Unveiling Oneness to the Fabric of Existence | Mammar Keitz Sum Lachoshech #5

the yeshiva.net. Okay, good morning everybody. Today's class is graciously dedicated by Don Gober with heartfelt prayers that Hashem bring comfort, healing and to all of thank you Mr. Go also mentioned today is the yard site of Rabiel Khan. I was to learn a lot of from Hakayen who passed away 5 years ago on VV of I want to thank our IT expert Silber who's here for all the live streaming for this class and the other classes. Thank you very much. and everything. We appreciate it on behalf of all those who benefit. So we're middle of the right is said on Shabas that's uh 62 years ago based on the he said also 1914 as I told you the day that the first world war broke out This mime is a very very deep and complex mimer. I think we did four classes. So now we're holding Shia number five. And in the copies it's page the second paragraph there'll also be a obviously Thursday but Wednesday morning we'll have a shir as well. Wednesday at 8 everybody's invited. Tomorrow we have a women's class on Tuesday but Wednesday morning we'll continue the mimer. Okay. What was the last the the last point that was being discussed last class? We basically discussed the fact that there are generally three different approaches to how we deal with the conflict or the dilemma of faith and reason. Amuna and Amuna and a saga. The age-old conflict between science and religion, faith and intellect, what you believe in and what you understand. That whole very complicated para there's generally three different approaches and the May addresses them in in his own style. One approach is that uh the amuno uh defeats or disregards or overrides what you would call scientific evidence, reason, questioning, intellectual curiosity, amuna overrides it. This would be the approach basically of saying amuna is true is true. All the questions that you have are coming from uh from uh science that is not true that's fake and it's a threat to Judaism and therefore you just disregard it. You battle it you you you suspend it. That's one approach and that approach you're safe because the MA remains intact and no other influence can reach it because you disregarded the science or the reason. There's the opposite approach seemingly the opposite approach which says no let the tyra bend to the science. This is what's called in literature. It's called the apologetic approach where Judaism is always apologizing and accommodating the latest discovery, the latest invention, the latest research, the latest data, the latest scientific discoveries or developments. You're always you don't want to be called weird or radical or fundamentalist mention. You're a regular normal person and yet you want to hold on to your religion to your faith. So therefore you bend the faith to the science. You accommodate it in order to be able to be accepted. So in one the science so to speak bends to the ta and the other one the ta bends to the science. In this m he explains that this is not real. This is not the real amuna. Both have a common denominator. The common denominator is there's a deep insecurity in the Judaism and a misunderstanding of what the world is. When you say that the Tyra is true, true, true, true true and therefore all science is lies and and and foolish. Yeah. It's not necessarily coming because of a deep faith in the Tyra. It could be coming because of an insecurity because I know that a question could destroy my entire faith. So if therefore I don't allow any questions, my faith is secure. But how secure is it? If something is only secure because nobody challenged it. And when it gets challenged, it's not it's it you can't deal with it anymore. That means that fundamentally it's very very weak. So what what there is is there's a deep deep insecurity here that could only thrive in an insular environment and when it's exposed you know to what's happening in the real world it's like the whole thing could fall apart so of course of course I oppose it the opposition could seem very very strong and very very powerful but deep down it's not because of my fierce strength it's coming because of my weakness the opposite approach of course is based on that. That's why I'm apologetic. I'm apologetic whole time because I don't have that security in there's a third approach. The third approach is this is what the Reb is articulating in this moment. This is generally the approach that is that sees it completely in a different way and that is it's not it's the same thing. If if Hashem is one so then the world and the are both one. On the contrary, like it says in Medish, Hashem built the world from the blueprint of the Tyra. When you build a home based on a blueprint, you're not going to have anything in the house that's contradicting the blueprint. If the contractor did what he was supposed to do, if he followed the blueprint, everything in the home is there in the blueprint. And it's reflective of the blueprint because it was based on the blueprint. The architect drew plans and then the contractor implemented those plans. So it says inem looked into the and from there he created the world or the med says that the is the blueprint of the world. So they can't if it's if if it's God's world it's a continuum of tra it's not separate. It's not a distinct thing. It's like there's almost two two realities, two sources. It's all one. So if something is really really true, it's going to be true everywhere. So TA doesn't have to be afraid of science. On the contrary, if it's going to be real sc if it's real sc now, of course, people could make mistakes and we have to know that, right? Every theory by definition is a theory, which means it's what I'm working with right now based on the evidence I have. And a person always needs to have that humility of course. But if it's a real if it's it's a real truth of the world, it's it it's not going to contradict. And if it does contradict, so either you have to study the world again and see what is the real truth or you have to ask yourself what's this tra that was just contradicted because MS is MS. Yeah. There's an expression um one of the great Jewish philosophers was known as the Albag Rabbi Beng. He has a safer called is hashem the wars of god and there he takes up the debate if god exists. So it's a very philosophical complex work from the middle ages where he proves the existence of a creator. So one one of the one of the sections over there is a long long chapter. He brings up like a hundred proofs from every interesting angles I was once reading it a little bit linguistics from like every angle culture and geology and linguistics and astronomy interesting stuff. But the way he ends it, the way he finishes it off, he says like this and this is one of the qualities of truth that he agrees to himself. He there's agreement to him from every angle. Meaning if it's true, any direction you're going to come to it from, it's going to remain true. >> Any way you slice it, it's going to be this. Yeah. If I'm telling you the truth where I was last night, Yeah. You could use any body of evidence. So you're going to come to the same minion right like it says in that m is alf the first letter the middle letter and the last letter sheer are three letters that are near each other shin k and ra they're near each others are the furthest possible alf is the beginning me is the middle and toughest then it's interesting why because that's what emis is em is you can go to the beginning you can go to the middle you can go to the end you can go backwards you can go forwards you can go past you can go present you can go future you can look at it If it's emis it's em it's going to because it's reality and if it's reality it's going to come out from reality and if it's a falsehood then you have to look at it you know from this narrow perspective in this close proximity we see it this way that's the that that's that's a more subtle definition of lie versus truth so the mid is saying that this is a whole different approach am is not afraid of it's never afraid of why would it be afraid of is another gift It's another tool through which God allowed us to comprehend reality. It's a gift. It's a divine gift. So real amuna doesn't challenge the and try to bribe it and bend it in order to confirm through it what I believe in. If that's what the ama is doing, that's not real amuna. If there's that type of fear that a good intellectual is going to destroy the whole thing, that means that the amuna is skin deep. It's not based on truth. If it's a if it's infinite, don't worry. Intellect is also created from God. Like if it's true, it's true. Now, it doesn't mean I have all the answers. It doesn't mean that every intellectual is honest. It doesn't mean that intellect doesn't have its limitations. Of course, it does. But it means fundamentally the approach of amuna is not one that wants to get this and manipulate it and exploit it in order to justify the am there's a complete comfortability in dealing with on its own terms because MS is truth comes out from everywhere and if it's true it's going to come out so you don't have to be afraid of anything. Yeah, that's what he brought from the Ashab that when somebody knows that something is true, they're not afraid to investigate it thoroughly comprehensively till every last detail. I'm not I'm not afraid. It's fine. I'm not there's no fear over here. So these are three general approaches how you look at it. Either the Tyra bends to the science, the science bends to the Tyra both because an insecurity that the Tyra is not really true or that the world is somehow divorced from Tyra. It's two separate worlds. And then there's the deeper recognition of oneness. Do you think we've come to a place in the world today where we have to have a moon to believe what you just said? Meaning are there are there still things that are undiscovered in Seiko that still takes that? In other words, is this true? Does this does this work in in reality or does this work in philosophy? >> Here you have a very big scientist. >> A small one >> studying to be a scientist. Very good. That's a SC that's how a scientist should speak. >> Okay, we'll take your work. Yeah, take my >> Zar says it's a very interesting question. The Zoy says in it says when was 600 years old. So he describes the beginning of the marble, right? All the wellsp springsings of the abyss burst open and the windows of heaven opened up and a huge flood consumed the earth. So the zy says now this is the z okay says like this it's going to be in the year um 600th of the sixth millennium which means 5,600 year in the life of nyak at that moment there's going to be an outburst something is going to break both in the skies of heaven and in the earth he says all the of the earth are going to explode unprecedentedly and the wellsp springsings of from heaven and are also going to open and this is all a preparation for the seventh millennium. This is the sixth millennium, 600 years, 5600. And this is for the seventh millennium which is when the world will be at peace. And this is how he describes what the marble is from two sides. The flood is going to meet heaven is going to meet earth from the he says the of the ars all the sciences of the earth that come from the human brain and the this is what the zah says. Now whenever you want to date the the there's a big debate when the zoya was written how it was written but according to everybody it was not that later than the third the tradition basically is from but it was hidden for many years yeah those who want to argue that it comes from the 1200s I'm not getting into that but it was much much before 1840 which is this year that year tough tough ra 5 5,600 is basically tough hey I love him tough is 400 r is 6200 So 600 it's basically the year tough which is 1840. The fascinating thing is that then everything changed everything shifted. If you're talking about in terms of science you had the industrial revolution which literally changed all of history the entire world and it continues today with >> just exponential and in 150 years the world changed. Huh? In 150 years it changed more than it changed in 5,000 years. Right? And the Z predicts it. And then the gill of right was printed eight years later. Just an example. The whole explosion of I mean it started before obviously was yesterday. But the whole explosion of of of Kabala the way it came through was literally those years those years the passed away 80 years before that passed away 20 years before that. So, so the zya talks about this and all as a preparation for for in other words it didn't see it as a steer like now we have a new threat on the contrary yeah the once spoke he used to speak a lot about the zas he once said that today you see that the deeper you go into science and physics you keep on seeing more he says after all the discoveries and the theories and they're all going to that everything is one it's all And and literally you see the anything you read about these things, you see it's constantly pointing to the fact that the physical is spiritual, the spiritual is physical, that consciousness and matter are interchangeable, that uh paradoxes make as much sense as logic, that ultimately everything is guided by a singular essence, that space and time don't really separate the universe. It's just dimensions of the universe, right? All all of this. Now you could still of course you could still you could there's plenty of scientists and physicists that have different belief systems but the point is that real amuna is not afraid of any in the world on the contrary it sees it all as one continuum yeah and that's the third that's the third approach we're addressing here that real amun is never afraid of why because it doesn't see it as an enemy that I need a vanquish and even if I'm not going to tell it to you because I don't want to sound like a fundamentalist but deep down I would like to manipulate it like the example I gave yes last year on Friday right that even if your child wants that you should prove through genetics that we should even if somebody wants that you should prove through genetics that your child is your child you're not going to call the geneticist and say make sure that the evidence confirm confirms conforms to my conclusion you're not afraid that the gene the genetics are unless the guy hates your guts and he's going to manipulate the science you're not afraid is going to disprove that your child is your child. Why? Why not? Why not? Extra caution. Cuz if I know if I know that there's something cooking, if I know that I'm hiding something, then I have to manipulate evidence. If I'm not hiding anything for real, for real, not for what I tell other people deep deep deep inside, I don't have to hide evidence. And this is a very deep place because it's not about what you say, it's not about what you uh preach. It's really the internal space of how true how true something really is. So this is a third this is a third this is the third approach. Yeah. Now sometimes it looks like the two extremes are very far from each other but they're not. When somebody needs to say that all science is and all is and all questions are and any investigation into the world is evil what really that it comes from either one of two things. It's either I don't believe ta is really true and therefore I'm so afraid or I believe that the world is somehow controlled by the Satan and therefore there's no way that the two could work together when I constantly apologizing for ta >> huh whatever it is when I'm constantly apologizing for ta and always have to accommodate it and change it every day because this discovery that discovery again it comes from a very fundamental weakness >> an insecurity so both have a very very deep common denominator. The union of anoid mulvad means that the same one who gave us the is also the one who created the world. So it's fine. The one who created the electrons and the atoms and DNA and the neurons is the same one who said and if not you got a much bigger problem than anything else. >> Better be the same. >> Right? If not, if someone created was written by and and and the actual creation of the world was somebody else. So you have a much bigger problem than that. There was once somebody by Fabian and he said that uh he got to be told a story that they they they brought it's a it's a known story. They brought a map of America to the alterba. This is in the 1700s. So maps were being developed then. and they brought him a map from America and he took a look and he suggested he said that there's a mistake somewhere. So it looked like it was a joke like it's a little town in Lejn. He said there's a mistake. He showed there's a mistake and then the story goes that they did research and they found that there was an error and they asked Alba how he knew. So he said that in the bays of Bes you have the map of the whole planet. the entire planet earth is mapped out in the bays of besas and he saw that the map was not consistent with that so he knew that it was a mistake so that's what he said in the bays of besas you have the map and uh somebody said it's ever heard the story so he said the is that once you come to America you shouldn't make that mistake right what did he mean once you come to America don't make that mistake in lia you're inj that was his comment It's interesting. A few years ago, I saw the New York Times published map the first maps that they had of America. So, I was very curious because I knew the story. I'm not connecting it, but they were showing and they were showing the mistakes that they made in the early maps for California. They show interesting from the 1700. I I don't I'm not connecting the story because I don't know. I don't have any evidence for that, but they were pointing out the mistakes that they made in the early maps. It was just very very interesting. Yeah. Because this this disssynchronization between amuna and exists on every single level and the same is true in a general approach faith and reason. If faith has to undermine reason and manipulate reason it's because the faith is limited. If reason has to undermine faith if reason undermines faith again the faith is limited. In the true reality of amun as MS it's not afraid of any of not because it needs it to justify it in apologetics because MS will come out from every every truth that's the truth about MS msult of course a person also needs to know that has its limits and it's not a contradiction according to its capacity itself knows that there's things that are right even in science and physics there's things they don't understand but it's not that you're threatened by it's not that you have to manipulate it's not that you have to lie real acknowledges also its limitations now that was the main that was the main point now what do we come how is this here to this whole discussion so yeah it's known is bit And is Matsus. It's a very interesting expression. The whole of amuna is B. The whole of is Mits. What do we mean by B and Mits? B means alignment to the infinite. Mitsus means identity of the creature of the creation. That's Mitsus. Mitsus from the word. B is the surrender of identity to the infinite reality. Mitsus is the consciousness of self. That's Mitsus. Seel is Mitsius. Seel means I have a mind. I need to understand this. I'm sorry I don't understand this. Right? So is predicated on the idea of mitsas. What is real amuna? Real amuna as we discussed in last class is b. What is amuna? Means it's the divine light that lives in the soul. Like it says in Tanya that the reality that is completely beyond any comprehension and any even form of experience it lives in the essence of the soul which is and because of that the person at their very core is in a state of means we are surrendered to the because we're channeling the infinite that is what amuna means amuna is not blind faith meaning it's a but I decided to believe because I like the culture because I'm afraid to leave the culture those are all considerations that people make in their life. The real experience of amuna is as we said last time that the once said a question won't make it weaker and an answer won't make it stronger because it's not competing with the world of intellect. It's not like you're smart I'm not smart I just believe because I have nothing I just believe. Amuna is actually the experience of the soul. It's the soul experiencing the divine. It's the sixth sense of the soul that when cultivated allows you to experience ultimate reality. So is the am coming into the world of in other words is infusing the world of mitsus. It's b transporting its truth into the world of mitsas. That's the definition. So why does amuna look why is amuna yeah looking to be malubish not because the bit is insecure because the b knows it has a mission and the mission is that the mitsas should be infused with bit that mitsus should learn about the truth of bit not just that b should remain in the world of b which is the opposite of b and the world of mitsus remains the voice of bit that's really what you're searching for that the b should be nimas now that that's everything Because mit is is reality but mitas is created reality right we were created as a mitsus one the question is is it all one right means that it's all one but the only way you could make it one is not by nullifying mitsas and saying you don't exist you're a tippish you're you're you're a low life you're an apicus you're sick it's not how you're changing mitsas you're just disregarding it right you're just repressing it it's like keeping it under the water until it comes back to means you need to work with >> Mitsus. >> Respect it but respect it but not get a spell from it in Yiddish. Yeah. >> There's two things. Huh? Not not to get in the spell from its ego to get in the spell from from the beauty of it. Yeah. You you no inhab means you become weak. You become like you become bottled like oh wow you become huh >> you become enthralled and you lose your identity. That's a muna that noises >> that you're you want to get nispol from that >> that's inspiring. >> You're talking about his spilus. I'm talking about like um you uh you uh you uh yeah you but you you lose your your your spine. That's what I'm talking about. So different different hispilus. Yeah. So for you can't make believe it doesn't exist. That's not at best it's And I'm not even sure about that because if it's real B it's not afraid of Mitsus means you have to work with the parameters of Mitsus. So that mits should be able to recognize the bit. That's the coming into it's not because a is insecure I need the intellectual to agree with me. It's because the whole function of is to be and since the whole is the intellectual inquiry and contemplation into reason is for the sake of amuna. What do we mean for the sake of ama? in order that their muna should be revealed in mits. It's not because you have a weakness and you need a because the is not really convincing. So it's like maybe if you give me a proof then I'll agree with it. That's not a vert means it's not because you need to borrow from something because you're feeling poor. On the contrary, it's that knows it has a mission that truth should come out from everywhere including from this is another element of furthermore the fact we learned earlier that changes. If you have a bribe for example, you'll start thinking differently. A real amuna doesn't do that. If a starts making your mind play games with you, that's not rather it wants that the should remain that's also for the TELLS THE RESPECT YOURSELF. DON'T surrender to me. I'm not asking that to you. Why does the ve why does the do that? BECAUSE THE KNOWS THAT IF IT IS NOT retaining its own integrity, you're not infecting it. You're not transforming it. You're not infusing it. You're just manipulating it. So then it's not real amun. So it itself you want to go into even the fact that the should not be manipulated in any way. Don't bribe it. Don't like give give me some fast cute answer so that my amuna should be at ease. You understand? Like that's not the verb. I want I want you TO CHALLENGE ME. BE YOU. Be you. You be you. Because you know why? If you're not you, then I'm not me. If if if it's real, if it's a if it's a so it's going to come out from so for that I want you to be you. That's what he says. It's not like ratson ratson like we learned in last year leaves itself. Yeah. Goes into the world of and over there it changes it. It it transforms it. Am never leaves itself. Even when it go into it, it never left itself because it's not surrendering to the world of SH. On the contrary, it's representing its true confidence that my mission is to reveal the truth everywhere. So even when he's going into the nitty-gritty of he never left the world of amun because this was not coming from an insecurity and therefore he doesn't have to change the to conform with it because on the contrary he's retaining his full am in the he wants the to be with full integrity. So even when the of the comes into the B has not been diluted at all. It looks like you're talking about an intellectual. You're not it's not an the BL is the same B because it's their that's coming into and because it's their coming into it retains its purity and its pristine oneness and transcendence even completely in the realm of the world of what then is the difference between the B of a that comes into and the B of that remains higher. If it's really you say that even in it retains that same quality the ama the way it comes into it comes it's a different format it's not a different it's the this the hardware is not different the software is different it comes into it comes into a form of gill of revelation meaning the form is different The B is coming out through the kali through the through the form of in other words it's coming in of two things first of all in which is becoming enclosed is not only that the itself the way it relates to the world of that's already a different type of amuna also but that's a different in form and That's a difference in form is the gill and above is also original but it's beyond beyond of beyond it of this is the two levels of this brings us back to the first two levels of there's the which goes into that's one bit there's the B higher than the second even the first level of that goes into takes on the identity of vessels which is mitus don't think it's calling it whole is what to reveal the maya you see he's taking the whole inion of the we explained in the skull of and showing it in a don't think for a second that the became the kale became egotistical Because IDENTITY IDENTITY JUST LIKE THAT NO THE whole of is what it's just that this comes in a form of it takes on a form of revelation but the is the just like he said it before he said is mitsus and when amsa becomes mitsus here too first of all are mitsus and the is going into the ka two the way it comes into kale becomes mitsus everything here is consistent the gilo and the second level the bit of that's beyond doesn't even have the mitsus of gilluy here the bit comes out through gil through mitsus gillu is mitsus and here it doesn't come out through that because it has the it's the B in the world of B which is beyond the slopes. So the whole that's the tin of of amuna the way it comes into based it's the based on amuna mit is infused redefined by b and then you have bl in its own core in its own purity it it's a very big question how does a deal with right we all know whether you're a scientist or not a scientist it's just the qu the type of questions you have right but life is filled with re perce perceived realities that undermine amuna, right? The muna that anoid mou everything is hashem and hashem is good and you could trust and you're safe. the whole experience of amuna which is that I am in Hashem's grip and I am expression of infinity and everything we talk about rightem the love hasn't changed and you're in God's grip this moment and you're in the best situation possible this is really right that everything is what's the name everything is equal everything ish >> equinimity >> equinimity they call it equinimity Yeah to teach people that yeah know because this moment the reality is the the reality that God's creating. So that's all the experience of the soul. That's what we're saying am that the soul knows it. What does it mean? The soul knows it. It sees it through the eyes of the soul but not through the eyes of the not through my physical eyes. So here we have the whole world of the world of seel is the world of mitsas. It's the world which can either breed an atheist or an agnostic or a skeptic or a cynic or an anxious person. The whole world of is the world where I'm trying to come to grips to it with to with all this on my terms not on anybody's terms. on my terms using my mechanisms, my psyche, my intellect, my brain, my right brain, my left brain, my middle brain, my my mechanism, including my emotions and my experiences to be able to determine reality. That's the two realities here. >> The calmness of surrender, >> not necessarily yours. >> The calmness of surrender. So, how does that work with the world of So, there's of course two things. First of all, there's the element of surrender. You know when you're going to be dealing with something like the Holocaust or you're going to be dealing with something like even we don't have to go as grand as the Holocaust you know the pain of one particular family which is sometimes incomprehensible that somebody should say you know with my brain I can completely comprehend how anoid mv and it's perfectly good and it's blissful and if I was god I would do exactly the same thing you know there's an element of real deep surrender but it's not a surrender that makes fun of my mind it takes into consideration its beauty and also its limits, right? The fact that I could say like the Rebi used to write in letters to people, he said, you know, if you have a three-year-old sitting at Professor Einstein's lectures, you know, and you expect a three-year-old to understand it, it's not fair to the three-year-old. Like, and that's only that's a three-year-old who may one day grow to be wiser than the professor. When you're talking about the gap between finitness and infinity, we don't even know how an atom how an atom is created. We don't even understand the depth of one cell. We still couldn't figure out the body with the 70 trillion cells. We still have a hard time understanding you understand the sun and the sun is just a creation of the creator. So the gap between the sun which is beyond what anybody could comprehend and now you want to understand the creator real understands the need for surrender. But it's not because I I I mock it and I'm afraid of it. No seel is an amazing gift. It allows me to comprehend whatever I could comprehend from the universe and whatever I could comprehend from God and whatever I could comprehend from but it's not a that doesn't understand. It's a that seel does understand because truth reality is infinite and is is a medium. It's an identity. It's it's an identity. It's a brilliant brilliant mechanism to grasp that which lends itself to be contained within the intellectual capacity of of of comprehending existence. So surrender is that I understand that I don't understand not just I don't understand I can understand not only that likes it likes it the worst it appreciates it. IT'S NOT IT'S not surrender. That's not what surrender is. That's not surrender because that comes back with a vengeance. Surrender is you're actually liberating the from playing God. Oh, thank God I could breathe. Let me go back to I don't have to run the world. It's actually liberating it. You know the worst punishment is the worst punishment is when you put on somebody a role that they're not capable but they think they're supposed to do it and their whole life they're not let to tell anybody or themselves that they're not capable because this is their role that levels of internal sickness that that creates is indescribable. I don't know if anybody relates to this, but imagine a woman once told me. Yeah, exactly. It's not how hard it is. It's if it's work, if it works with your chemistry. If I had to run like a deer, right? If I have to run, if I feel pressure that if I don't run like a deer, I'll be I'll be unliked, right? What type what type of pressure does that create? or even or even climb like a dog or a cat or a chicken. There was a woman who once told me years ago that uh it's a sad story. Her mother used to tell her when she was a little girl, I love you because you have blonde hair. There was only one problem. She didn't have blonde hair. So the psychological pressure is created on her that every day when she looks in the mirror, she has to dye her hair blonde for her mother to love her. >> She did that, >> right? My point is the worst thing in the one of the worst things in life is when you have a pressure to be something that's not relevant to you. But nobody's allowed to know that and you're not allowed to know that. So my whole life I'm acting in this reality. Letting go of that is one of the most liberating things. The worst pressure that was ever put on seel is to be God. The worst pressure ever. Poor guy. The poor guy has enough to figure out in your brain. Trust me. He's working overtime. This poor little guy. He's only two pounds. A little piece of jello. 24 hours. Doesn't stop for a second running 70 trillion cells. And now we say, "By the way, figure out God." OH MY GOD. PUN INTENDED. >> Our whole society is built on that. >> I know that's a whole society. >> Tremendous. >> The most liberating thing for SE is to say I am who I am. I'm a beautiful gift. You know, it's like well you tell yourself I don't have to be this. You know when your father or mother you always told you you always have to be this and this kid and then when you look at yourself and you say you know what I don't have to be this person. I'm a beautiful but people don't know how to do that because the messages we got were so deep that that is my identity and if God forbid I make peace with my real identity the whole world is going to hate me. Nobody's going to look at me again. Huh? Of course even God will hate me. If my father is God, my mother is God. Yeah. They represent God. It's one of the hardest things for people. >> It's one of the hardest things because if you don't if if you if you never did this with yourself, you're going to put it on your kids. So this is this is idea of the worst thing for is an amazing thing. It's a gift. The son never THINKS IT'S GOD. THAT'S WHY IT'S BEAUTIFUL. That's why the sun never goes into depression. Why do you think the sun wakes UP EVERY DAY? WHY I DON'T WAKE UP? I DIE TO SLEEP. He changes hours five, six, seven. That's because of our issues. But uh but uh he why does he never GO INTO DEPRESSION? THE answer is he never thinks he's God. He's very happy. He doesn't have a day day and night. >> Okay. Very good. He knows who he is in. Yeah. The decides now it first of all it has to figure out God because it's God. So of course I have to figure out God because I'm God. So the most liberating thing you can do for is let it go. Not because you hate it, not because you're afraid of it, cuz you LOVE THE GUY. HE'S a great guy. Let him be seal. Let him be could take you to unbelievable places. But then there's a door where look at you and says this door I can't pass. This is not this is now you have to go to amuna. NOT BECAUSE I'M AFRAID. I'm not afraid. It's just you can't wa see art with your ears. You can't listen to music with your nose. THE NOSE IS NOT BAD. WE LOVE THE NOSE. But the experience of can't come through intellect. Not because intellect is bad. Intellect can prove things. Intellect could bring you close. But is not is the capacity of the soul that is channeling. That's not but has an unbelievable gift. So that's the first thing of that's the first element where amuna comes into you understand you're not fighting it you're elevating it and then says oh of course thank you for unburdening me thank you thank you it's a big gift when you could surrender but NOT BECAUSE YOU'RE AFRAID of it you love it just like we don't tell our children every tragedy or challenge in the family why because you're lying to them no because you don't need a 10-year-old in the family to know every crisis that's happening if your house is up for for closure and you just lost your job and you don't know how you're going to pay your check. You don't have to put it on a seven-year-old kid. Why? Why not? You're dishon You're not dishonest cuz a seven-year-old child is supposed to play as a seven-year-old. Let him be in camp and have fun and one day he's going to deal with foreclosures. There's no mitzvah to put it on a seven-year-old. It's not because you're afraid. It's not because you're brainwashing. You understand the big questions of reality. Don't put it on. Let Hashem be Hashem and let this play in his sandbox and figure out mathematics or engineering or quantum mechanics that's already going into let him do his thing. It's beautiful. And then there's another and that is that there's a lot of things we could understand right from Aristotle until a few decades ago. Just one I'm giving one example. The notion of Toyota versus atheism was that the world was always here. The world didn't need a creator because it was always here. If it was always here, was it need a creator for? It's a kadma. It's called kadma. It's a kadma. And this is a new thing. The 19 in the 1920s. And then in the 1960s, it's not long ago, right? Some of you were born in the 1960s. Suddenly, I would say probably 99% of scientists the world over, atheists or not, will everybody will say the universe has A BEGINNING. WOW. THE FIRST of the whole they'll just TELL YOU HOW DID IT START. WE DON'T KNOW. >> They found out. >> They found out already. >> Okay. >> Like Hans and stuff like that. So that the first universe collapsed >> and that and that universe >> that universe collapsed to give the >> But what how did that universe >> collapse? Okay, I get it. So now the truth is right because when you come to berious you always have to ask one question in what caused that berious a chemical got into a bad mood. So you'll say it was here infinitely. It was here infinitely because there's no creator, right? Because if it wasn't here infinitely, that original material with which the big bang happened, if it wasn't here infinitely, so who put it here, right? So you say it was here infinitely. Okay, how long infinitely? But something caused it to get agitated to explode. So the question is why after infinite amounts of years did you suddenly get agitated? Right? What happened? Your marriage worked for I don't know like a hundred billion quantillion zillion years. Then one day you and your wife got into a fight after billions of years AND YOU EXPLODED. BIG BANG. BOOM. >> It's actually a really >> Yeah. You're telling me it's not. >> Exactly. >> Huh? >> I'd start at the end. >> Of course. This is this is what I'm saying is pure. not a now scientists are not comfortable with this because the moment you go here you have to go to the G word and we don't like the G word is not afraid of any of this every of science is going to prove this you could look at fine-tuning and you could look at an atom you could look at DNA you look at the brain you could look at geology you could look how a tree grows you could look how a chick how a chick hatch every how a egg hatches every of the is going to testify to this and there's an element where surrenders and there's an element where he doesn't have to surrender. So this entire par this is what we talk about the fusion of amuna and >> that's why they go >> and doesn't have to discuss the whole big bang thing then shaman knows shaman knows there's a creator but in the world of this is very important let's talk about the finetuning for the big bang to develop into the universe that we know and the planet we know the finetuning that was needed is is it's beyond what words could describe it would be like I would come to to you and I would say mishi you have to pick up one grain of sand I'm not telling you where somewhere on the planet and if you pick up that grain of sand the planet will survive if you take the wrong grain of sand the planet won't survive and I'm not telling you if it's in Australia or in Brooklyn if it's in Peru or in Hong Kong you have to figure it out and randomly you get the right grain OF SAND AND THE PLANET EXISTS AND THEN I SAY one second you have to do this 200,000 times And that's not even close or maybe a little close to what had to happen for the planet to develop. This is pure science. This is nothing to do with religion. So to say that it happened by randomly, okay, you could say that if you want, but right to say that it's not al is ridiculous. And that's one example. And there's thousands and thousands and thousands and thousands of examples. Somebody once said, "I'm not a I'm not I don't have enough blind faith to be able to be an atheist. I don't have enough amuna." All this is the combination of the two. And there's also the element of surrender. That's the two things. There's that which you surrender and there's that which you can actually comprehend. Even when you comprehend, even if you figure out this whole big bang thing and seal says, "Oh, wow. There's a creator." We still don't know what is this creator. What does a look like here? This is the element of amuna. So here the m comes and says us says as follows the of am coming into versus amuna not coming into it's not a question of the amuna is real or not real amuna is real amuna the soul not every one of our grandmothers needed to know about the big bang and not every child needs to know about it could be pure pure amuna the soul feels hashem the soul experiences hashem like it sees it feels it experiences The reason a muna comes into cycle is not because of an insecurity. It's because the ma wants to be permeate. It wants to permeate mitas. It wants mits should also acknowledge. It wants that when I'm using my should also screamoid. How could screamoid? That's the work of amuna with so is not stepping away from its truth in order to accommodate the from amuna is extending the domain of infinity into the world of and that's why these times are so precious because today itself is bordering on infinity all all modern developments in science and physics border on infinity they talk about things that al are very very hard to comprehend I once read in the New York Times about quantum mechanics So they wrote there years ago that Steven Hawkins said that when you talk to him about quantum mechanics, he opens up, they were interviewing him. He said, "I open up my draw and I look for my gun." In other words, I want to kill myself because my entire intellectual identity is kaput. Right? just those words because you're bordering on the element of so it's not that a is leaving its domain to go into the world of no on the contrary it wants that the purity of a should infuse and that's the whole of of that's the whole of as I told you last time wanted so that the the the experience of ama that the wanted to bring into the world should not just be relegated to the higher consciousness of a Jew which is authentic but that every part of your being should be able to channel it. It shouldn't contradict it. That's that the should be like transparent pipes and channels that allow the light to come through them. And for that that can't manipulate the because if you're manipulating the that means you don't believe in anoid mad. You don't have to manipulate anything. You don't have to play games with the mind. You don't have to call the geneticist and say, "Make sure that uh you Puskin like me." You don't have to do that. If it's real, it's real. If you have to do that, then you're not you're barking up the wrong tree. So, this is an This is the first level of back. What were the two levels of the first level of was that the of is what's of on one hand is not is Gilly. What's Gilly? Gilly is experience. Gile is Mitsus. What what's the interface between and the universe? The answer is because is in Mitsus. You're not going to get a better definition for what's the interface between and because on one hand SAYS I DON'T EXIST. BUT WHERE DOES HE SAY I DON'T EXIST IN EXISTENCE? TO SAY I DON'T EXIST OUTSIDE OF EXISTENCE. OBVIOUSLY, you don't exist outside of existence. THAT'S NOT IS THE interface between and is an existence that says I don't exist. Ah, thank God. I got it. You hear that's the revolution of is responsible FOR IF THERE WASN'T THERE WOULD never be an interface. There would never be a bridge between the two. Either you melt into God's which is not or you ultimately there's a detachment and therefore eternal anxiety is the interface WHY IS MUS IS LIGHT WHAT'S LIGHT MEANS IT'S transporting you into a world in which you're not I'm I'm seeing you I'm seeing you that's but WHAT AM I SEEING I'M SEEING YOU so is the first is the first who comes into existence and says just to let you know FYI you don't exist get out of him SUGAR it upends existence how because the holy of is the gill of but it's the gill of it's not anymore that makes it a because it's the first level of so what so what is in the isis of the brings intimac that's its pulling it. Why? Because that's what it is. So that's what the says in addition to the fact that is the fact that needs to TRANSPORT INTO makes it's already a DIFFERENT TYPE OF THE WAY IS INCLUDED in its source. IT'S PART OF THE WAY COMES WITH A MISSION TO TRANSFORM ITS HERE HAS mitsas because it has to speak the language of existence in order to transform and nullify existence. If it doesn't speak the language of existence, you can't TRANSFORM EXISTENCE. IF A DOESN'T SPEAK the language of it can't transform the it's just preaching. So that's what means you become that means it takes on the identity takes on the identity of the kal and THE KAL TAKES ON THE IDENTITY OF THE WHAT DOES THAT MEAN in it means that the reveals WHAT IS WHAT IS WHAT IS WHAT IS WHAT IS CHANNELING INFINITY through this medium that's what it is that's really what So he says what is that in a it's when your am doesn't have to remain in the world of IT COMES INTO THE WORLD OF IT TRANSFORMS THE WHOLE NOT BECAUSE IT'S scared on the contrary BECAUSE EM IS EVERYWHERE SAYS IS NOT only in a is also IN THE CUP OF COFFEE IN YOUR BUSINESS IN YOUR money in your science and YOUR PHYSICS IN YOUR family that's what it says >> it's on a mission So becomes the >> exactly >> becomes >> the BECOMES SO THAT could become a >> look it looks like. So the Reb says here the difference between this amuna and the without is not a real difference. There's a difference in form. It's really the same. This person is speaking intellectualism. This is speaking the saying the same thing if it's coming from this place. It's just a different seer. particle >> wave particle. Exactly. It's the same thing. You didn't step away from amuna even though you're completely in the world of just like the didn't step away from the even though it's completely in the world of caum. What do you mean caum is mas identity not? NO IS MEALA THAT EVERYTHING is ah but the only way you could do it is because it has to go out of infinity pure infinity remember in non-existence there's non-existence that's not you don't need for that is transporting the truth of non-existence into a world of existence in the iss is built. It's a nonexistential state of reality. Reality that doesn't is not called existence. Ashab says you cannot say about that it exists. >> You're a photon. You don't have time. >> Photon doesn't have time because you're reflecting you're you're channeling something that transcends time >> and transcends space. Now the way it comes into the physical world it assumes properties that are connected to the physical world because of our way of experiencing it. But in essence that's what is it's giuer. So that's the difference he said between rats and amuna and ratson is makov that comes into pi but it changes the pim. It bends it. Exactly. And the reason is why because Ratson has a little insecurity. So when Ratson comes to Seik there's a competition who's going to win. So Ratson says I'm stronger than you. I'm going to win. Will is power more powerful than intellect. But am doesn't come from insecure comes from MS and MS comes everywhere. MS is mascul I want to be. If you start bending TO ME IT MEANS I'M NOT TRUE. IF I NEED TO EXPLOIT you and manipulate you and get you to agree to me, what does it really mean? That you don't agree with me. So the whole t of mulv is gone. So for a to be a needs the to behel don't bend. Be real. Be real. Don't don't say okay I'll give in. You want to believe I'll I'll believe. No I want to say. So the real the says the more amuna you have the more you have. This is the shift happens. We always look at it the opposite. They're more either don't have because you're naive or even if you have you don't need the it's garbage. He's saying no that's all from a more limited perspective. From the real perspective the more amuna they have the more sec you have because is another gil of it's another arena in which the infinity is going to be expressed. So you want you want more of it not less of it. >> Not separate. >> It's not separate. Exactly. Huh? It you never you can't manipulate. Says what? You don't want to manipulate. You're not is not stepping away from itself to go into AND IT'S LIKE OH MY GOD THIS GUY IS like a he's not stepping away from himself. He's bringing the truth into the realm of BECAUSE THAT'S ITS PURPOSE. That's its mission. Like with Kaye is not afraid of THE KAY. OH MY GOD THIS KAY GUY HAS SUCH AN EGO. I don't know who's going to win. The is going to go into the say you be a kali and I'm going to show you who you are. >> Just like >> I'm GOING TO SHOW THE WHO YOU ARE. I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOU. >> Just like ah the real appreciates the real amuna probably appreciate >> that's the that's the vart. Just like real appreciate surrender. Real amuna appreciate. You know why? Not because he's insecure. Because now the is all pervasive. NOW IT'S ANOID MULVAD. NOW SCREAMS ANOID MULVAD. THAT'S THE WHOLE of amuna. It should permeate every nuda of the world and is the the the big factor of our universe on a practical level. There are many challenges in seel. So some things I can we could answer a lot a lot of things. There's a lot of questions that could be answered. A lot of things that could be explained and should be explained. But there's also the element of surrender. The element of Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That muna is never compromised. That of of a of the soul is always pure. You don't have to worry about your amuna. Everybody has a it's never obliterated. It never will be obliterated. It never was obliterated. And your amii you don't have to worry about that. >> We amputate it or we suppress it or we bury it or it's blocked. But we can't really get rid of it. It's always there. When you say I have questions on the muna, you don't have questions on the muna. You have questions that are not allowing you to experience your amuna. So deal with the questions. But the questions don't take away the amuna. You can't have questions on the moon. Muna is not in that realm. You think God has questions that undermine his existence to him? You think God wakes up in the morning who one second one second. I think there's a way that we could create a cell can happen on its own. Survival of the fittest. We don't need me. Yeah. Hashem doesn't have that issue. You know why? Because he's gone. He knows the truth. The moon is the same. You don't have to worry about it. Amun experiences the MS. You say we're that's the capacity of the soul. The soul is it's channeling. It knows that's its frequency. It's comfortable there. It's comfortable in surrender. It's blissful in surrender. It doesn't want anything else. But Hashem did not create only that. He created a world beginning with an effus with a mind with the definition of mind is ego not a bad ego but ego I exist and I got to figure this out that's mitsus and is the bridge and that's the first of that the of is but the iss of in other words it goes out of the world of non mitsus into the world of mitsus because says reveal I'm revealing I am revealing Just those words I am revealing. That's the interface between and mitsus. But when it's revealing, it's not going out of its truth. It's bringing its truth into the world of kal and the kali is now part of it. So what's the difference between amuna in amuna outside of he says it's just the difference of here? It's brought into the world of into the world of kale into the world of gile into the world of mitsus. It's non-existence transforming existence. And here it's in the realm of non-existence. It never even went in to another world of outside of he says in 35 you take a look in 35 he says since the reason you want to bring the amus is for the sake of not because of in an inferiority complex. It's because knows the truth because the true of Mitsus is also bit but he says in parenthesis on the outside Mitsus is screaming but deep down it's so the difference between pure You're a and a is just an external facade. It's not a real difference. >> It's it's all it's it's all the same thing. Here's a person talking. Here's pure. It's exactly the same thing. When it's coming from this vart, it it's it's all purity. >> It has one essence and one goal. Here you want a to be to to be to come through Mitsus. Fine. That's what I mean. Don't get in this ball. Not don't get in this bowl. Don't get excited. Don't get in his bowl. Mitsus is not your enemy. Mitsus is your your your front. That's your arena. It's not your enemy. >> Yeah. >> That's your opportunity to thrive. Right. They say the obstacles in your life are not standing in your way. They are your way. Mitsus is not standing in God's way. That is the whole PURPOSE TO TRANSFORM BEFORE the world there was no mitas. Okay, we know that beautiful WITH NO THERE WAS NO symptoms there was no mitas we didn't have ain't safe the whole kavana was the relationship the connection the relational field so there is mitsas so he says the real of ms is b but mitsas doesn't know that so it needs a to teach it so come teach you you hear you hear the voice very very this this is the first thing of comes into kay kay is the opposite bit of but didn't get lost in the kali because the real of it is to show the kali it's TRUE MITS BUT FOR THAT YOU HAVE TO GO DOWN into the world of ka if YOU'RE GOING TO SAY YOU'RE NOT respecting the kali you're not transforming the kali am has to respect but WHY IS IT RESPECTING NOT BECAUSE IT'S insecure because I intellectuals intellectuals enthrral me how does it look like to stay in to stay a night is when your alter and she experienced I don't know your own but right the said the simplicity of ish is the Jew who said and he was talking face to face heartto-he heart directly with Hashem it didn't have and it didn't need all the sophistication but not because of insecurity it's not a I'm mentioning I don't mean there's a difference between the two that the soul is is the soul comes from doesn't is from the it's but when is the gil it's says it has a purpose you have a destination go to the kum don't stay don't stay there and and remember here the there's two in the mits one is a one is for am to talk to am has to become a mitas the same is and calem one is kay is a mitsus number two for TO SPEAK TO KAY HAS TO BECOME a mitsus right very very powerful one is you're dealing with mitsus one is to deal WITH MITSUS YOU HAVE to become a mitz it's ALREADY NOT THE SAME LIKE IT IS THAT'S WHY HE says in this that's why it's only it's the first level of because here has a mitsus because if doesn't have a mitsus it can't speak to caleb this itself is an unbelievable idea you can't communicate to somebody if you don't find THAT IN YOURSELF. IF COME SAY IF COMES TO HIM AND SAYS B IS COMING BL B BUT SAYS GET OUT OF MY GET OUT OF HERE GET OUT OF here go back to Bal land go take take take take take take take take drink take drink take drink take drink take drink take drink take drink take drink take drink take drink YOUR KOOL-AID AND GET OUT OF HERE so says you know what it it comes in the language of Musas it's not deceptive because that it's not it's not a deception that's what he says knows the truth. I'm here to unbburden you. I'm here to help you know who you are. It's very so assumes the properties of mitsus. That's why he keeps on saying besides the FACT THAT KAY IS MITS has to become a mitz back to am besides the fact that is a mitz that needs to assume the language of in order to talk to it but it's not it's assuming its language. It's not becoming trapped by its language. That's a big difference. It's a pure amuna coming through. >> Very powerful. >> I had this impression the the from the 50s and 60s has enormous amount in the 70s enormous amounts of letters on science and religion because everybody was struggling then you know with evolution and the age of the universe and and all these types of things. Then it was very very popular these questions and so so you see all these letters and sometimes they're long intricate letters about all these details but what the impression I always got is when he's into all the science it's no difference than when you're reading a mimer about at sc it's the same it's the same purity yeah now I have to speak a language that we usually don't it's it's a different language because you're talking to people that know this language but it's the same purity Because when it's coming from this not a contradiction on the contrary in many ways there's even a kadush in that that's higher than anywhere else because now like we said before likes the am appreciates this cuz this is the destination not only is it not a bad thing it's a good thing the is coming into is not like oh yo yo death sentence it's not a death sentence it's like neb there's a bunch of kale here so I don't know what to do so god punished me that's your whole that's why you created. Your inion is the interface. Your in is gili. Gilui means you bring non-existence into existence. That's what it is. Of course, you're dealing with friction. That's your tlas. That's the first level. The second level is pure amuna. Yeah. The amuna that's higher than Caleb. And that says at the end really it's one. This is just what it looks like and this is what it is. Here it looks like mitsas, but it's really it's bit. There it looks like BL. So the difference is either it looks like B OR IT LOOKS LIKE MITSAS. But it's all B. It's all BL. It just looks like Mits. So what? We're not afraid. We're not afraid. >> Huh? Huh? >> It's this is this is like the this is the of the he says particle and wave. Now we have to understand here the the richness of the second level of amuna pre higher than he's bringing out so much you know the beauty of the first one you have to understand that >> because >> very good okay what I want to bring out is all mitsas po is something that at least at first glance until you do the work it's a contradiction to right so that's why The needs to come in. The needs to come into the kal is looking to come into what does it look like in the second level here. He says remember the feels the source that's higher than mits is not only channeling a siphon to existence but because it's truly dedicated to the source it feels also that is beyond beyond being source and then realizes that everything it's giving is that and therefore it it's battle what is this Now, now we understand it and that is the purity of amuna in its own experience is ultimately the B of even from its mitas. It's like amuna coming into we know that the it's all amuna but you're always being malubish and caleb you need the language of you must have it because you're talking to him as I said to communicate you need to find that person in yourself if not I'm just talking to myself because of that at least it's that is always like garbing itself it's camouflaging itself not really camouflaging itself that's the whole point is it's not camouflaging itself but in reality it's camouflaging when speaks to Kaye needs to speak the language of Kaye it can't just speak the language of pure because Kay is like get out of here you understand but really the soul needs the purity of the language also in order to be able to go to number one down you have to maintain your purity if not you could lose it you get mixed up between the mask and the substance you're speaking the language of Kalin but you're not ka That's anxiety >> and that creates a lot of anxiety. Yeah. So that's like what I spoke about last time about even when is in the palace. Okay. That's already uh deep. In other words, the knows even when I'm here, it's a language. It's not my essence. And why is that so important? Because sometimes there's going to be opposition. Don't lose yourself. It's not always the kay is going to surrender, the cycle is going to surrender. Sometimes there's going to be a lot of resistance. It's not you always have your home to go back to. >> You don't get exactly. So that's the in in there's an expression in the the introduction to pure amuna. So what's that pure? So used to he said it's not tarnished with it retains its purity. And that's what he means here. It it it's not a difference in essence. Everything is b. But he doesn't even have the language of mitsas. It's the language of b in the world of b. And that's really where the soul dances. The needs to take on the kali. But there's the where it surrenders even mitsus. I don't have to be mitas because it's it's it's channeling something that's completely beyond. Yeah. That's that's that's the that's the when when only that is what allows the first to really be able to be successful in in his job. Now the question is what do you need? Where comes level three? Remember there were two levels of it and there was a third level. What was the third? This the the yearning to go back home. The awareness that I'm here I need to be here and therefore I want to be here but ultimately this is not my organic place knows that it comes from and it wants to go back to and says so therefore it goes back to even when it's out of because where you want to be that's where you are. What's this in a So now he says the next. Okay. E even the of that's higher than in other words the second level of which is higher than as he said it's not which means it's still a burden for the soul it's not it's not the ultimate alignment that allows you completely completely to be one which is the ultimate fusion even though it's very deep why why He says something very intense here. What's the B of am that a Jew experiences has a and godliness even if my own mitas I don't have proof like we explained before amuna doesn't need real am it's like I see you're here now you're going to ask me a thousand questions so I have questions maybe I don't have a proof but amuna doesn't need even though I don't have proof in the world of there's still an ama why should you believe this if you don't prove it don't believe it why would The answer is the reason why a person is because is experienced means experienced felt. It's it's perceived by the soul. The soul experiences but this is experienced in the soul as something that's higher than his own. In other words, he knows that mad my identity and my ego and my comprehension. I may have all these questions. Nonetheless, the soul experiences something that's higher than its own is something that's beyond it knows something which requires surrender. Therefore, the even though it's so powerful, it's like the second level of it's not. What does this mean? because the fact that he's my means that in him is experiencing something that's beyond him. That's and ultimately there is a very very subtle friction here. In me there's a mei that's experiencing something that's beyond me. So is very very pure. Remember the second level of feels that there's something higher than and is like okay I need to be muted but back in his own orbit he is who he is gab the source it's true it's like the candle in the middle of the day but the candle in his own orbit exists the light knows it was emitted >> it didn't create itself >> exactly yeah the light knows it was emitted and it knows that the source is not even defined by that light that it's emitting. It's completely beyond. So even with everything that's being emitted through me, it experiences a source which is completely beyond it and all my revelation is not capturing it. And therefore the surreners to that that's the second level the B of the mits of the what's the like he said before it's a bit and it's muted in the presence of that infinity but it its own its own inion still remains its inion. it remains mitus. So he says here too that something higher than me is felt inside of me. But he says it's felt inside of me. It's like when feels its source which is the essence of the he's feeling something higher than his he feels the truth that the essence of is not being revealed in me and that creates a bit of his This is felt in the way is in which is outside of the source and that's why it doesn't cause him that his whole mats should want to go BACK HOME. I AM WHO I AM. IT'S TRUE. This I'm there's a there's a there's a humility there. But in my mas I am who I am. It's just he feels something that's higher than his. That's what he says. It's the soul experiencing the elus. >> Yeah. the soul experiencing elus there's a certain there's a ble there's a there's a doesn't come into this is the pure am like the this is already the second level of but it's near it's experienced in my like we said before by the that the is not in the of the there's no complete oneness >> the feeling is is real it's not >> very real love you feel this but you don't know where it's coming from or what is it or how to react. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So here we have the first level this complete integration because the mitus of is its the ego of is that it doesn't have an ego that is it mitsus >> it's channeling it into mitsus the second level it surreners mitsus to higher the mitsus but mitas remains mitas it's just THERE'S SOMETHING HIGHER MIT that mitsus doesn't have a place the third level is complete fusion and what is that nef There's the real is the complete surrender of the soul for going out of your that's like the that yearns to go back home as it's understood from the continuous conversation speaks over there that and a flame you see is always dancing upward. It's like trying to kiss heaven. It's seeking what it looks to us. It's seeking to detach from the wick and go back to its source. So that's a physical metaphor. that if you actually knew your soul completely, you knew that every single moment it has a yearning to be absorbed in its source, even though it's going to be. Now, think about this. If you're completely in touch with your soul, there's something in your soul that feels I'm in the wrong place. Not I'm really in the wrong place. I know God didn't make a mistake. He sent me here. But it's not my experience. I want to be I in why I want to be in my source. Why? Because that's who I am. But but you're not going to have a name there. I don't know how I wasn't here to have names. But nobody's going to validate. I don't say that's the of the that's the real it's an anxiety, but not an anxiety because I hate myself or anxiety because life is confusing or because people don't like me. It's the anxiety. It's a different type. It's that deep down there's a pain that comes from existence itself. It's not because you did anything wrong. It's the pain that comes. This is the ultimate ultimate pain. It's the pain I miss Hashem. >> I know why I exist and I know why. >> On the contrary, only when I have that can I know why I exist and do it. Only when I have that because I know exactly who I am and I know this is not my house. This is not my home. Deep deep down I don't want to be here. Now it sounds like it sounds negative but it's not. This is the truth. He says the flame always wants to go back to the source. You need a wick to hold it down. That's what said my whole life. I wanted but I knew it's not my job. Another sinned when they did this. When the flame went left the wick, it was a sin. You're not supposed to. And I bought came out in peace. He didn't just go in in peace because you have a you have a mission. But when you're here and you know that a part of you is not here. What do you mean a part of you is not here? It's not really my place says. So that means you never really left. That's the the fact that you're experiencing the pain of existence means that in a certain way you're still in atmos even when you're out of atmos because where your desire is that's where you are. And here's where the mitsus of and the completely fuse in the first level left the world of so to speak to go into the world of to go into the world of caleb and it takes on the mask of mitz the mitsus of is but it's mitsas so it's like almost on a separate it's like a far away in the second level remembers who sent it right you go back to pure and over there mitad there there's a kashv And the I realizes with all its contribution it's fart not giving the tr it's it's not the real truth. So it's like a certain qu sense of quitting or or respect or mutedness or bit where the b of the mus is but this is because it feels something that's higher than it something that transcends it. It's a it's in the mitsus itself it retains itself. It retains its identity in the third level is yearning to go back. And in that yearning, it is back. What is that in? It's nephesh means that because I know who I am and what I really surrender at every moment. This is I this is how I live. I live in that space. I yearn to be home. That's what real midn is the constant surrender of the ego. and on every sense of separateness back to source back to source that's what and in a way that's deeper than the of amuna of course it's all based it's that's why there is ama but amuna is the way something higher than me affects me actually is you that becomes who you are I'm here but deep down I don't want to be here why I'm here >> and therefore I know why I'm here In other words, what you could say is all the like we spoke about this in the previous sh all the pain in the world that we have we have pain everybody has pain and usually it's pain of disappointment you know difficulties challenges emotional physical financial spiritual psych whatever every person in their own way If you if you pierce through all the layers, all the layers, what's really bothering you? What's really really the pain? It's not so easy to get here. I know I struggle. I'm struggling myself as I'm saying it. But deep down, if we go through all the layers, the real pain, the real pain is the is identifying it. The real pain is you're homesick. The real pain is you don't want to be here. There's a sense of detachment that hurts us in the deepest way. You miss Hashem. You miss the source because we're all in source. We're all source. We're all we are all in source. Deep down says this and he says this as you could trust him. Every soul at its core wants to be in its source. that over there it's going to be when the flame is back in its source. There's no flame anymore. But that's what it wants. Why does it want it? Why? And the answer is because that's its truth. That is really its truth. >> To stay here, >> huh? >> Once you feel this, the neph is to stay here. That's true. But most of us, that's true. Once you know that that's the >> classic. >> Yeah. You don't want to >> once you feel that that's the biggest to stay here that the big of the alterb was upl to let go of I don't want I don't want I don't want I want you to let all go of that because somebody needs a favor and it's some technical you know thing that they have to said that was the midn but you can only do that in a very very powerful way when you understand the source of the discomfort you stop blaming yourself I'm sick I'm anxious I'm depressed you're not sick you're not anxious you're actually in touch with yourself there's a deep the deepest pain is the pain of existence itself the trauma of existence itself is separation that's the deepest pain now you say I don't know what you're talking about it's not my pain. I need money. I need health. I need this. I need that. I need the people around me to be normal. I need the people around me to be happy. I need the people this. I need my children this. I need my wife. Whatever it is, everybody in their own way. Got it? If you want to undo a little bit of the layers, >> that is really the pain. That's really the pain. >> And when you know that, when you know that, you know that that is your pain and that is your desire. says the bos you just healed. You've just healed your pain. Heal doesn't mean that you go back. Heal means that this is Yeah, I'm supposed to be here and I'm feeling this pain. You know why I'm feeling this pain? Cuz I never really left cuz that's where I cuz that's who I am. Wow. Amazing. >> It does give. It's not true cuz you can always be have veus and ain't no that's different. It's not. We there's always something you could do to connect. Always. Sometimes it's a scafia, sometimes it's sometimes it's learning, sometimes doing a mitzvah, sometimes it's ding, sometimes it's going to sleep. You need some sleep, sometimes it's eating a meal. But I could say this is what I'm looking for. And now I'm going to do something to have or not or not do something to have. And it doesn't take away from the fact that there is a deep deep yearning here. That's the of the n to go back to its source. That's the third in where it's very mitious as a detached reality is bal but there there's an element of prison that's what the soul is feeling >> this means the low you are the higher you are >> in many ways now you'll say why doesn't want this why do you want to be invas it's not a why that that is its true reality that's it this is the complete fusion You see again the first level am becomes mitsus. It's gavaldic but amuna becomes mitus. So there is some separateness there's and there's the way is in mits in the second level is mits. Yeah. Here's something that's higher than mitsus. It's like oh wow ws >> in the third level and become one. So the IS BACK IN ITS MAKER LIKE IT NEVER LEFT THE MAKER. What is that in a person? The true of is I want to be with you. I ALWAYS WANT TO BE WITH YOU. I NEVER EVER WANT TO BE DETACHED from you. I always want TO BE THERE. AND THAT'S MY REAL THAT'S YOUR REAL THAT'S MY YEARNING. THAT'S YOUR YEARNING. Our need for yesesh for for separateness that's all a kipa of fake fake thing to substitute because we have anxiety and we don't know where it's coming from really everybody's looking to be in source I don't know that's what I'm looking for so I think if you give me cover if you give me money if you give me this I'll be happy because I don't know who I am the only thing we really want is to be in source that's the deepest of the that is what said every moment I'm ready to surrender every other definition of self you heard what I that midn means at every moment I'm ready to surrender every other definition of self besides this. That's what means. WHAT THAT LOOKS LIKE sometimes in history, unfortunately, we all know what that looked like. It meant physically. It meant phys what was a Jew thinking? Why were the Jews who went with what was it? In many ways, I have to be humble when I say this because we, you know, we live in another millu, but we have to be so humble because we thousands of years of Jewish existence, but we're all part of them. In many ways, every every Jew in some place, they didn't feel like they're dying. >> They're going home. They're being embraced by infinite love. Now, it it's beyond comprehension. Like, we have to be so sensitive with the words because we know how much pain and how much suffering and how incomprehensible it is. And I don't want to like romanticize this because that's not being honest, at least for me. >> But like epitomized it, right? But what is that? What is that? In the deepest sense, the Jews, I'm not dying. I'm not dying. I'm surrendering every other definition of life outside of Hashem that I'm doing. But that is actually surrendering every other definition of death besides one that's alive. They didn't feel they're being sent into oblivion, gone with the wind. They they send that there's two ar divine infinite arms that's going to that embracing them at that very moment. What they are surrendering is the lavush of gashmas that yeah and that's big that that's big and by the way that's why Hitler and all the anti they hated Jews so much because they they felt this in a mysterious way that's what I think they felt that they're not killing them and that's why they have to kill them more so you know you know how you feel like you can't you can't defeat your enemy so you do it more you do it more and the more you're doing it the more you feel you're UNSUCCESSFUL YOU'RE LIKE WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE LIKE DIE. Die already. Die. They weren't dying. So, let's kill more. KILL MORE. MORE. MORE. MORE. Because they were trying to kill God. Good luck. So that's in Gashm. What is in every moment to be ready to surrender any definition OF SELF OUTSIDE OF THIS definition that I want to be absorbed in a forever and ever. any other definition of self that is the that's where Mitsus and BL BECOME ONE BECAUSE THAT DOESN'T ONLY AFFECT your transcendence like you feel something higher than you that's here it's it it becomes your mitas itself in MY MITS IN MY SEPARATENESS I'M LOOKING TO BE home so I am home in my separateness so here amuna now in every level of mitsas you surrender that's the third of >> you understood Why can I just say it? So mysterious nephesh is not dying for it's living with the source. It's living with the source. >> Ms means to live with the source. >> Yeah. >> Right. When you translate to die for the source >> of of course when a Jew is confronted with that moment that's the highest form of Ms. Neesh. They're ready to surrender everything about life that we know. my body, my existence, my family, you know, and there's nothing there's no words for that. >> Nephes is surrendering your the identity, every level of self and we're surrendering every definition of self outside of I want to be absorbed in the source. And that actually means living with your true self, of course, because you're not really surrendering yourself. That is yourself. Of course, you know, that's the little secret here. The little secret here is that you're not surrendering anything. You're actually you're going back to life. It it looks like surrender, right? Just like Mitsus looks like Mitsus. But the real truth is you're not surrendering anything. You're just like, "Oh, thank God. I'm home." Okay. It's not like the soul is like when he says that is its mitas that it's because it's Mitsus is that it's not Matsus. Armitas is not Mitsus. Our mitsas is ain't safe. We don't have mitsas. Mitsas is just a burden. But that's the tas. Now once you know this, you can go anywhere and do your job. Nobody asked you to die. I want you to live. >> I'm not afraid of challenge. >> You're not afraid of the challenge. And the world is not a contradiction anymore. Of course you're homesick. Of course you were sent on a mission. Because you're homesick, you're always there. You're always in your source. That's the of the but you're there more than here. You say, "No, it's not true. I'm not in atmos. I'm here." No, if your roten is to be here, that's where you are. So why why are you in this world? Because that's where he wants me to be. So I'm here. So he says this is even deeper than the amuna. It's deeper than amuna. Amuna is something transcendent that is so wow. And here this becomes my this becomes YOUR IDENTITY. YOU ARE the amuna. You could say that it's not different than a muna. Of course, not like there's you you become the amuna. You are the amuna. Atmos is in you. Where where do you see that? That's your yearning. You want to be home. Amuna means a recognition of a transcendent reality that every soul feels. There's like a core that experiences it. And I'm still me. I'm still me. Now, it's a gala Indian because it's very very pure. It's complete ble. But it's a bal that comes from something higher. But in my little orbit, I'm my little I'm I am me. And here is you redefine the true meaning of selfhood. What's the true meaning of selfhood? Listen to this. What's the true meaning of selfhood? The true meaning of selfhood is that it's in pain for separateness. That's the only all psychology is busy. What's the self? Who's the self? Give show me what the self looks like. Is the self compassionate, curious? What does yourself looks like? It's a very deep question. like before all the wounds and traumas and everything. Show me that that little child self, the purity. What does it look like? Who who is it? Give it give him to me. Give him to me. I want to meet him. Right. Well, everybody's trying to do that today. Meet your little child. So, that's very important to meet him and how pure and beautiful he is. And now when you're really going to meet him, right, you know what you're going to see, right? that his real definition of self is the pain of being separate >> and then you're not separate and then you're not separate and that's the revolution of the bos like we spoke the other day was saying where you want to be that's where you are in other words almost like extolling ambition it's like a commencement speech at Harvard University you know when the billionaires get up and say every dream you could fulfill d you know it's cute when a guy has seven billion And he's telling every student there, you know, has $5 in his name, fail and fail and fail again. You know, he has $7 billion, but everybody fail. You know those speeches. And then he tells you how he flunked high school and he was throwing out of everything. You know, you're almost homeless, but he's telling you how you don't have to have a job. JUST FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS. Follow your dreams. >> Money is not everything. >> Money is not everything. But don't get close to my money. >> I know. I have money. I have everything. So people learn the the main thing is this. I don't give you a you flunked everything. You failed everything. The main thing is you have a rat even though you're homeless and you're living in the gutter and they just took away your house and your wife just threw you out of the house. But the main thing is to have a rat. So it's true is very very important. Right? But there's a in the here that's very very it's existentially profound. What the is saying is your desire towards that place that is what really defines you. That's who you are. The pain of what you're missing is your identity. That's your deepest identity. That means the pain that I have of existence means I don't exist. I'm an atsmos. The pain that I have of being in existence means that my core never left the source of existence. That's why there's a pain. I never left the core of existence. Now, that's comforting to be able to look at yourself and say, "I have so much pain cuz I never left the source of existence and that's why there's a pain." That's very, very comforting because it means you have all the truth. It means you have all the truth. Now, of course, God wants you in this world. He doesn't want you dead up there. Fine, beautiful. But you have all the truth right here. That's what the Band was saying. Show me your ruts and I'll show you the truth that you have. It's not a negative thing like, "Oh, YOU DON'T HAVE IT LIKE ONE DAY YOU'LL HAVE IT." NO, YOU HAVE IT NOW. If this is what you're missing, this is this is what you have now. This is your truth. That's what it means to live with midnat. It's such a beautiful definition to surrender every definition of self outside of being absorbed in the source as >> in a very practical way. Yeah. Let's say I finish I was if I talk about myself but every person in their own life. Let's say I finish a speech, right? It was very very successful. How do I know? There was a standing ovation not for 10 seconds but let's say for 35 seconds for a moment right give me more give me more give me more give me more in other words it's defining a very practical it's defining the self as a self that is living off validation public attention compliments right on the most basic level just to be able to go in and say that's what you feel at the moment that's True. What does look like at that moment? What it really looks like is it's it's a very nobody would even know it, but I know it. What would it mean at that know? It would mean don't for a moment get fooled by what the self just told you about itself because it's a very external layer that's going to come and pass. And if you get stuck there, it's going to be torturous. Let go. It's there. It's there. I have an effort. I'm not on the third level of of certainly not at every moment. It's there and surrender it. Surrender that definition of self to a deeper definition of self. What's ultimately the definition of self? Actually, I want to be I am. I'm like, no, I don't want to be a RABBI WA YOU CHANGED MY LIFE. OH, GOOD. ABBY, I don't want to. So, it's a it's sach one of us in our own life. Yeah. You go home, you get into an argument. Your natural instinct is argue back. I'm gonna prove it. I'm gonna prove it. I'm gonna prove it. That's a natural instinct, right? Or the other way, I'm gonna just like, leave me alone. I could never ever win. You You hear what all But all these selves, what are they doing? They're defining ourselves by certain needs. I need to win the argument. I need to get upset and and and drift away. What does what does mus look at such moments? At such moments, it's not dramatic. It's not like a but but it's midnight. It's Mr. Nevish. Try it. You'll see. Try it. You'll see you'll see it's the Reb was once fabing was and he said he was talking he's talking about working on your midas scaffy working on your midas. So he said that to work on a mid he said it's very very hard. He used to keep his hands under the table and then he he looked at the he picked up his hand. He says try doing what I'm saying and you'll see how hard it is. proof this you'll see like do do it you see how hard it is so what does it mean it means feeling what I'm feeling because because nephesh means you have to surrender something so this is important if you don't feel what you're feeling you're not surrendering it nephesh means you're taking something you're taking nephesh and you're giving it over right you know how they say in therapy let let go of this emotion yeah you can't let go of something if you're not holding on to it I can't let go of the tissue box I'm not holding on to it let go to let go you have to hold Hold on to it. Hold on to that anger. Hold on to that insecurity. Hold on to that NEED FOR VALIDATION. HOLD ON TO IT. And then surrender it. Hold on to it. See it. Yeah. Okay. I see. And now I'm going to surrender any definition of self outside of one definition. What is the definition? Definition is I want to be actually and that's really what I want. I don't want to win the argument. I don't even want to win the argument. I don't want to run away. I don't want anything besides this. That's the truth. EVEN THOUGH NOW I'M NOT FEELING IT. That's true. And to live with that every moment. That's living with the ultimate b every single moment. And it's in your mas for this. You don't have to be embarrassed. You see that's the of number three. Number two. Number two. YOU FEEL SOMETHING HIGHER. NO QUESTION. But you still in your little separateness in its own little game is still a little game. IN ITS OWN LITTLE ORBIT LIKE DON'T TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME. In the third, there's nothing separate. Even in YOUR MOST SEPARATE PARTS, it's all bitt because you're homesick. SO THERE'S NO PART THAT'S NOT PART of the oneness. The very mitas gets punctured because it's all oneness. BECAUSE EVEN IN MY SEPARATENESS, there's a yearning, right? THERE'S A PAIN. THAT IS that is the that's so we have three levels. You have based on defined by am it's the >> it's one of the plers of this mime that the took such a he doesn't do this he just goes through the three levels of figure it out like everything exodus and here the took it and he put it into with a it's one of the to be able to show these three and every level of it goes higher and higher and higher it's all avoid it's It's not it's not it's not not it's not mind games of abstract philosophy. Yeah. >> Question when someone is coming to you when he's starting to teach you things from his um understanding and his um you feel like when you interact with them you let yourself like you're people like you're not arguing back and you're not going away. You're getting closer. Yeah. >> What is the >> It's a good question. >> The question is if you really need to continue with this person. >> It doesn't sound very promising at the moment. >> Walk away. >> You don't walk away. It depends what if it's a relationship with a father or a mother or a brother or a sister. It's one thing. If it's a relationship with somebody that is uh generally whenever there's a relationship that's there's a lack of real conversation and real respect unless it changes it's not going to be it's not going to be helpful. So you could be n you could be nice and kind and respectful and just in a very nice way you know you move on but not obnoxious or rude unless the person is capable and open to a real conversation and then you could tell them you know there's something about this conversation that is disturbing me it feels disrespectful to me it's making me feel cluttered and making me feel anxious if that that's a beautiful thing if you could do that but they may not be open to that so that's also part of You have to know. Like in other words, if you want to have a real conversation, let's have a real conversation. There's something here that's bothering me. >> How do you know? >> No. He says he feels cluttered. He says he feels cluttered. He says he feel >> also also if you have a little more confidence in yourself, it may be an opportunity to help him. But for that, you have to be very regulated. You understand? In other words, he may be suffering and he's trying to impose that on you. So if you're very regulated and confident, you can actually help him. But for that, you have to know what you're doing. If not, you're going to get lost. Do you understand what I'm saying? Like if you know who you are, you can actually listen to him and help him in his journey because he's probably generally whenever we uh put clutter on other people, it's because we're not happy. If you're happy and you're uncluttered, you don't it doesn't help you when other people are cluttered. First, you understood the whole today. Wow. Okay, I'm still trying to understand. >> Well, the real of amuna is like we saying it's not just somebody told me and I choose to believe even though it's a ridiculous faith. That's called blind faith. Real amuna is that the way we're explaining it here alis the mahal actually says this amuna means that the is present in our lives and there's a part of us that picks it up. We have an antenna for elus. That's what a moon is. We have an antenna for elements. Now, you can argue, you could say that's brainwashing. You grew up in a religious home. They teach these things, but it's not true. You don't have such an antenna. It's it's a joke. Right? That's the approach of pure SE. I'm just going to be cold and intellectual. Right? What then happens is that's that you could argue that Amuna is not afraid of that argument. It doesn't have to. It's a very it's a clear argument and that's why we will maybe talk about the big bang and say one second what if you could prove from the world that there is a source there is a god and what if that god is actually alive and he's channeling his truth here. So you understand so this is where you could begin with you could begin with and in our generation it's sometimes important to be able to have these conversations because if not people just think they're brainwashed. Everybody have a beautiful day. Hashem will continue Wednesday morning. Wednesday morning 8:00. This class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net. Please help us continue the classes. Make even a small contribution at ww.theshiva.net/donate.