Transcending Language Allows for Healing | Parsha Beshalach

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we're middle of the mimer azyoshir by the balatanya published printed in toyota's the mimer of kriyasyamsof exploring the real reason why the jewish people had to go through the experience of christians if it wasn't just a necessity to save them they could have been saved in many different ways god's imagination is fertile and infinite furthermore tyson's writes and conductor that they went out from the same side they came in furthermore we see that there is a mitzvah a dimensional chase machine every single day just like the terrorist says it's a mitzvah to mention this i mentioned to mention kriyasyams of each day just like the terrorist says the dimension there's a mitzvah to mention yetis mitzrayim every day there's also mitsubishi manchester every day nonetheless the question is why why is it so important to mention it every day so one perspective is because it's these great miracles that existed in the genesis of jewish history that really made us who we are this is our collective memory our collective consciousness why specifically kris yamsev should be a mitzvah dimension all the templates but there's no it's kristian's so from all of this that'll terribly develops the idea alpi that there is something internal about kriyasyamsov that needed to happen in the beginning of the jewish journey in many ways kriyasyamsov represents and captures the raisin the etra the mission statement of jewish existence and our role in the world collectively as jews and individually each one of us individually as well and we mention it every day we talk about it every day in the davaning a big part of davening is occupied by the story of the splitting of the sea by this song that followed that's absolutely imran and then later before schweinster this the bracha esras viatsev the bracha and concludes till gaul yisrael a huge part of that is devoted to the story of the splitting of the sea the salvation of the jewish people who walked through it and the drowning of the egyptians who were submerged in the water like we say each day yams of bakata zaydim tibata did him he did that's the whole section of ezra's and we finished shirakadasa this is the intro before nasr so we we have to understand that kriyasyamsif is a central motif in the understanding of what it is to be a jew and what the jewish people are i'm bringing a binkle okay so what was the main point that we learned very briefly mammog briefly and those who are here for the first time i will suggest that you hear the previous four classes on this mimer so that you should be able to really get it because uh this is a this is a deep mimer this is the fifth the fifth class on aziyasha but very briefly the balatanga introduced us to the two worlds of almadesgalya and almadescasia or one is called the abbasia and one is called yam one is dry land and one is sea one represents a place where everything is individuated in a very conspicuous way you could see conspicuously the diversity of existence of creation versus the yam where everything is covered is it's covered by the waterbed furthermore furthermore and the second point and the first point are of course dependent upon each other they're just two points that are clearly made in the my mirror furthermore in the abortion not just everything is seen as individuated it's that our connection to our source of life does not necessitate that we should be hidden and submerged in it we all depend on the earth but we stand above the earth we can even go into a building and elevate ourselves significantly above the earth in one of the transcripts of the mind made by rab moisha that i think it's very moisture the son of the altitude printed in my murray admiral mcgimle 1803 he has an expression there that his father said or he wrote it that creatures of earth could spend a significant amount of time by avir hashemima they could fly they could stay in the air right very very distant from the earth even though we're all dependent on earth this is interesting because in 1803 we did not spend time in airplanes we did not spend time in the air birds could spend time in the air but other creatures couldn't spend time in the air we could spend time on on the ground on the earth we can elevate ourselves you can go onto a mountain or you can go into a tall building but that's what he says in the miami interesting it's fascinating of course it's exactly 100 years before the wright brothers literally 1803 is what this man was said a hundred years before the wright brothers gave us the gift of uh aviation which of course changed the landscape of humanity the fish on the other hand is not just concealed i don't see it for the fish to live it needs to be submerged in the water inconspicuous and this represents two states of consciousness one is which the eye is individuated and distinct the other is where the eye is completely submerged in the source of life it's not conspicuous one is a state in the souls of alma descas what is dermit c is what is the definition of their existence the bittle the alignment with infinity to the point that the eye is completely transparent what is it transparent of it's a channel for the divine eye there's no uh blockages and therefore there's no i because all all the definition of i is mammalic is the way the divine is structured and tailor-made and harnessed and restricted and compressed within vessels that allow there to be individuation to be identity one thought that encompasses all of reality all of time all of space all of matter all of past all of present all the future we applied it possibly to the two experiences in each person i need to be attached i need to be connected and i also need to be me and both are real needs and people if you cut off one from the other you're you're not in touch with the human condition we try to do that because sometimes it's easier it seems easier but it's not because it catches up on you catches up to you nearby copper sunder okay both are true i need to be connected loya toy videos we need connection we need intimacy to live life functionally to live life well to live a meaningful life we need deep connection and real connection is where i can dissolve in you i can i can melt away in you but i also need to be me i also need to be me yeah and so we go to therapy because we can't figure out which is more important is it more important for me to melt away in you to be really connected to you to dissolve to be able to dissolve myself or is it more important for me to be me i have to be me i have to be authentic to myself this is not an easy question to answer this question is probably uh at the heart of i don't know 90 of marital strife i'm not talking about if there is khalilah you know clear mental illness or uh personality disorder that's that's another issue which which on a deeper level may also be connected to this but i'm talking about the regular tension it's it's just that this detention of life in spiritual i see us it's alma discuss in ahmedabad the world in which the eye is is aligned with the source of existence the fish doesn't want to be seen the fish wants to be in a mikveh 24 7 you take the fish out of the mikvah it's death it's not it's not oh let's take you out of the water so we could show you off so you could display your talons that's death for me to be seen as death for me to be not seeing is life that's how i'm gonna discuss it you have to get that right by the abortions the opposite for me not to be seeing to put the creature to take a mammal and put it in him put him in the earth that's burial that's death for life for me is to be seen do i want to be seen or do i not want to be sin i'm not just talking about by other people by me too by me too this is this is this is the the tension between mathias and bittel the the the richness of siddhis of the alta rabbis my modern is that this goes back all the way to the beginning this is the perceived split between mama kalama and surf of kalam mamala kalaman is the way hashem creates room for mathias save of calaman is the way divinity creates the bittle and both are very real mamalakalaman is not a is not a fairy tale it's not a mistake it's essential to the fabric of creation means hashem fills the worlds which in other words means he creates diversity diversity is also divine because the divine energy is restricted and compressed and channeled to create the unique chemistry of every niveron so i am not you is not fake it's real and you are not me is also real works both ways by the way i told you once this is a t-shirt i'm easy to get along with once you learn to worship me instead that's that's what is that that's there's only me there's something called narcissistic personality disorder there was once a joke somebody said if you want to drown a narcissist what do you do you put mirrors on the bottom of the ocean but what we're learning here is that at the bottom of the ocean there's no mirrors at the bottom of the ocean there's oneness but for us that means drowning that means khashwesh's opposite of life for the fish that's life keep me inside there if you put you tell the fish let's go on a cruise so you can enjoy the view you take the fish on the boat to enjoy the crew view and we know what happens becomes fish for shoppers get filter fish for shops by the way it says in kabbalah that the souls of savikim are reincarnated into fish and this is the reason souls of tsadikum if they have to come back sometimes they going to fish not only that i'm not going to get into this at length now i may have shown we have to reshare this on this one day did you ever notice that we are we're allowed to eat a logically living creatures you have to do it with sensitivity you have to know the purpose of it but fish you don't have to shake the gemara says in holland right hasifa dug him just just take it out of the water and it's ready a chicken that just dies even if the chicken dies naturally you know i'll eat the chicken strafe it's an available a behemoth just dies even a kosher animal you're not going to eat it it has to go through a process of a fish just dead you're allowed to eat it and the gemara discusses that there's a debate about it and the gemara learns it out from parishes if you gather all the fish will there be enough in other words you fish only need a gather a bahama mammal let's say a cow a bull or sheep a goat these are all kosher giraffe good luck with a giraffe but they're all kosher an antelope whatever it is that's kosher you need shrita and it's written you have to cut the esophagus you have to cut the trachea she can also need to one semen either the esophagus or the trachea and fish doesn't need any schluter what's the real what's the deeper reason for this i'm just going to mention the point fish represent the nepheshala kiss chicken's birds represent the nephesha cyclists and mammals represent the nafisha bahamas fish submerged in water this represents the nefer shall accuse of a person the divine consciousness of a person meaning the aspect of i that is completely one with the divine eye there's no need for shrita you don't need a metamorphosis fish you don't need my removal fish now of course it doesn't mean fish are a metaphor for it fish are everything in the physical world mirrors and reflects the transcendent so fish represent the nephroshalacus over there this complete bitterness complete oneness that's alma descarcio and that's the very depth of my that's that's a very deep part of me bittel doesn't mean repressing yourself a fish doesn't get repressed by putting it in water it means coming to life for the nephesh being in the water is life that's the power of the mikvah that's why cleanliness comes from the mikveh i allow my eye to dissolve in the oneness and over there there's no toxicity there's no trauma there's no tumor there's no impurity you come out of the water and you're a pneumaticist a convert the guard goes to the mikveh comes out of the mikveh is a new midsea is like a new soul there's like a rebirth i'm just giving you different examples to appreciate this idea chickens represent birds represented rational soul because they could stay up in the air but they can also come down and that's what rationality is the mind can uplift you but the mind can also take you down and then you have the mammals which always stay on the earth they're terrestrial creatures they're the nephesha bahamas the animal soul which never looks up to heaven right over here it depends what type of this he's from water moisture is all water and that's why moshe can speak for maisha speaking is a compromise to his very existence performing being on display communication maisha is submerged in the source he's always receiving the speech is articulating the infinite within finite verbiage and that's contradictory to contradictory to martial what's the kiddies of kris yamsev is the synthesis it's not that god says you don't need the yams to stay in the abortion no i want you to walk in the yarm be a bush in other words to be individuated in the sea it's not that they go you know god could have done another miracle they could have gone into the sea and be like fish if he wants we'll swim under the water we'll swim under the water huh walk on top of the water like the story of the basham tiff you know the story of the bashans well guns in my souls are not for now stood about if he put a handkerchief he walked up could have done a lot of things he didn't do that he split the water and they went in by a voyage in other words kris yamself is the synthesis of the two the fusion of the two that's why we talk about it every day kriya samsuf that's why it was the introduction to matantara that's why it is such a perfect pivotal moment in jewish history because it wasn't just the physical miracle that they went through the water and it was a wow certainly it was a wow no question but the essential message of christmas is one that we attempt to reenact daily in our lives to be able to create a fusion between myself as an individuated person within my own authentic persona and the antithesis of that which is the complete oneness with the source how do you fuse the two dr ebba said for this we go to atsumus we have to go back to the core that transcends finiteness and infinity transcends mamale and saiv transcends ayan and yesh transcends mathias and bittle transcends the state of yabosha and yam and therefore the yam could be a basha the abortion could be that's what music real music represents that's why the jewish people say ashira la shem ki goyga you know why i sing because he's got a god he's above being above guy number one is cyborg it's above caleb it's juan marshall yes if the yesh wants to be queen of the islam you have to go back to us if you want to really start living you have to align yourself with us with the all encompassing with the all-encompassing oneness of creation yesh when you're a yesh what's a yash he's above being god he's above being aloof he's above being safe that results in song although explains a real song the definition of a real song is the longing to transcend every trap every confinement that's what a song is and that's the power of a song and that's why a song is not about information you could sing the same old song he says who knows how many times if you have time on your hands you're a teenager you could sing the same song how many times music the horse and the rider have a very interesting relationship on one hand the horse is completely subservient to the rider somebody who knows how to deal with horses somebody who has a a relationship a connection with horses knows that horses are very sensitive to the one who rides the horse and the horses go wherever you want them to go the horses don't have a plan the horses don't say okay today we're going to this city that city wherever you want the horse will go of course the horse has to be fed the horse has to have energy you have to work within the capacity of the horses you can't create your own fictional fictional laws you have to know your horse's needs sometimes the horse is in a difficult situation horses are emotional creatures but if you feed the horse and you're sensitive to the horse the horse will take you wherever you want and the horse will also take you to places you can never get on your own and with a swiftness and alacrity that you could never achieve on your own up slopes up mountains up hills and down into valleys and all with the kayak with the glorious asus this is a metaphor he says for isis susima called isis what's up every idea every emotion we express through isis isis actually are completely subservient to the idea and i could use different ics like the horse can go in how many different directions the alphabet lends itself to so many different ideas you could take isis in so many different ways you could read two books one book of the isis express a most glorious idea and another book the same alphabet the same a b c d e f g h i j k etc express a profane idea in other words the very same isis were manipulated and exploited in very different ways is also take you to a place where you can go on your own as he says you can have the most powerful idea when you communicate it in words you reach a deeper place of awareness like the horse who takes you to places that you could never reach that's why it's brought in safari that when you're very angry you should be quiet for a while because by talking about it first of all you may say very stupid things that you're going to regret and also the anger increases you have to be quiet we'll revisit it you don't have to run away in two hours we'll talk about it again but you have to calm down not only because you could make decisions and say really hurtful things and you're going to regret it so it's better to be quiet sometimes said when you're quiet when you're angry you shouldn't speak for 61 minutes 61 minutes go to the garage and you know beat the tires of your car go do 60 push-ups go jog around muncie whatever it is you have to do but just be quiet go watch the deer go do some snowballs you could build a beautiful snowman today but just don't talk we have a big we had a big snow here this week so for those who are not lucky enough to be here what was it 20 inches 15 inches 20 plus inches cevaldic dibor intensifies the emotion and deeper expands and reveals new depths in the idea that's the concept of asus how is this related here because mamali kalaman is the isis it's hashem articulating infinity in structures isis are structures they're containers on one hand they're horses that are completely subservient they're just containers for the light on the other hand they have something very powerful in them that adds something in the energy itself that's communicated in the earth let's communicate because circa val so so this was the last year we explained that well at length the whole concept of isis how we experience life through isis through language everything is language and that's why we experience things in a limited way and everything becomes a defined story so that's the whole world of isis and this we say leave us go now back to this section of the mimer we say in davening hashem doesn't want the strength of the horse he doesn't desire the thighs of a person hashem is he wants those who fear him who anticipate his kindness she says what does this mean what this means is isis are connected to gevorah gurasa guvura is restrictions guri is simpson as a result of gevorah hashem wants to articulate infinity into finiteness this is what oysters do they confer language upon reality and this is why reality that we are aware of is based on the dna living organisms are guided by dna which are called isis they're symbolic of letters which basically require sequence and structure and organizations and this is what allows the mahsav to enter into a world where everything is individuated and everything has its own identity and living organisms each one has its own sequence of dna this is the world of isis this is the world that brings like the horse it brings the person into places that are further much further than he can ever reach himself those are the suspects it also has a power the power of articulation and oysters brings out deeper deeper energies than the one who created these issues so this is all says the beauty of the king comes through diversity this is the biodiversity which is the miracle that we experience on our planet and all the various forms of life there's so much diversity which is hadar it's the beauty of his malchus which all comes from the sagura which is simpson and then we say loy big but so the alternative continues we are now the second to the last paragraph of the mimer the paragraph starts with zeliyash and we're holding by the zelda various associate but the line starts with associates he doesn't only want he doesn't want he doesn't uh desire the strength of the horse hashem isis to capture the true desire of the divine one cannot capture it only through symptoms only through isis isis language are very important but they never give the full picture of heifetz hashem and a person is betsal menu they never give a full picture of your own desire the moment i have isis to describe who i am i'm not describing who i am so on one level isis are very revealing on the other level on the other hand they're very concealing as much as they reveal they also conceal they reveal because they allow us to talk about things to articulate things they give language they allow for exchanges they allow for development they allow for our world they allow for our lives look at the difference between the animal life and human life and you understand the power of isis the power of communication because of our communication we can create imagine we can create imaginary realities we can create abstract realities and we can live by those abstract realities the animal lives just by the physical tangible reality a concept of a country concept of a state a concept of a nation a people a company a corporation a project an organization a movement a community what are these things why do the chimpanzees don't live in the countries and continents i mean they do but these types of organizations and corporations yeah it's all part of the abstract thinking of the human being that's the gift of dibber the gift of isis so they create definitions which allow humans to achieve what we have achieved by israel but as much as they reveal they also conceal they become the source ultimately of our traumas as well because i'm always telling stories i'm always telling stories that's what i explained in the last year so you never capture the full kefirs by staying in isis or back to our discussion alma desgalia is a very uh poor version of reality it's an important version of reality but it's very poor in the sense that it doesn't capture the full reality not of you and not of anybody else so loy begurus associates the real heifetz hashem you're not going to find in isis alone isis are important the gemara says if somebody says i only want to you don't even have tita because just as it's true in the world it's also true in turtle there's the oceans of torah the isis of terror are like the horses it says by matantaraki hashem wrote you were riding on your horses and those are the oysters of terror the isis of tfilla and the isis of turner capture the essence of torah and not only that by saying the isis of title like a horse it reveals new depths in the titan just like by saying the isis of the sometimes just saying the words and putting your whole concentration into the words the letters and the words themselves have enormous power nonetheless the gemara says if somebody says i only have torah a philo tyra enlight and he's explaining this to me if somebody only captures the isis of tyra the mammalical almond of tyra the diversity of torah the the tangible logic that's being expressed in the china so they're missing they're missing the alma descasi of toyota the the inner core the pure undifferentiated divinity the shaykh ish he doesn't want the strength of the horse or the shayke the thighs of the human being which of course sits the rider sits on the horse and the thighs are supported and support the two sides of the horse those two thighs which hold up the horses the hainu hadas and this is the perception and the thought which is necessary for words and actions the horuses represent the words the oceans and the actions the shaykh issues those thoughts that fuel the words the perception that fuels the isis isis doesn't begin with words it begins with thoughts the problem of language and the blessing of language doesn't only begin with how we talk about things how we think about things so what holds up the isis is certain certain thoughts so even though these all every ice captures a certain desire of god but it's compromised it's mitigated it's limited what's right where do you find his true watson the true inner source of life his true desire you say you find it as you ray of dynamics somebody who can go to the place of bitter amadeus moved from the essence atsmus so what's the alternative saying is the way reality is articulated in the world of isis which is amazing that's the source of mammalic almond oysters again is the power of language language confers definition on everything but also it keeps us stuck in those definitions as i said in last year when it comes to relationships we tell stories about people and once we tell those stories the relationship is fixed there's no growth your wife told you something this morning you process it in a certain way your mind starts telling you a story of what she said you define it you put it in a box you're upset and it's a continuation of the story you said about her yesterday a week ago a year ago 25 years ago and we're stuck what happens if i stop telling stories what happens if i'm just open to infinite interpretations it's hard because my mind right away loves to put language on everything to define people you're a you're a fool you're insecure you're dangerous subconsciously you're not doing this consciously you're a nice guy i know you subconsciously you're doing it you're a brat you're a teenager you're a brat you're spoiled you're rotten right away there's a story there's language it's those stories that also cause us to internalize self-shame we tell stories about ourselves but i told myself a story when i was three years old when i was six it was already confirmed 1.1 million times by the time i'm 45 the story is happening every hour on the hour every time the guy in shul right looks the other way it's part of how horrible i am and then when your daughter speaks up to you tells you what she thinks you're suddenly now in this inner trauma that's been going on for 40 years right it's all stories that we tell ourselves this is where language becomes a prison what happens if i can transcend isis but if you go deeper and deeper and deeper we're talking here even in kedusha which is tyre and villa it's the human being riding the sus versus doesn't mean hashem doesn't want it he says you don't capture the true fats the enemy is the true source of life you're divorcing it because you're forcing it into language hashem if you want the ratson as ye ray of what's your eye of those who fear him what does it mean literally means they're not they're not obsessed with horses they have a relationship with truth with morality in the ancient world horses were everything right that was the major war uh weapon resource on a deeper level right represents the bittle the person who's ready to transcend isis who wants to go to the core of everything where there's no definitions there's no descriptions that's what martial is moisture comes from water you remember moisture is what are we the question is how do you have the two so this is what he says he takes the horse he takes the rider on the horse rama he lifts them up bayam into the sea what's the c the c is maisha venachinuma ashiri lashem kigoigo susviraon now where do you usually ride a horse in the sea or on dry land try to go horseback riding in the atlantic ocean it's not going to work if you want to go to the atlantic take a jet ski if you want to go horseback riding right you go on earthly terrain the place of the sous is by abbasha yes there are horses that can swim but that's not their natural environment and they can easily drown there they're not fish you submerge the horse in the water and it drowns it's to mammal the sus belongs by abortion rama means he lifted up he lifts it up yes as he finishes this paragraph and there there could be the integration says that's the idea of mayaka lim lacaz they anticipated what does it mean it means they're looking for his it means it's not that they have only love on their own they want to connect because they're thirsty they want meaning they want purpose rather they're waiting for his aav they're waiting for his hassett for his grace valoisman it's not that it's relevant to me in order for me to be able to fulfill myself to be able to find meaning in my life they're open to the gift of divine love which transcends much more which transcends infinitely my own yearning for purpose my own meaning yearning for love because even in avas hashem there's two elements this i want the connection i want the connection it's meaningful it's purposeful i'm thirsty i want it so this is still the person is confined in a very deep limited space i need i want hamayakillum is ask not what god can do for you ask what you can do for god ask not what your spouse can do for you ask what you can do for your spouse ask not what your children can do for you ask what you can do for your children is i await and i'm looking for haz doi his his what does it mean i'm looking for is i'm not just looking to connect because it's my thirst it's my experience it's my ava ha ha ha are represented by speech but they always begin by thoughts because you also think in a language you don't only speak in a language you think in a language language doesn't begin in speech people think that's the case it's not true you either think in english or in yiddish or in hebrew or in russian or portuguese or danish whatever it is your language french italian ladino maybe espresso but you think in a language machava is the beginning of dibur always just like you write in a language you think in the language and then you communicate in the language of it's more subtle it's less tangible you can cover a lot of subjects in a minute excuse me you could cover a lot of subjects swiftly but it's still the world of isis and when we think we think about things we're we're stuck in the world of isis thank you and deeper comes from there the word ice comes the word asa biker which means it articulates it brings forth what is isis in this what is the core of isis it articulates slave in malay that's its grace and that's its corbin its graces it articulates it defines it creates guvura and symptoms what's simpson is restrictions containers structures language gives structure language is caleb caleb reveals the oi it conceals it as well that's the source of almadesgalya divine dna i hope you're getting this that's very very powerful the divine dna that's the mucker of almadesgale that's the source for ahmadineji it's that the divine absolute infinite undifferentiated energy assumes language why by sorry my mother's name islam 10 sayings that's the source of the whole alma this guy that's why there's alma desgalia there's a world that's identified identified objects identified realities identified existences that's the world of isis that's why all real music real song real meditation suki de zimmer and davening it's all to help you go out of the world of isis that isis should become a channel rather than a trap we don't have anything against isis we love isis only it's when i see has become a prison i'm stuck in isis there's nothing outside of the isis i can't transcend isis so this pencil is a pencil i lose the curiosity of the child who looks at the pencil and doesn't have a name and therefore he could stare at it for three hours maybe it's a tree that's why before we drink we say this blessing which what's the blessing saying it's not water it's not coffee until we got the coffee till we got to the coffee in other words this one coffee bean is triggering such profound awareness how does that happen how can a coffee bean it's a coffee bean you make a coffee you filled up a cup of apple juice or water you ate a plum no no no no no you can't reduce that plum to isis plum that's it you you just destroyed the plum borrowed hashem melech he went through a cancer stalceless over there for this plum because this is not a stupid plum it's not even a simple plum on one level it's a simple plum but there's layers upon layers upon layers even from a botanical perspective never mind from a spiritual perspective so the mucker of ahmad is galia so that's what he talks about is so susv the horse and the rider of the horse the horse is the isis hadith the writer of the horse is the isis [Music] is it possible that i should walk in the sea which became dry land in other words that in my daily reality of isis of language in my individuated self i'm not walking on dry land i'm walking in the yam i'm retaining the full connection with infinity even as i am on dry land that's kris yamsev but how you just the whole mind was saying it's a paradox you know why hashem is hashem himself darkness is like light light is like darkness yam and your bush can be fused into oneness just as god can't be defined by finiteness he also can be defined by infinity if you remember the mymebasilagani that we learned a few weeks ago at length there are mach the balsham of the balatanya about shameless we dive into hashem not to his middles if a love is the sheriff caleb a love is the shaykh iris and then dr rebecca says say love is which is ultimately the synthesis of iris and caleb explained at length in the maimaru basilagani it says in tehillah fascinating capital and tehillah he turned the sea into dry land in the river they crossed by foot there we rejoiced with them this is tehillam i believe samakhas what is the meaning of this passage now we'll understand the he took yam and made it to basha he didn't take yam and left the tian he took yam and he turned yam into abortion visel benoir yavruba regal in the river they crossed by foot sham this is how the psalmist describes there we rejoiced with him what's that there we rejoice with him what's boy it's a reflection of atsumus and this is what it means to live with living that's what it means i don't live in ahmadis only and i don't live in ahmedazgalia only i can live in the in the paradox between and i could live in the tension that exists between them because ultimately i transcend that tension and paradox by revealing the oneness but here you should be asking a big question was said about the egyptians not about the jews and it's not a complementary statement he took the horse and he took the rider and he hurled into the sea he and al-talaba turned it into agavaldi i hope that you were asking that question when we learned so if not you have to start over all you have to start all over again if you didn't have that question is the punishment of the egyptians it's not the it's not the positive part that happened to the jewish people continues however there's one more aspect here whenever you talk about this part of infinity suddenly the enemy comes and says i want part of the booty we continue you remember omar ayev erdoff shalom them i'll divide the booty of the jewish people among the egyptians my soul will be satiated from the spoil from the booty this is what the enemy says peter shagam akum writes by hashem white and darkness are equal versus and the horse and the rider are in the sea and it's beyond oysters even the horse in the right are going to the sea oh so if darkness is like light if hashem is not defined by infinity and finiteness and infinity could come together he's also not defined by good and evil darkness and light are exactly the same so um we also want part of the party if you're talking about in the world of isis fine mammalic allowment is a different thing to do shanklip those that are caleb for kadusha and those that are not caleb because the divine energy is is confined in caleb in isis so there's dna of holiness and there's dna of unholiness there's oceans of tyrant there's isis of tvilla and the isis of our different there's election horizons it's also isis but different noises once you're telling me that creation observe we're going to the place that transcends limits where darkness is light and that's why there can be the fusion so the alternative says oh omar oh yes so the enemy why excluding me if you're not defined by anything so i can also come into the picture what do you have with the juice that's the deeper shadow says that during kris yams angels were saying why why why why are you contrasting between the two it's not so simple why are you choosing them over them um that's why the tehillim continues we now go back to that capital of basha so that the hillem continues and dr ebanow does hear this long passage i'm going to tell you the posix you should just understand what he's saying continues amar quote with his might he rules the world his eyes oversee the nations enough by titsbana like sulfa his eyes see observe the nations hasaririm the rebellious ones al-yahrumullah myself they will not exalt themselves ever why is this possible coming in right here but now we understand the depth after we know how fast so the enemy says his eyes see the nations have cited him the rebellious ones they can't uplift themselves they will not exalt themselves ever the same word remember rama he picked up the sus rama doesn't say yara later in this it says yara which means he casts here it says ram which means he lifts up he didn't lift them up he threw them into the sea so literally we say he lifted them up to throw them into the sea dalton was explaining what's rama he lifted up almadesgalian so this posik now says aliyarumu they want to be part of the realm of the aliyah rumor says he says the idolatrous the egyptians couldn't experience the israelis god did it rama he picked them up like we say in davening in the morning the water covered those who oppress the jewish people when they were thrown into the water they disappeared they drowned they were submerged they couldn't walk through the water the aimless from this state they only experienced descent as we say in halal he's bringing in here all the a lot of zucchin of ram ram is completely above them they can't experience it fazooie sibis nafilasam so when this came out actually this was the reason that they fell what's the reason what's why israel is the jews walk in the dry land in the water why so the pastor says because the water became a wall on the right and on the left now that's superfluous could have just said they walked through the yam the water dried up we understand that the water went to the sides why does the turtle emphasize if you say the water split the sea split and it became dry land obviously there was a wall on the right and a wall on the left we don't think that the whole yam disappeared forever it doesn't say that it came back why does the turtle have saved us he said in the beginning of the monument if you remember that the world stands on three things and that's when he went into the whole idea of avoid the carbonus there was a fire that came down and then fella it's the idea that you bring the nephesha bahamas into the fire and then there's a fire that comes down which is baruch in talmud which is divided of the cayenne which is silent but it's followed by the avoider of the livium who sing which is so now says the world stands on three things represents two columns there's the right side and there's the left side because you have avoider avoider which is guvura avoider which is working on yourself transcending yourself and then you have the concept of which is it so he says you know why the jewish people could walk through the water because they had the water as a haima me meenam um and that's the toyota void ismail the israel and the jewish people ascend in hashem the madrid says which means they are rooted in the mahava's voice that's what we say before having through the mitzvah he actually sanctified us you become sublimated and part of qaeda's means hashems muslim that's where their soul is from that's where they come from it's aligning themselves with their true posture and their spirit their longing to go up is what creates aruh from above like upon him that's why by then he could take the susan and lift it up into the yam and they could walk in dry land mashinkin has but as the passage says in tehran the rebellious ones can't experience this what is the balatanya teaching us here when almod is meets up alma disgusting what happens two things can happen either you have kriyasyam and now you're walking in the sea or you drown two things can happen what does it depend on it depends on who you are and that's the idea what does bittel do and this is true in each of our lives what what is bitter is bitter self-destruction or is bitter sublimation it depends if you think that you're egotistical and you think that you're and you think that you're uh arrogant and you think that you're pompous and you think that you're separate from god so then bitters destroys you you can't drown you're not here anymore but if you understand that you're hella killed so then bitter liberates you it sets you free what's the trauma of a narcissist i'm afraid that if i'm not narcissistic i'm gonna die so i have to be narcissistic because my eye is very traumatized it's very small whenever your eye is tiny you can't create space for a larger eye because it's death and that's really what all of anger is so many of our wounds are based on the fact that i see myself as so small and therefore if i create any space for you i'm gonna die my brain doesn't let me do it my brain goes into this petty orbit where i have to be angry i have to be upset i have to be vindictive i have to be vengeful why for me the alternative is suicide so this is the mighty dick of art now for the mitzrim if you throw them in tamil discussion it's death you know when bitter becomes liberating when you have the mayam chai minimum ismail when you have torah avoid the sodom in other words your life is aligned with divinity when you understand that it's visible that you're sharishana sham is what kaido alien that you are bitter bitter liberation begins when you let go of holding on to that individuated eye and believing that that's the whole story of who you are so then when your suspect when you're uplifted you're uplifted but what if you're living in the world of mitzrayim mitsrayam is made sorry i'm a ghoulem you're limited you're petty now you take me you throw me into the arm what happens i'm gone i'm done i'm finished there's nothing left of me nicer like this is sir doesn't mean one of them was not left over it means the echoed in them was they didn't have an echoed if you're not connected to echo noise there's nothing left mayhem there was no airhead so that's why he says transforms by god everything is everything is equal yeah everything is equal i also want um it says the opposite of course hashem everything is equal like but the person has to be able to be open to that truth you can't take god and reduce them to your abusive self and your dysfunctionality and say oh everything is equal so therefore if i'm destructive or i'm not destructive if i'm kind or i'm narcissistic if i'm selfless or i'm selfish it's all the same thing means i don't limit hashem into any reality i could be one within every reality but i have to want to be one i have to be able to want to be one that's the contrast ramal khal goyam hashem when the mitzvah experiences to be uplifted for one person being uplifted means you carried extraordinary heights for another person it spells their death you understand you could take a person and uplift them to great places for one person it's the beginning of a new life and for the other person is the end of everything because i have no say where am i over there and the mystery inside of me will not want to do that don't take me tama disgust i live in ahmedazgalia and the reason i live in america is because i'm not connected thomas disgusted because my alma desgalia becomes traumatized it's not the divine dna anymore it's the dna that ultimately becomes distorted into the machava and dibran isis where i become completely disassociated from the true flow because in in kedusha everything is connected alma disgusting flows into almadesgalya there's a flow colomer only eletrophyluteria ain'tly you don't stop the tidal you don't cut the windpipes you have to have the oxygen flow you have to have the circulation that goes from ahmadis then rama but but enough so when hashem takes suspicion from paris and rama he lifts it up to the what happens but by the jew and we're talking here even the jew inside of you and the mitzvah inside of you this what is what happens is you become alive you become fully alive this concludes the mimer at least one layer of the mimer ozyashiro of parshas bashalach and i'll take a few questions i'm going to wish you all a beautiful day a beautiful shabbos chambers we have our regular schedule next week there will not be classes i'm going to be away probably so next week the monday and the tuesday and the thursday will not be next week hashem will will we will resume the week afterwards for the exact schedule of all the classes if you go to the home page of the yeshiva.net you could see there's a green bar in the middle of the page and the green bar gives the schedule of all the upcoming classes so you don't miss anything so if there's any change ever it's announced over there so you can uh you can you can see it all there okay let's see what's happening in the world of the questions chat like the sunlight blinds you is that the way birds birds only need one cement for shrita because they're more connected to the oneness even though they're still yesh yeah that's the point it's not for sure what is referring to is it referring to hashem or the person you mean when he says he means hashem that's how i understood it was this the error of shopsitsv and his followers who really could not see beyond the small eye you have to explain what you mean when you're mentioning shop sits v here you said psalm 68 it wasn't psalm 68 it was psalms 66. thank you i stand corrected thank you thank you thank you yeah you can ask a question you want to know why [Music] yeah what he's saying a toyota verdict milos sodom he's referring to the general concept that in order to be able to experience the yamsuf and remain intact it's because you have tire you have avoider you have you know what i'll give you a very practical example from the 1960s aaron can elaborate upon this because he knows this very well in the 1960s there was a tremendous trend in america right people wanted to jump into alma discarsia free love right imagine imagine you remember imagine no boundaries no nations no religion the world will be as one it was like this utopia right you keep you're here long and you know you fight the government and you're just like you're a free spirit and it touched millions of youth so we like to say oh just a bunch of wild kids who didn't want responsibility and they didn't want to graduate and get a normal job to manufacture pencils or sell real estate in manhattan but that's not true the rebbe used to say in the 60s that there is an awakening of the youth who are looking for emes but to put it in the words of this mimer they're looking for disgasia but what happened to many of them you jump in tamadesca so you don't come out your brains either get fried with drugs or there's too much intimacy without boundaries there's no way of of synthesizing your prophetic and spiritual visions with the reality of daily life which is amadeus gallia you know going to work building a family isis is the structure that allows your posture to be the interlacing link between heaven and earth shabbos yamtif tara spacha it's about boundaries yeah i can't go shopping on shoppers it's boundaries but it's the boundaries that allow you to be able to connect different worlds that's the power of halal so smiling represents mitzvah is an example right right so generally it says like this that terrorist kavanaugh saw avoid this cover smiling but here the focus is not right middle and center here the focus is minimum ism basically yiddishkait has these two elements there's the elements of either love kindness generosity benevolence and then there's the elements of ridicule that are small this is us or this is forbidden this is not for me the laws of sneers the laws of the laws of taurus laws of shabbos or the mitzvous lysis and versus that fortress because they had that minimum as well therefore they could walk in the yamaha basha the mayan became because they had that component which aligns them first of all it creates structure more importantly it aligns them it's mitzvos which is kid it it brings them into our relationship with atsmus because this is hashem's inner watson because the terms hashem's inner not sin so therefore they could live in the yam and the yabasha together because they have that nakuda has cited him who don't have torah right so their hijus only comes from cedar historis what does it mean that he is only comes and say they're starslist they're not rooted in the source of infinity they're not they're not open let's put it this way they're not open to be able to be within the source of infinity so now you throw me into the yam and then i'm done i'm finished yeah listen the concept of ghoul is that the whole world will be transformed mala or is there such a we're talking about the egyptians as a paradigm of somebody who's living in a very uh in a very self-contained petty space that's with the example i gave narcissistic people feel that if they don't get angry at their spouses constantly they won't live they don't even do this consciously they're so traumatized from not having a place in existence that they have to protect their pettiness at all expenses and if you throw them into a sea of oneness it's death even though the truth is it's life fresh taste one person you could lift up and give a mellicus and he comes to life and the other person is like get me out of here what does it depend on it depends on if you if your soul if you can experience the alignment of your soul with that bittle with that oneness if i can't if i'm cut off then i'm frightened or to put it this way if if i'm already alive then i can become more alive but if for me life what is for me life in my experience is really death so if you throw me into life i'm gonna die there's a lot to say about this okay next question with the questions actually i actually missed the 60s by about 20 years i experienced the 60s more in the 80s from people that were influenced very much by the 60s and really were the successful ones right what is it translates grand visions into the real world or to put it this way halacha is the fusion between ahmadis kasi and ahmed as galia because it's the kayak like always can also be a trap if you don't understand what is it can become a very confining experience comes to the word halifa which means movement has to always be in a state of movement you understand right thank god you weren't affected badly some people it's usually explained that psychedelism is related to mamalakalam and suddenly here in the miami it's connected to atsumus or is it the ability to relate to atsmus very good question very good question very good question yeah he's asking that usually we say zimra deals with the briya which is mammalia we speak about hashem as a creator and we speak about nature you know we speak about the fire and we speak about the snow when we speak about the rain and we speak about mammals and beasts and birds and insects psychedema is the celebration of nature as god's world we speak about frost and ice and and snow and that's all malaca and here he says in the moment absolute zimbra it's the which is related to atsumos it seems to me that that exactly is the point that sukhoda zimmer is not just the words of mammalic allowment but it's the song which ultimately is the longing to be able to align mimale with save and with atsumus you speak about music according to the way you explain the meaning of a song composed by atsadek would it be correct to educate children to refrain from listening to music from sources even jewish music that are not rooted in the consciousness of uh tsadikim music has a very powerful impact on people we all know that and the author and the composer of a song his or her soul is imprinted in that song that's what i spoke about last time there's no question about that what would a nameless reality look like how would it help us in the real world can it really help us in a place of real evil and pain are you advocating for us to live in delusion and deny reality and if not then who cares that this reality exists is it just about if it's just about a raisin or a cup that's fine but they don't do evil but for other people wouldn't that be naive i like you whoever wrote this question i like you i mean i like all of you but i like whoever wrote this question very good question yeah yeah yeah they're saying you know it's all very nice title but tell the person of the holocaust not to give names like who cares you know what i mean they're experienced abuse physical emotional it's all it's very nice to say oh this is not a cup this is not a pencil it's not a raisin it's like who cares this is a real world where you were hurt i think the problem lies in me telling somebody else you need to view reality so daniel here for married to straw so he has the wisdom of air to stroll so you have the wisdom of manchester united manchester has unique wisdom as well every place in the world produces wisdom yes but the mattress says you know entire criteria said it's a strong so there's a special tyranny israel you know so in any case rob daniel says that viktor frankl who was an auschwitz survivor and wrote a book man's search for meaning discusses exactly that that the germans imagine took away could take away from a person everything the only thing they could not take away from him is how he's going to view himself and the events and how he's going to react to the horrific horrific experiences so it's so important and and and he says that's what it really he says and he says and that's what saved him that's really what saved them in other words the only thing i am i am in control over is my reaction of course the pain is a reality and and to advocate a person to deny it and to deny that there's evil and there's pain is of course ludicrous and doesn't help anybody and most importantly allows perpetrators to continue doing what they're doing we have to stand up to evil and combat evil and ultimately obliterate evil and in our own life we have to be able to acknowledge the pain and create space for the pain and have compassion for the pain and do whatever we can to heal and of course to avoid such pain in the future and to stand up to bullies and perpetrators of abuse or pain in any form and any sort that's obvious i think the the way i the way i understand it is and this is what daniel just said i cannot tell somebody else what the meaning of their pain is i'm gonna oh it's good it's wonderful it's not real it's not so deep you can go beyond it it's gonna make you better that's uh that's ridiculous every person really has to be able to open themselves up to what it means in their life but i think the message that we're saying here is not that there's no pain but that the stories we tell ourselves about the pain and the reason for the pain and the consequences of the pain can often cause the perpetrator to take full control over our lives till the end of our lives and that in a way is as tragic as the pain itself for the person who was abused that abuse itself is horrific what's equally horrific is that the abuser now owns my story don't you see the pain in that not only did you use my body in inappropriate ways but now you own my story you're the one who's controlling my brain you're the one who's defining how i think about myself every day don't give him that victory that's what the mimer is saying the mayhem is not saying deny your pain the mind don't give him that victory the balatanya is saying don't let him or her be the one who narrates your story in your brain you become the narrator of your story and who is the you who is this you what often happens is i define the abuse i blame myself or even if i don't blame myself but it teaches me about my limitations or my schlemazola's or my ineptness or my bad muzzle or it teaches me about my destiny or teaches me about what a loser i am and it tells me that i'm full of shame well subconsciously so who owns me now who owns me it's the language that i have been using to describe this experience that really feeds in to the mindset of the perpetrator he is the one who owns my story and that is as horrific as the abuse because that abuse is continuing every single day even 30 years after the abuse i am still a prisoner and i am a prisoner to my own mind to my own mindset that's what we're talking about language of course there is the pain do you remember what i spoke last week about animals when that when when when that when the uh i spoke about the zebra or the impala and and it's bit by the cheetah and it but it gets away or it freezes and the cheetah goes away the tiger goes away the leopard liner goes away what does the animal do animal stands there shakes it off shakes for a while finishes shaking goes back to the herd nothing ever happened you know why the animal didn't turn it into a story the animal was hurt doesn't have isis it didn't become i must be an idiot my mother never liked me i'm a nerd i'm a shmata god hates me the world hates me i have no future the animal doesn't do that it hurt shake it off and if you can kill your predator kill your predator or imprison your predator bring your predator to justice no questions he doesn't kill other people don't be in denial but don't give him the control over your life excellent question yeah it's your own self-talk it's your own maksha voice which is your own self-talk it's the language that we confer upon things and we and now sometimes that language is glorious like i see satire sometimes that language is is complete distortion sometimes that language is somewhere in the middle but it's always a limit loy big virus associates yeah my advice to this person is you got to change the self-talk and you have to open yourself up not to ignore the pain not to ignore the pain on the contrary you will actually feel the pain more you know why because it's going to be raw pain i want to tell you something now deep the stories we tell is because we want to run away from the pain because we don't feel that we could face the pain i feel the pain is going to destroy me the shame is going to destroy me so i tell stories to contextualize it and make me deal with it in other words if i could say that i'm destined to be a loser or god hates me or the world hates me or my my life doesn't mean much anyway or i don't deserve any better okay when i stopped telling stories about the pain i could face the pain and you know what i learned i learned that i could survive it i'm larger than it and i'm set free not because it doesn't hurt it actually hurts more because i don't need to cover it up and contextualize it and put language on it i can actually look at it without any strings attached and i realize that i could contain it i feel it acutely i probably will start crying and this river of tears will will come over me but it will wash away all those stories and i'll just be able to steer the pain in the eyes and not flinch and experience it fully and actually let it go let go the need of all the stories and i become a free person that's really what happens that's really what happens yeah not be afraid not be afraid of yourself and your pain and not be if not feel the need to right away self-talk everything and then really be able to say i'm not going to go there now kris yamasov is a revelation of the hidden all of creation is a revelation of the hidden from absolute unity which contained all diversity and differentiation and potential they began a process of revelation the same goes for the continuous parallel revelation of the infinite layers of the onion of tereshabiksav and tereshabalpa this process continues and we bring it all together it's true about creation it's true about giving over the divine will via torah through specific letters and words letters are imperfect when it comes to describing or communicating the infinite infinite any tool or medium will necessarily be imperfect letters are imperfect but it's the best that we have that's how we have access even hashem didn't create creation with his thoughts but he concentrated his thoughts into very specific letters and words letters and words translate the infinite into the finite in that sense they help us articulate reality but we have to know that they also help us conceal reality the beginning of an ego starts with one's name when we receive a name and we mature and we identify with it it separates us from others so why are we given names maybe better never to give a name it stuns the growth of ego and let's remain part of the entirety of mankind and of the cosmos it's a good question and the answer is because we're given names because ahmad is galia is real it's real it's part of the plan it's it's authentic we're given a name identity is important you matter life is a powerful play and you can contribute your verse what will your verse be is this the reason why by matan torah god put the mountain over our head by the yam we went through and the water split at matantara we didn't go through a split mountain it was all over our head it's an interesting comparison okay that's a whole lot of other discussion kapha market gigas we once learned to miami right purim dr ebba says in the purim mcgillis esther that kapolei america gigas is his gallows avalyan it was an overwhelming love when the maya mymed says look at the toilet he discusses it as well i wish everybody a beautiful day great questions thank you for being here with us it's an honor and a privilege to have each and every one of you here with us may we be able to remember kris yamsev each day and not just remember it but really breathe it into our lives to be able to fuse our ahmadis galia and our alma dears and our even when you are seemingly stuck in whatever you are confronting at that moment you have an open channel to the infinity of every situation even if you can't wrap your brain around it oh [Music] yes i am