Shovavim Series - Episode 3: Becoming an Eved Hashem | Rabbi Nachum Binder

[music] [bell] The kadesh in his hakama the safer sh divides the weeks of into three parts. He tells us that the first two weeks and the of those two weeks is the of chuva. The next two weeks B and Bashak is the of but he tells us that is divided into two parts. There's one concept called a and that's the work of paras and then there's the itself which is parasak and he tells us that when you look in the para throughout the para of paras it's mentioned again and again this concept of a both when mishainu was discussing with paral has to go out to the midbar for a sashem We don't know how we're supposed to be until we get there. And then at the end of the par when it comes to the mitzvah of there's a concurrent theme of that goes through this parachute and the kadesh gives us a definition. What is avida? What does it mean? And why specifically do we find that is called there's a fundamental difference between my mitzvah doing mitzvah and of kbanas. A mitzvah is done through the actions of the person. The way a person connects himself to the sham in doing what he's supposed to do is through the mere act of what he's doing. Shaking lulov, blowing shaer, putting [clears throat] on fillin, wearing tits. These are mitzvah zahadesh. When it comes to carbon, the Ramban tells us that the whole concept of a carbon is something in one's mind is the fact that a person gives himself over to the rabbi. A realization and a recognition that our very essence is his and we give ourselves over to him. We give ourselves up to him totally. means when it's not just an action, it's not just a mitzvah, but it's the person himself being connected to the in his very essence the week of the Indian of Hashem, our aid in these days of more in his on the said then that was the biggest evid hashem that he ever knew. And when asked him afterwards, how can you say that you saw so many said but the concept of evid hashem that I saw by Khal I didn't see by anyone else and he explained never did anything because he wanted to do it and he never didn't do anything because he didn't want to do it. Hashem an evid of the is someone who gives himself over to the he breaks his rit that it doesn't exist. What dictates my life is not my wants, not what's good for me and even not what's good for my what's dictates my life is what does Hashem want from me now. says where the describes a child is going to ask to his father. And the answer to him back is do you know what we're telling that child? We're telling him, you're asking me the in the mitzvah. You're asking me why do we do certain things? I don't need an answer. I'm an evid. An does what he's told to do because he's told to do it and that's it. The Indian of Hashem is when the whole person the entire human being is subject to Hashem in a way that the only thing that matters to him in his life is what does Hashem want from me? Now the inion that we find in this week's para the Indian of and that in of we know is a special mitzvah from generation to generation to say over the story the theim of the taking us out of and we all know that this is the fundamental mental amuna of a yid part of our am as the ram famously says the end of paras why it's so important to constantly remember is to be our in the not only did he create the world but he runs the world not only does he run the world but he cares about every individual not only does he care but everything that we do is subject And the tells us but what's the purpose of amuna? Why is amuna so so important? Because amuna brings someone to a when we have that knowledge when it's so clear to us that when it's so clear to us that anything and everything that happens in this world is only because of a hashem because there is no other mitz in the entire bria besides rat when it's so clear to us that every action Every debber, everything that we say, everything that we think about, everything that we see, everything that we do is all doing this in front of the it's all being recorded by the and cares about it. And he wants us to act a certain way. He wants us to look where we're supposed to and not look where we're not supposed to. He wants us to say what we're supposed to and not say what we're not supposed to. He even wants us to think what we're supposed to think about and not think what we're not supposed to think about. And when we have that knowledge and we have that amuna and we have that idea and we do something about it, we become a very essence becomes the essence of a hashem. I only exist to do what the wants me to do. Now that is the purpose of everything. That's the bottom line. [clears throat] The one who the Tyra was given through Rabenu the greatest person to ever live. How does the Tyra describe Misha Rabenu's godless eve Hashem? Because the more that we live our lives only doing things because that's what Hashem wants me to do, the closer we are to him, [clears throat] the more evid we are to him and we're fulfilling our purpose on this world. As we enter the third week of Shave of As we continue our aliyah, our growth and shim tion pave off. How about if we try to find one area, one time of day, one action that we can do because we're to Hashem because Hashem only because Hashem wants me to do it. Not because I'm going to gain, not because I'm going to become a bigger person. Not because I'm going to become a better person. Not because of not for any schooler that's involved, but for one reason and one reason only. Hashem wants me to do this and I am his e. If we can work on that and we can slowly train ourselves to become a and even if we want so much not to do for so many different reasons, but we're going to do it anyway cuz that's what Hashem wants from me. And even if we so much want to do something and we have so many different things pulling us to do something, but we control ourselves for one reason and one reason only. Cuz Hashem doesn't want me to do it. Even if we do that one time, we're working on our avdas. I'm becoming a hashem. There's nothing that's more precious to the than the fact that we are his he took us out of to make us a hashem as the says inimal a hashem kazal tell us that we became a hashem and not a par the was waiting for us and is still waiting for us to continue growing through becoming more avadim, bigger avadim to him. If we can each find in our own personal lives, one area where we can try to work on aft just doing something because that's what Hashem wants from me. Now we can grow so much from it. We can really utilize these days of shim to become bigger to become closer to the to live a life with the recognition that and nothing else in the world really matters besides what Hashem wants. And if we can work on that, imagine how much we can grow, how we can utilize this week of shim to truly acquire that ultimate title of an Evid Hashem. [music and bell]