When You Repress Dysfunction, It Becomes Stronger

sounds like sounds like someone uh might be unmuted there's a lot of background noise coming from me says good morning everybody welcome [Music] so this week we had a woman's class on tuesday and the title was elisha the prophet amon the leper and a young abducted jewish girl we delved into the story in the safer malachim malachim base parikh kings 2 chapter 5. the fascinating story of naman who was the military commander of the syrian army who was a leper and he comes to the prophet elisha to heal him and alicia sends him into the jordan river for a dip seven times and this was all initiated by a young jewish girl who was abducted by the syrian army and was serving as a slave as a servant in the home of naman and she ultimately got her master her master's wife naman's wife to send her husband to alicia the prophet and the class delved into the details of the story and uh particularly the way naman speaks about god and rachel speaks about god and easter speaks about god and maisha speaks about god which emerges to be a very fascinating discussion you could watch it on the yeshiva.net the replay of it last night we had a class it went a little longer than i expected it went for two and a half hours so you need double or triple speed unless it's music and we learned about the secret of jewish history this was a seoul of the lobovich rebbe on which deals with the offering of a mother who gives birth a woman who gives birth and purchases tazria and ultimately deals with the ultimate source of fortitude of jews throughout jewish history it's also on the yeshiva.net we now continue the mimer we began by the rebel the tzamak zadek derek mitsubishi mitzvos missouri in the midst we're on page 210 eight lines from the top please open your source sheets if you're on the zoom you have your source sheets if you're on the website the yoshiva.net you have your source sheets if you're on youtube you can open the source sheets by the yeshiva.net what did we learn last time we learned a fascinating example of the concept of metaphors and parables the main point of last class was the gemara says in sukkah that sikhs even the mundane matter of fact simple conversations of a talmud require learning says that the great sage of would communicate peer ke desta which literally means chapters of folly to his students before he would learn the gomorrah says in shabbos that rabbi would say a joke before the shia and that's my sadiq explains it doesn't mean that would say foolish things it doesn't mean rather would just say foolish jokes but because these are people who were saturated with torah so then even those things that sounded anecdotal or humorous there was so much depth in it because these jokes or these types of conversations sichus holden represents the overflow of their cerebral power it represents moisture emotion when somebody is really entrenched in true wisdom and authentic wisdom even things that come out as a matter of fact they don't convey the full depth of the person's mind and the person's heart and the person's soul there's so much to learn in them because even in the leftovers the residue if you want to give a very simple and maybe a little bit of a foolish example but maybe it works and that is you know sometimes you go to a wedding and the shmooga's board is so so filled with so many foods so many dishes excessively and the richness and the quantity and the quality is so superior so one would say even that which they're throwing out could feed a nation you know sometimes i once went to a program and i told the director i said you know with the food that you throw out from this program you could feed so many hungry families and to his credit he created a program where all the leftovers from the program gets distributed to people in need sometimes you come to an event and there's so little food that people are fighting over the food what's going to be left over is going to be garnished a few crumbs if you go to the garbage it'll be a few crumbs nobody's going to want it when you have somebody who's filled with toilet filled with penemius filled with divine energy a real talmud hong kong so that even the leftovers the moisture in moisture is also so rich somebody else when they make jokes there's not really nothing to hear um you have to give an example would stand and give dollars on sundays some of you have been there and thousands and thousands of people would come by thousands men and women and children secular jews religious jews hasidim modern jews orthodox all all forms you had often non-jews coming la the language was coming you had politicians and you had celebrities and you had writers and journalists all types i remember yeah yeah you were in front of bob dylan he came for dollars yeah bob dylan would sometimes come shabbos too come to fabregan and the rebbe would often quip that ever would often communicate with people humorously it would seem like you know he's saying equip a cute vart but today you look at it if you look at a video or you hear what the people repeat or i saw i saw i saw it many times myself it's tricholimured every word every word there was was was full of kedusha and full of love and full of godliness it looks like such a scholar he's not saying a miami he's not saying a sick he's not writing his kedusha toyota it's conversations you haven't it's a conversation of a few seconds it's richard limwood mckenna's learning and learning and learning another person their mundane conversations may take a bit whatever taylor said went one step further and he said this is the concept of here we speak about here here represents the overflow from the brain so when you're talking about we now go back to the theme of the mind when you're talking about atika kadesha i don't know if you remember go back to the previous classes it's important to get the whole picture we talked about so then they hear it's not just leftovers that don't have much they year actually contains a very intense level of energy because even the filters and the instruments that condense the energy will still communicate a very powerful form of energy why then did he ask do we say that the flow of atika kadusa is through here i understand that here also has it but why does it come precisely through here a regular talmud is not going to say a whole day i'm going to say jokes you say a joke most of them which is the deepest divine revelation it comes through here for this it's said i'm going to explain this through a parable and the parable is going to be a parable we're going to use a parable to explain the parable for here and what's the parable that malachi says used to communicate through 3 000 mushalum 3000 metaphors kings one chapter five malachi rib mayor it says in sanhedrin would gave 300 parables and when he died we shall masturbate why when the mayor died there was nobody to give parables why there's two types of mashallah there's a parable i want to tell a story i want to tell a metaphor i want to give an allegory that's not the point here the point here is something more profound their wisdom was so profound in order to be able to communicate it it needed to be dressed up and camouflaged by a parable and that's what a real martial is last night in our in our shirt was a classic example for this the mishna at the end of kingdom rebel yeshua says when a ram is alive it has one sound when it dies suddenly has seven sounds because the two horns are turned into two trumpets and the skin is turned into a drum and the intestines are turned into strings for a liar and the large intestines are turned into strings for a harp and the two thigh bones are turned into flutes so from one sound you have seven because the organs of the ram become musical instruments that's what the bear sure says and the laboratory says a parable is trying to explain something what profound wisdom do we gain through this metaphor with the dead sheep with the dead ram versus the living ram and the commentators struggle with this and they say it's just some comparison to what the mishna says earlier about the birds that a woman who gave birth brings and sometimes there's a confusion and a first she had to bring four birds and she ends up have to bring seven birds it's like the ram after it dies there's more sounds he says what what explanation does it really give and throughout the season he shows how there is a profound halachic enigma within the carbonyl letters within the offering of a woman who has to give birth and there's a profound enigma in jewish history because adrian the emperor of rome asks of yeshua says in madras how does the jew how did the jewish people live it's a little sheep surrounded by 70 wolves and yeshua speaks about the shepherd that protects it and it's this ram this sheep that he's addressing and he shows how the parable of the sheep explains and enlightens us to a very profound idea in halacha about how something that is born in doubt can become more powerful than the source and the progenitor that brought it into being like the live sheep has one sound lyrium has one sound and after the death through its deterioration it grows much stronger whenever there's a muscle whenever there's a story an allegory a metaphor a parable in turner it's in order to explain a profound idea that couldn't be explained without it you know you'll see it with a lot of children's books you want to bring out something very psychological and very deep you ever read the book who moved the cheese who moved my cheese who moved my cheese right all these types of stories they're really making very significant points about life but if you just say the point most people won't retain it or won't listen or won't internalize it they won't get it so the marshal brings it down a notch so that somebody from a different world should be able to really perceive the wisdom in a very concretized fashion but the rebels says for some parable wasn't enough he needed a parable for the parable and a parable for the parable all the way till parable 3 000 and then from 3 000 you can trace it back to 299 2998 2997 all the way back to metaphor number one and then to the idea red mayor needed 300. and now we continue inside eight lines from the top 210 the line starts the marshall relative to the nimshot martial is the parable the nimshal is the theme that you want to convey through the parable the martial relative to the nimshal is like a thick garment a dense garment meaning it eclipses the nimsho sometimes you give a marshal and people don't even understand in themselves they only got the story they didn't get what's inside the story because it's like a thick cloak that eclipses the message and this is a metaphor for the here they hear that comes from the follicle there is some emptiness in the here is when talking about eve that the sire the here has this emptiness inside of it this hollowness obviously infinitesimal so small and it receives nurture from the brain that's my hair grows just like nails grow yes there are no nervous nerves in the hair and that's how we can cut the hair without pain not like cutting other parts of the body so it's a condensed form of energy but it dresses up some energy that comes from the brain through the skull and goes into the hair the nikra hamashal maestro and that's why a parable is called maestremachen the overflow of one's brain the residue the relationship of a muscle to an himself is like the relationship from here to a brain the hair also captures the energy of the brain here is alive when it's attached but nonetheless the energy is so condensed it's so filtered that's like the muscle the muscle receives its identity it's wisdom from the nimsho it grows out of the nimsel but you can't compare it to the brain you can't compare it to the theme itself because it brings it down to a whole different level it brings it down to a very concrete mundane and root level it's like a thick garment similar personalities even the parables even the metaphors even the overflow of their cerebral power has tremendous benefit and has profound holiness and has intense wisdom to the contrary it's not they also have wisdom they are indispensable without all of these garments without all of these ma without all of these masks without all of these michelin of dressing up the idea they would not be able to communicate their soul to other people the gomorrah says in aravind about red mayor gimmel that the reason allah is not like you're the sages of his time could not comprehend the ultimate depth of his wisdom they didn't understand them and therefore they couldn't do the like him because they didn't understand him so he says if ramayana wouldn't give us 300 parables to convey his wisdom through one parable and the parable still needed another one and that needed another one in other words every parable needed a parable it was so deep and that parable also needed a parable now it's fascinating how do you how is it possible you have to bring down an idea 300 levels even if it's a deep idea how is it possible that there's an idea that you have to bring down 3 000 levels good question good question but this only shows us how real wisdom works real wisdom there's a level and the same idea could be traced back to yet a more abstract state of consciousness and awareness which can be traced back to yet a more transcendent state of consciousness back all the way to the beginning because the beginning is infinity and infinity you're not going to contain in the brain that's why it says that is called the ultimate muscle so the altered says in terror in the mercy of islam esther we learned it you have it on the web on the issue with that net that alter ebba says that tower is a marshal for kadmain i shall islam for insight all of turtle captures infinity through a muscle everything in turn you could be learning about muktsa you could be learning about the carbonus that a woman who gave birth has to bring you could learn about the carbons of azov you can learn about the symptoms of saras you could learn about hookah's body you could learn about laws of not paying interest you could look you can learn about the laws of my animal growing your animal it's all a marshal ultimately foreign however when you're talking about sages who are who are of a lower stature at least relative to shloiman is they couldn't give such types of parables their parables were just for entertainment purposes like the gemara says in satan the mission of the mars says in satan when the mayor passed away butler muslim the phenomenon of those who can car who can weave parables and communicate them is finished why nobody gives metaphors anymore nobody tells stories anymore why you insult all these people he says no it's not an insult it's just an understanding what the martial is you have to know what to expect from the martial their wisdom is on a small on a lower level relatively via lease not to insult anybody but they can convey the idea without parables without examples other commercial he the idea itself can be communicated so the real art of mayor to weave together parables is not necessary you may need it because people are bored or people are lonely or people want to laugh or people are entertained but in terms of the idea itself you don't need that muscle the idea is palpable enough it's already on a lower degree on a lower level hamstrings for their words they want to create parables it's ultimately dwarim talem it's wasted words because there's no need there's no need you know the story it's an old joke there was once a professor who worshipped himself more than anybody else and he worshipped himself more than anybody else worshipped him he thought he was the most brilliant man on the planet anyway he was at the scientific conference and this professor was going up to the podium to speak and the person organizing the conference as the professor was walking up he says remember remember you have 12 minutes not a second more 12 minutes you know people could speak for an hour two hours three hours hijack the conference you have 12 minutes not a minute more and the professor in disdain and scorn looks at this man and he says what do you expect me to say in 12 minutes the man looks at him and he says calmly speak very slowly so in other words another worst thing is to explain a joke but he's what am i going to say in 12 minutes you know i have to speak for at least 12 hours and the person says well do you even have anything to fill up 12 minutes with just speak slowly if you speak slowly you'll be able to fill up 12 minutes so you always have to know how colorful is it he says sometimes you're martial it's unnecessary it's obviously he's he's judging things here on a very high standard because we tell stories and we tell jokes and we give parables right look who's talking but you have to really understand the ms the ms is that misha meister mayor butler marshall the michelle okay there's i guess entertainment purposes in them so in that sense it could be productive but the point is the real concept of muslim shalom the way the mayor personified it the way slime amal personified it it's me so it's gone because the level of wisdom that's being communicated is not so infinitely abstract and transcendent that we need it so then it just becomes waste a waste because here's the principle when something is unnecessary then as we say in halacha coliette kenotl dummy right anything that's extra it's like missing it's not just you add something else to a speech why not no no if you add something that's unnecessary it's like you take away something that's necessary it's a beautiful formulation in halakhah it's good to remember call yeter kenneth we have it in ilka strafis when you add something that's not necessary it's like taking away something that's necessary and i'll just give you an example for those who speak or teach when you're giving a speech sometimes people feel they have to put in more and more and more and more and more as my wife always tells me less is more less is more more is less meaning sometimes you add things you add things if it doesn't really belong there it's very talented maybe in another context it's fine but here if it's unnecessary it's not refined if it's not refined you don't need it it's like a symphony it's like a yeah the musicians are playing a beautiful ballad a beautiful symphony and then they decide you know what let's let them use let this song not end let's go let's go on it's called yeti you're not taking away from it the beauty is this is the song the song has a beginning the song has a middle the song has an end you don't just add things the same is true with communication let me put in something else if it's not really necessary as they used to say what's a speech get up tell them what you're going to tell them then tell them then tell them what you told them and sit down and if i do anything else it's called stusm it's very battalion okay so now now that zamasu finished his metaphor his metaphor was about a metaphor right that's uh that's the the beauty here the metaphor that the tsa has been explaining is a metaphor about a metaphor he's using the concept of a metaphor as a metaphor to explain the contrast between atika kadesha and malchus in the spheres of hashem the tenth sphere is the highest is artik that's called kesser the crown it's the subconscious the super conscious it's called attic and the lowest of the ten is called malchus malchus is that energy which actually becomes condensed and vivifies all over the world it's called malchus malchus is the actualization of the divine energy to vivify and animate and create and sustain all of existence that's called malchus it's also associated with nukva with femininity so that now says alpha you've been called this will give us a perspective for the spiritual realities of the flow of energy from attic from god's infinity cannot be absorbed in the world not even in acilis why because they will all cease to exist they will all experience bitterness why because in the presence of ain't scythe if all the doors of pers if the doors of perceptions are cleansed if the doors of perception are cleansed and everything appears as is infinite there's no room for otherness so even the highest state of consciousness known as atsil is the highest world cannot exist in its present form if there's a flow from atika kadusa from ainsaith because in the presence and the revelation of infinity there's no room for anything outside of infinity everything melts away in the presence of infinity there's no separateness there's no i even the most sophisticated spiritual eye even the most divine spiritual levels outside of ainscife will cease to be separate they will become completely subsumed so you must have garments they're called here's cyrus cyrus is the kabbalistic metaphor for dressing up condensing filtering restricting contracting the energy of ain't safe of attic to be able to be communicated and he gives them a a a marama come here a footnote you could look in the cedar that's the city that was written by the mittal arab it's a commentary on davening by the altareb on this piece in barak sharma kenoitas it's known in kabbalah abba and ima as father and mother which is a metaphor for khachma and they get their nurture from the masalas from the energies of kasir of atik through here here as in here as in cyrus this this this here foreign but once the divine energy is already shrinked it's already condensed it went into what we call the femininity of the air rampant are the six meadows the small face in contrast to arrogant which is the long face and basically very briefly just in a few seconds the difference is your emotions the way they are in their primal state they're very intense that's called are hump in the long face the arampin are the way those primal emotions are manifested in our conscious emotions that's called zayramp and it's a small face because whatever comes out consciously is just a very miniature reflection of that which is happening subconsciously nukva is the femininity the femininity that receives from those emotions and that is responsible for the actualized life that a person lives so once the light of attic gets condensed in the level of nukva now the ray that comes from it is the ray that comes through it in terms of noise that which is an overflow you cannot compare to the overflow of atek and from here they can be a nurture unique the superficial forces can receive their nurture from it as the light continues to condense and diminish from the here of that light from the noiseless novelists are like the leafs that fall off the tree the novel they can be the possibility for external forces to hold on and hold on in a very intense way um and that's why the livium and the desert were commanded to shave off all the hair on their flesh their beard they hear on their scalp they hear on their head and anywhere else on their body why listen to this the path of the living fire their soul was always looking to depart from the container from the vessel every day the livium would hold the concerto in the mishkan they were vocalists and there were musicians and they would sing they should shalyam they would do this while they were pouring the water the cayenne was pouring the wine on the mizbaya following the carbon in the morning and they would have this concert of music which is a form of ecstasy clay sannefesh their soul was yearning and pining to go up in the fire of divinity and depart from the kali and since their avoidance hashem is primarily departing from the vessels so the light that remains in their vessels is very limited he called ikaro oil because their primary oil goes away from the kali that's the personality of the levy that's that so if the flow from the levine will come from the residue of the light that remained in the kali it's so condensed it's so limited the kitsainum the external forces could get their nurture so that's why the lady had to shave off his hair because from the here of the lady comes in this is only in the desert afterwards it was already was not that state of consciousness even though the lavium always represent the koi sanefes but you didn't have that level of intensity that you had in the midbar under the tutelage of moshe and aaron and the clouds of glory and the shakhanti basalicam shalom dwelling with the jewish people in the desert the kayanim are very different the kainen didn't have to shave their hair because the kaiyanam's avoid is very different like we say in tehillah was yesterday's yesterday's yeah the scan iron the long beard of iron what does this mean there's two types of souls there are souls that know how to come down into caleb and there are souls that run away from caleb the levia were spiritual artists they were spiritual musicians they were also physical they were also musicians they were spiritual musicians their soul was going away from the caylee what's left in the caylee very very little oil because their urge is about running away ascending like another navier ultimately died in the fire not even a view where kyonema was wrong for them to do the levium every day their avoidance hashem was about the fire and the passion that consumes you when it consumes your soul it's always ascending it's escaping the containers now that's amazing it's amazing for the part of you that transcends containers but it's painful for those who need to receive nurture from containers right so to give to give again a very very simple example just a very simple example there's no communication like the communication of music right the sound of music the energy of music but now i want to ask you a question what if a poor child needs a piece of bread to sustain himself how does he communicate that through music and how do you communicate it back through music here you have to talk about the bread you have to bring it into caleb music is a very very sophisticated language but it's not a language that can be can be can be employed when you need to feed a hungry person bread you can't just can't do that why because music takes you out of the kalem right in here somebody needs a very practical small simple favor here the music becomes counterproductive and that's what happens sometimes to spiritual artists they're amazing they're amazing for those who go out of the kalim but for those who are in kalem and those who need that limited form of communication and energy connection they can't deal with this for them it's painful this doesn't mean there's no place for the lady the lady is a major part of avoidance hashem it's that yearning of the soul is the negan of the altered like a ram like an aisle is an isle is one of those actually i think those wild mountain goats that pines on the flash floods of water streams of water my soul yearns and pines to god my soul thirsts there's a thirst and the levy the levy sustains that thirst the lady sustains that fire that yearning what we call ratsay the ratso and the light that stays in the cayley is very very small and you know what can happen if all we get is that light it's so condensed it's so filtered that actually there could be negative energy that comes from it negative energy could get a foot into the door through symptom because whenever the energy is very very restricted it can also be distorted it can be misconstrued it can be used in different ways that's why you'll see that sometimes great great artists allow injustice in the world they're good people but they live in a higher plane and they don't understand what it means to have boots on the ground and to stand up to injustice you understand what i'm saying they're holy they're aloof but they're aloof they're sublime and to fight injustice you have to have boots on the ground you have to be very practical you have to be very concrete your odors have to be urdus be calam sometimes spiritual artists are great they're great for a concert but the ear and the cayley is very small there's no practical application and therefore what happens is the parasites can come in the parasites come in the infections come in the bacteria the fungi start feeding off off their energy in the calym this is the cyrus of the levines and they had to shave their hair they had to shave their hair because the oil in the cayley was so matsumsum so now to have a furthered symptom which is represented by the hair would only feed the hit synonym so you can't afford that symptom so they had to get rid of the cyrus it's a very very subtle idea very subtle idea this is the whole idea of sikh ascolin the talmud is full of richness and depth it's not but the overflow they hear is tusum again the martial shloima malek's marshall remains marshall is not some on the contrary it contains the depth of the idea but somebody else's mashallah are a waste of time at varan bethelem from atika kadisha the cyrus ah they're so holy there's no unique and that's the hero of the nazir the hero of the nazir has that kedusha it's the hero of the beard it's the hear of the pears the levium is the opposite here the cyrus represents such a symptom as we said before famalcos malchus is amazing divine energy but it's condensed it comes into the world and to come into the world it goes through a major major symptom so the here that comes from it has to be protected the levy is the extreme because the lady is always flying up so the earth that remains in the kali is very very small very very condensed and therefore from that level of oil if you have here it's going to be so condensed so restricted that the energy afterwards can be distorted so the levy had to shave the here only in the desert afterwards not nazis here we learned earlier is a reflection of atika kadisha and the cyrus of atikakadisha not only not only are they not capable of feeding the kids in them on the contrary the only way you can have a relationship with artikadish is through the cyrus because atega dishes ain't safe and the only way ainsworth could communicate is through the symptom of the cyrus but that's that's like the martial of shlaima the martial of ramayana but once the earth goes through a major symptom itself so now a symptom for the symptom can create problems you understand a simpson for insightf kevaldik a simpson for simpson aye now you lose the plot anoishi haster astor the the concealment is concealed the fact that the light has to be concealed of course there's no inside i can't communicate with any surface out here but when the tsimsumba comes with something when the hester becomes a hester when the cover-up becomes a cover-up [Laughter] when the cover-up becomes covered up now i don't know the difference of light and darkness now you lose the edelkite now the hair can be something that couldn't create distortion and the levy the levees here in the midwest had to be shaved the nazir is now that it touches here because the whole kedusha comes through the here because it's the cyrus that are connected to attic and that's the beard and the pace of a jew of a man of jew the kaya names avoided was not to go up there avoid there was to go down so their oil was in the caylee so there's no danger from the hair of the cayenne the ladies avoid there was cloisonne efforts to go up so the herd that remains in the caylee is very very restricted so to have further restrictions of that is going to compromise the light and therefore they had to shave their hair but the cayenne they're avoided was the exact opposite to come in to kayla so therefore their light was in the vessels not up not not detached from the vessels the levium they were the ones that were responsible for the music in the basement music is the avoider of islam that's music all song is that the kyani's avoided was to come into the cayley so therefore their cyrus capture the energy they don't further obscure the energy when the energy is already obscured like it's by the livium and the caylee because the main energy is outside of the cayley so indicate the energy is obscured to obscure the obscured energy could become a source for clipper but to obscure divine intense energy that's exactly what you need so then the here could be holy this will explain also why the mitsura has to shave this we explained in a previous mitzvah amitsara this is going to be an incredible explanation now what's saras what are the symptoms of saras symptoms of taras is that literally somebody has healthy skin and a white patch develops in a certain part of the skin these are different shades of white it could be white like snow white like wool white like the lime on the heckle of the basamiktus the the plaster they used for the walls of the or white even like the shell of an egg chrome baits but the here develops that whiteness which represents the first step and then the here in that patch is transformed into white here or the patch grows there's different symptoms and that makes a person a mitsura and they become tami what does this represent spiritually it represents that the natural color of the skin is substituted by a whiteness and what this represents is that there's a certain flow of holy energy that comes through the body and it departed it left and instead a leprosy takes over and the leprosy represents what he's called dinim means harsh judgment and now when there is white here what happens when there is white here this means that the synonym the kliphos are now receiving nurture from this person and that's where there's tomorrow there's impurity and a person needs to re-evaluate his life [Music] so that saras represents that there's a certain energy of godliness that flows through the body that departed it ascended it ascended to a higher space instead there is a harshness in this person dinim is a harshness and whenever there's harshness it's very easy for clippers to come and get their energy and that's what the white here represents it's not the natural color of the hair that was there originally it was transformed into white which represents that there's a certain deadness a lack of vitality of the blood that comes from the blood the lack of warmth and that's the white here now uber it's in establishment it's forbidden let's say somebody developed symptoms of leprosy you know what you can do just cut it off your body get it out get it out of your body cut over the hair cut out that part of the skin maybe just get rid of it you're not allowed to you're not allowed to cut the semonim of toma why you cannot remove the nurture of the clipper by cutting off the sign of thomas from where they're getting their nurture for it you're going to think shabba friday you think that by cutting it off you're going to get rid of them they're going to become stronger here's the rule in life and you read it here first you can do 10 books on psychology whatever you resist whatever you resist persists you think you're going to cut it off you're going to get rid of it no no it's going to get stronger yourself hashem does not act like a tyrant with his creatures he doesn't choke them ukushima finance calls just like hashem gives parnassa to all the holy forces he also gives some energy to the situa as much as they need until the end of days when they're going to be obliterated and since toyota demands that they receive a certain form of nurture from your soul and from the garments of the ten spheres of god in which your soul is rooted so this messiah cannot take away their nurture without justification they can become much more powerful by giving them what they need they don't have to grab more when you stop giving them what they need when you choke them when you take the ear away from them when you want to suppress them and repress them you know what happens they come back with a vengeance what does this mean this has tremendous ramifications in life whatever is coming up in my system is there for a reason if i deny it if i delegitimize it if i make believe it doesn't exist if i just cut it out of my life i'm not getting rid of it i think i'm getting rid of it no it's there it has it's space it needs its space there's a reason it's there it's an alarm clock it's a wake-up call it's a symptom of something dysfunctional by cutting off the negotium of your skin you're not getting rid of it you're only causing it to come back in a way that you're unaware of it so it's going to leak from your subconscious self and it's going to contaminate your entire life not just one part of your life you have to let it breathe what this means emotionally is incredible don't be afraid of any emotion that comes up inside of you contain it have compassion for it have empathy for it don't just cut it out of your life and say you're not going to come to my body shake it's a noise it's not going to happen god feeds everybody god feeds everything if it's alive it's alive because it needs a certain part of your soul you need to work it through you can't just get rid of it this is what the deck is teaching us the goat the scapegoat that was sent to the zozo mountain and eglarufa the calf that's decapitated after you find a jew slain in the woods and you don't know who killed them the zorya says these were all gifts to the sitra this goat and this calf is a gift to the situation why are you giving a gift to the sister the answer is you have to acknowledge the existence of sisra in your life if you don't acknowledge it and you deny it you're just going to cause them to become stronger because if they don't get the meal that they deserve they're gonna grab all the food they're gonna contaminate all parts of you they're gonna leak into the functional parts of yourself as well we all have to deal with stuff don't be afraid don't deny it don't repress it don't suppress it don't bury it don't forcibly extricate these things from your life you need to feed them how do you feed them freedom doesn't mean you sell your soul feed the means you acknowledge you empathize with compassion without judgmentalism without the need to deny to repress to make believe it doesn't exist you have to realize that there's a certain energy they're feeding off and until the right time is not here you can't just throw it away the richness here that's why the words of the torah is be very careful not to cut off the negatives why be very careful it's about security because if you cut it off it's going to endanger you because they're going to come back with more power whatever we repress is not gone it just leaks out with more ferocious power in a way that we can control it what you resist persists what you don't resist could slowly slowly heal allah derek the way to remove the nurture of cetera for my life is through truva through introspection through healing through repair through tikkun through understanding what's going on but then you'll bring back the awareness and he will be able to remove the externalities alpi toyota through a cayenne as explained in a previous mitzvah vikash overlap when you return to hashem and you become healed based on tara not based on my own intuitive feeling that i want to destroy all parts of my life and now not getting nurture oz yourself now you shave your hair afterwards while the mitsuri has symptoms he's not going to shave his hair afterwards he does have to the aflapisha tormented external forces can grab onto it because they represent harsh judgment and whenever you're harsh even if your harshness is coming from an idealistic place it can cause tremendous pain the sibas so therefore the here still has a very very small level of light it doesn't have the full flow of the higher holiness from where holy garments come and that's the holy here and therefore the cyrus which represents a very retributive very restricted form of holiness the kid saying them can grab on and therefore you shave them once the messiah goes through this stage and now the holiness can flow through him now you don't cut your hair mayhem because from the here of the pais and the beard on the contrary they capture the holy garments it's like the holy martial it's like the holy sikh is so again while the mitsura is going through the tzaras now the clippers are actively getting their nurture you can't just artificially make believe they don't exist you have to deal with them that's what suva is that's what healing is once you heal and you become taher now the messiah has to shave why because since the light is very very restricted in him the light is very restricted so therefore you don't want there should be room for more distortions which is what here represents an extra simpson so you shave the hair once the meteria goes through that stage and goes back to his primal state of holiness and divine consciousness now they hear of the pace and the beard becomes a manifestation for divine holiness and therefore on the contrary even though as a mature when he became pure he shaved his beard he shaved the space he shaved all the hair on his head like the lithium in the desert now you leave your beard you leave your pace for the pay is in the beard capture tremendous tremendous holiness all of this becomes the source to be able to understand the paradoxes of here the hero of the nazir the hero of the levy the hair of the leper and finally as we will discuss in next week's next class the hero of the woman explaining why the married woman halachically covers her hair she doesn't have to shave her hair but she covers her hair as we will see hashem in the next class which will resume monday morning 7 30 a.m plenty wishing you all a wonderful day it's clear you want to ask questions rebecca thank you i agree [Music] are beautiful yeah i have read them okay some of the comments somebody wrote taking tylenol for a fever won't get rid of the illness it just removes the symptoms yeah one second taking tylenol for a fever won't get rid of the illness it may remove some of the symptoms so that's very important in life that whatever you resist persists because as long as i'm not dealing with the core issue just denying it is not going to make it go away so you can't just cut off the semanam of saras there's something dysfunctional happening in my life my skin is expressing it my hair is expressing it i cannot just make believe it doesn't exist by forcibly cutting it out what do this mean psychologically sometimes i'm uncomfortable with an emotion i'm uncomfortable with something happening inside of me so what do i do i say oh no no no no no no no i'm not feeling this way what happens it doesn't go away it just goes into hiding okay you don't want me to be on the surface i won't be on the surface i'm going to go beneath the surface and i'm going to come out in many other ways but in ways that you won't be aware of and suddenly so many other parts of your life get contaminated that's called strengthening the soil the external superficial toxicity in my life that's called kitsanam becomes now strengthened and more more intensified there's an unbelievable idea you have to gift the sitra akhira with the goat and with the eglar ruffa these are certain gifts not because we want to surrender our soul not because we want khalipa to exist but because we acknowledge with compassion and empathy that we still live in an incomplete world that we still live in an incomplete psyche that this is part of our journey that all of the toxicity is not just there by mistake it's feeding off something and it's an opportunity to heal it's an opportunity that's what's true is truth is healing truth is introspection true is repair it's an opportunity to tell you what is going on when you're experiencing negative negative emotions don't make believe they don't exist be curious be inquisitive and find out what are they teaching me about me what do i have to work on they're feeding off something they're feeding off somebody is feeding them i am feeding them my soul is feeding them which is part of my journey and now let me find out what i'm feeding how i'm feeding and can i work with it to the point that they don't need to take they don't need to get this food anymore because if they don't need to get this food anymore then they won't get this food anymore and that's the process of a cayenne and that's the process of chuva and then you become pure and then you shave your hair before that you can shave your hair before that you're shaving your hair as a form of repression afterwards shaving the hair is a form of protection you understand the difference between repression and protection very important difference there's repression and there's protection there's boundaries that are healthy and then there is denying what is really going on in you repression or resistance is not acknowledging what's going on bow injuries is i know exactly what's going on and i'm creating the proper boundaries so that i could remain safe the mitsura has to shave his hair later when he becomes pure to create boundaries not to allow the sirens to misconstrue the energy because the energy is in a very vulnerable small state so you can't obscure it even further it's like sometimes when you're giving a shear giving a marshal is counterproductive because people are going to get the wrong message i once gave a lecture in virginia about simpson it was a two-hour lecture and i started off with a joke to explain it at the end somebody comes over to me and says that joke was a good joke i'm like okay thank you for the compliment after two hours he compliments me for the joke so sometimes saying a joke is actually it's the wrong thing you know sometimes people get up out of cuppa and they just say joke after joke after joke and you're like they're just so obscuring the energy is marrying akala it's a holy moment don't make it cheap jokes are amazing in the right context you know when you're in a real intimate conversation with somebody and they're pouring out your heart and you start making jokes what is it you'll say what's wrong rabbi used to make a muslim this is no no no no rabbis most of the business was a conveyor for authentic energy your jokes are a distraction for authentic energy you're not comfortable you're awkward you're not being open to the moment you understand sometimes that symptom is beautiful it allows people to experience the energy but sometimes that simpson is the ultimate symptom sometimes when that symptom is matsumtsum that simpson is counterproductive when the symptom is a channel that symptom is amazing when the here is a channel gewaldek wow when they hear becomes itself an obstruction so you have to protect it you have to know what it is and now to obstruct that becomes a double obstruction when somebody's having a real intimate conversation with you you start making jokes those chokes are really really really they're not on target they're off color as we say they're just inappropriate why why it's good you're conveying a mat you're not conveying a message you're running away from a message you're running away from us you're in a very small space you're not capable of a real conversation so you're running away through these some of them don't go there now that symptom is fake there's a symptom that's real there's a symptom that's fake when the symptom is real and good and productive that's the holy here and when the simpson becomes an obstruction of truth now you have to be very careful with that and these are deep concepts and i know these are new concepts we haven't learned them before it's the first time we learned them so i know that it's new even for people who have been there for quite a few years this is something you need to learn and study and study again and study again and study yet again like if you didn't understand all the details that's fine this finishes the first chapter of the mimer you have a few days now till monday you could learn again the first few pages of this mimer because we still have to explain the aspect of woman's here that's going to be next class and then somehow then goes in to the whole realm of paranosa how people make a living and how people support their families and different attitudes and the balance between being responsible and living a life of oneness and divine consciousness and serenity in the meantime i wish you all a beautiful and meaningful and inspiring day yes thank you you should have tremendous it's a pleasure to have you and hashem should bless you with tremendous hatzlacha see you here again monday i'm actually flying today to mexico for a very mexico city mexico city for uh for a a long uh a very big shabbaton with the community there so uh we will see you we will see you by azer hashem on monday morning in the meantime i wish you all hatsallah sending love and blessings to you and to your loved ones and to all of our people the world a little bit uh i managed to have to listen again and again and again this one was a very very challenging one so but it was of what growling so good thank you i hope that it has probably gives me the guidance to be able to grasp [Music] everything has to be quick you know they that's this generation quick fix no no no we have to be we know better that we have to be patient and housing thank you have a beautiful shopping the way i just want to say very often people think that the idea of not repressing your emotions and running away from yourself is a new psychological phenomenon you know pop psychology and it's you know the liberalism of 2022. but here you have the tsa marseille grinding a mimer in the early in the late 1700s or early 1800s and he's basically explaining that the way to deal with clip and citra is not just cutting cutting it out of your life making believe it doesn't exist because it's getting you making you uncomfortable and what's going to happen when you do that is it's going to come back stronger that's such a powerful powerful concept it it teaches us how we really have to be honest and authentic and deal with every part of ourselves and not be afraid and have the courage to contain it and on the contrary by doing that you can actually heal you can actually allow the kitsanam to relax and not to have to get nurture from you because you fix what has to be fixed and once you fix what has to be fixed the situacra falls away because it exists only because i'm giving it nurture based on where i am in life and that's part of the system that god created and only when i really really work those things out in myself could they ultimately you know cease to have that reality to have that existence in my life i just want to clarify that okay ready is uh is a sonic able to um use that concealment within the concealment the simpson what's in it simpson is it a power that anxiety can use or is it just a bad a bad thing well everything can be used but that's the point that simpson is productive when it's a channel for energy for good energy when it becomes a distraction for energy it can be misconstrued that's what it means it's misconstrued it becomes a distraction it takes me away from truth again it's like you know when somebody gets up and starts saying vulgar jokes and it's not funny anymore you know what i mean rabbit said jokes no no no no don't compare you know when you sometimes use humor i don't know if you know what i mean like sometimes in conversations that are very real and somebody starts using humor it's like what are you doing what are you doing you know there's a time for humor there's a time for humor no question you don't have to preach that to me i know that but there's also a time for no humor it's like you have to know when when humor is capturing a truth in other words if i'm standing in front of a crowd and everybody is uptight and intense and they don't know if i'm normal or crazy and i crack a joke right it's the best thing i can do it brings me down it makes me human i'm vulnerable i could laugh about same things you laugh but if we're in the moment of a very profound exchange that's intimate and heart-wrenching it's like what are you doing you're just escaping into an inauthentic world so when simpson is a channel for energy it's very very powerful extremely powerful on the contrary it's the way to communicate energy and that's the muscle of shloima and rib mayor and that's sichua's and that's the year of attic and that's the payes and that's the beard why did the ladies because the levium departed from the caleb their avoider was to ascend the cayley and the the light in the vessel remained very very restricted so if that light goes through another symptom it could become misused i'll give you an example okay because because their connection was through transcending the vessels so in terms of what was left in the container it was a very miniature form of energy an example would be let's say parents have a father or a mother or somebody in there let's say a father right who's who's celebrated by the world and is really a great saddik and a great talmud but they don't have a father because he's so he's so big and he's so holy and and he's there for the whole world and he's he's he's completely not uh limited to his household it's beautiful for everybody else but it's painful for his children why is it painful for his children because children need a father who's small who's simple right a father who could sit down on the floor and forget about the world and just connect with his children in a very small simple humble way that's called going into caleb so sometimes the great light it's amazing when you're up there but for people who need the small light they need the cayley the lavy was that spiritual artist in the desert who was outside of the cayley and the light of the caylee was very very small and from there if that light is obscured further if that light goes to its simpson it could be completely compromised and sometimes misconstrued and misunderstood so it's really a mushroom it's all a mushroom the chianim and levine is a marshall of course it's a balance we want to go out of caleb but we also have to come back into kayla yin and yang razia and sheif transcendence and imminence [Music] mostly in the middle somewhere some of us need to go out of caleb moore some of us need to go back into caleb more like you and me purim we spoke about breaking the kayla you remember is that kaiser cause you've got to break the cayley ah the lawyer you've got to go out of the kaylee you've got to break the cayley under the cuppa but then you have to go back into the kali right the acronym of adalaya is yada aad because they got to go into other and then the here becomes amazing because the hair becomes a channel did you say artists have big iris and small caleb usually very often very often real businessmen have big caleb because that's what business is like bottom line bottom line the market what do people want artists it's about self-expression right the hardest thing for artists is dealing with editors dealing with marketing van gogh i don't know how he died i think a broke man they sit in their basement and they draw art and it's amazing for themselves my father allah was an editor of a yiddish newspaper he had a lot of great yiddish writers the problem is an article needs a limit of words right but these writers want to express themselves so you give in an article with 6 000 words but you only have a place for a thousand words so my father was the editor and the day later i remember he would be on the phone comforting all these artists who felt that he killed them murder would have been better he killed them he destroyed their creativity and yet this is an expression a schreiber starts from hearts fellaini fellaini i don't know how you do that but a writer doesn't die from heart failure he dies from the mistakes on the printing press in other words he dies from his article being patched up right kill your darling so now you have editors and you have editors you have editors who don't know what they're doing so they tuck it take your article and they destroy it they take the soul out of it you have real editors what do they do they make it palpatable it's called simpson they channel it they they cut it they they they put it in a frame that people can eat it that people can digest it because if it's just infinite expression it's beautiful but nobody's gonna get anything out of it you need to come down that's called caleb okay everybody have a beautiful day thank you for joining us it's a pleasure to be with everybody thank you very they're very much