Turn Friday into Erev Shabbos #38 - Pause to Let the Blessings Catch Up With You

everybody we are about ready to begin i get an error of shabbos to all my holy arab shabbos friends [Music] some of you are watching from a place where it's mamasho momentarily the tie is on you're ready to go we're gonna begin in just a moment so grateful to our generous sponsors our dear friends menden si para fishman freighto in memory of rabbi lord jonathan sachar yaakov and david arya thank you so much for your generosity this week and always there is the siren that means shabbos is coming and it is time to get started we are going to continue where we last left off and that is learning about the halogen hashami yasaya the holy extra soul the further endowed soul the extra layer of soul that we all have as shabbos comes in learn from the word we have learned thirteen different interpretations or explanations of what this nashami is and last week we left off on the 13th we'll finish it this week and if you recall the arizona explained it means the following we know the talmud tells us that we stood at our sinai when we stood at mount sinai and we said nasa before nishma we said we will do we're prepared just tell us what it is nishma even before we heard what it is we said we're in whatever it is hashem said i have an idea for you we said we're in count us in we'll do it even before he told us what it was and at that moment that we put nasa before nishma at the moment that we said we will do before we needed to listen to what it was hashem gave us he tied to us snake saw him two crowns each one crown for nasa and one for nishma and the beautiful marshall there should have been one crown for putting nasa before nishma why is it two for another time so the arizona says you know what is that those crowns that we received at har sinai in that grateful in that incredible moment of devotion and dedication they were taken away from us with the ego when we cheated on god when we deviated from god when we diverted our attention from god he took he withdrew those crowns he took them off our head every shabbos comes and they returned on top of our head each shabbos their put back some so for many many say this interpretation of the nephew of the nephesh the last thing god said to moshe was come down from the mountain and you're going to see you're going to encounter what the people have done when you come off the mountain and you see that people have cheated on me they've built an eagle they built a golden calf they're worshiping something other than me those were god's final words to moshe on top of that mountain of the nephesh they've lost those crowns they've lost that soul they've lost that union that relationship that romance that connection it's been severed it's broken those crowns are restored on top of our head every shabbos we return to that closeness to that union to that love to that devotion to that romance with hashem we go back to the place of revelation because think about it what was harsinai what was matantora it was the greatest moment of divine revelation ever there was no doubt as to god's existence every soul every jew that stood at sinai every jewish soul and we know every soul that was destined to become jewish all those future and destined to convert they were also already at c9 every jewish and destined jewish soul that was at sinai there was no doubt there was no certainty there was absolute clarity that there's a god that he's involved in our lives that he loves us and we love him we broke through we had that moment of revelation it was unprecedented and since then it's unparalleled of absolute clarity of no doubt or uncertainty of feeling in the presence of the divine of being filled with simultaneous awe and reverence and love and connection and it was lost it was lost with the ego a moment of insanity poor judgment with the jewish people panicked and in our panic we made a terrible mistake and those crowns that clarity was withdrawn well say all these explanations the ariza and the sofa the and others every shabbos the neshami sarah means getting back to that place of clarity going back to our sinai back to mount sinai shabbos comes and the doubt and the uncertainty as we keep saying it may be there again on most abuse the doubt and the uncertainty the questions the confusion the worry the anxiety it'll all be there after shabbos but 25 hours we get a reprieve 25 hours stop doubting stop asking stop questioning stop wondering for 25 hours we're whole we're complete it's a taste of the world to come a world in which we can make sense of everything a world in which it all comes together integrated in harmony and so beautifully and so the nishama yasera explains the arizona and all these others this expanded extra soul this endowed soldiers and swami sarah means putting those crowns back on it means transporting ourselves back to our sinai for 25 hours we go back to a place of revelation back to a place of absolute clarity back to a place of confidence of belief of love in our father not only that he's aware of what's happening in our life but he's intimately involved in it and that's what we say in our dhaba yes moshe moshe is so thrilled his portion but matano shall call his portion the whole institution according to the arizona only came after the eagle after that terrible mistake of the golden calf beforehand we didn't need it we had the clarity of the revelation the whole reason the whole cause for needing an extra soul came once the haita eagle happened so my dear friends many of us are living lives we're in places of confusion we're in places of a lot of questions there are those who've been alone now eight nine months there are those who have dreams and aspirations that are unrealized who are struggling and who are suffering and who wonder where is god and why doesn't he answer me and why doesn't he love me and these are real questions there is real pain and no one should minimize or marginalize or make you feel bad or defensive or ashamed for them because they're part of the reality of life and six days a week feel the pain six days a week lean into that pain don't ask necessarily where is god but there's nothing wrong with feeling and challenging avraham avinu abraham our great patriarch said to god why would you do that to stone he protested he objected and there's nothing wrong that's what davening is it's protesting and objecting god why is this one sick and why does this one not have a livelihood and will you finally give that one a spouse and give this one a baby will you bring world peace will you bring an end to whatever it is that we want so badly six days a week there are things that are missing things that are lacking and davening is essentially our protest our objection are asking god to intervene and interfere are asking god to get involved and to bring out a different outcome come shabbos we don't ask for anything the amiibo all week long we called the shimon as for 18 blessings it's really made up of 19. three at the beginning are praised three at the end is gratitude and the 13 in the middle are the requests these are the timeless universal requests the men of the great assembly the answer is so with divine inspiration authored these 13 requests these are the requests they transcend time and space they're the things that we all need wherever we are and whenever we are what do we need wisdom and health and livelihood and justice these are all these 13 middle blessings come shabbos you don't say those 13 middle blessings instead of 18 or 19 blessings how many do we have we have seven three at the beginning three at the end and one in the middle seven seven is a unit of homeless seven of the days of the week seven days of creation seven is a unit of being shelling of being whole because on shabbos i'm shalem shabas i'm whole i don't need anything i have everything shabbos there's nothing missing shabbos i'm not focused on what's not there i'm focused on what is there i'm not focused on what i want i'm focused on what i have and that's how i find the happiness and the serenity and the peace and the taste of the world to come that shabbos provides that's the trip the journey i take i go back in time to mount sinai there's a revelation it's a taste of the world to come god i look around on shabbos and i have everything i'll make abdullah shabbas will end and i'll go back to thinking about the things i don't have i'll go back to davening and protesting and objecting for the things that i so desperately want for myself and for others but for 25 hours i can rest for 25 hours i can unburden myself from feeling the responsibility to ask and plead and grovel and beg for 25 hours i can feel whole and complete for 25 hours i can feel happy that's the nisham yasera that is the extra soul that we're given for shabbos it is the capacity to go back to sinai to go back to sinai to go back to a place of revelation where god i see you and i feel you and i know you i have no doubt i have no uncertainty all i have is gratitude and appreciation all i have is knowledge that you give me everything that i need everything that i deserve and everything that i want and what you're giving me is shabbos in just a few moments for those who need to light candles so we'll leave it here for this week we'll pick up what the fourteenth explanation of what on the shelves please god next week until next time stay happy stay healthy stay holy and join us for our arab shabbos party coveted shabbos don't forget all friday is with covet shabbos all of shabbos let's cover chavez honor the shabbos and he will honor you find that homeless that completion that sanctity here it comes have a wonderful shop is everybody stay happy stay healthy and most importantly stay holy