Why Are Institutions Necessarily Evil?

gentlemen welcome to practical spirituality here in Asia tour in the old city of jerusalem overlooking the Temple Mount please feel free to go online to yom tov media club.com and join the club thank god it's actually working with it had a lot of people join the club and we're gonna have more and more people join it and please God with that club we're gonna hire people to help us with social media and publicity in general to get these classes out there in the world today's class title is wire institutions necessarily evil and now really I don't mean evil evil that was just clickbait I don't really mean evil because no one would create an institution out of evil unless of course it was some totalitarian government or something like that which might be an institution of evil in general people create institutions for what they feel is going to create some kind of betterment so what did I mean by evil what I meant by evil is really that all of us have to remove the thought that an institution or us being connected to an institution or being a member of an institution or being a do paying member of any institution is going to is going to give us what's called spirituality that that's gonna be how you achieve spirituality that that's going to give you spirituality and what is spirituality after all it's a spirituality in definition means to be connected to God a spiritual person would be connected to God and there's obviously other definitions because I know spiritual people who don't even believe in God so which is kind of strange but they but there are spiritual people who are not you don't even believe in God but in general spirituality in the world means you're connected to something that is of spirit that's the word spirit the spirit means non-physical you slide a bit that way you're gonna spirit means not physical so spirituality means you're involved in the ritualis of spirit and so you're connected to beyond the physical now the reason why is very simple it's very simple why institutions can't give you that and that's because it's taught it's a discussion of intimacy whenever you're talking about connectivity like real connection so there's external connection like acquaintances or strangers but we're still connected you know we all know we're connected and yeah if you're on a train and someone smells bad or passes window you realize we're connected I know some people really should be showering more often you're using Yoder and I think they don't realize how connected they are to strangers but we are connected and but as you get to the levels of connection that we actually care about like her for example marriage or or a family especially immediate family or people who are closest to you or God it's so it's so personal so personal and that's why and you really only one person should have ever written a book on relationships because that would have been the book and then we'd all know how to do them but we can't no book in the world will help you know it all helped but no book will handle a relationship why because it's so personal and spirituality is the relationship with the transcendent and that is so personal and it remains personal and it must be personal no God has a special trick up his sleeve and that's that he would never let his relationship to individuals get hurt by an institution you know he would never let his relationship to individuals get messed up by an institution and that ended so how does God do that what he does is once in a blue moon someone actually tries to create a new spiritual institution and but it always fails it always fails I've been in Jerusalem now and hanging around the Jerusalem and spot scene for 20 I don't even know how many years now this June will be 28 years I've seen a few people try and you actually succeed at creating spiritual institutions and but every one of them failed they failed in different ways I mean they I can't tell any great crash-and-burn stories but like one just failed because haven't got married and so it went from like I don't know if you know about this but single people get single people pay dues and married people get paid to learn Torah single people in your Shiva's pay tuition but once someone gets married there and what's called kollel and they actually get paid so imagine being imagine being a Rosh Yeshiva getting tuition from 30 boys who are studying in your yeshiva we're all committed to their spiritual paths and then they all get married within a year and now you have to pay thirty voice for all the young marrieds so it is such a different financial structure that so so that's just one example of a place that folded you know really quickly right after so it was such a successful endeavor that it failed when everyone had gotten married now the inmates so god's trick up his sleeve as if someone does create an institution of spirituality it will fail and the other is that all the institutions that are created around spirituality will always wind up if they succeed to be not spiritual in the end they'll be not spiritual and yet so what's an example of that I think one funny example is this was my own naivety but I was really excited when my oldest son raised hasidic went to his first yeshiva which was you know a Hasidic yeshiva Kitana which is like junior high school in America and he was on his way to the school and I was very excited that I was sending him to a Hasidic yeshiva and and not a lit fish yeshiva because I figured if he goes to a Hasidic Jew she but there will be an emphasis on spirituality as opposed to a literacy which will just have its focus on tourist-type alone if I i'll distinguish the difference being spirituality in torah study in a moment anyway so it's really excited about that he came home from his first day and I said so tell me about your day and he says we studied yeah and I look great and what about I see this what about huh see this really is a secret code name for Kabbalah for the layman Kabbalah for the layman cuz if you open up a Hasidic safer that's written in language that any layman could understand you'll notice that it's really just Kabbalah so I said what about huh see this did you study the spirituality and he he said no that's not in our schedule as well what day is it and he's like it's not in any day it's not part of it and then I called the head of the achieve and I said what kind of acidic yeshiva doesn't have the study of cussing dude and he he said that like you know thank you for being the biggest ball to a dork in the world not realizing that huh seen him don't its custody cuz she was don't actually study classy dude and anyway that was my rude awakening but the institution exists to this day here we are like many years later and it was existing many years before and the way you keeping a Jewish institution going is you remove any spirituality from the institution so the only time there might be something spiritual happening would be in the prayer but tell me how spiritual is it for you when you're forced to pray you know you imagine being forced to be married to somebody you know how great a relationship would that be you know so in spirituality we're always in relationship and it can't be forced so therefore nothing spiritual takes place the entire day at this Yeshua except for obviously people who have that gene there are actual people with spiritual genes did you know that there can be people born spiritual like they're automatically spiritual there are people with spiritual needs empty walls I'm one of them wasn't there was no choice oh no that I know them children and they said the children are either in deep neglect or they're married to someone who's very good with children now the anyway but I would like to just distinguish real quickly why torah study and spirituality are two separate things the reason is is because there's when it comes to talk Torah study so that's called that's called li mood I guess I'm using much me mood English it's Hebrew I'm to use English letters like it's not very good English the mood so regular Torah study it is the mood rut song passion regular Torah study is called the mood rut song Hashem which means the study God's well okay that's regular Torah study so that's what you Shiva's do that's what my son when he went to his Hasidic yeshiva he learns the study of God's will and then there's something called spirituality which means me mood if you're studying it this is and this is if it's Lee moon if you're practicing it wouldn't be culpably moved but if you're studying studying spirituality and be cuddly mood Hashem and you know uh she which means the study that's also spiritual ya know if you practice it then you're practicing spiritual okay so we got anything it's two dead beetles there's another beetle I heard that there's beetles everywhere I thought I don't want to see them do this is the first time but all kinds of first times are happening right now because we got more rain in 27 years and so that means the nature of the world is has gone on steroids like has anyone been in the mountains and then seen what's going on out there I mean it's just bizarre and I need to buy like a gas-powered chainsaw to deal with some trail trimming because when we're mountain biking were like being attacked by vegetation and some of it is quite pokey you know we're we're getting like poked I have like I at least have like carbon fiber knuckles and stuff which takes care of most pokes but it's been it's been a poking experience I think those two beetles were mating actually they're both dead connected but um okay so what is the study of God's will and what is the study of God now you need them both in life you have to have them both in any relationship you have to have both this both the study of one's will in this study you know good luck having a relationship where you don't pay any attention to what they want what does it mean God's will it means what God wants as depicted by the 613 commandments so there's the study of God's will that's regular Torah study they do Shiva's do and then there's the study of God himself which we'll talk about in a minute but the the study of will is super important you know in my marriage there's a lot of do's and don'ts for my wife to know I have things that you know would just bother me like for example my they all pertain to sports by the way but I like for example my inside shell that I wear for my hips tailbone and and thighs for pads when I mountain biking it doesn't go in the dryer doesn't go in the dryer and that's major don't in our relationship you know don't put the head in the dryer and and also my you know with a large family of laundry coming out in giant avalanches you know my mountain bike here should get extricated and put where my gear goes and that shouldn't just be like where are my where's my Jersey my riding Jersey you know it shouldn't be enough Jayant pile of stuff so I said do and I don't do my wife has plenty of do's and don'ts Oh another thing is is don't put your feet on my pillow faces and pillows don't go together you know sheets stored toothbrush in her shoe you know but to me anything that is for the face is unique and remains in its own category of cleanliness okay and I'm kidding about her storing toothbrushes in her shoe she wouldn't do that but I'm like OCD about those things and and my wife don't leave the house unlocked all night just just lock the door yeah whereas for me having an unlocked door it like it like shows you the safety of Jerusalem you know like like look at that you can have your house unlocked all year round yeah you don't need a lock your door here but but in my wife's upbringing that means like that's like a lack of protection it's a lack of care it's like oh you know like if you have something worth something you know protect it you know and they and I mean more until I'd create invisible shields around the stuff this that's worthy and and it will be protected and it is it really is I've been in all kinds of crazy situations where like you know like everything got stolen from everybody except for me you know and and so everyone's pants you know we're gone and mine are still hanging exactly where I left emit that you know the hot spring and in the mountains of Oregon you know I think everyone's pants were shaking upside down except for mine so they you know they in are mikvah it's a very interesting thing I think Sephardic people are used to thieves you know I I think it comes from 2,000 years living amongst thieving societies because because you'll notice that in the mikveh where we go to the mikveh there's a changing room and all the Ashkenazi hang their clothes and then going you know in their birthday suits to the mikveh room whereas the Sephardic people they also get to their birthday suit but then they walk into the mix room with their pants and were you hanger towels there's also pants hanging of Sparta Jews okay because they're not leaving their their wallets and phones and everything in the changing room like that's not gonna happen but who's the most likely to get ripped off at the who's the most likely person to get ripped off the person who's radiating don't rip me off for the person who radiates safe what it depends on the subject because what the sudden radiating always requires a positive subject so don't rip me off radiates why what's the subject ripped off rip off it basically radiates rip off whereas the person who radiates safe what are they radiating safe so a great way to take care of your stuff is to is to not spend all your time trying to protect it now here in the case of the house this is my the solace these are my children this is my wife like lock the door anyway these are just examples of do's and don'ts and in those cases their dues in domes do lock the door and don't leave it open all night is those are do's and don'ts put together and with those so it creates the possibility of great connection but then there's the inner study the inner study of the heart of two people and that takes years takes years and it takes tremendous trust anyone who gets married knows what I'm talking about and anyone who's single knows what I'm talking about that the amount of trust necessary in marriage is beyond anything ever in the whole world it blows away every financial trust relationship it it's just the trust is and everything pivots on the trust so so it's like and this is why people have been hurt have the hardest time getting married because I think expect me to trust after what everything I've been through like can I possibly trust and and but you can't be married without it cuz here you are like completely putting all of your eggs in this basket all of your eggs are going into this one basket and that's like for someone who's been hurt that's going way beyond but that's why that's why we have the words and shema yisrael the words mitt odessa you ever noticed in the first line of Shema after obviously the first line which is Shema but the very second line is you shall love God with all your heart and all your soul and all your mode which makes no sense grammatically Odessa mode is only something that modifies the following word but there is no following it's like they've turned the word mode into a noun here like love God with all your mode you ever thought about that you guys just probably have said this a million times I've never thought about the fact that you had a a Oh what would you call that kind of word in grammar what would be that grammatical word it's it describes the next word very it's the word very what's of it what's word very in English no one knows a conjugating verb maybe a conjugate I don't I don't remember but anyway the words vary how you supposed to love God with all your very so the answer is that it's you have to love God with us all the stuff that you very very very very much don't want to give up all the stuff you very much don't want to give up so one person you know they may have let's say a lot of financial resources but they don't mind giving it up so that's not their mode understand they're happy to give us about God and stuff like that it's that it's you know what it is it's it's the baal-teshuva whose parents owned a shellfish restaurant and and they're and they're managing it that the child's already the manager of the shelf restaurant and they're in there shellfish restaurant in there and now they've like discovered Torah and they but not only that they're like they love Lobster and and they eat lobster once a day and they and they use shrimp shrimp sauce for a toothpaste and and they're just they just feel like they can't let it go so that's my ode that's their mode so all of us have my ODEs and it's it's not easy to give up your mode forgot it and please God you shouldn't have to I mean it's only when you really have to give up your mode but for certainly for certain when it comes to the fulfillment of all the mitzvahs that take place in marriage which interesting women are not obligated to get married they can stay single and not break a commandment whereas men have to get married but but they kind of need a woman to cooperate to fulfill the commandment of getting married and the anyway but there but for all of us to get into that level of the mitzvahs which is a whole world of mitzvahs went in creating a Jewish home you know with a partner and all that that's that's called the mode and for someone who's has had their trust breached over the years is their mode is to get married anyway and and it's such a catch-22 trust because if you don't trust so much there's no way they're gonna let them their hearts open you know I mean if you're married to someone and you're like okay let's see them open their heart first let's see them trust first I think you know open their heart are they gonna open their chest no because they're meeting it's weird you both have to like count to 3 and say go you know like you know it's like little kids exchanging the toy for the you know the 5 cents in her that the exact ones holding the dollar when holding the toy and they're like and they're gonna each hold on and let go at the same 1 2 3 go you know it's like you it's a marriage you know you can't be the one waiting for the other two to start trusting you you know you got a say trust on three you know and B this sounds like a good sermon for a hopeless actually you know for like real trainwreck couples you know and you know on three we're gonna trust each other forever and ever like full transparency like totally just put our hearts on the altar and let the other go to slaughter it just getting let the other you know you know hold the heart on three so yeah well the most we were playing chicken with it I don't know if you guys know what chicken is but the most people play chicken and that's but they but really we gotta just both let go at once okay so Taurus study is the story of is the study of God's will it's not necessarily spiritual whereas the study of a sham which is the Kabbalah gesundheit and Kabbalah and classy dude is which is just layman's Kabbalah is the study of Hashem and that's the inner intimacy of all interaction all relationship is that um and the best way to understand that because I've been bringing up marriages imagine doing all the dues and avoiding all the dumps in marriage but never saying I love you what kind of relationship would that be or imagine saying I love you while totally ignoring the do's and don'ts of the other person you see how you need them both this is the law this is the halacha you know everything that's studied in yeshiva anyway for this reason it's my mother alone I'm coming I didn't make your daughter cry anyway anyway so what happens in tor institutions is they generally get relegated here what's interesting is Kevon actually beat the system somehow on this and that Chabad has two to three hours of limitation in theirs in their actual yeshiva schedule which is amazing they'll have it I say two to three because they add in the extra hours before prayer they'll have an hour of study of new modei Ashim before the prayer and then they pray which is really good for prayer if you study limitation before you pray it's massive makes a big difference and and then in the mornings morning Seder morning hours they have an hour of custody booth and then in the afternoon and they have another hour I've been some even learn a little at night so they haven't built in which is remarkable remarkable but I imagine they have their own demons to face because God has you know God has removed spirituality from institutions he like make sure it's not there so I don't know what could go wrong I've never been part of such a program that has it built in hours like that as Chabad does in there you're Shiva's I don't know what other demons they have to deal with over there I don't know their inner world but but I imagine you know imagine that trying to institutionalize Hasidic thought into the schedule it's gonna come with its own attack you know but I don't know what that attack is I don't know their world but oh so when a lemur - mm is studied generally at night and it's studied with masters of it who are you know generally secretive people they're not they're not publicly private classes and they're they're generally hidden masters the real masters of this stuff are more hidden and and it's also it's focused on often on Thursday nights late lately like all night type Thursday thing what women study these things as well there's actually a woman in the old city who's like the biggest what would you call it no the biggest oh gosh we send her outer educator the biggest educator in this in the Limu - him stuff her name is Sarah you who teach nighter and I don't know if I'm allowed to say her name because because I imagine once you're doing this stuff you have to keep under wraps a bit but see here comes my mother-in-law again covering this part up by God anyway but she's my wife has discovered her this year and is like completely connected to this lady now and she's in the old city she's it's women's classes only with her yeah I don't know how you reach her exactly but I mentioned she's a phone call away and you can get involved in her class I think she has at least a once a week meditation Kabbalistic meditation class once a week in the mornings here in the old city so I'd take advantage of that and you can speak to my wife how'd it go get connected to that and again I have no idea if this is like totally private I don't think it's private and the and then there's also my rabies wife is this great teacher of Limu daya shim and she teaches I think two classes a week in Jerusalem one in the old city I think at Pamela and Ava's house and and then another class in also in a house I think insured has not sure but she's also teaching these guys oh and then of course there's what's-her-name's go chefs keep your who disgusts you who just go chef ski you guys heard of Yahoo discos chef ski know it is called chef skis also I a woman who knows everything of all like the deepest teachings of the Buddha sham and she's she also teaches classes throughout Jerusalem you who disels check skis hey you know at now that I'm naming all these munites I feel like there's more women than men teaching what's that I think they're free secret hidden means it doesn't mean anything about money yeah generally things that cost money are marketed secret hidden ones of the free ones yeah why oh just to keep it to keep it personal because if it were if it were that institutions could have could give actual spiritual connection so after a while it would it would be theirs not yours you understand it's something very private your relationship with God is extremely between you and God and no one could ever if you were let's say an institution got some kind of formula you know to have to be a formula to give it to Eric you mention a spiritual formula said but they got it they created a formula that works for most people so would that be your relationship with God or would be the relationship with God based on their formula so it'd be a formulated someone is formulated relationship with God that you'd be having you know and this is something that a lot of people have problems with with a lot of people come up to me and say I pray three times a day and I don't feel anything well think about it is that institutionalized prayer for sure the men of the great assembly 120 great wise men of the Jewish people created three times a day our daily prayers that's institutionalized prayer that is that a set prayer that has set words and it there's nothing unique about you in there in fact the whole thing's plural you know it's it's not a loci it's a low K know the whole prayer is all the prayers there are set in the plural for the most part with various tiny exceptions and and so it's institutionalized it's plural it's for Claudius Rael I've told this joke a million times I don't tell it again it's the reason why we have black lines on our on our Tallis's it's which is bar code for for God to know who's praying bar code white we really have it I actually don't know why we really haven't that's why I like the bar code joke I really don't know I'd love to know and farting don't have and Ashkenazim go with these black lines on their Tallis I love to know why I'm happy if anyone wants to comment why if you know why yeah so they when you study more and more about about spirituality about God and about how how to how God relates to creation and so now you're now you got you well how would I relate to that so that's gonna be hard to study that part but studying out into studying the you know the sacred texts of the MU - Jim to find out how God works you know I'd just be like I talked about American be like learning about your husband as you're married you so I was gonna talk about that too so I'd like to talk about that and the answer is no no you don't and there are people who do the meaning the institutions don't teach that part at all it's never taught institutionally however everything we do in God's will meaning not just the 613 commandments but all the thousands and thousands of hollows how to keep those Commandments not one of them is arbitrary they're all secrets of who God is understand meaning all the study of God's will is really on the in like the inner inner world of it is who God is or at least one I shouldn't say who that is it's who God's Shh it's what God's willing to share about himself to us because obviously God's infinitely beyond the mitzvahs as well so you understand but it's like it's whatever God's allowing us to see from his his presence through these Commandments through though his will so for God his will and he our one and on the highest level yeah he's studying God's will would be studying God on the highest level but till someone actually gets to that that's like that's pretty intense tourists that's like an intense level of touristic and then we got another question which one do you think has more data do you think there's more data here or more data here I'm done about real data like data that you feel a bookshelf with or are you feeling you know a disk on key which one yeah yes you would think we were nuts on cuz it's just so much you know all of the shops in the shorten our work and all the stuff that we'll spend our lifetimes trying to study and you know hopefully we'll have covered all of it you know we're by the way every man is commanded to study all of Torah so like somehow young tough by the way those who don't know there's a guy named young Tom in my class today he's close friend of mine it's Yom to--from it's fought with you you have your store up in these days what's it calling in yom tov art gallery weapons and puppies okay just click just click bait for the for the birthright kid walking by so that's fairly not politically correct anyway why was i bringing up young to oh I was just saying that we all have to study all of it we all have to know all of it so which one has more data so the answer is is this has like four times the data and the way you find yeah how do you know that it has more than four times but how do you know that is that when you study Lima - M sometimes you're studying it let's say via Turin let's say you're opening a bozo heart and klemish I'm just learning so R and it's the whole mesh and and so you're studying I let's say I don't know Cholula candor you know shooing away a mother bird before you're taking eggs or or you're studying shaatnez you know not mixing flax and wool you know one garment together so the commandment is don't mix wool and flax together don't take the animal wool and the vegetable flax and interweave them unless you're up to serious spiritual stuff in the temple but outside the temple you have no business with that mixture that makes your is allowed by the way in the temple on the on the the Kohanim had that mixture going on but there it's like you know you gotta you gotta you're messing with heavy stuff over there so there you can mix it once you leave the temple man you better not be mixing those things and the and so now would you imagine the Cibola has a lot to say about that no as far as the actual law you think it has a lot to say about it there's stuff to say like how many how many weaves you know you know what meaning if you're sewing in and out how many or if you're weaving when are you what at what point are you really over on that and well meaning what point have you transgress yeah there would be some detail and so the mitzvahs have a ton of they don't like Shabbos as gonna have a ton of it but but when you click on the Kabbalistic stuff and you want to know why how much more info you think there's gonna be yeah it's gonna be like it's gonna be like the rest of your life you're gonna be studying why not to mix flax and wool because it's gonna go deep deep deep deep deep especially that one because there is it is permitted in the temple by the co honey so like whoa now we're touching on deep steep stuff but when you come to like Shabbos for example that you shall not I don't know cook raw food on Shabbos okay you're not allowed to take raw food and cook it on Jeff well that sounds like okay and that's that's the will of God like don't take raw food and cook it but the Kabbalah is gonna go once you get into Lima so there you're going to have you know a lot of details of stuff first of all you have the details of of man manipulating creation at all in what's that all about and then you have shop as why Shabbos what is in what world is us manipulating matter I have to do with shadows because certainly taking something from raw to cooked is manipulation that's a manipulation so so first you have man and manipulating matter then you got Shabbos and don't manipulate matter and then you got what about man manipulating matter on Chavez is such a big deal and what's that all about that's before we even get from raw to cook then now now we're dealing with cooking know if it's a fence like for example you know like if you took a hot pot off the stove and you shall not return it to the stove because it looks like cooking is that oh is that an actual is that Limu date rut sona shim or is that fence which one is that this one or a fence it's a fence there you're not gonna find Kobol you understand that that's not gonna be a Kabbalistic you're not gonna find a lot of Kabbalah not any and cuz once you're in a fence of not doing something that looks like cooking that's a fence so once you're in fenced land don't expect a lot of Cavallo there and you also might not find a lot of hole lucky' there either a lot of you know you a Russell not sure we have we have plenty of fences especially around when you're getting near the edges of transgression transgressing at or commandment there we we'd have a lot you've been listening live oh right sorry you missed all those buses yeah sorry start again oh I was distracted I just realized I don't know what time it is it's 4 o'clock yeah yeah well there's no thing I mean it's the terrorists prophecy so so in the Torah is a prophetic expression of the Limu - it's a prophetic expression of that yeah now but but what the main message of this class is that ladies and gentlemen is really to not spend your life disappointed with your synagogue and don't spend your life disappointed with your seminaries and don't spend your life disappointed with your yeshiva and don't post and your life disappointed in your community and it just stop playing that game it was never meant to be a subject that had to do with synagogues or communities or or seminaries or yeshiva it just was never that subject spirituality is not about that and if you know that and you release it from you release your demand on the community or on the society or the skip the synagogue or the or the any other tourist score your kids schools if you release that demand on them and you get out of complaint mode about you know whatever Jewish community is issue you're having when you get out of complaint mode you can come to the spirituality you can actually know oh this is my responsibility like my relationship with God is up to me and I got to get this I gotta make this happen so so you'll make something happen because now they're now it's on you and when things on us we generally get it done when things are even potentially on someone else we will expect them to do it for us so here I got to make this happen and that's the main takeaway one of the main takeaways another thing is is how Carissa toh appreciation is maybe now you can appreciate your tour institution whatever it is you're connected to because they are sometimes feeding there sometimes housing there they're certainly providing teachers to understand the will of God there they're educating our children if not babysitting them we do other things they're there they're giving a lot communities giving a lot you need a place to pray commute we got to have a place for kiddush you know we need a place to go make it ition and that's generally shul and so you can really get much more appreciative when you stop expecting the communal institutions in the Jewish world to provide spirituality for you and and so it's really a very positive thing now I know the clickbait of this class was why are all institutions necessarily evil that was just quickly they're not evil they're they're they're quite amazing in there and we need to have great gratitude for them but at the same time we have to stay realistic that all intimate relationships on private and therefore your relationship with God is private that's got to be private private and so and so the last is a plug for us Mavericks who are here to teach these kinds of things is support your maverick rabbis any work maverick rabbi you know you know get the word out help them in any way you can forward it to friends classes you got you can also always join the media Yom Tov media Club comm which is helping you get the word out so please be part of it let's let's let's teach the world all these important things cuz oh my gosh like I was just in an LA in like West LA with me and maybe only a handful of the hundred and fifty people at the event I was at were observant everyone else was from secular backgrounds Jewish but secular people just loved to walk up to me at this party at this event you know with their cocktail in hand and almost every single person wanted to complain to me about the Jewish institution that gave them nothing but still calls them once a year for Jews you know it's some synagogue the local temple or whatever it is you know been a bingo you know but the but and they're like they're like no click you know and they so so if you're any of those people who is you know support in a world that actually failed at Jewish continuity so certainly pump some support up fur for people who are who are turning juice on to Judaism as opposed to turning them off let's make it make our best efforts especially this time this era of our is this crazy time of ours let's MIT let's make up let's all band together to make sure like we're all doing something to get the word out that Judaism still alive and it's vital and it's it's an it's spiritual and it's real and it's it's engaging in its powerfulness yeah let's make that happen show them everybody