What We Do for Love | Women’s Purim Class — Baal HaTanya Maamar

yo [Music] [Applause] [Laughter] [Music] oh [Music] ah good morning everybody thank you for joining us if you haven't yet done it please print out the or download the source sheets for today's class so you could follow the text inside you can go to the shiva.net t-h-e-y-e-s-h-i-v-a dot n-e-t you'll see on the top it says tuesday's women's class and there's an icon below the video called download so you can download the source sheet so if you want to view the source sheets on the screen because we are going to study with the text inside make yourselves comfortable um okay on the zoom just give me a thumbs up that you could see me and hear me you could okay you see in here clearly just give me a thumbs up so i know yeah i can hear you perfect wonderful the light in the room changes based on the sun so different classes different hours everything changes it's interesting okay welcome everybody to welcome everybody to today's women's class i also want to announce that today at one o'clock p.m i'm going to have a special session with the american jewish university it's going to be an interview on judaism's spiritual take on mental illness anxiety and depression that's today tuesday february 23rd 1 o'clock it's actually taking place in california or zoom with california so over there it's going to be 10 o'clock a.m and if you want to join you can go to american jewish you can google american jewish university and type in my name spiritual taken mental illness and you'll be able to sign up to the session today which is going to go for one hour from 1 pm until 2 pm new york time it should be a a meaningful conversation today's class is dedicated in the loving memory in honor of the third yard site and in the loving honor of david of ramyitzhak ben rahul fruma in tribute to his 37th birthday my ruthless yeoman with shannon tavis many many long happy healthy prosperous years overflowing with blessings for your family for your community for all of the jewish people for the entire world amen today's class is going to be focused on one element of the magilla in purim the megillah that we read on purim and we're going to be using as a text a discourse a hasidic discourse known as a mimer by the baal hatana the altareb the altar rabbi schneider zalman of liadi was born in 1745 he passed away in the year 1812 he was one of the great disciples and students of the magde of mizritch rabbenu dive bear who was the successor of the who passed away in 1760 and was the founder of the hasidic movement his successor of the market passed away 12 years later in 1772 and that's when various branches of hasidic schools branched out all from the students of the market of mizritch one of them was rabbi zaman of lyadi who founded the famous school of chabad and as i said he lived until 1812. he lived in lyajna a little town in belarus near lithuania and then he moved to lyadi and then he escaped napoleonic wars and he passed away in the winter at the end of 1812 in a little place called piena in the ukraine and he was buried in hadith this is a discourse of his from purim it was said on purim in the year tough which would be 1805. it's printed in the my murray admiral in the set of uh discourses of the altareba from tough summer hey here it is this is my mariad murasaki volume 1. that's 1805 and this is a miran purim page inside the zion 397 it's relatively a short discourse it does employ a lot of kabbalistic and mystical language so it's very easy if you're not familiar with the terms you may easily get confused but i encourage you to stay tuned because we will try to decode and demythologize the abstractions at least somewhat to the best of my ability so that we can really be able to appreciate the profound and relevant and powerful message that this discourse teaches us about purim so let's begin again if you didn't download your source sheets yet go to the yeshiva.net and over there you'll see on top of the class women's class on tuesday and over there you are you can download or view the source sheets below the video on top of the video there are icons one is download and one is view source sheets depends if you want to print it out you want to have it on your computer you just want to put it on your screen that will be your reference let's begin right away esther to understand that unique phenomenon that the entire book of esther the entire scroll of esther which we read on purim one of the 24 books of the tanakh of the hebrew bible does not mention once the name of hashem the gamble is you know there are different names that we employ to describe god the most famous one is yutkay wafkee but there are many other names like the name of elokim which is the opening of the torah beresha's bharara elokim as sasha my vision eric ello kim created heaven and earth there's another very one that's used frequently al of dallas like baruch hashem i like we say al of dalai dunyud so when we make a blessing it's spelled out actually yud and hey and hey what we pronounce it as adna sometimes it's actually spelled as al of dalai nunyut so it's not only that the megillah doesn't have hashem's name yut kevke you're the tetragrammaton as it's called doesn't have any name not eloquent not olive dollar donut now you might say the nation of the purim or bismarck you may answer that the book of esther is a unique book in the tanakh because the gemara says megillah estrus that basically the era of esther happened at the towards the end of the period of the babylonian exile which lasted for 70 years after the destruction of the first base amiktas the vulcan the babylonian emperor destroyed the first temple according to secular history records would be 586 bce 586 before the common era the jewish calendar the date is given gimmel allah from shin lam it's easy to remember because it's expelled us he sent us away that's 3338 since creation three three three eight since creation that's when the destruction of the first base ambitious happens the jews go into babylonian exile and they're there for 70 years they come back and they will rebuild the second base amiktus which will last for 420 years until its destruction in the year 70 after the common era by the romans the first one is destroyed by the babylonians the second one by the romans the megillah all of the books of the tanakh all of them are located in eretz israel they happen in in the land of eritrea even the first five books of moses they are on the journey from egypt to the promised land they're developing as a nation and going into the promised land and all the other books joshua judges samuel kings one kings 2 etc they are all stories history prophecies inspiration of those years when the jewish people are in eretz israel we'll soon see the few exceptions mcgillis esther is a book that takes place in the persian empire it's happening in iran it's happening after the destruction of the first basement it's happening in exile it's happening in the diaspora it's happening outside of the land of israel and the jews are under a foreign authority they're under the ruler the ma the monarch is is the persian king so perhaps that's why god's name is not mentioned there because purim happens at the end it's also the last era of prophecy the gemara says that esther saves manhattan this is the last hour of prophecy afterwards there will not be prophecy any longer and as a result perhaps that's why hashem's name is not mentioned there he says it's the end of the miracles of that there were certain types of miracles that come to an end the biblical miracles come to an end of that era and the same is true biblical prophecy it's a time of exile they're in babylonia it's the last prophets the altar ebba says good answer but hello ezekiel also prophesies in the times of exile that's how he opens up his book i am in the exile true he began his prophecies in heir to israel but most of his prophecies are happening in exile haskell was exiled to babylonia with the other jews the llama colonism is there are other works of the tanakh that come from this era the last prophets and all their stories and all their miracles and they lived in the time of martial and you'll see hashem's name is frequented frequently frequently mentioned in their books for example take the safe the book of nicaragua the book of ezra is these are all books of the twenty-four books of these are the last prophets they lived in the same era of murder and esther you had the prophet yeah the prophet the prophet he's actually considered the last prophet and his book is the last of the 24 books of the hebrew bible you have nakami and ezra who came back from babylonia back to the holy land to rebuild the jewish community and create a jewish renaissance and rebuild the base amitosh their stories the episodes and narratives during their life are recorded in hashem's name is frequently mentioned in them there's one exception mcgillis esther and it's the only book in the tanakh that doesn't have mentioned god's name mentioned there there is one more book that comes close to it that's song of songs the song of songs therefore is that powerful story of love and affection between anil dey divided the lover and the one who was beloved and even there you will have god's name mentioned at the end once at the end of shirashinum chapter 8 shafer rich vaish shalhevez yudhke her glow is a fiery glow the glow the fire the passion of god once at the end esther in contrast is the only book in the time you don't even have one time god's name mentioned and it's it's it's it comes close to the absurd because it's a book of the tanakh it's a book of tyra in fact the entire book is about god and his providence in running the world his providence towards the jewish people everything there is orchestrated by the creator of the world but in the entire tanakh hashem's name is mentioned because this is the divine blueprint for life that's the genre of tyra that's the genre of tanach in one form or another form mcgillis esther it's fascinating not only during the decree is his name not mentioned even after the miracle and the salvation the jewish people are experiencing light and the light and festivities nowhere does it say once that they said thank you to god that they they appreciated god there was gratitude to hashem esther told martha i gather all the jews and i want them to fast in other words he's mentioning the concept of prayer and beseeching the almighty but nothing explicit shall never say pray to god ask god mordechai never tells you god will help you fulfill this mission his name is not mentioned even once in no form of fashion what is the meaning of this now you can't answer again this is exile it's not inerrant israel there are other books that are capturing that era of the jewish people and nonetheless they have god's name mentioned let's see the explanation that the altareb gives us for this phenomenon the answer to this will be understood i'll be hakadamas parishes this will be understood by introducing a statement of the zohar the one of the earliest and greatest kabbalistic works is a commentary on hummus and on par desire tells something the zeitgeist says the passage says over there parishes because i say the end of leviticus includes what's known as the tajika powerful words of rebuke that hashem communicates to the jewish people through moshe rabino telling them the rewards and the benefits they will reap if they hold on to the covenant and they fulfill their duty as god's people and conversely heaven forbid if they neglect the covenant and they abandon the relationship the dire consequences and cataclysmic effects both in the positive and in the negative at the end of it all after he says if you abandon the covenant you will ultimately be dispersed around the world you'll go into exile god makes a promise and i quote afghan zoys translation even when they will be in the lands of their enemies in the hands of their oppressors i will never become disgusted with them i will never become repulsed by them to wipe them out and unknow the covenant i created with them i am forever their god really really beautiful passage in other words under no circumstances even difficult and challenging circumstances must you ever feel abandoned never think god is saying that i have forgotten you that i'm not still connected to you loyalty is talking to another great communicator in the zohar there is addressing and teaching another great talmudic sage rebje and he says him i want i tell him i want to give you an interpretation that i heard from the belazar on this verse there is a strange reality in that verse actually a strange mis apparent misspelling some should have been spelled la medhaf la medvav stuffmen i will never destroy them it's spelled without above and therefore it could be read le colossum because they are the kala they are the bride which is very strange so rebecca gave the following interpretation to the beast he says um explains the indian martial base a metaphor of somebody who's working in a bursa that is a tanning factory with their tanning they basically take the hides of animals the skins of animals and they develop it into leather and into force everybody knows that the smell in these places is difficult to be around it's a horrible noxious fumes it's it's repulsive fumes that pres there's only one issue there's a groom and his bride happens to be in a bursicki she happens to be in one of these places he himself says desire would never ever frequent such a place he's an aristocrat he's royal he's sensitive he loves being in beautiful places with beautiful smells he doesn't hang out in these places tanneries the prob the challenges his bride is there says because of the tremendous love of the guru my red velocila he will go and sleep and dwell in the home of his spouse of his bride hagamsha basa basa bursaki even though she is living in a space that is to put it simply to put it simply unkempt disorganized chaotic it's a place that seems like it's made for for the homeless unfortunately for people who can't afford a better place the smells are horrible this man is affluent he's wealthy but his color is there so he's going to go and stay there and live there and desire continues and for him it smells like he's in a garden or he's in a store with the most perfect perfumes the smell is intoxicating and delicious and exquisite and get smacked and delightful that's what desire says like with the most the the the most delicious and delightful incense or various spices and herbs that generate such a delicious and exquisite aroma that's what it smells like but it doesn't make sense it doesn't smell that way of course the expression in hebrew tomva don't debate people on smelling on taste the fact is because his color is there and the fact that she is there and he is so connected to her there is so much love so just being with here with her is the most delicious experiences it eclipses all the negativity it eclipses all the undesirable qualities that come with it as it eclipses it transforms it because he's with somebody that he loves so much says the zayhar the afghans is even when the jews are in the land of their enemies which as we will see doesn't only mean physically but it may mean spiritually they are sometimes taken over by their own toxicity by their own inner enemy we all have an inner foe loy ma i will never see them as repulsive i will never become repulsed or disgusted like althem i will not uh you know why le colossum because they are the bride they are my color they are my cowl i've made a covenant with them la febre see you tom so therefore they may be in a place that seems very repulsive there's a lot of filthy there's a lot of dirt and we'll soon see we're not referring her only to physical filth or dirt referring here referring here to moral filth referring it to spiritual filth to psychological toxicity i shouldn't be here god said i don't belong here but my colors my bride is here so therefore i go there and that becomes my home and that's where i dwell and that's where i hang out and that's where i celebrate life because she's there and rabioisi tells you if i came here only to hear this insight it would have been enough and neither is the question cost aloha it would have been worth it just to come here to be able to hear this inside this perspective from you that's the story in the zarya parches and now he begins to explain it as i said he's going to employ mystical kabbalistic terminology here but the message will become clear as he goes on with the mimer just to explain the terms i'm not going to elaborate on these terms because it's not so it's relevant but it's not going to be our focus today in kabbalah and in hasidic text mystical jewish state is a concept called ampendacilas means the small face of atsilas or in simple language it's referring to god's divine emotional characteristics there's something called malchus of atsilas malchez the feminine counterpart you have like the king and you have the queen malchus is the malka the queen of atsilas which refers to knesses israel the collective souls of israel in their source which are so to speak god's spouse so they alter ebba says za is called the khasan the groom malchus is called the bride malchus of what is called the bride he says in the time of exile the love that the groom the divine groom has to his counterpart to his soul mate to his bride is much more profound and much more powerful and intense but it's exile malchus the queen has departed from the palace she is now concealed she has become distant i'm translating his words in fact she has become manifested in what's known as the i in sarim the 70 spiritual forces that are the spiritual counterparts and the guardian angels of the seventy nations of the world they're called the i and sarah this is the gullah the shrine went into exile says because there is such profound distance remoteness between the groom and the bride so the love only increases because perpetual consistent pleasure is not so pleasurable you can't compare it to the pleasure that is experienced in the love that happens at unique occasions and one occasion is distant from another occasion the fact is that when we are with somebody that we love all the time we often take them for granted when we are doing something that we love even though we love it and it grants us pleasure but very profound insight consistent pleasure we don't appreciate we take it for granted when something is god forbid taken away from somebody oh then they realize how much they miss it they long for it and suddenly all the love is triggered we wake up in the morning the fact that i woke up this morning and my eyesight is working i can see i take it for granted i saw yesterday i see today should we take it for granted the pleasure of life because you have the ability to see helen keller once said the only thing that's worse than not having a she was the right person to say it helen keller said the only thing that's worse than not having eyesight is lacking vision that's why we wake up in the morning we make a special blessing we thank god for opening the eyes of the blind every person is blind it's a miracle that you could see you know what has to happen you know how many sensors there are in the eye they tried to replicate the eye on jets combat jets thousands of cameras and it pales in comparison to the mechanism of the eye so we thank god that he opens up our eyes when i'm sleeping my eyes are closed and then my eyes open up did i wake up and start dancing did i wake up this morning and start dancing that i can walk what about that my respiratory system is functioning my urinary system is functioning my circulatory system is functioning god forbid when a person is struggling to breathe and we should wish everyone who has the coronavirus to have a complete and speedy recovery when somebody's struggling to breathe when inhaling the oxygen is not a simple task every breath takes tremendous effort and then finally you recover you heal ah it's a different pleasure so this is the principle that is saying a consistent pleasure we take for granted so therefore when you're with somebody you love and you're together and there's a good relationship and there is affection between you it's amazing it's incredible but it's easy for the love not to be so noticed not to be manifested we move on when there is distance distance doesn't only mean physically geographically that too when there is distance suddenly you remember what you miss you remember who you miss famous expression in tanakh if it's a very sad expression jonathan tells david you will be remembered because your seat will be absent it's one of the sad ironies of life sometimes we do not remember people until they're not there anymore when they're there we don't remember them we take them for granted we look the other way they're always supposed to be there but when they're absent when they're not there anymore suddenly you think about them that's when you start seeing them isn't that the irony of life the tragedy of life sometimes when you're here i don't see you when you're not here do i start seeing you i notice you i think about you in many ways you become more present in my life it shouldn't be that way but this is how life is you'll be remembered because your seat is absent there's the geographical distance a spouse travels far away your child travels far away you realize how much you missed them i once read an article a woman wrote how she was always she was always craving to come home at night to a clean organized home but thank god she had many kids and the kids were growing up and they knew how to make a mess and you don't even have many you don't have to have many kids for that and all night she was basically cleaning and trying to keep the home tidy and she was always longing for that time in her life you know when she would be able to leave the home go to work and then come home in the evening and the home will be perfect because nobody was there nobody touched it and then of course she marries off her children they leave the home they leave the nest the nest is empty and all she's thinking about is when they're gonna come back to visit but often when we're in the thicket of something we can't really appreciate the power of it it's the distance geographically but also emotionally sometimes when we get into a dispute you get into a dispute with somebody you love there's confrontation there's a little negative energy there was a misunderstanding maybe you said or you did something wrong or conversely and then we realized the emptiness the void is not supposed to be this way the dysfunction the tragedy is when you become make peace with the dysfunction i make peace with the void and the alienation is maintained but when there's a very powerful relationship it's that distance that brings out a much more powerful affection that is what ultra rap is saying here vahanim shall move on this is the metaphor between a groom and a bride what's the relationship how is this expressed with god chip is in the time of the best life since the unity the intimacy between god and the jewish people was frequent metaphorically speaking they work together very often the love does not come out in such a powerful intense way with so much electricity and nuclear energy if you will as in the time of exile when the shrine goes in to exile uh islam and this has been explained elsewhere in and more length and it will be sufficient to the one who understands somebody who doesn't understand he's saying i can elaborate more you won't get it and if you got it you got it because the love is so powerful i miss you i long for you i want to be with you and you're not we're not together what this causes is that the the groom the god will descend to the space of the bride even if for him this is shameful under natural circumstances this is unbecoming for him this is not a place where he should go to this is a place that for him seems completely inappropriate to be in this is a place of bush it's a place of shame for him he is slavish belovus he will also get dressed in her garments powerful words he's going to dawn her garments shame zarima'id even though they're alien tim shainam lefi eric she has distanced herself from him she went off this is obviously metaphorically speaking she went off to a different location she's living in a different environment as desire says in a tannery she's wearing different types of clothes the hustan would never ever go to such a place it's embarrassing for him it's humiliating for him these are not garments that you will ever catch him dead in it's completely unbecoming it's disrespectful for him nonetheless he will get dressed in those garments and he will dwell with her uber by his video in her home shalom even though it's it's it's a lowly place it's not a place for him it's a very very humbling place under normal circumstances he wouldn't step foot in such a home never mind stay in such a home making his dwelling place making his primary residence what about sometimes you have a home that's unbecoming it's a place you would never go in there you can't sleep in such a place and what if the place is filled with horrible horrible smells it's actually disgusting it's dirty it's filthy it's repulsive says the altered the love is so powerful it becomes irrelevant he ignores everything not because he's naive not because he doesn't know but it doesn't it doesn't occupy space he's not conscious of it you know why because what he's experiencing is the love the connection i want to be with you and if being with you means that i let go of all my expectations and i let go of all of my regular desires and i let go of all my regular sensitivities and i let go of all of the demeanors and the mannerisms and the fashion in which i present itself because i want to be connected to you even though i have to say goodbye to everything i'm used to everything i'm accustomed to i'll do it and not only will i do it if the love is really there everything else becomes irrelevant i barely notice it i'm not sensitive to it i'm not experiencing it because what is the price of having to deal with all these smells knowing that it gives me an opportunity to be with you conversely take me to the most beautiful place in the world give me a residence in the most exquisite environment with the most beautiful smells with the most exquisite and beautiful views but i'm not with you what are they worth so everything changes that which yesterday was so beautiful today is so irrelevant so unappealing to me and that which yesterday was so unappealing today is so appealing because you're there because of the fiery love because of the pleasure of being with you and this is really provoked because we have been so distant marshall basically this is the metaphor of the tannery that desire talks about because when the sages wanted to describe a place that has a horrible smell this was considered the place where the most worst smell and you understand why all the fertilizer the dung the animal fertilizer the animal dung the chemicals and the substances that they has to have to use to develop the skin you walked in over there and if you were sensitive to smell this was not a place you would come visit again that's why desire uses this metaphor but the color is there the person i am in love with is there the what does this mean what is the metaphor alien the supernal groom god he is ready to dress up in garments that are unbecoming for him they are external to him they're alien in mystical language these are known as the garments that come from the external dimensions of the external dimensions of the vessels of the world's breeds here i see a charcoal but this is the key the supernal bride god's bride is dressed up in those garments in the time of exile yes she has fallen yes she is enveloped by garments she is encompassed by garments that are alien to her core spiritual pristine divine identity her posture has been diminished her innate sense of dignity has been compromised her connection to infinite royalty has been diluted has been eclipsed has been concealed she is now covered by garments by experiences by thoughts by emotions by temptations by cravings by fears by insecurities that in a good day you would call toxic alien but that's what she's dressed in this is what exile means i'm alienated from my own innate divinity this is what we would call a sackcloth you can wear a beautiful outfit i can wear a beautiful suit a beautiful tie you can wear a beautiful dress whatever the person is wearing and it expresses you it expresses your personality it expresses your flavor it expresses your beauty what happens if you put on a sackcloth i'm putting on a sack what does it do it represents mourning martichai put on a sackcloth why to express his grief to express the fact that he feels like he's a dead man walking he has no taste in life he has no flavor in life when he heard about the decree that haman wants to exterminate the entire jewish people he put on a love stuck he put on a sackcloth he's wearing dregs basically it's not like my my inner glory and dignity is oppressed expressed through these garments on the contrary these garments just cover me up you can't even see who i am they're not even tailor-made to suit my body and my physique it's just a sack that you put over you and you're now doing you're now you're now dressed up in sackcloth spiritually what does this mean this means when divine energy is dressed up in the seventy spiritual guardian angels of the world of asia the lowest world which is the lowest state of consciousness known as the world of us of the passage says yeshaya says i quote the whole passage albus versace sometimes i will dress up heaven with darkness with black darkness and their garment their cloak will be made of sackcloth pirush what does this mean heaven doesn't only refer to physical heaven it refers to spiritual heaven it refers to the pristine divine energy known as the masculine and feminine components of the world of godzillus which is the highest state of consciousness comes the word eight cell which means closeness eight silver it's a world of complete divine oneness and harmony that's shamayim islam and when heaven gets dressed up and gets eclipsed and gets filtered and covered over by external layers and garments which eclipse its true energy and identity that's called sackcloth and that's when god says visakh the cloak for heaven will be a sackcloth which completely eclipses it which completely doesn't express it vidyla maven again this is enough for somebody who understands nonetheless god says heaven will dress up in these in this sackcloth i will get dressed in this because the love simply is infinite the love knows no bounds and therefore i will go into those garments because my collar is there because my beloved one is there and i need a relationship with them more than anything else so if they're dressed up in those garments i will go into those garments the shrine itself hashem himself says albert shamayim i will dress up heaven in these dark clothes spiritually dark clothes the sac awesome valcain gamble because i want intimacy and if the intimacy can only be done in that garment that's where it's going to be done even when we are in a sackcloth that's what the the garment looks like that's where we're going to be one that's where we're going to be and this love comes out precisely when there's a distance when there's no distance this love doesn't come out when there's a distance the love is so powerful and so intense it causes the hassan to do drastic things to metamorphosize himself to reinvent himself to go into places he would never go to put on garments he would never put on to tolerate smells and fumes that he would never tolerate and not only that they all become delicious because my bride is there my beloved one is there well susie what this means this is all he's using a lot of metaphoric language will soon understand what this means the world is comprised of four elements we speak about fire water ear and earth those four elements exist on many different planes on many different levels so he says the four elements of the spiritual world of action which are the source of the pathways of nature this is a manifestation of the spiritual energy of the seventy spiritual guardian angels that rule the seventy nations of the world vikas and when god's miracles flow and are manifested through the pathways of nature similar to the nays of purim what does this mean this means that the sheen of the divine presence enclosed itself in these 70 guardian angels of the seventy nations that's where the shrine is operating in and through for misguided and over there came out in the most powerful way the intimacy the oneness between havaya hashem himself and eli kim the way he's manifested in nature elokim is the numerical value of 86 the same numerical value was the word hateful the nature have of stands as a combination of three words he was he is and he will be which transcends nature so the unity happens but it's completely concealed er mayhem there's no radiance of it it's not manifested in a bright and luminescent way shaheen is even if it would be manifested in what's known as the ten divine characteristics of the lower worlds breed syria i see there would be more light but here it's not even there but because the intimacy the unity happens in a sackcloth it's course and it's thick but excessively um and completely eclipses the intimacy commercial sakagashimi just like a physical sackcloth shamayla mashabiteshi lagamri mikovakil whatever you put into the sack becomes completely covered over you don't see it when a person is wearing a snack you don't see him you don't see his or her physique their face you can't appreciate their personality their presence because they're just in a sack they're tied up in a sack and the sack completely eclipses them what is altered telling us here valkane lynniska now we'll understand why in the book of esther you will not mention there is not a mention of hashem's name no names not utkavovky not elokim because then the divine presence enclothed himself and allowed himself to be completely concealed in a sackcloth the most dense and eclipsing garment from any other garment that is conceivable esther astrapana that's why the book is called esther which comes on the word hester the passage says haster astrapana bayama who my face will be concealed on that day. but the prophecies of the other prophets gam shahayu bismana who even though they lived during that time of the fraud especially those who went back to the land of israel and rebuilt the second base gillian there was some revelation of godliness that transcended nature that transcended the structures of the seventy nations like therefore they have honorable mentions of god's name of i and elijah dial the maven and this will be enough for the person who understands what is the altar ever telling us let's summarize and bring out the point if you study the book of mcgillis esther you see that everything that happened seemed to be absolutely based on nature there was no supernatural event it's not like the stories of the exodus of egypt or even the stories of chanukah the oil burned could only burn one night and it burned for eight nights there's no such a story in purim there's no splitting of the sea there's no water turning into blood there's no death of the firstborn there's no god coming down on a mountain there's no joshua stopping the sun she must be given them none of this happens in fact if you read the megillah and you don't know the background you don't know the higher force of the story it's not a story in the tanakh what type of story would you be reading about these are all stories that you read in the newspapers these are all stories you read on the websites there's a monarch his name is he likes to drink okay that's not a miracle he's an addict he never went to a.a okay he's a womanizer fine these are not miracles these are part of human condition and human weakness he throws parties he's paranoid he's insecure okay that's not miracles we know people who are paranoid and insecure we all have that a little bit inside maybe he's narcissistic he always wants accolades he's surrounded he gets no fight with his wife he kills her or at least gets her out of the palace in the ancient world that's not strange he's looking for a new woman he finds vashti he likes vashti okay and this happens not a few weeks apart this is years apart the party started when he became a king in the third year of his reign esther became his queen in the seventh year of his reign so there's a long story happening and not everybody is connecting the dots and the magilla we connect the dots people read the mcgill it takes 25 minutes and they think the whole thing happened within six months they don't realize that the thing happened over two decades who's connecting the dots the mcgill is connecting the dots there's an assassination attempt by bixin and saris that happens to be reported by marduk okay another story they tried to kill him also not unusual haman who's a clever minister manages to rise to the top and become the prime minister muhammad what barrier is to stalin if you go to the yeshiva.net you can watch my class the psychological profile of akhichveresh esther the genius of esther and understanding the psychology of her husband and therefore creating salvation for people and as the story develops we don't see any miracles it happens to be that esther was there in the right place in the right time as they say and her mother her relative beseeched her and said listen use your influence and get your husband to another decree and that's what she does she gets them drunk at one party and then gets him drunk at another party and in her own psychological brilliant maneuvering that she does she manages to own all the cree beautiful story but there's no miracle here what's the miracle here that has killed his first wife that he got drunk that human became the prime minister that esther he really liked esther because of her beauty her grace her personality she became the queen that she used her influence to uh to influence her husband's positions and another edict this is what first ladies do they use their influence comes the altered band says but it was all a miracle it was all a miracle from beginning to end it was god moving the chess pieces to save the jewish people but it was concealed within the mechanisms of nature what does this mean in spiritual language hashem put on the garments of exile he put on the garments of his of his spouse he put on the garments of the sac sometimes you have miracles that are completely defiant of nature sometimes you have miracles that point to something extraordinary and sometimes you have miracles that seem like just day-to-day random occurrences but they all produce a lovely of a lovely decisive victory for goodness and a defeat for injustice and evil and abuse and genocide the nest of purim is completely completely eclipsed by natural occurrences in fact one can argue where is their god i don't see god here i see wise clever jews esther was smart mordechai was smart good luck i see good luck that there was a jewish queen there maybe if there was another queen we could have never done this i got it but i don't see a ness here comes dalterev and says that's exactly the point hashem hashem heaven expressed himself not through expressing himself because the jewish people were in exile which means the divine energy that's expressed by knesset israel by the jewish souls malchus is enclosed in a world that seems separated from the oneness of hashem it's a world in which things seem independent and random that's where they went into and it looks like who calls the shots akashvarish calls the shots haman calls the shots the monarchy of the persian empire was the one that ultimately was dictating what's happening that's on a superficial level on a deeper level what does the mcgillis ester tell you that in those garments of absolute nature where you saw no revelation at all of a godliness that transcended nature what was really happening was it was the year of hawaii we're so one even though it was a time of concealment my face is concealed you don't see my face because i'm ready to come into your space and if you're in exile i'm also going into exile and exile you're not going to see me and if you're wearing a sack i'll also wear a sack but over there they were one and hashem was calling the shots and hashem was expressing his influence and his love and his energy even though you don't see him at all and that's why there's no name of hashem in the whole mcgill other events even of that time there was some radiance of a higher consciousness of a higher reality here it seemed like it's all a story about when the story ended took the credit to himself i did it nothing seemed to change but internally it was all a divine story internally it was all one big miracle the way it's manifested and eclipsed through nature spiritually what does this mean when this jewish people go into exile it means they're going into a space in which their pristine oneness and inner divinity is covered up sometimes we go into that place i'm wearing a sack in other words i'm wearing the sack internally i'm not expressed i don't know who i am comes hashem and says i'm coming with you i'm there with you inside there i'm going to be there because you're there i i have to conceal myself i'll conceal myself because you're there and the love will always be present and alternate continues in this sense mcgillis esther is greater than all the other books of tanach mcgillis esther is the only book that's compared it's the same spiritual level like the five books like the terrorist exam like the five books of how much actually to butter leola the rambam says at the end of this mcgill of the laws of purim that all of the holidays and all of the books of the prophets are going to be nullified or obliterated or at least not seen as significant in the future besides humish and mcgillis esther mcgillis esther will never be nullified and purim will never be loved that the celebration of purim will never ever ever stop in the future redemption the revelation is going to be so powerful that the previous holidays are going to be eclipsed it's going to be like lighting a candle in the middle of the day and the books of the naveem even though they're holy and sacred they're not going to occupy significance the exception is the holiday of purim will be celebrated for eternity even after meshiach and it with gusto and passion not just lighting a candle in the middle of the day it will occupy tremendous significance and the book of esther will why now because of this reason because that's where you saw and you see the deepest relationship the deepest connection you know where you see real love when the two people are so connected that one is ready to get dressed in garments that are completely alien to him it's in this moment when the one who loves is ready to go through such a transformation and get dressed up in garments that are completely unbecoming of him or her and enter into a mode that is so alien to their innate reality because i want to hold on to you because i value our connection more than anything else in the world he says that's where you see the love and in that sense the celebration there is deeper than any other celebration that's where you see that this unity is not just okay let's be together but this unity is driven by infinite limitless boundless love that you will not find in the greatest alias of the world even in the greatest atleast when people are ascending and going up and they're spiritually lofty and sublime you won't see the love there it's in this moment of pura mcgillis esther that the greatest intimacy between hashem and you come out that is nothing nothing no toxicity no behavior that can eclipse that can cause a distance and if god says but they're they're not living in the palace anymore they're in a different place okay so i'm gonna leave my place i'm gonna go into their space i'm gonna dress up like them speak that language communicate in that level that's mcgillis esther it's all god it's all god but god is speaking a different language he's speaking the language of the persian fascinating he's speaking the language of the persian monarch he's speaking a different language he's wearing different clothes it's all hashem is not running your show vashti is not on your show is not running the show big sin is now not running the show and they know they're not running the show that's the difference hashem is running the show enough so why is his name not mentioned that's exactly the point i don't need to mention my name i'm running the show but i'm wearing their clothes and speaking their language and dressed up in their garments and following their routines but i'm there anointing has to ask their panel where the gemara says estimated what's the source of estrogen terror i will conceal my face says the ball i'll conceal my face but i'm annoying i'm still there and says the ultra debbie is not just oh so there he's even there no over there you see how close he is more than anywhere else because he'll forfeit everything else just to be with you so when the jewish people go into gullahs when a person goes into exile not just geographically spiritually and emotionally you go into a difficult place you fall you surrender to addiction you you lose your dignity you don't know who you are anymore you're wearing a sack i'm wearing a sack i'm wearing a sack inside i don't recognize myself my true godliness is concealed hashem says i'll never ever detach from you i'm going to come be there with you and even if that means that i'm going to be wearing a sack and nobody will recognize me that's fine and we're going to have oneness over there we're going to be intimate okay we're going to be one and even though my name will not be mentioned not having not elicit not adne because the divine energy is completely enclosed and eclipsed and manifested by the forces of externalities that eclipse the divine energy that's what he keeps on saying that i answer him etc so there's no light whatsoever god became the persian palace he says yeah that's who i became not because i real not because he really became that because he will not give up on his kala he will not give up on esther hamalka and astra malka represents knesset's israel in a state of concealment and that's what you'll see in madrashim it says is a metaphor for hashem it's a combination of three words the end in the beginning is his because i'll say when it says hamelich it's also referring to the king of the world come on a persian monarch a drunk an inebriated king what that's the whole point of mcgillis esther god doesn't only appear from heaven in heavenly ways sometimes heaven dresses up in sackcloth so what does this mean in a person's life and in our own relationships what does this mean means that purim teaches us that love sometimes requires for me to strip myself from everything i know about me there's things i'm comfortable with there's things that are appealing to me there's things that make sense to me there are places i go to the places i will never go to it's a pasta there's clothes i will never put on they're just not the coming of me there are smells i cannot deal with and yet when i know that my child or my brother or my sister or my spouse or my bride or my groom or my friend is in those places i will become the person that i did not recognize not because i'm insecure but because i'm very secure because i'm confident because i know that the most important thing is for me to be there with them the most important thing is for them not to be alone for them not to be not to feel that they're not attached for them not to feel disconnected for them to know that there's somebody there with them but i say me i don't belong there hashem says i'm god i'm not a peasant drew says i'm a person i have dignity i'm an aristocrat i'm was this client of a guy cuddlish not how a king dresses it's not how a queen dresses in the leg but they're in the lands of their enemies they're abducted by their enemy they're in exile they're alienated from themselves i could wait till they come out but i may lose them so therefore even when they're in the lands of their enemies again referring to refer to spiritually emotionally lima aston i will go in there and i will not be disgusted i will not be repulsed i won't go even though there's a part of me that says get me out of this place look how awesome but my color is there my color is there and you know what this becomes the most beautiful place desire says ah the smells are amazing not because the smells are amazing because the smell of one person is amazing the smell of love is amazing the smell of oneness is amazing and that smell is deeper than every other smell so therefore god says you will mention my name nobody knows i'm here doesn't look like me i know i don't look like god now i look like i look like the persian monarch but it's all me i'm there i'm there with my essence i'm there with my presence because of my love to you this book will never ever be nullified in jewish consciousness this holiday will never pass the jewish imagination because this relationship this connection is the secret of everything it's the ultimate equation of all so how can we never be nullified afraid have a happy purim let's take some questions question number one i understand the metaphor of the zaya as it pertains to mcgillis esther and as a metaphor for the exile experience in general but wouldn't the ultimate act of love be for the groom to enter the tannery and not to conceal himself in sackcloth and subsequently pull her out of that terrible place instead of joining her in her reality excellent question excellent question rabbits and dina but that's all if the bride wants to leave the tannery what if i don't want to leave the tannery what if i don't recognize myself as a divine bride what if i'm enveloped by thoughts and by experiences and by temptations and by toxicity and by addiction and by self-loathing and by self-shame what if my posture is not connected to my true infinite self that's what it means i went into gullus so the question is does the groom say hey when you come back to the palace send me a text when you come back send me a text i'm gonna go in there and help you of course the point is to get her out of the tannery of course the point is to get her out of the tender but how do i get her out of the tannery how i can't sit in the ivory tower and say hey you there come out they're not there anymore they're not connected to me that's the point maybe let's make this clear the color gullus means that the kala is not connected to the hustle it's like a relationship that went sour we used to be close but now we're alienated from each other i see myself in a different way what does this mean in my own life what does it mean i'm an exile i'm alienated from my true innermost yearnings isn't that the basic definition of trauma you knew that i had to mention that word right isn't that the basic definition of trauma what is trauma if not a self-restricted a very restricted version of self everything is filtered through my trauma everything experienced to my i don't know what my longings are i don't even know my yearnings somebody told me yesterday this fellow tremendous tremendous great marriage amazing spouse and he said my spouse my wife is an ocean of love but i could never ever accept it or hear it or absorb it because of my trauma so every time she said something to me it was filtered through my trauma and i thought she's harassing me she's embarrassing me she's better imagine that means he's in exile he's dressed up in a sack he doesn't know who he is anymore he sees himself through the sackcloth in other words he doesn't see himself he creates a substitute person there's a it's a pseudo personality he's a dead man walking his in his inner soul is completely eclipsed what does it comes by it's dressed up in garments that instead of channeling and reveal his dignity they eclipse his dignity so god says i'm not leaving you i'm going to come in i'm going to go in there there's a beautiful metaphor verb nachman of breslift you know the metaphor mama's this my mirror breslau says that there was a prince who sadly decided that he was a rooster and he took off his clothes and he sat nakedly under the table only eating chicken food not saying a word and the doctor called the the king called every physician every doctor every psychiatrist every healer in his entire milo and his entire empire but to no avail until there was one wise man and he told the king i'll take care of it and he removed his clothes and he went under the table and the prince looks and says what are you doing here he says i'm also a rooster and they bonded and then one day he started to speak human languages what are you doing he says some roosters can communicate in a human way and then the next day he put on a shirt he says what are you doing he says some roosters get dressed and then he starts eating with a fork and a knife because roosters do that too and then he goes to the bathroom because roosters some roosters do that as well that was the story of rebecca what was he trying to bring out he was trying to bring out if i'm not ready to go under the table and be there with you in your space just to understand what you're going through i won't be able to get you out from under the table and that's what the mcgill is that's the love that the megillah brings out and that love is forever there even when meshiach comes we're going to remember that love because that's where we saw the love that's where you see the connection isn't the key that the two is that why marduk put on a sackcloth that's a good explanation isn't the key that the two this these two people save the the act of wearing a sackcloth and living as an unfamiliar people to accomplish hashem's will is the most important goal does this apply to our lives as well of course it applies to our lives it's the courage really to be able to know that i find god not only where i find god but even where i don't find god next question ah maybe now we could understand the gemara mcgillidafi dallas asks why we don't say halal purim and rib nachman says because reading the megillah is hollow what do we say in hallow in psalms 113 he lifts up the poor from the dust he lifts up the destitute from the ashbur from the garbage by going into the ashba so maybe the megillah is a good substitute for halo that's what your theory is okay very very geshmak wearing a schmuck this also explains the gemara says in daffy aleph that when shmuel wanted to start teaching the megillah he began with the pasik is the days of haman so this is clearly what al-tarab is saying this is a clear source in gemara that the whole mcgillis esther according to shmuel is based wow is based on on this possibly my aston village okay beautiful beautiful insight this explains somebody quotes here this explains from marcia wolfson that the client got lenient kipper it says would not go in with the gold clothes right he would go in with the white linen clothes but on the outside he would wear the golden clothes so he says why because the zoya says that the king is ready to come even to the tannery why because he loves the color and the colors in the tannery so if that's the case the kangado has to wear called big days of eyes of reminds me of the keta egel but sometimes the claying guddle goes into those places because in the kaido shakodashim he sees the deepest love so in the holy of holies there's no gold but on the outside he could wear gold okay this is a whole discussion in a monastery on mcgillis estherberry marshall wolfson thank you very much for posting it next question next question the next question is as follows it says in madrid that all the holidays will be nullified but not purim but i thought none of the torah can be nullified so the rajib says what it means is as follows all the holidays it's possible that there will be a sin that can nullify the holidays but purim he says no nothing will ever ever be nothing will ever ever be nullified and that's what nothing could nullify even sin and that's what just like tish above happened as a result of sin and the passing says the holidays were nullified the holy nullified through tish above so the other holidays could be nullified through sin but the purim the terror promises will never be nullified and that's why it says in madison kippur also won't be nullified he says why because him kippur means that god will ultimately atone the jewish people like rabbi says even if you don't do chuva yim kippur yum kippur works but the other holidays could be nullified by sin this is what the rajba writes so this person is saying according to this member we understand why because according to the mimer it shows the tremendous love even if jews are in a lowly state and that's what yom kippur is also about the forgiveness my question our daughter suffers from social anxiety a lot of bullying goes around goes on around her it's painful to see her suffering we feel frustrated and many times disappointed that people make insensitive comments what can we do for my daughter yes it's it's very very painful and you have to really be here for your you have to be here for her just be completely sensitive to her pain but it's also important to stop the bullying and do whatever you can to to stop this i don't know the exact age of your daughter and the situation of your though what i would suggest is to get in contact with somebody who's a real expert on bullying there are different methods that are used today you want to find top top people to give you good advice on how to deal with the situation because it's very very important that she should be given the wholesomeness that she needs the support and the wholesomeness and mainly the ability not to internalize the bullying and to know how to respond i'm sorry this is tough the outcome of purim was positive what about outcomes that are not positive what happened with god's presence right god is always present even in the hester upon him but the point is that purim showed this purim showed that even when everything looked dark and everything looked natural and even the miracle didn't seem light it didn't seem divine it was all him he was always there that's the point does a vedas hashem serving god have to do with ibud iris with tanning yeah excellent paltreby writes in terrorist parties mishpatham and other places the word of voider of avadatem where does it come from we have in shabbos one of the 39 categories of labor that are forbidden is ma'abed which is basically tanning taking the skin of an animal and developing it into leather into a garment and that's basically what avoids hashem is is basically as dr ebba says to make a liquid into avaya to take teva and to work it out we go into the tannery and we have to transform it and god is there with us next question how do you find god when he is really hidden and you feel the hiddenness so strongly and what does this say about our present gulless experience that we aren't ready for god's revelation how do we show god that we're ready for the revelation so i think one question answers the other question when god is hidden we may not always be able to see his presence and we have to be able to accept that the point of the mimer though is never doubt his presence even if it looks like you're enveloped by dark thoughts toxic experiences or relationships deep temptations and trauma that you have to work through but just know that hashem is there with you there's purpose there's meaning there's dignity you're never a victim and that itself opens you up to a good consciousness that itself tells me that i'm not stuck even though i may be in the tannery and there are fumes that are not very appealing but nonetheless my core is never ever stuck my core is never never in exile because if god is here god is not ever completely in exile he's with me in exile but god remains infinite and we're always together so what that means is that i have to work through my stuff but i should never completely become defined by it you always have to know wherever you are you're not hopeless and wherever you are it's not the end of the story never give up on situations never give up on people never give up on yourself never surrender to the appearance of darkness and feel that that's the entire story i may not be able to wrap my brain around the light i may not be able to point fingers and say there is god like the magilla his name is not mentioned but i know i have an inner conviction and an inner faith that he's right here with me that things are going to work out that there is purpose here i may not know why it's happening i may not understand why it's happening i may not know how it's going to work out but don't stop fighting don't give up don't surrender to mediocrity don't surrender to the spear you'll work hard and you will transform it and the darkness will become transformed into light i'm going to wish everybody a wonderful and beautiful day and a very joyous and happy purim may all of us be able to open ourselves up to this truth that we are always one with the source that we are ambassadors of infinity we're never lost we're never alone we're never neglected we're never abandoned hashem is always with me and with you and with us in every moment in every situation and every experience in every encounter and may we have the courage to be there like this for others as well never to remain stuck in a certain box but always be able to open ourselves up to the infinite flow of love even if that means that i really go into spaces and connect to situations that are difficult for me and there is resistance because i don't belong there i don't belong there on a superficial level but if that's where my love is if that's where i'm going to find somebody who's deeply connected to me so that ultimately makes it amazingly appealing and amazingly beautiful it takes courage to be able to learn from this and say i'm going to do this i'm going to do this for me i'm going to do this for the people around me i'm going to do this for others and to be able to really experience that oneness and when we experience that oneness then it's not a tannery anymore then it's a place of oneness it's a place of holiness it's a place of beauty when we experience the oneness it's not a tannery anymore in other words what makes it a tannery is that we're not experiencing the oneness when i experience that oneness so then we don't have to be stuck there anymore we're not stuck there anymore then the relationship has changed in other words god comes in to this smelly bursicki to this smelly tannery because i'm stuck in that place the moment i open myself up to who i really am then i'm not stuck in that place and we're free we're free forever thank you very much thank you you're welcome thank you very much you're welcome have a happy purim to you and your family protect claudius you're welcome [Music] i'm honored to have your son listening to me as well you want to sing a song with me we could sing a song what's your favorite purim song okay you don't have to no pressure no pressure you'll sing after you get off there's an old song on the words and now with this mimer we can understand why it's such a lebendica why it's a lively song [Music] she [Music] and i always wondered why the lyrics don't seem to match the lively tune it was in the days of ahashverish who reigned from india to ethop ethiopia over 127 provinces why is that so why is that something to celebrate but maybe now we understand because is really only the external description of the story the internal description of the story is that it was by hebime is veracious that in that concealment the khasin and the kala are one and when you know that and when you know that what when you know that when you know that it creates joy okay wonderful even when you didn't hear me i was still here thank you afraid looking for him everybody that's lucky thank you free looking for i think it's very relevant i think it's relevant today because uh you know a lot of people support him and many people are in isolation and quarantine and there's a lockdown one degree or another and sometimes one fails that you know that joy of purim the festivity of purim you know where where is it where has it gone and what the mimer is telling you is don't forget the essential message of megillah the essential message of purim you're never ever ever alone you're never ever ever abandoned you're never ever in a place that you could say this is hopeless there's no coming back from here this is a dead relationship i'm too messed up i'm too overwhelmed by anger or envy or trauma or grief too much anxiety too much pain in my life no even where you are right now with all of the myself with all the toxicity hashem says i'm there with you right here right now i'm here with you look you're my color and therefore even if you say it smells hair god says i know but if you're there i'm there with you and if i'm there with you we can always extricate ourselves from this situation and even before we extricate ourselves from the situation we can notice that there's purpose there's meaning there's love there's light we have to have compassion for wherever we are and accept it and know that hashem is here with me in this journey and then from this transformation will happen redemption will happen and even when redemption happens we'll always celebrate purim because that's the ultimate symbol of the love um nephew is going to