What Kabbalah teaches us to do if we want to erase our sins - Yom Kippur - Part 2

before we even start we know that cabala teaches us that Hashem created the world with with letters uh the way hasem created it we know that hasem created the world that's what the Mish says means that hasem speak and he creates the world now obviously hasem doesn't have a mouth we don't we see in many places in the Torah that it says y doesn't have a hand or hem listens doesn't have an ear it's just for us to kind of relate with with with with what what they're trying to explain so if it says Hashem speaks it's not that he has a mouth rather that that's this is corresponding to a certain a certain action that hasem does that we can kind of relate with it so we know that hm created the world we say we say it in many different places we say every time when we say what do we say when we drink water so we see many different places that's that it's talking about how creates everything it's actually explaining that we talked about before the that the corresponds to the and we see that when we speak there's something that is called uh the articulations the five articulation which corresponds to this is the hay that we talked about before the last ha of the name of that when a person doesn't a he takes this this hay puts it in the kipot but we know that hem creates the world with de with speaking and he uses the tools these sophisticated tools which are the letters of lash kodes and the same way that we have in our body DNA now they can take the DNA break down the DNA and they see exactly what's going on they know everything about the person according to the DNA so the same way that's how hasm created the world there's a spiritual DNA which are the letters and each letter corresponds in it infinite amount of combinations of other letters and we know from each letter we can kind of understand what's going on so the the the the letters they represent many different ways of understanding we understand the letter according to how it looks it has a shape so we kind of understand what the letter means we understand the letter according to its numerical value we know Alf is one bet is two giml is three there's many different ways how the letters can kind of explain to us what's going on so we see that when we break different types of letters we can see kind of what Hashem means so we said that Hashem created us and we are called Adam right alif I'm going to make it like this Al we are human we are called Adam if I'm blocking then let me know now we know if we're going to break now the the the letters of Adam then we have Al and me if we take now the AL if you don't see let me know if we take now the AL my handwriting is not so good but how does the ALF look we have a UD we have another UD and we have a VAV if you collect now all the udud and the V UD is 10 VAV is six so UD and UD and VAV is 26 right so I'll write it here so we have a numerical value of 26 now we know Hashem has many names but the main name that we saw po before I'm not going to say it don't say it but we can write it UD hey VAV hey this is aem's name where we don't pronounce it when you pray you can pronounce it but other than that we don't pronounce it if you look at the numerical value of y is 10 hey is five another five and a six also 26 right so we see that the numerical value of hashem's name is the numerical value of the first letter of Adam so we already see some type of a connection right now we'll take another another example the thing is that we know in many different places in the Tor that Al always corresponds to hem when we say then what do we usually pronounce the loudest we say so we pronounce the Al and the so we know that when you covering your eyes and you're talking about you have to concentrate that Al is goes on your concentrating on is eight which means the seven heavens and one land and the four corners of the world so when we saying meaning that we're considering that hem the one is everything he's in he's in all this heavens and in this world and he's in all corners of the the world so everywhere when we see Alf in the Tor corresponds to Hashem so again we'll take the letter Alf let me just the letter Al if if we break it down how we write the word Al if so we have Al lamid B right no actually no sorry yeah yeah let me just erase this we have let me just erase this to going to need to get a bigger board alive lamid and pay that's how we write Al if Al if how much numerical value of Al if is one how much is the numerical value of lamid 30 and pay is 80 okay 8030 and 1 how much is that we have it here one one one 1 11 so we see even when we break the word Alf then the numerical value of that is 111 which is again one one one it's all one everything that we talking about the word Alf we corresponds to hashem's name one the existence of one okay I want to get to one point but I want to kind of go through it and explain it now the word Alf that we're talking about constantly always corresponds to Hashem but we can also read it a thousand so one is is a lot now we see in this world many different in the physics physical part of the world we see a sun we see stars we see the moon we see Earth we see animals trees many different things so in our mind we can say Hashem is not one there's many things how can you say one but this comes to tell us that Alf can be read Alf the rule is that we know Alf is AEM Alf is one but Al means that everything thousands of pieces are all in one in alif in the considered in are in AEM now Alf can also be if we switch the letters away we use the take take the letter P lamed and alif we have the word Pelle Pelle in Hebrew is wonder which means everything in this world is in a in a in a in a level of Pelle of of Wonder so there's many different ways of explaining it now uh a second okay bear with me we're going to get to it soon so we said before that we are called ad Dam what separates us from the worst of the world being an Adam a human being exactly we have something different from all the rest of the world that we are human you know how do you say an animal in Hebrew beem very good B hey he we have something that the animals don't have we have the ability to change now if you look at the word behem you cut the word in half it's ba ma what's in it BA in it Ma what's in it what's in the B ma nothing BMA cannot change you do not you cannot change an animal a cow is always a cow you cannot tell a cow to start behaving different but Adam has something very special that he has the ability to change something now you know how we called Adam that's already very simple to understand Adam is called Adam because he was created from Adama right Adama is Earth now what is the difference between a little bit of sand in Great Neck and a little bit of sand in I don't know Idaho same thing so how come in bra neck to build a little house the the land costs you $2 million the demand and in and in Idaho whatever it's nothing you not the demand the potential what can be built on this land I don't want to build anything over there I want to build here so when I want to to put myself to position myself in a certain place then the value changes the meaning from it is that ad has the potential of growth and we see you take seeds you put it in the earth you water it comes out you can take now the seeds put it in a cup pour water on it nothing will come out the the Earth has what's called it has the power of taking something out is to the excuse me they're going to Fe the exactly but the the Earth has this power of creating of which means I can take now the water I can take the seeds if I don't put it in the earth I don't I'll never grow something and we see by Nature that anything that we put in nature we water it then it starts growing in Hebrew it's called to start growing now what is water water corresponds to Torah if you want to something you want to make something grow you have to evolve a lot of Torah in it okay so we're talking about that AEM that man was created and we're called ad we're called Adam but we were created from excuse me uh the sun is not like Torah but there's two as you have water you have Sun you have to also have the the Earth but the Sun for now we're not going to talk about the sun now me whatever it's in the ground grows during the night also not only during the day exactly now if you take the word Adam and we break it Al what is Dam blood Al we said that's a Shem right so that's the spiritual part that is in us we have AEM in us alif then we have Dam blood this is the physical part in us right this is the gashi which means we are built from two entities spiritual and physical we have the ALF we have AEM in us and we have blood we have the physical equal and we're combined with both okay now where do we get our blood from who creates us who parents parents right our parents create us we don't create ourselves m is Mother a is Father they create us that's how we get our body that's how we get our blood all right now what is the numerical value of Alf we said it's one right numerical value of the DED four and me 40 so we have 44 the dam is 44 what is the we'll do it quick Al Al Bet 40 44 right bet Al Al is four m is 40 so we have 44 so we see that our parents our parents they create us they give us the D they give us the dumb the blood have a connection with our parents okay a minute so our blood is a physical part of us so we know from all this we know from all this that our body is Created from our parents we know for all this all the reason why I'm showing you that cuz I want to make one point clear how we learn from everything in the Torah how what we have how we have to behave so we learn that hasem created us we are called Adam and we see that Al is the spiritual part in us the dam is the physical part of us we constantly have a combination of physical and spiritual that's that's one thing the difference between us and animals that an animals and animal cannot change an animal will always be the same thing the difference with us excuse me cave and cow the same thing go yeah now the difference with us that we have the ability to change constantly to grow and to change and this is one thing where we can take advantage of inom Kip now we're going to go next step now we said before that we are Adam and we said that we are called Adam because we were created from ad right now in Hebrew the word ad can also be read as adame I would look like no vegetable oh I'm not talking about the I'm saying the the reason why we are called Adam is because we were created from ad we were created from the earth now when you write the word Earth as ad but it can also be read as adame I would look like what am I what am I able to look like I'm able to look like a and I'm able to look like AEM I have both parts in me I have the spiritual part I have the ALF and I have the dam I can choose what I'm going to look like I can choose that I'm going to look like the ALF like AEM and I can choose that I'm going to look like the dam the physical part it all depends on me we see in the word ad can also be read as adame okay now the main thing that we that we know is that ad has the potential of growth okay now maybe next time I'll come with a bigger board so we said we have the option of resembling Hashem and we know hashem's name UD V he now if I want to write the name down to break it down then it will be this will be UD right that's how you write you right hey then I have here another hey okay and then I have VAV that's how it will be if I write it down CU we know UD is 10 he is five but UD can also be written UD and hey can be written hey Al so it changes the numerical value of it all so if we go to UD the numerical value is 20 right hey this is six and VAV how much V and Al 13 and then I have another six so what do we have together 45 very good now I said before that we are called aam right doing it small see ad Dam we have Al if is one DED is four me is 40 45 so we have in us the the ability to look exactly like AEM to be exactly like a a God and we have the potential in us to change to get to that level okay now we know how do we mainly connect to Hashem excuse me very good praying when I do mitvah I did hashem's commandment when I learn Torah I learn hashem's wisdom I want to connect with hem I have to Le how do we say pray in Hebrew now the word in Hebrew palal is to judge so when I go and pray I judge myself now if I'm coming to pray and I'm telling hem can you give me a lot of money cuz I want to buy a nice can you give me a beautiful house that'll be comfortable can you give me this cuz that I'm kind of judging myself now if I'm saying to hem can you give me a lot of money cuz I want to donate to the sh and to the Yeshiva and to all these poor people can you give me a nice big house so I can do a lot of it all depends how I'm approaching to the in Thea I'm basically connecting myself to Hashem but it all depends what I do in the I can come and pray for all the nonsense when I come and pray I have to in my mind judge myself why do I need why am I praying for money why do I need money for do I need money so I can buy now a beautiful car or do I need money because I want to send my kids to Yesa and have a nice house to have is asking when you the essence of the the most important part of the is if you look in it's all asking you're asking for you asking for you asking for mashia usually is asking you usually don't pray to because you're bored you kind of going closer to hm because you want to ask for something but the point is the the word palal means to judge so the whole point is asking for things that you can take with you when person pass away from the of course money nobody can any but if you look in the of the if you look at the you say that you see that you're asking for physical mainly physical things you're asking foran you're asking for you're asking for mashia to come you're asking to understand AEM you're asking to to have exactly Okay so now we're going to get to the point what I wanted to show we said that we are Adam right and we said that we are created from Earth we have the opportunity the option of changing and growing and making a difference we said that the alif represents that we have the spiritual part in us we have the dam represents the physical part of us the difference between us and anything else that we can change okay we can do a big change if you break the word and you write it down so Alf we writing alfid me is me the alif corresponds to the alif the diid is the diid and the me is the me if you read the word backwards besides the ones that are in the boxes you have when you read it the other way around l l which means then when I want to reach to the level that I want to become connect the spiritual and the physical when I want to become the level that Hashem wants me to the only way to do it is through now we know that we do Chua so do CH we're refraining from doing the a we fast we Elevate ourselves but when I want to really reach the essence when I really want to reach my level to the point that I can really change is only through and what do we do in the most we pray he has the most longest prayers in the year for longer than any day all day long we pray an hour the whole the whole day we praying so by the fact that we taking on ourselves the decisions that we're not going to do any sins that's the first part of the chuva that's a lower level then we decide that we segregating ourselves we don't eat we don't wash ourselves we we minimize how we dress then I'm already lowering myself I'm already climbing to a much higher level CU I'm putting myself as nothing but now I want to reach the point that I elevate my physicality and I Elevate myself to the level that I'm how originally I was created is through and when I pray I'm able to reverse everything so a lot of people I know they don't fast they go to the Sho but they sit like this you know this is very nice but the whole point is the the whole point is moving my lips and creating these words and that's how I'm able to reach the highest cuz this is the excuse me you have to make a connection of course and the is the how you get the most connected to hem not only Kip that's why we pray every day we pray three times a day now we know what we said before that when a person gets his you can get a to make ex amount of money and to meet your other half and to have kids and what all the you get on you want to materialize it you want to bring it down to this world you have to bring it from the spiritual to the physical and the only way to do it is through prayer you pray three times a day that's when you take the spiritual and you transform it into the physical so ifom a person didn't have such a great year it's not because hem didn't bless him with a good year it's maybe because he didn't transform it so all year round our connection to hem is through through praying but onip when I want to reach the highest first of all of course I don't I can't do the sin anymore if I come to the game with a sin of course there's nothing to talk about so first of all I have to stop I I have to clean myself from sin then I have to elevate myself that I'm not so connected to the world so we said according to I don't eat and I I don't wear shoes I don't wash myself but I want to reach to the point that I really reverse the wrongdoing that I did the entire year I can now come the day after y kipur I'm 100% Perfect Clean pure like a baby no nothing wrong but if I want to reach to that level that everything is completely completely erased is that I make sure that the entire day I pray that I don't rest or go to sleep we talked about it the last sh you were asking if a person goes to sleep if his muzzle sleeps yeah why would you want to go to sleep on y kipur every minute on Yip you have to say something I said in the last sh in the beginning when I became religious and I didn't have kids I didn't have to help with kids I would stay up the whole Yip I didn't sleep I would go to sleep in the morning of the day of Y Kip and then the whole entire Yol 25 hours I would be up and the whole night I would read T I would sometimes read three times the book of Thim cuz in my mind I was like why should I go to sleep now why should I anything I now I have 24 hours to tap in to the safe I can reverse everything now when I came to do cha I know I had a containers of of sins I I I but in my mind I realized wait a minute I have the opportunity now to reach in and reverse it then why one second of the day rest why should I stop for one second so the whole point of Yip is not only just saying okay they tell me to fast so I'm going to fast or I'm going to wear like slippers no the point is to internalize that I have here 24 hours of free pass I can now do chuva start a clean slate clean everything like as if nothing happened so first of all I do it that I I accepted myself okay I understand I did this is bad I'm stopping then I Elevate myself so this is the simple things I don't eat I don't wash Etc but I want to reach to the highest level then I sit in the sh and I pray every second that I can I pray and when they finish between and I don't go home to rest I sit in the Sho and I read more toim and at night there's no meal I don't have to run at night home to the meal my wife is sleeping the kids are sleeping you stay in SHO and you read and every second that you read this is and this is how you reach to your highest level and you're able to take the physical part of you the Dum and to elevate it to cuz everything in this world we know the Tor says that the nees is in the blood we know we said before there's five levels of the the highest level is called a lower level from that is called these two levels we don't have anything to do with it in our life then we have the only somebody who's really worthy can reach to the level of the most people they're in the level of the and the tells us neish the Dum the blood that we have in our body that's where the nefes is that's why we know that the blood is all over the body the nefes is all over the body what makes the body move how can I feel when I get hurt in my little toe how do I feel the pain in my head cuz all the information is running in the blood everything is running through the blood so the nefes is in the blood that's why we know when K he killed heav Rashi says that he stabbed him all over his body cuz he didn't know from where the neish goes out that's what hasashi says that kind literally stabbed him all over the place cuz he didn't know where the neish is coming out from and we see by Nature a person that's bleeding he if he's bleeding too much he bleeds to death the neish goes out it leaves the body so the neish is how we interact in this world this is the physical part that is connecting to the spiritual part if you look at the blood ask a doctor the blood constantly has a vapor that's why the blood is has a temperature if the blood is cold the person dies the blood constantly has this temperature like cooking something on low flame is this Vapor col all the time going up these real ad and what happens what what is this Vapor this vapor is the immediate between the physical the blood and the spiritual the nefes this is where the nefes is is what's called Mish nees so everything that I do with my body and especially things that are not wanted sins I do it with my body but I want to elevate myself I want to take all this physicality and elevate it is is when I connect the dam to the AL to the K so I have the opportunity so much more so on but every day to constantly Elevate the physicality into the spirituality but on y Kip especially I have the opportunity through my to reach to the highest to take the dam in me and to transform it all the physical my inclinations my my desires my thoughts my everything and to bring it to and to transform it into that my desire will be to learn my desire will be to do my desire will be to learn T to do to do good things so we have to internalize it this four 24 hours you have an opportunity to clean clean your your your your uh all the all the dirty laundry in 24 hours and reverse the situation in all different levels so I'm going to wish you and it should take advantage of this day already from Friday morning we know that the preparation starts on Friday morning the kazal teach us that if a person makes a on is like as if he fasted two days so it's very important to make a suda eat yeah you have very important to make the suda Mash to wash make a whole big meal with the whole thing on Friday afternoon for men very important to go to the mik this is the only time in the year that a man is to go to the mik the best is to do to go three times to the mik in the morning before Shar in the afternoon before and right another time before right before the holiday starts this is but you bring on yourself such that your entire you're like a you're like flying but the preparation for Yip is much as important as y Kip that you do CH a lot of people stay up night on on Thursday night they do kaparot early in the morning they the whole day of Yip they do they do they do they call everybody they know apologize for everything this is like the last opportunity the last and Friday night the whole y Kip 24 hours to segregate yourself from reality and to transform everything and when you reach to that level will bless you with SH with all the good things that you want with health the kids and whoever needs to get married should get married everything should be and we should Merit that this year we should have Mas with us and next year we're going to have not will become and we're going to have a and we're going to be should all happen speedily in our days