Why Is G-d Judging Me on Rosh Hashanah?

heartfelt mazel tov to the brazil angle and to his father the biancolingo on the hassan of uh daughter and granddaughter malka to hayamore a few days ago [Music] should always be able to celebrate together the silver smokers [Music] and welcome everybody welcome back also everybody and all the panam kardashians okay so we're going to start today at mimer uh rosh hashanah the kamayama from the balatanya it's in lakota jerusalem which is right after nitsavim right after the salvo you'll see there's on the page 106. 106 column 2 or nun gimmel or nun gimmel column 4 if you want the hebrew 106 column two it says on top of this of him and the header is jerusalem you see [Music] if it doesn't say on top and it's of him so then you're in the wrong 106. you need to write one or six because the numbers repeat themselves with each okay this begins the section known as jerusalem the discourses my maryam of the balatanya that was said either in connection with rosh hashanah or unresh hashanah about rosh hashanah and then continues the maimaryam for serious mechuva and then for him kipper and then after that goes back to the parsha valley and then he goes to the my martin fosukus and schminier series and then that finishes the hamas of course and then goes to sha shira now the my reverse hashanah we've learned already a few years different ones there's a second tico bachai de chauffeur that we learned together right after this there's a second magmatiko bachai deshaufer that we learned together uh some time ago very very fundamental mimer and we learned that nicely oven we learned hashem so those are the different my modem that we learned in previous years they're all available on the yeshiva.net so you could watch them especially the second tiku and shayamalis are really foundational to understand what rosh hashanah but today we're going to learn we're going to begin the first table the first tico bachaida shaifer right here which is actually the first mimer for the shashana and it was said by the balatanya tough which is 1804 or 1803 1804 yeah the shabbos before they're not sure maybe with the next year either 1804 or 1805. so he begins with the famous pasek from tehillim we actually say it every week in the shelyom of thursday and it's a it's also said andrei shashan and the davaning and musuf this is said every day of rosh hashanah literally it means blow during the month or on the month or in the month below scheifer but casa liam hageno in the day that was designated to be our holiday or the the mauryan says but also means concealment the day of concealment because this is a law for the jewish people it's a hike it's a statue for israel and it's a mishpat it's a time of justice for alikayaka for the god of jacob for the god of yaakov that's the literal meaning of the passage in tehillah tanya says [Music] now it's interesting in this passage he doesn't mention the word rosh hashanah right doesn't say the word rosh hashanah it just says that the first day of tishma you have to have a holiday and you aim to a year it should be a day of blowing it doesn't say that it's the beginning of the year ghazal said that it's rosh hashanah and in here also he doesn't even mention the the the which month he just says tico bachaida schaefer but he doesn't even say which he says on a month it could be maybe in srivati shiblo yeah the gemara industrial learns out from here that it says is there any holiday in which the new moon is concealed and the answer is not pesach and not schwas and not sukis because them by them the moon is not concealed the moon is uh revealed and not only revealed it's in its full completion the 15th day of the month the moon is wholesome the only holiday in the jewish year natyam kippur is the tenth of tishrei the only holiday in the jewish calendar that exists on the time that the new moon is from the word the new moon because the moon renews itself it goes into hiding at the end of the month and then it comes back from our perspective is only rosh hashanah because it's only holiday in the first day of the month so tikku the bakassa they learned from this is talking about obviously rosh hashanah but this is how he put doesn't even say the word then he says which is the first source that this day is a day of mishpath doesn't say that doesn't say that it's a holiday don't do malach doesn't even say why we don't know from humash why we make a holiday rosh hashanah yom kippur it says a day of atonement sukkos it says you should remember that i took them out with clouds from its rayon doesn't say the reason it says it's bikram it's the the fruits are the fruits are getting ready the grain is finally ready and uh and uh it's a time of harvest so that's schwas rosh hashanah doesn't say any reason just as it should be a holiday so he begins he says [Music] all months are called months of the year khache and again the word khaidesh why is called the word means means renewal since our months follow the lunar calendar not the solar calendar the american calendar for example which is the roman calendar follows what's called a solar cycle it's based on the sun our calendar our months of course are based on the moon the moon cycle is 29 and a half days 29 days and 12 hours that's why some days are 29 days some months are 29 days some months are 30 days because we have to it's usually six months and six months because the moon finishes its orbit around the earth after 29 days and 12 hours and change you can have the middle of the day half the day belongs to one month the toyota says clearly this has to be one day so we'd split it up 29 and 30. and what happens with the cycle of the so the the lunar cycle lunar is the moon is that it's somewhat lunatic the word lunacy which means meshuggah comes from the word luna because the gemara says shemesh it says the sun knows its pathways the moon doesn't know where it's going if you what it means is it's just a little humor but ghazal used humor a lot because if you look at the moon the way it works it's very very complicated it looks like it doesn't know where it's going it looks like it has in other words its own way of functioning the sun is much more also not mamish but uh much more predictable yeah so you have different types of people so the area one of his unpredictabilities is that two days out of the month he completely disappears it completely disappears and then it re-emerges which is called reshredish so it's called khaidus that's why it's called now so he says all the months of the year called what would be wrong if he would say the word he says because he's trying to bring out a point the month of tisha is called haiderstam the month tiku you already know it's tishrei why is it called the month the fee because because it's a hidden it's called khaidish because the quintessential element of hiddish is in that month to the general existence of all the worlds and their emergence from nothingness or from no thingness into somethingness because since this is considered the head and the brain of the ear so therefore it's not just called all months but they're months of the year which in other words within a year there's a renewal but here it's not within a year there's a renewal it's kaidish it's the whole hidden from the beginning so it's different kashmin or kislavatavis all the way till alo it's also a kiddish but it's a kiddish within a year as he's going to explain here it's kaido it's just kiddish because the whole thing the whole system so to speak reboots all the way from the beginning there's a reset and that's what why is that because it's called it has on what's rosh hashanah he says the word rishi means the head of the year usually it's translated just as a euphemism you're sitting at the head of the table the table doesn't have a head right the head of the family the family has a head every person has a head so it's a euphemism it's called shema mushroom in hebrew grammar it's called a borrowed name it's not a real name it's a borrowed name right the feet of a table tables don't have feet people have feet animals are feet the answer is it's a borrowed name but really it should have been called hashana the beginning of the year it's much more accurate not that roshan a year doesn't have a head so he says no a year also has a head a year also has a brain in reality there's three states there's something called islam and nefesh islam is space shanna is consciousness every single experience in life is a convergence of three elements when you bring the three together you have smoke oil is the space where i'm in is the time i'm in and nephesh is the soul i'm in the state of consciousness you never have the three divorce from each other because we live in a world of time and space and consciousness so it's says here they always their shove what exists in space exists in time when exists in space and time exists in consciousness it's just different frequencies different layers but they're shaving therefore so if you have in consciousness in the soul you have a head you have a brain you have a mind a person can't live without that there's a brain every single living creature has a brain a mind which is the seed of consciousness and what's the uniqueness of the head or the brain the rush is the head the micron is the brain the mind the brain which has the mind over there is the manifestation of the consciousness of the person what aspect clause is means the totality of a person's life and consciousness um and from there it's extended it expands it's fleshed out and it's communicated to all of the limbs and all of the organs he is limb has its own unique functionality what he calls your highest protei means the consciousness that is unique for that limb and organ the way conscious is manifested in my arm or in my heart or in my gut or in my legs or my abdomen every single aver internal or external right manifests a certain energy based on its chemistry based on its functionality and its purpose means according to its physiological components and its characteristics every aver has a different chemistry and therefore different characteristics physiological and therefore a different life force and functionality that is manifested but it all begins where it all begins in the brain everything has a seat in the brain and a source in the brain and we can today especially and right you trace every element that's in the body trader where is it in the brain where did it get the message from and it's unbelievably complex and still still not fully understood how amazing uh amazingly intricate and meticulous it is kaku boiler if this is true in consciousness the same the same rhythm exists in space the same rhythm exists in time in other words space also has a mind and time also has a mind we don't think of it that way what the time has in mind time goes he says no if it's in jeffers if it's an average you don't say it's just a person there's no brain no no there's a brain there's a brain that's a seat of consciousness and every aspect of the body receives from it nothing is in the body that's not first in the brain and directed first of all it's there in the brain first and it continues to be orchestrated and choreographed and directed and monitored and dealt with and secured through the through the brain and the central nervous system so he says space and time rosh hashanah could be called the neurological the neurological days of the year those are days of neurology those are days of of the brain in other words under shashana there's a geely clause there's a manifestation there's a certain embodiment a flow of the collective consciousness of the ear umi and then from the brain from rosh hashanah is an extension of a more individual individuated life for every single month for every month he doesn't say for every day for every month just like the brain has everything the whole highest is there and it's there but clawless but every limb manifests a certain detail a certain aspect of certain nuance the same is true because every month there's a similar system every month is kaidish why is it called khaidish so astronomically because the moon but on a deeper level because each month there's a hiddush there's a renewal of energy from no thickness to something but there's a difference every month is the head of this month rishi it's the head of the year so the term head is not a mistake term head is not just a random borrowed name it's extremely precise because the relationship between the head and the entire organism is the relationship of haiders to the month and rish hashanah to the year so the difference is in each month there's also a renewal but it's the energy that is connected to that particular month and there's twelve rishkai dishes and then there's the one unique which is not rich we call it georgetown even though it's also rich which is of course the first of tishrei where there's a hiskachus a renewal of rios claudi the collective consciousness and energy and life and vitality for the collective for the entire year in parentheses he brings some sources for kabbalah after the parentheses which is four one two three five lines later on not only that it's not just okay it gets renewed it's something different every year he says the kiosk clothing the new energy for the year is a new type of energy it's not just you know we re we rehash it it's recycled it just has to be replenished and it goes back it's a new highest it says in tanya that's why it says in uh in uh parishioner's acre we just learned about eritrea from the beginning of the year to the end of the year he says if it's the beginning of the year to the end of the year should have just said it's always there if it's there from the beginning of the until the end of the year every year so just say eric always same like from the beginning of the year so although it says no because the end of the year the old kiosk goes that is why and he says over there that every idiot he's going to say soon everyday shalom a light that never existed before in other words every year comes with new energy and therefore with new opportunities with new different things that resonate you say a new energy means there's a new consciousness if i'm holding on to the old year i didn't welcome the new year it's sometimes hard to welcome a new year because it's a new energy it's a new opportunity there's new so i have to create new channels for new energy you have to expand your horizons because if i come with the old paradigms i get the old energy but the new energy i'm not ready for so he says it's actually the scratches of a reuse in the world and it's a huge cloliac it's a different life what does that mean so he defines it he says that there is the gili of malchus the revelation of hashem's literally it means hashem's kingship but more more more specifically malchus as he explains represents represents the whole relationship of hashem with the universe so the entire life spirit that vivifies the world is called the manifestation of his malchus of his leadership or of his relationship of his connection with the universe it's called mamali kalam and that which fills the world even the highest worlds neither it's not just this world all the world's all states of reality all the universes physical spiritual these are others on all levels there is a rejuvenation but this revelation is dependent significantly by myself on the state and reality of those who live here the means the creatures the inhabitants of the lowest world that's where they called falzen emma on this month which is called the month because it's the it's the kiddish it's the month of you what does this mean so this he now gives context to this possible beauty and show for what is this shayfer that you're blowing and also to understand the whole theme of 10 days of shaman says and search for hashem when he's present call out to him when he's close asks the gemara the certain times that hashem is present and hashem is close it says and for the gemara bihimatsu during the ten days there's a uniqueness of his presence and closeness so he says why were these days designated as days of truth in order to understand this the posix says in ashrae in tehillim is the malchus of all the worlds literally what does it mean it means that your kingship your malchus doesn't extend over one country or two countries or three countries or a country with many republics or many regions and many zip codes and many cities your malcolm is the malchus that's called and it extends through all of the worlds literally your malhouse reaches all of the universes but there's also a deeper element the word illam as we often learn it's based on the gomaryam the word islam comes from the word helen which means concealment ayla means a world right kalai lemkula is the whole world but the word oil say means helen there's an element of concealment so the world the word for world is the same word like concealment why would the two be associated why why would the world be defined as concealment so he says the answer is for this you have to understand the nature of reality the nature of what we call the world we look at the world and we say here is the world he says we have to understand what this world is when you understand what the world does you'll understand why it's called oil or aluminum in the plural what's the meaning of this before the creation of the world's meaning in a state of pre-creation and when you say pre by the way it's before there was a concept of before because time was also created so it says in pre-k eleazar it was him and his name alone obviously there was no world it was him and his name what does this mean so this means in order for there to be an emergence of worlds may i in from a state of i in which is no thingness lies to somethingness he withdrew or he restricted or he condensed and concealed the light of the flow of infinity blessed be he so that only the gili of malchus should be manifested what does it mean only the gili of malchus there should be some revelation but that's called malchus his kingship his royalty his majesty is aristocracy it's from the revelation of malchus from which all the worlds receive their energy their vitality and their existence alloying them the higher realities of lower realities right so what's the connection to malchus why malchus so generally speaking malchus as the famous expression in swarm ain't malach right leadership is about a relationship you need the people there could be other emotional qualities that a person can experience on their own you could sit on top of a mountain and be filled with love to the universe in fact probably if you stay on top of the mountain you'll stay with more love than if you come down there's people they sit on mountains and they write poetry about love when they meet people sometimes it's a little harder but but on top of the mountain and and it's a genuine experience of love right the same is true with all the midis all the middles says you can experience it within yourself to some degree there's one element you cannot experience by yourself malchus it would be like saying i'm getting married tomorrow who me i'm getting married to me by definition i don't know maybe the supreme court is going to change it but by definition that but marriage means yeah you say you know person said i learned to i know everything about marriage i read about it in books and i i thought about it and i experienced it how much do they know about marriage oh reality reality is nothing it's like you know okay so lapel you have to get married maybe it doesn't work that way the very dynamic it's a mistake that people make you could read because it is the relationship it's not it's not the relationship is not uh in order to implement ideas other middles you have an idea an experience and then there's the way it's experienced it's implemented here the relationship is what it is you understand it's different the relate that's what it is the relationship without the relationship it's not that it could be other things it could be nice things but it's not that the same marriage so that's what al-talab is saying the whole concept of the world is an indian of malchus hashem himself there's oneness infinite oneness he says but for this there can't be anybody else there's no otherness so the first thing that had to be is he had to be met samson conceal the chef of ainsaf so there should be only gili malchus when i'm in an active relationship with you what does it mean i'm in a relationship with you the first thing that you exist it sounds simple but it's not so simple right we have as a marriage therapist they can testify it's not so simple that you really exist you really exist and it doesn't mean that for you to exist i have to die and for me to exist you have to die it's not as simple as i'm making it right ms to be able to really be there so when you say gili mal hussein means in simple english the guillory of the ancief the way the way it is manifested in a way that it allows not only allows it creates the islamists it creates the world there's an active relationship with otherness that is the definition of malhouse so doesn't only mean worlds all the concealments comes from alhas because if i want a relationship i can't be infinite if i'm infinite like just you know in human relations we spoke last week about the symptom in human relationships if i'm everywhere and i'm everything there's no room for you so by a person it comes out as narcissism i'm everywhere and i'm everything right the whole world is my mirror the whole world is my mirror there's no room for you but in a much deeper and more spiritual sense it can even be in the positive the infinity of ain't safe excludes any type of relationship in an authentic way with an islam where is there an islam yahushua is him and his name creation required that symptom of the ain't safe what's that symptom the concealment of the enzyph and what type of gilui the gili of ellicos the way he is i want to be connected to you this symptom this symptom that we're talking about this concealment is true for the world for hashem there's no change commission cost of attention tehillim darkness doesn't eclipse you to edition we say in davening in ezra you're in the beginning you're at the end the coolest everything in his presence is as non-existent as a separate thing as i'll explain the nikra we say in davaning he's called hamel lava even after even post bria there's still nevada you're asking a good question you're going back to the basics you're going back to the skeleton levels that's good why is he always busy that has nothing happened and what if something happened i love him he did change he said sorry i'm not alone anymore it's over right right that's a saying yeah don't relationship affect each other and when we love our spouses it has a profound effect on them better or worse but um [Music] i think what he's saying is something a little deeper he's saying it says before creation was him and his name what's the name i sent him what's the name he had a name that's the key oh what's a name a name is a relationship so the name was also there but the name was there as levant him and his name alone what's their what's the name what's name so the name is always associated with malchus because what do you need a name for when you say a person has a name a name is for somebody else right the name is how i call you you don't need a name for yourself or if you talk about name in terms of reputation your name is the way you're perceived the way i know you the way people know you the world knows you you have to know what you write there's a line in a song a jewish songwriter once wrote the only thing we knew about bob was that his name wasn't bob sometimes the only thing you know about people so what's that how you when you say when you say hula vada who it means that we're in that state too the whole world was there pre the world that's the point you're hearing it in a very uh sequential you're hitting in a very sequential uh mathematically defined pre-quantum mechanics state of consciousness you can't hear it that way what he's saying is that the whole world was here pre-the world the whole world was here free the world that's when nothing changed not that god is afraid of change he's not afraid of change obama is not afraid of change he's also not afraid of change the question is what type of change ah yeah they say there was a buddhist monk who was was in boro park and he was starving so he went into a hot dog stand on 13th avenue and he asked the guy to uh you know he showed him to make him everything she gives him a frankfurter and this monk takes out a 50 bill and he gives it to him and the jew takes it and puts it in the registry it doesn't say a thing and a state he's meditating so after five minutes the guy says what stays to what are you waiting for she says change he says change is inside so we're not afraid of change the question is what type of change yeah yahushua means that all of reality existed pre-reality all of reality can be traced back to infinity that's what it really is so what's the hidden creation the hideous of creation is that reality should be defined based on the perspective of symptoms that's what happened what happened was that reality should be defined basically so the alternative says you don't have to live only in that definition you don't have to live only in that definition i want you to know that you can also define reality pretense huh it's the most healing it's the most it's the source of all healing this line this line it's not a philosophical statement that we're afraid of change it's the conviction it's the profound statement that every single reality that i'm facing beginning with my own reality i can experience it from the post post-symptom perspective which is not fake it's not fake god made it simpson it's not a mistake but that very same reality that very same reality can be traced back to this place of lovate and i don't have to and therefore i'm not forced to define it and live in it based on the postsymptom reality of concealment because that's who you are because that's who we really are because that's who we are we are infinite as the famous t-shirt infinite consciousness having a finite experience that t-shirt is coming to use we just need to see it so if we use it's a dangerous thought [Music] well what's so bad about you know there's nothing to worry about beautiful that's beautiful so how are you going to be jewish you want to know how you're going to be jewish if you're not going to feel guilty that's a good shiloh huh [Music] once you realize there's this beginner where you want to be once a person realizes this they can have it actually they can actually make choices they can make real choices let me give a contemporary example right but here it's in a much deeper place i just don't reduce it i'm just giving it as an example but he's talking about it from a much deeper place but it's a similar idea we've been speaking about last year shabasana the idea that sometimes and in certain models of therapy this is an important idea sometimes you can trace back all of your life's or many of your life's experiences interactions sensations emotions to one belief to one thought right to one thought and it's it's incredibly it's incredibly uh revolutionary and and it's also revealing and it's also incredibly tragic imagine that at three years old or four years old or five years old a thought went into your mind or a belief went into your mind i don't deserve to be loved i don't deserve to exist i don't have value to take my opinions or my feelings seriously it's no no i have no value now when it went into me it wasn't processed with a shear with a lecture somebody sat down and made a pill no no it happened through life experience whatever the experience was maybe a series of experiences maybe one experience but it went in i don't even know it went in because i was three years old or five years old or maybe seven years old or maybe two years old maybe even before maybe i was two days old i don't know right it's pre it's called pre-verbal now imagine that 90 percent or maybe more of my life is based on that my relationships my interactions with myself my emotions i don't even know this but i'm living in that space it's 40 years later it's 40 years later i'm still living from that space now this guy is trying this his wife is trying to give him love you know what that looks like his wife is trying to hug him to try to tell him how much he likes him and what is he doing huh so what is he doing if he doesn't deserve it it means she can't be giving it to him because she's she's semi-normal so what is she doing she's either wasting her time wasting his time she's making fun of him she's lying she's using him right she doesn't mean what she says it's just fake in other words she's much worse than i imagined at least she wouldn't say i love you she's not now she's lying you hear what's happening so who becomes the enemy her right uh you're smiling we're talking about mice and khalid that's what people are dealing with anybody who deals with this is what people are dealing with i'm giving one example another 1.1 million examples what's the best thing you can do for this person what's the best thing what's the moment of gullah for this person tell me huh no no no you're already you're already ahead of the game change the belief that this is an avoid before change the belief i can't at the moment change the [Music] a wrong belief sure tell a two-year-old it's a wrong thought try try try that the the the best that could happen with this person at this moment is if i can become aware of the fact that my entire trajectory my neural pathways are based on that one one makshava you know what it's like let's say you're going to work and you have a highway where you go and somebody puts a boulder there right so you learned that you can't go straight into the road because there's a boulder and you have to take another another path the problem is there's a ditch over there but that's the way you go every single day because that's how you get to work so in your system you have to go into a ditch and that's where you are and there's no other path that's my neural pathway this is where my brain goes the best thing you can do for this person is can you see that rock can you go back and identify that thought which changed everything so basically my whole life my whole life played itself out within a shell within a cocoon within a concealment within a crazy crazy insane symptom a narrowness a restrictiveness where my entire perception of self is that i am the quintessential piece of garbage and that thought defines my life imagine that i may not be able to change it at the moment but if i could be aware of that and then the next time now this is not easy it's not as it's not as easy as i'm making it it's it's it's tough because 50 years are going to revolt against this but the next time your wife or your child or anybody else says something and you can identify wow you can almost watch it happen if you could and even if you can't watch it happen you can at least feel it happen or you could see your reactions and you could say what if that makshava wasn't there this is the beginning of redemptiveness you understand what i'm saying everybody so we call this today trauma trauma or what freud defines something happens to you maybe at a very young age and you weren't in control and you felt helpless and you didn't feel you could do anything about it and it literally creates a reaction that is very very deep in one way or another or whatever name you want to give it but here he's going back to a much deeper place which is really all connected and that's the separateness the sense of separateness and we're all there creation didn't create anything new i told you once the market says bridges what did hashem create the oysters of heaven the oysters of earth it's one of the best interpretations ever here but asia's brother elokim you know what he didn't create heaven and earth he created the oysters of heaven the oceans of earth you understand the difference not heaven the oysters of heaven he created stories he created definitions what's words letters s oysters isis isis package everything isis define everything in terminology we talk about it in other words it's separate it has a definition that's what he created is just saying yeah that's true there was a big symptom that's called the cosmic trauma what's the cosmic trauma cosmic trauma symptom every trauma in the world traces itself back to this trauma if you could deal with this trauma you're empowered to deal with every trauma right so it says trader was there but not the isis of taylor [Music] so it's called shmai but the shema is part of who that's why why is he saying what's name the name is everything that's going to come out later the name is the way you're defined based on the relationship again the name is the way i perceive you his name was also alone in other words even that that defines all of reality which is his name it's how i know him it was also levad the energy of the isis was there but the combinations the manifestations and that symptom that allows the oceans to become separate from the source or at least perceived as something distinct like we learned in the shambhas the command which mine was the idea is always he says and it's abstract the isis is the way it's packaged now without isis i can't convey ideas they're called lavusham you can't come to you don't come you don't come without clothes you need clothes right but clothes are just clothes it's not who you are it was the first marketing campaign and it was the ultimate marketing campaign that's called maos it was the first marketing campaign yeah if you want to know marketing you learn about simpson any aspect you can trace back to the source you want to know about marketing you learn about the first thing about marketing is stop thinking about yourself start thinking about the customer emma's anybody in marketing here huh the worst mistake is when you ask artists to get into marketing why you need to express yourself because artists need to express themselves they don't care about the reader right i grew up in a house with a lot of journalism so i used to watch this happen writers give an article four thousand words he thinks every word is worth a million dollars it's priceless the editor comes he only has place for 800 words so what does he do he amputates the article does surgery throws most of it to the garbage the next morning the writer sees the article and he wants to die they said in yiddish starts from heights fellaini i don't know how you translate that that's what i grew up with a writer doesn't die from ha from heart failure he dies from word failure which doesn't work in english but basically somebody played with his words or made mistakes he's i'm an artist i want i want to express myself a lot of artists you take van gogh others yeah they died penniless their basements had unbelievable art there's art and then there's marketing it's a different world right there was a famous jewish singer le calva he died penniless yeah he died i don't know if he owned a nickel his songs this artist and his marketers it's a different thing different experience marketing i couldn't care less about you backless that buying it and they're not buying a whole different world so it's it could be very cynical but again everything has a shirish there's something true about it business is a litmus test for reality very often art is not you understand what i'm saying that's where you need symptom you need symptoms it's about how the other person takes it there's people that have unbelievable ideas they don't know how to market it we learned last week about bina right you have creative geniuses in their minds they're creating companies every moment of the day i know a person who created around a thousand companies all on paper in reality he can't even get one thing done every day he makes a new company and another billion dollars on paper he's already 200 billion one of the wealthiest people in the world the problem is nobody else knows about it yeah like the guy who came to the gary webb and he said right the basis law and he said that he had a column that he should be a rebel so he said the next time tell that rabbit to go to the qasid not to you [Music] they should tell them not you you understand the dream is coming to the wrong person so so so the the most liberating thing you can do is tell a person yeah there was no shinui your creative beautiful child that was hijacked at three did not really go through a change i did go through a change no the the most powerful thing you could teach that person viscerally i'm not talking about intellectually is that you didn't go through ashi when he says you hear what he's saying if you don't know how to read lakota it's just some philosophical abstract statement god doesn't change that's it in other words the world is fake there was no symptom nothing happened you don't exist you're missing so the trauma of separateness let's give again the contemporary example that crazy change i went through to the point that i'm an unrecognizable person that change is not ultimate reality it's reality he's not denying it he doesn't say that simpson never happened that symptom happened it really happened if the attempt to i have proof that it sometimes happened i'm talking you like my proof you don't like my proof [Laughter] i'm talking that's proof the duality is so important the duality is not real duality but it's duality that sometimes happened it's not saying that simpson didn't happen where did it happen it happened in the world of malchus so what does it mean ancient machinery that change you went through is it real it's real look at my life of course it's real look how many relationships i lost look how many opportunities i lost look how much anxiety i had right look how many bad habits i had to deal with look how much anger and pain what do you mean it's not true of course it's true it's true because that's the world i was living in the gabe who got in the truth of ultimate reality the separateness didn't happen whenever you see and look at the toyota these words pre-creation is really also post-creation don't hear it as a philosophical abstract statement we're afraid of change every speech people tell you don't be afraid of change change change shame change god is frightened of change he says me never i don't change you know people who say i don't change it's usually you don't want to handle with them i don't change right somebody who tells you this is how i ran the yeshiva for the last 295 years this i'm going to be running it for the next 295 years you don't like it there's a lot of lakes you can jump into right or therapist or a doctor says this is how we've been doing the surgery for the last 900 years this is how we continue to do it really you don't trust those people we want change but we want change based on awareness based on awareness based on progress when you say here it's the most powerful change in the world the most powerful change you can undergo in the world is realize there was no change you got it it's the most powerful change because that gives you one a a a an eternal source of creativity and you're creative you're creative you can recreate yourself in good ways ain't soft could recreate itself and so if he's not scared of change it's it's infinite besides with change there's no change that that amputates it that kills it that that snuffed out the soul out of me that's a good question between the therapists you actually have to go back and re-experience it or it's enough to know it's not poshit it's very hard this is not a concept if you're hearing this as a concept then you're not hearing it it's not a conceptus oh you know he says this in almost every single mind every few my modern thought will say and then there's a line but the ms i don't understand this side was there was there not am i crazy am i not crazy but those two elements that's all of reality because if you delegitimize what happened it's equally cruel you understand if i say oh nothing happened it's just your fantasy mr sugana you're rein you're doing it again again again you're delegitimized you understand all my pain is also nothing because people sometimes think they're going to be nice right they say oh nothing happened god is good everything is good it's good enough it's called spiritual bypassing right you know what spiritual bypassing means in the name of spirituality you confuse spirituality with avoidance of pain because i don't want to feel the pain so i become very spiritual but it's not real spirituality it's an escape real spirituality is not here to avoid it's here to embrace it's here to sublimate so it's a very important distinction that's why the mymarum the axis of the mimorium have a dual axis there's always there's a symptom there's a helium you have to breathe that in you have to appreciate that what does that mean in in my language it means whatever means for me again here he's not just talking about the symptom of a three-year-old going through a difficult experience here he's talking about that symptom that defines reality which is the source of every other symptom yeah yeah and everyone confronts the symptoms there's nobody who doesn't confront it because if i don't confront it i'm not living in god's reality i'm making believe there was nobody asleep but the toyota says gracious barilla kim don't tell me there was no symptom it's very nice another idea went back not even a view yeah not even a view did not like the that's true and they're considered sinners they're considered sinners right now there are different types of sinners they're holy sinners there are sins that are holy and there are sins that are profane their sins are holy very holy they did not like that simpson but it's still called the hat why is it called a hat because it's spiritual bypassing was taken um so that is going to explain and we'll continue this tomorrow that this whole process of malchus that's what happens rosh hashanah and it gives us new perspective when we speak about judgment roshan is called who wants to be judged in 2022 you know anybody people in america are allergic the worst thing you could do is say i'm judging you that's why people have such a uh allergic reaction to rosh hashanah a lot of people don't judge me do me a favor right ms nobody's going to agree with me make believe besides isaac isaac always agrees i always know i can get a yes over there well what is it what is it depends how you're perceiving it you have to go back to always go back to the basics you always have to go back to where things began the first thought what was the first thought about rosh hashanah in your life that's the first thought it's with god the first time you heard about god what was it like you have to know that and i can't go back i don't know the first time i heard god in my life i don't know it's probably when i was in my mother's womb and she was singing a song was saying to him right but the point is we go back our thoughts define our belief systems and those belief system define our thoughts and those thoughts become our emotions sensations experiences ideas philosophies and then i build a whole philosophy in life all to deal with the pain that came from that particular thought that was absolutely harming and dysfunctional tragic or what huh the most loving thing somebody can do for me is without judgement look into my eyes and say i get it i get it and now let me take your hand and hold it as i take you back to that thought and look at it and then you'll know everything you'll know everything isn't that the most beautiful type of judgment in the world the most beautiful type of judgment in the world is if i could judge in the sense of let me show you the context of all of your life's experiences and what they were rooted in stop judging me stop judging me that judgment bring it on bring it on imagine right that cat scan that x-ray [Music] you could call a judgment if you want it's anything but that judgment in the sense of judging i judge you i'm sitting on the throne and judging you but if i can hold your hand and really allow you to judge all your experiences and all you're gonna say is you're going to say one word wow and a flash flood of tears will come down from your eyes as you'll say wow wow wow wow that's the most glorious judgment in the world everybody have a wonderful day tomorrow 7 45 a.m and tomorrow 9 30 there's the women's class here have a beautiful day thank you for coming typhus every mimer you learn about this remember this is gonna code we're not afraid of change [Laughter] what's typhus given you got it you're so quiet why are you so quiet just one second yeah i'm sorry [Music] it was on the spot that was on the spot that hashem was telling it's a very strange passage hashem spoke to misha after the death of the two sons of iron when they came close to god and they died it's already a story in shemini just say he spoke to them after she said he was telling moshe why they died the karvasam of the arakayam says they wanted to kiss the reborn of them and even though they know that when you kiss hashem you can't be embodied anymore in finiteness because what's a kiss or kisses our spirits merge so infinity takes over they didn't he says nimno they didn't stop it's not going to stop me from my kiss so essentially what they were searching is they were searching to go out of a world of limitation of separateness of finiteness it's their spiritual it's their spiritual genius these were spiritual geniuses and and and ascetics and and saintly people and they didn't they didn't get married they didn't have children that's what it says they went and drunk to the base of mikdus well the tinies doesn't mean they're drunk that they they went to a bar and they drank and they came in i mean they want they were in a state of intoxication they didn't want to be in the place of das they wanted to be in place of ada someone brought up so he was making everything here with uh yeah so what's the difference yeah another one of you went prematurely yeah yes i didn't realize when you asked me to take a coffee a tea soup challenge cookies you have to see the matzah um thank you so much i actually traced my life to one thing really it's scary it's it's very powerful when we can when we can see that very scary for me no he's saying that he could trace i could trace my life he worked on it and he could trace his life to one thought i know where it came from it's a scary place yeah probably like you know thousands of years ago i'm afraid to speak to therapists because it's such a sacred thoughts that yeah well you need the right therapist who can honor sacredness you're profaning your own yourself you know who knows [Music] uh