Enemy In Your Head - R. Eli Stefansky - TorahAnytime.com

But anyways, the mice the bedia have a roof, though. Just a couple years ago, one of the worst things that ever happened to me in my life happened. A friend guy did something really nasty to me. And uh I took him to court, the whole thing, and I was going to schmetter him. He was wrong halachically, wrong menschlichkeit, wrong legally, 100%. And um I realized through the process that I was thinking about it too much. Every time I I was trying to prepare shiur, and this meshugana comes in my gemara. He's like stringing around under my Get out of here. And he the the thought, I wanted to manage, how could a frum person do what you did? I said just it's mind-boggling. And one day I decided it was just it wasn't it was going on for a few days like this. I said, "You know what? I'm done. I I'm not I'm not suing him. The loss is a loss. I'm out. 100% out." I called up my lawyer. I said, "I I I don't want to sue him anymore." He said, "What happened?" I said, "I I'm not explaining. I want out." He says, "Yeah, but it's you have to spend a few thousand dollars. You have to pay him for this and that. Pay him more money after what he did to me." I said, "Here. Here's the few thousand dollars. I'm out." I'll never forget my son, my oldest son, came over and says, "What happened to you? What's wrong with you? You're becoming weak. You did this." I said, "No. I need to I need to concentrate. I need to This is taking too much from my life." And I have to tell you myse shaya, the moment after that that conversation, that guy disappeared. Basically, I don't want to say that I don't think about it once in a while. I get really upset at him. But the constant thought, the constant he he he pulled me down to this thing. And somebody once said a gevaldige vort, he said, "Just cuz you're upset at somebody, this guy, I forgot the loshon, but he he's he's living rent-free in your head." And when you're when you go, you're not doing him a favor, you're doing yourself a favor. Not saying that people should do it, but the maise, at the end of the day, I'm I'm happy I did it. I'm out. Once in a while, even now, I'm almost upset at him. Wow, the Let the Rebbi learn whatever different bonus. Okay, that was my tsarah I had to get, but I'm moving on with my life. All right. Zog the Gemara. Just a eitzah tovah I'm saying here, not a pat on the shoulder kind of thing. It mamish works. When you release it, the no more It could drag for years. And all year you have the money and the and the and and and you you're thinking, "I'm going to say this the whole day." You're dealing with the shtus. Cuz this guy decided to do some