When You Become One, You Don't Scream Any Longer - Likkutei Torah Sukkos "Ushe'avtem Mayim" #3

the yeshiva dotnet so let's start pay to get movie he make older look the ball of Tonya the he make holes oh prettiness a shawl gabion is better with this line he summarizes the mind right till now everything we spoke till now is dealing with the fire on top of them is beta and here he makes a transition to the next stage the next phase in this discourse in this mind what is the summation when he says calls a--what's calls up cinoxate saga BAM is better so let's summarize the calls ax that the myma began that all year the predominant avoid in the base--emitter focused on car bonus car bonus meant the fire that burnt after of everything else a sprinkling of the blood but the fire that consumed the animals the Bulls the Rams the sheep and the goats that's all year circus there's a new avoid avoid of Nahum maíam every morning they're pouring water on the miss bail which of course the wholesome cos base a shaver revolves around that mitzvah because they would dance a whole night and then in the morning at dawn they would blow chauffer and go with a procession to the famous Shailaja spring to get the water to retrieve them to draw the water shaft to mind assassin and come back and pour the water on them is best the clarion would pour the water of them is back together with the wine that was poured every day together was necessary suka 7 it was mr. kottmeier schmidt neots RC says which is what he started with steel ahem everything becomes look up to understand all this he gave a hug Adama that now when there's no base on McNish and there's no physical car bonus and there's no physical miss Bayer so sort of colorful imp Sudheer a safe it's been after everybody has to have courage the rent with serenity and the vision to be able to find all the experiences of you described within their own soul they can't rely any more on the the action is happening the action is happening inside here that's where the action is happening right which is in itself a very important idea that the action is never happening there the action is always in the person himself I have to be able to find it in my nefesh in my heart and he says that's sure about everything to understand that everything exists in a person's heart so in every generation one has to be able to find the fire that burns up the car bonus one has to find the water that is poured in themselves and one has to find the Schmidty at Sarah's that brings it all together and he says b'chol dor vador that much smallest from this is that in every generation it could be a little different in other words what's the meaning of the fire in every generation you can't always compare it to another generation because we'll hide it what's behold there always he says the beholder kai of Lydia's been on seeing him cleanest Asian engine of the body in order to explain this he first deals with age till pay to get mo our fan base was a sh and then Kimmel is Mayan which is circus so alle fan base is really not to focus on circus it's the hog dumber what's the age so pay that out of dinner could there was that in every Jude is a fire that fire is not his own avoider that fire is an inborn gift it's called a sh sh Allah my Allah just like in the MS BAE and the base--emitter and a Shalom island in the image in the Vistage at the most of an area of a lawyer the Gemara says he knew mcauliffe revert Sakaki the fire was like a crouched Lionel APHIS licked so the same is true this h is called an aria as he explains k are you shocked after our my location until a hookah even ye shark and this age just needs to be revealed and actualized and that's now a void of filler connect it mid untick them to be able to get in touch with your own inner true the vine fire and passion that exists even though it could be plugged or repressed or concealed or blocked or relegated to the subconscious sellers of the human soul and sometimes sub-sub and sometimes sub sub sub and a little more so Duffman grew up and you got a dig but the H is there because the H is there therefore we call it an H Allah my Allah and that fire is the only fire that can burn up all the other fires in a person's life without that fire you can't expect the technical Judaism to compete with a passionate world it's impossible you can't define a Judaism only on what you're now allowed to do you now to do this you know how to do this you know let her do this you know little do this without giving people a passion an ash a fire because if I don't give people a passion all I tell them is the religion is not this not this not this so you can't so it's very very difficult to compete with all the passion that's out there it could be fake passion it could be superficial passion could be sometimes destructive passion but passion passionate us and this is the biggest passion and daily life is he says the stress to make a living because that's almost see visible it almost looks like good passion making a living is not a bad thing it's not an addiction it's a good thing it's it's you gear capacity so hold but the dagger of it the stress of it is how we give ourselves passion sometimes fascinating observation and people need passion and therefore the most of these available passions to be stressed about life if you stressed it looks like stress but I'm not on some psychological level it's also passionate the ikan is you busy with something you're overwhelmed you're overwhelmed passion overwhelms ash is very powerful it's intense so the Gemara says you know it before dominate because till diverting a person is not in the mental state where they're capable of eating the way we a person needs to eat which is always to be in a place above the food elevator food will be 4,000 Inc and myself unlike the food I myself need Analia before Davin II I'm still not in touch with my fire so therefore I'm myself in the cream of the food that's a shallow milah but before a shallow mild is a shalom at every morning the korean name had to ignite a fire and them is bae if they used to do what's called the maracas there were different groups of lumber wood that will you put on them as mayor and they had to make a fire they couldn't say you'll bring the carbon and the fire will come down that's not enough mitzva la vie min I had you'd says the Jamar and four-carat that was the first thing with him in the morning that was the Hana that was the preparation the a shell of my la camisa the Aish Allah my Allah comes down with is a nation LaMotta what type of H min I had yet what is this in ruinous physical physically we know what it is that to take wooden and make a fire it was a system how it worked we speak about the maracas and I buy you have a Mossad say that I'm are often wish mother Gemara Morocco ulama rocket on the whole selenium are different maracas groups of wood but they put on them as Beth in the position how you learned about the sukham impartial south what is that void here we're talking about that void the inside the person the ballot Anya explains this by explaining the posix my latest literary severe minute a campaign II write this to avoid us you mean attack obtain ears the experience of you mean which is Guillory yes said alva that embraces you it's when the psalmist is so when it suits us can feel the tremendous affection to the towards towards them the indispensable value in them which brings people closer which elevates people and they feel that they're in a grip in a fee book which a key book is not only an expression of love but it's such an expression of love where you can't leave your grip you're in my grip it sound like another expression of love you have kisses you have looking at somebody if Toki does I mean all the other places and all the other expressions the person can go in a key book a monocular he pour it in other words it's inseparable which spiritually what that means is that it's such a powerful love where nothing can change it nothing can alter nothing can destroy it that's that's the power of human into cupcake but the ballot on you says sometimes one can't even reach to that place and the reason they can't reach that place as we explain this I have to be able to receive it to have to be able to experience it I have to be able to feel that I have to be able to be open to it and very often there's too many things blocking it and it becomes a very tragic situation because the few book you see even physically sometimes you'll try to hug a person and they will not let you huh they will not let you it's it's too much 40 years I'm used to a different mahalo sweeter we just don't do this let's not let's not alter it I'm talking physically but of course emotionally it's even deeper than that and therefore you need to smile attack us literally what's fascist leader she my head I have to take the meters her smile which is me the sayyida which is the concept of small data have to be able to have the courage to open myself up to all the things that are distancing me from the divine all the things in my life whether it's thoughts words actions a way of thinking it's the paradigms that I'm comfortable with and I'm ready to push myself off my step I'm ready to really challenge myself which later he calls her Isha it's plowing up the land plowing the earth were you turning over the Gemara says my lap erm a March dr. Eggman chuckles of the air you till the earth we called you till the earth you're my hop of the character and that's the pin of Zuri Raya talkers Jews are associated with his doctor Jews gifts taka Jews gifts Cassatt that's I eat he says LaMotte oh so the milah they're called stuck Kalamata they're called stop there that's what qualifies deluding Temari Obama's by Shana Brockman on firmly facade it's an interesting word from the Banacek I once saw I think in a safer agreed the caller one of the smarter and my sort ones he says that the gomorrah says a massacres brothers that the beginning of schwinn esther you mentioned all the three others Ella care of raw meat secure command we know the knots in the souq human life with her Hashem says a ver Africa a godless man of a brother that goes our here miss his grandson Yahoo Yahoo Iseman but : Talmud Lloyd Marvin ever Hoover car back office at the end of the brother we don't say mugging Avraham mugging it's Hook mugging active why not is the shield of of Romney's the shield of its the end is only of wrong but Hawk Iseman the brace Oscar says half of the cavort that throughout galas the Jewish people operated on three different levels these Jews who were very into giving asset Jews who their thing was avoider a virus at Villa is it saw her bonus of kata and Yakov is tireless we have him and you could connect in different ways then comes a godless the brace us couldn't even know how right he was with mass assimilation you look at most Jews they can't even read a love base most Jews have 60 70 million Jews today can't read out of this we're sitting here among Jews who could read a love base but most of Christ so can't read a love base never mind read machine eyes never mind reader posted homers never mind reader a ration filler most jews donated Arvin even those who are officially not a davon don't know how 2000 as we know it's not so simple but Huff iseman Yitzhak and Yakov throughout godless assimilation affected it but the pin of of rummage the idea that Jews give that assimilation didn't affect sometimes they give for research of whales in New Zealand sometimes to save kangaroos sometimes to save Turtles and sometimes for some causes that are maybe not the most moral or normal causes but that's already the software this is how they're expressing it but the new kuda is it's one quality that assimilation didn't destroy but clark Iseman he said mugging of rom i'm gonna protect the middle of rom and this quality of the jewish people to give will never ever get lost even with tremendous tremendous assimilation when Toyota and Fela were lost by many Jews and even the Jews who have it it's a very interesting so he says he's not cold stalker but that stuck it needs to be planted what I planted I need to take it needs to take root in the earth and the only way could be planted a few if you plow there and he says the mid service or a whole year then stuck all year it needs to go into the tradition the kanesha that's how seriously makes your venom Kippur all the V do you move iam Kippur is the smile I Turkish Liras she the courage to be able to open yourself up to all the Texas is the all the venom all they read all their as it puts at the rear cook the distance that comes between you and your truth and your fire between you and your soul between you and our Shem we tune you and other people that's the idea that's why we ask the Mozilla before you clip it's the same thing you could be close to somebody but there's a there's a desire is hook so we can't hug each other because it's too much sitting in my chest or your chest to both of our chests and if I'm not ready to shake up the earth it's not gonna take root and therefore it also won't grow and he said you see practically the difference in two people who give it's darker one gifts Tucker because he has money but it's from a place of arrogance and he says that person you'll don't expect much and don't expect camaraderie because the whole you side is he just throws the bones and the other person who did the fish - that's of Rama V no one knows he offered a nicely off of a if it's a different type of stock is a ray its darkest then much smear he show us the Matt smear the yom kippur it starts growing and Ian sook assisted Smith and then one can experience the amino attack obtain E which is the Asian love milah so the Asia LaMotta these Mitzvah love him in a head it what's up man I had yet this I have to do what sayst I have to do I have to go into those places in my life that are peasant like why because if I don't acknowledge them if I don't look at them if I don't create room for them if I don't identify them which is painful who wants to go there who wants to go to the head yet who wants to go to the - the - that's that part that hoses the distance but if I'm not ready to go there and to look at it so then ultimately it becomes on the hits it becomes a partition it creates heart off or with nothing there can't be an easily the mitzvahs can't beam is added stuck it can't beam is that ultimately I can't even feel and experience the immunity obtaining so mitzvah love him and I had yet to mean he says before impact on him me millet they had the idea when a person has to be able to discover that which causes pain which creates an outcry creates of my readers it creates a deep frustration not softly bump this is fascinatingly what allows the tremendous Alva that exists in him because of the aja Allah my Allah to come down on the MS beta which is the heart the heart is called Elizabeth goes he says the real sirisha is the Daisy meet you I say summit Romanian kipping is still nevertheless mitzvah Lafayette it was every day so presuming that at some level in fre sure yeah daily yeah yeah it's not there and that's this we're gonna see in everything in other words when he speaks about maíam you're gonna see it's an avoider that relates to everyday but the concept is that every young Tov highlights a certain avoided that in the microcosm exists every day but the young TIF accentuates it that becomes the focus of it a marshal would be a couple celebrates an anniversary so it's the only day you celebrate your marriage 364 days a year we fight once a year we say Mazel Tov Mazel Tov it's nice knowing you of course if you're not celebrating 364 year Daisy and anniversaries lucky looks very good yeah I once heard from all of our children he said in America they have what's called the man of the year they announce every year at the end of the year to soon 2017 the man of the year she said the first Danish my mother sir is that a man is that a man Chazz that I mentioned fired them you're not them y'all who know English commence me is there's a fish commence if he's a human being so then he was a man before and after and if not this year is also not a man but I'll call partner so what idea the idea is that there's days that we highlight the relationship we focused is the day we're gonna focus on our anniversary I hold the air with stress but this you go out you spend time you talk whatever I mean I'm just giving a muscle that's the concept so now we go transition from H to my sister's Kohl's organizational goddamn is best and in that itself it was pay the Caliph empathic base pay the Caliph was a Sheila milah panic bays was the H kalamata which is the head yet tuning into the hatchet and that's also part of the void that's also part of the void now remember that part of that void that is not always an exciting part of operator but it's part of that void and that itself is a very comforting idea that to examine certain parts in yourself is awesome avoid that it's a Haley Calvera it's not right over there there's no kedusha that itself is kedusha people don't realize be able to confront stuff that i don't want to confront and doing Theresa it stuck you're not planting it's not good not harvesting it doesn't have the glory of Matt Smith Yeshua's but say its darkest which comes from her Isha is an avoider that's the Asia LaMotta for Kerry that's the thing that I contribute this is not a gift this is what I do because this is the human the human experience Josh clean our house with Dellavedova Anissa there's another dimension which is greater and higher who put in as maíam Shimon Arsenal gamba miss base but our customers and that's the water that they poured on the altar on surface what why is this mantra negative oh yeah and what's proven you just said that the Asia's there's an avid that burns in the heart of the Jew it roars like a lion it's passion and tomalak as a social person doesn't want to be separate what's deeper just to my in Marvin's in my Unabomber you say - you see that water is Marvin IRA means that quenches it quenches such tilts afar stilt that Samoyed the doors the thirst that comes from the element of fire just as it is partially biologically in a person's life aside her ash represents the warmth and the heat of the person it also represents that Samoyed the hydration of the body and the mayan quenches that simian so to speak just like physical Mayan extinguishes the h or cools it cools the fire so a person is thirsty and they drink water to quench that someone commercial cost of the Navi says new Shia how you hold some a little of my high is like whoa in in lotion condition let every thirsty human being go to water why is he bringing the pasta care kadar clay and Tomas you see this Muslim that the Mayan is what relaxes it steals it stills its suffice tilt it it cools the it calms the thirst the gamba thinness of my Vegas - comic Rinna's Chinese Allah my Allah Muslim what's the gap just like my age we spoke this a Silla myelination LaMotta Maya Moses not one type of Maya there's one level of mine and a deeper level of mine and a deeper Zula Milan is oh so this mime is gonna discuss that meant what Maya miss but he says in that itself he could do many things critic save an example of the highest level with the after de sola das Keawe combustion my marvellous Mitaka saying I'd move ah de moisture says you have shown us to know that our Shambhu Ella came her a seborrhea pushes the word is hair a so you showed us when somebody sees something reassures it's very visual it's very real show put in this bit the limits es la gomera penis area this represents a complete bit full complete oneness to the point that you could call it area it's like when the person sees in an experienced commercial customer makamaka as explained elsewhere oprah nazuna clear in his mind this is called water Shama carrier macabre sky mesh it cools and it extinguishes the heat of the fire why Kimi had her shovel put in this bit to limits Isla Gamliel of his burrow since this person is in a state of complete oneness with Hashem her name and Melo may love mascara claim a sativa Shabanov she'll the kids but some Englishman 11 automatically the fire and the passion of the natural fire and the divine soul and the thirst that is as intense as a glowing flame becomes extinguished and becomes cool down because the person is in a state of mine which he's calling here bitter limits is so you would think that cooling the fire is a historic you have a fire burning we're talking about a very powerful fire it's a fire of the H but now shall the kiss the divine flame but there's a deeper pin in an Asian that's denying what does my am do maíam relaxes my M cools the fire maíam extinguishes the flame there's no flame anymore you pour water and the water has a power to extinguish the flame that means there's a power and water that doesn't exist in fire despite the blazing clock and potency of fire which we also call all understand the power of mine is deeper than the power of H its coolness and its properties extinguish - so what is this an avoider that there's a pin in avoiders hashem that the extinct extinguishes the claim age it's my carry the flame my age and it doesn't exist any mother fire now look I do when you read this it's like this isn't this fire you just poke I got some ice to the fires they eat catch some of the cast I said he gives them motion this is a quite emotion coming the mushroom other subhanAllah take the love of a child to a father and we're talking here about the child and a father will have a deep and loving relationship consciously the muscle exists with every child and father but sometimes the ace is plugged it's not there sometimes children and parents is a lot before you get to the immunity cup cainy if they get to the smile attackers literally right but I'm just by bottoming this because you're gonna might ask I don't have this with my father it is that you may not with the marshallers MacArthur muscle when the initial is not continental in other words to B's I said about the devas mashaallah mazurka sauce to be able to understand them as solemn as I say I'm Indian there's no diminution of the marshal work Carmichael marshal Abbas have been alive she writes it is scary beloved I knew catastrophic when he wants to come close to his son will come close to his father but he's still concise erotic he's not very run if he's very very remote then it's a different thing but he's still somewhat far and he wants to get close what happens I say ha Ivan need his Venegas man I'll ever love us then the love is visible its conspicuous say spare tire it protrudes it's expressed from the heart outwards should say it whether you see it as right Abba ABBA Tata Tata father father he's still far and he wants to get close and the excitement and the enthusiasm it brings out that deep passion and the deep love so everything that's in the heart doesn't remain dormant that comes out and it comes out an exciting a scream which is basically the age burning it's a blaze of love that's the scream of a Baba my shaking show AIT's a love of Mama's but when there's notice look anymore when he's managed by his father when they actually meet what happens now he may now his words he may have laved the heart totally ruts of album his paraphrasing share the inside of the heart Rob's office from the word like you rich spot it styled its its floor totally the inside is lots of father completely covered with love I will aina need is vanilla Scotsman I live but it's not visible outside the Lacanian is maíam this is called maíam Shama Kyra prin sh-she Waits's gala LaHood scheme is that hizmet excellent that's the mind that extinguishes it cools of the syma age not the - is not there the H remains inside it doesn't come out because the relationship has now reached a much deeper place Jr port marshal when you greet them at the airport right let's say the father didn't see his son for two three years right or the other way around and you come to the airport and you see from far you see from far your child or your father so you screamed from excitement I'm talking a person who's not self-conscious you're so excited you run you screamed there's a passion there now you meet him and you give you minute a cup can you give a hug look later now you should act start screaming now is not now you're quiet you're Harvick Richard lists you don't see the hug needs on the hip turn kitchen screaming and hollering there's something off before yeah but now not y4 can't you met them now is the excitement this is your dream this is if you waited for a few years this is it but it's not like that so what is it so we usually don't articulate it but the writers if he starts screaming then there's something very off asmik Mitch at the emotes for carrot oh sorry oh so the mother is meeting her daughter or the mother is meeting her son or the mother the Whooper woman is meeting her best friend so before that this tremendous expression of passion after that when you're actually hugging yeah sometimes you cry but you don't then it's not a scream before that is discrete then it's sorry fine the cloud she's saying you should give a muscle of woman you want because the initial in the initial establish I've been alive but the muscle could be developmental saw a son loves a father that was the biggest south son loves a father it sometimes hard again this like he says this blockages okay them thank you for the clarification and it all goes back to Adam who didn't like himself right give me the baby screaming and then when they connected the zel Indian Phyllis - Velasquez Picasa and that's why in da Vernon we have the same concept you reach - era and in children are without losses Vanessa's bilasa shits quiet McCoy they should ask suka dissimilar that was asked often passion business Krishna Krishna is with a it's when a sir tomorrow says I've become a Marty in front of the mallet a lovely Mia time it should be nested that's the highlight of Dominic here is my extra Jerry screaming and even in Carlene in Stalin with a scream all Dominic they scream on top of their lungs but he was actually nice just quiet what happened what happens you forgot about me he says no keep it Sookie dissimilar when your circuit is emitter be forced - at the beginning of Davin in whom I did a Sava Kadesh pH now you arouse the love that's like a fire early a cider for masala so much damage that I come up and whenever there's a fire this combat fire can only live from destroying something if fire does not destroy it doesn't live it dies hashem elokenu a shy slow passion needs to burn up something ask the yield something has to give way so suka dissimilar you my to the age and that age burns up it burns up the thorns at up the weeds it burns up the issue that is our a comma in fact the ballot Anya says else rip Sookie the Ximena means not only song verses of songs Imre but also from the Russian the Gemara says we have a massage the Shabbos house a mezzo mare it some weed out you have to weed out the thorns of a tree so could the Ximena the verses that let you weed out the void of cicadas Umrah is to be able to find the fire which again includes two states the head yet mitzvah love him and I had yet and the a solemn isla and that's where the persecutors embryos excuse me cunning both both the Zimbra the passion comes from the Connie if I tell you kilo iodine it off it when I'm Ella if the person is so to speak as if though he's distance from the king he says kilo because in the name so he's not really distant but in the emotional experiences a distance mashenka Bert Velarde you kilo amid Linnea mela in philly actually hugging the been in the othe became are now one philosopher scriptures to muster what are you screaming the screaming here represents a distance so when there's a distance you're fighting you're competing with the other H now passion is appropriate this is Cole's passion the scream father father Alba Harbor where are you come that's that represents the truth of the moment when I'm with my father and he starts giving father father s dove us rest huh you whisper yeah you whisper or you don't say anything there's a melting away in it we experience the light experienced I note just to be together oneness right together speak for yourself yeah it's balagia haha sorry blacker professor cerca de semanas - I'll give a muscle to illustrate this the marshal was given by Siddim to explain this idea of the ballot Anja and it's a very interesting module and it really brings out the point there was a Jew who was very wealthy and one night for dinner he invited a poor man that is her stable the poor man was used to eating a few crumbs of bread a day with a cup of water he walks into the wealthy man's house and just looking at the table set beautifully with the cheers in the tablecloth and expensive cutlery and the exquisite dishes already triggered him with such as spoilers he's like wow wow wow unbelievable he sits down on the chair and he sinks in he's like this is amazing incredible and then the first course comes the soup comes and he can't believe his eyes ash right he's excited and every spoon that he puts into his mouth he doesn't stop singing the praises of the soup never mind when the chicken comes and the meat and the vegetables and all the other courses this man is in ecstasy in the kitchen you have the chef's they're talking to each other and they're watching to see the wealth that poor man doesn't stop extolling the virtues of the food the wealthy man comes in no his spineless he sits down he eats so one chef tells the other chef finally to somebody who appreciates what we do the table that we set up the cuisine the quality of the food the service finally one person appreciates it one person appreciates this is no no no no no you're making a mistake you're making a mistake the other way around he says what do you mean I'll prove it to you tomorrow let's see what happens tomorrow bar is a save my so the poor person comes but instead of serving a meal as they should serve they bring out a poor person's meal a couple of pieces of dark old stale bread with a Stickle kartoffel with a piece of potato that's half baked and that's what they bring the poor man looks at it and he's like ok you know back to the usual and he starts eating the wealthy man gets into a rage he starts hollering and screaming as she right he wants to fire everybody suddenly as I race from the calum he's so frustrated so the chef says what happened yesterday he was so calm today he's so upset what happened where's the passion coming from he serves explain it team he is much more connected to this food than the paupers it became so much a part of him that it doesn't evoke excitement anymore he takes it for granted just like when you're alive you're breathing you don't focus and get excited because you take it for granted it's part of you it's who you are the poor man for him the food is a hidden because it's a hidden he's busy Silas he's overwhelmed from the novelty from the newness the cry the stylist always comes because there's a gulf between you and the treasure and you like can't believe you're getting it are you gonna get it or it's coming close to you and it's taking you out of your Kalin because it's a new thing for you just for the wealthy man this is him he's one with it so he's quiet not because he's disconnected because he's completely connected where do you see the difference when you're taken away for the poor person you take it away no the wealthy man you can't take it away from him it's inseparable you now take away a piece of his heart new money yet once it from a BL con he said that there was an IVA in Russia you know stuff there was a yeshiva and there was a big hunger there in the early 20s and the boys mamas didn't have what to eat and one time somebody brought a sugar and they said catch girl a doc and they saw doc for dinner they brought it in so all of them you know what if you ever went out tell what it looks like after him so pacer when they bring out the pizza its I empty this there's also you seen under the smorgasbord of our long jumps they all jumped on the duct eat cook that day a supporter of ear who was a supporter of the issue that came to see and he comes in and he takes a look-see tells one of the must give him he says this is how been a tighter behave they jump on the dock when I mean there was a hungry sea he was very very unimpressed so this much gear tells the story this muscle and he says how do you eat he says very calm he says you eat so calm while du bist Akaka you are the dock for them the duck is a hiss it's a new thing they jump it it's like wow I can't believe I have it he says of course you believe you have it Dube is given in the coxster why should you be excited this is you I don't know how much money he gave afterwards but the voices I could to find upon one of the bottom who was older he was remove it yes severs tenders to understand now let's let's let's let's understand the voice what does this mean when a person is excited about something it demonstrates as a closeness if I don't care about it why am I excited when I'm screaming Abba ABBA whoever whatever I'm screaming there's a closeness he says rocket sauce so on one level you're very close but now take it one step deeper why am I getting so excited I'm getting so excited all excitement represents the fact that there's a fire that is burning something up that's alien all excitement is coming from the fact that I'm passionate about it because there's something in the way the standing in the way and the spiders the passion is an expression of crossing the gulf between where I am and where I want to be or where I could be a right should be or where I feel I your to be it's the resistance that I'm overcoming all at all of it that's what he says in thyroid imitates the comic in my margin we learned once that is a difference how the log burns and how straw burns and our oil burns when the log burns it's cordless of rock you make a bonfire you put on a longish the cults I'm good I sister calls and it burns with Kailah kylus you put in straw or twigs there's like a sizzle oil burns Baha'i silence so the ball tiny explains it slash cyan't with spiritual some with through spiritual science he says a log has an ego doesn't want to get burnt up you put me in fire I resist you see it's not easy to get along on fire it resists and when you get the log on fire it burns but Carla Carla's because there's tremendous resistance he says destroys more able it's not so brute it's not so crude it's not so not so dense so it submits with less kylus and he says oil chemin is bitl so with the yield that submits to the flame in silence because there's no resistance it's like it belongs there it's consumed in its own source in its natural source so now you have a Jew's relationship with another person your best friend your spouse your father your mother somebody very very close to you think about the person who's closest to you in your life but Tucker close to you emotionally close here the muscle is the child in the father but think about it in your own life and you haven't seen them in years and you miss them think about your own child perhaps and you miss them and you see them and you get very excited you get very emotional and you screaming what's - scream - scream is this spiders that comes from the fact that there's a distance and you want to overcome that distance and all the yearning is there and it's yearning to something you don't have now I met my child after a few years and I'm hugging him now screaming is your off must rise - why screaming now it's a moment of Tainan not a moment of somalian this see my another sight I know Simone is thirst time nagas - smack pleasure now it's time if this is my aim it's not ich not because there's no cat not because there's no Vegas because there's a much deeper to Vegas this is not a spineless this is called Vegas his spineless means your distant and you're affected Vegas means you're completely won and because you're completely won there's no screaming and there's no expression of the excitement not because it's not there because there's no golf because you're completely there you melt away in it there's no distance and therefore there's no ego there's no I the poor man he's so alien to this world it's like wow wow wow wow because he's distant from this world he's never won with it the career is so quiet about it because it's completely integrated I am one with it there's no distance anymore in other words there's no I in you that are trying to come together the log has an eye and the fire is a you and they're fighting and the fighting creates this spineless what this means is it's a very subtle observation his spineless represents so much closeness and yet it represents how much distance that's why ah there's the distance which I'm overcoming through the passion it's the H so in Davin and you have these two states and cyka dissimilar is the pin of H and the H is burning and that's powerful I'm the yearning I'm trying to overcome I want to get there I'm searching I'm screaming Alba Abba Father father then there's the pin of shman astra know a spider's now it's de vegas what's the vegas vegas is the title you just melt away because no uni anymore so why are you screaming the screaming represents that I want to get to you in other words the eye is far from you somewhat far from you but here the iron you are enmeshed in when we just melt away in this ecstasy in this time look so therefore there's no real and that's why there's no screaming there's not psychic that's the maíam that cools off the hi my ish it's MacArthur hi mesh not so much about conference I don't know why what do you mean by a lack of confidence okay that could be - that could be 200 there were the words have dictum throughout the generations different types of Davenant those who Darvin with tremendous spineless tremendous screaming a tremendous passion they throw up their hands and sway their bodies and jump and dance literally the conviction - rien they they they scream they hollered there were others that by diving if you looked you almost saw nothing if you didn't have the right eyes you even think the person is cold and detached they're like careless there's no true or nothing the mummer's not to know so sometimes a person is so quiet because they attack are not they're just they're not excited and out there but sometimes you have to have a push sometimes it's deeper they're much more there and because they're much more there is kitchen minute you have especially in the sedition world people think sometimes that a relationship with God is about screaming and the more you scream the more the relationship it's really the other way around now I'm not we're not even talking about a type of screaming that he's not addressing it's not a loss also malacca sometimes people scream by daven in cuz they nothing daddy's not even addressing because that's that's like a never situation your mama she feel nothing but it's nila it's called me Dre it's Rosh Hashana and you feel nothing if you would be honest with yourself and with God you would say that but to say to yourself that it's nil and I feel nothing not only nothing worse than I feel a partial to mitzvot right it's pretty ugly so what do you do to overcome that you scream like a meshuggener but you could see the whole psyche but that that's not also come along that stop there you also resisted you tried to resist the truth the truth about yourself you also resisted you tried to scream at yourself stop telling me who you are stop telling me you don't feel I'm gonna make you feel are you the ones came in to show he was screaming davin even so fusses went over to me says what's nice does the proof myth good before you scream so I hear this so sometimes people screaming they start banging and banging and banging and the more they scream the less they're feeling your typhus what I'm saying they're fighting their apathy in a way that strengthens their apathy sometimes sometimes Ko'olau you Sameach by sana yeah when was your summer yeah what do they say what do they tell lawyers they say when emotions are on your side if you're defending a person and emotionally you can get to the jury because you know it's a sensitive thing and you could show this person is innocent or guilty whatever then scream emotions when the law is on your side pound the law just pound the law even if it's cruel but you pound the law if not the law is on your side then not emotions aren't your side then pound the table and that's what lawyers do they start I'm not gonna allow this evil in the 21st century in America egg boy Gustav right versus archaic lightness but the screaming is dramatic the jury says yeah yeah morkul morkul model you pound the table why do you pound the table because you got nothing to say vivica coming but knock us - ma'am it's part of the seaside not the reason of course not an obsessional when you don't have an argument you yell when the people start calling you on a peak itis when usually when they have no answer you ask me a question I have no answer what do I say I precursors I take out that card you always manage to bring pay the Caliph amazes probably it's a coalition the whole moment allows about crying and psycho I'm just saying this article that's important to say in our generation that sometimes this screaming has become at a la Salsa melaka it's also resistance but it's that book the person is in a web of horrible Shakur and the louder they scream the worst might sorry I'm kipper by the way the louder you scream the worst is the results afterwards pierre duhem a foursome but here we're talking even a much more sophisticated beginner this is that psycho that's right there's a real MS here I'm screaming I'm yearning I'm searching I'm talking here about that's right I spoke about tsadikim people I don't only mean sub dictum I mean people who in a very honest place they their governing was all screaming a lot of it and what was it it's a spineless and you look at it and it's genuine it's genuine and it's very very very it's very powerful and it makes a deep impression but really there's something much deeper when there's real oneness when there's real Vegas you don't see anything yes it's quiet you know why there's no you to scream do you melt it away you're not there for sure I stir the screaming shows how much the ego is still present it's beautiful because you're trying to you're trying to overcome the log you trying to you tried to get to the Father it's caval dick but realize the distance in Vegas that's mine just know it's it's cold it's cold there's no flame there's no blaze it looks like everything is extinguished why not because there's no fire because it's beyond fire because it's completely one cuz you already burnt up you already consumed I'm already part of it we're together we're one so the fire can't exist anymore fire needs to burn something up there's nothing to burn up that's why he calls it bit album at Seijas bit the limit easiest means there's no ego that's separate anymore I'm already consumed if I'm consumed the fire can't exist what is it mine after a solid ass when there was her a saw annoyed move on day was a stain I'd move are they ended Nevada means they weren't excited about God being excited about God means that you're distant from God the hest so you now know now understand here you'll speak to people who know a little bit about Jewish spirituality or sinners they'll say what's the Cygnus to get excited about her shell the Baba Tanya says yeah but that's a sh to be excited about God means I'm still far I'm not excited and in mine I'm not excited about it I'm not excited I'm just one in that hug in that embrace I don't even feel myself when I don't feel myself I can't be excited excitement means I feel myself and I'm trying to overcome that I remember I went with my wife to the Grand Canyon once in Arizona I read before about it I read to see and I saw pictures in this so I thought I knew what I'm gonna see and then I remember I came there so we parked and you go there and I took a look and I remember it for 30 seconds I like lost my my breath I like I lost my standing I was like it it startled me it overwhelmed me I couldn't get that so you can't get that that that division from the pictures Mark Twain said when God created the Grand Canyon he did not create the adjectives with which to describe it so and then when I came back to myself so to speak I realized this you can't prepare for because this is something where you get too lost in the process so you're not excited you're not screaming you're not housing you know like wow this is amazing this is beautiful today it's not shy anymore because people have to come to take pictures they're not experiencing it right you're busy taking the picture so you could tell somebody else you were there but this is not this it's not about your experience of it if you could talk about your experience you're not experiencing it you experiencing yourself when you're experiencing God you're not experiencing God you're experiencing your emotions about God when you experience the divine there's no experience and when there's no experience what does it look like it looks like maíam that was poured on the fire and there's no fire anymore not because there's no fire because you went to a place that's much deeper than fire you want that place of mine well what's their tonic ty nuk that's the minitek up KD so when he said before that from Yom Kippur you come to suka stats myths of the avid aah alarm imma sue kisses deeper than the Echelon ila sue kisses mr. Kamali most didn't succumb and Anissa Kamiya miss the ability to melt away in avvakum I am in the time Naga bellicose without any resistance without a why without it overcoming anything without the wine water yeah yeah which is of course also in wine and water wine is an intoxicating beverage it's something outside of you that makes you leba dick water you don't get drunk on water the Sims has based a shaver the dancing you're asking was not resistance there's two types of dancing there's a dancing we trying to resist but then there's a dancing where ah you let go you're just celebrating a relationship it's a different type of dancing just like in Davin Inc there's two types of critique there's a dancing where it's like I'm gonna make myself happy and then there's way like certain like those who surf the ocean or surfer once told me he says the push is you never fight the waves no you go you're part of the ocean you're in the ocean you don't even feel yourself distinct that goes up it goes down you never come back the waves aged is a combat ace always is compact if it's confrontational make me a fire and I'll show you confrontation something has to get burned up something is being confronted I tremble the cat saw a shuttle my aim doesn't confront well then hallelu Bamako the dance yeah so there's two types of them they're dancing that's all so I'm overcoming resistance but then there's a dance where you just ah you're the person yeah and and and in the core the real dancing is when there's no self-consciousness you'll see when people are self-conscious they can't dance it's a force dance right and they're always looking around to really dance you have to lose your self consciousness that's what real dancing is and that's what real success it's time them when you're not self-conscious when you don't feel the self you could really dance you just let go you let to go it's not an easy thing you mean back to your daughter's wedding Avada nicely off of april is still the Hogg dumber it's the haka dominance that says symmetry would seem kipper that's even before the a solemn island so we have three dimensions you have a noisy F of a four is the Asia LaMotta you have h of a minor which is a whole year now remember his spy this is not a small thing a whole year that was the void in the vase I make this mother Shree and Abba ABBA you come to the third male gymnastics lovato sign novato's I'm male you do it's just the sensitive the subtlety of it the subtlety of it chuckling oh so all the juggling by simplest base si but there was no self-consciousness there shimmering I'm will imagine today yeah I'm not gonna say names but if Sherman Gamliel was considered they they're both the generation and what was he doing for simple favor he was juggling eight tortures today who juggles the kids who was thrown out of Shiva the kids were at sixteen was thrown arias even instead of Bharatha instead of going there borrow her shrimp they went into juggling school tougher time Ella but this mannish ASSA wasn't like that the Gemara says in suka who juggled small Abhaya LaVey yep Simon Bingham lil Deb's air smallbury beatstock with Drago had arson by their by the hassanis these were mom is like a doily Adar the top brush is Shiva's the top rebus they would stand and juggle today what would it look like all the websites would wouldn't make fun very good defense tower mama they're weak very good none I understand they passed us to had to practice yeah after this year before this year but that you're dealing with mommy's would literally the daily had are not to preserve of Sherman I'm Leo was in this Nazi of the Nazi of the Sanada or I'm a program mom says I made them cut my cherub a no he's juggling my since mr. shaver was juggles to smash a Missouri glance in the Dogon and mask in a sari and hold on the does so as you understand that sometimes we live a little bit of a different Judaism it's very very self-conscious are a lot of our generation which has nothing to do with Judy it doesn't gonna do with the first prima the first pin is not self-conscious the first patina is it's a self-consciousness that's very it's very subtle I'm screaming father for them in a very deep relationship but the relationship is not so profound that he could say that there's no explosion there's an explosion and I am there's no explosion is just there's just complete intimacy I'll tell you two moments that just might be personally they speak to him but every person in their own life can I saw the Lubavitch to that but davon for many many years from when I was a little child and he would not move during governing not Shabbos not youngters not a weakness not recession and not emk / not calmly drain Oppenheimer will not move and so when I was younger I always saw it so a Heath once told me they eat the hush of Akasha reheat who grew up in a different community and he told me he came once where she shot at 277 and he walked in he walked in from a different neighborhood and he started to look at the Reverend they never was standing understand they're not moving and he said that transformed his life because he was used to me Shrike Thomas blink to make fetched me Christians and it was fascinating to see him could be him kipper by the illa people by nila even people who don't have in a whole year right they scream you'd get more everybody miss right and it's not a fake thing it's sometimes again I'm not talking Everett it's where the person is and it's very genuine and it was fascinating to see would remain the same place almost not even sway almost not shake in the same place for hours and hours and there's literally no movement so you once told the story that the Alta Deborah the ballot Anya when he dove into was with a lot of the motion the Mittler ever now the middle it ever wouldn't would it move he said the Irish triangle that was spit Sakura pointed streamer and once the garbage showed somebody in the middle of governing father father's vapor vapor came out spits of the Strymon from the point of this time of the vapor came out by the middle it ever the son of the ballot Anya that's how deep it was but you have to have a Fisher honest because you could look at somebody not moving and say okay they're not interested they're cold maíam could look old and really it's much hotter than fire what looks cold is often much hotter than fire in the real real emotional intimacy there's no sounds in real emotional intimacy there's no resistance in real emotional intimacy are not overcoming anything so in real emotional intimacy there's no outcry of an explosion of emotion because he already melted away if I cared if you would start screaming and hollering and singing and pounding it would only degrade it would degrade one's one spirituality it's it doesn't work it's like it's the wrong it's the wrong moment it's like bringing in a photographer into a moment of intimacy it's a moment of intimacy not about the picture once see so with one so I wanted to say so I was one by the end of nila and it was sharpness in Kippur with sharpest and so you say veena Malkina once right by the end of nila and after veena malik angle there is this my shawl I borrow shame and I shampoo all the Kim I was a child and they never was standing by his place and he wasn't moving oh he kept he would stand or sit and literally you know say everything and look he would say tell them I walk by the pyramid say to him or he had the cojones of their easel over there but not you saw no his stylist and so they so they were signaling him okay no doubt there isn't a can hide and we sang it and they finished a veena malik i know and they saw that there ever was still saying of in the volcano or domine so the husband was waiting to say SH my snow because it looked like the finish the venom on Canada so it became quiet and sure became quiet and sure and suddenly I was close I heard I heard tremendous sobbing tremendous sobbing I took a look at ever was under his Tallis he wasn't moving but he was sobbing under his Tallis and it was like extraordinarily insightful for me and emotional because of the outside where there was noise equal to see anything it looked like just the person standing and darvany but suddenly there was such an over there was actually an explosion of emotion that will start to start the link to me and then I realized a person could stand in one place very very quiet literally not move even a part of their body and sometimes it's not that there's no emotion it's so deep that no one can see it no one no one could no one can experience it one moment the second moment I wanted to describe to you was a lot of guests would come for Tishrei a lot of guests and then they would leave after Tishrei so the lobachev would come out of shul to escort them so when the bus came to take the people to the airport from there to show their other places this is the early years so you would come out and they would sing a and he would watch all the RM go off go to the airport the five minutes ten minutes twenty minutes was I could say so much someone gives acnes agonism so the repple was standing in front outside and he would look at everybody and you know wave or make make with this you know we've given encouragement with his hand there was one key to make too strong it was very close to there ever he was about sugar about sugar he drove a tractor he was a very interesting person a very emotional man and he was a very big costume that he was very close to the Bombers remember and it was very hard for him to leave emotionally like when you're leaving from somebody very close to you so he was standing there on the Parkway East and Parkway and there ever was on the top in front of sure that I would look at all the guests that they were going onto the bus and everyone seemed to Nick in the more Ville was they would say they would go and it could are somewhat that and they would go off and there ever was looking around and at some point their eyes got fixed on each other the eyes of this ha stood in the eyes of their ever you know the Bob who never had eyes penetrating us they got fixed at each other it was far away he was by the shore and he was by the street calling onto the bus but they got fixed and they were looking at each other and this man the hustler was leaving they saw was cried he was weeping there ever was just looking at him but with a complete gaze unwavering to eyes were fixed on his eyes and the rabbit did not move he was just looking and did not say a word did not express any emotion but you could it would be hard in life to be able to see a deeper Lakers between people a deeper to Vegas because any words or even expression would only diminish and compromise the power of the moment who was just a gaze it couldn't be captured in words but you saw the pinna of an affliction of an option what it means that a never his whole essence he gives over to huset the Nashik should have announced it was nothing else the entire and semi nefesh was like a fixed on to this person and this person was fixed on to this person eyes to eyes it wasn't screaming the closet was crying it wasn't screaming it's a moment of the Vegas Vegas means you don't fail yourself there's no ego if you don't feel yourself there's nobody to scream you just enjoy the experience without even experiencing the joy in a self-conscious way this was just a very powerful powerful illustration of this type of oneness we're not used to it in our vocabulary either Judaism is dead or if it's alive there's a lot of ruckus there's a lot of ruckus a lot of commotion but the ultimate experience is my am NOT ich this doesn't diminish ashes ashes age you can't compete with age but my name is much deeper so what does this mean in a fire come circus the souk is the hog when you're being hugged you don't scream you just melt away in the hug you just melt away so that's the void of circuses mr. Carmyle that's the connection of the sukkah and the salmon so there was also a fire on so because he's to be marking the components on circus also they had the 70 bowls besides the regular kimonos but the uniqueness of circuses after he explained a shallow mater after explained a shallow milah after explained him kipper he says you come to su cos what Circus Circus they poured water on them as man this explains why me Saguaro Sinha's mayushii Ava where are some Kamiyama what's the big deal how do you make a statement if you weren't my son Chris Mason shaver you were never happy come on what are the cause I'll trying to say and what are we supposed to feel like why would they tell this to anybody it's like people will say you worried that last night's hasta no you'll never be at a Hasson again what was it we want to be min hazard Eden they say mutually robbed minion horde this later opinion on me llamo ok Misha Larry ah synthesis mr. shaver later awesome coming um of what's the point and what does it even mean what if you dancing at your Charles wedding your Pacifica will it awesome I see you were my sister's business if we're supposed to say what's that one but now we can understand it first of all we understand what's the sink of this ahem I must dance manag answer knock mr. come on mr. Schine you don't dance this is how I am you dance because mr. hyeyeon there's still de pinna of ash and whenever this depend of aged is missing in the sim here it's more that cycads the yearning of the longing in mr. ham I am with his complete oneness this is where the simpler the ultimate joy came up ultimate joy is when there's complete oneness Micheletto senses mr. Sabel there are some Kamiyama means the hazael are saying don't underestimate what real simple don't excuse me don't reduce real simcha to pseudo similar to fake some not to fix them to more superficial sir Michailidis and christmas a shave if you're not typhus if you're not tough is the hidden opinion of some christmas as ever well awesome Kamiyama in a person's life in a person's life it's hard for them to experience what this type of simple is it's the simply not of his spineless it's the simpler of of the vagus not the simple of ish the simcha of Maya so seven days of suckers this was this special avoid illness online everybody this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot a yeshiva net / donate