A Hostage's Wife's Confession

The wife of one of the present 59 hostages, her husband was in the army when he was captured on October 7th, was speaking to her neighbor. And I heard this report from the neighbor herself that was telling me her discussion when she was asking her how she's doing, how she's managing. It's been over a year and a half. How's she doing? She told her, "Well, the truth is it's hard. It's not easy. My children are waiting for Abba to come home and it's very hard for him not to be here and it's not such an easy scenario but on the other hand she said an incredible thing she said but the fact that he's not here I see that and I see the wheel of Hashem is that he's not supposed to be here from all perspectives because when a judge decides something he only decides on that specific per person he doesn't take everybody else into perspective when he makes a decree. He doesn't just make a decree on that person. He makes a decree on everybody around him. How's this going to affect his wife, his children, his neighbors, his friends, all the people in his workplace? Hashem takes everybody into account. And I've noticed that decided that the appropriate thing is that that is where my husband should be right now. Unfortunately, in that gehenn where he's located presently at the place that he's that he is there right now. And if that's what rotem is and if that is the will of God, how can I decide? How can I make a decision in another direction to say there's hashem's rats and my rats? And well, what can we do? There's two opinions on the matter. On the contrary, if that's the rat of Hashem, so automatically that's my rot also. If that's what his will is, if that's what his that's what his interests are and that's what he feels is the appropriate thing to be done right now. So then I understand that that is appropriate. I'm not saying it's not hard and it shouldn't be hard. Ku should not be hard. Of course, it's hard and it's difficult. But I am in a place and this is the clincher of complete of complete tranquility. I'm completely at peace in myself because I know that right now the ruts in Hashem is happening. I know as we speak that Hashem is Hashem made this decision and this is the way it's supposed to be done at this stage. And therefore I'm not of an opinion to go ahead and disagree with and not only that if that's his then that's my and this is the epitome of the mission of to make the ratson of Hashem like my rutson. In other words it's not just something external to me in order that I have to go ahead and see Hashem's want and what I want and kind of say okay I'll just do what needs to be done. It's to feel Hashem's rot and I connect to that roten as if it's my own. And when a person reaches such a stage, he is in the highest level of of absolute calmness, complacency, being content and tranquil, it will he will be able to stand in that spot because he is in a place where wants and he knows that he's in the right spot 100%. I'llen even in these difficult these difficult situations I am purpose went out of my way to speak out that this woman was speaking to a neighbor because I have to say cuz when people are speaking to the media and even if we're discussing people who are in bad difficult situations and other people who alenu are hostages that came out or things similar to that but in the end of the day when a person speaks to the media or in public we all know that there's a certain front that's put up or a person will say certain things that will be said. Even a person sitting and giving a shir, we all know when this when the camera's closed, he's not going to be saying exactly always the same exact things. But this woman was in a oneto-one conversation with her neighbor. There was no cameras. There was no recordings. Nothing's going. She didn't even know that her neighbor is going to go ahead and report everything she stated. And that means to me and what I understand from that is that we see what the real pine of this person is. The real inards of this person. What this woman in every fabric of herself what she really was made of. Not just something that was spoken out or given a certain front. But this is the real inards of Israel. The greatness of our of our Israel. I got such an incredible spiritual high from hearing this person to say, "Oh, these are from my brethren. These are these are from amongst us that we come and specifically when a person goes through a hard time." Then we discover who the real person is. When a person digs hard into the ground, it's uncompromising, rigid, and tough to break through many layers of that ground until finally hopefully he gets to a spring of water. He gets to a place of life, a place of vigor. And that's really what happens when a person goes through a very difficult like this woman's going through. When a person goes through one of these types of we really that's the time to discover who's the where is what's going on inside of you. Who are you for real? Not for you externally, but the real inards of who the ani is. Who is that real person? And that is an expression of what this woman told us that her rats was hashem. Whatever Hashem wants, that's what I want. And we discover the real her. We discover the beauty of such an that is walking around on our planet. And this is really expressed in with the pure with this. I'm going to finish with a famous gar that we're familiar of the river, the kettle in the bird. And that is that there's three different ways of a relationship. Rafel Rafeldin wrote a book on Shalom based on this on this gar. The river is a connection between two to two a couple a man and his wife could be in a distance way because they would have two cities would have some type of connection between the two by sending things up or down the river to each other but at a distance as we all know there are many couples that are two shadows walking in the night. They go ahead and they live in the same house but they kind of have nothing to do with each other. each one doing its tasks and z that's the first type of relationship. The second type of relationship is the kettle where you have water and fire which are opposites to each other but through the medium of a kettle since you have a barrier of a metal kettle which is in between the two. You're able to work together even though not necessarily are you together. You're still water and fire but in the end of the day since you have a little bit of a separation you can get a little bit closer one to the next. That's the second type of relationship that we know that they have what to do with each other. They still interact with each other, but not necessarily are they going in the same direction. And the last and ideal of all marriages is the bird. The bird has an incredible apparatus known as the wings. The wings can lead him to the heavens, can take him to shamayim. He can fly. And he's the most, you know, he's way above every other animal in the world because of this incredible, incredible feature that only a bird has that he's able to take to the skies where no other animal can reach. How does he get there with these wings? When the two wings work together, you clip one wing, you break one wing, he's not going anywhere. Why? He still has another wing. The answer is they have to work together in order for them to fly to the sky. That is the ideal marriage. that it's not just that we kind of each one does our goal, does what we need to do, but we work in tandem one to the next. Not just parallel play where we both sit in front of each other and play a game together, but you're working in synchron. You work in sing in sync one with the other. You're playing the tune together. The the the notes on the piano are being played in one beautiful harmony together, man and his wife. And this is really the type of relationship which we're looking for with the Some people are like a river. They just go through the motions, do what they need to do and try to say Judaism. Some people try to get close. They work a little bit with a relationship, but there's always that barrier. They never feel they never get to him. They're never able to build that relationship. There's always the kettle in between. But the ideal and the place that we're looking for is that bird where you get the wings to work together. Your rats and Hashem's rats are one. They work together. Whether when Hashem flaps, I flap. When he sits and when he's still, I still when says this is where we're supposed to be, I'm there with him. When a person reaches that, not only are you doing, not only are you accomplishing everything that you need to be accomplishing as a person, but you reach a place, not only in but also in this world, you reach the ultimate place of tranquility, of complacency, of being completely content with who you are and what you are. And you live life for what it's like. What we call this should return soon amongst with the other 58 the other 58 hostages. And now we should all be able to see the Yeshua. Amen.