What Is Teshuvah? To Become Comfortable in Your State of No-Thingness

Okay. So, please turn to page 142. It says on top and the middle of the page it says the first mimer has a mime. It's a mimer. So we'll start it today and bashem as I said next uh Thursday morning we'll have a shir also that's uh the day afteralia dalat Thursday morning we'll have our shir it starts on the pa we finished last time the mime tiku at least on some level finished it could finish it but at least first time finishing so now we'll start this mime of it's from the year tokiml in the back 1803 is the year the balatanya said the mimer if he said a chaba sazin it would actually be 1802 cuz uh it would still the uh the end of 1802. So he starts off speaks to the Jewish people and Mosha says So is saying to the Jewish people, he's speaking and he says, "Listen, heavens, so I will speak." And then he turns to the earth, "Let the earth hear the words coming out of my mouth. Let my communication or my gift come down, pour down like rain, and let my words flow like dew. That's his expression. Rain comes down and do comes down the do on this. There's a fascinating medish of the kazal. It's actually in a in the beginning. The Jewish people asked for something that was not. It wasn't the way it should be asked. It wasn't appropriate. What did they ask? She should come like rain to us like rain does. Uh-huh. I reveal my English. So the Pik says in Aah, the Jewish people say uses. Hashem should come to us like rain. He should come down to us. He should descend to us like the rain comes down. And Hashem answered the Jewish people. He did answer them properly. What did he answer them? This is in other words, 12 chapters later, Hashem says to them, The is I'm not going to be like rain. I'm going to be like I'm going to be like D like. So the first is they say and then answers again also I'm going to be like D. So the says they asked for rain and it wasn't the right that Hashem should be like rain. Hashem answered the way you should answer. I'm going to be like Doom. So you read it. He says obviously there's a mush here, a parable here. And a malitza means they're using pros, poetic words, metaphors to explain something. What's the What's the There's obviously some profound distinction between comparing the hashra, the dwelling or the manifestation, the revelation of Hashem ones on the Jewish people either comparing it to rain which they said is is is inappropriate or it's what's the difference Gash. First of all, why are you comparing it to this or to this? And also, what's the difference between the rain and the D? The explanation in this is and of course compares his words to both right is rain like is both. He covers all bases. But when the Jewish people say to Hashem, "Come down like rain." He says, "No, like do so is the deal with this like what significance here?" So this is what the Bald opens up the M with understand. You would think he would start talking about rain and doom. This is not true. The med says this is in in the beginning of Medisha that there were few things that they preceded the universe. One of them is what's the it's difficult to understand what's the holing of chuva? The holy union of chuva is that if somebody made a mistake, if somebody transgressed, if somebody sinned, so there's an opportunity to repent, to return means that what that before the world was existence, there was already anion of chuva. So what's the what's the in this? Once there's a world and people make mistakes, you need a concept of chuva. But is rooted in something before the world. So for this you have to explain what's the says that a person should be all his days in the says a person should be of if a person is in a good place he's doing the right thing have to do it's like you tell somebody, you know, get into a fight. Get into a fight with somebody. She'll be able to call every day in your marriage. You should be doing chuva to your wife. Hopefully not. If you need it as you know the old joke they say there was a he was going to and he was feeling not he was feeling depressed. Why? Because he looked in his calendar and he saw that a whole year he didn't even do one of. So what is he going to do? [Music] He does no sin. So his another was he meets him. Why you so depressed is not such a bad day. It's a good day. It's a day of cleansing. He says it's a waste of time. I didn't even do one. So he says you still have a half an hour left. What's the problem? He says what can you do? So he says you're shak next door. You love him or you hate him. He said I hate his guts. He says why don't you go in and beat him up? Where do you have a better and a bigger than hitting a Jew? Give him a beating. you'll have a wonderful and then you'll have a gald says it's a galdic idea. So he goes into the he beats him up and he leaves the he leaves. Finally he can have a good as he's walking down the street the wife of the beaten guy comes out and gives a scream. She says I don't know who you are. You'll never know what a mitzvah you just committed. So when you say yeah it sounds like is yeah what what's the of course everything is connected because if we understand what is we'll understand what of then we understand why precedes existence the main aspect of is based says in Ecclesiastes chapter 12 that the spirit will return to the God who gave it who imbued it into the person. He says that's the what does this mean? We say every morning this is the beginning of the you infused in me is it's pure and then we say you created it you formed it and you blew it into me like it says blew in he blew in to you this you guard it inside of me. So he says what's the when you say who when a person is a person blows it comes from his he inner breath right there's an expression in when you blow So that when you blow, you're you're emitting something from inside of you, something deep. And it's even deeper than when you're speaking, right? Because when you speak, when you communicate verbally, you could see a person could speak for a long time. Some people have a hard time stopping to speak. But blowing, try, how long can you do a for? You get to exercise your blowing. So how long can you do a for? Right? Even a very skilled person. So you can do it but at some point your is not going on for hours like your why because it comes from the is from a from a deep you have to exert yourself much more. So it's not an coincidence that the defines the as of and that's a very fundamental idea. the whole creation. It never says Hashem blew, right? It doesn't say Hashem blew and and the blowing made light or the blowing made the sun and the moon, vegetation, animals, birds by it says the only one could have said everything else. Everything else came through his his breath. So the says the word is but the heel where was it before the blowing it was inside and then it becomes you go like when you blow a now your actual breath went in to the and it travels through the it comes out on the other side and it creates what we call the kaifer the voice of the sound of the so it became a nifred D or something. Nobody says me and my breath inside of me. It's not like two separate things. But when your breath comes out now, it's a do. Now it's a thing. And he's it's a and the breath inside of me is but it's not called. You don't say I'm I'm coming to the me and my breath is coming. Yay. Hopefully your breath is coming. It's inside of you. It's part of you. Suddenly when I blow out, right? Can you stop blowing on me, please? So he says it's a when a person blows his breath comes out through through the through the air that comes out that he emits through his mouth. So it becomes distinct. It becomes a distinct mitz and sometimes it can have an impact. Right? A person sneezed in Wuhan, China. You know the story? A person sneezed in Wuhan, China. And a few months later, huh? I don't believe anybody. You don't believe anybody sneezed in war in China? Then you could believe that somebody sneezed. And a few months later, 7.8 billion people were brought to their knees. Right. If he would have only kept that sneeze inside, we would have speared we would have been spared two years of uh craziness. So when the he comes out it can have an impact. When he says it's not it can have an impact a lot of things come out with it. And that's why by this it says he blew into his nostrils a soul of life. And that's why we say in the morning the word is this is so to speak the spirit the spirit of his mouth or the ear is like ear spirit energy of his mouth that's which comes out as the says you don't live on bread alone key I'll call so he is That's you don't live only on bread on that which came out of the mouth of means that which is it comes out. Why is it called comes out before that it was in a state of concealment potentiality and mitzah means you bring it out like it comes out. It comes out to the floor, not physically comes out of the door. But coming out means like you're coming out of your potential like a fetus being born. It emerges in its revelation. That's that's he says at the end. He starts off you created it. is before he says would be compared not to the blow, not to the air that comes out. It's to the thought that's still inside. When a person thinks, people's thoughts, you don't know what I'm thinking. The Gmorrah says is still concealed and one with the nephesh. In makov itself there's many layers right there's my thought before I even process it for myself but even after I process it for myself in other words even after I'm you know some you're thinking you're not aware that you're thinking sometimes the thought is still in potentiality but sometimes you're actually thinking but it's still inside it's one it's not it's not separate if so this specified four things, four stages in the soul as it journeys from a state of helm, from a state of concealment. What do we mean concealment? Concealment doesn't mean that the world doesn't know about it. There's no media. Concealment means something deeper. Concealment means that it's not nifrit. It's not separate. It's not a thing. So, it's called concealed because it's part of the source. It's like the ray of the sun when it's in the solar core. The ray of the sun outside of the solar core is a matus, right? It lights up our world. Thank God. It lights up our planet. If there would be no sun, yeah, no, we wouldn't be able to live for long. First of all, there would of course be no food, no vegetation, no produce, but also everything literally would freeze. If the sun was a little further away, we would still freeze. If the sun was a little closer, we would become French toast or in our case, American toast. The sun is exactly in a position where it casts its rays and it gives a tremendous light. But and that's the power of the rays. In the sun itself, you have the sun itself. It's a solar core. So melam means in a state where it's not separate it's completely one and then the emerges as emerges there's four stages and that's what he says number one number two number three number four and then afterwards there's a fifth element but in the emergence of the soul there's four stages it also explains why comes before barasa The first thing should have been to be the soul. You created it first and then describe it first. Tell me you created it and then tell me it's pure. This mean says the bal as we'll see precedes a and that's that's the essence of the soul that it's not it's before. So there's four components because the source from where it was chiseled out from which it was honed is like when you hone the rocks out of the quaries the the so the source from where it was taken is extremely lofty. It's extremely high for the descent of the he calls the descent. It's a pella. It's it's wondrous. It's stupendous. It's a half of a says this on the mafus. It's not uses the word. So everything is mafus. A be dance is not mafly loses. A volcano is not maflyus. A star is not maflyus. A jin is not maflyus. But this nuda of the soul coming down is called tim. It's a it's not it's not a gradual what you would call devolution. Devolution is the right word. Yes sir. Devolution. It's not a regular a regular emergence. It's huh dictionary in the the Ginsburg dictionary in her his wife's dictionary. So no problem is a it's not when you know what an is it's half of a fella how it comes from this place to this place. We're not talking here about a physical descent you know in the amusement parks you have a free fall a roller coaster that goes down pretty fast. We're talking about in quality stays up the body goes down. Yeah. Isn't it like a process because we learned before that recreation? Yeah. Yeah. That's that's that's what he's saying to be able to be suitable to work in a body. The can't just come down. It has to work with a goof. It's a marriage. And it's not just a marriage. It's a it's it's the most intimate marriage. your soul and your body you know it's you become one and it's inseparable till the stalkus of a person and then later this so the nish has to really it's like you know the first thing in marriage you got to readjust yourself to be in a relationship it's very hard sometimes for people if I'm not relational here it's such a comes down in a way that it can work with the It has to go through an element of which is condensing and then but also to extend to expand in numerous forms and numerous categories of of condensing restricting itself but also expanding. So even though I said many that's true but generally there's four dimensions that it has to go through it's indicated in he sought he told a story he prepared it he investigated and then he told it to Adam and I have the medish says on this. I mentioned it in the previous year that everything before Hashem told it to Hashem did four times before he spoke before he saw it. He told the story he prepared it and he investigated it and then you're ready to speak. It says he would he would the material four times and then he said it to me. That's what the med says on this. What do we see from here? So he says this is describing also the journey of the soul. Before there's which means telling it to the person. What does it mean telling it to the person? It's not a speech. telling it to the person means this soul going into the person communicating by Hashem means that there's an energy that the person gets that's what voad means doesn't mean he's speaking to somebody he's in one room he's speaking to somebody is a metaphor for the transfer for the communication of the divine energy to the that's not the first step first he saw it then he told the story then he prepared then he investigated before the [Music] That's why there's four letters of yud and he and those letters are not just it's a name with four letters. It happens to be four letters. the yud and the hay and the van. Those are the four stages through which the nishama metamorphosizes itself from its pristine innate state until it's ready to infuse the body with consciousness and vitality and life vivifying it and animating it. So that's the that's the yud and the he and the v and the he and he says it's which is restrictiveness or withdrawal or condensing it's histo is the smallest letter like we learned in condenses itself to a seinal point then there's a hey which is expansive and then there's a v which is called ham it flows downward a communication like a vv which represents a line downward and then again another H which is again his expansion of that after that it could be now now after it went through aud and a and a now we can go into the and that's why the name represents this is like I just said is when you extend it's both in length and in breath It takes the yud and it goes down but it also takes the the v also takes the yud down but there's no in the hey it's also in the breath and in the length is etc means the last which is as is known four stages whenever the balatan says, "Kenoida, I could promise you nobody knows." Koida means it's known to those who have to know. Usually, I have a question. Yeah. [Music] Interesting. You would think the kakira should be the first, right? You first got to investigate but that's already more analysis. The first is you see it then it becomes a story then you prepare it and then you investigate it. So very gener generally speaking in in in in some of them I it's explained in different ways but generally speaking the nud is as follows and you see it also in communication from a teacher to a student or from anyone to anyone else. Real communication requires four things before you open your mouth before it it's difficult to understand. Hashem had to prepare it four times. I understand before I'm giving a speech it's good to prepare it a few times. You're not fluent. You want to make sure you got it. You want to get the flow. People do it, right? People give speeches, they prepare a few times. What's the idea that Hashem before he's told others, he said, "One second, got to do Khazar again." So obviously that's what he's saying. It's not stam he's preparing it because he might forget the message or because he may get distracted. But the precious each time it goes through a different experience. It becomes a different speech. It's a symptom. It's a it's an evolution. It's a from one place to another place. The yud is not the he the is the then it's ready to go into the person. It's like the it has to it goes through these four stages then it's ready. So generally in communication downloading the program stages of building and this is true when you're writing music. It's true when you're writing plans to build a home. It's true when you're writing a speech. It's true in any in any um performance when your creative process which begins with my mind. All I have is my mind, my soul, my passion, my dream. And the creative process now needs to be brought this is called from inside right in udero as they say to fruition to birth. the birthday of the world from pregnancy to birth it doesn't happen like this this conception this conception is called the yud and then there's development the hey and the v and the hey in communication mushall the teacher has to first have a yud which is on auda an idea and you have to see it you see it's very very visual because when you see something it's always on auda when you hear a story vapra is always details. Reb writes he says seeing is hearing is in the morning says when you see something let's say you go into a beautiful house yeah you come into my go into beautiful house you walk in what's the first thing you see everything you would go wow wow what do you see you saw the banister you saw the counter you saw the couch you saw everything you saw anything. You can't yet write a report on the house, but you saw you walk into an art gallery and you see an exceptional piece of art. What What do you Wow. What do you see? Everything, right? You saw everything. But how did you see it? It's like a scanner. You saw it. It's an impression. But but you got the point. You got the point if you if your eyes are open. But you can't communicate it. You Wow, it was amazing. It was amazing. Now you have to go. It has to become a story. A story visa is always made up of details. That's the concept of hearing. That's a whole different level. That's really his spash. Now the person can analyze what did I see? And it'll never have that beauty that beauty that that first impression that same power. It never has it because it's detail after detail after detail. It's a whole you're using also a different part of the brain. It's a different part of the brain. So the teacher first before anything, what do you want to say? Do you see your message? What's the nikuda? And it's always one line. It's one word. It's a nuda. It's a yud. Now to get to that place, he has to go through a bigum because there's a guy who knows everything, right? You have to really put it into a yud. It's a tsum. But then, so it's all there. But what are you teaching? You have to turn the yud into a hey. But that's all me. That's all me. It's in my head. I'm excited about it. But you have an audience. They don't know anything. They don't don't live in your world. They live in another world. Now you need a v. You got to leave your world. This is called ham. Now I have to know your world. In your world itself. Okay. I know your world. So now I know how to the of how to give it over to your world. But now I got to do a hey in you too. You understand? How am I going to get it into your world? The process of communication your typhus. So two are in the student in the teacher and two are relatable, but it's all in the teacher's mind. He he didn't say a word yet. This is all before he walked into the room or he may be in the room, but this is all happening inside. The student doesn't know anything about this. So this is an investigation about the student. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And over there it's investigation about the student. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, there's and then there's and you'll see communication is often missing one or two or three or four of all the components and you could feel the blemish. There's a person who didn't start with you could see it. He has a lot to say but he doesn't know what he wants to say. He push doesn't know what he wants to say. There's a person, he knows exactly what he wants to say. Nobody else knows what he wants to say. Nobody else. There's a person who has an aud. He got it into his hey, but there's no VV. There's even a VV, but there's no final H. Yud and H and V are full picture. We're going to see it's four worlds. It's four different worlds. And each one requires a different process. Each one is a different talent. It's a different part of the brain. You can't use the part of the brain you used for the youth for the it's a different and after that it becomes fertile. Now you could deliver something and now it can change the person. Now it can go in. That's the process. The for the to become it goes through this process. Remember here you're not just talking about a speech. You're talking about the life, the life force that vivifies the person. So there's the yud of the soul. It's the of the soul. Then there's then there's and then there's states for and as he said when you blow something there's already something. Before that you're not even calling it something. And then is now it's ready to go into the person. So he says and that's what says in that his people are of a part of hemov Jacob literally the rope of his inheritance. So what does mean? So many commentators will say it's like it's like a like you have a you know you're part in a means we're part of the lot part of the so to speak we belong to the domain of God. He says it means [Music] means it's a part of what's means. It's divine. So why is it called? Why it is a part? Hashem as parts. The answer is when you want to bring out something that's one with something and then it emerges in the body as though separate. So it's called when we say you'll say give me a part of the cake. Give me a part of the pie. Give me a part of the money. So it becomes separate. Here when something goes through a process where you could think it's separate. So it's called but what is it of? It's of Hashem. It's the process. It is until it comes into which is in the and over there it's called the rope of his inheritance. What's the connection? Says the whole doesn't come down to be enclosed in the body. Only so to speak array of the soul comes down. In other words, we're not talking at coming down physically. We're talking about coming down coming down spiritually. What he's saying is as fellows, I'm just going to say it a little in sharp words. We always say the soul is in the body. The Balatanya is saying here, it's wrong. The body is in the soul. You understand? There's a part of the soul that's in the body. That's the part of that goes in. It's adjusted. It's it's custom made to the body. That's called that's not the whole nish. The core of the nishama doesn't go into the body. So the body is in the soul. The soul is not in the body. You say your soul is in your body. No, no, no. Your body is in your soul. It's a little bit of a different a significant different way of looking at it. Your body is in your soul. The body is a certain manifestation of the way the soul condenses itself to the point that it could come in to the chemistry of the body. It can rel it could be related to the chemistry of the body. Does it mean by the rope of your inheritance? Why does that we'll soon see what rope means? What rope means the whole and its source. In other words, when you say there's a symptoum in the soul, it doesn't mean the soul is now changed. It means there's an aspect of the soul that the body can experience. Just like the teacher when he's doing his whole symptom, he doesn't forget everything he knows. In the yud, he has everything. It's just what the student is going to hear. You understand? That's why it says in that it takes 40 years for a teacher to be understood by a student. You know the says, "Yeah. 40 years said 40 years later says you still haven't understood anything I taught not because they were lazy not because they were because they weren't listening because they were adding on him it's because by definition the student has to grow 40 years to be able to unravel the full depth. It's not a in the student or in the teacher. It's the nature of reality. You go back 40 years later to the same words of and you understand them completely different. Not because the words changed cuz you changed. Is this something that we all know you hear something now you're going to you hear it in 5 years after you go through a lot of experiences and you heard a new reality. EMS huh? You can learn the same mimer before you went through certain processes and you heard it fine. It was nice. You go through a certain process, boom, suddenly it's like a ton of bricks just came down on you. What happened? We all know that, right? The same fil you could say a thousand times in your life and then one day like hits you. Oh wow, I'm talking to God. Boom. And suddenly you're crying. What happened? It was all there. The question is where I am. Every person come brings to life what they are, where they are. So he says the nama is the same thing. The nishama goes through the soul symptom to be able to be relatable to the goof. But really the goof is in the soul because the whole soul the source of the soul doesn't go through this. There's a ray that comes into the goof and that's what the goof captures. Now what does that really mean? That really means that there's so much of us most of us right that that is fully present. It's fully present but it's present in a deeper state of consciousness. He says this is called mazle. This is what the gar means beginning of maz. When you speak about mazle, what's masle? Masle doesn't mean masle, right? Once met again, a very brilliant man, a person he converted to Judaism. He spoke a good Yiddish. So he says to me, "I have the problems of both sides. [Laughter] Not bad. Masle we touch masle is you have masle. What masle? What do we mean when we say masle? So you have masololis, right? The masalis. That's how the world says masolist. You're affected by the zodiac. But you say masle. What? What? What does he say? Masle doesn't mean look. Look, you know the jackpot. You won the lottery. Masle means something that's super conscious. Masle is you. But masle is you're part of the self that you're not you don't control. You can't wrap your brain around it. That's that's the idea that it's a malar one second and even a better question right the gar says in I think Jews don't go by mas depends what you mean by mas you talking about maso mas are usually the constellations the zodiac which was our formations of stars that in the time of noyak they looked certain ways like a sheep like an ox like Gemini like twins etc a crab right a scale now we're going to tish absula young girl a scale whatever it is all the way down to fisco dog fish the 12 mas it represents stars represent spiritual energies as The says he distributed to the nations who were infatuated and worshiped stars. When we're talking here mas your own, your own source, the source of your soul, the core of your soul. The core mazel. Why is it called mazle? From the word noisel. Noisel means it trickles down. It flows like No means it flows and masle is you make the flow. You create the flow. The source of the creates the flow that trickles down into your conscious brain and you say this is who I am. But this is who I am is just that which trickle down a few drops into the self that I that I'm aware of. And that self itself has so many different stages. So I could define myself in so many different ways. Depends where I could define myself from I could define myself from the last hey. I could define myself from the VV from the he from the which self am I defining. So when somebody says I feel you always have to say whoa whoa whoa which I is the he is the he is the let's know let's know which which self is talking. This is who this is me. Sometimes that me is a completely convoluted and that went through a very intense process. And of course within the endless levels I thought that means that we only get it if it's a good if it's if it's a good thing we get it. If it's not that's one of the interpretations. That's one of the interpretations. That's another interpretation. Yeah. Yeah. Because masle is the source from where the flow trickles down to become a spirit of life and give life to the spirit of a humble person. In other words, within a shama can become adjustable and relatable to a goof to work with a body because if it doesn't work with a body, there's no physical life. It seems like he's using masleit. Yeah. In terms of whether or not a person has Yeah. Right. In terms of something your masle is your own core. Yeah. Your own your own pristine source. There's a divine flow and sometimes thoughts of chuva that come into a person. He may not know from where. Like sometimes you just experience a surge of energy, a consciousness. He doesn't know from where it it came from nowhere. It didn't come from nowhere. It came from your came from the masle. There was a trickle says sometimes a person doesn't see your masle sees. What does he see? Fascinating. says in Pyav and in other places in Kazal that every day there are bascals there are voices that come out from heaven right different basals that come out to inspire people the question is what's the point of any basal if nobody hears it you get up with a mega mega mega speaker to speak nobody hears it so he says no no no no no the masle hears it very very well. It has the antennas to pick it up and sometimes my masle trickles down. So suddenly a person will experience a a certain flow and he may not know where did that come from. Right? It came from a place that's unidentifiable. Yes, it's unidentifiable because it's my own muk. It's it's it's pre that which is condensed that I should be able to experience. But don't think that the masle is not in touch. It's always in touch. In other words, we hear things on different levels. Things get absorbed on different states of consciousness. And when you're ready, the muzzle comes down. So when a person perceives that there's an attack that's going to occur, unlike an animal, his masle realize concept where he's alerted to something, right? The masle may share things. Yeah. The masle may share things. Trickle down. He needs to be worried. He needs to be alerted to something. Yeah. The masle keeps the score. And sometimes you're ready to to experience it. You know, sometimes in life, especially in recent years, they develop different forms of of healing where people get opened up to memories of their childhood or of their past. And suddenly, you know, they know everything. They know everything. Nothing escaped them. Where was it all? It was all stored. I wasn't ready for the information. I wasn't ready. I couldn't deal with it. Or maybe I didn't have the proper assistance, but it was all there. Everything was there. Nothing escaped. It's all there and experience in its full intensity. We see it and then certain blockages are removed or certain fears are removed and suddenly it's noisil. It flows and and it's right there. So that's what he's describing. Is that what you mean when you say the body keeps the score? It's really the muscle keeping the score. Apparently, it's connected. The body also keeps the score. The body keeps the score the way the body keeps the score. And the muzzle keeps the score the way the muzzle keeps the score. Does one inform the other? Of course. So, it's everything in the goof ultimately comes from the muzzle. The question is what level? So, the recipient keeps the score and the masle the masle. The masle the masle often creates the score. Yeah, it's a very very serious thing this because the masle is not some mystical uh superstitious uh you know angel hiding in some planet between you know Pluton and Mars. He's it's not 4 6 billion lighty years. The masle is is a real state of reality where where things are perceived and seen in a completely transcendent and infinite fashion. But it has to go noisil. It has to be noisil. That which could be able to be received by my conscious self and my conscious chemistry based on where my brain is today. And sometimes people they have different methods that open up open up people to to deeper places and suddenly you see it was all a subconscious memory. It's all there. The whole memory is a subconscious hypnosis. Huh? Hypnosis and and other other methods. That's one method. And there's other methods. So what's that? How do you So he defines it here as the nishama itself. It's the nish itself which is divine consciousness. That's your source of your information. I personally that's divine consciousness. Yeah. And then the question is how much gets downloaded? You know the zip file and then you got to download you got to extract the zip file. I can't do anything with a zip file. It could all be there. Right? The question is how much I could download. My computer has short memory. Huh? And if my computer has a virus Oh. Right. Isn't the brain the storage? The brain is the storage. Yeah. But but here we're talking about something within the brain itself. That's not it's not mitsums. It's not mitsumsum in the in the conscious lvushimum of the brain. Mind the brain. Huh? The mind versus the brain. You're saying the mind versus the brain. The mind transcends the brain. It's in the brain, but it transcends it also. That's what that's what he's saying. It transcends it. And sometimes you can have a sensation in your heart. Don't think ever that the ray of the soul that comes into the body becomes separate completely from the source of the soul. It's not like two souls. This trickles down but it's not like it gets cut off. Now you understand what means fascinating. What's we say the soul gets cut off. What does it mean? The soul gets cut off. We learn shabas in the says whenever it says cut it's never about it's always about yakov. It's the it's the yakov. It's the part of the soul that's in av can get cut off. The source of the never gets cut. Here he's what's the definition of kis? Kis is disalignment with your own soul. The part of my consciousness that I'm experiencing is severed from my innate consciousness which is absolutely infinite and divine. And in that space it can't be cautious. That's what he's saying. The of the soul is really aligned with the source of the soul. It's manifesting it in the body. What does kus mean? Kus is a tragedy when I'm cut off from myself. Cut off from yourself. That's kus. That's that's a tragic situation. So masle is really the part of us. Yeah. Masle is and the that's the in that sense there's no such a thing as a bad muscle or good muscle. It's just a a good muscle. There's there's no such a thing as a good masle or or bad muscle. It's just a disconnect. It's your soul. Masle is your soul. You say my masle. So Dr. Eb says my masle it's not like you know I have bad masle he has good masle. You know what I mean? From the day he was born he somebody told me from the day he was born he had good masle. From the day I was born I had bad masle. I said what? My father, whatever you are, my father, my mother, my brothers, my sisters, my host, my school, my sh, my sh, my shrier, but this is deeper. Your masle is you. It's not in a judgmental way. It's understanding it's my journey. I I want to own my journey. I'm not a victim of my journey. It's my journey. I have to figure out what's my journey and the purpose of it. But it's my journey. Is there a muzzle? It's not I'm somehow a victim to some star that decided that I should be a cursed a cursed wretched soul. Is there a mazle to Jacob? Then when speaks about a masle but is there a mazle to Jacob? Because there's a level of Jacob that could be no no the masle of Jacob is very good. So he says what's a definition of theatan says what's the ray of the soul that was npashet it extended and it came down here is severed from its own its own core its own traders its own source so kis is a very very it's it's described also in a very emotional way I don't know who I am I'm completely defined by my by by the drop that trickle down for me and that becomes the sum total of my identity. Does it mean that the goof gets more power? Not that the goof gets more gets much less power. We we could also see it emotionally and psychologically. You know probably the poorest decisions people make in their lives is when their entire life is reduced to the experience of the moment. It's not in context of a larger self. It's the experience of the moment. Whether it's my anger, my frustration, my bad temper, my depression. Yeah. my frivolousness, my laziness, my despondency, my my negativity, my low self-image, and and my entire identity is reduced to that to to that. Sometimes I'll make my worst decisions at those moments. Huh? Repair. That's that's that's the rope. That's the rope. It's not But the is a rope. And if somebody if somebody uh snips severs the rope. So so what am I? You know you're holding on to there's nothing to hold on to. If the rope is connected aha it's gavaldic. It's like an electricity rope. It's not a rope here rope. It's an electricity rope. The electricity comes through this rope. So spiritual wiring say that a person has some tremendous experience. He saves a life. Does something tremendous. His rose changes. His mle changes. We'll see. Very good. Very good. We'll see. We'll see. The says they flow. There's a flow from and this is inashidal. I just want to read the Pik for you so you should appreciate and I should appreciate it's the spring that irrigates the gardens. A well of living water that flows from Lebanon. So he says May I just like say in his other where will it be found? May I say means what? That gives life to its master. is the beginning of consciousness. It's the beginning of the is being expanded. But that always comes from a place of means no thingness which means it's not comprehensible and therefore we call it ayen. What we call nothing doesn't mean nothing. It means it's not a thing. It's nothing to me because I have no way of controlling it of seeing it of understanding it. So I call it ay nothing you know for what what do they say for somebody that the whole world for somebody I forgot the expression somebody that sees the whole world as nails so then there's nothing but a hammer the point the point is I ruined it a little bit but the point is as follows for someone with a hammer everything looks like for some somebody with a hammer Or let's put it this way. Somebody whose self is a hammer, everything looks like a nail. If you explain to the nail that sukus is coming, all you have in your tool is a hammer. Very good. Everything looks like very good. If all you have in your toolbox is a hammer, then everything looks like a nail because I want to use my toolbox. We have three different gear, the uh we need one more for Yeah. But the I hope you're getting right. This is my toolbox. This is what I know. This is what I know. Tell your tell your nails and and your boards in your house that sukus is coming. It's a big mitzvah to put on. So the nail should say, "Okay, here I am. Here I am." Right? Doesn't work that way. You want to talk to the nail. You need a hammer. It doesn't have another language, right? Sometimes people think that people think that people are nails too. So the only language is the hammer. The question is, but I'm talking to the nail. And if you could speak to the nail, what would the nail say? I didn't hear anything. It's ion. In my world, certain things are because I completely can't relate to them. So, it's called. I really call it. It's called it's no thing. So that's where comes from which by the way is says in there's and bay 32 pathways to 50 gates to bina so in Islam which is the source of lammed the receives from but we call it because it's a super conscious I don't know So what's so chuva is restoring returning realigning your soul with itself. That's truva. Realigning your outer consciousness with your inner core. that sometimes takes always takes ble and midn is because I have to let go of my version of myself and nephesh means I'm I'm surrendering my definition of the soul to its true definition that's that's that could be very grueling because this is what I'm familiar with you know talk about leaving your comfort zone and that's why the comes down It goes to a much deeper state than it was in Ghana because over there it enjoyed it basked it based and bathed in the radiance of the according to its capacity. But the only way the soul can bask in is after it went through all of the restrictions that until it became and you can bask in, you can bathe in, you can enjoy. [Music] In shuva the soul experiences return to that which is even beyond the first state of consciousness called kma. That's the state of I in the mazle wherein is restored to a place of no thingness. It's beyond thing. It's beyond tangibility. It's completely one with its as we said essentially it's it's it's the and it went through that's what it says after the splitting of the sea in the sh we say it's very interesting words at the end of shir right what do we say over there um um tip They were all dreading. They were all feared until your nation passed. So he says, "The splitting of the sea is the splitting of the conscious to the subconscious." When you look at the ocean, we know there's a world under the ocean, but I don't see it. I have no access to it. If I go down, I don't come back up. You can't live underwater for a long time at least a few seconds. A person can't live under water because if I live under water there's no me. The word is the same letter is like the writes this. Why? Because that's what it means. I go into a place where I can't exist. In other When does a person when does a person if a person stays in a mikvah? there's not they're not coming up because the definition of I needs me to be out of the water. With fish, it's the opposite. You take them out of the water, they're dead. You take a person out of the water, he could live. You put him into the mikvah, there's no existence because the eye can't be separate anymore. What's the splitting of the yam? They walked in the mikvah. They walked in. What does that mean practically? They were opened up to a state of consciousness that usually is iron. Y means they passed over comes down for we have a Yamov comes down for Yamsov only in its journey here can it reach that state of we'll see why in ganed it's fixed in structure the structure of which is in its journey down here the nama can really get to know itself How does it get to know itself? It gets to know itself from the state of the masle. The masle of the is the source of creation. Means he brings into existence everything. And how? In there's no creation. [Music] So creation is a process from yesh from the intangible to the tangible from noness to somethingness. I is no thingness. But no thingness is not yes. Creation is that process. That process requires y and hey and v and hey. How do you get from divine infinity which is no thing to thing? Our world is defined by thing. Yes. Even spiritual identity, it's identity. How do you get to that place? So that's the it was they passed through the way out. You have to go through. You can't jump. You can't you can't skip it. You can't say it doesn't exist. So they had to pass through yav. It's like you pass through the line and you get to the other side. They passed through and they they passed through and they went beyond it to the state of masal which is beyond his because in there's no isavos because by definition means creation of something that's created that has a definition has a description your own state of is precation once you decided to give it to me it's originally it's beyond that can I go back to the source before the before we need an exercise for this. Huh? It's a gift. It's a gift. It's a gift. There shouldn't be any element of curus. Curus means there's cut off. If there's no curus whatsoever, it's complete complete alignment between the nish and the and the gof. Complete alignment. In other words, I'm comfortable in my state of ayen. I'm comfortable in my state of ayen. That's bit that's what ble means. B means you're comfortable in your state of ion. That only happens could happen through this world's journey. The expression is right by the soul gets cut off like the Rambam says and it says you go to you go to is like the abyss. In one of the it says the word which is the word for is the same letters like the word which means borrowed. It says by his mala was borrowed right muk belonged to David. Shaw borrowed it for a few years. Shaw means borrowed. Why is that the definition of the abyss definition? I live a borrowed life. One of the worst hells is when you live a borrowed life. In very practical words, it would mean I'm a people's pleaser. I'm living your life. I look how I look at you what's acceptable and then I adjust. And if I'm brilliant, right, like used to say, when Jews copy the Gentiles, they copy them much better than the originals. So they outgentile the Gentiles. You know, they do it much better. When they become Americans, they become real Americans. When they became Russians, they became real Russians. Much better than when they became Germans. Before in the old Germany, they were more German than the Germans because they do it right. Cuz whenever I'm copying something, I'm much less secure. I make sure I'm doing it right. The original I don't care. Aided called me yesterday. He's the Duke University. His name is Rabbi Blooming. So he told me that he took a group of secular students from his university and other universities. They went to Svas. So in Svas there's a lot of artists. So he says, "This student comes out with a painting and uh a small painting saw bloom." He says, "Wow, it's nice. How much did you pay for it?" He said, "I paid for it $75." He said, "I hate to say this, but the guy really uh you know these things you buy for $12. Uh it's not 75." He says, "No, no, no. It's an original. It's not a print. It's an original. The guy Pasha did it. It's an original. So it's $75." So he says, "Okay, but why did you have to spend He's a student. He doesn't have money. Why do you have to spend $75 on an original? You could have bought, you know, for $3 a copy." So he says, he looks at him, he says, "Rabbi, there's nothing in my life today that's not a copy. Everything the boy tells him a student, everything in my life is a copy. I wanted one thing that's actually an original that's not replaceable. If I make a copy, it's not that. I don't have anything that I can't replace with something that's not a copy. Huh? The V is worth more than $75. The V is worth. He says there's nothing in my life now that I can't replace. You know, even your girlfriend you can replace. Huh? Depends which one. depends on your relationship with them. I wanted something he he was ready to pay for something. The word show means borrowed. My life is borrowed. When is my life borrowed? When there's no I'm not connected to myself. So now I look at you and I say how should I live your life? That's that's a form of that's in a very very tangible level. It goes obviously deeper and deeper. So the of he says is of it's the journey of the whole journey of a person is to go from my defined as to my defined as which is no definition to go back through those stages and you can't skip it you go through I have to work it through I can't you can't it's called what do we call it spiritual bypassing you don't skip the yudk I'm going to high and that that's always going to be fake because your your your your embodiment your embodied soul is going to protest that it's a journey through to be able to realign it with its own with its with its ion that's the beginning that's the of from where it was taken from where it was given in and it started the process of vispas Okay, will continue the mimer next Thursday morning. That's in a week. Next Thursday morning. And at this point, we'll take a little break and wish you all dear brothers to you, to your loved ones, to all of those who are connected to you, of course, family, communities, to be a year of in which the mazel and and are completely aligned with the tremendous hashbah materially and spiritually of health, happiness, prosperity, no anxiety, only the anxiety of getting from yes to which is source of all anxiety. By the way, but it's it's it's a glorious it's a glorious form of of of tension. Yeah. If you can if you can realize that all anxiety comes from that place and Hashem should fulfill all of your heart's desires and and the delight of the should permeate us. should permeate asmus. A good everybody [Music] will never come and you will never see. Yeah. the nice to see you because the pope said 10 years ago to the chief rabbi in Mexico to change his religion hburg he wants the Jews he want the Jews he don't want Christianity he don't want blood liels no He want to do if you see that it's a you understood today very deep the first time I see you in person very deep but this is the this is the the core of of of all healing and reality we we need exercises to be able to uh internalize internalize it because it's just wordsh First time you you understand this my name that's the whole not not having that alignment anx or fighting or fighting the fact that uh I have a journey. Yeah. You're going