Torah Ohr, Beshalach, Az Yashir #1 | I Have Two Needs - Attachment & Authenticity

[Music] good afternoon england good afternoon canada good afternoon israel good afternoon israel yes let's hear it for israel i heard of brooklyn i've heard a few things about brooklyn good afternoon good morning connecticut good morning brooklyn good morning connecticut good morning rocklin county good morning good morning north carolina wow good morning everybody good morning toronto good morning california california very early in the morning 4 30 in the morning good morning everybody if i missed you if i did not miss you thank you for gracing us this morning you could see me and hear me good morning muncie good morning manchester good morning great britain good morning to the queen and uh good morning everybody who's here thank you for being here with us and uh may it be a great day and a great week for everybody so let's begin let's begin oh you tuned in you tuned in oh yeah yeah yeah it was a very special evening yeah you could watch the replay online if you missed any of it on the yeshiva.net so please download your source sheets if you haven't yet as always i make this announcement but by now you probably figured it out you can go to the yeshiva.net you'll see hasidis monday on top of the video there's an icon called download and over there you can open and download the source sheets or to something called view source sheets which will open it up on the screen we're going to begin today a new mimer by ezra mizbarak the miner oz yoshi maisha binayi syrah the beginning of the song of the jewish people after the splitting of the sea which is imperative bashar al-aqti the columns entire area on the toyota are divided by four which means every page has four columns like gumara you have um aleph amid base the first side of the page and the other side of the page toyota is divided by four columns so there's amud alef amud bays ahmed gimel on medal at column one two three four just to you know how it's red this safer is referenced so this mimer is davsamachi base omud bay summer base column 2 or page if you have the safer if you're opening your source sheets then you don't need a page number because it's the first page and you'll see the second column and middle of the page is this is a mimer of the year toffkoff gimmel that would be 1803. and the balatanya the altareba opens up with that famous verse that we say every morning then moshe and the children of israel sang this song to hashem and they said i will sing to hashem because he exalt he is exalted above the exalted a horse and its rider he hurled into the sea and if you up if you read the hummish the story you'll get the whole context why they said these words obviously following the story of the splitting of the sea where they walked through and the egyptians who came to pursue them and reacquire them as slaves as eternal slaves were hurled into the sea where they drowned he nay lahavning in kriyasyamsev says the altarebe to understand what is the very theme of kriyasyamsof what is the message the contribution of the splitting of the sea what's his question his question is you say well he had to drown the egyptians were coming after the jews and they had to be saved right they were in front of a sea the red sea the yamsev the egyptians were behind them so i mean they couldn't go back right but we all understand that there could be different ways of delivering the people what was the when there's a particular miracle in hamesh there was something unique about that event this it had to happen this way why splitting of the sea there were ten plagues in israel that brought them to the in egypt that brought them to their knees but here was kriyasyam's what's the messenger or to put it in different words maybe this is an important way of saying it if the trade is not just a book of stories but it's a road map for life it's a blueprint of how a person is supposed to live so then every story there is my story it's a reflection of my life it's not just great stories that happened a few thousand years ago if it's a road map for life it's if it's a real blueprint and perspective how i'm supposed to live how i could live so every story becomes a personal story so that's his question what is kris yamsev what is the indian of creatures i'm explaining the question on two levels the game for them is furthermore and this is a fascinating question if you study the voyage the path of the jewish people from egypt territory they didn't have to go through the yam you could study the map going from egypt to the holy land and at this stage it was not yet planned that they would travel 40 years and go in circles you don't have to go through the sea the only reason they had to go through the sea was because hashem said go back he wanted them to go backwards and para would think they're confused and lost he says it's a they're completely lost and startled and overwhelmed the desert closed in on them in other words you could say what do you mean why was the creation because they had to go they had to travel from egypt to israel and there's a yam in the front of them so what are they supposed to do so the seattle split he says that's not the case because it wasn't part of the derek hashem told them to go back in the other direction and then the egyptians pursued them and then they had to go through the yah in other words what do we see from here it's not that kriyasyamsov happened because of the journey of the jewish people because they journeyed and therefore they had to be created so myself no it's the other way around because there had to be kriyasyamsov therefore the reborn of shalom arranged the journey the way he arranged it you see it's very different it wasn't a miracle of a necessity it was a miracle of choice begum furthermore [Music] you're the best there are sources that demonstrate that the jewish people didn't go through the sea it was like a semi-circle it's not that the sea split and they went over from one side of the sea to the other side of the sea it's not what happened they went in they went in a semi-circle and they came out from the same side that they went into and they continued the journey this is our famous tiger summit saito who explains this that they didn't go through the yam they made a semi-circle so this now only exasperates this intensifies the question this means that the whole point of kriya samsuf seems futile they came out from the same side that they went in so you say well you have to drown the egyptians the question is why through the splitting of the sea tom the explanation and this is xiv the passage says viedu mitsuram kenya a few times in the whole story the egyptians will know that i am hashem that sorry but this doesn't seem to make sense it says that the water covered up the presses of the jewish people not one person was left as we say every night it might even every morning in ezra's before today how can they know that i am god if they're dead you want them to know that i'm hashem he says it not only in in boy where they're still alive but hashem tells maisha here they're going to find out that i'm god they're not going to find that they'll die you're not transforming them you're killing them what's the idea with something aloha indian explanation and all of this is there is egypt in every person and every time just that statement itself is such a rich statement yes in every person and every moment there's something called you're not reading an ancient story you're reading an individual story every generation a person ought to see himself as though he left mitzrayim and the posix says you should remember the day that you left egypt all the days of your life what's the point what does it mean in every generation i should see myself as i went out of mitzray and i have to remember it every day of my life why and if i remember it once a week once a year i understand it's an important story so on a simple level the idea is that this is the the uninterrupted messiah the uninterrupted tradition of of amisterol the story of isis shaped our psyche it crafted our veltan as the ramban explains in hummish at the end of parish's boy on a deeper level though we have to understand so you could say it's important to remember yetis it says as though i went out and every day of my life i have to remember this remember every day the splitting of the sea which is why we tell the story every morning in davonin where we go through the whole story of the splitting of the sea and the shira and we mention it later also after krishna the mission obvious our sages say the world stands on three things tehran [Music] used to come down on top of the altar and it was crouched like a lion because i'll say in you i think that during the days of schleimer when he built the first base amiktas a coal came down from heaven and it developed into a fire which was crouching like a lion and that would eat up aries it was a lion the aquil kerbanon that would eat up the karbanas this is what the maria says this expression what's the connection between davening and an offering it doesn't seem connected the answer is says the balatanya because what's the purpose of davaning to take by animal soul it's a very powerful moment to take my nephesha bahamas my animal salt my reptilian brain my animal consciousness which is focused only on survival and instant gratification my animal soul which is living in a place of fear and insecurity which is living in a petty orbit and to take that animal soul and allow it to be absorbed in the heavenly fire which is the love that comes from above every single day hashem sends forth his infinite love towards you we say in the morning that's like a fire it's like a fire it's a passion that he plants into you but i have to be able to allow myself to be consumed by that love you have to allow yourself to be loved and that's not so easy it's hard for many of us to allow ourselves to be loved because we feel that we're going to be much more safe if we don't allow ourselves to be loved do you guys know what i'm talking about everybody disappeared from the screen suddenly when i start speaking about this yes okay i know that the women know what i'm talking about i want to know if the others have to know what i'm talking about the truth is we all have to work on this this is the concept of opening myself up to the ava this is avi rabba bam el my live series of layla it's an arousal from above this is the fire that can eat up the animal so therefore tephila is just like a carbon it's just the same it's exactly the same thing the carbon was a physical animal and tephila is sometimes harder because it has to be my inner animal but that's what fila is between but where do you see in davening this concept that a fire comes down from above the shot is that why should i take my but the truth is this is the theme behind the fact that every every single one of the blessings of shmeinster the 19 18 19 blessings finishes with the words baruch atta blessed is hashem the god of israel meanwhile islam which literally means from the world to the worlds on a literal level it means that hashem is blessed and acknowledged in all over the world as the true omnipresent god that pervades all of the worlds that's what we mean baruch hashem alakazam which is the conclusion of the first safer of tehillim the end of capital mem aleph from the world of concealment to the world of revelation the high numbers of in other words from a state of savior which we'll explain to the state of marmalade as the passage says the famous passage in malachim hashem ali kim from one world and bringing it in and revealing it in another world that alma desgalia from saiva of mammalia elekim so he gave three different ways of expressing this idea alma descartes almadesgalya save of kalama malakalam and havaya and alikhim and those of you who have been following for a while know the connection hawaii is associated with sawyer villa came with mamali almades and when a person aligns he connects his animal soul with hashem with the oneness of hashem so then the higher fire which is represented by save of calam and as we will explain can be manifested and dwell in a person's soul that is the idea of the arya the aish that eats up the carbon it's baru hashem islam and when i bring my animal in so then the fire can come in you bend a vine if i have let's say a vine and i take a branch and i bend it i bring it into the earth because i want a new sapling to grow from another place in the earth not far from the original vine so maverick is when you take something and you draw it you you you bend it you want it to continue in another space so he says when you bring out something from a state of concealment into a state of revelation from the subconscious into the conscious to the point that it becomes atta that i could say here you which means it's right in front of me it's second person you could say at you third person is who he or she who or he in hebrew ata is you so what's barakata barakata is i am accessing i am connecting with something that may be initially concealed to the point that i could say atta that's the borough hashem israel this is what happens by now what does all of this mean this is the introduction to the mime at the end of the first paragraph this is a beginning and explanation is says whatever exists in dry land exists also in the water in the seas in other words whatever ex whatever exists by a basha before our eyes a counterpart of it exists also by yam in the sea and conversely as well whatever exists in the yam exists in the abbasia this is what ghazal teaches us that even though this is dry land and this is the sea but remember whatever is here is here whatever is there is there you have the counterpart of each type of organism and existence that exists in the sea exists in dry land and conversely what does the meaning of this says the sea represents what's called alma discus the hidden world yabasha dry land is called ahmadazgalia the revealed world what's the difference physically between the dry land and sea sha brilliance the creatures in the sea are not visible because the bed of water eclipses them furthermore what is more their existence and their endurance is always within the water v.e.f there is no way for them to be able to live in dry land because if you extract the fish from the water it will immediately perish in brilliant creatures in the dry land the earth may produce the vegetation but but the fruits will be visible above the earth the fruits are not submerged in the earth the fruits are visible out of the earth and even though they're never disconnected for the for the tree or for the vegetable or any of the vegetation or produce or any bush or shrub or tree or plant it must receive its nurture from the earth in other words it also lives from the soil because if you cut the tree it cannot anymore receive nurture just like the fish you take it out of the water it dies he says emma's but hey need him but they're visible they appear as something independent of course i need the soil i'm connected to the soil but the tree grows above the earth and it may grow you have trees you know the sequoias that can grow 300 feet tall dark trees maybe 350 feet tall huge trees and when you look at them yes we know they're dependent on the soil they get to nurture from the soil but the way they appear is as a yesh some think very powerful very significant and to the to a point self-contained that's the difference between yam and yabasha when i look at the sea what do i see like the expression in the passage the bed of water covers the entire interior of the sea i come to the water i don't necessarily see fish i may see a few fish on the top i come to the ocean you go to the ocean nobody imagines the rich resources of plant life and animal life amphibious life that exists under the waters what they call marine life the life underwater it's it's our universe sometimes the depth this could be dozens and dozens and dozens of miles and there's a huge world there today you know we have some access to it with the technology and you see the the diversity of life underwater is incredible as much as we're astounded by the diversity of life on dry land we are blown away by what's happening under the water and you know i don't know if you know we still don't know every species of fish that exists it's been thousands of years of investigation and research and more than 100 years of modern research we still have not identified every type of species of fish we can't we constantly discover more and more you know people think we discovered everything we didn't even begin there are millions of species we identified but we still know that there's a lot more that we don't i think i once read that they they they know around two million but they know that there's more and of course within each species there's so much diversity it's against the wealth it's a whole world but we don't see it what's the difference the difference is coma whatever is here is there but we don't see it why don't we see it because the water covers it that's why it's called that's why it's a metaphor for alma discuss it's a world but it's a hidden world and it's not just we don't see it it's that everything that exists there or at least many creatures that exist if you take them out of the water they can't live they must live in a way that they're submerged inside the water in a very physical sense we we also live on earth but you could see us and you could see the diversity i could see right now i see you and you and you and you and here i see a cup and here i see a mouse and here i see a safer and there i see a bookcase and there i see a window and a tree i see i see everything and i see everything as an independent existence in reality and altered says even though living organisms also depend on earth because there's no tree or there's no plant that doesn't receive its nurture from soil from the earth which is like the water he says ms but it grows out of the earth it doesn't stay submerged in earth you see it and you see it as something independent you have to know that it needs the soil for sure but it appears as a yesh especially you have these tall strong trees the same is true animals they also may need the earth everybody needs the earth without the earth we can't live the earth gives us food and nutrients and oxygen and nitrogen and so many other components that we need to live but we emerge from the earth independent we emerge from the earth as separate distinct realities that are visible um this is true even with trees that are always connected certainly all the other living organisms that are not even connected to the earth yes we have to live on our planet in a particular state we need the oxygen just like the fish needs to live inside the water for it to be able to have its source of life we are here on earth within our reality where we can have our oxygen but every single liver is absolutely visible and visible as something independent and self-contained although islam is this will explain what is the difference spiritually between the world of the sea and the world of dry land the world of concealment ahmadis gasia and the world of revelation what do we mean the bellatonia says we say about these two worlds what does it mean i'm gonna discuss some of this but now we'll understand it explains it begins with always looking at my own flesh the palsy says sorry i look out for my flesh i'll perceive god. what does it mean is the ability cognitive abilities and middles are the emotions that experience the sensations generally sequel is divided into three categories three cognitive abilities the middles are generally divided into seven various experiences of khasi guru teferes nuts and then they have three garments which are thoughts speech words and actions and they too are subdivided into many details generally we have a five aspect seijo we just divided the human soul into five categories there's something called seiko segal is our cognitive abilities sexual intellect ability to comprehend to reason me this me this would be called my emotional experiences which in many ways is part of my physical reality you know i can i the sensations and experiences the way they live in my body cycle could be abstract me this is actually affecting my feelings my sensations and then you have thoughts words and actions so it's five things they parallel five aspects of life called nephesh which parallel these five mice [Music] is and the truth is these these five categories exist on many different planes on many different levels higher and higher and yet higher using an expression of kahella's ecclesiastes every person has it in a way that he doesn't have that doesn't exist in his colleague every every person has their own five layers of nefer and you can't compare it to two everyone has their own type of available hashem their own soul one person serves hashem with a focus on this aspect he gives an example one person serves with clay sannefish with a tremendous yearning and desire other people in different ways you're asking what's the difference between seiko is the ability to conceive ideas mahshava is the process of thinking and the two are not the same requires isis or requires language it's the way the idea is articulated in language it's actual thinking about something and i can also think about something i don't understand so that's why mahashava and if i want to start thinking about asexual i need marshava that's what is just like speaking is the awareness of an idea the way i process that awareness is usually through thought but sometimes a person has an epiphany right the idea itself before it's articulated in language with the beginning of language beginning of letters discussed in tanya chapter 20. the same is true not only the soul and the body but even the soul on its own in ghanaian it's not just the body makes the difference every soul has its own five layers of nefer but there is one major difference between souls yes man you have souls that are in a state of alma desgalia meaning that all of their levels are seen as separate and in a revealed fashion all their experiences and functionalities and resources are called alma descasia which means they're completely submerged their very reality is submerged and so to speak nullified in their source which is called slave of calamity the encompassing light the kulaka makala khashov because in his presence everything else doesn't have independent significance it's like the water that covers over everything that's inside the water um is and this is where moshe came from moshe came from this state of love why was my name what does it say the daughter of parry named them because i drew him out of the water and forever that remains his name maisha masha he was taken out he was retrieved from the water now that's obviously a very significant event in his life but why does this become the eternal name of moshe this was actually the greatest definition of moshe even when he was on dry land he was still from the sea he was a amphibious creature spiritually speaking he came from the yam now you'll understand the deeper reason why moshe had a difficult time verbally communicating he had a heavy mouth as he complains tatra is his gallows because naturally the concept of dibor of speech and his godless revelation communication was not his forte it was not his thing it defied him yesterday because maisha comes from a completely different reality his state his natural state is bitter bemidji has been made that his whole machias is within the water so there's no communication deeber is based on his gallows i'm here and i'm communicating to you when i'm completely submerged in the water there's no sense of eye that could communicate and be revealed the sense of eye is completely bottle but mitzi is to its source commercial like martian says what are we much experienced himself as man what is the balatanya telling us he's explaining to us that there are two worlds two states of consciousness one is called alma desgalia alma disgus the metaphor the beautiful metaphor is yamanya basha when i come to the water i know that there's a whole world there but i don't see a whole world all i see is water in other words the water unifies and integrates everything that's beneath the water to the point that i only see the unity of the water if i go down if i go scuba diving if i spend time under the water and today people obviously we have developed resources for people to remain a long time under the water then i can gaze at the astounding diversity that exists there but from a perspective standing outside the water is only active there's only one us doesn't mean there's no diversity but all the diversity is unified in the water yeah basic alternative is the exact opposite you look at dry land and immediately the first thing your eye observes is diversity you're you you're you you you this is connected with the second difference that he said in yam if i extract it's organ it's living creatures i extract the fridge they die for them to live they have to remain concealed in the water we are bashar it's the exact opposite if you keep somebody in the earth khashoggi an animal you put it under the earth you take the tree you want to bury it in the earth it should stay there forever then you spell its death we need oxygen of course we have to be submerged in our oxygen but everyone is visible as an independent reality and even though we all need earth we call earth mother earth hakalayam and offer it says in kahelas we all dependent on that which grows to live we're all dependent on earth and that which comes from the earth we can't live for a moment without it true but nonetheless i'm not inside the earth and when is a person placed inside the earth khalilah after they pass away in other words what this what does what's what spells life on earth spells death in the sea and what equals life in the sea equals death on earth this this this way of contrasting that everyone said when he was sharing this idea in a minor it's not just different realities what's called life in alma descartes is called death in ahmed isgalia and conversely so the tree is connected to the earth and needs the earth and dependent on the earth but it's a visible reality what does all of this mean in life there's two ways of living there's two states of consciousness there's a state of ahmadis and this is on the shaman the way he puts it incredible words and all the details right there's a diversity of life but all you see is the water meaning it's a soul that experiences itself not as a separate reality but just as completely won and integrated with the source of life with hashem so this person's life there's complete oneness even though there's diversity but all you see is the water mean that's my the i is submerged in the source of life so there's no self-consciousness there's no sense of separateness there's no sense of i exist i don't exist reality exists hashem exists divinity exists the eye is inside the water you don't even see it because the very definition of the eye is the very definition of the eye is a conduit a channel for divine oneness so in ahmedas consider the vocabulary of i exist is a contradiction in terms not because i don't exist i actually exist in a deeper way but because the definition of existence there is not that i exist the definition of existence is enord movado exists the in-self exists and i am a conduit for the answer there's no sense of separateness this is your whole mathias is completely aligned completely doverk this absolute vegas to the point that you don't see yourself there's no sense of self-consciousness because there's no separateness what he means by the way it's talented matthias he could have just said shame talent their bottle in their source right the reason he says battalion bemidsius is because what he wants to say is there's a different type of bittle there's a bittle called bitter hayes and that's what he's saying here i'm not talking about bit later i nullify my ego so for example let's say i'm working for somebody who is very talented and very brilliant and very resourceful and i have a a loyalty a devotion it's like i i i i pledge allegiance to this person or to this government or there's this flag and i work for you and i'll i'm ready to surrender maybe my ideas or my plans are my expectations to your vision but there's still a sense of ahi and there could still be separateness and there could be resentment and to the point that i one day will quit that's called bitter hayes in other words i take my yesh and i'm a vital and i surrender it so dalton says we're not talking about that we're talking about bitter bemidsis the bitter is in your home at siest not just in your yash i don't just surrender my ego to you that's not what we're talking about bittobermecia says my whole existence is one i don't see my existence as separate from hashem and it's not about words it's an experience when i'm an alma disgusting there's no ego not because i'm fighting my ego not because i'm i'm suppressing my ego not because i'm denying my ego not because i'm trying to you know be holy no no nothing to do with that alma disgust is a real place of complete attachment it's like the fish in the water i can't fake it somebody says i want to become a fish tomorrow okay go under the water you can't live you have to understand the the creature of ahmadis of amadeus can't live in alma disgusting and the creature of alma discards he can't live in alma this guy take a fish and say come i'm going to take you to dry i'm going to show you how beautiful here let me give you a tour of manhattan let me give you a tour of big ben let me give you a tour of sacramento yeah let me give you a tour of paris let's go to the eiffel towers the fish says taiva do me a favor tominshkinatovis let's stay in the mikvah the best place stay in the mikvah that's what some people do they just stay in the mikva all day you know why they want to be in alma disgust so you thought your friends stay in the mikvah day was the time but the real reason is that they sense this is alma discuss what it's what's the idea of going to the mikvah by the way what's the idea i go into the water i put my head in boom okay you're good you're pure what's the idea a person is tummy a man a woman you go to the mikveh you come out you're good what happened it's not about hygiene we know that right you can take a shower in your house you'll be clean sometimes it's cleaner than a mix of mikvehs men's mikvehs but this is one of the fundamentals in toyota mitzvahs on the month on the monthly basis the woman goes to the mikvah and after she comes out of the mikvah now intimacy is allowed and encouraged what happened what's the concept mikvez alma discussion if one strand of here is out of the water if a pinky is out of the water it's not good go again into the mikka why what's a joke so some here was out of the mikvah so there was a hat there was something separating a part of my body from the water and the water didn't penetrate it big deal but like relax it's moira dick based on this mimer because if one nail or one strand of hair is protruding out of the water it's already not almond the definition of almond is mean that you're in a space that's completely underwater if there's one percent that's out of the water it means even the rest even the 99 percent is not really underwater meanwhile my initial see you is the ability to be able to become completely comfortable and bitter to be able to divest myself from all the layers of subconscious self-consciousness which is not easy and to become submerged in that reality of mayam alma disgust and if i would remain under the mikro for too long i wouldn't be able to live in other words i'm entering essentially into a space of death and therefore i have to come out after a few seconds i'm entering into a place where the eye can't continue to exist and from there i could reinvent myself and find my purity and holiness and innocence a place that's beneath tuma but that process going through the mikhail is not so simple my friends the word tavila the middlerabber writes the word tavila is the same letters like ha bitl hey baez yud teslaman ha bitl the mittler ever writes that if somebody goes to the mikvah without the kavanagh of bittel they didn't fulfill their obligation he doesn't mean halogenically halal you did he writes this not on the safer side you didn't really experience what mikv is and the word mikvah also means hope israel it's a mikvah and it's hope because this is the hope of this is the mikv of a person so who's my moisture mushy see you masha always lives in the water moisture's mathias is a conduit foreign self he's always attached he's not only attached he's battled by mathias his home it sees there's no eye utifier is the vartay it's a different type of mathias it's not i don't exist i exist as a conduit as a manifestation of god's existence that's who i am i am the light of hashem there's no separateness there's no jacobsen with my own name with my own identity with my own struggles with my own complexities with my own virtues with my own vices i'm not busy with myself not because i don't exist that's what he says but the difference is in alma there's galia i love these words you can see this is nefer just like is a fish and here's another type of fish here's the carp and here's the tuna and here's the hecht and here's the chilean sea bass and here's the turbo i mean i'm saying the kosher ones you could see need madregus you could see the levels the states of consciousness each one is separate it's self-contained and it's revealed it has expression it has mana it's manifested that's how this gallia is there's a world of self-consciousness i may know that i come from the i lead the earth i say that i know that i come from hashem at least on some level i believe it i could understand it a little bit but what's my experience my experience is one of separateness who are we that's the question are we creatures of alma descassio are we creatures of ahmed esgalia now you understand why moshe can't speak kratpa what does speech mean speech always is based on self-assertion i'm here and i want to communicate to you i want to reveal my ideas my thoughts to you when maesha naturally is i'm not part of the world of communication because communication by definition means that i am in a certain there's a certain self-containment there's a certain independence and now i am communicating to you speech and his gallows requires that prerequisite experience of i if my eye is wounded it's very hard for me to communicate but in this case it's much deeper than that it's not my eye is wounded if my eye is submerged so i say the nach namah masha says hashem says go to paris says me and nike i don't have an anointing me and i am i i'm in the water not because i'm a weak person i'm insignificant i'm a smart i'm a loser it's not coming from weakness sometimes a person is i'm so shy i'm so self-conscious over there i'm not submerged i'm even more self-aware i'm sometimes so shy and i'm embarrassed that's not almo disgusting that so ahmed is galia that i don't feel connected to anything i don't feel connected to infinity i feel like alone in the world and everybody's going to judge me by myself it was the exact opposite he never emerged from the water there was no sense of self to be able to say i'm going to be magala myself if you want me to be magala myself kill me and that's what he says at the end and baloise is killing me her gaining take a fish out of water cup fish show off your colors go give a speech you're going to kill me put me back in the water i don't want to be visible here it's not i don't want to be visible i can't be visible my mitzi is is bitter his mathias is brittle that's bitter bermudzias his very mitchies is bitterly understandable he says very different that is his mathias and any this is this is subtle ideas you have to understand bitter doesn't mean here you're obliterated bittel means you're mathias is bitter the heist is real what bitter macias is not that you're somebody destroys you that's not bitter bitter means the definition of your mathias is bitter ah that's different that is your mathias what is your reality made up of what is your reality made up of your reality made up of a la cos eine valde that is your reality that's your mathias it's a different mathias that's how marcia can speak bitterbermitzius is the ultimate connection that's what we call bitter alignment the ultimate alignment but alignment in a way that there's no eye that's visible because the entire eye is submerged my mid-sea is like the fish the fish exists very nicely and very happily the fish is very fine only when it's invisible the moment you force the fish to be visible what do you do you kill it and that's the void of ahmadis methi is for alma disgusting is death you want me to be visible you're killing me the me can only exist in invisibility in connection the moment you take me out of the source of life and you want me to be conspicuous it's death it's not that ahmadis kasia is busy fighting temptation and fighting tyves and fighting gaivey no alma disgusting means you live in a world you live in a reality in a state of consciousness where if i become visible it spells the end of my life the definition of my existence of my consciousness of my free use is that i'm in the water and you only see the water almodes scalia is an opposite existence over here my existence is defined by my assertiveness by the eye yeah what are the therapists like saying their pain to their patients what are they like saying to their patients you have to realize that you exist and you have needs and you can be honest about your needs and your needs have to be met the truth is these are two now listen to this these are two experiences in a person's life two very very powerful experiences today some psychologists and therapists are talking a lot about this but here you have a mimer 1803 that's more than two hundred years ago with alternate says it there are two opposite driving forces in a person's life our need for attachment and our need to be self-contained my need for attachment is i need to feel connected loitoyve you need a filled vegas on the other hand i also need to feel like me i can't feel like you it's these two components that maybe define much of the challenge of the human brain in developing a healthy sense of self vis-a-vis the world or as one of our chevron says there is attachment the need for attachment and the need for authenticity that tension is the tension of ahmadis galia alma di my authenticity is my attachment alma disgusting that's moisha you can't understand moshe if you don't understand this my saying i'm not made to speak not because he's shy not because he's insecure because for him speech is a spiritual death sentence it's compromising his integrity it's compromising his source of life it's compromising everything he is because who is he you know what he is he is non-existence he that's who he is that's his mathias is bitter his existence is made of not it's not made of yes i can't explain it better than that his existence is made up of of not that's his existence you take him to a place of bitter he comes to life you take him to a place of yeshus he's like i can't live here sorry and and and the truth is the more you learn siddhis the more you could relate to this where where i don't exist i exist and where i exist i'm not sure i exist without citizens it's fakert you have to exist the more you exist the more you exist the more bitter the less existence when you really you learn seriously it's the other way around when you're not in a state of existence you're existing much more because you're not detached you're not disconnected you're not struggling for oxygen you're just submerged in the source you're not busy with the burdens of self-consciousness there's a lightness of being you're not carrying the burden of yesh you're part of ayan that's almost disgusting but i can't fake it if i'm from america mama disgust if i'm not i'm not if you're from ahmadis galia you have to acknowledge your from ahmadis that's what can happen to somebody you learn all this and say okay i'm from alba discuss you're not you're not you have to align yourself with alma discuss you have to know about ahmadis it's very important but you're not on the discussion the second line from the top he says there are souls that are from alma desgali which means their diversity of levels are conspicuous as separate levels in a revealed way in other words they and others could see their madregus mufradin each level is separate and distinct this is called spiritual biodiversity because everything is beginning everything is in his gallows and in a revealed space this is the head and this is the stomach and this is the arm and this is the leg and this is nephresh say everything has its space this is biodiversity and you have to be loyal to it in fact the halakhas of kill ayam are based on respecting the space and the boundaries you know all the laches of kalayam no hybrids right whether it's in clothes whether it's in plants whether it's in seeds and trees and fruits killiam is this concept shatnas it's respecting the rambam explains this explains this it's respecting the integrity and the boundaries of every creature the issues of cross-breeding the issues of castration this is all in that realm of respecting boundaries this is all a property of ahmadis the madregas are seen as separate why are they separate because they're business galas they're revealed doesn't mean they're revealed their identity emerges so you are not me and i am not you as the katsuki rebbe says if i am i because you are you and you are you because i am i then i am not i and you are not you that's ahmadis galia separateness becomes an essential property of existence if you tell the tree just be like the other tree you're all the same we're all one if we're all one and we nullify our diversity the world our planet can't exist just like the limbs of the body every limb has its own shape its own organ its own distinct identity that's an almond is galia and alma descarcia it's like the fetus in the womb the fetus in the womb all you see is the mother the fetus the gemara says the fetus is an extension of the mother the fetus is submerged in the amniotic sac which is a mikveh for nine months we spend time in a mikvah that's why we like going back to the mecca i'm explaining why some people live in the mikvah all day or at least all morning they want to go back to their fetal uh positions now somebody says you keep on saying the word alignment or connection connection is when two separate things must have be connected but that's not bitter matzias i would think there's no separation in bitter matzias or is that bitter hayes excellent question you're right connection is more associated with bitter hayes beethoven is not just i'm connected the word for it is more dvacus i am connected to the point that the i ceases to exist as separate and it's not it ceases to exist it look hella doesn't exist it doesn't emerge it didn't emerge from a water state of being and that's what the daughter of paris understood even when he walked dry land he remained in the water he was a person of water that's why maisha was the humblest person that's why moshe naturally could not speak that's why martial says and that's why moisture says i can't go to paradise i'm not this person me or no a new da hair and me and there's no one noisy here first taster baron i have concealed your words in my heart because i don't want to sin to you so the question is by not speaking you're not going to sin and when you speak you sin and the answer of course is that when you're living in a state of alma di words become a sin not because you're trying to sin but because words compromise your source of life it becomes it becomes a sin points out the difference between what moisture said to what abroad you see the difference afar is alma desgalia ma is kasia it's much deeper that's my s that's that was the mile in my you say that the sea covers up the whole marine world but that is only from our perspective our land bound eyes in land-bound creatures this is opposite to the fish and the sea who see the marine world but cannot see our world on dry land it's only a matter of perspective limited by our reality yeah this is a metaphor this is a metaphor to understand from our perspective when we see the water we only see oneness you're right inside the water from their perspective there's diversity but we're talking from our experience water represents this one is and that's why we like going to the water why do people feel a special delight when they go to the water they go to the beach they go to the ocean even when you see a pond of water a lake a river it it brings some serenity to the soul because it reminds us of the cosmic mikvah it reminds us of the way we were before we were born it brings us black back into that serene place of complete oneness of completed vacuous of complete attachment subconsciously when you go to the water you go back to that inner space of oneness before you emerged and now you have to carry the burden of being this is pre-carrying the burden of being and that's very very pleasurable experience could you say that moisture was drawn out of water essentially represents what every child goes through because every child is submerged in the amniotic sac of water and birth draws them out through the birth canal out of that amniotic sac into dry land in fact in creation the land itself was created by drawing it out of the water that covered the earth that's what happens on day three hashem says let the water retreat and let earth emerge even our lower waters the seas were drawn out of the upper waters so this is a continuation of the process of extracting the hidden from the concealed and that becomes revealed the drawing out from the concealed and drawing out that which is concealed from that which conceals it is purification mikvah but the process is reversed from its raym they were drowned in other words they had to go into the water yet this is very very profound words what you're saying and i'm gonna reference the mimer we learned how somnath wanted that division between the higher water and the lower water yeah it's 100 true everything was water and dry land emerged from water on tuesday on monday the lower water was separated from the higher water so this is all a continuation of the process moisture is drawn out of water a baby is drawn out of water what is that that's the concept of going from hellum to gilly from a state of bitter matzias to a state of yesh from i in which is nothingness which is no thingness no thingness meaning i'm not defined as a thing i'm defined as infinity into thing-ness which is yesh that is the process of going from my email to my from my mtr bosch what was the marble what was the marble the marble was god's saying the experiment didn't work let's go back into the mikvah why did the marble happen for 40 days because of mikveh 40 saw toyota's new yacht the medal says that the marble was my imbam i am going back to the state in the beginning of creation where everything is water in other words everything is alma desgali there is no almadesgalya and that's the sourcely represents all of creation extracting the age from the iron the fish from the water the fetus from the womb the lower water from the higher water dry land from water it's extracting and developing a new reality you now let it squeeze right you're not going to squeeze a fruit on choppers and make juice you could squeeze it into a salad because when you're squeezing the liquid into the food it's like the food so you're taking out food from foods like cutting a potato but to to squeeze a fruit into liquid you're not allowed to it's called mapharic it's dash it's extracting one thing that was submerged in something else and it was invisible and you're extracting it and turning it into something new that's not on shabbos shabbos is alma descassio