What actually happens when we sin and how to fix it according to the Zohar

we'll do something now short I chose something also on the same topic of chuva for whatever reason I keep getting all the time the same question for many people you know does chuva really help like you know we're at the end of the day we're human and we do a lot of problems and like you know what what do you do you know does Chua really is a guarantee that we're going to be okay and uh I recently got a like an extreme question a person told me you know what about like shom a woman who did an abortion or a man who cheated on his wife like like serious VAR so how do you how does Chua really care you know like because a person can live his life and say you know I did such bad things why bother you know let me just you know I already that's the nature of the he tells you you missed Mar today why you B to go to marak and you know one thing another and another thing before you know it you're like so far away you're like drifting like the the the waves in the ocean to a point that you're like so far away like how am I going to come back now and the natural thought is like you know can I even come back and I even do Chua so I came across this part this is from from the Zohar and the last three parishes that's talking a lot about chuva so you know since at the end of the day we're all human and we need to know how to deal with chuva because we're not perfect and the thing is that in our in this world you can you know anything a person did he can turn it around completely with Chua to a point that it's completely completely completely erased so what I'll do is I'm going to read from it from the Aramaic then I'll translate as as I'm reading I'll read just a part of it and then later on we'll go in a little bit more into it so he's basically talking a lot about first of all how does a person get to a point that he has to start doing chuva is that he basically did an AA so he goes a few steps back to to explain first of all what happens when we do an AA and we're not talking about you know that you forgot to say like a little braa or something like that that you do like more of a serious AA and unfortunately you know some of the serious of we don't even notice that we we do every day you know one of the bigger ones and we learned that last par and this is which is one of you know we don't consider that but it's like one of the biggest thing one can can you know we do it every day whether we want it or not and of the subject regardless of what we're going to learn now I recently learned that the the the the sin of is considered you know very severe and for each sin there's a TI there's something that you can do to kind of reverse it and for shab so the more you you elevate yourself on chabas the more you purify chabas the more you what's called mades shabas that's how you reverse the sin of and we see that D on chabas you always there there always starts fights always da shabas is like the time where where it's like it's easiest to start a fight because usually in a fight what do you do you swear you say bad bad words you you say hurtful things D on shab stable especially when you have a lot of young kids that's when you all get upset everybody makes a mess and we see that when we bench I I don't know if it's all if all the no say that but before we do after we do we say so the table which is is a that's whats for our sin of and shabas the says that if you do a you don't speak the whole shabas only thing you're allowed to say is like bras benching ding all that but if you don't talk one chabas of a whole day 24 hours of chabas that you do a T chabus is like a thousand fasts that's how powerful it is so to go a few steps back to kind of a little bit understand uh what happens before we did div the sin so it says like this it means that on the head of a person is dwelling what's called we see in in the partials of that it says which means that hasem created a person in the image of God so all over the head of a person is hovering that selm is like a figure this Godly figure and thism that is dwelling on the head of a person is called T that's the name of it we see in that it says in the shape of elim he continu says he created two two types of these Godly figure a female form and a male form and when Hashem created Adam he had two faces the front was a face of a man the back was a face of a woman that's why it says that he created him bet one image was the male figure one image was the the female figure and that figure is The Godly figure that that the Nama gets doesn't have a shape the Nama doesn't have a face but it has this Godly f and he continues he says there's two types of faces one of them is the male one of them is the female what it means that there's two sides of Holiness there's the side of Holiness that corresponds to the female part and there's the side of the Holiness corresponds to the male part that's why it it says m so the name of hasem is k v k the male part of the of the of the name is the last part of the name if you break the words you hey so that's the female part of of the name of Hashem and VAV K is the male part of the name of Hashem these two combinations of the letters the udk and the V K correspond and arouse the person to do the mitv so the ud the first part of the letters of the of AEM are kind of hovering over the person's head as a Godly figure or you know a lot of people call it an aura but it's something like this Godly thing that's surrounding the person and the female part of it is what's Awakening the person to do mitzvas so a person has this arousement oh I have to do this oh I have to bench I have to do this you know this arousement is coming from that Godly figure almost like hovering over the head and like influencing this godly power to make that person come on move your you got to make some mitzvas the first letter of of hem is the ud which corresponds for the highest level of of wisdom what's called from the second part is what corresponds and and trickles into the heart to have the the God fearing from Hashem so the first part of the name of hem influences us to do the mitzvot to have this arousement and the desire to do the mitzvot the second part of the name of hasem arouses in our in our in our in our heart in our in our Nish the the the the fear from hem not a fear that I'm scared of hem the fear that you know I I respect AEM and you have what's called you have a fear from from from doing a sin what prevents you from doing a sin and that part is basically guarding us from doing from from not doing all the negative Mitzvah so every time that you about a person is about to do a negative commandment or or transgress a negative Commandment that godly power is basically imp putting more pressure on the thought wait wait don't do it you have to fear Hashem that arouses the fear in us so we have these two Godly Powers one will correspond to the female part one will correspond to the male part the female part arouses us to more to do mitv which basically is a more of of an action of going forward towards something the m part is basically like stopping us preventing us from doing the opposite of that you instilling in us the fear in the first part of the hashem's name which we said corresponds to the female part not only that it correspond it arouses us to do the Mitzvah it arouses us to to it it more corresponds to the positive Mitzvah we have 248 positive Mitzvah and 358 negative Mitzvah so the female part arouses us more to follow the positive mitzvot and the negative and the male part arous us to to prevent from the from the negative mitv okay and then he continues the letter of hasem v a letter letter from hm's name V that's what dwells on a person's head and from that letter that person has the arousement to to speak Torah and to learn Torah and to behave according to the Torah we see that the the the the drawing of the letter VAV is like a line from above to the bottom which is basically symb symbolizing what's called hamak and influence from above to below this letter basically dwells above us and gives us the influence to have the desire to study Torah sometimes you wake up in the morning you're like I don't feel like doing it right now you know you I want to go to sleep now but when that letter is kind of hovering over you you you you feel like wait a minute I don't I I I feel like opening a book and learning something and it gives you this arousement to be close to the Torah not only that now the name of hem we can for this example we'll break it in half so the first two letters is the ud and the K and the second two letters is the v in the K so the when Shalom a person doesn't a he separates the letters from each other and that's why when we when we when we say to do to repent is to do chuva if you break the word of Chua is t means return and the last letter is hey so one might say you know on the surface oh doing chuva is returning to Hashem T return hey is AEM so you want to do Chua you return to Hashem but on a more deeper level when a person did a he separate the name of hem that dwells above him so he basically takes the he takes the Holiness that surrounds his and he separates it so when a person does Chua he basically takes the two letters and combines them back together that's what it means T mean bring back the hey into the into the name so this is the the the general part of Chua now okay now he's going to continue and saying the the the power that created the world hem has 10 Godly Powers What's called the power that was that created this specific world is the lowest what's called and this power this godly power imagine that hasem has these 10 sophisticated tools that we cannot really correspond or understand in our mind what it means but he has these 10 special powers and each power creates something else imagine this amazing machine this machine this part of the machine creates this this part of the machine creates that so corresponding that to a more spiritual way hasem has 10 special powers spiritual Powers that's how he creates things and the lowest level what's called that's how he created the entire world uh and he and he say he says he you know the Earth the the heavens the the Earth everything that's in it the the the water the the Earth everything corresponds and being created from that godly power and if that godly power will for one second move a little bit away and why would it move away because of sins if it would move for one second Collide if for one second this godly power will be removed from the world the whole World disappears and how does this godly power gets removed from this world by sin now it's basically saying that everything that is created in this world is created with a specific godly power that corresponds that comes from this godly power what's called Mal now we have to be a 100% of our life careful not to move that godly power from us because if Shalom we move this godly power from us it's almost like now you have electricity running in the house but if you go outside to the main how do you circuit you'll cut it off then all the electricity shuts down so if Shalom will cut that circuit of this godly power nothing will exist now this godly power this m is dwelling above the head of the person what we said before it corresponds to hashem's name but there's this godly power that is above each one of us if we would have these sophisticated glasses we would see this light hovering above our head and that light basically enlivens and and not only enlivens us it sustains us and it gives us all our spiritual sustance and one when one understands this is what's going on above me why would I want to move it it's almost like cutting my lifeline for myself and how does this Lifeline this godly power gets removed and how does it remove from when a person does a a sin if a person does a sin he kind of like Cuts this Godly pipe this where the the this Godly energy comes from and he removes it which basically he he brings himself what's called the the the the right tration is s the the the drug of death because a person is called when a person gets separated from its spiritual Source he like a dead person and and this specific power goes to the the female part of the Sam the you know the the the the boss of the yet and what happens is when a person does he removes this godly power from above him and he creates this void that what comes to replace it is the complete opposite what we call sitra the other side we don't even say the name because we don't want to even give that power more power by saying the name but when a person removes the light from him automatically the darkness comes in so ifom a person moves this godly power above him the other side of Holiness the complete other side that's where it comes and this dark power dwells above his head instead of the it has six names one of them is Tuma impurity one of them is Neva like a corpse the other one is PSA contaminated the other one is Mal Angel of Death the fifth one is darkness and the last one is aa aa is is even more than Darkness so this other side the the power is so strong that it has six levels of of how bad and how deep this evil force goes and these six names is corresponding to the other side of Kusa everything that there's Kusa there's also the other side of it what's called hasem created everything that hasem created in holiness unfortunately is is on the other side standing the exact same thing but on the other side what's called this is good this is bad this you have this power in the spiritual level you have the exact same power on the other side of of impurity and when a person does he's called at that point met he's dead he's called spiritually dead which means when a person the second he does the AA he he's he's considered dead and he's called he goes into a category of a Rasha of a wicked person now he basically explained in two simple things before a person did a sin he has this IV of a spiritual power that constantly trickles into his n the female part of the this godly power arouses him to do the mitzvah V arouses that person to to to run and presume its vot and and everything to in a in a movement of going closer to hem the negative the the male part of it basically refrains us from doing any a and it it keeps us it gives us this this God-fearing power that when Shalom you come close to you know it it saves you so this is all good everything is good and nice when a person is refraining from from doing any sins and he has this godly power in EN livens him butom the second when a person does he cuts that Life Source the this godly power moves away from him and automatically creates this void that all the other side the opposite of this godly power comes and takes place and then the influence that one gets is from the negative side about male and female part leave the thing is like this we he doesn't really get into it here but the thing is that each Mitzvah 613 mitzvot is corresponding to one piece of that channel I always like calling it like a a fi fiber optic so imagine you have this thick cable and it's built from 613 fibers and every Shalom that a person does he cuts one so a person does you know we can do all 613 mitv CU 60 70% of them has to do in the time when we have bet mdash and when we have Kim etc etc but so the thing is that then a person can do it in in what's called in Maka in the thoughts and can do it in a level of D meaning saying it studying it but when Shalom a person is disconnecting one of those fibers and only a little piece is missing but some of them a are so severe that it cuts off the whole entire thing and these are old a that fall under the category of K which is you know we're not keeping chabas eating on Yumer working on Yumer eating uh all the Forbidden relations and many other things that they have to has nothing to do with us because it has to do again with all the sacrifices you can't eat Kim and all sorts of stuff like that but we still have some of the a that kind of do apply to us so when a person that does that type of a he completely chops it off he's talking right now on these a when a person gets completely cut off from hasem look at a person who's not religious half of the Jews in the world if not 80% of the Jews in the world they're not religious those people are like technically they're called dead because their spiritual life force there's no connection they're getting their entire livelihood from the other side from they don't know getting anything from now here he starts telling okay now we understand what happens when we do a now a person can be you know fully religious and then have you know what's called AA he he stumbles and he falls and he does a certain sometimes this is big you know because you know you doah makes you do another mitah you do a NAA makes you do another one it makes you do another one before you know it you're like all the way out there so once a person shom got to that point then his only way to get back to reverse is his chuva and then he says like this now we have to understand a little bit what what does it mean CH there's a few people there's a few types of CHA a few people each person does that different type of Chua all of them are good all the types of the Chua are good not each one of them are equal why there a person who was like a completely Russ his whole life you know I I I I grew up like that I was like completely disconnected from anything according to to all the the definitions I was like a complete R had no no a person can be his whole life a total Russ he he does the same L says so many times that you know you cut the rope once what happens when you do it another time and another time and another time and another time you know there's nothing ready to cut but the person does chuva he repents and he admits you know chuva has a few stages the first stage is like you know I admit you know I was wrong a lot of people say know I I I feel bad but it's hard for you to admit but one of them is first of all to to to admit you know that's why we say V do that's why the says that the highest level of reversing the sin is the V is the actually confessing I did this I did this the other thing is he repents you know he feels bad that he did it and after that he doesn't do anything bad to any person and this is kind of of you know a complete cha so first of all he refrains from doing it again he feels bad and he stops doing it not only that he stops doing it he starts doing the complete opposite so he did bad up until that point now he completely reversed his situation he's like okay now I'm going to do good for this person for sure a person AEM will forgive this person why because he did Chua he stopped doing his sins he stopped going the wrong way a is this is not called what's called a CH it's a Chua you knowem forgive him for his sins and that's it he's fine but this is not the level to going to a high level what's called there's another person that you know let's let's categorize him that grew up religious but he you know did here in a Vera there in a Vera more than that he didn't do some positive mitzvas but he reversed his his his way he completely went back to the way of the Mitzvah he continued doing and doing and he's doing it with a lot of love to hasem but he's doing that because he wants to get the reward so he says you know yeah I really not really feel like doing it but I know from the wisdom that I have that for this Mitzvah I'll get a reward for this I'll get a reward if I do this thing I'll get a reward in this world I'll do that thing I'll get a reward for the next world but in his mind what motivates him is the reward not necessarily the the love forem this person okay will accept his cha but this is called like a CH very low level of CHA and this is like a lower level of chuva but he gets to he gets this level of this Holiness that was before to dwell back on him but another person does you know repents he completely regrets and he does CH but he he all of his Essence he works his Chua his serving of hem is from love to Hashem not because he wants a reward not because he's afraid because he wants to be close to Hashem this is already a higher level of Chua and they they call Z calls this level of CH because it's a higher level of and B is V is basically saying this is the highest level because you can take the V of the sin and bring it back to Hashem a person to get to that level to rever completely reverse his wrongdoing is only if he gets to a much higher level of chuva just repenting and saying okay you know I'll stop what I'm doing he basically just got himself you know off the punishment but I like saying it that you know a lot of people say you know I didn't know I'm not allowed to do this and I didn't know I'm not allowed to do that especially people who you don't they don't don't grow up religious so they say you know I I knew I'm not supposed to eat I'm not supposed to desecrate chabas but I didn't know I'm not allowed to do this and I didn't know I'm allowed to do that so the way I I I see it is when shom a person does in a era he creates this spiritual blemish and to kind of compare it to to This World Imagine a little boy goes to the fridge he climbs up he opens the plge he SE SE like a chocolate pudding on the on all the way on the top he decides he cles up on the fridge he pulls it out and as he pulls it out everything falls out of the fridge and everything gets splashed over the whole floor is a big mess so the mom comes in sees this little three-year-old sitting in a paddle of dirt so she doesn't get upset she doesn't scream at the child she doesn't punish the child but the fact remains that the floor is still dirty so the child doesn't get like punished or anything but there is still that he made the whole floor dirty so a lot of the time a person does an AA whether he knew it or didn't know it he does Chua okay hasem is not upset at him but the fact remain that this spiritual blemish is still there and the CH does not remove it which means okay Hashem forgives him don't worry you're fine but the spiritual blemish that you created by that a is still there and the only way to completely wipe it off is by the highest level of Chua and he continues and he says and the secret behind this is because when a person not only is afraid of hem is actually love AEM because he doesn't know know a different way to serve AEM because all that he cares about is the relationship between him and hem he doesn't care about everything you know beyond that he doesn't care about a reward or not a word know there's a question now in our par why did theim got punished you know if you read the actual script they did exactly what mosenu told them mosu go see if the land how it is and he told them can we conquer the land so they said you know you know we don't know because there big city the cities are gated and their people are big but they just said what they saw and then a Moshe asked them is this land real good like the promised so they said yes we saw this amazing fruit there so there's a big question why didn't it get punished because they they just did exactly what Moshe told them and they reported and the thing is the answer is is because when they came and started talking it says in the par that silenced them like told them like stop stop talking and that's why they got punished because they reversed the their testimony instead of first saying yeah the land is great and and then say no but it will be maybe hard to concrete they see the other way around they said no it's going to be hard to concrete oh yeah by the way the land the land is great so this corresponds from serving AEM and that's why which who was in a much high level say like shut them up because he says no we're not supposed to serve AEM Al to get a reward it's the other around and that's like in a higher level why they got punished so he's saying a person who wants to to reach that higher level of of chuva has to do it because he doesn't doesn't interest him the reward he interests him the relationship he has with AEM and then I'm going to skip one part because I want to just get to a more interesting part he says like this ER that when a person is in the be in the state before the sin he has this Godly figure around him and all the other creations is are afraid of him that's why it says when we put a fill in on all the nations are afraid of the Jews because it say because when we put the men put F on they put the name of Hashem we put the name of Hashem on our head and all the rest of the Nations they don't see it but they get this fear against you know from the Jews because the name of hasem is is is upon them so when a person is going completely in the path of mitzvot he carries the name of hasem on him this godly power so everything else humans and animals are afraid of him that's why we see like in great sadim in in history like Danielle they threw him in the pit of of of lions you know the lions were afraid of him because he was such a pure person that the name of hasem was on him that the animals were afraid to to to to get close to him and and he actually says be much before that that one of the reasons why we have to cover our head is because when we when we remove the cover from our head we remove the with it the says we're not allowed to walk four steps without a head covering and he he basically the D says that it's so severe that when a person moves the head covering from his head in the physical level he actually removes the the the in the spiritual level from his head and that corresponds both to to to men and women there's many reasons why a man walks with the yamaka and there's remon why many reasons why women cover their heads so according to the zor it's not and it's not from all the other reasons that we learn he says no any person has the above their head and if if a person actually removes that covering he pushes away the away from him so when why do we say shma at night because when the n leaves the body at night it leaves its domain the owner of the house left the house so you want to put the alarm on that the the burglars will not going to come in cuz what's happening when we go to sleep the n leaves the body so the body is soaked with Holiness so all these cipot all these spiritual entities they want latch on the body to to suck this godliness that's how they alive in them like like ticks how do they survive by sucking somebody else's blood so this exact same thing is in a spiritual level these These are the name so when we say shma we surround in a shama with with angels that guard it there's different things that we do to prepare our body before we go to sleep to guard the body exactly why we live the house for vacation you don't leave the house with the doors open what's going to happen the you know thieves are going to come in so exact same thing before we leave the body down here so you know the explains that when we say shma we create angels that surround the body how we say there's a part in in the in the shma that's it's it's taken from from that it says we create these angels that are like surrounding the body with with swords and these cannot touch the body because the body itself is soaked with Holiness and the thing is that I actually learned you know according to cabala we're not allow when we wake up we have to wash our hands right away because there's Tuma on our hands and the result is is is and he says you're not all to put your feet on the ground and I recently learned that when you just by the act of preparing the bucket with the water and putting it next to your bed you create this angel that stands next to the bed next to the body and protects the body from all the harms and this the the the easiest way to explain it is is a spiritual tick that it latches on something holy and it wants to suck the Holiness from him now if you are completely closed you segregate yourself then those they don't have any is grabbing so and now the thing is that if you do have what's called P like breaking in your Shield these ticks the spiritual ticks they slip in and they grab a little bit that's where a person gets all his you know it can come in many different ways all the doubts all the coldness to to to yish kite you know they they basically attack the body now when a person goes to sleep that's when they really latch it on the body so these these spiritual ticks they constantly looking for a person to latch on now if a person is totally holy all day long is immersed in mitv all day long is immersed in doing good deeds he has this you know arm arm how do you AR armor arm armor he has his armor around him nothing can penetrate but these this they're looking for a person that just made a sin oh you know they have a GPS for the sins they find a person that made a sin that person creates this opening in that armor and they straight away go in and attack so explains is these these spiritual ticks how do they grab on the body on hairs they can grab the hairs on a man it's the the the hair on the head that's why you see like a lot of they totally shave the head not going to be any not going to be any grabbing but the facial hair is the complete opposite with a woman is the other way around the facial hair is where the has that's yeah that's why unfortunately some women if they have facial hair they have to totally shave it but there the in Reverse to the male the head the hair on the on the on the head is the holy part now the other side of this unholiness is the Kusa the unholiness is all this impurity but the Holiness is the other side for the man this Holiness grabs on its beard so if a person this is what theal explains when a person grows his beard his on him the 13 attributes of mercy and all these they grab on his beard with the woman is the other way around not on the facial on the hair so explains that when a a woman goes into Thea up until she goes into Thea she's not complete so she's still in the domain of her father but at the time of Thea when you know the man and the woman are together it says that all the gates of Heavens open imagine all theim all the Heavens open and it's a time when hem sews the souls together the man of the and the woman and at that time an abundance of blessing for the entire life of the cou is given at the time of the now what happens is you see in like the Orthodox weddings they cover the face because this great blessing this abundance fall on the face and we learned that MOS when he got the Tora he came down from the mountain he says his face was like a projector of light the same a color just we don't see it so the kala the woman is who is the is the is the vessel for the blessing the man is like a tool the woman is the vessel that holds all the blessing and she's the source of the blessing she's basically everything a man is just going around her and doing you know what we're supposed to do but the woman can do nothing and she's the channel where everything comes from so during the time of the all that blessing is given to the woman that's why you see that they cover the face and like the and Orthodox they they make sure that the veil is not even seethrough that nothing nothing from that light will be removed and at that time this what theosophy explains that at that time all that abundance of blessing goes down on the woman and where does it grab it grabs the hairs because the the the holy part for the woman is the hairs for the man is the beard that's why the women right after that cover the hair completely because any hair that is exposed that blessing is spread out how about if they shave their hair not that to get off topic completely uh according to cabala the they they according to mysticism cabal they're not supposed to to shave their head I heard that they shave their hair because during it started um I just heard the sh the other day that the Romans were were trying to um they raped the women before they got married and the women wanted to make themselves look unattracted so that wouldn't happen and that's where it just started from there could be but all in general don't believe women should shave their hair exact opposite yeah the thing is the sex that the women shave their hairs is because they don't want to have one inch of a doubt that one hair will go out and there's going to be Ana like the one of the will grab on it that's why some sex actually shave their hair according to you don't have to shave your head you have to cover your hair but you don't have to shave your hair but the thing is think you know SE that they actually shave their hair but I I know from a person that I asked when I ask them why do they why they shave their hair because they don't want even like one piece of hair sticking out and and you it's almost like you're having like you know trillions of dollars and one hair is like5 billion dollar you know you don't even have one like one inch of and the thing is that when you really refine yourself and everything around you then your whole level of observance in is a much more refined level so you can keep kosher to a certain level if you refine yourself even much more in the strictness in in koser that you you elevate yourself you refine yourself to a level that your whole serving of hem is is in a completely different level so not to completely Sidetrack the explains that this this spiritual tick grabs the the the men in their hairs and and and in the women also in the hair that's why the women cover their hair I don't know how we completely H Sidetrack to the hair no no because we were talking about H what were we talking about uh I don't know how we Sidetrack to the hair but the thing is that that our body is soaked with Holiness that's why when Shalom when a person dies why do we have to bury the body right away because the body is is empty it's like an open bank all these cpot they rush to the body just to jump on the body and to suck the Holiness from the body imagine like the like these like wild animals just looking for fair now the more you segregate yourself from being exposed the less attacks you have against you so if a person is completely segregating himself with all the little you know H every little thing he will have less you know a lot of people say oh I have a big yeah is one of the agents but you also have many other forms that come and attack the person with many different things it can be you know weird thoughts all sorts of doubts all sorts of coldness towards Hashem Etc so we kind of sidetracked from what we were talking about but I stopped that he was saying that when a person is completely devoted to Hashem the name of Hashem dwells on him so creatures are afraid of him uh human people human beings are not afraid of him that they run away from him in in the street but they have like automatically already a like this you know when you see a holy person walk next to you you automatically you don't know him you don't know you're like you have this like a respect to him another the other day I was at a wedding and walked in you know the ra is no I forgot now he was now here in New York for a visit uh am arar so you know you look at the person besides that he's dressed like in the in more authentic sephar look but you know you look at him you're like wow you see this this Godly figure that even a person who's not Jewish will be like wow he looks like this holy man because the thei this Godly figure is dwelling on that person but he continues if a person Pam did a blemish in his deeds it P this this Godly figure also gets damaged so imagine like you have this beautiful glass stained window if you throw a stone the whole window shatters so we have this amazing Godly figure around us and ifom a person does a AA he does a Pam a blemish he also do does this blemish on The Godly figure this and then what happens cannot dwell in a place that is not perfect and the place where there's this this not Darkness but the place where there's this blemish so the light of hasem moves away so what comes in like we said before all the darkness and all the things that comes with it and because of this this blemish the darkness enters because you like kind of open a piece of this AR armor how do you say armor armor armor excuse my English I'm you know I'm Israeli so uh so you like kind of like open a piece in and you let all this Darkness come in you can see a person that Shalom stumbles and he does in AA in stly gets depressed he gets he doesn't have you know the energy to wake up in the morning he doesn't want to do anything he gets like completely sucked down that's how you know the the spiritual part gets blemished so the whole body gets blemished and a person shom can get to a place that either he becomes mute either becomes death either he becomes blind or either he becomes like a I don't know a nice way to say it but you you know crazy but he says he explains it this is how the zor says you know you know a person doesn't a it doesn't become blind he doesn't become deaf or he doesn't become mute but the zor explains it here like in a parenthesis yeah he becomes blind in his spiritual way so he if a person does this AA he shatters this Godly figure this Godly figure this gets blemished automatically the godly power completely gets removed cuz it can be in in a place that is is is a imperfect and what happens is either person becomes blind meaning blind in a spiritual way so he doesn't see good in people he doesn't see the benefit in doing Mitzvah he becomes blind there's what's called a but call a Heavenly voice every day there's heavenly voices but call that comes and announces he becomes deaf he can't hear the but call cuz sometimes a but call comes out and and and and you know especially in in every day there's a b that says come and do and repentance the person becomes deaf he can't hear it he doesn't even get this Awakening from above a person becomes mute he doesn't he doesn't feel like saying the everything has become like dead and all because of this one little sin he just opened a little bit of a gap and all this Darkness came in we understand the B it's not that I necessarily would hear it but spiritually hears it you don't hear it we don't hear that but the actually hears the but you know they they say sikim they do hear the bad call but you know we don't hear it then hears it so sometimes you wake up in the morning you know you had a bad month suddenly you wake up in the morning you have this amazing energy you feel like going and praying today and you're like you you like you know you super energized you don't know where it came from it could very much be you know that there was a bat call saying hey you know wake W up you don't hear it but you you feel this arousement but the zor says because of a sin a person can become deaf he doesn't even hear the what's called H the announcements so he's basically going in I'm not going to get into all the the needy greedy but just because one little sin that a person like opened just a little bit of Gap and all this Darkness came in and the all the light went away the person gets into this wh pearl of of so many like bad things and then it says and this darkness of this cppa of this spiritual infection is basically comes and gets attached like like a tick and what happens all the levels of Holiness all the angels that he ever created from all of his his Mitzvah because every Mitzvah that you do you create thousands of angels so imagine now you're 40 years old you have 2 billion Angels because all the Mitzvah that you ever did all the time around you but if a person was does one a ver this Darkness this ciper takes effect all theim they move away because they want to be next to hem they don't want to be next to the kppa so you remove all your you know there's many sources it says we have Guardian Angels around us yeah every Mitzvah that we do we have a guardian angel we have Angels around us that that that save us why they say it's the is such a high level of of of of of Mitzvah that the the Mal the angel that you create because of that is so great that it can save you from death but what happens is that all the malim that ever created are pushed away they don't want to be in your Club they want to be next to hem all the the he calls it the the the soldiers all the soldiers of Hashem they don't want to be you know where you are they want to be next to the king so you kind of like this attaching yourself you know from all the good that you ever did and they're like and they're like moving away from the from the from our limbs so it's pretty you know pretty extreme you're thinking like with one sin like you you like totally cut off it's like you being from one second you're being the most popular person in the room and then in one second you're like out of the club but anyways then he keeps on going he says begin and that's why in at the time of the BET MDES they used to give the the the Corban the goat that they used to throw to AEL so that will go to towards that darkness and then they used to you know they they sacrific 70 70 Bulls corresponding to the 70 Nations he's going here to to more to another way what happens when you do the sin uh but here he concludes and he says okay so we learned that a person was in a good state right he didn't a Vera we know what what happened right now now he wants to do chuva so we said before there's the three types of people who do the chuva the one who does the chuva because you know he he really means that but you know it's a lowlevel Chua the second person he does it because he's a free he want he's doing it for the reward which is again a low level cha and the highest level cha that he's doing it just because he wants to be connected back to Hashem but these that go all the way to the darkness if they do CH if right away they do Chu meaning that even if they just contemplated just had a what happens is the power of Chua is so strong that you just think of CH and this darkness of the kip you you completely break it this this blemish that a person did with his sin imagine you take a wall you take this huge axe you make a crack in the wall that's what happens with a with a with with just a contemplating of just thinking of Chua the the Pam gets closed which means like as if it was never there and the the secret behind is that's what says he quotes meaning that a person does chem removes the sin and you not can be considered dead that's how we said before that person is considered dead and right away the the name of hasem goes back to that person right away the name of hem dwells back on him and he gets cured here he he he says it is like the the bites of this all these destructive angels and the all the the suffering that one has to go through when he does an AA but with the chuva he completely cures from it as it says how do we know that right away that dwells back on him right there's a famous verse so what does it mean so you you come to me you do Chua right away I'm going to come to you that's how we know that when a person does Chua right away he reverses the situation but so we say oh so CH is my way out I did a shom as big as it can be I just need to do chuva then I'm out I'm clean so he gives a condition no no no no it has to be a complete CH it can't be like a half a CH it has to be complete like the highest level of CH basically you're reaching the highest level ofm corresponds to the three first letters of Hashem k v but like hey the hay that you removed in the Sin which is the level of Mal what we said before that godly power that hovers over our head with this highest level of Chua he be able to bring the hay back and attach it back together and kind of like imagine like a like a pipe and it gets cut off and then you just return like the pipe again again all the the the whatever there's a good flow uh and basically says that once you reverse it you kind of reverse all the blemish that happened before so to kind of to conclude is basically saying yeah you can basically do anything the the worst wor sin you can imagine over and over and over but if you do the the Chua in the highest highest level then you're like as if it never happened and amazingly I learned something very amazing two weeks ago we learned that the Nim they had to bring an offering and it says that they brought all they all brought the same thing and it goes and explains what they brought and then it says that each one brought aat a silver platter so Rashi says silver platter is is the same numerical value of 930 which is the years of AD like what's the connection you know here we're talking about theim they brought an offering to the to the the M rash says it's the the numerical value of karat is the same numerical value of 930 which is the life span of Adam what's the connection so in a more deeper level philosophy explains that theim were offering to the to the m the m we know is to Aton for our sins now what happened basically made did a sin so according to what we learned he's he's supposed to die on the spot how didn't he die right according to you know he did a big sin according to then there wasn't but according to what we know he's he has to die right away how come he didn't die so it says okay we know that the midash says say that a thousand years of ours is like a day of Hashem so he says oh so he adamon lived like supposed to live a thousand years right but we know that he gave David 70 years David was not supposed to live so long Adam gave 70 years to to David So 930 years okay so we calculate the math because in the eyes of hem 1,000 years of us is one day of hem So Adam did was did go through ma but philosophy explains something even nicer it says adish you know was the first creature then said you know I'll create for him a wife so he created the wife then the wife went and dealt with the Nash and he tricked her and he convinced her to eat now when K came to Adam and she told him you know eat he didn't have any doubts in her because a a a man Even in our days he trusts his wife because the wife what do we say in Hebrew the wife is a katab bite right a carat a bite comes from iar is the main thing a husband walks home and his wife puts dinner on the table he doesn't ask her the H where did she get the meat he doesn't ask her if she she made sure that she checks the vegetables for No Bugs he trust his wife blindly if you know if the wife was n she went to the mik she comes back the husband doesn't interrogate her if she's pure she's not pure he blindly trusts his wife so the same thing Adam blindly trusted his wife he said if my wife is giving it to me must be that it's that it's there's nothing wrong with it more than that were the first people in the world so Adam said everything that comes to me is some type of a message Fromm it's a from so if comes to me with this fruit must it be that I trust my wife must it be that it comes Fromm so he had it then they made the sin and it says you knowa explains that at the time they're in such a high level they didn't even use physical eyes but at that time their eyes physically opened but what happens was it says that andem they they they they they were afraid and then they they the says they felt like very embarrassed why would they feel embarrassed so philosophy explains right when they did the sin they realized that they did a sin and they did chuva right away why did they feel embarrassed they regretted they did Chua on the spond they did chuva you know what I mean that's why the they weren't because right then we did the sin they understood that they did a sin right on the spot they did Chua and they did such a high level Chua that like as if there nothing happened now then comes the question so how come they didn't live for eternity because they brought down death to the world and Hashem said if I'm going to make them live forever then I'm going to make also the other side live forever so I have to put an end to their life and that way I can at the end of the line put an end to the other side of Holiness if hm would live let Adam and live forever then the other side the sit would live with them forever so hasm said I have to cut it off so we learned from that that Adam and did cha right when they did the sin they figured out they they they understood they they regret it that's why and then they they they they they felt embarrassed they weren't felt embarrassed because they were naked they felt embarrassed because they did the and right away they did Chu and they reversed the whole situation that's why ad wasn't he he wasn't that's where he lived for the rest you know till till the end so we learned that the level of Chua is such you know it's such if if you reach to such a high level of chuva you can completely completely erase everything that you did now the what you need to learn from here okay you can say you know I grew up religious you know my what am I have VAR and little bubus things you know okay so you know I there's nothing much to do but you know when Jews out there they're walking in the streets all day long they're dead they're totally dead we we just said you know person Cuts himself completely from hasem it's like a walking dead corpse and when you standing on the other side you are able to point at a person be like that person is completely spiritually dead and to learn how to do Chua for yourself that's good you know okay we do sins we're not perfect so at least we know the tool but why do we have this knowledge and this tool to go to other people and make them help them do Chua you know not not to think of yourself of that level of the person who does it oh it's my it's my issues you know I want to do cha too so so I'll get a nice place in GED and I'll have a good world to come I'm not going to be punished etc etc that's that level of the person who says I'm do what's good for me but the second level of the chu a person says I I don't care about everything around I care about the relationship between a between one person to the other and that and that level of trth is running after those people who are dead and help them and get them to do choua they don't have any tools and what do you what do you need them to do in order to get everything back is just they just need to reverse it and that's it they get back that has name hasem names dwell on them everything goes back you can completely save a person by by helping them do chuva so you know everything that we learn is we learn it's good for ourselves but the best way you know the mishna says if a person learns on to to in order to know and to do then they only allow him from sham to learn and to do but if a person learns to to know how to do and and to to to know but also to teach then he has the reward of actually going out and teaching and that's the highest level of Chua that we can reach because at the end of the day we're not perfect and we do a lot of sins whether we want it or not and even though we're religious we still do a lot of sins and because we're religious then is being very particular with us you know a person who's not religious you know he did a suem is like you know it's like a baby but because you are religious hasem is like being very picky with every little thing who says you're religious you know so when you don't know you're like treated like from above like oh he didn't know so we even have even a moral responsibility so besides the you know the the level little of Chua that we can do Hashem tells us no you can reach in a much higher level obviously will help yourself but if you want to reach to the highest highest level of Chua and you know that you're living this world completely clean slate is if you go and you reverse other people and help them er do Chua and this is when when a person when hasem sees you go out of your way to help somebody else and Hashem says I'll I'll take care of your problems and you take go take care of my kids I'll go take care of your your problems and that person who asked me not too long ago you know like all like real severe things he's like what about a woman who did a miscarriage and and this and that he was like was he was very curious to know if if the TR I told him if that person reaches one reaches to the highest level of CHA it's like as if nothing happened you know there's a story that you know the three malim came to AB to tell him that Sarah is going to have a boy so one Mal came to destroy do one Mal came to kill know came to tell the news so Sarah was standing outside the tent and listening and then he told her you know in a year he told in a year from now you're going to have a boy so it says that Sarah left you know so Hashem later on came to Sarah and he was like what how dare you laugh if I want to make you pregnant I'll make you pregnant you doubt in my powers that I can make you pregnant that you laugh so the says s said I don't even know what you're talking about I didn't laugh so shim is like what are you making a joke I I saw you laugh she's like no no no no that's the I did Chua I don't know what you're talking about she did like such a high level of Chua that I don't I don't even it wasn't me that laughed even so you know with the highest level of chuva a person can reverse the situation like you know it's not me and the says when a person gets to Sham after 128 120 years and he reached the highest level of Chua they don't show anything that he ever did they don't even show no sins a person can walk into to Sham like pure pure like snow so we should all Merit not only that we would reach that level but that we would be able to reach out and to to get as many as people to get to that level you know and only by that that we go out of our way it's very easy to be in our comfortable surroundings and worry about our elves but when you really go out of yourself and you say I want to help another person another person you know ultimately by that besides reaching the the the our own selfish level let's call it of Chua dka when all the Jews reach that level that's when we can reach the ultimate G which you know will bring the coming of mssiah and only by that we can reach that level because Messiah is literally should come any day it's just that little little push and that little thing is the biggest thing that one can do it's going out there and you know you know a lot of people say I met this person and I told him that he he did all sorts of things and I told him you know you really want to make sure that you're cleaning your your background do what you need to do but take out of your time and go help people he's like me what do I know how can I come to a person so I told him you know you you know you know a so you can teach a person a even if you don't know much but you can you know something beyond what another person knows you know you know a little bit of you know laws go and teach that we do something that is beyond your your your what you think is beyond your ability and when a person reaches that level I actually learned not to long ago that I never knew that because a lot of people think that parasa is being damaged by other different sins you know there's sources that say when a man looks in the wrong places it's hurts Thea different different things when a woman is not careful with there's different things but I actually recently learned that daa uh one thing that hurts the mosta is when a person talks bad things bad bad words swears so you know sometimes you walk in the street something Falls in this on the floor you're like you know you say bad word and it comes in as as a an instinct you don't even notice and the source where I learned D these things these are the things that are are stopping the shef of the and it's not like I'm not talking about it's not it's called you know you're standing in trait you just say you know you say the f word from somebody who blew their hor you know things you don't even think of sometimes s you know you scream at at a friend a child or whatever you say like you know even things that doesn't make when you you don't give big to it you know it's like a normal thing and da the these things I learned amazingly these are the things that cut the she the abundance of parasa so you know every little thing makes a big difference so with the Merit that we all here should all have a lot of success a lot OFA a lot of braas thank you for having us big can I just ask you you said earlier that the for is shab shabis why how is it like an eye for an eye like I just uh the thing is like this it's not an eye for an eye in most things in most sins that a person does the tick doesn't make even sense like you know that I did this this is the tikun so there's not that you know you know a person did a ver a the tikun kind of makes sense if you actually look at all the tiim you'll see that one doesn't correspond to each other for whatever reason I don't know why shabas the thing is like is is like is that there's many Pim that says how shabas is M everything shabas is the mouth the thing is like this in cabala there's what's called a is a face the N doesn't have figures it doesn't have a look but we learn from cabala that the same way that we have eyes so the N has spiritual eyes the same way we have a mouth the Nish has the spiritual mouth but it doesn't have the shape of it and that the Nish how we call it let's say the mouth it corresponds to the so there's 10 Godly powers that that Hashem has these Godly Powers that's called but the same exact Powers Hashem put them in a person it's called the 10 powers of the Soul so the soul doesn't have a face doesn't have a body but in the spiritual structure of the Soul it has if you ever saw you know the the diagram of the how it's you know you see it in the the pictures of theal with the with the Rings and how they all correspond to each other if you look at the structure it kind of looks like a body cuz like this the ker is the head and then it has the arms that's why there's a he explains how these are compared to to limbs like there two hands there two legs so in in in this shape this phys this spiritual shape there's something that's like a spiritual mouth and that Cor responds to and you know it says creates the world we learned right in the beginning that created the world with that tool with so creat everything that has to do with this world is is done with the of Mal and the of Mal is the level of talking of De that's why everything is created speaks hasem speaks and he creates the world so the same way that Hashem created the world with the level of Mal which is the mouth the level of speaking shabus is malus because malus is kingship I don't know if I'm saying is that such a word kingship like a king not Kingdom uh B is like how do you say like the king the king and the Queen have their King Kingdom Kingdom so Mal is the kingdom but the Mal is the female part of that godly power which is the king is the queen shab Shabbat so shabas is the Queens shabas corresponds to Mal to the female part and since Mal corresponds to the power of speaking so shabas corresponds to the power of speaking so the tun is done with your mouth and this you know the main tun is actually done on the shabas table that's why the shabas table everything in shabas is around the meals when one would think of why what's the what's the point of the meals you have to do Kish in the day Kish in the night everything is in the meals because for whatever reason daa the the the act of the meal which again is the same level all the meals it's in the mouth everything in the level of the mouth that probably for whatever reason is is is the Tik for the damaging of the mouth because how do you sanctify shabas like you you you you how do you beautify shabas with nice clothes nice things on the table but mainly the all the things that you eat so all theam that we create with our mouth our mouth is very powerful everything that we say we can create and we can destroy just with our mouth a person shut you know I learned that from all my years is what I learned is good for the body is you have to hold if you can hold your tongue you're going to reach the highest level of serving of hem because it's the hardest thing holding your tongue reacting and and talking you know what I mean so the so the highest level of the damage is done with your mouth so shabas comes and says oh you Dam whatever you damage with your mouth now you're going to fix it in chabas why it was chosen that's the we don't know why but shabas is the is the and all the all the talking bad and all the other bad things we do bad things with our mouth you know not only with talking even sometimes you know when you eat you know you there's no ISO of eating but you know you you it says you have to sanctify yourself with what you allowed so you're allowed to eat but it doesn't mean you all day long have to like you know how do you say gluttony like like like you know the mishna tells us you know you have to eat all all week long you know be very modest with your food shabas go all the way shabas it's a Mitzvah to eat during the week you eat to elevate to have power to your to your body to serve AEM so even when a person abuses that it's it's not an AA but you know says you be holy cuz I'm holy so if you make if you elevate yourself to a holy level then it's even in the things that you're allowed to do so you know during the week in my house we're very careful no sweets no treats we want to keep it especially for the of the kids the treats and ice cream and all the good stuff is chabas during the week it's during the week but the treats chabas they have chabas parties and cakes and ice cream they go they go crazy shabas is the is the is the Funday but during the week like the rabbi of the Shiva where I study it's unbelievable I never seen anything anything like it you know sometimes people bring you know there or k or whatever they bring to the sh after d some and everything he doesn't touch anything it's unbelievable you know and everybody come come take a piece he's like no no no no you know he he the whole week is literally you know H not not enjoying every not even one second of of of of good food so unfortunately we can damage things with our mouth is extremely powerful the same way that the power of hasem to create this world was done with the spiritual mouth of hem that's how powerful our mouth the zor says that we can destroy worlds with our mouth and we can actually rebuild worlds with our mouth when you say Aba this is the highest level where you connect to Godliness with your mouth the highest level of connecting with hem is during a Mitzvah so when you study Torah you reach one level of godliness but to reach the highest highest level of hem which called what's called and the highest level is Da with the physical mitvah when you light candles when you hold Lula when you put fill in everything that is physical that's the highest level of of of connection with hem that's why he says one second in this world put putting tisis on putting Fillin on it's greater than the entire world to come not because of the reward because in we're not going to see the level of atut we're just going to see like hasem but with a Mitzvah in this world you can reach the highest level of of hem and you get reunited not reunit United with Hashem when you do a Mitzvah you connect yourself to this highest level of godliness and the Soul just gets sucked into AEM and becomes re with hm this is the highest level of that one can reach not even studying Torah is a physical Mitzvah that's why you know in the 60s and the 70s the when he wanted to go out on Outreach he didn't say bring them to shabas didn't say go and teach them Torah make them do a mitvah put Fillin on them because you can convince a person on the street to put it to put Fillin on but the fact that he did the physical Mitzvah that's the highest level the N gets connected with hem so for a man it's easy it's fill in for a woman is candles it's her physical Mitzvah but unfortunately going back to with just our mouth is so powerful that our mouth is you know is responsible for all problems that's why the r says that hold your tongue from hold your tongue because it will stop all the ra everything that ra is if you hold your tongue don't speak like the the the wrong things because all the source of all the bad comes from your mouth so if a person looking why bad things are happening it starts from the mouth and unfortunately we all go through all sorts of bad things if it's you know bunny children relationships it's all in their mouth