Why Moshe Asked to Die - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

[Music] it oh yeah [Music] partials ballet scar is not only a dramatic parsha in all of its multiple stories and narratives but there is also a scene that takes place in Bahasa that is unparalleled in the home until that point and will never repeat itself in the homage after that point and that is moisture AB a news unique intense and emotional reaction in a way that we have never seen it before and we have never see it afterwards and it gives rise to the great question what happened to trigger such a profound response let's take a look in source number one we have a few of the sukham of this of this parsha by mid bar Parekura Aleph pasa Dalit raha scoffs if I shall be care boy the multitudes of people among em you sir all among the Jews is advertiser they crave they crave a tither craving by your shoe Vova if Co Gamboa is wrong and the rest of the Jewish people also return to weep by Omer what do they say me I feel a new buzzer who will feed us buzzer who will feed us meat who's gonna take an English they're basically searching there pining they're craving philosopher meat and then they continue safar new hot dogger asha newest album a triumph enum a sake shoot invasive artisan versacut service absol inverse assuming we remember the fish that we ate in egypt free of charge the cucumber's the melons the leeks the onions and the garlic the a ton of Shane Lee of Asia in coil bill T L Homme on a nano but now our life is parched there is nothing we have nothing to anticipate to look forward to our souls are dry besides the money besides the mana so basically their yearning with tremendous nostalgia for what for the cucumber's the melons the leeks the onions the garlic and we're looking for beef we remember so well the fish this is what they are all crying about and they continue by you the people so come later persecuted by East Malaysia so I'm basically mr. Joyce of Isla pesos a Hawaii but he's our alpha Shama lead over any moisture ah my she hears the people weeping in their family groups each one at the entrance of his tent as Rashi says families and families are gathering in front of their tents to weep to complain that's a first interpretation and Hashem is very upset and in the eyes of Moshe it's pretty bad and moisture now goes to Hashem to speak to him by your memory shall I shall so much' tells everybody sha la la la my Rio Salado why have you done evil to your servant to himself llama the llama limits us see same banette callosum is called mass massacre llamas Allah in simple English why do you hate me so much what do you have against me why have a not found favor in your eyes that you plays the burden of this entire people upon me why this punishment what did I do that I am carrying such a burden and he continues on I see her in a unique splendorous words Hanoi GRE CSKA llamas are a man I see led tu que tomar Eliza au Betty cash or cash ELISA Jimenez hyena colada Martinez matalava sir why me that I conceived this entire people that I give birth to it I'm their mother I birth these people that you say to me carry them in your bottom and your bosom as a nurse carries a suckling to the land that you swore to its forefathers may I only bought some losses La Jolla mamas where shall I get meat to feed all of these people key if go Li lame or too long a bus of and I failure there weeping give us meat so we want to eat meat me I only well you come on I feel Avadi losses column Isaac he covered me many I alone cannot carry this entire nation it's too heavy for me it's too burdensome for me and then my sir says something that is quite shocking in kakaako easily fin Kaka at isiliye her gaining know harrowing in Matassa pain Bayonetta while Arriba Rossi and if this is how you want to deal with me then if you have any liking to me if you care about me if I find any favor in your eyes kill me now let me not see my own evil my own rom my own downfall let me not observe my own tragedy ah you're calling it a mental breakdown what those are those are intense words but certainly it would seem that this is what we would define in our lexicon as a complete breakdown a complete moment of the spear where moisture Avenue is craving for his own death he says if this is the situation kill me if I like if you like me kill me if you hate me keep me alive the greatest favor you can do for me is get me out of this I don't want to be here I don't want to live anymore moisture event I want to understand today what happened to trigger this response the Jews were crying we want the beef we want the steak we want the lamb chops we remember the fish we remember the sushi in Egypt it was unbelievable I'm using the word sushi cause it was raw fish they got it straight from the Nile I don't think the slaves had time to cook the fish or actually say sashimi rather it's probably no rice suddenly they're in love with the garlic the leeks the lemon and of course the cucumbers the highlight of old Jewish foods and they're crying they're crying is this the first time this happened is this the first time the Jews are complaining and is this the first time the Jews are complaining about food they didn't stop complaining about food they're still don't stop complaining about food some things never change even when there is food certainly when there's no food you stranded in a desert but his response here is absolutely different I mean if you go through the history from when my treviño is introduced into the story of the people in parts of space he had to put up not only with complain but with the profoundest of lamentations of rebukes of hollow rings of insults of threats of course of requests of weeping of crying including about food already in Egypt he was denigrated he was mocked by his friends or by his so-called friends as enemies and then after you'd see us which I am in the desert if you just take parsa's beshallach itself one parsha right after they leave Egypt after they observe the ten plagues after they observed the greatest of miracles after the superpower breaks down in front of their eyes and they're set free in that one part should they attack motion remain no four times and three of them have to do with food in the beginning of parches Michalis they tell much so why did you take us out of midst I am just to kill us in the desert how many bleed ain't kibarim there's not enough graves in Australia we have to die here in the desert and what does my shadow Boehner tell them relax all be good guys shiatsu ruse issue assertion show me luck um ahem about them talk Elisha the next scene later beshallach they come to a place Morrow they can't drink the water why it's bitter it's bitter what does more you should do come star Shen he gets thing greedy is the right age the right treat to put into the water become sweet they move on in the journey and the Jews are screaming we have nothing to eat we have nothing to eat moisture comes to us and says o my heartless co Mooney they're gonna stone me but he doesn't lose he doesn't lose it doesn't lose his confidence his responsibility comes Tasha my sham says don't worry we'll give them on will give them quail the food won't stop they will be satiated everyone will have enough in the same path should they come to refit him there's no water again they're screaming there's no water again you have to kill us sit why should we die from thirst all at the same price of a shower and moisture once again gives them water here what happened yes for me they had food they weren't even started I had the month they for me suddenly they remember the fish and the cucumbers in the leeks in the melon on the garlic development emotions response is completely different and beshallach say he thought those stone them he was a leader here something happens if we were translated into our language we would say he surrenders to almost complete the spear there's something that seems like a very serious melancholy or depression to the point that he doesn't want to eat he's like my life is so bad it's worthless the only thing that can be better is death and we all understand what a difficult moment that must be to bring moisture a banal who's the embodiment of truth he's not the drama queen to tell this Tasha what happened here that didn't happen before didn't happen later later they're gonna complain again you know how many times they're gonna complain by the Moroccan parsis la fille doesn't ask to die and pass his career of his own cousin the leaders of the supreme court all rebel against him he doesn't ask to die there's going to be one story after another story in passions hookahs the mamie Riva is privileged to go into the land is taken away because of the mice so in the water he doesn't ask to die and then again and again then again something here in ballet saw and at first glance they were complaining about food okay they wanted me sorry many times before many times after but now let's see how Shamas responds Shem here is these words from OSHA says I'm not that mother I'm not their father I didn't conceive them I can't carry them may I only boss so we know I have need to feed 3 million 4 million people so what is are some same Shem responds but you're a mirage ml moisture right after he says kill me if you like me destroy me next boss right away but you're a mere sham Elmo should God tells much now I would expect the first thing that some should say Moishe's I'll give them meat or they don't need meat that's the issue they're all crying for meat this is of my sis give me I only bus but i shun completely st. changes the subject he has a whole different response but your Irish emulation us Wally Shivam ish music nice oo s Felicia vishwas igneous rock I want you to gather to me 70 men from the elders of Israel a Sharia dr. Kim's economic you know that they are the elders of the people you respect them they're the officers of the people but look a story similar so Maya three sets which are marked akin to the oil Maya to the Michigan let them stand there with you via reality with a bar team crush um we had salty minoru esaka share a lack of Assam tea a lion but not to eat have a mass humble I see subtle evide I will descend and speak with you there I will increase some of the spirit that is upon you and place it upon them some of your Rua will be transferred or will be conferred upon them and they will carry the burden of the people with you you will not be alone you will not carry the burden alone and then persecute fasten on he goes on to discuss the issue of the meat I will give them meat and they will eat it and eat it not a day and not two days a whole month as the Turner continues in Paris by Lisa Marie she gathers the 70 people the spirit of moistures conferred upon them and the parsec says by a snob ovolo yourself opposite of love they prophesized they prophesized in the camp and then it says the lawyer saw foo which according to the literal interpretation is and they did not do this again as Rashi says they prophesized only that day and it was all over even though there's another translation of the targum but the literal translations of a lawyer soft who they prophesize and that was it that one day what went on here what's the story with these 70 elders prophesizing moisture a bay know is weeping he feels he can't do this anymore something tells him that his entire life is worthless to the point of asking Khalil affairs on death the first thing our SEM says is we're going to hire 70 prophets so at first glance how do you understand it how does this constitute a solution so rash she tells us clearly on the plastic us Philippe us act as I rap she says you said I can't carry it alone so that's why I'm telling you take seven the elders and let them share the leadership with you you won't be alone you're not their mother carrying them alone you have 70 people together with you it's 71 people that's the literal interpretation now Shem says we're going to share the burden we're gonna delegate deer on bond in his commentary here Ambala is more specific and looking to sources we have the RAM bond Rambin Bamidbar pedicured I love pas secure Dalits safety romba lorisha yasuo scam him losses lamb Bossa the elders are not gonna help in give them meat moisture says I don't have meat Kimmy I in my embosser where they gonna get the meat from if it's gonna come through a miracle then you don't need seven the elders if it's gonna come through a miracle it can come direct from heaven if it's coming through natural causes how are these seventy sages can help you produce meat with 4 million people what are they gonna become they're gonna create a sloth toes in the desert what's gonna help so that's not the issue vo another issue I feel it'd be ice lamp an awesome rapper netsim Robin even if the Jews have many leaders while you slain a new Rocco moisture they continue to complain only to my show I shade see limits Ryan he's the man who they hold responsible for all their walls cuz he decided to take them out of its Ryan Kim in hog on the RAM bans humorous expression coming home lamer alumna eldest son of minutes nyan they have an old good old standing minute to come to my show why did you take us out of mr. on the fact that he appointed seventy nice people to say no who is a beautiful thing but the blame as always on mommy on top t you be responsibility what is it gonna help what does it go now they want to blame the moisture for taking them out of Egypt they think it was a curse it's not the fault of these 70 people they're not going to come to them so what are we gain from these 70 people meet we're not gonna get from them complaining to them instead of too much it's not gonna happen they're our bond gives two very interesting insights have a rush of moisture moisture thought key be a slamming Higham Robin they can have many leaders you Shaka who come us improbably via da brew Ali Bombay stone awesome basically he wanted to have 70 social workers 70 therapists will be able to calm everybody down and that's what the Redmon says you have 70 people to design goods distribute them and everyone will have a group let's work that's what he wanted that's what's gonna happen basically the complaints will come to my show the meet they're not gonna help him but maybe they can relax the atmosphere 70 people who are leaders they could serve as as you know psychological counsellors the F sure or maybe something else to run bouncers Kakashi is Nabu asked an omission epsilon a.m. in our walk VA do arm Keenan money man when the VM lawyer SAS vocal about Moshe the you Shalu Tov awesome gamma hammer or maybe something else he says maybe once the Jews realize that they're serious profits they have this direct line with God maybe those Tigers start complaining to them if they need meat if they need water if they need this if they need that whatever they need maybe they'll come to them o so perhaps we don't know what they're gonna do but I Shem says except knows but he says if F sir maybe this is the meaning that's what these 70 people are for that's how the Rambam explains the solution Mauritius has kill me I can't do this anymore that's not my responsibility Hashem says first of all were hiring 70 therapists I don't know for 4 million people what that's gonna do but I guess it's a start and number two you know what instead of all screaming at you they'll scream at you plus another 70 people and the fascinating thing is most just completely fine after the story Hashem says something that causes motion not only to regain his composure but the next scene why sure if I could say this is back not only to his regular self but to his unique status of moisture Avenue as the Rambam calls them myths are mean a new Shiva the ultimate human being at the home of iam the master of all the prophets the ultimate leader the ultimate servant of God it's all gone everything is gone you see it in all over the next flurries in ballets huh certainly then at the end of commish what happens right afterwards if you go back to the sources we see cough of pus a cover by you sure - Nanashi lahmacun - a method elder - a machine he made that two people remain in the camp elder and maiden and they also start prophesizing positive sign by Ericsson Ave Agatha Moshe by mal de the maiden mr. nabban bam Akana the young man runs to Moshe because I'll say he was garam his son and say I've a elder I made and I prophesizing biannually sure be new missionaries Moshe neighborhood may pure about Yemen I don't demolish the quarry young shuo whose moistures great disciples says o out that I may die prophesizing we have to claw him we have to incarcerate them we have to arrest them we have to quarantine them well your mother moisture what does moisture say one of the most beautiful expressions on my Conneaut - Lea you're jealous for me you're afraid that I have competition will meet in Kalama Shimon Avidan ket now Sheamus was a Alea my wish in life is that a whole nation of God are prophets I wish I shed confers his spirit on everyone here motion is full majesty and is full splendid you're jealous for me that this to nervion don't you realize my wishes it will give out the yeti he chose I none of it I would love every Jew to experience I want every Jew to listen to a shams voice directly we have no glimmer here of a few moments ago Moishe's terrible crisis when he said this is the worst job a person can ever have and then the next scene Miriam and Aaron his closest people speak against him they slander him about his wife we don't know exactly there's different interpretations what they said we just know that they spoke about their sister-in-law now you know when families start speaking about their sister-in-law it's not always so portioned what they said exactly Rashi has one interpretation of them a fortune of different interpretations it's a very mysterious possible but they attack moisture and motion doesn't scream at them doesn't insult them doesn't say I'm not part of this family anymore or that's it I'm not gonna show up to any simplest in this family I'll go to my wife if I carried by each Moshe honor of McCullough the Michelle play are dumb we have her the testimony of who much is the humblest man on the face of the earth and what happens afterwards Hashem speaks about moisture Rubino in glowing terms like a knife the moisture become a cinema no he's my most loyal man pal pal Dabra boy I speak to him mouth to mouth my Rivoli but see though it's not through riddles but clearly tuna sashimi a bit he looks at the image so to speak of God whom I do a lawyer racing with Abbeville even wish and Miriam becomes him it's a rasa left round Watson wishes next move he goes tiresome like he old good good old mice and he Davin's for Miriam kale Nara fauna law and Miriam is cured after seven dead Miriam was cured after seven days she's back in the cab and all as well and then slack starts a whole new crisis and moistures there with unwavering leadership commitment dedication Hashem wants to destroy the Jewish people and my sisters no no no I chose the silastic it were a friend and career up again destruction plagues and moisture of Amos stands up and he defends and Alcoa atha have you chef at the aft of alkaway the tickets I've moisture completely is back to his unique status is the unparalleled lover of Israel leader of Israel teacher of Israel greatest prophet greatest servant of Hashem and humblest man on earth something happened yeah [Applause] and I'm not awareness it's just they asked it for meat and it just moisture feels there's no hope that's what happens Russian yeah [Applause] I think it's fair to say we have to understand what's the story here what's the depth of the story let's even analyze for a moment the two answers of the Rambam they're very interesting answers of the Rambam but really they raise new questions and that is we're looking for therapists we're looking for people to carry the burden we're looking for people they can complain to moisture screaming I'm all alone we have already been there and practice is Roy mullahs father will came to visit and in practice Easter day right according to Rashi it was a day after Yom Kippur the year that they left mitzrayim a few months later according to others Easter came earlier there's a a can't be format until they came after Martin Taylor and yesterday sees walk moisture sitting alone and judging everybody and he uses these words my Duarte I should love vadhaka how can you sit alone wait over the Raja toys it's not good for you to be alone novelty boil you're going to wither away you're gonna wrap you can experience that can a person can't do this Easter what does history tell him to do delegate appoint leaders appoint judges of pouring thinkers appoint sages and all the quarrels all the issues if it's not major if it's not pay panic let them deal with and manisha follows history's advice he does exactly what you say didn't so that was already in place they weren't navee him it's true they weren't prophets but they were sages yesterday gave great criterion Moshe Rabbeinu testifies in the bottom that he chose unique unique people extraordinary people so what happened here suddenly he wasn't alone he had all these people this is just a few months later what happens so you'll say your Ambon gives a second answers not only we need therapists we need traffic so they could complain to them because it's people who can talk to God a rabbi won't do the job but judge won't do the job a prophet will do the job but one second how long did they prophesize for how long one day allow yourself was all over mommy look Maya but the Canarsie was all over may live they became prophets and there would be prophets for good saddle they set the rule for one night what he we don't even know what they said for one day sudden how they were mini marshes and then it was all over but let yourself ooh by a snap of a lawyer sulfur was all over so what happened in this people that he appointed in yeasterday remained the leaders these prophets are prophets for an hour for a few hours for a day Rashi says that day and that's it while your suffle they didn't that they didn't increase it didn't add there was no way something perhaps they didn't succeed although it doesn't say that perhaps he didn't succeed besides two guys Elvan and me that and they now that the problem Isis like that's wonderful I wish everybody could be like that but what about the desist then avium weren't killed we just know there's no information for that right people right but it wasn't all Jew wasn't all Jews obviously it was a certain group there were there were few types of people but a probably wasn't the prophet I mean it doesn't say that anyway doesn't seem that way the safari rights Romania vada offset Farnham is trying to bring out how them a forum struggle with this he said the only objective in appointing 70 prophets is basically they will repeat what Moshe says cuz they'll be prophets like him and then the Jews will see you know what it's not only moisture there's another 70 people who agree with him that's basically the whole point they keep on blaming Moesha Moesha Moesha for all the decisions the 70 people who agree with them and it's also difficult to understand they're coming and screaming about meat so there's 70 people who agree with it they're not disagreeing with his laws they're disagreeing with their situation with their life what is accomplished through these 70 people and the real issue is that everything is solved and there's no trace or glimmer or residue of this terrible moment of despair that just took over moisture up in I want to learn with you at Isis it's a second to the last source on the page placed with Shabbos Tov cooked si enema Dolloff fascinating commentary entices everybody knows passions my license is unique that there is the pursuit convite he Ben Sawyer are earned by your memory so that we say when the Turner is taken out there's 2 silliman brackets what do we mean brackets on upside-down none which would look like a little bit like a C in English before and an upside known after so ye bin cor and has one upside noon in the safe attire and the end after the next bus ik Subash M remember southeaster all is another known and the question is why what's the point so the Gemara says amiss after Shabbos coughed are Zion one opinion says Lahav Sigmund Puranas Lapera knows we want to interrupt negative energy before that is negativity after that is negativity now after that the negativity is clear did you start complaining miss Eileen them and then they start weeping about the meat that we just discussed before that doesn't say anything negative it just says that it was the 20th day of year and the Jews began traveled and they left the mountain of Ascham heresy night and they traveled a path that takes three days by heben so you are in Vienna Russia where is there anything negative about that now let's remember the historical facts the Jews leave Egypt on taissa they come to har Sinai when recite their seven six weeks later a week later they receive the Torah 49 days 50 days after the exodus of Egypt 40 days later they don't waste time they create the golden calf just a few months after you see estimates right the next day moisture breaks the Lucas you're in Kippur six months after the exodus of Egypt a few months after math until he comes down with a new locusts he tells them to build a Michigan for six months they can they gather the material they gather the material in a day or two they start building and six months later a toy - listen the Mishkan is erected it's a great day it's a great moment and subscribe and partially me it's described in Patras not so again a lot of things happen there's tradition isn't including the death of the two sons of Aaron nada Vanna vu this is the first anniversary of you'd see us miss Ryan that year they will make a carbon pay stuck in the desert the only time there will be the Mitzvah of Pesach Shanee for those who are tummy when they're making and the reason their tummy the gomorian suka brings different opinions they'll cough a cough of whether the death of mother and IV where they were carrying your stuff siren or a mace Mitzvah unrestrained this year Hashem tells moisture to count the Jewish people that's the beginning of my mid bar where's Troy this year this is the first anniversary after you'd see us miss Ryan it's one month after the erection of the Michigan count the Levine Gaussian cajas Murari we just learned about that in Paris now sorry and on the 20th day of ear it says in violence car they move in other words they remained in the same place for almost a complete year missing 10 days from Ricardo 7:00 till the next year tough year they were in one place camping by the desert near hi-c night where they actually received the Toyota where they made the Golden Calf where they built the Mishkan there was a place that was filled with a lot of action and almost a full year later the 20th of here suddenly the cloud that was always hovering above them rises it's time to leave my Yi soo may Hashem and then it says my heaping so you are so the Gomorrah says you want to interrupt one negative occurrence from another negative occurrence what was negative the cloud went up they left so toaster says look traceless second to last source piranhas Regina is vie yeast 2 may Hashem the American inertia tsurumaki Rochelle why is this as they left says places Kadam marble Madras the Metro says vias ooh Shanno samara scene i Derek's lucious youngin doesn't say they went three days says they went on the path of three days in one day they did were usually due in three days Cuttino coyote say my base are safe like a child who leave school you ever saw a child leaves school go back to your childhood years what do you do said boy they are loyal employee the teacher says dismiss the bell rings kids don't sit on the desk let's meditate a little bit let's hang out in school so enjoyable we love this classroom they're out boy today after they run they run as fast as possible if the potential would be that they would never return Boreas boy look what kind of car you burnished to me I seen identical a shish youngin luffy shalom new hybrid terrier bosina hi-c night was a school and it was too long it went for almost a year and when the cloud said dismissed how did they run did they run katinhat operation base are safer that's the first peroneus the second one is they're screaming about the meat so a middle we have I even say our and two upside down UN's now this is a fascinating illustration of huzzah whether they come up with this example comparing the Jews to children running away from school that's how they left her scene I it could have said they didn't were interested in Tyrell is too heavy like a child who runs away from school I'm here but the moment they don't have to be here it's all over and I'm not just leaving I'm gonna leave with passion to demonstrate how much I really dislike my school experience you should just realize don't thing that the problems with schools happen today people think that all the problems happened today this is a mice of three thousand three hundred years ago and shan't change and was exactly the same problem in a very nice school moisture was the Russia Shiva Aaron was the school therapist you see here they hired at seventy therapists to be with them but everybody was running away just a little we say the good old days they were old they weren't always good some days were good some days were lousy but the good old days if it's old it becomes good simply cuz it's not here what's not here but comes in our imagination very good simply because it's not here you could talk about it with nostalgia like somebody told me once he says even today's nostalgia is not what it used to be like so let's try to offer one perspective and this size it's based on various sources including a lovely and very insightful Shearer I thought that I heard from the former British chief rabbi Rabbi Jonathan Sacks and some other sources and insights but I think in many ways this tysonis captures the idea and I want to learn with you another Gemara Baba Basra i inhaie Amidala the last source scanning Shiva ayyadurai Rama where the gomorrah says when moisture passed on yahushua took over the elders said her name aisha keeping a comma today are you sure kappa elevon face of moisture is like the sun the face of your shoe is like the moon o allah i sebou sha allah isis Clemmie what a Shanda what a disgrace to have your shoe in lieu of motion it's like you'll take away the Sun you'll give us the moon and he comparing they saying tell them there was a debate what is greater the son of the moon so for seven days and nights they debated it and the verdict was that the moon is much greater than the Sun because the Sun shines during daytime when you don't need it the moon gives a real contribution it shines when it's nighttime so this is a hell of a miser but the Jews looked at yours sure they looked at moisture and they're like when a moisture company common air show company lavona like we say it's never gonna be the same it's never gonna be the same the moon is a nice creature we have nothing against the moon but we know that the moon is the moon and the Sun is the Sun the moon is dark matter it's just a reflection of the Sun and one day we'll even get some an astronaut's to plant a flag on the moon the Sun nobody comes close to moistures the son yahushua is the moon according to baba BA certify inhale huh nostalgic right nostalgic yeah in order to appreciate all of this let's recall the historical context a year ago they left myths right it was not a small event it was a unique event in world history like moistures going to say in parties versus c'mon honey occurred over a godless as this ever happened Hashem should come la consciously go to take a nation and liberate it and reveal himself to the nation it's a unique historic event which came with lots of drama lots of fanfare lots of supernatural events the 10 Marcos the splitting of the sea and of course the highlight of all Matt and Tara the mana the clouds of glory the water the well of Miriam and all of the other things that happen in seifish mice as the Jews are leaving Egypt they become Martians nation they have a breakdown as a moral breakdown a spiritual breakdown they create a golden calf they're almost destroyed moisture again as their ultimate defender he achieves forgiveness vmi in machinima sifri huh and ultimately the relationship is removed second looks are brought down and a new reality emerges they build a michigan for months they build a michigan for us Allah make this Russia hunting the size hump and a year later a spider Schneerson the streamer comes into the Mishkan they have now in their midst a permanent sanctuary with the divine presence dwells communicates to Moshe Aaron and his children the clay and serve in the Michigan and there is and there is a certain closure of a renewed relationship after a full year of experiencing what no people ever experienced before and we know no people will ever experience after Matt and Tara happened once and will never happen again UCS mitzrayim happened once the unique intimacy and relationship they experienced with their creator of the world moisture obey no as I said the scribes and pouches verse Canon is absolutely unprecedented and now it's after the 20th day of year they're about to leave and the Jewish people are crying and moisture I've been who listens to their crying what do they want me I feel a no boss where's the beef holy the fish the cucumber's the lemon the garlic the leeks this said something to my son that he never heard before this touched him in a way that it didn't touch him before Masha can deal with challenges moysha can deal with sin my can deal with failures with mistakes with errors even with revolutions with mutinies with complains of course with questions and with challenges of all sort from within and from without he has done it successfully he faced Pyrrha who was his own stepfather in many ways or his own Zadie grew up in the palace he faces a Moloch he faces enemies from without he faces enemies within unwaveringly successfully unapologetically as the most humble man on earth without pride without arrogance with complete dedication to the cause in this moment the partial is by lysis a moisture saw something else moisture saw a complete failure of his mission of the Jewish mission of the terrors mission you have seen everything you have observed everything you have seen God face to face you alienated yourself from God you came back and renewed your relationship with God God's presence came back into your midst you have had a year that was saturated with such an intimate relationship with Hashem that it's even inconceivable to the ordinary human being all the veils that creation are based on all the concealments were suspended in this relationship that you expect with Hashem and after all this what are you talking about you're talking about rib steak you're talking about sashimi and you're talking about garlic leeks cucumbers and lemons what happens here is moisture a Bain who asks himself is my entire work not worthless not futile and the point is the plastic says even more that he sees the whole nation buddy filaments Picasa so rashly gives two interpretations one is they were crying families were crying and what's the second interpretation they were crying for the fact that they can't have promiscuous incestuous relationships are eius with their families as a result of ma tante de so basically at this point they turn to mush and they say this is ridiculous that we can't have these relationships with siblings with parents with relatives all over the promiscuous relationships what we call Gili are ayahs and what motion of a new feels here is that he achieved nothing he may have taken them out of godless betrayal but he couldn't take him it's Ryan out of them he may have taken them out of physical subjugation and bondage but the internal mentality of Gullah the mentality of the slave of the person who is narrow who is petty who is small who his entire reality revolves around lemons with leeks garlic and beef and a fish that he got free in Egypt he could not take them out from the mindset of smallness and mediocrity to be able to see their destiny as the mom left his claim and the guy called it as God's people to change the world and this broke motion away that nothing broken when he tells us my Ocala Vavi lasse says collar masasa those words I cannot myself carry the burden of this whole nation he covered me many it too difficult from me he doesn't only mean that the burden is hard well Oh Kalavati I'm one man I can't deal with four million people there's something much deeper that he's saying like oh how Avadi losses as a messiah you know what I feel like I don't mind being a leader he's led them through thick and thin he stood up he stood up against Hashem a vehicle to protect them that or even their ego what he felt is I'm the only one who carries the burden of Claudius wrong the Destiny nobody else cares nobody else gets it nobody else relates to me I'm lonely I'm lonely I'm not just a lonely leader I'm a lonely individual in the sense that the entire Jewish people that we've been and what are they we think about mastica flesh the issue wasn't that they wanted meat you want me come fashion Oh give me that happened before they wanted water they wanted food they wanted he gave him acrylic that wasn't the issue the may I only boss sir is not where am I gonna get meat if you want to give them meat I'll give meat what broke motion event was devastated motion Avena was that at this moment he felt he had nobody to speak to he accomplished nothing may ieave me boss sir this is who I am this is what I came to the world for to serve people meat this is our destiny this is the zenith of you disguise that at the kiddush we're gonna have the best Harry at the bar mitzva the symbol we're gonna have the best meat this is the whole sewer that they got you'd see us mr. and pedis yumps of RC nine God's reality after a race of Lebowski assemble well that Kim a night of honor but ultimately Judaism is reduced to how was the kiddush was there beef from who the dips were good no dips I'm not going to that show anymore now for somebody who doesn't experience another Judaism that is what it's about that's how you define a show that's how you define a rabbi you know that's how you define it for most Rubino this meant that the entire vision of creation the entire destiny of the Jewish people which is radically transcendental it's revolutionary it's transformative it's about tricks transforming the whole world was sucked in a lumber mouth was shunned Allah dude who as we say Rosh Hashana v8 that called pokey ought to be outta the oven call utsuki at the outside to the oven for your email caller shemish some of APRI are similar case told Melissa Melissa become marsala and not only in a dictatorship fashion but the point is to reveal in every speck of the universe and in every speck of the soul the kakapo even if all the essence the source the cohesiveness of all reality the oneness - Emma huh - Maya hurt you sit fine you stumbled fine you have questions I got it the darkness gets to you the enquiries like she doesn't have a problem with that the set a ego problem fear of a too strong but here he felt what do they say it's like the people are just completely not there with me sometimes you have a leader who works his whole life to make a dent to make a change and then looks around himself looks on the right looks on the left and if I can quote the plastic but you think Khloe but Khloe by our DNA there's not one person I was speaking to he looks at his whole life and he has two words to say about it well Hevel villarrica I never wanted a job remember I was shepherding flock in a desert for us it's hard to understand that in today's generation that a rabbit doesn't want to be a rubber and a leader doesn't want to be a leader today you have a mayor who could spend a hundred million dollars in order to be reelected it used to be there Eva's were the happiest if they didn't have the job it's hard for us to understand why should've been I didn't one and it was a punishment for him he kept on telling a sham it's not for me I don't need this not because he didn't appreciate what leadership is not only because the physical issue the worst is the spiritual issue I have to deal with the rest of my life with Dawson with a veeram with Kai rocks a leader of the status of moisture doesn't sacrifice a xylem hase Sahab it's ara he sacrifices his Elam ha bond he sacrifices his relationship he didn't want it and now suddenly he did it Hashem Stern you're the man you're the man and he looks at the people and they had everything they saw everything and he felt it was all la heavily Valerie after everything said and done people don't change and it's like the mice say they say it about the Rambam some people say it about somebody else the message is what matters you know the story that that one of the girliest all was arguing with some non Jewish philosophers if you could change the nature of animals and they took a cat and they trained the cat for a long time to the point that the cat will carry on its back a tray and become a waiter at a fancy gourmet feast and as the cat came out with the tray on its back they they felt that they triumphed and they showed this Jew ah look look at this cat but he had a little box he took it out of the bag and he opened the box and of course a little mouse came out of the box and the moment the cat observed the mouse flipped over the tray and they went all the beautiful food and the cat became a good old cat and just ran after the mouse and this is really a question about people Charles Darwin and his Origin of Species where he basically postulates that we have evolved from primates concludes and he says one of the probably I think he almost verbatim I don't remember exactly but very close to what he says he says one of the most important ramifications of my study of evolution is that there's fundamentally no difference between the animal and the human being because if our elta Alta Alta say there was an ape and the elta Alta Alta Bubba was a monkey and there L felt that Bubba was another primate all the way back to the first gases and bacteria so there's no fundamental difference it may have taken another few million years or another few hundred million years until the homo sapiens and evolved but essentially there's no difference and it's that moment where you look that after all the changes upon changes we remain ultimately the same the slave remains the slave the petty person remains the petty person they can experience God they can experience truth that can experience transcendence they can experience cosmic kiwanis they can experience enlightenment and education and the profoundest way to the core of their being but then at some point they turn to mush Labe know and they just say where's the steak where's the ketchup where's the barbecue sauce why is there no sauerkraut what happened to the mustards life is not worth living life is really not worth living and moisture doesn't have what to say moisture looks at them and it's like I don't have time this to you he comes to us and he says kill me how much paint I missed but this is the matzah this is a situation and this is a crisis that he never faced before it's a different type of crisis moshe was not the only great man who wished to die if you eat Kanak which is a good thing for jews to do once in a while there were other great people who wish to die remember who the MK / we read about one of them Yona Yona tells us Shem after he forgives nin today I don't want to live I want to die elio on avi after he confronts the 400 nervion by Mount Carmel and he's 'evil puts out a death warrant for him Elio wanna become star shamans Miller imperical efika am Elohim Olive come star chemin says kill me my life is worthless the most dramatic is year me on avi your Mia Hanavi not only craves to die but in many ways it's similar to what we see here in Paris Baal I saw and I want to read a few pursue confirm your me on avi these are shocking sokham give me a pair of cuff it's the third of the last source the background is a man named posh hire the son of email who is the client at the time in charge of the base hamikdash is fed up with your Mia rebuking warning encouraging trying to make things change he takes Jeremiah and as the great habit of doing with prophets and he throws him into a dungeon your mia speaks let's see what your Mia says give me a pack of possums ayan PT silent very powerful he speaks to God pity Sami Hashem the Epis you enticed me O Lord and I was enticed you lured me into the trap of leadership and you know what like my father right PT and I was trapped I got I got enticed Cossack Tom neva - how you overcame me and you prevailed but what happened how you seal escape coal iron I have become laughingstock all day call my lawyer Glee everyone mocks me everyone thinks F in the Michigan and the Michigan when I speak against adultery law is dishonesty a lack of divine awareness and anatra and he says he says writer Kimmy day add a bear as a calm especially Ezek Hamas beside a crooked we're assembling the hair pull the telescope oh yeah whenever I speak I cry out I call out violence spoil for the word of our shame has been scorn and mockery furrow me all day long pasta queue dollard's he discusses his wish our IAE master you'll oddity boy cursed is the day in which I was born yo him I shall abassin ee me ally he borrowed the day in which my mother gave birth to me shall never be blessed it should be a day commemorated as an eternal curse day because I came into the world top Bostick test evolved and this is this is remarkable I mean remarkable each tragic Aurora ish I shall be serious avi lamer you LOD lahar Baines afar samayal Simcoe who cursed is the man who brought the news to my father telling him a male child has been born to you making my father glad and happy cursed is that man who brought my father the news the ha ha ha I shall hookah Orion I shall offer Hashem the loin Islam that man shall be like the cities' that Hashem overturned and he did not repent diamond amira the Shamas acaba buddy kira true obey Soraya and let him hear an outcry in the morning and a scream at noontime what does year mia 1 from this guy came to his father and said Mazel Tov when is the Psalms are hard can I be the Sunday what does the humans say says look at this you know what I have time to stand he was there by my birth he sought I shall live my Society may read him he didn't put me to death from the womb that's my tie affair when I came out of the womb he should have killed me instead of killing me he went to my father and said wow it's great Mazel Tov that to Healey Amica V I wish my mother could have been my grave in other words to die in her womb Bharat Kumar asylum I wish boom would have become a perpetual eternal pregnancy for me I would have remained eternally pregnant which means in other words I would have died in the world stillborn and he continues and concludes the peyrac Lamas ma Rahim yet saucy Lee rice Amal viago inviolable vicious Yama why did I come forth out of the womb to see one thing grief and agony and have all my days end with shame this is you me AHA na vi's one of the greatest prophets one of the greatest men of God the one who gave us the book of year me Yahoo the book of a car near me o Hanavi these are his thoughts these are his feelings how does Hashem respond to this giving the Jews meat will not solve this issue ken's they get inflation it's not about the meat it's about the person not about the hungry emotion doesn't care if people are hungry he wants juice to Ethan Ethan Ethan be satiated outside call others he has no issue with that it's not the meat it's the people it's the mindset it's the pettiness how does our son respond to this and here comes a unique moment in the life of moisture a unique moment moistu experiencing experience is something that very very few people in history experience for one moment you know what Hashem does Hashem shows Moishe Rubino the influence that he had on 70 people for one moment not for long Moisture Devine who is going to observe what impact he had on 70 of the greatest Jews whom he knew for one moment he saw 70 people prophesizing from his Ruach from his spirit from his energy something of his personality of his ruthless of his neva of his godliness of his holiness of his goodness he saw mirrored back to him he saw a reflection 70 people became his mirrors when he looked at them when he listened to them he saw a reflection of himself they were prophesizing God's words from his navour from his rule for one moment he received feedback of all of his work of all of his labour of all of his teachings he saw what his inspiration does to people he saw that he created profits he created Naveen he created people who hear the voice of God who experienced the message of God who see the world from different lenses they look at humanity from a different perspective they look at earth and heaven in a different way what is a Navi Navi we call love is a delusional meshuggener right but what's really the Navi the Navi is the person who doesn't get distracted by the static of rip steak and sushi and he gets to hear the perspective of God in the universe that's what a Navi is and for a moment moisture urbane who sees what his inspiration did to these people they weren't avium out of nothing it wasn't stahma miracle these were people who were tell me them of moisture Ravana and Hashem allowed moisture to see in a very revealed and conspicuous way the influence he had on them now usually that wouldn't happened why because moisture is this song and what happens when the Sun shines I'll tell you a personal Vaart I heard from an interesting character at some point a few years ago somebody warned me that if I don't go for voice lessons at some point I'm gonna have to stop speaking so I went for voice lessons I went to a fellow in Barra Park who came highly recommended they said he's mom-ish a great professional and voice lessons there's quite a few as though his name is Hassan Einhorn do lost anyway I spent a half an hour with Gaza nine or you want that I should tape this session and every day or a few times the week or whatever once a few times during the week I should play we still used tape stem the sternum of rock Allah I lay in my shoulder cassettes yet and and you tape it then I should listen to it and do the practices the exercises over again so that the next week when I come I should be after all of the exercises you know fine and he said if you want to learn how to speak you have to learn from a dog how a dog barks that's basically how you should how you should speak in terms of using your your the right the right sources the heavy la llave the chambers of the heart rather than the vocal cords themselves shite of course like a good Jew thinks he's busy I didn't do the practices during the week he can't I came back to the next week he says new did you practice I said no I said no so he gave me a piece of his mind Rosella shiny Hakadosh he says you know what your problem is your problem is you think you're a star and therefore you don't have to practice and you don't have to follow orders and you don't have to be obedient think you're not gonna be a student but let me tell you something the greatest singers in the Jewish world all come to me as students and they all obey me but your problem is you think you're a star but let me tell you one thing about this office here the Sun shines and when the Sun shines there's no stars so me being the person I am maybe somebody else would have got insulted I thought that's great for my next Russian so it worked it was fine at Angus tree and it went for more but whatever but the voices are good for it can a moisture kept in a summer when the Sun shines there's no stars you expect that the 70 stars should show up and tell my Judah Boehner by the way you're having an impact on us in the presence of the Sun people melt people are silent people are quiet they didn't have the audacity they never the hoods we didn't have the guts to show up before my shant's say by the way my son you're doing good work you changed my life you impacted us nor did they perhaps know how important how relevant it is to my Sharabi no but what Hashem does is he tells moisture these words says vote south demon are you a fresher Alice of Assam tea I am for one moment I'm gonna let them grow and show you the spirit in you the way it's reflected in them and you'll see how you change people's lives you'll see what type of students you have and you'll realize that even after you may leave this world although he didn't express himself that way your life will continue for eternity you have planted seeds and they will continue to grow he enabled moisture to see that someone is going to care for those things that he cared about and that's why he says Binoche to eat cup in my Samba Lisi Santhal of Edessa it's not that you're gonna have help you'll have 70 people that they could scream at then or you'll have 70 therapists only he really had help from purchase yesterday you'll be able to see that you're not alone in the world that your voices was not the head of the lorry it was absorbed by somebody it's not that your words just balance back to you and no one is really listening and ultimately in a moment of truth you have made absolutely no difference you're going to see how you change somebody you'll see the impact you made and you'll realize that that impact is eternal you'll see that they also care but not so epic ah you're not levar down soshim gave him the greatest gift which other people have not been given he let moisture obey no see the influence he had on others he takes the spirit that's on my sham puts it on them so he could see the difference he made in one group seventy elders and you know what happens when they prophesize Valois awful moisture of a new does not need anything more he doesn't need their help he doesn't need them to continue to prophesize he needed a transparent glimpse of how his spirit has communicated itself to them and then he knew that he made a difference little could he know this on his own could he know on his own when the only thing he encountered from the Jews was basically complaints rebellions challenges hollering and screaming could he know that he had such a decisive influence on people that 3,300 years later were still studying and living by the words that he transmitted could he have known that could he have known that he helped forge an identity that would prove more tenacious than any other in the history of mankind could he have known that from hindsight it would be showing that he was the greatest leader that ever lived he couldn't have known these things all he heard from them is we should have stayed him it's ryeom and died and died and died and you're guilty for doing it what he needed to know is that 70 people internalized his spirit and he knew that his life was not in vain he had disciples his vision was not his alone he transmitted it to others others too will continue his work after his lifetime that was enough for him now moisture could face any challenge with serenity with confidence with optimism Eldon and may dot Miriam and Aaron the Marah Glen Coe rocked and everything that will come after Moira Boehner was so in a glimpse that unique limps that he was not alone lion crying in the desert speaking about truths that ultimately nobody really could relate to nobody can internalize ultimately at the end of the day people were just a catch that was chase after mice and when they had a moment of gossip and of slander they would go right to it and I think and of course a different level many of us can relate can relate to this sensation because sometimes when you look around you you can observe of course present company excluded but you can observe such pettiness coming from people who you would expect greatness from you know sometimes you invest in people you invest in a community you invest in a relationship you invest in an institution and twenty thirty years later you can get stabbed behind your back in reality or in your perception and you're like ultimately the corruption is everywhere the same the negativity is everywhere the same people are the same self-centered narcissistic beasts who care only about themselves some people use God as a crutch and some people don't use God they just say they're atheists but even the people who use God are just using God to be able to promote their goals and their agendas they may have different language than may have different words they may have different memoria kazow but ultimately when push comes to shove when they're challenged at their core you don't change anything nothing changes and that can create a very serious breakdown for people who care which is why so many people stop caring they become cynical how many people do we speak to openly they may stick around but they're just cynical at their core they learn to trust nobody and nothing because at the end they don't observe sincerity in a very deep way and they feel that terror you despair doesn't really change people it puts people in structures and some people are doing good things and those structures but ultimately nothing has changed and when the mouse comes out the proper moment the cat will go chasing after the mouse the question is how expensive is the mouse but that question is only how much not if it's a question of when what moisture Rubino has to see at this moment is it's not true not everybody only thinks about steak look at 70 of your talmidim who will forever be different listen to their words and see they're prophesizing they're speaking God's words but it's all yours it's from your spirit it's not an issue of ego the same Turner says he's the humblest man it's an issue if God put me in a position wasting my whole life accomplishing nothing or actually we can change the world together and from moisture who cares about the cause not about his ego he cares about the cause when he saw that the cause has no future had broken when he saw that the cause has a future there's 70 people who will never be the same and those 70 people will create more people so formation of a new that was enough and the crisis was over it was over and you know I think we could learn something very profound most of us have a ancient Jewish custom is we don't give feedback we don't believe me criticism yeah but we often don't give positive feedback or completely positive feedback I'll ask you all a question think for a moment about three people who influenced you most in your life positively not negatively positively three people who made a serious positive impact on your life maybe when you were four maybe when you were 14 maybe when you were 24 and when you were 44 but three people who not only in all and fine people but people who made a change in your life maybe something they said maybe something they did maybe something you read maybe something you heard but they absolutely made a change or maybe even transformed your life and I want to ask you a second question do these people know about it do these three people know how they impacted your life what do you think the answer is for most people these people don't know in most cases these people don't know did you ever tell it to if they changed your life why did you never tell it to them the answer is when the Sun shines there's no stars first of all it's a sense of you know Who am I one I'm gonna come and tell you by the way you changed my life am i that important they're leaving here if you changed my life big deal and second look probably maybe hears it from other people and second of all it's vulnerable to say you changed my life is vulnerable it means I owe you something forever we don't like to be vulnerable we like to be macho to tell somebody to look them in the eyes you know thank you you who do means thank you right it's the same word like confession I dog and tell you does the same word thank you and what's it what's the connection confessing means I lied to you I'm sorry I stole I'm sorry i gossiped about you I'm sorry I did something wrong to you I apologize I mistreated you it's BET Mozilla thank you thank you I think it's really the same thing a real thank you is as vulnerable as a confession because a real thank you I don't mean pass the tissues thank you pass the comers thank you I mean to be able to look somebody in their eyes and say thank you thank you in that profound way it's a very vulnerable experience it's much like I don't that's another reason we may not do it maybe there's other reasons but all the reasons are wrong we should communicate to people what they did for us somebody sent me a poem that a Bar Mitzvah boy once read about his parents at the Bar Mitzvah and he titled it when you thought I wasn't looking so he said like this when you thought I wasn't looking you hung my first painting on the refrigerator it was messy it was ridiculous I'm adding that but you hung it on the refrigerator and I wanted to paint another one when you thought I wasn't looking you fed a homeless human being and I thought that was good to be kind to strangers when you thought I wasn't looking you baked the birthday cake just for me and I took notice that you cared for me in little things when you thought I wasn't looking you said a prayer and I believe there was a God that I can always talk to when you thought I wasn't looking you kissed me goodnight and I felt loved when you thought I wasn't looking I saw tears come from your eyes and I learned that sometimes things hurt but that it's alright to cry when you thought I wasn't looking you smiled and it made me want to look that pretty too when you thought I wasn't looking you cured and I wanted to be everything I could be when you thought I wasn't looking I looked and I wanted to say thank you for all those things you did when you thought I wasn't looking even the greatest leaders even moisture a banal have to be able to hear that their work that their sacrifice is not in vain it's not futile it's not meaningless it's not worthless even they deserve to hear that they're accomplishing something that day's a night of giving of sharing of teaching of communicating the Word of God is going somewhere it's making a dent in somebody's life they shouldn't say cursed is the day that I left my mother's womb how you aim higher a solemn rock my should have remained eternally pregnant because my life is just one wasted one wasted potential you know I want to conclude with a story mama I'm I said they eat himself told a story it's a very it's a very special story's name is gieux Hooda today he's a real estate very successful real estate dealer in Israel he served in the Yom Kippur War and during the time of the Yom Kippur War I think right after the war a few months after the war he and his platoon patrolling the Golan Heights that Israel took from Syria in 1967 war and in the goal until today there were many what are they called my field mines and he stepped on one of them and in the explosion he was wounded badly with a helicopter they took him to the hospital and to save his life they amputated both of his legs for a few months he was in a coma he wasn't conscious and when he woke up one morning he lifted up the blanket and he saw that he's missing two legs and he screamed in horror and the nurse came running in and he's like what happened to my legs and she's like wow thank God you woke up you're speaking you're up we didn't know if that's gonna happen and this Jew described the aftermath of what happened to him he basically sunk into a terrible terrible depression because he felt that you know his life his functional life came to an end he said his mother he went back home ultimately his mother would cry all day and his father was quiet his father was one of those Jews who didn't believe in talking sure some of you know that style especially when it comes to painful emotional things spot he said I don't know what was worse my father silence my mother's tears says his friends would come over they didn't have what to say nobody looked at him in the eyes they would sit and the first opportunity they could leave they ran away jumped in the opportunity you know somebody else came of the telephone rang dove the nurse came if he had to go to therapy like he felt like you know they they couldn't be there for him in any way he said Israel of course you know they paid for the expenses a veteran and a wounded veteran what do they call them Neff hates AHA the fates of how the invalids of the IDF of serve argon ally Israel and he said he told the story publicly they felt so bitter he was bitter he was angry at the entire country and it was an emotional response he felt that he gave everything he gave his life he gave his body gave his neshama for Erick's Easter all for ISM for the Jewish people and they couldn't give anything back to him in return a few years past it's the summer of 1976 high dish of I think it was gimel of around August August 7 is Tov shah mahmud Evolved 76 around the hundred and fifty a few hundred one hundred and fifty I think maybe a little more of invalids of Siham came for at or to the US you know to see interesting places that was sponsored by / the Israel or by some donors to Israel they came and they went they so different people different experiences and it was today it's done pretty often common dinner was a real unique thing you know the world wasn't where it is today and and there was a very special experience for them to get away you know to be nurtured to see interesting sights to do some interesting things and so forth one of the places that came to visit was 770 Eastern Parkway in the Crown Heights section of Brooklyn to see the lubavitcher rebbe and for those who remember it was a very unique there's also photos of it it was a very unique moment they emptied out the whole downstairs of the shoal of 770 and it got filled up with wheelchairs all over them more in wheelchairs it got filled up with wheelchairs and the rebus said he wants to come down and speak to them and he came down and it was him with all of these these soldiers of Israel and the Rebbe spoke not in Yiddish that wouldn't do much for them he started his speech in Hebrew and he said he said something I apologize then I'm going to speak bahasa Ashkenazi's I'm going to speak with an Ashkenazi pronunciation because that's what I'm accustomed to I'm not accustomed to the Sephardic way of communication so forgive me but I hope you'll be able to understand my words and he spoke I don't maybe for 20 minutes 15-20 minutes a very very moving moving talk one of the things he said then was that as a Jew we have custom that we mix into other people's businesses even when we're not asked so he said based on this you know time-honored Jewish custom I'm going to mix into your business and suggest that you changed the name I don't think the name the fates of how suits you because nothing means the invalids of Saha and really your name should be changed to Mitsuyo nade so how which means the exceptional of zom and i'm not saying this as a feel-good you know you're not an invalidity of course they're invalids he said I very sincere why so he said everyone has ash litters in the world everyone has a mission in the world when Hashem takes away from somebody physical resources they still have a purpose in this world it means that he compensates them with unique resources spiritually psychologically emotionally and morally to be able to fulfill their mission in life and in that sense there's something unique in you that nobody has and by a Jew there's how Cabarrus hot surah al-kahf claimer then a shaman the goof the goof is a vehicle of the soul so what counts mostly is your internal spirit and in that sense there's something absolutely exceptional about you and that's why I think the name is mercy innate silent he spoke of different items different subjects as he finished he said I want to ask permission if I can have the honor to approach each of you and give you a dollar to give for sadaqa as ash little smitson when you come Terrence is wrong and of course they were very happy now usually the rebel would say that people would come to the rabbit here that wasn't possible so it was very moving their ever walked around the whole show and he went to each wheelchair and he shook everybody's hand and he gave them each a dollar a few dollars for sadaqa and it was very noticeable that he said something to each one of them later later I heard years later that there ever said something else to each soldier this man who lost his legs in the Golan Heights was among those people and he said when it came to him the rebus shook his hand and he took both of his his his hands represents have put this man's hand in his hands and he caressed them very very warmly and then he looked this man straight into his eyes he said he looked straight into the eyes he said I have seen generals they have seen commanders I have seen great people but there was something I saw at that moment a sense of majesty of royalty of aristocracy and his blue eyes were so loving and full of compassion and he looked me straight in the eyes and very slowly he said thank you thank you basically thanking him for what he has done and he said that was all I was waiting for I was waiting for somebody to look into my eyes and just thank me nobody could give me back my legs and nobody couldn't restore my body to what it was but just really with their whole neshama just say thank you for what you did for the Jewish people for what you did for the Jewish homeland for what you did for for millions of Jews to protect them from enemies that want to destroy them every day he says I want you to know I went home and it gave me a sense of dignity and of optimism and of empowerment I got out of my depression I got out of my bed and I decided I need a new job can be a soldier exactly he went into real estate real estate he could sit all day and sell buildings it's good to run around sometimes but he couldn't run around and he became extremely successful financially he spoke with me very very successful financially and a man of of great spirits and he's finished a speech he said some days I wake up in the morning I pick up the blanket and when I see what I look like I want to sink right into the depression and then I recall that man's thank you a rebus thank you and that thank you gives me fuel that gives me the engine to get out of bed than to continue my day and when I heard the store when he shared the story I thought to myself now how true it is in so many people's lives you say something to somebody you do something for somebody you never get feedback but years years later you may hear you may never hear that it made a serious change in their life this soldier never got feedback never got that type of feedback the rebel looked at him when he went to all the soldiers and he understood this is what he needs this is what he deserves it's not only what he needs it's what he deserves Moisture a banal got that from Hashem at that moment we can give that feedback the people who changed us just like when we would hear that feedback from people that we changed it sometimes transforms everything because you could live your whole life planned seeds and change people's lives and you never realize it but even when you don't realize it you have to realize it's the truth this is what we learned from the story it's the truth even if you don't know it and that is no word as in veined no gesture is in vain no tear is in vain no smile is in vain no sacrifices in vain its plan sees it creates differences and it makes dents in people who are sometimes selfish petty narrow-minded narcissistic foolish dumb oblivious and clueless you'll continue any other adjectives that you would like to share about humanity but still have a soul and when we become conduits for the Word of God we touch them in that place in ways that we know and usually much more in ways that we don't know thank you very much how a wonderful [Applause] thank you [Music] Oh oh you got her [Music]