Torah Ohr Beshalach Maamer "Az Yashir" #2 | I Can't Be Me If I Am Not You

what have we uh learned in last year monday morning we began the mimer oz from the balatani and toyota airport we are up to close to the end of the second paragraph if you didn't download your source sheets please do that right now unless you have a say for top of page 124. so in very very brief terms the balatanya wanted to know what was the function what was the purpose of kriyasyamsov why was it necessary especially when taisopus writes in eric and after them at bays that the jewish people didn't go through from one side to the other side but rather it was a semi-circle the same side they went into was the same side they came out and it was not part of their journey from marriage mitzrayim to eretz kanan in other words kris yamself was not a necessity essentially rather because hashem wanted kriyasyam so therefore he made sure to take them in a direction that would necessitate kriyasyamsov and even then they weren't even going through the river they only went through part of the river and they came out from the same side that they went in this means that there was something in koreasyams of itself that was essential to mold the jewish people into a nation and this is also clear from the fact that khazal tells us that there's a mitzvah to mention kriyasyams of every day in other words the torah says you have to mention you tease mitsuram every day the tasteful says that includes also kriya psalms of which we do in our governing we speak about kriyasyams of every day not only in sukkot zimmer but also be after kriya shema the whole bracha called azeras m as the outside of the king who goes to ezra's has a whole section about kris yamsev and today when you darven if you did not darwin yet you will be able to focus on it and that is from after kriya shema you'll see the whole section of ezra's is dedicated primarily or a significant part of it is dedicated to kriyasyamsof all the way down to shirakhadasha gulem tilgal israel that's all about kriyasyam so people don't realize that kriyasyamsof occupies a very significant space in our daily davening and in our consciousness i guess the two are dependent on each other or maybe the same so there's a reason for this and for this the balatani began to explain the process of davening and the fire that consumes carbonace i'm not going to get into the details everybody could review it themselves and the shear is also on the yeshiva.net so you could watch the replay and then he discusses the gammarian khul in the gemara says that whatever is in sea is in dry land whatever is in dry land is in sea by abbashi the difference is what we call alma disgusting the concealed world is the world of water and ahmadazgali the revealed world is the world of dry land and the difference he said everything that's here may be here but in the arm and the sea it's all concealed by the waterbed and therefore you do not see the individual creatures that exist in the water because they're all eclipsed and submerged under the waterbed and therefore we cannot see from an outsider's perspective from the person looking at the water we don't see what is going on inside that's number one number two another explanation he said is that the owl the in the sea those creatures of the sea the fish marine life need to be submerged visibly submerged in their source in order to be able to live and if you extract the fish from the sea and you say come let's take a boat ride let's take a boat ride and enjoy the view we know what that means for the fish it spells the antithesis of life on dry land both of these things are different number one we immediately see individuality there's no one waterbed that covers up all of us every creature and every existence is conspicuously distinct and individuated with its own unique shape and properties and chemistry and identity and in fact that is the mo of the abortion of dry land together with that number two even though we are submerged in oxygen but we're still visible every creature is visible separate and even though we are dependent on the earth for our survival and for our continuous existence in one way or another what the trees do for us in terms of converting sun into energy which we desperately need in order to be able to live each one of us needs the soil in one way every single one every single living organism needs the soil and each soil needs earth but we're not submerged in the earth we're distinct we're separate we walk on top of the earth in fact we can even you can even get into a skyscraper go to the hundredth floor and be quite separated from the earth and even in your home there's the separation between you and the earth and even when you're walking on the ground you're wearing shoes or slippers or crocs to separate you from the earth and man today can be in an airplane for many many hours man or woman agreeing with many others completely different not submerged it's not like the fish who needs to be submerged invisible in the water on the contrary and this is really where the point is dramatically articulated there everyone said this in a minor when he was explaining this and i mentioned it in last year it's it what altered saying here is very is is is is more acute when we realize the contrast what spells death in one reality spells life in another reality you take the fish and you say come out of the water you'll enjoy the water that's death you take the person or the animal and you say come i'm gonna put you in the earth so you could be really one with the source of life and that means burial which is after 120 years after a person passes away what spells life in this domain in this reality spells death in this reality khalillah and conversely this is a metaphor call martial but you can have everything to say but with a completely different state of consciousness souls of yam are called souls of alma discasya and what does it mean to live in that world to live in that world means to live in a world of complete vegas where the very eye is submerged in the mucker in the source of oxygen and life in the divine source of electricity the divine source of vitality and animation that vivifies and is the source of all of existence my eye is completely submerged in it and therefore when i look at ahmadis i don't see any creature all i see is mayam la yamakasam now you understand why the navi says about the future meshiach comes you shall yahoo pericured aleph isaiah 11 which we say akron shall basically remember he speaks there about the animals getting along with each other undomesticated animals regards the eve and kevis the wolf will be able to dwell and live with the lamb the child will be able to play with the snake the beer the leopard he goes through various wild beasts who will all be at peace they will not harm each other they will not destroy each other why ki why malaha origins hashem kamayam la yamakasam because the earth will be filled with divine awareness like water covers the sea what's the connection now we understand the connection because when mullah is there when there will be the mayan we're under the water what does this mean symbolically it means i don't see that you are opposite than me and therefore i need to defeat you in order to win almades what we see is cosmic oneness the organic innate unity of the entire creation that's the nesham of ahmadis it lives in that oneness the very definition of the eye is that there's no i that is the mathias that's what he speaks about bitly matsias as i explained in the previous shared at length that the matcias of souls of alma descartes say what is their mathias what is their identity their identity is that they're one with the source completely one and because of that there's complete unity because what we see is the divine energy that unifies all of creation and therefore if you take them out of that space there's no life that is for them the definition of life for atem from the oneness from the absolute oneness absolute alignment with the source of life mushroom that is who he is how do we know this his name he had other names the gemara says says had ten names the gomorrah mentions a few names the madrid mentions all of the names nobody knows these names affiliate marine learn medars you know some other names taiv nice names good names taive pun intended taive his mother gave him his father gave him ten names you could look it up none of these names are known we only know one name the name that was given to him by the egyptian princes bhatia the daughter of paris that's the only name that stuck it's the name that the reborn of shalom chose that's the name interior for the greatest leader mushroom i plucked him out of the water and as we explained the bellatanya says and explains to us and enlightens us what this means he was taken out of water he was retrieved from whatever why does that become his name why does that become the most important thing to know about his life obviously it was very important that's what saved his life but why does that become his name throughout his entire life a name captures the essence of the person because it's not just he was physically retrieved from water this represents his life moishe was essentially a creature from water even when he was in dry land he was in water when you looked at martial he said she see you he comes from water he is a soul that comes from water not from dry land he's from yam not from yabbasha if you remember i think it was last year we learned entire ishmael is that there were funeral shamans from the first shmitah we come from the second schmidt that those souls come from the first shmitah adam we learned that it's on the website about tayo and tikkun so therefore moishe can't speak he's kvat per quadlock because speaking by definition necessitates his gallows revelation communication moshe's natural state is a state of complete silence and the reason for this we can understand because as the balatania puts it dibur and his galas nimna me menu because he is when the very eye is submerged in the source of life maisha says i can't really communicate communication from martial was antithetical to his very core to his very essence because he's completely submerged in the source always receiving always absorbing that a complete state of attachment and deeper than attachment completely submerged in that source so now to be able to speak to communicate you have to have a consolidated identity this is who i am and this is what i want to communicate to you mushroom transcends that alma desgali and shamas are very different live in a world where every soul is distinct and individuated and in a very revealed way and you're not submerged in your source of life at least not visibly in other words for you to be authentic you have to identify yourself as a being now who are we are we souls of almodus kasya we souls of almadesgalya we all begin as souls of almades gasia for nine months we live in water we live in a yam we live in the amniotic sac in the womb of our mothers all of us when we go into a mikvah into the yam essentially symbolically for a few minutes or seconds we're going back to that fetal state our state pre-birth that's one of the reasons we understand from this mimer the pleasure that people have when they come to beds of water there's something very delightful that's triggered in the human psyche when you come to the ocean or even when you come to when you look at a lake or a pond or a river a well to something joyous to something special that's triggered in the ordinary human being when it comes we come across this when we come across beds of water we go into the water or we even just look at the water it brings something up yes it brings up alma descartes it brings up our memories of pre-birth it brings up our origin submerged in water and on a spiritual level it brings up our inner vacus with infinity with aidsife where the eye does not exist as a separate being not because the eye doesn't exist but because the eye is completely one and aligned with the divine eye a fish exists and it exists in a beautiful way some of those fish are amazing but it's completely submerged in the water maishrabenu existed says he was he reached the ultimate perfection a human being can reach like but the definition of his existence the definition of his eye is what complete oneness complete vegas inside the water and wall water beds beds of water bring us back to that space consciously and even more subconsciously to our own alma discussion on the other hand we emerge from the womb we're not called not all of us are called moisture some of us are called moistures but not all of us are called mashalach because we emerge from the womb masha remained a creature of water throughout his life but we emerge we're born and we're born into a world of dry land yeah basha alma desgalia and in that world my individuated self becomes significant it becomes important it's valid and it's my the way i process life life has to be channeled and processed in a way that i can feel my existence and i can experience my individuality vis vis-a-vis and that's why we spoke about the two streams in human consciousness the need for attachment and the need for individuation what you may call the need for you to be authentic to you and both are very powerful features in the human brain there is the need for attachment connection very deep connection in which really i'm part of you and you're part of me but there's also the need for individuation and who am i me and me and these two can be a tension with each other evolutionary psychologists will explain it from the perspective of evolution to really understand the depth of it it's this nightmare another memorial of the bellatanya it's the tension of alma discarsia and almadesgalya and the ultimate need for fusion you want to ask a question it's so interesting because uh really was talking about moisture beta how he couldn't speak and i was holding this uh note in front of you telling you to unmute i wasn't able to speak i i wish i was on the madrigal mushroom though where i didn't need to speak right mushroom did not want to be unmuted [Laughter] maishira bena did not want to be [Laughter] so i don't want unmuted be muted some of us don't want to be muted some of us don't want to be unmuted so it's i'm already speaking about the balance i'm trying to figure out where the balance is because we really really want to and that means to be authentic that means to be authentic to myself i have to acknowledge that i'm an amadeus gallery yes between this castle [Music] yeah yeah yeah you're going straight to the point you're going straight to the point you're saying that atmos transcends both and therefore we ultimately have to fuse them yeah yeah we're gonna get the trick is there the balance i was thinking about it first of all i thought okay 50 50. but then i said no because we came from alma descartes viscosity but but we're fully fully created in muhammad so maybe it's more we should be more in this scholar but then i was thinking well we wanted to yeah so the real goal is to bring that into that yeah yeah can go very quickly from one place to another ah yeah we learned in the kuta toyota parish mini the mime about leviosa the difference between nunes the fish of the sea and the shareholder that says when mashiach comes there's going to be a big meal for the tsaddikim with the leviathan and the sherhabar so the laviosa on the leviathan represents the new shamans of almodes and the and the sheriff represents the shamans of alma desgalia where movement is much slower and with a whole mo of avoidance hashem is different he says they with a ship right the the some fish that ain't ship with one uh one swift motion they can they can cover huge distances in the water joseph is blessed by his father vid mccolan the yid ghoul arrived by kyra of haaretz vidgo yidgo means dug him fish so literally it says they should proliferate they should increase amidst the earth but the goo is dug him rashi says ayan hara shouldn't be charlotte fish always sleep with the open eyes ain't up they don't close their eyes obviously the yid ghoul arrived but one of the taichen is the ghoul arrived the caravarettes that in ariet which is ahmed is galia you should be able to have the connection of the yidugu which is alma discarsia that's the bracha of yaakov to yosef who was living in egypt who raised ephraim menasha in egypt without a zadeh and without the environment that they had back in eretz israel joseph was the prime minister of egypt the yid gula ravi makarova it's in almadesgalya you should still be able to have the yidgu the dog the dog the consciousness of the fish yes very powerful and if you look at shalom he gave us a background of an ocean so we can all jump right into alma disgust i was saying that if shalom's background is the ocean that's this morning's background because he doesn't just want me to preach he wants he wants it to be a we should actually see the real mikvah and if you're in the mood you could jump into it show them it's real i hope yeah we can come visit you it's real beautiful okay there's something about water there's no question it triggers these these these inner inner sentiments inner emotions in the purse so now we can now come to a preach we could now come to begin appreciating the power of kriyasyamsaf now we can understand what is kris yamsev kriyasyamsov is not just the water split the water broke so that the jews could walk through and the egyptians ultimately drowned of course that was kris yamsev but kriya of syamazov represented something and it represents something and that's why we mentioned kriyasyams of every day what is kriyasyamsov it's the opening of alma descartes it's the fact that the water splits and everything that was under the water is now revealed is now displayed and you could walk through that space like you walk through dry land what does this mean in a person's life imagine that all my premiums everything that's inside that's buried deep within it's covered by water it's opened up and i can actually walk through it i can walk through it with the same comfort and ease with which i walk through dry land usually that world is you know no trespass a big sign no trespassing nobody is going through that world it's blocked we can't live underwater we could go there for some periods of time i mean the submarines have allowed people to be there for significant amounts of time but it's not our natural habitat obviously spiritually as well there's a part you could call it the unconscious the super conscious the subconscious that which is beneath the water which we don't have access to kriya samson means i can go in there i don't have to be afraid god says the water will split and you could walk in there on a deeper level what is this this is what the mimer says it's really the fusion of alma discussion it's the ability to be able to go in to my alma discussion even though i'm a dry land creature i don't have a connection there kriya samsuf was that moment of clarity when everyone got to be able to walk through their own yamsev as though it was dry land which meant in a very practical way that you became you become in touch with your deepest deepest source of life with your deepest deepest connection and attachment and alignment and oneness with the ain't safe but you do this walking into dry land they didn't just jump into the water and jump right out of it that became yah basha for those few moments or those few minutes as long as the miracle occurred or those few hours the yamsev became yabasha in other words that which is usually the state of ahmadis it became their almades galia that became their consciousness that became something that is their reality why do we mention this every day why was this so important to experience after yetis mitzrayim because essentially this is the avoider that every single person wants to be able to discover within themselves on a daily basis because we each have this tension we each have this duality and we have it in our very in our day-to-day lives in our own relationships and the best example for this would be marriage but really almost every relationship where there's two various things going on simultaneously on one level i'm looking for attachment we need attachment loy taiv what's the first time what is the first thing the toyota says is not good you remember the first thing lloyd adam not good for men to be alone you can't be alone loneliness is is a tragedy people need to feel that they matter to somebody else you care for me i'm one with you and you're one with me we're connected you know today when addiction and addiction research we know listen to this that the antithesis the opposite of addiction is not sobriety you know that the opposite of addiction is not sobriety the opposite of addiction is connection connection and that's why your grandmother when she broke her hip went to the hospital for three weeks and they gave her large dosages of morphine and they gave her a lot a lot of drugs which essentially were like heroin and she didn't come out addicted she should have been addicted your grandmother was 84 years old should have come home a complete heroin addict it never happened you know why because she has around 70 grandchildren jumping on her bed she never feels disconnected what causes addiction is not that i use it again and again of course that's the practical element of it but the real cause of it is i'm not connected i'm alone in the world i'm lonely and that creates a lot of pain and you want to see how meticulous this is anybody knows what's the second lighthouse in hamish the second lighthouse in hamas the same exact words are used by israeli to maishirabano and pasha's yesterday when he says you're alone it's not good novel table you're going to wither away now the light type of bereisha is the lifetime of israel at different light terms but yesterday was saying you're in ahmedaz kasia they're in ahmedazgalia we have to find an intermediary here so back to our back to our point so connection is essential attachment today in psychology there's something very well known as attachment disorder attachment disorder means there was a disorder in my attachment i did not feel attached as a child i did not feel that safety that security i didn't feel like my home or my mother or my father or my environment or my school in my community was a nest in which i can really feel safe and secure in which i can be seen and soothed to the therapists to use the four s's right safe secure seeing and soothed the four s's i have to be able to be seen i have to be able to be soothed i have to be able to feel safety and have to be able to feel security in a word i have to be able to feel attached i have to feel that my eye is part of something larger something greater i'm not just an isolated individuated creature trying to function and live on my own i matter to you you matter to me on the other hand if your spouse tells you listen from today you are part of me but there's nothing else we revolt no i need to be me half half marriage that half of the marriage therapists will tell you that a significant amount of their therapy work is this i want to be me i want to have my own life i have an identity i have talents i have resources i have a future i have my dreams so many divorces happen why because i didn't feel that you know my dreams could be implemented with you in my life on the contrary you're a very nice person but it was not for my dreams this is i want to be me i want to be true to me i'm an individual i have my personality i don't want to be swallowed up by you i don't want to be submerged in you i don't want to be in the sea i want to be noticeable i want to make my mark very opposite need so some people will say this is true some people will say that's true they're both true they're both true i need to be you and i need to be me i need to be part of you lloyd sir attachment begins with tati and mommy it continues in marriage because there's no attachment like the attachment to marriage just like there's no attachment like the attachment to tati and mommy and what happens if there was an attachment disorder with tati and mommy there's going to be an attachment disorder with your husband or your wife and a lot of your inner work is going to happen over there that's why we love blaming our mothers and our fathers don't we and they could blame their fathers and mothers and they could go back to other melchivan who are they going to blame they'll blame the snake it's all the snake's fault trauma 5 801 years intergenerational trauma from the nakhoshka kadmaini but nakhosh is begumatri why because there comes a point where you have to be able to release all the trauma and create healing so the attachment of even ima is with the bus and you become one flesh you become completely one with the other person that's how the toyota describes the human condition this is how reality works so you say i don't need vegas i just need to be myself no loy sadam i may be in pain and i may be lonely and i may be angry and i may have been hurt and i may be disappointed so therefore i run away into myself it's like that child three years old who doesn't get what he wants and he runs upstairs to cry and he says leave me alone i don't want to see you but really he wants your connection more than anything else and if you leave the house and you say okay we'll give you up for adoption it's the most destructive thing you can do for this child he's screaming i want to be alone but really i want to be alone because i'm feeling hurt by this connection i'm feeling not safe i'm feeling not secure can you prove to me that you're here for me this is the real need this is the real yearning the real search and as a result of that vacus is the real yearning of a person i need to feel that i matter to you and in a marriage this is so so important the person has to know that you matter to me i'm here for you i'm thinking about you there's space for you in my life real space for you in my life and then i want to be me so you see this is a manifestation in a very practical way of these two these two modes ahmadis alma desgalia and the two can't live without each other the two are dependent on each other why are they dependent on each other because if a person is not really connected they can't be themselves and if you don't allow me to be me i can't really be connected listen to what i'm telling you if i'm not connected i can't be me because i'm wounded there's like a bottomless pit there's an inner an inner void an inner hole that i can't fill an inner void that i can't feel after numb i have to feel the achtos and if not i can't really be myself there's too much anxiety there on the other hand on the other hand if i'm not allowed to be me i also can't be connected because i feel that the connection is abusive and overwhelming and will destroy me thank you very she must because she be to do a togo for you so you so your typhus here so if i'm attached i could be i could be individual i could be individuated and in order to be able to be individuated i have to be attached but in order to be able to be attached i also have to have that sense of individuation because if not people say one second people say you're choking me you're swallowing me up you're not letting me breathe and the two therefore are dependent on each other and when they when we learn how to process it in our own lives and of course we have to have the cooperation of the other what happens is they look they actually begin helping out each other they intensify each other because they're really connected to each other they're dependent on each other and we had the other day marriage seminar with couples last sunday a full day seminar so i spoke and marcia zev lam spoke and he said a very beautiful point he said that nowhere like in a marriage will your authenticity be challenged and your attachment will be challenged in other words marriage is an institution where these two worlds alma descaste and ahmedazgalia will be the most tested in other words they're also the opportunity for them to be the most crystallized and articulated in that relationship because it's such an intense and powerful relationship the attachment is very very deep even though you're attached to your siblings and you're attached to your friends but it's a different type of attachment here the attachment is constant and perpetual you're living together so the attachment really has to be worked out and the authenticity really has to be worked out and and both will be tested in a very powerful way and this is what on one level this is the beginning of understanding at least on one level the concept of creations of christians is can i really be able to look in and reveal my inner inner space my yams of my alma descarcia what's my disguise is the place where my eye wants to cease to exist separately and become submerged in the ainsaif in the other in the miami the other is infinity which is me also because i'm also part of ainslief but it's reflected in our relationships with other people like we say that the muscle of a man and a woman marriage is a martial for hashem and the jewish people it's all the same concept because every relationship on on our in our world is a microcosm of the ultimate relationship that's what the baal shem tov taught that every relationship that we have here is really a way of god seeking a relationship with us that's what the monster says all relationships here are a way of mending our relationship with hashem it's it's an extraordinary teaching of the majestic and that's why each of our relationships is just a reflection of this concept he doesn't only have a yam shalom has a yamaha daniel has kris yamsev in his background i think i could walk through it yeah you're saying if a person is wounded i'm sorry repeat your question again if a person's not connected to another they can't beat them and they can't be themselves can you explain that i i miss that yeah you said you you the question of the neil is asking as i understand when you say that if you're not if you're not feeling true to yourself it's very hard to be connected because i feel that that connection chokes me in and obliterates me and nullifies me and i run away from it on the other it's like it's it's too it's too overwhelming it's too inauthentic i'm being inauthentic and and but what does it what does it work also the other way of course it works out the other way because what often happens is if attachment is part of my identity and i don't have it so then my identity is so wounded and scarred that i can't really live up to my dreams to my potentials i can't be me or to put it differently much most of my time and mental space will be dedicated to numb the pain due to the attachment disorder much of my mental space will be designated to try to fill the void and distract me from the fact that i feel disconnected to give a practical example for this i was always a practical example for this is is somebody told me once that they work very hard in their business very very hard and they put in so much work day and night and over hours very talented fellow very really talented fellow intelligent smart educated person and we were having once a very open conversation he was a friend of mine and i asked him why do you work so hard you work so hard is this your passion and the words i heard were so powerful and i'm saying them almost verbatim not verbatim but almost verbatim he said i grew up and nobody ever appreciated who i was i felt like a nebucha i felt insignificant and valueless and really dispensable i'm just not needed and he says all my work in that office and that company is i decided i am going to force them to believe that i'm needed i am going to show them and to prove them that i am needed in this world they're going to see how much they're dependent on me now you hear what he's saying all of his work has nothing to do with himself none of it it has nothing to do with dreams goals passions talents resources it's basically trying to numb the pain and fill the void of an attachment disorder i never felt valued nobody ever saw me nobody ever i was never attached to anything in anybody and therefore i am going to force this attachment i am going to force my validation i'm going to force myself to be validated and that's why the two are so deeply and constantly and intricately interconnected what we have in this mimer is the powerful idea this is not just an evolutionary random mutation you got to be connected because we hunt in packs as foragers we had to hunt in packs so we could survive so we had to work together and on the other hand for the hunting to be successful they had to be on hierarchies everybody had to also be in their position so that's a very depressing you know depiction of mankind to the point that it's just you know we're all busy responding to the various mutations because we wanted to survive what this mimer is teaching us is that alma discus and ahmadis gali are two inherent components of existence okay so now this was supposed to be my summation yeah this is no i'm explaining how these these two modes of reality that the bala tanya is introducing to us is manifested on every level of the human condition where each of us has these two needs where does it come from it comes from the source like everything that in the human soul there's two aspects alma descartia is the fact that there's a state of consciousness where my eye is completely submerged and is one with the source and doesn't want to be visible it wants to melt away in the all-pervasive oneness of my creator and ahmadis galia is where god so to speak sends my soul out of the water into dry land where it becomes individuated mushroom remains ahmadis that's why naturally he doesn't want to speak hashem has to really push him and say no no no i'll help you speak because by nature by the by the innate condition of moisturabenu he is subsumed in the infinite light and therefore there's no communication there's no his galas which is basically a compromise of the energy it's diluting the energy to the point where i'm stuck i'm communicating it to you maestrabain was in a state of of his very mitzius is bitter so therefore naturally he's big project they're quad a new kitchen and they've got to figure out all these details there's a whole cliche about the husband and wife tearing each other's hair out about all the details how do they bring in this to make that more peaceful and efficient so you're asking a husband and a wife are having a huge debate about renovating the kitchen and he has his perspective she has her perspective how can this mimer help such a couple make more peace so now we want our therapy session is that what we want right now we got to bring in the wifey and discuss the kitchen we have to hear what she says about the kitchen she says if i'm mistaken not mistaken she just wants a new house she says forget the kitchen let's just buy a 2 million new house in miami maybe right and and we'll be good i'm just joking i think i think that i'm not joking maybe she doesn't want that but i don't know who the wife is so i think of course of course of course it's very important when there's peace at home there's when there's peace at home there could be peace in the world yeah the lobby should everyone said of 1961 i think the after it says i mentioned when she comes the wolf will lie with the lamb they're going to be at peace the rebels said you know why they're going to be at peace you know why the wolf and the lamb will be at peace because the wolf and the lamb inside of me is going to be at in peace at peace the nephew shall i kiss and the nephesha bahamas there's going to be peace between the animals inside of me and between the godly soul and the animal soul between the domesticated soul and the undomesticated soul because there's going to be peace inside each and every one of us so by osmosis what happens inside of us the world exists inside of us affects the universe and it affects the planet and therefore the peace internally is going to be manifested in peace externally not only among humans but even in the animal kingdom among all of the mammals so when we create peaceful marriages at home and when we create peace between ourselves it's not just you're giving yourself a better life that's true but you're also exuding a light into the world that other people benefit from it creates more peacefulness in the world besides in your home besides in your family besides in your community it's extremely important this is a time i think this is part of the quarantine divine message time to work on your marriage now sometimes one of the parties is not interested in any of this they don't want to cooperate maybe they're too hurt maybe they're too angry maybe they're too lonely maybe they've felt too uh you know nobody listen to them whatever the situation is but we have to try to do whatever we can to the point of of very deep commitment in order to be able to restore to restore our relationships i want to tell you it was a very gratifying moment for me many many years ago this is maybe i don't know 20 years ago a little less there was a couple that came to me they had terrible terrible marital strife every day there was a new explosion in the house and their kids were suffering they were little kids they wanted to get divorced constantly again and again and again it was every okay today we're getting divorced tomorrow we're getting divorced both wonderful people i really like them very special people but there was something inside there that was very very decadent it was just not working and the families were not helpful either you know sometimes the families are helpful remember they're not helpful and i tried to work with them and i and i and i tried to help them and then you know i moved on in my life they moved on in my life and i didn't really have contact with them and just a week or two ago i got a message from the husband about something else he asked me a question and i said hey whatever happened whatever happened to you you know your marriage your children and he sent me pictures of his children he has had more children since and they're grown-ups already and he has a good marriage and a very happy life and a very fulfilled life and a successful life baruch hashem i mean everyone has challenges but thank god he's he's doing well in many ways and has a beautiful family and he thanked me he thanked me for the effort i put in then and then he told me something he said that you told me then he told me that you told me then that for a marriage it's worth fighting for to the point of mysterious nephesh and i followed through because so many instincts in me were running away from it but i followed through and it was the best thing i did in my life now here we have to qualify mysteriousness doesn't mean you have to fight for a marriage if you're being horribly abused if a woman is being beaten or kids are being beaten or people's lives are in danger then you have to leave a marriage or at least you have to consider it very significantly what mysterious nephesh i meant was your own mysterious never sometimes my pain my trauma my ego my insecurity tells me no no no just run away run away run away never means you really have to be able to challenge every fiber in your being and it's worth it it's worth it because it's not only that you'll stay married it's that you will find who you really are you will become the best person you're capable of becoming to put it in the words of this mime i'm going to go back it's very easy to escape to alma desgalia and make believe you're not connected but that's not the truth if you'll do kriyasyam stuff you'll see what's happening in your alma discarsia you'll see that your eye is so connected and needs that connection and needs that vacus the same is true with god it's very easy to run away and make believe i don't care i'm not pathetic i'm indifferent i'm not the religious type i'm not the spiritual type i'm just a baltivo i'm just a glut and i want to make money and i want to have a private yacht and a private plane and a big home and smoke cuban cigars and go out with friends and eat good food and drink delicious wines and play poker as somebody told me the other day about his agendas in life but if you have a little christian so if you open up yourself to your truth and sometimes it happens through pain sometimes when a person experiences pain in their life they get opened their hearts get open and suddenly they see what matters they see that these attachments that they dismissed as irrelevant are really very very meaningful so kriyasyamsaf is so important to be able to have the courage to walk through the subterranean corridors of my soul subterranean corridors of our soul i want to learn a few lines here before we finish i want to learn a few lines here it's uh the top of 124 right and we're almost finished the paragraph the line starts kamai shakasav and now we're going to understand the blessing we say in tehillim from the world to the world what does this mean ah from al madis means to reveal to access you remember how maverick is to bend him to bend the void means that state in which the infinite divine energy is present and all of reality is not perceived as separate but completely submerged in oneness this is called bittel it's also kula kamekal khashev everything in his presence doesn't have a separate significance because it's all part of oneness this is a state of kula kamekal khashog this is the state of ahmedabad this is a state of bitter medicis this is a state of slave of calam dalto rabbi here gave different names to this state of consciousness ahmadines kasia siva of calalman why is that so significant so this is my request to all the students these terms we come across constantly saiv of kalaman bittel but here he's putting them together because he wants you should understand what these terms mean these terms is basically the consciousness of moisture 24 hours a day where the i is seen as an aspect of infinity which means there's no i because my eye is just a channel for infinity the only eye that it exists is the anoint mulvade that cooler make a light that's alma but that's a world of oneness what's that this reality should come out should be manifested in ahmedabad's galia the glory of god will be revealed times of mashiach and all the flesh we'll see vero khalbasa that the mouth of hashem speaks what does this mean vero khalbasa the term is buster busser is not dogging fish is not meat fish is not flake shakes buster are mammals that live on earth they don't live in the water vero called boston the flesh of alma desgali those who live on earth the mammals that live on dry land will roe will be able to seek vaidarshev in other words kris yams of in other words the neglect hashem that the ancient slave of kalaman should be revealed and manifested in the world of individuation of ahmadis galia in other words the fusion of the two realities that even as i experience myself as me and as a separate being my own identity my own existence i should appreciate the truth that what that's also part of kalama that's also part of kula kamehameha in other words in alma disgassi itself there's no i the idea of abraham should become a reality in almadesgalya even when i walk in dry land i should be walking amidst the sea you know the beautiful void of the rabbit of melech you know that word you know the word of the name i'll tell it to you he says like this but this this this void you'll hear and you'll remember it he says as follows it says in kris yamsev it says when when when the story is told the terrorist says israel the jewish people came into the yam but they came into dry land because they went into the sea but the sea became dry at the end of the story at the end of the sheira when the jews sing the song they finish off remember hashem yimlem the jewish people went in dry land in the sea asks why in the story of creation it says they went in by your voice at the end it says in the beginning it says they went into the sea and it's through dry land at the end it's they went into dry land in the sea good question no the shalom that's good brings if i'm not mistaken maybe a piece of his son maybe not from the rabbit that may look himself could be from his thunderball he have to look it up and he says the tactless of kriyasyams of was the purpose of kriyasyamsof was that when you walk on dry land you should also experience the consciousness of kriyasyamsof the point of creation was to show that even when you're walking on dry land it's the same miracle like we say shabbos the fact that this earth that was spread over the water is also a miracle so the first time is all besides they went into the yam and it became dry land the purpose was that even when you're walking on your bushing it should be better that's the tactilist the end of the shirt is you know what the jews learned from kris yamsev that even when you're walking on ya the sameness the same enthusiasm the same miracle when you're walking by a bush it's not my brother repsimmon told me he had a yid who came to learn by him his name was peter his name is peter some of you know him himmelman very special jew great musician a great singer and he came from a very very secular background and he was entrenched in secular culture so he came to learn with my brother and so he wanted to trigger him you know so at the end of the class he turns to my brother and he said so there was a picture of the rebb on the wall in his home in my brother's home so he says ah who's that she says it's my teacher for the la bhava chereb this is probably 81 82 83 maybe so he says ah you're you're a hasid you're from the hasidim he says she says so you probably believe that he can fly right you probably believe that this rabbi can fly he was being cynical so my brother looked at him and said i don't know if he can fly i don't know but i'll tell you what i do know that when he walks on the ground he experiences it as a miracle just as if he would be flying for him just to take a stroll on god's earth is perceived as miraculous as flying i heard this years later from peter and he told me that that impacted him so profoundly that's kasi they jumped into the arm wow walking on dry land you wake up in the morning and you take two steps on the ground and you say matera surum roykar it's it's the miracle of krishna in other words in my daily consciousness in my ahmadis galia in my perceived individuation i should be able to always align myself with the truth of kula kameh kaloy khashev that's disgusting okay tomorrow morning we'll have a sheer basic hashem 7 30 tomorrow morning friday morning so i'll see you back then and we'll continue the mimer dimitra i'm going to wish everybody a wonderful day let's see what's happening in the questions department to fast okay let's see the matzah here with the questions a lot of nice comments aren't we supposed to strive towards bitter not diversity why then do you say that ahmadis galio should stay in diversity in other words are we supposed to make peace with our diversity and self-centered needs or strive towards a place of unity gevaldic a question and the answer is the answer is it's not making room for our self-centered needs it's striving towards a place of unity and realizing that our diversity is also part of our unity that's what you have to understand and then your diversity is not self-centered right you can look at diversity and say we're self-centered i'm not an individual i'm just part of a whole and there's no me in other words i can deny almades galia but the real kavanaugh is that's what he's saying here to be mamshak in almadesgalya if you learn if you'll continue learning with us maybe you have been learning with us for a while you'll see these concepts will become clearer the individual fish are invisible to us and not differentiated but to each of the fish they see the other individual differentiated fish and other creatures of the sea in fact they spot their prey and eat each other dido for angels and other creatures of all hidden worlds right the marshal of the yamas from our perspective you speak about the unity of alma describe but there are fish that eat each other that's true again the mushroom of the yama is not a perfect muscle from malaria but it's a metaphor in the sense that from our perspective we see the oneness in the physical world until mashiach comes we don't have that physical metaphor of an oasis where there is complete oneness as far as we know fish don't make sounds and they don't speak either maybe that's why maestro bainu couldn't speak because he was like a fish very interesting fish didn't sin they weren't destroyed in the marble other animals did sin and they were destroyed that's maybe why we eat fish on shabbos shabbas is alma disgasia so that's why shabbos you eat fish they now have discovered that some animals have contracted corona so far as we know no fish have contracted corona they exist in a different world in a different existence this works with everything you explained hashem could have fashioned the miracle anyway he could have had the jews walk or swim through the actual water like a fish he didn't he wanted them to walk on dry land in the midst of the sea with walls of water on either side i guess there's a significance to this we didn't actually go through the wet water we walked through dry land in the midst of the water the water pulled back in other words the water was transformed into dry land which means almades kasia was transformed into almadesgalya and that's the point of this mimer very well said you say that if i'm not connected and attached i can't really be me because i'm only a half and a shama so if i make believe i'm not attached i'm not really true to myself is that the idea of yes that's the idea of means right that we are really one and therefore if i give a whole shekel meaning i make believe that i'm not attached i'm actually not giving a whole shekel i'm giving a half a shekel because i'm separated from you but if i give a half a shekel that means you're giving the other half shackle in other words i recognize that i'm attached then i'm giving a whole shackle because my eye is part of you and together we're giving a whole shekel this i heard from the rabbi and his last fabing and shabbos asked why do you give a half a shekel all carbonus should be whole not half the answer is he said because i am a half of you and you're a half of me so when i give a half and you give a half we're giving together one shekel because i am you and you are me but if i give a whole shekel which means i make believe i'm not attached then actually i am not i am separated i'm fragmented for myself i'm not giving a whole shekel i'm only giving a half shekel because part of me is not involved part of me is not giving the shekel so that's why we give a half because together you and i we give one now so this person says like this on the other hand you say to be connected and attached you have to be completely yourself to be completely yourself you have to be connected only when both halves are half together they can create the completion all of creation seems to be unified then split and differentiated and the job is to reunify and reattach those separate parts same is about all the sparks hashem took the unified puzzle of his world broke up the pieces and left it to us to put it back together and therefore if i'm not connected and attached i can't truly be me because i'm only a half nashamah but to be connected and attached i must first truly and completely be my half when both halves are first their true and complete half can they together recreate the completion whole the way they were before they were split just like the sea that's why other manchava were one very very well said bittel can be pronounced several ways someone pointed out pointed out to rabbi shaystab that one pronunciation can be be a tool be tool be a tool be a tool in hashem's hands like avraham being a chariot bittool is be a tool i like that i like that be a tool kigaius let god flow through you it's like the maggot taught about ashai for you know the maggot says that we blow shay from rosh hashanah because hashem blows the soul of life into adam and he blows the soul of life into the whole world and we have to realize i'm like the sheifer i'm the conduit the tool through which hashem blows all of his energy in you just be the shaifer harem kashaifer the word eric uh means a missile a teal in in in hebrew is a missile right so um so you're saying be taller as be a till sometimes you have to be a missile yeah yeah the word butter literally is the idea of like you know we have an etc nullified right nullified okay i know it's hard to say goodbye okay somebody asks a question the hidden world of the hidden world of the sea was revealed by kris yamsev the hidden supernal worlds were revealed as hashem gave the ten commandments yeah yeah okay tomorrow morning tomorrow morning bezier hashem will have the class 7 30 a.m today 3 30 p.m we have a special share with the london community the england the community in london the topic is fear and faith in times of crisis lessons of tu bishvat everybody is invited 3 30 p.m right here on the yeshiva.net it will stream live hashem it will also be on torah anytime and probably on the zoom but not this zoom they'll have a zoom and this is in new york time it's 3 30 p.m everybody is invited this afternoon and tomorrow morning we'll have 7 30 continue the mimer i wish you all a happy tu bishvat remember those fruits and a beautiful day and welcome special welcome to woodridge bye bye bye bye bye everybody bye yeah say altm a couple things i had a couple questions you have time i just have to go now i have to uh krieger from yerushalayim you remember the pinchas he wants to know does the balatanya mean that the banay straw went into the yam suff and at some point turned around and went out the same side they went in yeah it's a toy swiss toy swiss take a little take a look toysvis masekte airkin i believe daf tessavov that's where i think it is toysvis airkin take out of gemara airkin i think it's daftas base toys for says this i'm sorry aleph this writes that the jewish people they did not go through the sea from one side to the other side but i say the same side that they went in they made a semi circle and they went back up they go in like this and they don't go through to the other side of the sea and come out rather they make a turn and they come out the same way they come out from the same side of the sea that they descended into the sea i don't think rashid says it but taiswa says this in gemara ericand of testv so the balatanya proves from this that you have to say that kriyasyamsof had some independent objective and purpose take take a look it's enticed first i don't remember rashi says they came out from the same side that they came in i didn't learn take a look ready mentioned a very very heavy gobaltic story a few days ago that relates to self-centeredness about the woman who had some children they were very poor and she only had a certain amount of bread and she went into the room and ate the bread and she was really realized that if if she didn't live they wouldn't live so she was really being self-centered for them it was a heavy heavy story i told it to a friend of mine who just right away it didn't feel good to him because his parents were went through the war and he said oh no a jewish mommy is always someone who gives the children and children and children he couldn't understand he had like a cognitive dissonance he couldn't understand the word exactly i can see where he's coming from yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah there's also a story of um two men chopping wood in the forest and they have a big pile of wood and they're chopping wood and they make money how much wood they chop and they're chopping and then the one guy takes a break then the one guy takes another break later and another break one guy takes five breaks in the day the other guy just keeps chopping chopping chopping at the end of the day the guy that took the breaks cut much more wood the guy that guy that didn't chop so much wood whenever and asked him what's going on how did you chop so much you took so many friends he said i wasn't taking a break to wrath to to relax i was sharpening my saw i was taking care of myself i was improving i was giving myself rests and feeding myself so that i would be able to produce for others yeah yeah beautiful there's a safer called savas harivash which has short lines statements ideas insights of the balsamic so over there he says that because it says the divine energy runs and returns it ascends and descends so therefore he says even the greatest sadiq who are in touch with that energy they have these dual motions in life ratsoy which is a yearning and longing and avoid and then there's the shoe of returning he says at the surface it just looks like a form of relaxation that can may be perceived as idle but really it's the preparation for the next ratsoy like you're saying i was sharpening the saw in order to be able to cut down more watts [Music] my love and blessings in the morning yes some if you have time you can also come on 3 30. kamata you