When You Are Full with Yourself, There's No Hope - Torah Or Lo Tiye Meshakela #2

the yeshiva dotnet so what was the point we learnt yesterday which I don't see pessimistic at as pessimistic at all on the contrary I see it as very real very real that there's two types of inspiration and I've either Sasha one is delusional but when we say delusional it doesn't mean like we say delusional the guy is you know just out of it delusional or sometimes big and that's really I think what's up what we should appreciate about this that we're used to delusional inspiration you know you feel good for 20 minutes half an hour an hour some good song some you know good kiddush afterwards it's like why not and sometimes people think that that's the essence of you disguise and without the rebus teaching us here it's called the meanness shove a person you know you find a way of feeling good about God that's basically the inspiration that is very common and it's it's not I'm you gonna use the word he doesn't use it it's manipulative manipulative means you you you you know you're trying to fix your own system yeah this is a real relationship with ain't safe is a real relationship with ain't so if it's it's both ways a relationship doesn't mean that I have a crush on you and you don't know about it that's a crush that's not a relationship right we all know the difference a relationship means that we're both we're both invested fully your heart is there and my heart is there that's what a relationship is relationship is there's a two-way street here I've even deeper ahead and had the collision I should say a hard and hard collision not just a two-way street you know I'm going there you're going there so just reciprocals it's there's a meaning of the souls a meeting of the souls and essentially but you're dealing here with infinity and not dealing it with a person who I give you you give me you need my company I need your company she says that's why it's a gift that Hashem the mahkum shatta might say you do loss search about the mites and versa no say huh god--all but to me like a of Ramallah K it's Huckle okay Yaakov that it's a gift it's a gift I want to be yours I want to be connected with you that's what allows any real emotion that's not just flimsy can insa can Hoyo and he said in the beginning of that is the person understanding you can have an emotion it's mushy Kayla shakeela means yeah there's pregnancy there's a development of a child emotions are always called children Ben or bas there's masculine emotions it's feminine emotions there's a son there's a daughter but his children emotions are associated with children hakama is called the father Venus called the mother women many times customers called ABBA Venus called EEMA das is the intimacy for Adam you discover but then there are the emotions emotions are the children but Kozma Shalom is shockingly see a Misha Kyle is that there is the the the motion dies in utero or shortly after in other words it doesn't last a car is that the cloud is no development there's no there's no fertility through two states so the personís it's Bart Seco Bart cerca means I think I own it because I don't realize that the truth of the relationship the truth of the relationship is that all of us are Shabbo leadership is what Hashem gives me that's what it is that's that's that's what that's the realness of it that's what makes it that God her son chooses he wants he here is a piece of me here is a piece of a versus sham here's a piece of your assertion he says ahem eh I'd printed Sakura there's another form of akhada the who King in its 157 the second paragraph on top it says mesh bottom I in test column one a him eh a pronoun Sakura hooking in Miami Rizal al PASOK a love lad a phyllo base Vlad in law the Gemara mercifully of all my stuff sam mcdowell and gomorrah says on the PASOK that says in parshas niya about Sarah about Leclerc about sorry Bertie he sorry Acorah in love lad sorrow was a record she had no child so the camera asks its redundant Anna Cora means a barren woman on occur is a barren man a Cora is a barren woman obviously if she's Anna Coren she's infertile a in love logic doesn't of a child so the Gemara answers I feel obeys Vlad a law it's very different sometimes the physical mechanisms are there it's just a trial doesn't happen there's no conception and an embryo doesn't develop from the from the connection between the seed of life and the egg that's that's that's one challenge in fact sometimes as we know the years can pass everything seems normal from a medical perspective the potential is there just didn't happen a special blessing to have a child tomorrow says that's a quorum aim of loud means fill the base of law then law the home the base of want the uterus the home to be able to absorb the embryo to be able to develop the fetus a much doesn't have that's a different type of ikana mothers she says that's all you have before the concept of an acronym there's no birth in other words the pregnancy and the birth don't happen sometimes Lisa's Bay's Vlad a law even the Kaley Ferra doesn't exist we show how you come to mean Peter she should miss them call Carla clickable lockable hi Ryan yeah if I'm a semi-solid yeah the expressionist Tumtum the word term Toma means plug this stuff it's the system is plugged there's no clay cable there's no receptacle there's no vessel that's a receptacle to be able to receive here Owen which is impregnation pregnancy sauna in were in a base of LA Danelaw you mean come to Moscow from Kenzi I'll dead exam is bottom gum can presume a person you can also have this dimension la vie de Sasha Shan a typhus beneathaverse Eclair Emma's kasha who mas mas unlikely max a person sometimes you have a muchacha Lana Carter he said before this pregnancy but my shakila is the stillborn etc spiritually we explained what that is sometimes you have the UNIVAC otter then it doesn't develop to that point sometimes there's no Kalish ain't a toy his emotional vesicular her and miss cuttle he can't grasp in his mind truth as is mr. Ehnle climax because you always need a Kaley a vessel to be able to hold on to kickin ass assists on the crazy shoes kanessa Cicero meaning the Assembly of the Jewish people are called case Yeshua Scotia shoe is s of mushy mushy amakura the whole class is his soul is called a cozy shoes what strat case choice is a copper goblins show clay cable the Kabbalah Hassan de mañana it's a case for yushua it's a case of yeshua what do we mean can I see a snow there's a clay cable it's a receptacle it's an open Cayley to receive a sudden value item to be able to absorb divine love that Knesset sister the Nicarico Abraha in the expression of Hazael this is called closed Sbrocco kosher brock and a locker of course means the Kois that we use for bracha for breakfast a Muslim when there's 10 people or even according to some opinions 3 people and even according to some opinions one person well luck that's usually not them with one person but it's a Christian brother meaning it's a cause for professor Massa and everybody knows that coastal broker has a lot a lot of our lockers tomorrow says asserted varam memorable costa brava 10 things were said by Costa Brava some of them he's gonna discuss stiffer Toffler you rinse it out inside then rinse it out outside and you have to pick it up whatever it's a whole process 10 things have said by Costa Brava the cop that they give you for bench ink over a cup of wine after the meal so that's the love it a lot of it he says that the kuda really of costa brava scotia represents kanessa cicero greg visual is a Kois a clay cable to receive divine love and it's called Kersh abraha worship my cabela's ein AMISOM air it receives wine that's what kosher Brock does he put in wine yayan is called the IANA Mesa Mayor Anthony Ryan Miss America latina inertia wine that brings joy so it's macabre ionomer cement the high no penises banana so now what is this cup this is Baroness the the meditation the contemplation discussed before in the first the first panic in the first section valve vada Thomas have I allocation that have I should become lakh M should be mine that infinity is mine that it's real what do you mean it's mind not mine that I own it that it becomes limited mind that it's it's real like something that that I put in my pocket something that I see it's real to me then Who am I I am a shtick avaya and with that to be able to happen you must have a gift it's it's I can open myself up but I have to open myself up I have to have a kailia case and that case is a case that's receptacle to wine that brings joy yeah and I'm a Sameach because there's no joy like the joy of being filled up with the divine reality with divine infinity that's Cobra but Veronica show clay rakin there's one condition and culture bracha the Gemara doesn't even have to say it it's before the ten things it has to be empty if the cup is filled to the top right with orange juice or with Pepsi would be a more appropriate muscle then it's not a question it's not a case that you could put in the ayat so hanoks you clay rake and it has to be an empty vessel what is this spiritual my shaking in mark Sigma come watch my when the person fills up the space with himself meaning with his ego the next of AB smiley ashwatthama be from the apps' my then instead of being on open carp he becomes in his own consideration oh yeah shred of Epiphany absolutely something that separates something that's completely detached it's a yes yes means it's an egotistical being that's separate from the source from everything from it the true infinity the Lehane who I said but it's a nice of and therefore is entire a queue patient is only and what what his own desires our desires that come from his separateness Lima say car Connie writes this I want cocktail II this is good for me zany or Colossus this I can't do the coyote Patwardhan any of these types of words the edge was a pro team apparati proton are they in whisper this concept you can relate and elaborate on details and details of details odd infinitum to know number how much a person couldn't become detached and separate and therefore all they're doing is trying to protect themselves this I can do this I can't this I can't this I could he said he just gives three Michelle him and he says brought to my brother brother Matt Damon academic Lao so there's the details of it but generally yes patinas all the co lecithin limbs had been option every person could find this in their own salt hain't no ice cream am I so Martha those who consider themselves businessmen meaning they're involved all day in the pursuits of making a living haenyeo shreya Holloman but they shouldn't think that this is exclusive to people who are outside and the world it's true about the Irish we all I'm equally as well that means people who sit in a tense listen and learn the holdovers sure I'm air I need holy in everything there's only one thing he has to say I that's the only that's the only thing he has to say in every conversation there's one who could I mean it can express itself in a thousand ways this one is in my son Matt and this was a little learning but then a CUDA that the software is different but the hard drive yeah is the same maybe even the hard drive is different but the chip is the same but Maximas an attempt a minister my friends what happens is his mind his brain is plugged it's it's it's sealed it's not on them it's called Tim Tamar Maya what I don't know much nothing goes in why there's nothing go in because it's not a clay rakin the vessel is not empty why is the vessel not empty because I'm in a mode of separateness so therefore all I have is my own defense mechanisms called the ego and that's what my Kaylie is filled up with some Eila I can't even open up a Kayleigh to have a child to have a child was talking spiritually there has to be a womb the definition of the womb is a womb creates a Kayleigh every single month the miracle of biology is that our sham created is that the organism the female organism creates a Kayleigh the question is if the Kayleigh is gonna be filled or the Kaylee's not gonna be filmed if the Kayleigh is filled it's called pregnancy the Kayleigh is not filled so at some point the uterus dissolves pushes biologically and that's what creates the Dom Neda the blood of the monthly cycle because the Kaley dissolved it broke and it creates a lot of Domino blood which were going to discuss later but to be to be that's before that so sometimes the Gemara sees a Carter anal abase Vlad it's not that the child didn't come in there was no conception there was no embryo even the K Leifer it doesn't exist but says the Kaley for it doesn't exist it's not that I'm waiting nobody showed up God didn't show up that's something else that's something else because God is present God is present you create a Kaley yeah he wants a relation we always wants a relationship the question is in what level how much is being expressed how much is being manifested but even what a base of log means that I don't have an openness to it I don't have an openness to experience say saying in no simple sentence to experience life as oneness with infinity why because I'm stuck my Kaylie is filled up what is it filled up it's filled up with what he calls here he's busy saying this I want this is good for me this I can do and the bottom line is and everything I just have to say me are you and this doesn't have to you shouldn't think a person sits and learns all day so how can he be shy as to such a thing he's sitting and learning holy thing he says if he'll look in his soul I'll find it in other words he may be doing great things and and wonderful things of somebody maybe in a different field says that's not Nagaya this prot I'm a pro to prote and how it's manifested is endless but if a person looks in their so they often see that there was an essential blockage that comes from the fact that I don't know how to really open open up so that me is the only thing I have it's my last 'if it's my last defense what what do you want you want me to empty out the Kaylee what is it gonna be left with or to put it in different words if you want to be able to create an empty vessel takes a lot of guts because it's gonna be empty and what if it not what if nobody fills it up nobody fills it up and gets bloody pun intended emotionally I'm talking about that's not an easy experience at least if I fill it up good but it's this is my security why does a person always say I need I always say me because that's that's my survival you have it in an extreme it's called narts narcissism that's in an extreme of it but what is that really it's really I can't trust anybody in this world so everything has to be a mirror I just always have to find myself in it so that's in an extreme manifestation but then I couldn't without her ever hear is that it's expressed in so many different ways by so many different people in so many different situations what does this do my brain is plucked there's no crystal broccoli I can't receive the eye enema Samara Mohini are aitsl Asus Clay Aiken know what states know the motions have what are you doing somebody comes into the office and the Caylee is still the top you can't even say anything what's good month huh you learn to smile with them have to Taylor Irish and Salem Berlin and a minor even if the therapy doesn't help the valley mental illnesses Mahima aitsl asses clay daikon what's the AIDS earth to form an empty vessel commercial COSO of this deposit says in tehilim wavenumber Vinita Kelly Kim Lisa visa which means a heart that is niche bar that is fragmented is God does not disgrace and another pasta cos in your Shia Hanavi s Dhaka Ashkenaz Dhaka Oh Shiva Rua I dwell in the humble one in the dark oh and the one that's crushed what does this mean so when people read this pasta cuz I claimed niche but you have to break your heart whatwhat doesn't mean break your heart what does it mean he says who commercial it's not a breaking it give us a very simple muscle but the muscle changes everything it's umana asically if you ever watched a craftsman constructing a vessel a pottery ever saw a powder anybody ever saw powder huh yeah what does he do I said sir you are cohesive apart ish service service action NASA homo beside him he takes a hammer and he claps he claps around and around until he creates a cavity a hollow as a cavity an empty space if he wants a deeper Kayle obviously as the pound much more and strong in a longer time that depends on the nature of the vessel but that's what the woman does the car yeoja Adam the same is true a person has to become that craftsman yet care via sure Leah Shmuel shuara shall a youth voice mock and Clow these are heavy words what's the eight sir for this person she's like it's for his maqam Clow the space has to become empty he should not occupy the space Shiamak oh my poor Eva hallo there has to be a space that is completely empty kilo I envy of his mama as though it's mamas north and nothingness and that moment when you think you have nothing that's the moment you open yourself up to everything an easy momentous because this hammer when you're looking at it superficially whatever there was I'm knocking out what are we creating nothingness a cavity an empty space you're not feeling it God is gonna have to fill it you can't fill it even if you want you can't fill it that's why children is a blessing or everything in biology is a miracle but with children you see it sometimes is a couple and everything is working lasari damn it's not working because that's the new CUDA there's the filling it but we're not talking now with them at the base of LA the clay ray come the clay rakin the emptiness is a feeling of I invest mama stirs like an openness on emptiness that his mom welcomed is ponder evil soul kilo IMF is mama and that takes a hammer and it can happen in two ways it can happen in two ways the Bala Tanya had a son dammit Loretta so he said this mind met with more elaboration as I usually do she explains it happens in to us one is it can happen through his bone earnest meaning through self initiation and one is through life circumstances so the second one everybody understands the finishes that it can happen also the first way wife circumstances means that certain people experience certain things in life and they just can't be in denial anymore sometimes it happens later in life you know we each build up for ourselves I'd say all of us but many of us we build for ourselves certain what they call in English today comfort zones which we live in you know your life is manageable it's looking about a functionals more or less successful person you know it's like the palace you live in the fish do it to welcome their mates you know the catfish or the other fish we build other birds do it you know they ever see birds clean up the nest off and we also do it we're tiny yeah we have bigger nest especially in Muncie and you're tied to you clean you clean up your matter more or less life is under control so that's a good thing that people's life should be organized and under control but what often happens is it also gives you room for tremendous stagnation for paralysis for a certain form of of deadness this is who I am and this is it and nothing can pierce it and then sometimes there comes a situation where life circumstances shake up people and they shake up people to the core it can happen as a result of a breakdown in a marriage it can happen as a result of a challenge with children child or with children different types of challenges psychological emotional physical spiritual it can happen as a result of other circumstances in life health issues financial issues midlife crises or other things and then this this structure that I built there's holes everywhere the ceiling is caving in the walls are caving in yeah you ever had a flood in your house right you're sitting in the dining room and suddenly what you thought was a comfortable room there's one big curva so psychologically everything is caving in on the person what happens at that moment what happens at that moment as many of us still resist resist you've move into the basement you move into the base with other you create substitutes you create compensations yeah yeah some people check out of life at that moment they emotionally close up what happens though to some people is this process that actually the Kayleigh empties out the person stops trying to be in control and resisting yeah but they actually open themselves up to their own emptiness to their own sense of ignorance to their own sense of uncertainty and as he puts it then there's probably no better words further for this shallow yet voice mock I'm Claudia McClane my pond weaver hallo hallo i inverse mama I never saw a better description for this emotional state he occupies no space I feel like I know nothing I have no space I well I don't know what this eye looks like anymore I'm ready to reshape it like the patter yeah takes his his mud and his and his his wheel I invest mama Sh I don't recognize the AI from the past it's not doing anything for me anymore so I say goodbye to it I don't recognize it what fills that space now a sense of complete emptiness lave Nismo what spread a broken heart a broken out doesn't mean you take a heart with a hammer and you break it a broken heart means that there's cracks in the ego so that the light could come in force tastes that's what a broken heart means lave nish but doesn't mean people think I'll break your heart I will sult you I'll denigrate you know that's part of the that's part of the neurosis lave neseber means this cracks this cracks that allows it to open to something else it allows it to get rid of what's inside and open itself up reassure means he becomes humble the word yet care means like crushed like fragmented via schwa he becomes humble like it's a posture of humility emotionally speaking a classic example for this is the story in Gemara masochist highness it's an incredible story Duff Hoff the Gemara tells the following story there was a Judah bilasa the son of hip Shimon Shimon Stein rep shimon obscured by a high his son rebel ahzab eruption greatest sages of his time was coming back from his Arriba where he was learning he was going back home for Holi boys Sameach he was very he was very good mood it's probably a good sheesh or a good few weeks and he was mark DeMarcus since he was coming home he was riding on a donkey at the bank of a river on the way home there was another Jew riding on the donkey and he meets you know when you stop at the red lights pull down the window and he sees and he sees there bilasa burp shipment so he says what we would think is very appropriate he says Shalom Aleichem might even be greetings my teacher my master so the velocity at him and says four words , mejor Adams a-- how ugly can a human being be how ugly mejor perhaps all the people in your city are as ugly as you and he uses the word rake how empty and the man did not lose his cool he said lay La Mancha Sahni there Marley , mejor ecclesiastes go to the craftsmen who made me the one who fashioned and tell him this vessel that you constructed is pretty grotesque and repulsive so the bilasa felt bad no kidding so he asked forgiveness so the guy says I'm not gonna be Michael you go to the craftsmen who made me and tell them it's it's ugly your vessel was a pretty big failure in this case they come to the city apparently the olam knew he's coming the bilasa so the whole city came out to be McCobb upon him you know that ever Kimpton start came to the sea everybody came this fellow sees a whole crowd coming see ask somebody they're not coming from who are they coming through greets they said what do you mean NEVER lesson for your shipment he says who was that he says one of the Godot layout Darwin the leader the generation he says if he's a leader of the generation let's pray that we don't have such leaders in our German garments they said what happened so that he told him the story well we insulted him they said you should forgive him because he's a great person so he said I'll forgive him who bill Vaughn shall a year rug you losses Kent he shouldn't turn this into a habit that when somebody says Shalom alechem you look at him and you say wow we did this ugliness come from and the Gomorrah says me Yad mission assemble isla base imagine it was important to me some Endres and he went to the bin man he said that Lemieux hey Adam raka corner of Ali a kasha Terrace person should be soft as a reed and not harsh as a cedar tree and that's why if fill in a mezuzahs were written from from a car without you use a Connery to you to produce that's the end of the story how do you how do you understand the story let's say you're not a guzzle hotdog yeah let's say you're just a regular regular guy forget even a person forget even about Judaism your regular fine Gentile yeah and somebody comes over to you and says good morning good Shabbos how are you know what's the response even if you're in the worst of moods even if you're having a bad day right yeah the choppers good morning how are you wow he's so ugly who ever heard of such a response it says but he was in a good mood so even if you're a year a little frivolous and you're feeling a little pompous but what's the word you're feeling a little there's a word for it in English jolly euphoric what's this what's disabused the guy didn't do anything that I said tell them a lesson whatever that it's very difficult story to understand the Marsha asks an interesting question when the man forgives him he doesn't say never do it again says don't make a habit out of it once a month it's fine [Music] well yeah girl I get rugged lots of skin what to be malbim tonight oh he should never do it not an easy story to understand I'll tell you a beer an explanation that I heard from the lubavitcher rebbe a mantis she's a velocity of Shipman was not narcissistic he was not pompous it was actually very sensitive he sometimes you smeet a person he says hummus Adam tear upon earth you could see on a person's face who they are if you're sensitive the calm of a person is on a person's face you look into the eyes you could see you but not everybody but a lot of people could see ableism bring up Shimon due to his connection to his soul unto God and to people looked at this person and he really saw that this man is in the dumps in today's language I'm just using my own language to explain to the examples we call it an addict I'm addict what's the definition of an addict an addict is you don't even have control the disease took over you lost control rabbul izza realized that this person needs what we would call today shock treatment and that's what he was trying to do empty one how ugly are you and it's not even about you maybe you come from such an environment but do you realize how ugly you are there's nothing left there's nothing left there's no humanist in you there's no dignity in you you're Belleza felt that if he doesn't shake him to his core there's no hit the Quran there's no hope there's no nothing to hold on to positive reinforcement could work if you can touch a place of positivity right if I could say I could see the knit suits so you could see the knitters what if you can't see your own it suits your brain is fried so we all know such people some of some people know this very personally they'll say if he doesn't hit rock-bottom nothing that's gonna happen why not why not speak to the answer is you're now in a in an orbit that goes down and down and there's nothing to do there's no I can't talk to you you're you're completely in in your own delusion so he says you're a could come who are Uggams how ugly are you what does the man tell of him go tell the woman that made me come home ecclesia sister they never touched this was not a refutation of what their bilasa said this was a response there Balasa succeeded for the first time in his life the man protested that he has dignity it was a boluses achievement the first time in his life the man felt that he's a kala he's a vessel somebody made him he was designed there's a purpose in him not just is a God who made him he calls our shaman uma there's a difference I could make you and I could make you purposefully very different there's people theists God made the world say why he was born that's what artists do they sit and they scribble so God scribbled one day that's not an omen oh no no no no no I build a vessel for a purpose because you ordered it this is what the doctor ordered this is what the Bela bust ordered for the dining room Leigh hello oh ha ha ha Amy and tell him this vessel that you made is disgusting for the first time in his life he felt he has a craftsman who made him with a purpose this meaning in his life this was not a refutation of a trip Eliza said this is a result of rebel is a bit of he actually broke through the clip he broke through the shell he got he got to he got to something he got to a piece of light that's why man laters didn't say don't do it don't make it a habit this is not the regular way how to inspire people the regular way is not to come over and say wow you're really ugly you are so ugly like probably in your city I mean that's what they fit through the debts the kool-aid you drank I'm not judging you but you're like ugly usually you could be typhus on the CUDA of goodness and build on it but not always sometimes you can't and when you can't then you could run away or you could remain there but the only way to remain there and help the person is you must crack you must shatter the layers and layers and layers of toxicity of denial of Lies of deception of insecurities of egotism of narcissism of dose of insanity of trauma any other words that I'm not getting it's mama shits it's like it's a it's it's a mansion of Lies what does it call de menthe my huh I'm not a house houses goods a mansion you live in a planet of lies in the lie after lie after lie and not necessarily conscious but all delusion after that's where the below so asked Mattila because the fact that it worked so fast they never said the fact that had worked so fast demonstrated to him that it wasn't as bad as he thought the fact that the men right away fell to open it means his soul was closer to the surface but the person I understood said if this is a god will be a sir all a leader has to be able to know the difference if you're not getting the difference between the two it's dangerous so he said I'm Michael you but vivace are you this shouldn't be a habit this you have to be very sensitive when you use it sometimes other people do a toss sometimes life circumstances do it and it's actually a moment of birth not birth it's a moment you created a uterus creating a uterus is not a small thing in life it's a clay cable that's not a small thing people think it's their lowest moment in many ways you're not gonna get a higher moment in this you know why this is get rid of all the dirt all the filth I there's nothing there you feel like I am F as mama Sh miss Kubelik that moment that moment you what what am i what am i no I want I say I believe you can almost hear the conversation and no I say I believe I want you say I say I said I want but I can't but I this what's wrong if you take these words out of Connor what's wrong with somebody saying I can't do this this is what I want this is good for me these are actually very nice words he says he gives three examples Connie writes Cocteau evilly zany or Colossus know what's wrong isn't that what people say every day can you lend me money I can't any aho this is good for me this I want yeah these are not bad words but very often the context where it's coming from is a complete blindness to reality in other words it's about that I can't I want this is good for me then what the real McCoy here is there's no real openness it's just I don't like not finishing a sentence but sometimes I can't finish the sentence I can't this I want this is good for me these are almost instinctive this is the mo in which I'm operating in it's not coming from a place of strength of awareness it's coming from a place of weakness it's protection it's already a pre-written script and that's where he says and every person says expressed in a different way this person is a comic awesome he sits and learns all day yeah but when he gets that telephone call once a day how he respond the same problem Valtor never had a breath kite he wasn't afraid to say it to say that this isn't sure I am Jasha my alarm assam in other words calling him a Yosh of oil because people say well hey sitting and learning mashallah based America Mario says once she had the base manage demand Nouveau goes away there's 98 so hot anymore right the gomorian condition everybody knows they ever told this to you in poker become a novels uh-huh Caleb a some editors she says but someone of all them sneaked into the basement yeah novel bushes at that huh so sometimes it happens through life circumstances sometimes it happens through meanings are a blessing in your life and sometimes it can happen through his binding us what's his by nemesis Brenda's doesn't mean his bonus I contemplate this on my own because my contemplation is usually part of the problem right my condom stuck but his bendiness means that the person sometimes in life can really open themselves up to something greater you take a hammer and you and you pound it and you create a hollow you create a base of lada a clay cable okay your daughter gluten-free you understood raga losses it work with me and destroyed of course of course that's why it's so important if it's misplace that's misplaced you're not gonna not only will it not be productive will be destructive but that was a different comment he wasn't making a comment because of his own insecurities you understand he was in a wholesome place that's why the Gemara says he was happy if he was angry he was happy he was coming from learning Tyler so be nice to people so you're supposed to make you nice not selfish the Vark says he was really tuning into the person a lot of people when they say negative things is just their own they're miserable and then you see how people take it then then it's very destructive thank you to prove it can I trouble you to powerful varta Mazel Tov a disrespect and opinion are they add some cos oh thank you so much excellent moysha when was the last time somebody gave this back to you or day later tomorrow the fast on our boy am you even in Vienna Paris this breakage I don't know myself it's coming but it's very very painful those are the words we stopped recognizing ourselves you don't recognize yourself it's very hard if they acknowledge that so for Stalin when a person doesn't recognize himself anymore whatever a person goes through God goes through email your nightly it's one it's like a parent and a child there's nothing that a person goes through the regime doesn't go floats there's a complete Actos OS gunky Alif Bill Gates on mothers like yo Rocky IV muddly the shadow of death the valley of the shadow of death what even that looks like the valley of the shadow of death what if that looks like I think it's eating sushi out of a mitzvah sure that maybe this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot play ueshiba net / donate