Vayishlach-We're Not Just Spinning Our Wheels

the living higher series I'm sorry that I missed the past couple of weeks but we're back now we're ready to go brother we're going to we're be back with a sharite and this week's topic is we're not just spinning our Wheels we're not just spinning our Wheels this we's paraa is par we have one of the seminal moments in our nation's history we have the moment where we become the B Isel where we're called Isel what happened the Tells returned alone returned alone to pick up to collect the small DRS that were left behind he encounters the Mal the angel of asov who tries to overcome yob he's not able to and they fight they wrestle one with the other until the morning comes and when morning comes and the mouth sees that he cannot overcome yabu he says release me it's my turn to sing the Shir it's my turn to sing the praise to and he asked asked him what's his name he said my name doesn't matter he say yob what's your name says and he says no from now on you're going be called is why are you going to be called is because you struggled that the reason why we're called this is so important to realize is because of this struggle because of this epic struggle that Yu had with the Mal that the Mal couldn't overcome that our whole name says is is that the of Y the of Judaism is this fact this idea that we're called y that we're called y because why because of the struggle with the Mal this is so important to realize so often we look at things that did we win the a Zahara or did we lose to the asahara but when we're locked in that arm wrestle when we're struggling when we push him off we don't think about that but Ben the reason why we called is because of this struggle but it's so much more there's so much more going on in these Suk now we have to take a look what's going on behind this Su so the and yov remained alone what does it mean that he was alone the to tells us that means that y felt on his level disconnected from he felt so alone tells us that what do it mean that when do we have our biggest struggles with when do we feel that we're so alone so disconnected that we're fighting thear on our own that's when our we have in our life when our life is dark and we have to realize that there's going to be there's going to be a morning that's going to come we have to hold on until that morning comes but it's so much more than that Rashi says is a lan of aak which means dust has the Shish has the root word aak dust in there what's the significance of dust Rashi tells us that when yov and the Mal were struggling when they were wrestling one with another they were kicking up dust in their struggle dust was getting kicked up from their feet while they were struggling what's the significance of the Dust getting kicked up from their from their feet so the that's and this is in the Z kades as well tells us that this dust that got kicked up from their feet went up to the Kia coved this was holy dust this was dust being kicked up from somebody struggling with his Yara where does that dust go that dust go straight to the this is something that's so important that we have to realize in our lives sometimes we could feel alone we feel disconnected from we feel like we're by ourselves sometimes you could have a person that's surrounded by people he's in a crowd yet he feels so alone he feels such darkness in his life and he's struggling with his y Sahara and he ultimately he might fall he might lose that battle with his Sahara and he looks at himself see I knew I couldn't do it that is the wrong way to think about it we're not just spinning our Wheels we're not just here not doing anything even if it feels like right now we're not accomplishing these moments of struggle these moments where we push off the anahara we say not right now even if ultimately we fall but right now we hold on we push off we struggle withar that dust that we're kicking up when we're spinning our wheels that dust that is excuse me that is flying up in the air is going straight to the in his in K he calls this struggle these moments of struggle calls them moments of nitas that we forget about them especially when it resulted at the end of the day when we fell when we didn't beat our Yahara when ultimately we gave in Tara we don't think about those moments of struggle but he says those are moments of nitus that one day one day in the when we go upstairs we're going to look back at all those moments where we held off theara or even if we didn't succeed in holding off theara but where we struggled with Yar we were locked in that arm wrestle trying those are moments of nitus those are moments of forever that could never be taken away from us those are moments when we become your strong when we become when we earn our name the B those are moments that we're struggling trying to hold on fighting this is the struggle of life this is what life is all about the in the first par it says that a person has to [Music] know what are we doing over here and then says that the truth is that a person is placed in the midst of a raging War our life were placed in the midst of a raging warba is medic he says tells us that a person has to know what is his what is his what is his obligation in his world not what is my in the world but in his world says that each person has to realize that we are an we are a whole whole entire world every single one of us that we're placed in this battle and we have to figure out what we have to do in our world you see when we're fighting when we're in the struggle especially if ultimately we fall we don't look at us as if as if we're an entire world we don't look at us as if we're an IL we don't look at ourselves like that we look at ourselves like failures but that's not true and this is the lesson as says is being called is earning our name is is why is because of the struggle and realizing that if even if ultimately we fall but when we struggle with our Yar when we push off our Yar when we're fighting with our Yara they're spinning our we feel like we're spinning our Wheels but that dust that's getting kicked up is dust that is going to the kak it is Holy dust these are moments of n these struggles these moments of struggle will last forever let's try to live a little higher and let's realize that it's not just about whether we win or lose of course ultimately we want to win and if we lose one battle we have to focus on the big war that's going on but we have to look at ourselves and we're in il and our struggle our struggle those moments of struggle those are moments that are going to last forever those are moments when we're becoming the