Tisha B'av 2025/5785 - Rabbi Yaakov Glasser

I want to acknowge that our uh kinos are sponsored memory of Mark Brand and all of their family members who were killed in the show up. Also want to acknowledge those that are joining making that accessible. One that is felt not only in the sentiment of the day, not only in the emotionality of the but one that is literally felt has to where it's filling until after. But what is fascinating and this iconic aspect of the projection of our sense of pride in our this embracing when we bring ourselves before every single morning and we that brings us before every single morning we find ourselves Just having a technical >> try one more time. >> Is that better? >> Okay. that for most of Cla Israel we find our and for most of us we will not put on fill in until the very very final moments of tishabuff and it's so hard to understand that something that contains within it the essence of who we are the essence of everything that cla fought for over the course of our Jewish history over everything that we remember becomes void and absent and missing from the entire moments of over the course of tishab and ravulson in his safer explains the following already at the end of the day at mka but it's such a void to walk into a room even on tishab even sitting on the floor but to see cla on our minds. Why would Fuin be moved towards the end of the day? And he answers so beautifully via Mishum. He explains Rev Wolfin the reason we're not wearing fill in till the very final moments of tishov. The reason we're not wearing fill in this when we connect with the inner soul of what fillain's all about. The reason we don't wear fill in the entirety of the day of tishab is because there are other days until the very last moments of tishab we hold on to the hope we hold on to the aspiration that perhaps today will not Jewish people perhaps today will not be a day that is devoid of fillin because we are hesitant in the abyss of our aos but today will be a hope and desire we're not wearing fillin this morning Because today may be a yantiff. Today may be a day of celebration. We could read the hauros of your moani. We could read a we could recite kinos. We could emote the inner consternation generation as recently as last night to see the horrific images of the hostages in god history. But at the same time synthesized within that reality, it is also a day of hope. A feeling that we all bring to Ishabove right now in this year in 5785. This has been a year since last tish with the pain and the suffering that cloud Israel has experienced with all of the moments of those day of deep tishov and it's been a year that's brought forth some of the most painful moments imaginable for cl Israel throughout our historic saving the Jewish people. It has been a year where we have experienced the heroism, the courage, the tenacity. It's been a year where when the phone buzzes with an alert, you absolutely never know what you're going to open. Are you going to open I'm Israel peeking out in a manner that is so revealed and so experienced and so tense and then returning is imaginable. And the truth is that this pattern of Jewish history that we are experiencing even though it feels so contradict comes to Abrau and he says to him I want to build a people from you. I want to build a nation from you. who is engaged, a creator who is constantly within the realities of the unfolding historical narratives of humanity and ideals of the ribol are all about and you're going to have to build a lifestyle one that embodies the elevation of andeshu tells au so who wouldn't want to sign on for that so au says toesh we're in of course we're You have to know that part of this journey is that it is not linear. It is not be strangers. You're going to be strangers because you will be existing within a world that stands in such contradistinctions is the diminishing reality of values in the societies around us. in the jealousy that ends up forming and surfacing on this puk interpreting the redundancy of the phrase yoa. You should surely know that I'm also going to gather youon. You should know that I'm going to pledge you out like a mashko says the medish. You should know that you're going to be enslaved. But you have to know is the medish itself redundant. Why does the media say you should know that you will ultimately experience a redemption? says with these two words that presented to our redemption and the golos is formulated and conjugated in into the future. Here's what the Maral is saying in interpreting this this medish minolus is more than just a delineation that characterizes the various stations of Jewish history as we are going to experience them. What is going to be that from within what you experience in the moment from within the pain from within the war from within the consternation from and chuva that will make you worthy of of the redemption itself that the fact that we feel and on the other hand we watched Baraku knock hundreds of missiles out of the air that is the Brisbane's epic encounter with Asov with the enemies of the what would become the enemies of the Jewish people it's complicated what time Davin Mirev depends on the shul it depends on your orientation toward my was an early minion that the sun went down when it didn't really go down I remember our family spent a shabas together one of so their manim are a little bit different than the young Israel's manim which are a little bit different than everyone else's manim over for what we thought would be And we walked into, you know, Rifa of Khazar of Min. So when the minion was over, I went up to the I guess it was the RV or the Reba, whatever. I said just I I have to explain it to me. I just I have to understand like what's shot with this? Give me the Maramakum. Just give it to me. I'll I'll put it in the in the sheets and then I'll be happy. And he quoted I think he was quoting the sarba ala you're very good at turning you know enjoyment and ong into consternation and suffering by the we turn lila yakovu prepares for this encounter with and rashi tells us it wasn't really night what does it mean it wasn't What it means is that our encounters with the world of As is all mu it is all mixed up. It is all part of one incomprehensible combination. Not only does it reflect itself in the original covenant with Abraham, not only in Yakov's confrontation, but in the Kurbanas itself, which the Gimash to the world of the Keshakim, what do they discover? Matsuim, they find the Kuim also possesses within its consuming fire the sparks of potential to illuminate a new reality. the goodness in each other to see something bigger than the points of conflict in each other. The crew of him understood that in the crucible of destru understood that so often within the world of Kurban we also encounter such a world of strength and this reality of the Jewish people of what we experience this year. Rowey Klene was born and raised in Ranana. His parents were Holocaust DF as a paratrooper. In 2002, he met his future wife Sara. And we have the letter that he wrote floor the next reality of the Jewish people coming from such ashes of destruction. Israel is this is how he's communicating his thoughts and sentiments in anticipation of marrying his have a plan. No, his thoughts, his sentiment, his focus in building his home is on them is on their values. Whoever the couple moves to to the West Bank and builds a home in the Golani and they were in southern Lebanon and Hezbollah terrorists attack their most icing his life for the sake of his soldiers. And in the last seconds of his life, he musters the strength to scream shim. A safer that was put together by his friends in Rayim with comments that he had on various suggest. Whether or not we relate to weapons as a tit or as a gay are weapons considered an adornment like how can you view a weapon an instrument of death and destruction yes an instrument of defense but also an instrument that is used in order here honey I didn't get you earrings for yontiff I got you a gun or a knife I don't think that would go over so well so something that is adorned with a radiating sense of beauty external to the individual. beautiful jewelry has the capacity to reveal and the inner strength that exists within the Jewish people the in into the world that courage and that bravery that simmers within the soul and the body of a Jewish soul of the day the persecution and the gullus and the gula. It is all wrapped up in one. And the instruments that sometimes have to contend with and fight of what it means to embrace peoplehood of amus. 19 years later, a couple of weeks ago, also handed his Tanakh and his weapon. Also handed the confidence and the love of the Jewish people to be There is a family that our shul is incredibly connected with. If you recall last year on tiship of the faon on October 7th, Halon was a combat soldier and he was stationed at the Sufa outpost to hold off the terrorists from penetrating the Yeshu the base. And with his alertness, he noticed that they were also firing through holes in the concrete barracks. until there was no more strength and one of them shot and hal fell. This is a family that has experienced enormous pain. This year they couldn't make it here to Payic. So a few weeks ago was the assistant director of camp Moshava for many years. She grew up in camp and Hollow grew up in the camp and so his to leave without the chance to see them. And as we're talking, as constantly happens, we discover additional points of connection. Who was your uncle's name? What was his name? She told me his name. Rabbi Natan Greenberg. I said, Rabbi Natan Greenberg. He was the NCSY educational director when Ruth and I were in NCSY. We knew him very well. I used to learn with him every Shabas afternoon. The Sadones are building a horse ranch that helps children that don't succeed initially in school by giving them the opportunity to be able to me that at one of their fundraisers they had a parlor meeting in Erit Israel and a whole bunch of friends of Hal came to the parlor meeting. Hallel Sadon was his friend was his comrade. how he and Hallel rode the horses together and found their inner confidence together in this space and being able to create an opportunity for others to be able to experience similar evolution was something that he wanted to go and he had his goal o Gruber from Talminash showed up at this parlor meeting Oz's parents posted the letter on the door of the Shiva house that everyone who comes through this Shiva house, the kesh Akdashim, who comes through for the darkness of my should the ambitions and aspirations of their holy the world of unity. that we should understand what it means. Tamir their neck as she and her husband sat at the teasbah the oath that is taken by the soldiers an oath then even to give my life to Israel ways she was also at the ceremony of hal and all of the sudden in in the middle of the swearing in a candle in memory of halal. And she writes that that actually shook her in terms of the meaning of these words that all of the sudden these words have real meaning for me. The team spirit is so strong while the dedication and send sons that we love so much. So much excitement and joy with Tamir and his way. So much sadness and longing and the void in the future of Israel as a whole in these crazy times. This time we got VIP seats for the whole family. And we have the front row seat so no one is befell from the NA brigade in this war. Tamiri, our champion. We are so proud of you and we love you. He's on page 195 in the kinos and it begins has our entire recitation of kinos today begin counterintuitively not with a word that captures and depicts the kinetic energy and movement of destruction. Shas means our joy has ceased. Suru many And our enemies have said such a actualization of these words as we look around the world and we see the focus on the Jewish people realities of the Jewish people is terror rewarded supported validated tolerated from our cave from spaces that we counted as nations that we imagine to share in some of the values functional and corrupt conception of what is expected and of what is right. Rab Salvich would explain place on Mo Shabas. Rab Salvich explained that the says in the Torah, how is that possible? It's already shabas. So shavas says there rashi explains he doesn't need the mymanim.com with the six opinions on the top. The moment that shabas begins there's no confusion. There's an immediacy to the start of shabas. Not for us we vamp to shabas. There we have a pathway there. The rebel knows exactly when shabas begins and therefore that's says there explains that the kurban came in a manner that had a certain sense of unanticipated erupt shadowing experiences and events and moments that predicted it. It's not because there were not nim that told us it was coming area of Gaza. It was not because there was no one screaming that maybe the collapse of Akus and the Jewish people had the potential to have cat the sense that we got this. Everything's okay. We become impervious to any sense of and the terror is unleashed. It comes as shas. It comes as a surprise. It comes as a shock. And for a few minutes and that is a point of contrast between the way we describe Kurban and Gulos and with a terror comes when a missile lands and slams into the home of someone and a family is ended to the experience of redemption of Gulah. And they saw the rise of the shakar of the morning that was happening in this valley of the light comes for the Jewish people. In the beginning it comes little by little. about redemption about gula that number one just like the dawn is gradual doesn't just turn on the lights moves as part of our unfolding destiny and just like if you're sitting outside and you're watching a sunrise the world is not because a shakar is not Something that's apparent to everyone at the outset that very often even as that sun comes up if you're looking in this direction you but after a matter of time the environment becomes so saturated with illumination that suddenly everyone appreciates the real darkness and some are already privileged to begin to see the rising light but the inevitable as such a beautiful radiating world of light and we have that with the pain and tragedy of darkness and his final point relates to what is a well-known concept that is explicated. Agam Ber was supposed to be stationed at Karim Shalom and at the last moment they changed her assign and the very next day that she arrived at this base as an observer at Nakalos she was violently abducted. They asked us what it was and they gave it to us and we used it in our captivity. She describes how they celebrated the khagim last night, this past night, tishab this year, she described how exactly one year ago on the night of tishabove, she exile and help us grow that the Jewish people have faced catastrophes that would have wiped out most nations. Yet we endure and prayed, but they never surrendered to fear or victimhood. They knew they had a purpose. Every devastation eventually read led me never gave into despair. I was kidnapped simply for being Jewish. I risk my life to hold on to who I am. I faced darkness of captivity into the soul of a Jew. We learned the Hebrew date, the sixth of Av. And from that we stayed part of our people's journey. That means when we were sitting in this room one year ago on the floor after taking our to cow pill and all these things were sitting on the floor and we're trying to mourn the bay mikdash and a little cracks here a little thing there and she describes that even underground we stayed part of our people's journey every by strengthening our identity reconnecting with our roots. The hatred against us isn't logical or intellectual. Our generation is living through a def. That's the victory. And above all, we must stand for the release of the hostages and to bring them home. Our most basic moral nagam is a phenomenal young woman. It's the 80th anniversary of the liberation of Awitz. And there was a 76-y old man named Yitzkak Bearing whose father Mut had survived the Holocaust came to Israel including Yitzk and Yitzk recounted how his father determined and she was gifted this very very old violin that belonged to this Jewish musician. ition who was murdered in the Holocaust. Israeli delegation of former captives, relatives of victims of kamas marking the 80 years world of Kim Kima. This is the world of it takes a long time from a violin to make its way from a Polish orchestra. This is for us sitting on the floor on tishabove itself sitting without our fill in hoping and yearning believe it or not that we to know that a keshbaru is with us and to acknowledge and confront the tragedies of Jewish history to see the darkness on one side of the that are carrying us forward. Continue with Kinov. That's awesome. Also, manner that we don't usually evoke in our conversation and engagement with how could you rush your wrath running ruining your loyal people at the hands of Rome. and not remember the covenant with Abra this tantrum of faith. How could you scorn us with your scorn is the concept of the Garanos already wonders what should be made when a person just like we make on good things that happen we make on bad things that happen my shame what does that mean and the Garra entertains for a fleeting moment that elillude any of us elude Mosherenu and even elude the rabbis who could inter knowledge that reality in the Garra says that's impossible. The human condition cannot tolerate an authent to be an expression of human appreciation for's presence in this world. That's why we make before we eat food when we see a natural one. Sometimes it takes a lot to figure out exactly how to be as precise as possible with that inner sense. And anyone who's been learning knows exactly what I'm talking about. So then the Garra questions then what is the parallel to the experience of elation the experience of and the Garra says in our life that we encounter when we are in moments of and joy we have to bring forward that before we tear that ka before we acknowledge that something really has been ripped from us we make a braha cry out on tishabove from a place of deep consternation from a place of deep pain and allow just the RV writes that it's your who is the mater for all of this and he is madesh that me for the ha Torah so he could hear the words of your moan novi and by internalizing those sentiments and those experiences is we can but what's fascinating about the kon is that the refrain that comes each and every paragraph is the phrase lanu doesn't just mean the entirety of the Jewish people lanu means us and the shalom remember and in their tragedy from the very first moments of mitim when the rebal comes to moherenu from within the thorn burn bush. So it could be that with our consciousness and with our words that we are declaring and in on some level that we're not turning to you from gulos to your kingdom on eye and saying withah how could you do this? We're turning to you s and that's the that's the sentiment that we're trying to reach. There is a notion in yahadus some spiritual deficit maybe lashhara maybe other things there's a very long list of things you could get soras from we know the mits is the nega that's on the individual's body does that reach the threshold of requirements in order to be considered the if a person contracts a soras that is so is covering the entirety of his body to such an individual is to of the body that the is that the individual is explains the ibzra message to the individual that there's something wrong here and you have a choice You could continue to indulge the rhythm of your life and you can ultimately make a change and as a result elevate yourself in sanctity. But writes the ibanzra when the mitsas of the pain and all of the shortcomings are manifest in the entirety of the individual the entirety of the person. There's no choice. There are no multiple challenge on the landscape of Jewish history. And already from the Brisbar, we're told we're going to go through suffering moments where we feel like the kufo October 8th. It was hard to see any hope, any light, any any. And they're not defined by statistics or by casualty counts, but by the suffocating grip that they place on the very soul of our people. counterintuitive truth that sometimes when we something happens up to the world of who the safer written by Rava son David explains in the Garra that we quoted earlier Yuma the Garuma says that the Torah depicts the krim in opposite directions in two different contexts one time the Torah says the cru face away meet with the expectations of Torah and mit when we are living the ideals of the rebon the cru face each other and when our conduct and our sin to the in the aftermath in the echo of all of the that created the foundation and the context for one and yet they're hugging and explains David he writes He writes that often in Jewish history when we hit that bottom floor the opposite we encounter the phenomenon of they knew that if Titus is in the room it's over there's nowhere there were remarkable remarkable stories that emerged as hostages began to be freed over emerged in a manner that she hadn't seen his entire life. He explained that he recite he would recite small felos. He had asked her someone who was interviewed. He saw them make a buronos. And so he started to make the braha burimonus that he would make these declarations each and every day to give himself a sense of faith to give himself a sense of connection. So many examples. We struggle so hard to find strength for growth. We need inspiration and we need opportunity motivate us in our very busy and dizzying reality to find within ourselves the strength to push forth avenue that emerges. is when when we encounter the tragedies of Jewish history and people can find without any of this an opportunity we strip away our distractions and we're focused on what matters that the mortality that we encounter through all of and what makes sense or levy was one of the hostages that was released shared with the parents of Hersh Goldberg heroes of the Jewish people traveling all all over the world trying to raise a clarion call for the plight of those who are captured getting him through this ordeal and this experience and the quote is one that learned in the writings of Victor Franco with anyh how he who has a why when you know why you're living when you know why you want to survive without the aspiration of what we could carry forward. He who has a why can handle a how. Then the entire experience of itself. That's what Hersh was echoing. Remember we're together in this pit. We have a why. We know what we ultimately what gives us the strength to endure a how. How could you then we could make it through a kon of We can make it through a kina of how we continue with kina z. Good Next kino we're going to recite is kina the rose of shaon sat alone the damino Aron the song of the Aronimar as the Bidosh was given away during the miss of leadership within the Jewish people at a particular tribe or a particular role particular identity known as kahuna. explains Saddok that we imagine that the is to unleash their agenda upon whatever kingdom that they are ultimately in charge of. This used to be a depiction of monarchs. It often is what type of alliances and what type of circumstance do you have to bring forward in order to get done what you want to get done. Sodok that is not leadership in the Jewish community. That is not leadership in the Jewish world. The reason that the coin is called a coin even though all of clsil dominate but to uplift. The real job of a coin is not to control but to empower. The real job of a coin is to be a standard. We can manifest that in our own lives. Maral points out in his we are told heavy and we should be like and then asks this is what you want out of the person who is ministering the entire mikdash hashem a very very warm rebby that's what you're looking shalom shalom o explains the maral if you want to represent the Jewish people you have to embody the Jewish people I a point of goodness A spark of greatness, a moment of commonality within every the perishay on that Mishna quotes the officer Abinasan that Aron Cohen would walk the streets Aaron Bashordance with what to Mitzvos should be and one would imagine that his first impulse would be he's going he doesn't have to worry about job security and Yeah. Says the Rambam, what is Aron's reaction? What's his impulsive reaction? Shalom. He looks at the guy and he says, "Shalom." And then goes on to say that when the individual shalom and they would say to themselves, Aron considers me worthy of camaraderie and connection. Aron considers me somebody and his priorities. And the individual from that validation, from that empowerment would begin to find within themselves that spark about this one and that one and your approach and my approach and their approach and this isn't the right way and that's not the right way and the gdole and this and the gadm means to connect with the Jewish people who embrace and mitzvah as the animating force of our life. What it means is to become a person who sees the capacity within each and every Jew to take their place their essential irreplaceable place within the reality of claw Israel and help us move it forward. And so shalom that's the world of kahuna. The world of kahuna is to find godliness in others. R Salvich points out in the geography of Yushaim and we've made this point many times that we know those of us who have had the greatus of visiting the old city of so you walk so assuming you know assuming you're being by the minora couple pictures where the phone there used to be something called a pay phone. The phones used to be there used to be a stop hard 20 minutes the walls of are penetrated on shaser. Three weeks it takes three weeks. So long. What took so long on this rampage of death and destruction? What took so long? Why couldn't they move faster? Forget the vehicles. just secure of Salvich what took so long is they had to get through the kohan that there is a fire that burns within those that are defo for the essence and the soul of aeshbak's manifesting presence within Israel and their fight and their of the Jewish people for three entire weeks until they managed to reach the mikdash the mikdash hashem And we know that protect the Jewish people both there and here and all over the world is an amazing and an incredible kishame shamayim others in order to join this fight as well. There is an amazing young man connected to our family at the he was the oldest of four brothers and he studied at yes hared. He served in the tank corps and he became a commander and after studying he married his wife Talia who's from Teneek we remember from NCSY and they started a wonderful family. He started on an October 8th. He was drafted into the reserves and he served proudly and courageously as a tank loader until he fell in. He believed strongly init that he had been working on a safer a safer that he told no one about including his family. The safer is the first volume of this safer. It's called and in the introduction his rashiva describes the moment say we present it to the world with tears and with joy. It's with tears because we are mourning his loss. He fell so courageously he leaves but also is presented with the same that people will be able to learn a Torah that they perhaps did not in the army of what it means to be someone who stands for Torah. Israel for am goes on to explain that this kina this kina depicts something else and that is that these misharos of the kohanim were divided of cli were not just talking about the kurban that exists of individuals and of institutions is by vespasian he asked give me the city of yavn and itim And it always bothered me why didn't he say bunim that's what he was trying to accomplish. Yes you lion was going to be destroyed and that choice haunted him for the rest of his life until his deathbed. Yes would be but why so why does it say what's t and I think the answer is because never emerges in a vacuum. Community has an energy to it. It has a personality to it. It has a tone to it. It has a reality to it that transcends the individual. And when we watch certain aspects of that pulse and personality shift, we watch with concern. Sometimes we watch with pride. A community matters. A community matters. And there's of individual painful and challenging moments in our recent history occurred 20 years ago. Really this week the Garra tells us there are multiple ways to endow with kadusha. One way is through usurps the kadusha. shall lost. But the Gamarra says there's another type of conquest. It's the conquest even if someone comes in with force, the conquest of settlement in dows is faced with kaduca that endures. And so it's so unbelievably the author of karibone Gaza is already in shvet yehuda when they were forced to leave the area because of the Arab riots. and the British prohibited them from living in Gaza. Some Jews returned independence after a long siege. The settlers of Kafar Dar were evacuated and the kubuts fell to the Egyptians. There was a small attempt to resettle Gaza being far. Ultimately more than 20 communities were built there and the settlements in the main cluster known as Gushkif. And of course they were assured that they were playing a critical and fundamental role in ensuring the security, the safety, the settle set amongst the sea as we're well aware and our Gibbalda president holds it to be good real estate. In December of 2003, after the communities of Gushkativ had endured countless acts of terror, murder that who have been voted into office certainly without this assumption declared that there would be a disengagement and in August 2005 ability for the future of Israel rests on my shoulders. I initiated the plan because I concluded that this action is vital for Israel. Believe me, the extent has many risks, but also a ray of hope for us all. With the help of God, may this path be one of unity and not division, of mutual risks palpable. We have personal accounts of the final Shabas. Woman named Toby Greenwald shares spending Shabas in Ghanaal. She describes that in Friday night surrounded by trees where wedding feasts are usually held and the people they went there to spend chabas with nama and a whose ka took place on the grass over I feel that we're standing on the eve of yam kipper and the next morning there are tears in shul and no one could escape the thought that this is probably a pulpit about the power of miracles and al keshbar who can do anything but his final words are in the coming days. Let us also feel a sense of joy and give thanks for 20 years ago. He pulls the curtain close and leads forward to kiss it gently. During the repeat of the mus the kohanim remain up there for longer than usual, unable to part, knowing that this may be the last time that they bless their friends. 59year-old Anita Tucker became an expert in growing cell. I speak to the plants and have names for them. Her husband Morai teaches English at a yeshiva high school in the adjacent community of Katif and here and we prove them we prove them wrong ultimately like everyone else in of letters back and forth. Should we disassemble them? Should we destroy them? Should we just leave them knowing that the Arabs would destroy them? In all takarus, there were people buried in Gushkif. the trauma of many of them people victims of terror of having to ex be given the role and the job of removing other Jews continues to be a source of unending trauma for those who are as if not a slight reversal of the Kima Kima of the rising sun of redemption. the Tucker children to report for reserve duty even after such a difficult and challenging reality. There was an article that was written by Aiel Tucker, a former resident of Gushkatif got a call from his son Dan. Dan is a Golani fighter. Prepare for your arrival. We'll make sure we have food, we have Naj, you have friends here. And he says to him, "No, no, no. Aba, I'm coming home." The RV or one of the onim in a published collection of essays 14th of Manav. I went to the mount just as my exiled ancestors must have done from one mountain to another without finding any rest. I wept for the and every day I understand more and more the suffering of the the holy one too had a house with a shan and a minora and a misbeh and a once we had a synagogue and a study hall a school and a kindergarten and a talora and now none of these are left all we have is our memories and the many pictures that are minutes to level a house and three hours to uproot an entire community conflating emotions and realities within the soul of the Jew. The notion of loss of not only individual. We miss our leaders. We miss our communities. And we mourn their destruction and the great gift of everyone to ultimately return home. Kina Y. Hey, There you are. Kiny Alfono Aloshio of Salv would describe this is one of the most authentic kinos. A kina that comes straight from Anavi by Yakon Yio Yoshio terror ultimately assassinated by palace guards and Yoshio takes over. He's only eight years old and we're told that for 18 years he does not see a safer Torah. We literally have a shinishba running the Jewish people discovers the safer Torah in the B mikdash yakim who does not hold up the words of this of this Torah and the Ramb explains the Ramb wasn't in the part referring to the mel and when shows this to Yoshio he is unbelievably inspired and he decides to in growth in Torah and Mitsmos as there was in the days of Yoshio and then things began to go and often these nations are both hostile to the Jewish people and who is in the middle who's in the middle is Israel the leader of Mit your country that's all we want we just want to use the road not the one with the toll right we want to use the free one right just let us go straight up the country, you know, imagine, you know, in the United States, we have a country to the south of us, we have a country to the north of us. So if Mexico wanted to wage war on Canada so Yoshio, he's the king of Kel and he says, "There's no way I'm letting him do this." Why? Because Yosho believed of the blessing that not only would you not be attacked, but that a sword would not pass through. We've had advancement, but the condition, the spiritual condition of Clai Israel is not exactly where you may perceive it to be. As the Gamarra explains, people still hated the doors would open. There would be no presence of a bodhisara. when they would close, they would be featured there for the the people in the homes to be able to worship. When we look at our community and we look at our society and we look at our religiosity and we should with great pride. We become complacent to the notion that sometimes there are underlying values that behind closed doors are actually sense as somewhat of a uh somewhat of a of a distraction for what Yoshio is killed. And as he dies a very horrible and gruesome death, 300 arrows fired into him. His last words are it's not just a kina on the loss of this leader. Y Mio is keen on Yoshio is a kina on the potential of this leader invent the Yo re recognized within Yoshio unbelievable aspirational powers of vision sense of grander Mio is devastated because this is the last light before the descent into the abyss that would ultimately of you and the makoma miktosh But your mo recognizes that there are individuals who their loss represent the darkness the my could have become a chakras where the sun could have risen but is as a result of our own complacency and our own in about the individual and we know that the kinos of your mo are so poignant especially in a that middle peri I'm the one that wittly on the Jewish people a story is told by Rabbi Salvich that when Sadat when Anoir Sadat was deciding whether or not to him I have total confidence that we're going to win and he says to him what makes you so confident and he pulls out a Sadd matter just look at the picture it's a picture of one soldier that they lost entire country is mourning the loss of one soldier and he says to him if this country can be brought to its knees with the loss of in strength through the casualties that are inevitable with war what Sadat did not understand is and the same focus that we have on every individual who's lost to the world of parallels to our love and In 1948 when the state was declared whitesman he made a declaration he made a statement the state will not be given to the Jewish people on a silver platter. the silver platter. The toll on Israel in the war of 48. We lost 6,373 souls. And Nathan Alterman composed a poem that's read all over Israel on Yumazi Karon and it's called the silver pl. Uniqueness of the miracle. Readied they wait beneath the moon wrapped in awesome joy before the light. Then soon a girl and boy step faking day and fired night, unwashed, weary until death, not knowing rest, but wearing youth like dew drops in their hair. And they reply, "We are the silver platter upon which the Jewish state was served to you." is behind letters that give insight and appreciation of Aayakon Mio also insight commitment and courage and the ability to move the Jewish people forward. Ben Zusman 22 from Yushelle than me right now. I am happy and grateful for the privilege of defending our beautiful country and people of Israel. I won't allow you to sink into sadness and of the country. Yoseph Gitritz, 25-year-old high-tech entrepreneur from Tel Aviv. Dear people and I have no regrets, the reality of their life of the moment, but to pause and think of what would be, what could have been, there's a fascinating insight. 80% perished in the period of leaving Mitsarim. So some of the farim are very very troubled by this fact to that way. And is it really possible that that many millions of people perished? And I once saw in the safer azir to a population number that would have been the descendants of those who did. If you want to know how many people were lost in Britain, look at the good they would have done. Look at the they would have engaged in. Look at the communities they would have built. Look at all the different contributions they would have made for generations. But about the losses that we encounter, we cannot just look at the loss of the individual themselves. And especially when we're given such in for Israel, who knows what would have accomplished if that had been pointed at the bin of the Bikdash and not its our experience of tishab of our experience of that their story that their contribution that their reality speaks to us. I'm sorry. You're going to need something. Hey, Kino Zion page 361. This is a keynote that depicts the abayas in its most inner tragic and horrific reality. The moments that the sar, the moments that the enemies of the Jewish people penetrate biffim, the whole notion of is depicted in our magashana as something that exists from the very externals of our existence and then proceeds inwards and tishabove the mikdash is of course set ablaze. The whole momentum of the destruction is moving progressively inwards. poetic and soaring language, the cruelty and the shock. One of the heroes of the Jewish people that we have come to know in the last number of months is a man named Ellie Sharabi. Hel his capture, his time as a hostage, his being freed. Thank the Kurtses for bringing it back for me from Israel. The notion of was something that they contended with for many many years. Rockets coming reality often was. It was cataclysmic when all of the sudden everyone realized Zahar as a that is described in antiquity in this kina came forward as a legacy when the kamas terrorist 9 a.m. the red alerts began to come through on lean's phone. I told her not to worry it'll be over soon. Minutes later, we heard the terrorists explosions and then we heard terrorists at the door. We had no weapons, no way to fight back. Leon and I made a decision. We would not screaming for the terrorists to stop. And suddenly there were 10 terrorists inside my home. They took our phones. Two of them grabbed me beyond anything I've ever felt. Then I knew I was being taken. As they dragged me out, I called out to my girls, "I will be back." My peaceful home, my slice of heaven was gone. I saw over a hundred terrorists filming themselves celebrating, laughing, ribs bruised. When we arrived in Gaza, a mob of civilians tried to lynch me. They pulled me from the car, but the 10 days I was held in an apartment and I was tied up with ropes. My arms and legs were tied so tightly that the ropes tore into my flesh. I was given me into a tunnel 50 m underground again. The chains were so tight they ripped my skin. They never took them off. Not for a single moment. Those begin to describe the agony. I was fed a piece of pizza a day, maybe a sip of tea. Hunger consumed everything. They beat me. They broke my greatest gift in the world. We had to beg for food, beg for the bathroom. Begging was our existence. We strategized over every meal. At any moment, they could kill you. You wake up every day. You do not know if you will be able to eat. You don't know the time. And you think so desperately how you want to shower on Oel, who is now 24 years old. We had already endured terrible captivity. We rely one day a terrorist took his anger out on me and he stormed in and beat me so badly he broke my ribs. I couldn't breathe properly for months. in his book about the moments that he was released, the moments that Ellie was released closer to alone and we're standing one in front of the other and we're hugging out of here because they were taking Ellie out and they were holding Alone hostage. Alone. I promised him. I'm gonna speak with them. I'm gonna tell them about you. I'm gonna strengthen them. Don't stop believing. Heli Sharabi was released on February 8th, 2020. Excited to see his children, knowing very well what the ultimate outcome was and terrible ceremony that kamas set up. He describes how he was determined to do exactly what they said because he did not want to deviate from this. wouldn't be able to describe where the tunnels were that were holding the hostages. And he describes after being given this clean set of clothes, oh, and as they as they uh got into the car with the Red Cross, the Red Cross started to Where you been? He shall take it. And she was silent. We didn't hear from you. We didn't see you. You didn't worry about us. You didn't come to visit. Let us come. He describes the final moments, Israeli flag, and he walked up. He got into the car with the soldier. Shalomi. When they were going on the way to meet the soldiers, I finally saw an Israeli soldier. I saw the blue and white flag. I recognize you. You're in safe hands now. I look at her. imat. They'll tell you together so that he could be able to greet his mother. He reflects and he talks about the pain that he was experiencing. Aniba and here I here I come to what it was like to finally see them. They asked him before he came out if he wanted to wear an Israeli flag and towards his family. And he writes about how he reflects in the very very end of the book in the very last page. They were buried because Bere was no longer at the time. And uh they took him to the graves and I see that the fields around the graves are quiet. The sky is blue. I start to cry and I fall onto my knees. Loro Alan. All I could see was the names engraved in these graves on the floor. Akareimot is the only reason the Jewish people are still here and the only reason that we are sitting here together today because for generations our Ellie Shar looked at me. Really? You want to go nigmar towards the exit of the cemetery. This is the bottom. Chicken. There it goes. This is a kina that in graphic detail depicts the horrors of horrors that are unimaginable. Horrors that are seen just biblical in their historic reality and horrors some of which we have encountered. And Rashi explains that they are singled out because of the depth of their decadence. And the Sofur asks a very simple question. anything that the ben eritz mitim do or the ben eritz kanan do any of their masim that are that are provided to kalis and the sofur explains that this isn't about the particular violations that are standing that the Jewish people do not look to others in order to concretize our framework of are issues that are brewing that motivate nations to comport themselves in such a way that even when we're aligned, we're not the same. Profanity is there is a division. There is a hdah. It emerges not just as a ideology and not just even as a culture and not just as a manif when we remember that the civilians on this side and the civilians on this side we're not the same. We're not the same. the parents on this. It's not just the horrors and it's not just those that execute on these barbaric acts. There is a fundamental particular contexts that we find ourselves and we have to remember that here in Gulas America because here we in Kum are not the same and our commitment to goodness and their commitment to goodness are not the same but it's not ultimately built on a foundation of surrender and commitment and loyalty to a rabbon But all of the sudden we can encounter even in our reality even in the United States of America an ascending anti-semitism they are not uses we expect more of ourselves even when pushed we expect of ourselves not to respond the same way when those who lash out because they've from the mainstream of Kali Israel is ferocious because there is a certain anchor that we have in living our lives of society and of what destruction can do and this is something that we've seen the Bibbas October of 2023 the end of October only a few weeks after the war began It was actually I think even before striving to give expression to the pain of the Jewish people of Israel and a disproportionate that was constructed out of an iron cage. I remember seeing a table that was set. I remember seeing the play pen that was set up was sent to his sister at 9:45 a.m. on October 7th. He had been texting on and off for hours with his sister describing the waves of Shiri grew up in near O. She walked she worked as a teacher on the kibbutz who's described as fun and obsessed with Batman as we're all familiar with. And then Kafir described by his relatives as a laid-back baby and his sister would joke that the family called Ariel and Kafir the first Yemenite redheads. Shiri and Yardin were tired of the rock. 6:30 a.m. he wrote of the rockets of described of October 7th. And throughout the morning as thousands of terrorists invaded Israel, Yarden updated his sister. He and Shiri were trying to keep the boys quiet so that the terrorists wouldn't hear them, but they were kids. They were babies and they were too young to be silent. And there is fight the terrorists invading his home. They injured Yard and they brought him into Gaza. And the day Yard turned 30. And later we found three additional pictures. And in one of them you could see the terrorists strangling him with one hand and holding a hammer in another somewhere and he just looks defeated. Kamas released a propaganda video of Shiri and the children. Bibbas was nine months old. He became the youngest captive that day. About a month later, Kamas announced Yaren was kept in brutal conditions and two months into his captivity, he was told that his wife and his children were dead. Often he was held inside a cage in an airless tunnel and beaten by his captors going long stretches without food. Hadina Moshe, 72year-old Israeli woman who was taken captive from near O described seeing Yardain in a kamas tunnel. Are you being punished because you confronted Hamas? Yard asked her if he she had any information about his wife and children and she did not. They released him with the definitive fate of his family still unknown. Ariel and Kafir came to symbolize kids dressing up in Batman on Purim, redhead days. Who could forget those days? Those days that seemed like total darkness. that shabas that we felt like how many capit of tahill were said for these two children whose future never came to be. When the Israeli officers opened the coffin of Shiri, they discovered that it was not her. Just elongating the pain by the brutal and horrific and murderous hands of kamas themselves. and a people who through this family connected with the children of the entirety of Amnisurel assaulted towards the Jewish people. the invasion of their home, the capturing of the family, the terror inflicted in the moments, the all of this revealing the essence of evil that characterizes and underlies wouldn't daven for, that we wouldn't dress up for Purim for, that we wouldn't do mitzvos for, that we wouldn't build for. most heart-wrenching dimensions of the kinos of this period of Jewish history. But they also rallied a kadesh bar that may not have resulted in their salvation are accumulating for a broader salvation that we will want. Foremen. Alf speaks of the harugus. As we know, the enemies of the Jewish people appreciate well that the eternality of Ami Israel is contingent not just on the survival of the nation itself, but since so much of our vitality is rooted and anchored in living our values of Torah and the study of Torah in the depth of Torah that ultimately the ability of Clai Israel to persist and endure in resilience in growth and in advancement is based upon our connection to our leaders to our Torah leaders. Arvano Nadira at Torah depicts in Roman times the execution of a number of different decrees that were issued in particular during the era of Hadrien continued to persist and continued to be able to skin off his body and when he reached this makatillain he let out such a screamo And those that were watching him, the Gimar says were declaring the Oios as almost a but you cannot destroy the Oios. You can't destroy the letters, the meaning, the messages, the essence and the eternal impact of Torah that perhaps we could also relate to. This year marks 10 years since Atam Henen was killed with his wife fire on their car killing the parents. Something happened and the children were spared. Four young sons including the children of great Barb Torah both's father and his mother who bring so much Torah into the world. Hen the history of and we have a number of his farm a number of his articles that he had written before the attack even in the safer that was published safer that explores aspects of Shabas the oft with great joy and with great trepidation I bring forward before the students of Torah and the scholars of Torah domo of those that we've lost. And so this kino of arono nad atra captures not only the loss of miso recreated and reconstituted and regenerated with great difficulty and often a lot of confusion because of the particular suffering of the gon that it's true that these individuals live their lives and they are so precious and so treasured and so necessary so compelling and so vital and within everything we bring to our world of Torah. Halon Who would have Banana. Got this. They are coming. Thank you. Kina Kav. Vavos. This is a keynote that is written by Rabzar. Yodimos here is sitting there. He has no more words. See, of Jewish leaders, go call to Abram, to Yitzk, to Yakov, to Moshe from their shame yodim likos Jewish people. And each of them even though they have their own dimension of contribution to the building of Kali Israel and different aspects of religious life that comprise each and every Jew, the Abra themed of Abraham, the Guru of the Emac, he finds himself unsuccessful until he reaches one particular individual and that is herself stands up before and she says and he was willing to work for seven years. And when my time came to be able that I was willing offer and if me a simple to take my place and the explained it wasn't just letting her get married first that Rael was basically sacrif sacrificing a dimension of contra all merciful. Why are you acting in such a manner that you are jealous of these at that moment whose mercy was aroused because of you I will read children There is hope explains that was willing to give up a piece of her destiny for unity that Ra was willing to not that she didn't need it for herself and that Rael therefore becomes the selfless one of our instead of Maris Marisah. is for those whose destiny has been reached. Rael is always on the road and to and to empower and to support and to care for and to love the Jewish people as we make our way to an journey and not to necessarily live for the outcome. That is the of St. Aza. That morning he was stationed at an IDF base east of Ashkalone. And when the attack began, he and the rest of his team were Amikhai's commander. Ali Adani was shot and seriously wounded. And Amikhai pulled him and got him to an evacuation vehicle up of his destiny in order to help someone else with a volley of bullets. And neither of them survived. and in a I still can't cry about you. I'm not there yet. I haven't yet completely grasped that we won't ever speak again. Although I'm strong when fighting the monsters out. I was 13 years old and mainly not letting myself break. I'm constantly looking forward. But every time I close my eyes, I see you carrying our injured command. Difficult hours. Your eyes were always combing the area, searching for how to do something for someone else to support whoever needed it. and your heart, your massive heart. After the war, the first trip I take with my wife will be to see your parents. I'm going to ug your father for you. And I think it's best. He writes different. You saw her as a real friend. Every experience we had together, you would say you needed to tell your mom. We were often surprised by your relationship. You would answer, "I couldn't hear very well because of the horror all around us. So you shouted to me, "Remember for whom and for what we are fighting." And even more than your words, I remember the L surrounded by a burning hell. There was a moment when my knees buckled. All the commotion around us was beyond my capabilities. But then I looked in your direction. I saw you soldier go into a house. And you and I take cover. I was a bit scared. And your battle in battle you're not supposed to be scared. You're not supposed to think about the fear. But you were there. And I draw straight you in every breath. You and God were best friends, maybe even better friends than you and your mom. You had internal knowledge that there is a leader of this world is what is true humility internal and what it means to love your fellow man to love your homeland. I'm thinking again and again how in the weeks before your death we talked about a civil and that's the starting point. Amai you were like a brother to me. I remember the moment in which you understood that the commander had been wounded and without thinking to his wounds and you hope and pray that the rivers of blood would stop and then came the end massive fire in our direction you didn't even manage to say I've been it and then that a letter from the team and that's it since then more than 45 days have passed every morning I quickly dunked fill in from my wife but my wife would agree on this point sometimes I even think you are an angel in the form of a man. I'm sure that your light will continue to shine their world. Brother, I miss you so much. Foreign speech. Foreign speech. Foreign speech. Hallelujah. Kino Lamid Alif H2 No keynote today probably captures more poignantly the vacasillating reality of this kufa of Jewish history that we've been speaking about so much. Who would have imagined two years ago the pain and the tragedy of hostages, of people killed in their homes, killed in the fields, killed at a concert? Who would have imagined all of the brutality and all of the pain? And who would have also imagined a mostly defeated Hezbollah, a compromised Syria, and what we witnessed in the Nissan that Israel would have the courage to and the success of attacking Iran. The kina is about Jewish history. And then Marra writes that Jewish history is always in one of these two places. It's in a place of redemptive energy and it's in a place of tragic energy. And the convergence of these two is part of what creates the cycle and the spiral of our historical experience. It's fascinating that Ravosh Shapiro points out the Gumar Sakim writes, I was discussing this very question with my father a few weeks ago. Is Roshesh called a moed? Is Roshesh called a moed? So the Garra says that Roshesh is called a moedeshik moed. How do we know is called that we that we offer the roesh on as well that is called a moed. How do I know that is called a moade? The gar says a from that we call of this a moade. So asks Shapiro this is your source for relating toes theukim of so he explains so be for cloud Israel is the concept of his is the notion that when you look up into the dark and empty sky space we're able to create an experience of renewal of isus and every month we experience a sense of that transition and therefore we could start new. We could start again. The moon starting again, the cycle starting again. And cl Israel brings that is forward. Brings that that sense of trends. We had earthquakes but now you have earthquakes. So I'm over that. So So uh we had we had it all the time. But what I do appreciate that I didn't have was not necessarily the seasons themselves and the leaves are changing and it tells you Yantiff's coming. There's a transition, a new year, a new academic year is starting once in a while share those feelings with the shul. As much as I don't enjoy the cult, but there's nothing in the world like thing and you start to see leaves on the trees and flowers coming and the transition of seasons gives us an opportunity in an immersive manner of Mosha Shapiro. What Kazal understood, the reason why Khazal anchored this in Migillas a is because in the history of the Jew of some of our most profoundly tragic realities that we find the strength and the opportunity the talent in lifestyles of it is what it is but to interject a sense of is that just because last month I wasn't into learning doesn't the definition of our entire rel relationship doesn't mean it has to be the definition of this month. Just because last month I found my doesn't mean it has to be the experience of this month. That's the power of doesn't only come doesn't only come from the elating eye points of achievement. His kajas comes from the strain and consternation and pressure and loss and necessity often of tragedy and challenge. And so Roshesh's anchor as a moed is in the world of a itselfish of night and seder night share the same day of the week. tells us in we know that to be true because just like we had this awkward shallis that we had right before the s of if you recall a number of months ago that was the only other time everyone ate shallis we had a very awkward shalashis right before the start of seder night and so as a result there's this connection between our tragedies and our redemption, our compromise and our aspiration. I shared with the shul that over 20 years ago I was standing with one of my closest friends whose name is John Mel in a classified briefing room of an Israeli air force base. We had landed in Benguran to participate in a mission that was coordinated by the OU. And we were picked up at the airport by a very good friend or the husband of someone that John and I knew became a very good friend. We'll say his name is Elon. And from the airport, he decided to take us to his base. And from this base, he was in charge of flying missions and training pilots on Hercules aircraft. That's what he did. In fact, he'd allow us to board one of the Hercules aircraft and experience what it's like to be inside. Looks kind of like tower air. He was involved with all of the logistics in plane refueling. What it means for a fighter jet that has to fly very far across the world and it needs to refuel in the middle. So, it can't just stop. another plane can come and refuel it in the middle of the sky. You can imagine it's not the easiest thing to accomplish. This was his expertise. In this briefing room, and this was 20 years ago, he showed John and I on a map that we probably were not supposed to see, but everyone's family in Israel, a country that they were flying missions to and from, and it was a friendly country. So I asked him why are you practicing flying to that particular country when we have good relations with this country. So he had me put one finger on that country and one finger on Israel. And then he said hold the distance between these two places. And I said okay. And then he said move the finger one over Israel and one over Iran. And it was identical. Over 20 years later, those training flights were put into operational motion as we all witnessed Israel's preemptive attack on the genocidal and evil regime of Iran. And we watched as pilot after pilot got in their planes. One of them, I heard a story from someone who knows the individual. One of them got married that night, got a call. Someone came over to him while he was sitting with the kala at the table and said to him, "We're going." That's it. He put on his uniform and he looked at his wife who he had just married minutes ago in her wedding dress and he said to her, "I have to go." And within hours he was in a plane over Iran. And these pilots were incredible. But as incredible, more incredible was the dish than that we witnessed the whole experience beginning with Prime Minister Nano at this year's Tanakh. Our family is big into Tanakh and the Prime Minister always gets to ask the last question on the in the Israeli competition. So this year the prime minister, he's standing in the Israeli competition. This is in May. This is an Matsm. No one knows nothing from nothing. And he looks at these kids who had studied and memorized Tanak and at all these families and he says to them, "What puk best summarizes this last year of the war and they're knocking back different ideas and then they come to the Rosham Shalah and they say, "Rosal, what puzzle do you think sums up the war?" And with a twinkle in his eye, he answered. only months later to put the very same phrase into the Kotel Hamaravi as at Fila for the success of a mission that would be named with this particular calling the rising lion of the Jewish people and the pilots relate their roles moment from one of the pilots I'll always remember the moon that night. It was brilliant crescent shining and rising just as we flew deep, illuminating the pitch black night, recalls Major S, a combat pilot, speaking over the moment that he flew over enemy skies. My family knows that I was part of the attack, but the exact details I can't share. It's tough from a distance, and even for those who parents are here, it's difficult to talk about our experience and what we're going through. But each one shared what it was like to feel like they represented the entirety of the Jewish people flying deep into Iran. There will be plenty of time to share experiences, he writes to his family, to laugh and to cry. In the opening sorty, I was chosen to lead a formation of dozens of planes. We were the first to enter deep into Iran and I was the first of the first formation and that's how we received the most dangerous mission. And he writes about what the feelings what the emotions were bringing forth this ultimate outcome. And alongside this mimit moment were the hundreds and hundreds of missiles that were pointed to and some of them penetrating the air defenses of Israel. rendering thousands of people homeless, taking the lives of a number of people, plunging the Jewish people into a sense of trepidation and it became almost a cycle. Your phone would ring or it would buzz and we were attacking Iran and then the phone would buzz and they were attacking us and then the phone would buzz and someone was raising money. Then the phone would buzz. We were attacking Iran. Then the phone would buzz. Iran is attacking us. Then the phone would buzz. Someone's raising. This was the This was the This was life. And for those who were there, for those who had family there, we would watch watch this like a hawk. Our children there, our siblings there, some people in this room there. And there was tremendous sense of uh unbelievable fear. It's it's it's not nothing. The convergence of the sense of power and the sense of redemptive energy and at the same time the vulnerability that comes forth as well from living in that in that very serious and very very profound reality. As we recite this kina, we think about all of the moments. We think about all of the moments. We think about the we think about the roes. We think about the Jewish people and the costs that we have paid. And we think about the Jewish people and the remarkable achievements and advancements that we have seen and we have experienced. And we appreciate for just a moment to be standing in the gates of history. It's such a profound profound moment in Cl Israel's journey. Mo is name my Say tness. I have me I am sing Holy Ghost is trying. Stay singing. One final kina before eliton kina lammed vavv. Seion. Hello Shali. Surely you'll inquire after the well-being of your imprisoned ones. Dier Schlomeer Aday, those who seek your well-being and are the remnant of your flock. One of the most extraordinary realities of that 12-day war with Iran, beyond the performance of the military, beyond the home front, individuals that kept everyone safe unlike any other nation on earth that is at war where when people find themselves far away trying to get back to Israel. So Alal understood this. The other airlines could not understand what was going on. that Jews, no matter what it took, in order to get back to Erit Israel, in order to get back to a nation, in order to get back to a country that was spending much of its night in bombshism to Erit Israel that draws the Jewish people home in any and in all circumstances, no matter what the Eats, Israel is itself presented as a future driving reality. refers to the element there are future energy to Israel that draws people in a manner that is beyond whatever the pragmatic considerations members of our community as members of arul have detached themselves from what sometimes becomes a little bit of a heavy footing they are dishion they pursued they pursue Israel I shared in the shul many times that in our own family siblings so now twothirds of us are in Israel and I remember that we were all standing as a family at Newark airport to see them off we happen to be a very emotional family and I was really expecting this whole experience to be like one of the worst glasser light and you know they had all their luggage ready to go. Nephes Benevich is there holding the signs. I forgot what the sign. They help with so much stuff. Have Ari comes here so often from Neesh Benev. And we're standing at the airport and their kids are like and I was waiting for the balling to like start and there were some tears. There were definitely some you know it was hard. It was a perude. It was we were we were saying goodbye. When there's confusion, comes when there's billable the just it's it's it's so overwhelming that like you're crying. It's so overwhelming, but there's there's a destabilization that's setting in of to have them live across the world. But it wasn't sad because it was right because it is I met with a couple of months ago here in this shul with his family told me that his father brought their family Jew should be. This is where a Jew should be. And since this is where a Jew should be when you get on the plane, even if it's from Newark, the way they should be. And that's why it's so important for all of us who are living through a generation and are living through a life experience where threatened to see it fight back to see it suffer to see it advance to see it conquer and to see it struggle to see the faith mention of Jewish history that they are living in the raw and that we are living online. There is an aspect of what is unfolding and not just the pain but the engaged with that we are watching. There is an aspect of this reality that has presented itself in front of us and has asked each of what are we doing here if we have this opportunity and this option and why do we continue to build and to entrench and to advance? What are we doing here? So everybody has a when there's a knock at the door. We've had knocks on our door. And each and every one of us have to sit for moments with our family and to ask ourselves each and every year, what are we doing here? And maybe there's an answer to that question. There should be a disha. There should be an investigation. There should be a thought. There's a knock at the door. We can't just wow what an amazing word we blew away. There has to be some sense of like connection that this is where we are naturally meant to be and this is the unnatural disposition forward from that and that is real and that is true and that is important but as the Maharal writes a Jew always has to know this is unnatural this is not right of the Jewish people and for us to make what's unnatural natural in order to somehow sanitize the sense of pressure or guilt in lives of Torah and of and we do we need organizations and institutions and spaces where that can be accomplished but we have to know that all of that is un that's where Israel belongs and that's hello I always like to share at this point whose apartment I had the opportunity to be in and I had a chance to meet him I ded with him and I got to speak to him a little it may hear a story but from the perspective of his older brother and in that book he talks about the moments where they came to Eris Israel and he talks about the moment child who was 5 years old but looked like he was only three or even younger and for three years I served as father and mother and guardian and protector to my younger brother to safety and to ensure the continuation of our family's rabbitic dynasty that is what kept kept me alive and gave me the will to continue fighting for our lives with my younger brother in front of the Western Wall in USA in the holiest site in the world for Jews and we we recited Mina together 48 years this time he was praying just two hours before his anticipated election to the highest rabbitical post in is close and felt tears welling up in my eyes as I left the wall I fel felt profound relief as if a heavy burden had been lifted from my shouldfillment of the mission of the Jewish people all chance that we can. We have to make it the fulfillment of our mission as well. See you on Hello T. employee welcome. final kina. Me elitimo a lament and her cities like a woman who is in labor. And Salvich would point out that the imagery of a woman in labor as a concluding picture of the world of Tishabove resonates with our perspective in understanding that the Jewish historical experience that we have focused on over the course of this morning and part of this afternoon is painful and is traumatizing and is difficult to hear, difficult to know and difficult to experience. But we that Israel is ultimately currently within an experience of of birth of giving life to new related to that mid and we take from that energy for the entirety of the year. We grab Torah from sukus.