Tisha B'Av: Hashem Really Wants You

this torah class is brought to you by torahanytime.com we're really hoping not to have to be here today we're hoping that last year when we put away our kenneth it was for the very last time we thought that finally this year was going to be the year this year was it we thought finally the gula was going to come and yet here we are again of our cuts we continue on in this sorry state of life in dulles who can locate the scribe aye safer who can locate the analyst who can possibly fully describe the extent of the pain the overwhelming burden of suffering the bottomless grief that has been brought upon our people we look for words we look for expressions to capture the tragic saga of our history but there are no words out there we go back in time june 30th the year 1680 the celebration of the marriage of king charles ii and marie louise of orleans france one of the most suspicious weddings in history they decided to celebrate in the grandest form that a wedding was ever celebrated so a magnificent auto defeat was held in madrid gathering inquisition victims from all over spain a 17 year old girl named francisco negiera was one of the 18 moranos condemned to death as was the custom the mournful procession of terrified victims and holy clergymen snaked its way through the streets past multitudes of joyous onlookers the procession enters the main square where pyres have been prepared for the execution this was how the king and queen would get married witnessing the torture of 18 jews the king the queen hundreds of dignitaries were seated all around the public square suddenly the voice of a young girl rang out breaking their eerie silence have mercy madame queen how can i renounce the faith that i drank in with my mother's milk the young girls cry should have pierced the mountain the stone but there was no response at all from the holy catholic majesties they sat on their thrones impassively no reaction the ceremony proceeded charles ii took the oath to annihilate the enemies of the church this would be his promise for marriage to aid the inquisition how is he makadesh's wife by lighting the pyre by lighting the fire with his own hands the king and queen watched with hearts of stone until francisca and another 18 muranos including a 60 year old widow two daughters a son-in-law were entirely consumed by flames and their bodies reduced to ashes this is one little snid bit of our history this is the story this captures it we sit on the floor we mourn but we're dead end we don't feel it we can't express it says if only my head was water and my eyes the fountain of tears the fk i would cry day and night for the slain of my people i recently came across an article written by a survivor holocaust survivor in a book entitled theological and halachic reflections on the holocaust the article gives a vivid first-hand account of the worst so ghetto uprising first time they had ever seen this article it was written by a great rav and sadik who's in his high 90s his name is murdoch gladstein shalita the abundance to watch over him he happens to be my grandfather it's an article i had never seen before i came across it about a month ago he writes his first hand account of the warsaw ghetto uprising he says [Applause] i am the man that has seen the affliction of my people i am the victim and i am the witness i saw the warsaw ghetto with thousands of skeletons extending their bony arms as if begging for mercy and life i saw the word so ghetto with corpses their faces distorted swollen their eyes wide open skulls crushed pools of blood rivers of blood the blood of my brothers the blood of my sisters our fathers and mothers no imagination no matter how daring could ever conceive of anything we saw or lived through no language has ever been created to describe the slaughter of european jury then i found another article that my grandfather wrote in yiddish in 1997 other aleph he writes about the indescribable spiritual heroism of the survivors he says it is the deepest desire of the jew not just to live holy but to die holy that of all the things there are to dive in for the one that a jew needs to put the most emphasis on is to be fed to kevin israel a person more than anything else should be mispalo that at the end of time he should be zaika to be interred with other jews writes my grandfather the senior rava varsha revitalized the vice chairman of the algorithm of poland may the republic shall never forget him because when the nazis gathered up all the jews he was afraid he would not be zoysia to cover israel so he makes a mad dash to the german guard to be shot which was a clear act of suicide in order to ensure that he would be zeissa to cover israel we were hauled to forced labor camps the camp of beijing we labored there under the most brutal condition in the bitter winter in the early morning darkness freezing temperature we had to perform back breaking labor what gave us the mysterious strength and courage to live to breathe to continue on how is it possible right to my grandfather lulay rashford if it weren't for the torah i would have been lost we would stand together with our dear unforgettable friends the nephews of ramanakam zamba hashem kendama we stood at night ichsha mayor zemba avroom chozemba the rabbanima varsha rav david shapiro ripshim and stockheimer we would gather together with talmide and discuss torah in those dismal nights during the dark elos it was the gemara it was the talmud babli that these were able to recite bow power that served as the naruto an eternal light to illuminate a future into their hearts what was the aftermath of the warsaw ghetto uprising writes my grandfather it was the gehenna of all gehennas on that day we saw men women children being led to the base hazrefa we suffered most when we saw the children who either accompanied by their mothers or walking alone and within moments their lives were snuffed out the yells of the women the weeping of the children the cries of despair and misery begging for god's mercy god's vengeance screaming out kale nikomo sofia these cries haunt me until this day writes my grandfather and here we are 60 years later 2014. can we dare ask the question can we dare ask why did it happen why was the third of european jewry decimated not just by the nazis not by the german people america england they're accomplices to the crime they stood by mutely can we dare ask why i am not prepared to give reasons this morning or to offer explanations but if you're searching for meaning if you want to know what could we take out of it i have something very important to say i'd like to share with you a very personal thought and it's a thought that i've been feeling ever since i read this article about a month ago and it's a thought that's been intensifying in this last week right before tishbo i'm going to share with you one last story story i heard when i was a kid and i honestly completely forgot about it until i read this article my grandfather writes from radom we were transported to dakao daka was the emek it was the valley of weak weeping of the malacha of the germans killings every day total humiliation in the eyes of the germans my dear brother heinous my grandfather was together with his brother hannah my dear brother hinok and i were kicked and chased to the crematoria at the doorstep of the bay satsrayfa the house of burning where tens of thousands of jews were choking for the most shocking convulsions right before our eyes my brother says i'm going to die even before i get inside i'm going to choke i need water my grandfather writes he responded it's better without water so that death will relieve us of our pain sooner with one foot in the basasarefa we were inches and moments from the world of truth a heavenly miracle occurred standing at the threshold of death as if out of nowhere an ss officer appears he grabs both of us by the collar he yanks us out and in a commanding voice he says you're capable of work and he dragged us away this godly wonder will remain in our memories forever where was the rebuttal in the holocaust people asked where was god i'll tell you where he was he was at the doorstep he was at the threshold and he yanked my grandfather out in the moment's time he miraculously saved him and many people could leave it just as that but a very simple thought occurred to me that it wasn't only my grandfather that the rebounder saw him pulled out of the gas chamber because had the rebound so i'm not saved him i would not be here today i would not be i would be a potential that never came to be the reborn islam pulled out my grandfather he rescued my father diribanism pulled me out of the gas chambers the rebound islam pulled out my children he saved us they banished them saved us he must have really wanted us he wanted us and you know something if you're sitting in the room today then the revenge some rescued you too he wanted you he rescued you many times looking been looking out for you for hundreds of years people say if only i would see a miracle that would really boost my beliefs that would really fortify my ammuna if only i could see the splitting of the amsoil then my amuno would be the ironclad you want to see a miracle you want to see a miracle greater than kris yamsov look around in the show look at the face of another jew look at the face of a yid a yin in 2014 is the greatest miracle you will ever see in your life if you only know how the banner banishing has been looking out for you for 3 300 years if you think about it 3 300 years ago all of our ancestors were in egypt eighty percent of our people perished but the ribbon islam saved your direct ancestor so that you could be here today corbin that is the death toll was enormous hundreds of thousands of jews were murdered but the rebounder so islam wanted you so he pulled you out he saved your grandfather he saved your great grandfather so that you could be here today the death toll at corbin maliciani was staggering josephus writes that the number of those who perished or were slaughtered by the sword was 1.1 million and after that the romans hunted down every single jew that they could find but the rebelsham wanted you so he saved your direct ancestors during the crusades thousands of jews were massacred but three banisham wanted you 200 000 jews were forcibly converted in spain but the abundant was looking out for you he navigated you through it 1492 300 000 jews expelled from spain thirty thousand killed so miniski programs three bars some spared you so that you could be here today for the last thirty three hundred years the rebellion was looking out for you your immediate ancestors were rescued time and again they were rescued from the holocaust for a jew to be here today is not statistically unlikely it's not highly improbable it's downright impossible it's an open miracle of the highest proportions of yaakov how can the heretic not be utterly ashamed if they analyze our situation in the world anna after everything that happened to us he says i swear he says he takes an oath his body and even a fly sailor now when i think about these words godzilla etzly sir they are much greater to me mikhail nissin the nephilis hashemis barack lavoiseno i swear the jew the existence of a jew is greater than kriyasyam so kris yamsu is nothing compared to the miraculous nature of a jew and if yankovin was astonished by the wonder of a jew in the 18th century can we even begin to imagine what he would say about the miraculous nature of the jew in 2014 perhaps he may say it's an s shame called malachubaria even an angel couldn't comprehend and think about it this great miracle this greatest miracle in history would rebel shall make it for he made it for you wants you he wants your tafilah he wants your torah he wants your mitzvahs he has a lot invested in you there is nothing the ibaneshan has invested himself in more in the history of the world than you three banished loyola has saved you from egypt and by ashami crusades inquisition pogroms the crematoria making miracle after miracle just so you can mirror can any generation more than ours say with more feeling i have a rabbi of tanoa hashem volcano with an exceedingly abundant mercy you have had mercy on us and perhaps we can be so daring and bold to suggest and we often wonder and look how the time raises the question then how are we in this lowly generation going to bring mashiach couldn't do it the generation of david couldn't do it not naveem not yuri or not you shall not yes completely impoverished spiritually where he asked me they asked me orphan from torah knowledge do we even know one black gemara are you kidding if they couldn't bring mashiach we're going to bring mashiach can we be so daring to say that no we have the power we have the kayak because never has a jew had more value in the eyes of the republic shalilam than a jew living today do you know how much the ibanisham has invested in you you know how many miracles we bunched on how to perform you know how we had to turn over the world so that you could be here today why for us why us we don't know why us but for the last thirty three hundred years tribal has been looking after us because he wants you he wants your torah he wants you and mitzvahs he wants your tafila he wants you to cry out to him to bring mashiach for the last 3 300 years three bundesliga has been investing in you so while we sit in the floor and mourn and cry for the tragedies of our history at the same time our hearts are ennobled our hearts are aflame because it is our generation that has been entrusted with the most important job in history to bring the goulash leima may this tishma be bring the end to all jewish suffering amen you've just experienced another torah class brought to you by torahanytime.com