful relationship maybe it's the most powerful moment in a relationship that's one element but then there's another element he says you're running you're running you're running you also have it also comes from oneness what do you mean why if it's oneness i shouldn't go back i should go more i should go more he says no why because this is a respect for boundaries there's something that i don't know about you there's something that i can't touch there's something that that remains yours there's something where i have to be able to respect your boundaries and therefore also respect my boundaries in a relationship there's an element what he says we say the very very deep awareness that as much as i understand and as much as i grasp there's certain elements that transcend me that i simply don't know where my whole thought process just has to cease it has to stop what does it mean it has to stop i have to retreat hashem tells me no she says right i want to go close to the burning bush and what does he say al-tikra yeah don't come here this is not something you can grasp with with your hands with your brain with your presence this is something you grasp through your silence through withdrawing through returning through your through through that stillness you grasp it through stillness um elio navi has that vision you remember we spoke before leona remember that division where uh he sees this fire and he thinks oh that's god and god says no he's not in the fire and then there's a wind this is god no loy hashem and then there's a storm right now there's the still silent voice the still silent voice that's the that's the sound of the divine it's in the stillness where there's also an echad but this is a different type of this is the echo that i experience through not experiencing through through respect through distance through reverence i have to be able to return it's a very very profound idea very profound idea and he says and this shove gives rise to yet a deeper fire there's a fire that will overpower this shroff and then there's water that will overpower the fire and then this fire that will overpower the water and that's how the rhythm goes because you're talking about infinity so it never stops there's water that overpowers the fire and then there's a deeper fire that overpowers this water because it comes from a deeper place because as the person grows there's more awareness there's more sensitivity so now the fire takes over and the fire tells the water i'm taking over and then there's a deeper water that takes over the fire and then there's a deeper fire that takes over the water there's a helles and there's a shaisa there's age that transcends water there's water that transcends ash and that's the process of a little clearer thank you now i have to say something if i'm wounded if my relationships are wounded i can't do this because i'm completely confused i don't know when to get close i don't know when to get far when i get close i'm afraid when i get far i'm afraid i don't know what's distance and what's not distance so we have to appreciate this when i'm wounded the rhythm is not natural it's not organic i have to really create it i have to work it through so we have to appreciate this because this is a rhythm it's like shalom if a person has a problem breathing the exhaling and inhaling are not organic they're not natural they're not happening on their own the same is true with the blood circulation right the heart expanding the heart contracting that's a rhythm it's a rhythm that constantly continues and it allows for the circulatory system to function and for life to continue because the blood oxygenates the entire body and sends the nutrients that every cell needs throughout the body and then it can come back and release oxygenate the blood that has to be oxygenated and then start to cycle again so the part the bottom line is that we have to appreciate that if there is uh if there's a wound in my system so then my brain can't operate in this rhythm of mind and heart and i have to really work it through to be able to have that trust of ratsey and to be able to have that trust of sheif so i'm just explaining this because in people's life it's important to identify when these things are broken in our system but this is the core that echoed has two components one component is if it's one ah rock site and then also the show development are ruined if one is in this broken relationship i understand rock side because you're not going to want to run to something if you're holding on to your own fragmented sense of self because you're going to be afraid to right you understand why a broken person can't experience right why am i hearing an echo yes we all hear the echo you all hear the echo the whole time okay no problem it could be there was something a video oh okay so you understand why a broken person can't experience ratsoy because it's too dangerous right i need to wear a bulletproof vest all day and all night i got that what about the shave so so that's why the mimer says why there's two types of shaves there's a shoe of where i'm running away from you that's something else that's not what we're talking about shiva's are not running away from you also comes from comes from a deeper understanding that i don't understand shruff comes from the fact that i realize that i can't grasp i can't control my yearning i want more is is amazing it's beautiful but it's ultimately rooted in a more limited reality where i feel that my eye can confetch the truth can grasp it also comes it comes from a deeper it comes from the awareness of of the bittle that all the hassagas that i have all the comprehensions that i have melt away like i didn't comprehend anything that itself is is the experience of shove comes from a deeper awareness in you and when um when i'm broken i always need to be in control so ratsay won't work and shuv also won't work they'll be shoved in the sense that i'll detach but that's not sure i'll detach i'll run away from you shuv is returning he says comes from from a deeper awareness of and therefore the person really has to respect the distance the boundaries and it works both ways when there's a relationship it works both ways shiv is an element of or shows an element of betel shove is an element of water and that's the concept of water the fire ascends and the water descends of course of course that that's the end that's later in the miami how the two come together but that's the rebels is not like oh i'm going away from achad to get back my own space. he says it comes from from a deeper understanding of the relationship that's it's a very subtle idea this one way of explaining shove is i need space [Laughter] sorry i gotta disconnect from you right what he's saying here is the disconnect is also a connection in fact it's a deeper connection it's a connection that appreciates a deeper element of echad the element of that i can't grasp and therefore i have to remain i have to remain put i'll i'll give you an example i once heard this from the it's an incredible interpretation i think it comes from i think it says in the eponymi office the panami office was is a book on hummish by a student of the market repentance a levy horowitz known as the author of safer half law and suvis office hashem tells me you will see my back my face you will not see so i once heard from the rabbit this was purim tough shin mem putim 1988 and i have to say this was a purim declavart i don't know if it would be said other times of the year it was a pudum de kavarte that said you have to read the passage as follows listen to this you're going to see my back ufonai my face you will also see how loya wrote by not saying oh funnie my face you'll also experience loyal but through the absence of trying to see my back you'll see upon eye my face loyal this is something you can only experience by not seeing it's not something you can experience by seeing why because if i'm looking at it it's too evasive it's too it's too nebulous it's too transcendent it's true lawyer there's a concept in the rambam called sachi versus means knowing something in the positive and then knowing something only in the negative i don't know what you are i know what you're not is that a form of knowledge it's deeper knowledge because i can't always know what you are but i could know what you are from knowing what you're not and that allows me to touch a deeper part of you i can't grasp it in my hand if i grasp it in my hand it it dissolves i lose it i can't see it you can only grasp through it's the called mama dhaka it's the silence it's the retreating it's the oar it's the bittle it's the it's where so to speak i shut down i don't shut i don't mean i shut down psychologically i shut down from fear when i shut down meaning i i i melt i seize i'm not an i'm not in an emotion of ecstasy of of running i i i i want i want i don't want i just want to remain silent it's it's it's the ultimate mindfulness but it's it's where i allow existence to cease from consciousness i'm not going to go grasp something there's the fire there's the inspiration which is amazing the ecstasy but then there's something deeper and that's the water wherever the person is it's the ultimate stillness where what i'm really looking for is that my consciousness should cease seize not in the sense sees that i wanna die sees in the sense that i i'm not trying to to get anything to control anything to grasp anything to understand it to put it in any type of box even the most spiritual box it's a deeper effort next paragraph third paragraph of the mimer milos madres this is all true and it's cons continuously existing and vibrating in the spirituality of the worlds and in the life of the human beings that always walk before god and in the life of the angels but not everybody can merit or not everybody merits to be able to experience this spirit from above to always perpetually be in this state of messiah and this is why hashem gives us the torah and the toyota is comprised of mitzvahs physical mitzvahs that require physical material activity because in them and through them every single human being no matter who you are no matter what type of sensitivity you have and no matter what level of consciousness you live every single person can ex can be in this place of vinasaya rats like avraham avinu this devacus this intimacy that of ramavinu constantly experienced rudolph saying which is the rhythm of intimacy that's what we call it the rhythm of intimacy the rhythm of relationships this is something that hashem gave this gift to every single person the explanation is because in the life of toyota in the physical life of toyota and the actions of toyota you have fire and water so therefore through taurah mitzvahs every jew experiences this razzie and shrive at least on some level even if only in action and he explains today is compared to water the gemara says in massachusetts tightness that toyota is compared to water tomorrow it says and the gemara explains in tennis just as water always descends to the lowest surface as long as the water could continue to go down to the lowest place it will go down so the gamora says the same is true the turn what's the comparison the comparison is as he says in tanya chapter four that the toyota is like water it's the divine wisdom and will but it descended and became incarnated within the physical text the ink on the parchment of tyre and aveem and within the physical concrete examples within the mitzvahs within the words within the concepts and within all of the commandments so terror is compared to water vinicro al-tomrumaya mayam it's so easy to lose the depth of what he's saying here this is the meaning don't say water water twice now for this you see the alternate refers it constantly to to sources and you have to know the sources here he's referring to one of the most mystical stories in the whole of the talmud this is a story in gemara messages page 14. the gemara says four people ascended into the spiritual orchard of mysticism rabbi akiva ben azai benzayma and elisha benavoya the results for three of them were catastrophic one of them died one of them lost their sanity and the other one became a heretic alicia benavoya but the gemara says when they started to go into the orchard yakiva sent out a notice to them and rebi akiva said when you're going to reach the higher realities of the orchard do not say maya do not say water water what is the meaning of the words of rabbi akiva the commentators struggle with this rabbi akiva says you're going to see something you're going to see don't say my mayam you're going to want to say my mind water water don't say maya maya wow this is very heavy what did rebecca say so there's many deep deep interpretations here including the altar the bellatania has different interpretations and different discourses what akiva was saying let's see what he says here don't say mayam twice what was ruby akiva saying there's two levels of water there's the higher water and there's the lower water you remember on the monday of creation what did god do the first day everything was water everything was water what happens the second day the second day of creation god says let there be a firmament in the water and it's going to separate the higher water from the lower water above the heavens below the heavens the water we experience here on earth in the oceans and the lakes and the ponds and the streams and the canals in the seas and the rivers and of course in the wellsprings that's the water below there's the water above the water above the heavens it's called miami we have a tendency to say maya mayam there's two waters there's the higher order there's the low whatever it says and one of the interpretations the alternate gives it another nightmare is do not distinguish between the higher worlds and the lower worlds because that is going to lead either to death or to insanity or to heresy and this was the challenge of alicia benavoi benzema water water rabbi akiva was the only one who went in in peace and came out in peace because he didn't say water water there's no two waters here the altar debbie takes the same idea but he develops in toyota al taymur ruby akiva cautioned them don't separate the water of toyota the higher water and the lower water weaning it's the sea of chakma and it's the first yurt of hashem's name yud and the hay and avane the first yud which is a seminal point that's called maya malayanam the higher water that's the sea of chachma the sea of wisdom is it transcends the revelation of thyroid says that emerges from allah the revelation of torah is post experience the maya malyanam of turtle that is in other words there is tied in the way it is rooted in god's inner chakra god's inner wisdom that's called the sages called it the sea of wisdom that's the first year of hashem's name yut kevafke in this level the toyota is not revealed it's not tangible it can't be revealed it's beyond revelation it's beyond words it's beyond descriptions it's beyond definitions that's why the desire says that's why the zodiac says in aramaic means comes out it emerges from in other words the torah that we have the torah that we can think about that we can meditate on that we can learn that we can grasp is already the way that toyota assumes an identity of ideas and of thoughts that's only post this is back to what we discussed many times about versus bina bina is concrete knowledge developed idea is the moment a person has an epiphany it comes from nowhere it doesn't really come from nowhere it comes from what's called iron it says in job kahma comes from i and literally it's a question where you're going to find but says based on a gemara insight comes we translate as nothingness but it's really translated as no thing-ness comes from a place beyond thingness beyond concreteness where does a new idea come from where does a new epiphany come from it comes from hamas it comes from an unconscious place where the ideas are not concrete so there is terror that comes out of khachma so is that first flash of consciousness but it's still completely nebulous it's not tangible it's called the sea of the ocean of it's water that has no end it doesn't have an end it's ain't safe it's infinite you can't grasp infinity you can't wrap your brain around infinity that's going to say what what what did you just say it's like whoa what ma that's all i can say ma shrabenu said about himself we are what are we you're attacking me like i have this big ego and i want to control you came from my she comes from the water remember maisha means i was drawn out of water that's why moshe can't speak why can't moisture speak so the balatani explains and it already comes from the maharao because speaking is articulation it's defining things in words maison of comes from a place that's beyond words not only beyond physical worlds be words beyond spiritual words i had a slip there i said spiritual world spiritual words the same thing words come from worlds beyond worlds is beyond words beyond concept comes out of khachma that's where it comes out it comes out of khachma and that's when it can assume some form of concretization some form of spiritual legal academic brilliant profound ideas on every level of reality but only posed but what's the source of territory that's beyond con but beyond concretization beyond grasping that's the higher water that's the higher yud that's the first year with miami you're with me welcome but the tide is like water it descended you tata it comes into the lower yud but there's what's called udila the higher you'd and you tata the lower yud and that's hashem's name alev nunyud adna i love dalit right we say baruch ends with ayud so you have the unit on the top and you're on the bottom the unit on the top is the first year of youtube the unit on the bottom is the last unit of allah of dallas and it's two different names of hashem yud kevke is called shema etsum the essential name adna is associated with malchus the last of the 10th spheres my master ad is my master this is the last youth this is the terror coming from the first year to the last year if you at the fabregan of yuchabad i told over the story of the al-taraba when he hired a teacher for his son and the teacher asked him how do you teach and he said you always start off with an aleph versus an aleth ayud fun ayud funtin dasanalev [Music] said that the beginning of education is with the letter aleph what's an aleph you remember what an aleph looks like you could look in the miami you'll see there's a unit on the top to say you're on the bottom there's a line that connects them that's the two utes he's referring here there's the unit on the top that's on top of the aleph there's the unit on the bottom of the aleph and you need that line the diagonal line to connect the two udes so there's mayam and this mayan there's the water on the top and there's water on the bottom there's terror in its source what is it pure answer of pure divinity every word entirely every concept entitled every mitzvah type every story entertainer every syllable every vowel every punctuation every cantillation every verse sentence paragraph chapter section story episode law mitzvah every nuance every nook and cranny of torah terrorism itself tell you about what is it rooted in it could be traced back to absolute undefined infinity how do you know something is real tata that even in its lowest concrete manifestation it's really just a projection of an embodiment of pure infinity dalton said don't make me two orders don't make a mishitsa between negl and plymouth don't turn them into two waters there's no toyota on top and tight on the bottom it's one maya ah you're there welcome and that's the way the toyota assumes a physical incarnation you can open up a commission understand what it says at least on a certain level you can open up a mishnayous open up a gemara and at least on some level you understand you know what it's talking about you see the scenarios the laws the concepts even the logic that's all tied of the way it ascends the way it descends into so if my sir kim it's just gosh with and then the toyota gives you a blueprint of mitzvos to actually physically do this how i light a candle and how i wrapped villain and how i make titties and how i build a sukkah it's very physical practical nuanced details it's a routine there's rituals there's a blueprint there's a manual this is kosher this is not kosher this is prohibit this is prohibited this is permissible this person is guilty this person is innocent this you embrace this you reject this is the last letter of yud of adna al of dal nunyuk which represents malchus hashems which pervades all over the world what's malchus is the way divinity articulates itself as the engine of the universe that's what malcolm says hashem wants to be a melody wants to lead the world so this is where godliness becomes the battery of every cell of every atom aval al calls that comes back and says despite all of this the source of the lower water is the higher order this is hashem's intimate inner malhouse the malchus of the infinite one himself it comes down and assumes physical incarnations to become the malchus the kingship that vibrates and animates and vivifies all of the world's and the lower water so rabbi akiva tells his colleagues al-tohim rumayamayam the moment you make a differentiation and say there's water and there's water you won't be able to survive the pardes either you stay down here or you go up there alicia benavoya became a heretic benzoyma benaza one of them passed away he left the world the other one could not remain in the vessels in the structure of the world too much he went up one of them died and one of them lost their sanity as we call it hits its vaniva hits its vermace alicia benavoya the other way around he detached he became a heretic keith said spinatus it's unbelievable when they want to say became a heretic what do they say they say he plucked the plants what does it mean he plucked the plants he uprooted the plants he uprooted miami went into the higher waters elizabeth we went into the lower waters rubi akiva said there's no higher waters and lower waters it's all one that's the that's the nakuda samus that's what i'll tell ever tried to reveal there's no maya millionaire not because there's no obviously there's higher and lower but don't get stuck in the outer definition the panemias of mayam taktorinum is my email and the preliminaries of my malayanam comes into the mayan so what does this mean in today even the way the trader assumes its lowest so to speak not its lowest it looks like its lowest incarnation what is it it's the higher water it's of einstein your own intimate infinite quality that becomes he says it's the same thing this is the whole nakuda of the maya merbasilagani base the obama that we learned the six classes ambassador i hope some of you went through it if not go through it what's the nakuda over there that even in the lowest level of reality you could still see the whole aim scythe everything is ain't soft everything is light it carries atmos i it's finite it's finite when you look at it from a finite perspective it's really another manifestation of infinity in other words there's no space in the world that doesn't allow you to connect from there with ultimate authenticity you hear the vart anybody knows what i'm talking about there's no space in the world that allows you that doesn't allow you to connect from that ultimate authenticity survey says don't split the mayans the mayan of toronto that is the maya malayana you're learning a piece of you're learning a discussion about a borrower or a renter or an unpaid custodian or paid six custodian or an animal that wrecked a field and how much you have to pay whatever you're learning you're learning in scythe you have to be able to see it now this doesn't mean you should go into abstractions you have to understand them i am you have to grasp it and understand it and dissect it and analyze it but what is it that's really my emojina it's infinity manifested in a finite form so the bakiva says don't split up the physical mitzvahs which are miami from their source which is my malia because all the mitzvahs it may seem like a very physical technical mitzra what is it it's pure rats and alien it's pure divine the divine intimate desire which essentially is ungraspable and essentially unfathomable this is rabbi akiva and this is the way you can go into the pirates you can go into the orchard you can come out and as i'm watching the snow come down you see that a very physical world with trees that seem barren and lifeless in this long cold winter in new york suddenly becomes bedecked with whiteness like the cloud of glory that protects the world becomes like a blanket it covers the world in snow so bakiva says al-tamrum i am and he continues with derek cloud this is the first line on 147. we'll just turn to the next page for derek clowler ayan dallin clown generally ramach mitzvah the 248 positive commandments represent water which is hesed which is kindness water represents benevolence giving just like the water flows outward extrovertedness because in them and through them we have access the insight the light of the enzyph comes forth down here kamayama like we say in the blessing before every mitzvah mitzvah before you light a shabbos candle you say before you separate before you don't fill in before you put on your towers before you put on a mezuzah mitzvah what does this mean he sanctified us through his mitzvahs says represents that which is sacred that which is aloof that which is transcendent so a person has to become aware before they do a mitzvah you have sanctified us you have allowed us to experience to become one with qaeda with the ultimate holiness and here is the rule in kabbalah and say this everything that is communicated everything that is bestowed everything that flows forth is identified as kindness and water because water flows downward and that's what kindness is i go out of my own space and i tune into your space and i give you that's what cressid is that's what water is so generally all the mitzvahs all the 248 metres which represent the flow of ainsoif into our world allowing me and you and all of us the ability to be able to access infinity in our life through these mitzvahs this is represented by water by qasid and that's why we say in the blessing so that's the water element of terraria mitzvahs you remember we're talking about water and fire but now let's talk about the fire there's also fire in them what's the fire the fire is gurus with swimsuit we know the nature of fire is to ascend to depart you always need the wick or the log the oil to hold down the flame if not it's going to depart the flame needs that which it's going to be grasped by besides the oxygen in order to be able to hold it down water flows downward fire goes upward kabbalistically spiritually fire represents guvura simpson withdrawal the tendency is to go upward meaning to go inward upward here means inward and spiritually up does it's not geographically up it means inward into a more abstract place into a deeper place to place a place of withdrawal that's the concept of simpson what's the connection to the mitzvah is have very defined structure the mitzvah has to be in this way and in this way that god commanded us in this way and in this theme it's voiceover very often people who are in the mode of kindness and benevolence they're not detailed oriented they're not technocrats gives us the revolution that mitzvahs is always a synthesis of fire and water the element of water represents infinity coming down so there's no boundaries on the other hand what do we see in mitzvos there's routine there's a system there's details there's nuances and sometimes it drives people crazy how much matzah to eat when to eat it right how long the candle has to be born burn on chanukah what direction to light the menada from what's the right blessing every mitzvah has so many nuances of halacha that define it as the opening of tractate sukkah a sukkah that is taller than 20 yamas 20 amis is around 30 feet or 40 feet so if your sukkah is taller than 30 40 feet meaning is very high it's disqualified because you have to be able to sit and see this easily when it comes to sits is the threads have to be complete they have to have a certain size if they're if they're cut and you have very short threads it's not good we say what's the difference i'm wearing sitters they have to have a certain length a certain manner that they're made the coyotes this is true about all mitzvahs the details of the mitzvahs the dictum of the mitsubish which means the parameters of the mitzvahs this represents the fire the gura the strength the symptom the restrictiveness there's a structure and if you go out of that structure you didn't do the mitzvah i can bring an offering at the time of the day somewhere there's a time when i can eat it if i eat it post that time i didn't do the mitzvah on the contrary i did a prohibition i put on filling that night what's the difference day night i dive in chakras in the wrong time minister my what's the difference there's a difference what's the difference you're meditating to god you you're meditating with god that's the mayan but then there's the ish where do we see this you're saying fire is the opposite of structure you're saying fire burns everything down [Laughter] you're saying you put something in fire it doesn't uh right so that's that's true and it's also more than that you're saying there's the fire of containment that's true in other words this you're saying an inner fire that can of containment there's also the element of fire when you put something in fire right it never keeps it one it breaks everything up and that's very important water actually is an adhesive agent right you use saliva use water to connect things kamayam yamakasam the bed of water eclipses everything under the water and it looks like one fire you put a table in fire after a few minutes the table is now broken up whatever you put into fire fire right away divides and this represents the concept of differentiation meaning in life the perspective of water is the perspective of oneness everything is one if everything is one what does it make a difference if i do it nine o'clock in the morning or nine o'clock at night what's the difference if i do it in this place or i do it in that place what's the difference if it's done by a man or a woman or a child or a cayenne or a lady or you swell it's all one that's from the perspective of my from the perspective of asia fire you say fire actually breaks things up it divides in other words fire recognizes distinctions it's not all one fire is actually going to take everything apart until it reaches the raw skeleton the raw ashes of it it's going to take everything apart in other words fire is all about disintegrating not integrating fire creates disintegration what is this symbolic of it's symbolic of the concept of simpson the concept of differentiations the concept of structures there is a difference in time there is a difference in space everything has its place its time its style and its two very opposite notions in judaism the last day when he speaks to the jewish people he defines tardy in this way you remember hashem a from his right arm he gave us a religion of fire one second he gave it from his right arm which is it you mean it says but he gave us he gave us a fire thus a religion it's a religion a fire there's two elements there's the element of yamino hasset ain't safe and then there's the element of gurus with some sumimus the structures of it and this is true with all the mitzvahs and if i don't do it in that particular way i didn't do the mitzvah so the altar says but there's no just simpson and tyra there's also even in the halachas you'll always see if it did this may be wrong but but the evidence fine or if the milk fell into the pot if there's 60 it's nullified in other words the gevorah always is mixed with so in the physical act of mitzvos and in the physical reincarnation of toyota you have the fire and you have the water the water we explained is the ainsoif that is manifested in territory and mitvis and rabbi akiva says don't say water water it's all one in other words don't differentiate between the infinity and the finite as we explained before that's the heset and the ages the physical finite properties of every mitzvah that's defined by structure which allows us to take hold of it now here's the challenge challenges some people embrace one aspect and ignore the other aspect some people who are very technical or very routine and love structure they love this aspect of yiddishkait and they lose touch of the infinite dimension and the same is converse although says there's a rhythm of aish and mayam of ratsay and shaiv so the altanebba says by day sarusa is when there's an arousal from below there's also an arousal from above that when the person lives with terida mitzvahs which is fire and water it arouses and triggers in his soul both of these rhythms which is the kayak zalias nemo this ability that through the arousal from below there should be the arousal from above was given to the jewish people by martin tyre unbelievable words he says this is the definition this is the definition of the giving of tyra what happened by the giving of the torah that hashem allowed that the name mitzvah should be conferred on physical things on physical things you can do a physical thing or look at a physical object and it should be defined as a mitzvah which means defined as a mitzvah that it has the power to access pure infinity that was the revolution of matada the way he describes it there is unique what is the revolution of matantana that as they were saying yeshivas there could be a halois of shame mitzvah on physical matter on a physical act on physical things on the physical body whatever it is suddenly it's called a mitzvah this is a mitzvah this act is a mitzvah this thing is connected to a mitzvah what does it mean it's okay the s string is a mitzvah the little over the mids for the tits is the mids from the candle is a mitzvah that arm is i could do a mitzvah with the parchment is a mitzvah what does it mean that this has the capacity to access and become a conduit for infinity through this ain't serve could come down that was a hidden tara in other words the whole concept of rats ever shave in this spiritual transcendent reality suddenly assumes a very physical concrete incarnation in the jewish life in the tyre and the mitzvahs that was matant and through this arousal from below is in my life of 10 minutes as it creates that is and he says this is a geval digest because you can ask a question a person can ask a question yeah how could you tell me that when i wrap myself in a talus which is made out of a sheep's wool or i wrapped filling on my arm which is made out of leather of a cow or i light a candle that's made of wax literally made of wax or i give tzedakah on a check which will withdraw money from my bank account or or a dollar or a pound or whatever or a shekel just a piece of paper produced produced here and what happens the ain't safe was accessed infinity was accessed what is this a mockery what's the connection there has to be a connection that's the kiddush of matantara that the physical thing has a shame in mitzvah that it has the capacity to become the accessory of ainsaif but although it finishes this paragraph this brings us back to the first question in the mirror sins through toyota one reaches this so why wasn't it given to avraham avinu he observed the titus spiritually but why wasn't the toyota given to him also physically the way it was given by matantara why the weight of 26 generations this brings us back to that question which is what al-tarabha began to discuss after asking why you needed a shaifer by matantara and that's going to be the next piece in the mimer aloha which we will continue by azir assembly now there on monday morning 7 30. let's take let's take some questions oh wow it's late okay let's see what's happening here on the chat i want to clarify your breathing is the razor the breathing out and the shoe is the breathing into the body so it seems somebody asks is this also the rhythm of talking and listening absolutely we see in tehillim chapter 150 the scheifer is the first instrument that we connect to because it's the raw source of sound undifferentiated before we experience the beauty of different timbers that represent different identities yes that's what altera said in the beginning of the miami that the shayfer doesn't have the same pleasure like other instruments because it's the source of all the pleasures it's the raw source next question hard energy and brain energy have their own intrinsic identity which creates the ongoing tension but the will of the soul trend sends both and so the person has the capacity to switch between this one and that one not too much ratsi don't escape from life and not too much truth which may stifle the light of rats well said next question people say i'm all in does that mean ratsoy or sheif it means both it means both very good when we separate learning from the higher to the lower it means we're separating the waters what about when we separate learning toyota from our secular endeavors when we separate religion from the world same concept yes we don't separate that's the point ain't kiddish everything has to be connected back to the source now sometimes you don't know how to connect it back to the source and sometimes people get involved in certain things that schlep them down that's why you have to be careful not everybody can go everywhere right because you can be affected more than you influence you can get influenced so that's why you have to have the right immune system if you don't have that's what a b akiva said if you go into these places you better know how to come back sometimes you go places and you just don't come back you get lost if somebody is going to a place where there's a terrible pandemic you know and they're not you know when the when the corona started right and you had many medical people they had to be masked up and dressed up to protect themselves because you want to help people but you yourself can be infected so you always have to a lifeguard to jump into the lake and save somebody you have to know how to swim you have to know what you're doing if not the undercurrent can khalila swifts take you too very beautiful comments here i think mikvah is a great example of the waters coming together you don't separate the two waters in the mikvah we don't separate the waters of heaven and earth yeah unity it seems like to be in a safe place of shove you need a humility that comes from the maturity of a life lived maybe this explains teenagers they have so much ratsee but not enough access to the peace of shuv does that make sense that to really appreciate the state of shuv you need humility which only comes from maturity and raj say without shove is very often the life of a teenager i think it's a very good observation you're making because generally you see that the element of fire is very intense it's very emphatic it's emphasizing the life of the teen there's a lot of ruts and very often you know i think i can understand everything and i won't repeat any of the mistakes of my parents and my grandparents and i'll live the ultimate life you know we have that that feeling that you know i get it and i understand it and i'll i'll figure it out and i think it does take a lot of the trial and errors of life and marriage and raising children and the humility that comes with a life well lived and a life lived with accountability and introspection that really teaches us how much we don't understand and how much as much as we prepare we can't really prepare and as much as we anticipate and expect we can't really anticipate and expect and it creates a certain humility a certain silence a certain awe a certain respect a certain reverence i agree in that sense the water is much deeper than the fire but what altered ebb is teaching us is after you reach that water you have to reach a deeper fire a fire that incorporates the silence and that's the key in this mimer there's no fire water okay we're done no no no no the water invites a deeper fire right hmm the fire comes from the water why because when you mature and you do experience that sense of silence deep inside there is now a new fire that you want to be able to grow and conquer that too to a certain degree and then you need to have a deeper silence which comes after the next fire which only invites a deeper fire which only invites a deeper water as he says it's ain't safe until you become a mercava and the two can converge as he will get to at the end of the mimer very beautiful observation that comes all the way from texas okay let's see what's happening here i took all the i took i took some questions from from from uh from where from zoom but there's also 11 comments on 11 comments on the yeshiva.net everybody could read them and enjoy them some very very insightful comments and in the meantime i'm going to wish you all a beautiful day a wonderful shabbos and may the rhythm of rajan shove enrich your lives with fire and water but remember ebi akiva's words there's no water water al-thaimuru maya mayam and in many ways i would say that that line i'll turn to maya mayam at least for me captures probably one of the most central themes in khabar exodus in the teachings of the altareba all the way down to the river i think if you want to really sum it up it's four words al time room i am don't say water water higher lower spiritual physical soul body heaven earth god me tyra mitzvahs inner outer internal external that which can be embraced that which can't be embraced that the vision that differentiation that we live with because it's part of how we grow up al tamru maya mayam always recognize the harmony the oneness the highest water and the lowest water is really one the have duller the separation that god made on monday was only a catalyst for tuesday when earth and land emerges so that we can create the synthesis we can reveal the synthesis which goes from the highest to the lowest and rabbi akiva is the governor says in sanhedrin the whole terrorist comes from ribbia kevin the whole terrorish about because the whole toad is the asian mayan coming together an asian mind coming together begins with the mayan coming together the higher water in the lower water because when the highest water comes into the lowest water so you have the cassette of ain't safe here then you have the ace which structures it okay my dearest friends sending you lots of love and blessings from this uh this part of the world and wishing you all tremendous brachavats i may be a day of deep awareness self-awareness and therefore other awareness of razia and shaiva fire and water and remember that that rhythm is not a mistake the flux is not a mistake it's not a tragedy it's ultimately what allows for integration of all the elements in our brain in our heart and in our world