Turning the Page To Truth (Arielle’s Learning Journey)

my family grew up modern Orthodox we kept all the Mito but there were certain things that we did that weren't so Jewish we would go to the movie theaters quite often we would go to the beach my skirts didn't always cover my knees things like that and I also grew up going to an all girls Yeshiva um but one of the things that I would say I grew up is that none of the mat vote had really the true meaning behind it like it would be okay is coming up I get to dip the Apple in the honey whereas right now it's okay what is coming up how could I fix myself um what else do I need to do to do to shoua things like that but back then it was it was just I'm just doing this because this is what's next this is what we have to do we go in the Sucka but there was no there was no Beauty behind it I was pretty young when I started doing tshua um I would say it started very slowly like I I took it one step at a time um my sister sister actually started going to um to Rabbi Ruben Shor first and then slowly slowly the rest of my family um got into it as well [Music] so it started like I would try on this skirt and then I would be like okay this is not fully modest and one thing that helped me was would I picture SAR Manu wearing the skirt would she wear this would any of the great riton wear something like this and if the answer was no then then I would have to tell myself okay then I can't wear it either and and then slowly it would be once I was going so often to R Shor I couldn't sit and watch movies or TV shows anymore because you know that you realize and you learn that it's all filth and it's all fake and it's all just a waste of time and and if it's not bringing you closer to Hashem then that means that it's bringing you further away from Hashem and once I started going almost to every single sh that that R had every single week three nights a week um it would be like I couldn't miss it at all I would have my notebook and and just want to write everything down and it's just amazing everything that you learn and I was still in school in high school and everything that that Ruben was teaching and is teaching like they didn't teach it in school you learn Hala and and whatever else like KES Rashi but they didn't teach a lot of hashkafa andar like ruven does so it was definitely like it felt so refreshing to hear like no you need to fix yourself you need to do this and everything that Ren teaches the sh that affected me the most it's hard to pick just a one I really love theem series with the Levi I also really enjoy the Garrett ramban and everything everything is amazing but I could vividly remember one Shor when I was first starting to do to shua specifically with modesty I remember there was one that really set the light bulb off for me and I remember the thumbnail of the video had fruit in it and I think the title was something along the lines of what can you learn from a fruit or something like that and in the Shor rabu was saying um when you have a fruit it comes with a peel and the peel is like the protection and a as soon as you take a bite from it or or you peel it it'll turn brown if it's not eaten right away and as he said that it's the same thing like with our clothing we have to cover ourselves because if we don't if we show our skin and uncover then we will rot basically and and I just thought that was such a beautiful analogy because it's exactly right [Music] because if everyone goes around selling peeled apples no one's going to want to buy them CU they're all going to be rotten same thing with modesty your beauty is only for your husband so that's why for everyone else it has to be covered and I just thought that was so beautiful because it shows that modesty is really like a protection for a woman because just how the peel protects and preserves the fruit from getting spoiled our clothes protect us from everything the advice I would give to someone would be to really in the beginning like Listen to As Much yours as you possibly can because especially in the beginning you really need constant constant and really really throughout your whole life but especially in the beginning because you might have doubt do I really want to do this am I ready could I take this on I don't know if I can and that's all the Sahara so when if you're constantly immersing yourself in Shor and Torah then your Nama will naturally just want to do everything so I would say listen to a lot of the Shor and don't think you could take everything on all at once because depending on everyone's situation they have a lot to fix so for me for example I didn't throw away all my clothes at once I went through little by little my closet and picked out what wasn't modest and slowly filled it up with things that were more modest and same thing for for everything else once I started listening to more and more shur I it was easy to cut out movies TV anything that has to do with things secular anything that wasn't with Hashem really it was easier to cut out because man has was telling me okay this is not bringing me closer T time I don't want it anymore and another thing that really helped me and it seems so small and it's easy when you just say it out loud but but it's really important to implement this is to look at the mat vot as diamonds rather than a rock or a burden I remember I'm there was a fly LI or poster I don't remember what it was that that that b hasem published but it was um this little icon of a stick figure holding a bunch of rocks and bending over because it was so heavy and then it said this is what you think meets vote are and that it had an arrow and another sick figure hunched over but that sck figure was holding a whole leap of diamonds and it said this is what me foot really are and I printed out and and pasted it onto my notebook um because I just that is just the number one reminder for me because it makes it just makes you want to do everything the in the best way possible it makes you want to keep Shabbat have the nicest clothes for Shabbat um because you realize all the me vot are all diamonds and who who who wouldn't want to get a whole bunch of diamonds who like it just makes you want to keep everything because you want to get as much diamonds that that are really me v as possible and and this way you look at it as hasem is giving me all these diamonds like he's not giving me all these vot that are a burden he's giving them to me because this is what's going to make me a better person and this is what's going to help me help me with everything and I also love when when R talks about how you're doing tshua your whole life so as much as all these tshua stories are are helping everyone I think it's also important to point out that your tshuba story never really ends there's never a finishing point because as long as you're alive you always have something to work on something to do something you could do more forem more learn more everything and I'm just so grateful to Hashem and for ruin and the whole Ram Organization for helping call and doing so many amazing amazing things and I just feel so grateful to be a part of this and get to share my story thank you so much [Music] for com