When You Learn Through the Lens of Trauma, the Message Is Distorted

thank you [Music] so unfortunate yeah it could be jakov didn't say Jacob said that's how we say it quietly that's what the Gomorrah says oh you looked it up definitely not involved yeah when when yaakov was about to pass away so uh the shrina departed from him so he was afraid that one of his children may be blemished so they said referring to him Israel his Israel Israel Sava so Jacob answered so that's why we want to say it on the other hand Moshi didn't say it it says so we say it quietly so we'll explain I'll explain that we're going to discuss that's what we'll discuss them [Music] foreign good morning everybody welcome tomorrow again I'll get tomorrow again because rum is good because I'm is good page 134-134 we finished the paragraph on the top this was the third the third chapter of the mimer page 134 welding the second paragraph in the Hebrew it would be some column three on top it says Israel today's class is dedicated by Sarah malka Simon and Cyril Goldman and loving memory of rabies the unforgettable Jerry Simon and tribute to his yard site on the fourth day of other tahinism thank you very very much and you should be an eternal source of inspiration and blessings so the last point we explored in the previous year in this is the difference between Shema is yeah the mission says people who lived in Eureka sandwiched and one of the interpretations of the gemarius is they eliminated baruchem they did away with it from Israel they went straight to vahafta which is actually the way it's in Hamish and parishes come from tells a story that when Jacob was about to pass away he saw that the screener departed and he was afraid that one of his children was blemished and they said Israel referring to their father and yaakov responded in gratitude so on one hand yakovino said it when he hurts my Israel on the other hand Maisha didn't say it so we say it silently that's why we say it silently on this the Gamora tells them gives a metaphor the spices of the food is like the the the Schmucker spices of the pot you know what state what's in the pot very spicy and very delicious and I had a great fragrance and she smelled it and she wanted to eat it there was a problem and that is as the Gamora puts it is if she's going to tell everybody this is what I want it's going to be embarrassing this is what a princess is interested in we would think she has more noble and Royal interests so it's going to be a disgrace for her and for her family because she's a boss malach and she wants you know the leftovers of the challenge you know it's like the last piece of sushi everybody's eyeing it you ever saw by these places yeah you have 10 rabbis right you know what I mean it's a passionate it was once a very prominent dinner from the New York area foreign so the way they came over and he said chicken or meat you know the question right by the dinners said say there is so uh this is she should be playing the violin I guess hanging out in a Japanese garden enjoying the roses and writing poetry so she can't he can't talk about it so don't say it ignore it says yes her body wants it so what do they do what it says they brought up the food quietly so there's no pain there's no disgrace nobody knows about it that's a great solution right you just do it quietly nobody sees that's the Marshall the gemara says to why we say barakshay here you see without Plymouth when you come to our goddess in the gemara sounds like almost like you know the boys are falling asleep so let's entertain them with some fast metaphor what what's the metaphor the metaphor is on one hand we want to say Baruch shame why because yaakov said it that's like the cholanta I want I want the last last part of Shalom I wanted seeking data I'm embarrassed because moisture didn't say it so what do we do we do it quietly and I ask you do you want to have to give this muscle a princess with sick craving the last piece of sushi or the last piece of lasagna or the last piece of tongue with mustard and she's embarrassed but she's pained without it so you you make a deal nobody sees and does that really deal with the problem and that's a muscle for what for Jews wanting to say it's embarrassing why because Maisha didn't say like how do you even want to say it on the other hand I want to say it I want the food but it's the the the muscle is very very difficult to understand this I'm just going to say a classic example without panemia satina you read these Commodities a lot of good models like it's endless the hola God that looks like this you see a whole different oh yeah this is what alterab explains Marshall refers to malchus that's right away is the word malchus she smells the spices of the geshmaker food that's called avoida sabiru smells the tainok the uniqueness of what happens in a world of struggle and darkness where the person has the courage to be able to find the light from the darkness there's a special Tavern it's a special spice especially Aroma a unique flavor that comes from transformation but yeshla gnai there's a shame here because for this to happen a lacuss has to go into clipper if a Locus doesn't go into Clipper there's no Darkness so let's not do it but yeah but then there's the the there's a shame in it but there's also a pain of not having that whole experience this exactly is the tension between foreign there's two basements a higher a higher floor so thou teb explains and this might mean many others in the second section of Tanya is based on this the portal of faith and it's it's it's it's it's it's really marvelous to be able to to see what he's saying and every everything you look at the world you could see it from two different perspectives within akdus we're not talking I know you could see it from the perspective of of a complete external external perspective we're not talking about we're talking about from the perspective of Actos you could see it from two different point of views one is but it's called a lower state of consciousness of actors it's called Lower only because it's lower than the Higher One trust me it's not that low it's not that low it's pretty high if you ask me if you ask anybody you could the law is the highest what's the difference so to use the Isis of this and I hope by now after this is would suffice to make it relevant but unfortunately it doesn't always and the language of the mimer the ray of the Sun versus the Sun foreign language right many people see these words like it sounds the most abstract thing in the world but it's really the most relevant thing in the world because when you look at anything in the world label is can you scientists always take things apart and want to see what is it made up of right I see a world I see trees I see houses I see Sky I See Stars I see an animal or an incident what is it made up of so you dissect and you take apart in this deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper and every generation they discover a deeper layer of what it's made up of I have a body I know but what is it made up of what makes the nose what makes it it's incredible the Miracles of biology or of anything a mountain or an ocean or the Sun or the moon everything that is incredible and that's what science does it takes everything apart it wants to see what's called the polymius the polymers the building blocks the building blocks I see a beautiful home but I want the architect and the contract that's explained to me right what is this home made of or piece of art it's made of the the building blocks of art there's the building blocks of the world so you have all matter is basically comprised of atoms Adams joining together ultimately creating all matter atoms are the building blocks of matter but gave her stay on Adam an atom itself each atom itself has Infinite Wisdom take to take apart the Adam by the way the word Adam means indivisible in Greek Adam means it's indivisible but that's not the case because today we call it an animals every atom has within it what they call subatomic part what the atom is made up of the atom itself is made up of of of various particles and then you have what's called subatomic particles sub-subatomic particles you go deeper and deeper the deeper you go the more crazy it becomes it's literally literally the more crime I'm using that word precisely even though it's not a sophisticated word the more the more the more insane it becomes the more wondrous it becomes the more you see that it's not finite and it's not systematic and it's full of paradox it's you have to use different tools to be typhusant 99.9 percent of an atom is empty space we don't see that we see solids because our eyes don't detect that so our eyes fill up the space it's one of the tricks of the brain we don't like dealing with emptiness so the eyes fill up the space a physicist once said I told this to you once that all the matter all the all the gashmirs of this physical Planet you could fit into a carry-on suitcase the Hearst all the physicality of our world the real Heimer the real gosh me because 99.9 of the atom is empty space it's the whole planet fills it to carry-on suitcase you see without an episode it's it's a carry-on suitcase oh because he wants to exist it wants to exist that's why the president goes without with a suitcase president walks with a suitcase same thing huh what's that empty space that empty space is Devar Hashem that you're not going to come up with uh with an x-ray with a microscope because the locus is not a micro it's not something that goes into the microscopic that's not liters by the microscopic instrument if godliness is something that a microscopic instrument could say this is it then for such a god you understood what I just said as the cuts could ever once said the cuts could ever same idea psychologically but the same idea I'm saying it scientifically but same as psychologically a God that every I don't know how to say this nicely every putrid every putrid seed can grasp I will not worship and then the microscope is almost going to give a scum that elucus exists oh it's in a microscope people say I'll believe in God when you could show it to me in a scientific lab if that's the gods you're looking for you don't want to believe in such a God that the scientific lab oh I got a picture the camera now captured him so you can still say oh it's an excuse you can't prove it right but it's it's deeper than an excuse obviously anything exists oh it's too big for the camera we're not saying it's too big for the camera if it's an Indian of Ms so then the microscopic instrument won't grasp it so the 99 of matter is varsha it's not night 100 of the matter in other words the physical is an embodiment of divide energy of insight that's called that's called mammalikal almond that's never ever escapes embodiment emotionally what is I can go into every emotion and look for the meaning of it look for this Hashem is there like we spoke in the Mindless there's nothing you have to run away from sometimes there's very dark things in the world there's evil in the world too this immorality this this violence this Bloodshed unfortunately we all know this this hate obviously through through as I said yesterday through monstrous processes of reductionism and symptom and concealment and filters till Hashem gives to apara but what does that mean in our life in our life it's a little easier it means I I could I could take apart everything and I'll find a Locus that's very powerful that's all that's baruch-shaped the world is one what makes the world one it's really a place of Oneness the the wars the the the the differentiations between us to the point of violence or hatred or jealousy is is a shell it's a blockage and yeah we full pray to that blockage and that's avoid that's and this is what the bad smell like smelled she smelled the schmuck of avoida of transformation but to understand from a place of ain't safe it's very embarrassing it's very embarrassing but it's painful without is rooted in the essence of Hashem you could take every reality and trace it back from the glass from the glasses of ain't safe mamish it's all ain't safe you don't live in the world of struggle not because you're repressing no because everything is infinity [Music] and that's the prince pre-creation post-creation as he always says nothing nothing changed that same reality all of Brie Asylum is an uptight and oh the ray of the sun went through a lot of Journeys and in that world the ray articulates itself in in in in in in animals and mammals and birds and insects and reptiles and fish and and humans and diamonds Bush and shrub and treated fruit and vegetable and legume and Seed every every snake and every frog and every Turtle it's another articulation of ain't safe and there is diversity in the world of course there's a yesh that's the whole of either I'm not an illusion you're not an illusion yeah I have a reality and there's a in this you you and you everyone has their unique chemistry too that's why they never is and there's a special special smell in that there's nothing like the transformation or anybody who does works on themselves knows when you transform the gemara says stands outside they can't stand why because that's what true is true is I made the mistake and I was alienated why because I was in a blockage and then you remove that blockage the light that comes out of the darkness is unprecedented but that you can only have with your tattoo go back to pre-creation pre-creation yeah there's no there's no Brokenness all this ain't safe and the Kiddush of acceptances that that's exists post-creation too with different glasses what does the world look like in you it's not that there's no World in Your Law it's not like the world is a fan there is a world but what is it it's the ray of the sun inside the sun the uptight of everything in your law is ain't safe now which world do you live in is shame is a name cover this glory malchus is royalty over there this is foreign means you live with Hashem every moment the way he's articulated in the universe when you taste chicken what are you tasting you're tasting chicken when you taste chicken what are you tasting no Lucas the sun is never dark you're asking if there's Dark Places it's like it's one of the does the sun ever get dark I put down the venetian blind and it gets dark in my house and that's what we do we put down the Venetian blinds right or it's a cloudy day and the ray is not coming happens in in the ray of the Sun and over there there's a very big world and there's a finite world but remember in the pla same place where the Reyes the sun exists back to what I say the metaphors are never are never precise and the metaphor the sun is there and the ray is here you understand but in the in the nimshul the sun is where the ray is this is the very able kite this is one of the assadas of the Altera but the edelkite is there a world where there's no world so people say who's he talking to there's no world really like I said the other day so how is he saying a minor aren't you contradicting yourself when you're saying a nightmare oh you are saying remind me telling me about so so and you just said it's almost like a person thinks it's like mind game it's like word games right people think it's like another purple another purpose of the so the Rays and the Sun so you don't exist thank you so who's saying this the very fact that we're talking about it seems like a mockery of what we're saying but that's a very superficial understanding of Awesomeness doesn't mean that there's no Ray There is a ray it's all in the Sun ah not what not what is not the regular we talk about that level maybe the period is to become finite or not to be to be finite or not to be finite that's the question maybe the spirit for that I don't know is inside of you we have to start reaching a new place of Consciousness that sadly doesn't exist anymore I mean it exists but you have to huh right so we have to take that seriously there's the soul is capable of experiencing because it's antennas are sensitive to this the fact that you're sitting and you're looking at me and you don't view me every moment as a mashugana means that something about it resonates with you Ms something resonates you're not even sure why right most people should be sitting here and saying the guy is whacked and and for good reason for good reason it's like I'm sitting there's a table I'm drinking coffee there's a mic there's a video there's not a live stream and then he says but just like before the bridge exactly after the election you see thank you I had an uncle he would always tell me the best Claude it meant it was a nice way of saying you're normal but the Amethyst in a few years this is going to be the only language with which you're going to be able to talk about the world so get ready everything else is going to be like in a few years this is going to be the only the only splack there'll be and the assembling somebody once asked that the grandson says he learns these my mother but he doesn't it doesn't go in it's selectiveness it doesn't really get it he understands but he doesn't get it so he said she told them that children sometimes they want to overhear what their parents are saying but the door is closed so what do they do they put their ears you remember they put their ears by the door and they hear like every 10 words you know like every five words and then from there they concoct what the parents are planning you know the next War of the parents against the children so the children could prepare the world war against their parents he says and then when their father or mother spills the beans and says what they said they go now they see how everything fits so much said this is going to be a time of the closest that's what he told them so now we're living in this kuffa you see every day every every month on every level it's getting closer this is the new this is the language of reality right A New Earth a new Heaven says it's going to be a new Heaven and a new Earth what's kind of new heaven it says going to be a new Heaven and a new Earth what's it mean a new Heaven and a new Earth a new Heaven means a new Consciousness Consciousness a new era is a new embodiment of Consciousness like the Goof is the heirates of the nashama the Aries the Earth is the embodiment of Consciousness so means so to speak if I could put on glasses everything exists but what is it it's ain't safe so it's tracing back every reality to its ultimate source in the body in that's called save of kalaman so the definition of everything is that it has no definition did you hear what I just said just here the definition of everything is now that sounds weird right but it's not it's it's true that is the definition of everything um we we don't see it because our eyes are a product of mammala kalaman our eyes and our brain are post post all the symptoms to the point of islamasia so the prison with which I see the world is a world of definitive reality and diversity and and trust me when a cat looks at the same world it sees something else a cat looks at me or looks at you doesn't see what I see in you it sees what a cat sees in you and a dog sees what a dog sees they all see you're having a Sheamus they look at the same world they see something much much more because they have different Caleb the more refined the Cali right with a microscope you could see levels of a table that I can't see with my eyes I just see I just see wood that's what I see with a microscope a telescope you see a whole different world who's right depends what what kind of you're using this is all in the market on his Deathbed told his son to be strong of caution is he told the Sun as she said the gift I don't have a body anymore it's all nashama so his son holds on to his father's hand and says Tata of the gift I feel your hand so he says the topsmith GIF fills the gift the topsmith gift fills the gift says one of those last words the tops mid GIF fills the gift what's the instrument that you're using to Define if you feel bad of yourself you're using your hand to touch my head of course you feel a hand now it sounds like it sounds like funny words it's not it's very deep what he's saying the instruments you use with which to Define reality that will determine the reality you define ah that's a good question what instruments could you use to work right but I'm saying we have to understand these endless levels means to find in reality just I I you know he's he's a source of clippers but just understand when you heard the tatamis it's a world of Oneness it's a world of elocations but it's a world There's You and I the eye of the eye is those are the words of three words and that's and that really means know thyself really know yourself but know yourself in a genuine way the balship said God is out his got what's the difference what looks like he repeated himself twice oh you see the difference got this out has got a line got this out outside's got it looks like you know you know he's repeating he's not he's saying two different things Altus God is out one started with gut the other one started with alt alt means everything you said the second line was out it starts with outs here's a safer here is me here is my emotions here this ounce is God is out that's Allah one is called Mata one is called one starts with Ania and that includes everything now what's the mile in each in Milo what's in terms of avoid there's something special in each foreign has a tremendous thing and that is it works through the world it works through struggle takes you to a place where you were never dark you will never be dark you never had a moment of darkness are you did ain't safe that ain't safe was having it [Music] imagine Titus you know Tito stabbed the Perez the Gamora says and get them because he wanted to kill Hashem so he stabbed the parallel of course what happened blood came out and he said oh God died blood came out was God's self-confidence affected by that step from that day is God in therapy saying I'm not sure I live I do I didn't do I do I die am I dead the Titus kill me huh yeah I'm asking you're all laughing at my question the answer is if he's God he probably didn't lose his self-confidence from titus's snap right when you uh but now listen to what I'm saying but that's you if you're ain't so if you also didn't lose your confidence from a stamp s because there is a level where blood comes out because there's a level where blood comes out yeah cave means perforates he says Nike of shame my shoulders where you can make a whole kevayako and shame Hashem and you make a whole blood comes out and moist humans it creates death in the world and death in the person so therefore the source of all healing oh but we but is essential to the whole purpose of creation to transform doesn't transform transformed on the other hand there's a certain element of stuckness because I'm ultimately defined by the reality that I'm trying to transcend and that's why this side of yiddishkite the way it's articulated especially synthesis the constant relationship between constant every mimer you're going to have the Lord it's practically speaking if I want to live in yehudi law I can't live in this world and some people want to do that they want the spiritual trip there's no eye anymore right there's only consciousness of infinity and there's no I even that's awesome there's something very it's MS but there's no embodiment what do I mean there's no embodiment I'm living in a world where you exist and I exist and and my mood now changed and now right and I'm going through something and there's an emotion and sometimes it's very Petty there's a piece of chicken now look at the gamada's muscle Marshall she smelled the leftovers of the challenge but it's embarrassing this is where malchus is going to go this is where Cypher is going to go yes look at I but without it yeshlatsar the whole kavana Sabria was the whole pleasure of creation is gone there's no relationship go back to himself and that's it fine another one of you said let's die they put on katirus yeah not even a video literally they ignited Titus and in dictators they went up and boom says they wanted to kiss God this is one of the most beautiful he gives like 20 adjectives about not even a View's love with God the vehicles they just wanted a kiss Ain't So if Mama and in the kissing of infinity they became infinite it's called a sin why is it called a sin laughs hollify all sins would be as would be as sinful as their sin there are sins into our sins there are ugly sins under our holy sins this was a holy sin what was the holy sin the holy sin was that they were not the acknowledging that the ultimate kavana Sabria was to transform Darkness that was a sin I'm telling you it's a very holy sin not an ugly sin there's people who rob and steal and lie and cheat their sin was they wanted okay but epicent Aveda it was so to speak huh yeah it's a different type of sin well what makes it a seal makes it a sin is that it's not rooted in the kavana Sabria yeshwatzar so what does say you know what we're gonna do it but we're gonna do we're going to give you the food but let's be quiet about it that's why we say borax this is the title of the gemara we say birthday there's a recognition there's a recognition that it's painful for the soul to step away from your law and go into you have to recognize that pain because if you don't recognize that pain that you're stepping away and all real healing and Oneness comes from blessed is the name of the glory of his kingdom forever or in the world forever could come from because there's a shame this kavoid in this which is like the ray of the Sun that comes out of the sun it's not the sun itself all represents it represents the energy that never defines the core and yeah if there's a cloudy day you're going to block the ray of the sun you're not going to block the Sun the clouds will never will never make the sun itself dark in other words all Darkness can happen in the way the light is communicated to me over there that can be a rupture and it could be a very deep rupture in my self-conceptualization the way it's articulated in my Consciousness that can be rupture and I may not be able to tap into anything else and that's what he's saying the topsmith gif philster gif this is so important because as I said yesterday and you know unfortunately we know it some of us know it in our own personal lives the problem is you can't know it you have to experience it and for that you have to be free and that is I'm going to use that word again when somebody has real trauma trauma I'll use with capital T right to a point that the very eye becomes trauma the only tools that they have to explore who they are are tools of trauma so do you understand how much truth they can get from that even when they learned this and they learned it's trauma screaming you're a hey little economy my mama's you loser and I always see it I I could feel it sometimes I speak a little bit I could feel it I could feel how the person is hearing it one person's eyes light up they're like wow and another person oh do me a favor like it's more guilt you ain't safe you idiot sick man you're infinite don't you really no I'm not infinite foreign so now I'm guilty about being ain't safe too so that's how infinite you are and and no so it's so important to say the topsmith give fills to give if if my tools of comprehension are traumatic the very eye that is processing the information is completely broken so it's like the Marshall I told you once Heisenberg gave he was a big physicist Warren Eisenberg gave a muscle to Einstein about quantum mechanics brilliant martial you know this simple machalom you remember the muscle with the net there was a fisherman who put in a net to get the fish in the Pacific and then he said there's no fish smaller than nine inches everybody was laughing he said it's true he was right why the holes in the net were nine inches each hole was nine inches there's no fish smaller than nine inches a person is 30 years in therapy there's no fish smaller than nine inches he's right the guy is right the topsmith give fills the gif your net this is my I don't have another net catch other fish I don't have another net sorry without understanding this often a person could be paralyzed for Shalom their entire life you know the therapist or the rabbi or the Mashpee is telling him to some of the other fish there's so many other fish look there's a goldfish in my dining room there's a starfish there's smaller than nine inches there's no smaller fish and there's really no smaller fish all I know is now that I'm a crazy person because this goldfish in your dining room so I must be completely crazy so what does that say to me I'm even more crazy than I thought before I came in you're done huh you created an eternal session this never ends it never ends because it's a vicious cycle because the very eye that you're trying to talk to is is the source of the terrible terrible self-image and this is where the law comes to the rescue [Music] that's why in the healing of trauma Sid this is so important you have to go through the processes you have to go through but the IDE the MSI is so important because again if I'm hearing it with trauma I'm not hearing it you see oh so now I don't even exist I mean so if leave me alone but if there could be a a puncture an opening in this place you really hold There's real wholeness in this place you were never ever broken and when a person can touch that place where you're truly truly whole where you were never ever broken not with small things and not with big things then you can because an ambassador of divine Infinity in this world that's what you bring to yourself and the people around you the rambam opens up mishna Taylor the rambam the whole safety missionary opens up with these words you say that you say this is those are his words the foundation of Foundations the pillar of wisdom is to know there's a matsuration which means a first being and he brought into existence every being and anything that exists from Heaven to Earth and in between did not emerge only from the truth of his existence beautiful opening of the whole safer of the rambam the foundation of all foundations this is [Music] and if an idea is going to ascend to your Das that he is non-existent nothing else could come into existence huh no no nothing else if he doesn't exist so there's no creator so nothing else can exist so they asked on the rambam once he already said that he creates everything right you say he created this phone he created this table if he wasn't here the table couldn't be created what's what's what's it's obvious from the first Allah what's the rambam saying and it's not the way he opens up the whole uh the whole system by the way if you think that God doesn't exist it's a interesting thing that the Rama should like say that and the words he uses which means Aliyah foreign if a person thinks that he doesn't exist the who is superfluous if he's not existing there's no heat in English you say if you would think that he doesn't exist but in Hebrew you take out the Hoover that there's nothing here he says then I'm saying something completely different is more mature than Aaliyah it's the next level not that he doesn't exist he doesn't exist as Matthias I there's an expression about Hashem a non-existential state of existence does that make sense another expression which is what does this mean when you speak when you speak about reality you speak about ain't safe foreign a reality that's at least identifiable with some words with some descriptions even in the fact that he's a source for all matsius the fact that he's a source for me and you and all the worlds that's Matsui it's a reality that we can talk about we could say it exists foreign not that he doesn't exist that he doesn't exist as an existence stop calling him a Matsui Matsui means that somebody is it's common it's it's here it's not physical it's spiritual but it's some form of description of Matsu ese that's really true the problem is foreign the energy that creates the world has to therefore come into medicine so that's why there's maturation these two Allah formed the foundation of Judaism what are they from the foundation of Judaism and Isis of Sid this is [Music] no this is and he explained this in the two first allahs of the rambam he says why is this the foundation of Judaism because all of Judaism is about transforming the world making it into a Divine world for that you need the two stages creating a world of Allah means a world in which direction Hashem is materialized and realized in the world for this you need two stages transforms the world can really really Heal the World and transform it because it's completely not defined by it but if there's only any Matsuri foreign [Music] to make it fill in I need an animal with skin and take the skin and turn it into parchment and take ink if the ink is infinite then the skin is infinite and the animal is infinite says hey Shane but Philly you're not going to get [Music] it so the Buddhists the Far Eastern says you're better much better go on a mountain have the death of ego and melt away in Nirvana one and all all in one comes that amberman says no Matsui but and the whole kavana is not not Matthias U it's gone that the he is in a state of Amen monster he's not in Matthias a hadron I see him but a hydrant is when you do the end and then you discuss the beginning of song means I'm going to return to you so at the end you go back to the beginning foreign forget this because if you really want to transform the world you need Allah because ultimately you're within the tools of reality that you're trying to change you know what do they say you got to be out of the box right to change what's in the box you got to think out of the box he says no I'm going to think as though there's no box even better which box don't put me in a box of box to say yes there's no box so there you could change everything you know when somebody's in a system you can't really change it you know what I mean because you're you're part of the problem so going to the board you know of a school or whatever to talk about the school that they created say we need the jaw you can't read the lid huh very good when you're in the jar you can't read the label very good very good you're part of the label the label is describing you right like it says about as it says not to grow up not among Jews that Vanessa says huh parisha schmoise the vanilla says that if Maisha would have grown up among Jews it's a paladica Vanessa he would have developed a slave mentality because they were all slaves how can a slave make a revolution against Potter so unbelievable vart that Vanessa says he had to grow up in royalty so his service were different now it was of course but you're not going to take your son and put your son in Paris Palace that's not what you do but the Republic sends different souls to different people the fact is that most of the Jewish people today are not going into the deceivers they're not getting a Jewish Education it's not a right people become Bali true and they sometimes want to hide their background because they want to fit into the system I always tell them no your contribution is from out of the system what are you trying to fit in trying to make us more crippled we have enough of our own problems we don't need a new one you're coming from outside give perspective you know what Maisha told yesterday right and pastures if you stay here you're going to serve as our eyes really yeah perspective perspective history came from a different country didn't have to belong here he wasn't born into a trollent Google you understand he wasn't born in the in in in in in the Schmaltz he was a Korean median he was a finer garlic and median it was beautiful so he came and he can give perspective I used to want to lay down my point is why am I saying this oh the transformation of the world can only happen through animatsu in psychological terms real healing can only come from a place where there is no disease is that typhus said let's get rid of Baruch you want to have to keep it to smell yourself there'll be the battle of the Bahamas is also age so if you're good Dalton episodes we say we have to say and void is the same letters like because it's bringing the same it's it's exchange of letters of because because it's bringing the world of VOD which means ultimately is which at the end you're not talking about two things yeah we go through a process of two things but at the end have to unite much in any mods you have to become connected [Music] the gamara says in Yuma that the ultimate truth is man in other words going back to the same place and doing it differently that means you're in a different place right we know in healing you sometimes you meet the same person but you do it differently but it's very hard because you're going into the Lion's Den part of us just like wants to cut off and sometimes you need boundaries you know sometimes it's too dangerous to go back you have to know if you're gonna fall you can't go back you know you don't go back into a pit unless you make sure not to fall in so you have to have good direction here but that's the that's the the power of healing is when you can go into that space and transform it that's that's the idea of within the structure and identity of the human being in the universe the structures it literally goes back to preberry Asylum the pre-creation how can I go back to pre-creation when I was created the answer is that wasn't created you understand how could you talk about me going back to pre-creation when the very eye is post-creation and the answer is in the eye that's pre-creation and that's an ashama and because the nesham is pre-creation it resonates with the law it senses it the moment from the middle of being criticize Palace he says he says you talk to Jews about of the hearts speaks to them China because it's philosophy that's not even shared to me it's a sister resonates why it's like oxygen Furniture because in the summer knows it it just gets covered up gets covered up it's healing energy you know when you hear healing energy it's healing you want to stay there you don't want to leave you ever in a place that you didn't want to leave it was too good too good to be true usually we want to get away from wherever we are right Jews most Jews next next next next next you know get it over with shakers get up with Muslim get it over with get it over with next you keep and get it over with put him get it over with but sometimes you're in a space and you're like please don't get it over with don't get it over with please do me a favor laws what does that come from you can't force that on people Adam Smith is uh look I just want to go another few minutes because I want to finish the mimer we don't have so much and once we have the foundations it'll go pretty smooth next week I'm traveling to London Sunday night so Shabbos is a regular schedule but next week the we're going to resume the sheer Thursday morning we're going to learn a porta mimer Thursday Friday and Monday tennisester because Sunday night I'm flying to London so I'm not going to be here for a few days so the women's class and the men's class is not going to be next week besides Thursday and Friday morning next Thursday Shabbos is regular okay uh-huh my man thank you foreign of course this is all electricity to mention he's not talking to uh ah obviously from showed a delay huh okay what oh obviously not and you know person shouldn't deceive themselves so suddenly I'm happy that's why generally we speak about but but a person needs to engrave in themselves it really whole it gives anchor to the Tata that you shouldn't fall when they send down you know they send down people deep you have to have a rope you have to be connected when miners go down to close they have to have a good connection because if not the dirt down there and the fumes and the Darkness can kill them so when you put a tattoo when the bass smells goes down to the Sea cake data you have to have a connection to your law s is is is is learning about it being aware of it having us in it huh [Music] he now goes back in the beginning of the mind he said she says um why the Jewish people they count they make their calendars according to the Moon like today right gimul other right it's all based on the moon was a new moon and then you count our calendar based on the moon the end of the month is going to be when the moon comes back to reunite with the sun and they're going to be a new moon but our whole calendar is based on the What's called the lunar cycle and the way it happens is the moon orbits the earth in 29 and a half days that's a fact of astronomy 29 and a half days 29 days and 12 hours and tough shins 793 the moon finishes its orbit and it starts a new orbit why then does its light change from day to day remember 5 30 in the morning why you remember so why is it because the moon doesn't have its own light the moon reflects the light of the sun because the moon reflects the light of the Sun so therefore it's always based on the position of the Moon vis-a-vis the Sun that it casts off a different level of light to us living on Earth so what happens let's say what happens right before the Moon is let's say if this is the moon and the Moon is orbiting around the earth right and now if this is the Sun so I write by the schreiders the Moon is mamished parallel to the Sun so if we're here on Earth we're here another we're looking at the moon we see the Dark Side of the Moon we don't see anything why because the half part of the Moon that's being lit up is facing directly the Sun and that's in it's called and that moment the sun and the moon are the closest they're parallel to each other and that's precisely the moment where you don't see anything when the moon is more is is the most intimate with its source you don't see anything then the moon starts moving away that's after this the Mila the birth of the moon is that moment the mileage is that moment when the moon is parallel to the sun it's fascinating people don't realize right it's important to know the Milad the mylet with Zion that's the moment of why is it called birth why is it called birth because this is the moment that a new moon is going to start moving and then every day you'll see it more because it's going further away and then it's here on the 15th day of the month the Earth is between the Moon and the Sun so you get to see the full moon because the moon that's facing the sun is on the other side of the Earth and then it goes down like this like this it gets smaller and smaller and then it comes here and it's Mama's parallel to the Sun and we can only see the dark side this is physically astronomically this whole experience is also true emotionally calavonna less let me gosh the Lavana has no light on its own I it's light the answer is it receives its light from the light of the Sun and now it could cast light on the earth when we enjoy the light of the moon what is it the light of the sun being reflected through the moon it's not the light of the Moon So based on the whole moments are what that by kabbales are tired of the Jewish people were given the ability to experience the Lamer which is that you become a complete conduit and that takes you out of it sorry explain to all my mirror now we understand why we follow the Moon because the Moon is a reflection of the light of the Sun it doesn't have its own ego its own light that's its beauty its beauty is it's a it's a conduit for the light of the Sun and that's why we love the Moon why do people love the moon there's something about night and the light of the Moon because we sense our soul sense is Bittle the moon has no ego because the moon's light is from the Sun the even though it looks like you look at the moon it's a beautiful moon right but it's not its own light it's the light of the Sun and that's the light that the Jewish people love the light that the Jewish people internalize is you see how he describes it and therefore every single month before it's renewed it diminishes to the point that it becomes a nakuda what does it mean it becomes an akuda it becomes a tiny tiny little point to the point that it's invisible from our perspective meaning the Moon is always lit but the half that we see is dark right before that we see a nakuda a tiny little Moon and then it becomes invisible why because it reached the UR Hashem it's now Mama's parallel under the light of the sun directly parallel to the Sun and therefore there's no light on the earth and then it moves away until it becomes a full moon on the 15th of the month s everything is from the Sun the Lavon on its own doesn't have anything after becomes full is and then after it's full it again goes back to the source it becomes smaller and smaller and smaller until it hits the sun now it's invisible and then it starts moving away so here we have a funny Paradox the closer the Moon is to the source the less it gives light when it's mummaged by the source no light the more it becomes distant from the source the more it gives an example of this would be if you have a student who has a rabbit I'm talking about a real real rabbit authentic lib this rabbit empowers a student to give and spread the light but that's only when it goes away from Islam and the presence of his source he disappears you say oh never he became so insecure he didn't become insecure this is where he this is where he gets everything if over here he's going to have an ego he won't get anything the only way you could really spread your ideas if there's a moment when it's complete Bittle say it Isaiah do you understand now the moon if the moon ah me the whole calendar what happens to the Moon it becomes dark I don't need the sun who's the stone I'm not going back there you're not going back there you're not getting any light it's because the moon can disappear that the moon can have all the light that it has that's where it gets it gets plugged in it's like a phone says I don't I don't need to recharge look how amazing I am I need the wall I need the electricity that is a claw the reason you could be independent is because there's a moment that you're plugged in it's also true in the world of emotions the more attachment you had when you were being developed the more independent you could become in life people whose attachment was wounded they never had somebody to really be there for them and love them and notice them at 50 years old I'm still looking for it I'm still looking maybe you could give me validation one of the hardest things in marriages is when you had the couple one of the couple above them didn't have attachment as children so their expectations from their spouse are simply not practical and they don't really have an identity they can't even give it's it's a big tragedy you understand when the the levana has a moment when it's Coulee attachment there's no light I'm not giving garnish I'm receiving I'm receiving when you are my Capital you can be a mashpia if you're not a Macabre you can't be a must be much beer you're being my spear your own stupid ego nobody wants to hear that your own insecurity that's the vort e the greatest people when they came to the to the in the presence of their there was nothing no greatness why not because they weren't great because they were great that's the kinds of murder Allah in front of Israel so literally Hotspur no the very fact that he could say means he's detached from the source he's detached it's like the moon standing in front of the Sun and saying oh I have my own light really let's see there's no light here what gives you your light is your vacuous with the Sun [Music] means you're detaching yourself from your son from your karma you know you can't live you need silence yeah yeah Yeshua in front of my should have been it was a not because he had nothing to say that's why he had something to say okay very very powerful lady and says they're tired and avoid is like the Moon that there's nothing of my own when a Jew learned it's not there's somebody who's learning there's a God to lose learning there's a great yes Michelle I'm davening is the moon is foreign and this Source this is the sun you have the Moon and the Sun so we're compared to the Moon reflecting the sun Kingston Hashem how values called the Shemesh the sun is The Shield the sheath commission is called Titus Hashem s like the sun Shemesh how much is the symptom is the shield on the sun Tada which is Hashem that's the Shemesh and that comes through the Jewish people it comes through the Moon and that's the beauty of the Moon the whole moon is one biggest goddess of the Shemesh and because of that there's a moment where you don't see anything and then when you do see it's a reflection of the Sun so devastation um and this explains why the three pillars of yiddishkite are Trader avoid why these three things so title we explained tit is a reflection of ani Hashem it's the sun it's the gilian safe but you want this to come into the person who becomes a conduit for Taylor so he says for this you have the two other things which is DACA and his duck is the closest says but all of the Mitzvahs are generally called sadaka so accessing the Toyota to us is called sadaka but he's going to explain but protest myself to Dr mamesh specifically stalker what does sadaka do three words it gives life to the spirit of the humble sadakh is not just I threw a DOT I gave you a dollar the concept of the doctor is to give life to the spirit of somebody who's broken who's wretched who's downtrodden physically emotionally spiritually to seduct it with money to sucker with food just stuck it with a good word to stuck it with a hug we all know that sometimes much more than any other stalker good word yeah it was once Aid yeah she was in this particular show so uh one that one Philly didn't have a gartel so somebody came up with him right and said you need a guide to if you want to gartel foreign nobody asked me if I have what to eat one feel I didn't put on a guy till there was somebody there to make a Maha you know what I'm talking about right not this show hopefully not any other show huh we have got here too and we have soup first take Soup and then take a gartel we also have different types of Jews not everybody wears guide luck so it's a but what's the point of sadaka to give life to ruaks he says so essentially when you give sadaka you're like the sun you're like a son you're an ambassador of light what does the Sun do the sun transmits light that's what you are that's what stuck is how we Define means you're a son you're a source of light that's what sadaka means what the basic says foreign the light of the sun brings light to a place of Darkness where there's no light and that's the content of our spot so to treat it to access the title down here is DACA because what's the docker sadaka is giving becoming a source of light to somebody who needs that light who needs that encouragement in other words you become like the son so meet the connect admit that when we give to Dhaka we generate that flow that hashem's son the light of Toyota flows into us into a place of Darkness is avoid this like the moon coming close to the Sun and disappearing what's the concept of avoida avoid the he calls Bittle malmatalamyla and that's the the the the Toyota in Tyler there's an expression next to this as a Trader that mentioned filler dementia I'm opening myself up to hear Hashem speaking to me Hashem opens himself up to hear what I have to say filler is the Bittle of a person it's the moon coming closer to the Sun and losing itself in the Sun then it can get the light from the sun so Taylor without Avada you can't have the Lamer there's two steps in Judaism so that's why you have 30 days comes from above it's by David Allah but what allows me to access it and bring it down that's what sadaka does avoid this you lift yourself up that you should be able to be open to the light of the Sun to the ensiphon you that's what avoid is that's what Phil is so he says now based on this he finishes the last piece is this is where the Miami began on the third month when they left midship on this day they came to meet by Sinai what does this mean so we asked why did it says when they left Egypt they started it says seven weeks you should count this was a preparation for kabulous that the age should be revealed here below like it is above through the Bittle to Hashem lamaru that's the Lamer that you should repeat what he's saying you should be a conduit is that when Jews learn Hashem should be flowing through them like the sun through the moon on the seventh month on the third day Martin Taylor was Shabbos he says the seventh week the third day because we have seven weeks it's 49 days right so is the third day of the seventh week it's like the whole week came in because the seven weeks are connected to seven meters on the seventh week you're dealing with malachos on the third day of the seventh week it's deferest of malachas Ed those are the three primary middles boundaries antiferous empathy then you have yourself they come out from these three so he says once you have the seventh week the third day which is restricted seven it's like you already have the whole week so now the Jews were almost ready for this Bittle so that's the birth of the Moon the birth of the Moon what's the birth of the Moon the Moon completely becomes invisible so now it be it's a conduit for the Sun so through the full Bittle you can now have Gilead inside is always through Bittle and that's the idea of that this day was Richard because the physical reality of the new moon is the spiritual reality of what happened on when they came to Mount Sinai and that's why it says because Unity can't be when the ego is strong because it's insecure I can't give really be one with you but when there's a state of Bittle when you're aligned with ain't safe so then you don't compete with me we could become one all actors comes from real Bittle when the moon does not a matseus on its own it's a reflection of the light of the Sun so you're not a competition you reflect the sun I reflect the sun everybody in their unique way so that's when there could be real Unity that's why the doesn't say this because [Music] represents Revelation the Posse says Hashem called light day day is a synonymous with light in Paris expressions so why is because this explains that this deity was the Gili it was by the revelation of Angela through the Bittle and that's why it's the day that the Moon is birthed because that's what Joy means and they asked right there's no concealment there's no blockages so you could say but means the Revelation that type of course this is the love that flows when there's complete Bittle and alignment the word says in Kabbalah is the gematri of twice 207. alephyrace is 207. you know which word that is Rose Secret the secret Roz is a secret that's uh sorry when you could see the iron and everything you know it's Secret right or it reveals its secret if I have this twice the word vahafta is so he says the word represents that happens on this day when they come to the mountains so now they're killing for Kabbalah of Lamar and it represents the type of ahava that comes from such a revelation of uh the light of Hashem being revealed there could be a true love a true connection but as I bowl amid by Sinai then they come to Mid barcina the gamara says why is it called Sinai from the word Sina hatred so the gomoria says because it's very interesting why is it called Sinai you know what the gemara says right um that's the day anti-Semitism was created at Sinai you want to know why is there anti-semitism you're the sinalum asylum The Sinner went down to the nations of the world but the truth is the words are not the the sacred went down from them but to them you have a sinner to the part of you that you have the ability to weaken the title weakens it that's what happened at Sinai foreign from the word dibor your words are beautiful in them made barbatosis the word in the beginning of the word midbar is because memes from the five letters the six letters of of diktok one two three month hey alephem non-soft they come either before a word or at the end of a word or a middle of a word and it always minimizes the meaning of the word for example if I say Tenley UGA give me the cake Tenley May how God means give me from the cake so the letter mem and also the other ones hey aleph meme they minimize the word so what does he says that the Deborah is diminished because it's not my own words it's a conduit for hashem's words that's the men before the Deborah mid-bar Sinai that's the mem in other words you minimize you minimize the ego it's like the Moon is receiving from the Sun and then deposit says means the weakening of the hands it was a time that the Jewish people became weak commandment as Allah says why is it called them because when we feed them they became weak foreign there was a weakness in the power of their soul so they left the place of the freedom they left the place of weakness of immobility of immobilization of spiritual paralysis that's refindim ited they came they opened themselves up to a place where they got the strength for the soul not to refit them the strength of the soul and the toshia the weakness of the sithra the weakness of the blockages that everything could become the unburdening of the blockages that it could become a reflection of because of the Gili of which is not just a place but it's also the place of Deborah where hashem's Debra comes through you and therefore you Deborah is small and it's Sinai you're the sinner there's a sinner that goes down what does it mean to the um Asylum like we said his eyes for the nephe Charlotte kiss and tushir for the nephrata Bahamas that it weakensity because of the Gili of ain't safe so it's made by Sinai they went away from a weak Soul which is trapped in blockages of the body and animal soul to Mid by Sinai where they were open to the full Gili of ancient which allowed it [Applause] anti-Semitism also um to have a day of hate they declare it's a day of hate yeah Shabbos it all happened at harcina Orlando I saw Chabad of Orlando kanikov fighting people powerful message the guy is not calling me the the the the guy of Defense League is not calling me if he calls me I could give it to him enjoy the Shabbos fabrangote Sunday night the next show will be Thursday morning I mean Shabbos I'll be here but the next year is going to be Thursday morning yeah Shabbos I'll be here but Sunday night I'm going to London so then there's there's no there's no men's class on Monday There's No women's class on Tuesday Thursday morning we'll learn a Port of Miami 7 45 milliona there a lot of that foreign you have to thank Hashem that he sent such a soul to the world we're all part of it of course it's an energy field the more the more you're a moon the more light you have blockages yeah blockages exactly you have the light of the sun you have the light of the Moon you could love yeah I had um foreign two weeks ago ships everything changed the whole perspective changed wow yeah