Grab the Apple - R’ Yechiel Spero

foreign that appears in rev hutner's epic safer igaro otner writes to a bucker who wrote a letter and he said rebe I'm struggling I'm failing I need I need help and wrote him the following you know when I received your letter I thought to myself if he tells me that he's doing well and he's stegging and he's kicking on all cylinders then it will have been a good letter and when you told me that you were struggling it was even a better letter writes that the shirish of your nishama the root of your soul is not at the moment of shalva is not at moments of peace that is not when your soul is really fulfilling its purpose but rather it is at the time that you are Waging War at the time that you are in middle of a struggle and a battle that's where your nishama is really fulfilling its purpose if you go to the gym and you lift up a weight that is six ounces you won't build any muscle if you go to the gym and you struggle under the weight of that burden that is impossible to pick up and you're struggling and you're grimacing and maybe even you drop it a few times that is when your muscles are really being built and this is when a person grows most when they're struggling and revokner says I would whisper into your ear this message be strong you can do it this is who you are we can't give up hope we can't think it's an all or nothing Messiah that's not true imagine the following Marshall as a little girl who goes to the marketplace she has a basket of apples and somebody comes by a gun if and he grabs an apple he swipes an apple and he runs away and the girls screaming stop stop stop you have my apples and then another person comes and grabs an apple and again the girl cries out please stop she turns around and someone says to her don't be foolish grab as many apples as you can and run same is true with Ernest join us there will be time when the yet Sahara grabs an apple or two or three there's a whole basket there grab an Apple for yourself grab another one and every time you do that is yours to keep allow me to end with the phenomenal thoughts from the balatanya the balatonya says people make a mistake they think that you're climbing and climbing and climbing and when you slip and you fail you fall to the bottom and that's not true when you climb one rung of the ladder that kadusha that you've built is yours to keep forever and the second rung you climb of that ladder and the third those are yours forever and when you fail you didn't build kadusha that day but the caducea that you built yesterday that's yours to keep forever grab the apples they'll be yours forever [Music]