Levaya of Rabbi Moshe Hauer zt''l

[Music] Okay. for [Music] Oh, say lo. A to the whole world. You carry clown on your shoulders and take them to the ends of the earth. But to us, you were aviar. You're the picture of life. You're le you're full of energy, full of strength, full of determination, full of confidence. How could we yesterday [Music] and we met is clown shell's Okay. But Harry, you belong to Kie Stone. Now you belong to Colon Stone forever. Last afternoon I said the to say goodbye to the suk and you don't take me from this world without the chance to do it and rebi you had rasha here you had your kipper you had a shana [Music] You took the Tory out of Zara and you did the thing which I think will be my image of you always forever. You dance with the Torah round the beimma. You dance the Torah back into the arm and Hashem let you leave this world after a whole history of a Jewish flame. I had so many feelings over this yam. My first feeling was you left me completely alone. But my second feeling was that we know exactly what to do because you taught us. You taught us with such clarity. You taught us with such force, with such conviction. You taught us who you want us to be. And we can't ask you anymore. I think you taught us well enough that we don't need to ask you Baby, when I got up to give the drasha on Shinyatus morning to your show, I remembered the dasha what you would often say on Shminyad Seras. You would stand right here and you would say you would say you would always cry because this was the last time in Tish after a whole month of all of us being together of dabbing together of singing together and was the last time being together and you would cry for that. But you didn't know that you would have all of us crying on service. I'm sure of one thing. you're here. It's cuz I'll tell us you're here at this gathering and you see this show. But yesterday, this show was full of something else, was full of dancing, was full of Torah, was full of being together. And I have no doubt, Rebe, I have no doubt that that's the image you want to see and the one you want to watch over and over and over again. We'll try We'll try our hardest to make you proud of us. To the Howard family, I'll tell you what you already know. How he loved you. How he longed for your presence. How he loved when you were here. How he cled when you were here with your children, his grandchildren. We love you. Shared him with us. You shared him with the whole world. But he was here for you first. He was first a husband, first a father, and first a grandfather. into rabbits and how you of course know much more than I do. But I do know how much he appreciated you. Rabbitson, could I spend 26 years giving every waking moment to my K? Sure, no problem. Could I spend 5 years traveling the world all week doing for Colleen Stone? Sure, no problem. We're here with you. We can only say thank you to you, Evans, to your family for sharing him with all of us. Who knew he had to pack so much into only 60 years, but you let him do it? I want to say just one story. I'm sorry we're rushing today. I guess we need to be out the door soon to catch the flight to Israel to have before Shabas. The today will be brief but there'll be many more ascaras and chances to remember to come. I want to say one story rebi because I know that you loved when I shared this story not because you love talking about yourself because because this was you. I was one of many wannabe rabbis. Rabbi, you took under your wing. And on a Friday, you would take me along with you to do your visits, your visits to the hospital, your visits to nursing homes, your visits to show members and not to show members, your visits to the people who are lonely. And the last place we went, a couple must have been in their 80s, they lived in the Windsor house. not from the shop. I never met them before. I saw them since he asked her for a bra. We sat and talked with him and he walked out and closed the door of their apartment and Rabbi said, "This is where the money is. That's why you're a R. That's so you can speak. That's so you can teach. That's so you can stand it up all day. So you can visit somebody who's lonely, who no one else remembers to visit, and give them strength. Maybe that was you. And I knew I know you would be proud if I left everyone here with something to do. And so I'll leave everyone here with something to do. If you want to do something, notice somebody, find somebody, make somebody feel special, make them feel loved the way he loved all of us. Rabbi, I have no doubt that you're not waiting for us to ask you to be miter. I'm sure you've been hard at work for two and a half days now. But don't stop [Music] for us once you left behind. That happened for Hashem's people. Hashem's people you loved more than anybody. And you know what it's like to be a rabbi. Abs never get the cover they deserve. You didn't get it from me. You didn't get it from us. As we did love you, we did honor you. and we didn't respect you enough. We ask you for not doing our but we thank you forever for doing yours works. We give the [Music] People dream. People have aspirations. Some are mo more motivated than others. When someone's dreams are to do for the coven of the is a special the nift's passion his dreams his aspirations was to do for the to help yen His compassion, his his drive to inspire and uplift Yidden individuals, Yidden Kahilo was his his sense of mission. He understood that he has kas unusual kas and he used those kyus for the reunish he was driven to uplift people's house in tyra the People should be drawn to learning. He used his stature as a to inspire people to learn. It wasn't sufficient that people should just admire him. But he wanted to increase the connection that people should have to Tyra. The herrigation that he had in is something that he shared with others. He inspired his real sense of connection and the kayak is something that he wanted others to develop. It's something that people not only admired from the distance but people wanted to join him in that aa the sense of aas for a kahila that was clearly displayed was something that he wanted others to join him in. And therefore his his ability to inspire was because people saw in him a dma of someone who sincerely wants to be his hagus of being able to impact aila was not limited to only what the needs of a schul are. He saw every aspect in a kahila and understood that that's an of the leadership of a kahila whether it's of all areas that had to be dealt with he felt was his and it's something that did not end with the borders of the kahila it was the entire Baltimore that he felt a sense of aas for it was a sense of aras that didn't allow him to be metamsum himself to even the borders of Baltimore but he felt an arrias to claw Israel to have an impact on a national level and even an international level his sense of for the compassion the feelings that we are one. The sense of being that cla is one was something that a person could be margish was very real. You have many people who are public figures. But the true test as to where the person is is by looking at his hogas. The nimos and its neos of the bias. Someone saw in the family was indicative that this was a real ais hashem. This was not simply a public figure who was there for the rabbim but it was a who was serving the rabbana the deep sense of commitment to the development of his mishbah with a sense of priorities itself was indicative that he was completely motivated and driven in serving the Raana. The sadness that all feel the close the sadness. It's from this herish someone in the prime of life. someone whose sense of was contagious that their geyser that this is the extent of time that the world could be nana from him but it's difficult it's very very painful and very difficult we don't know But it's always a for a person that those that were touched by him, those that interacted with him, those that understood him, they should internalize and they should learn from him as a dogma of what a person can be. when he's driven for to help others there's a sense of selflessness. This dugma is a makay. The dma is a makay that people should think outside of themselves. The way the person is defines his own sense of accomplishment is not what he is but rather what he's doing for others. That's a mica for everyone. We're not going to ask. We added this should be a a for the should be a for whatever was done. Mr. Cla singer. We dance the sasyra. We danced the simpra with unbridled joy. We had assumed that this terrible war was finally over. We had assumed that with the return of the hostages, there would be no more kadiship. There would be no more casualties of this war. How mistaken we were. There was one more casualty. There was one more kadosh. There was one man who carried all of Clalistra, all the pain of Klistra with him. One man whose heart shattered over every loss. Who fought heroically to help the Jewish people in any way he could. Who dedicated his life every fiber of his being to the mission and who died and who lived and died. Akid Shashem I'm not sure what crushed him more. The battle against our external enemies of the internal battles within Cloud Israel, which he reminded us time and time again were the true cause of our suffering. Rabbi Howard carried the weight of the Jewish people on his shoulders. He cared not only for the Jewish people. He cared for every Jewish person. Who will lead us into battle? Who will stand before politicians with fire shooting from his eyes as he demands safety and security for the Jewish people? Who will advocate tirelessly behind the scenes for our needs? Who will show us what it means to be an oh. How many broken souls did he heal? The yasum, the almana, the gusa, the victim. How many broken marriages did he save? who will notice the person that no one else notices to stop what he's doing and give that person some give that person a smile who will give us who will guide us with his other worldly wisdom and be people's lives have been impacted by his sagely advice who will lift us up with his soaring oration weaving his immense Torah knowledge with his poetry leaving everyone spell bound and breathless. Who will teach us what it means to be a balac? How many rabbanim how many communal leaders are there whose every action is a direct outgrowth of Rabbi Howard's model who will teach us what it means to be there for family? who will put the most important person in the world on hold because his mother, because his wife, because his child is calling just to say hello and who will bridge Cla together, who is respected by the entire spectrum of the Jewish people, not because they agreed with him or he with them because they but because they saw and They experiences unimpeachable integrity. Niki kapay like no other. Who will bring us together? I was overjoyed when Rabbi Hower asked me to work for him. But I had one reservation. I was afraid. I was afraid that working so closely would show me how human he was, how it would show me his flaws and how wrong I was. watching him up close as he finished a day of work, exhausted, overwhelmed, and then opening a safer and coming alive. Jumping for joy with the excitement of Tamatyra, appreciating the thought that went into every one of those pregnant causes, imagining what his teachers, Raviakov Weinberg or Misha Shapiro, would say, making sure that what he said is MS, making sure that he did did not come across too strongly. of obser observing him elevates every person he encounter with his tangible amuna with his principled convictions with his genuine care and concern. His thirst for elevating people was unsatiable. Despite all that he accomplished and he accomplished so much so much in Baltimore so much at the U. He changed the Jewish people. But no matter what he did, no matter what he accomplished, he had a frustration. He was frustrated working at the U because he felt that he wanted more. He felt that we weren't doing enough. And it wasn't for him. It wasn't for his kav. He hated cavode. But he wanted all of us to accomplish so much more for the sake of the Jewish world. He believed we could accomplish so much more. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry that we didn't believe in ourselves like you believed in us rabbits and how and the harra family to echo the words of Rabbi Rose on behalf of Kalisrael we thank you for sharing your husband your father with us for giving to to us he had so much aarasov for the families of the koshimian and we will try desper desperately to walk in his footsteps. Last week, one of the last times I spoke to him, he shared with me what he described as one of his favorites of Tyra, a Gumar Sukus that tells us how Hillel would walk into the Sima space and say Khan, if I am here, everyone is here. How could it be? Everyone asks how can it be that Hill of all people would make such an arrogant sounding statement and Rabbi Howard suggested that Hill was not referring to himself. He was referring to his own life philosophy of his ability to see potential in every person in his ability to draw every person closer to Hashem. And I quote Rabbi Mori. This is what Rabbi Howard wrote. Hill is saying that if I am here, if my attitude prevails and we as a community will readily welcome those who are yet not yet so righteous into our circle, then we will eventually see everyone here, everyone joining in this great dance of unity and closeness to God. And he concluded, "May this be a model that we follow and live in our lives, joining together with the warm and encouraging welcome, elevating each other and all whom we encounter to bigger and better things." And we all understand why this was one of his favorites Torah. for please continue to be a me for all of us. speaking on behalf of the my siblings my mother had to try to say what they would want to say. I want to begin by being thanking those all the people who are so so helpful. I wasn't here as much but on the phone and helping logistics re rose who was involved from the beginning staying up late running the whole thing everyone it's hard to mention everyone theat who were there everyone who offered to help who tried to help we're really really appreciative of the help and of the feeling of being taken care of at this time I want to ask for From now on, I think we can all say that what we owed you would be impossible to do. But even what we could do, we didn't do on behalf of not being messed with you properly. Aba, you passed away the night of the day says, "It's hard for you to leave. You're leaving is hard. How about [Music] what we wouldn't do for another few minutes, another conversation? Anyone? Everyone in this room, you were all of our fathers. I look around. So many lives. You were touched. Go up and down the roses, young and old. Everyone, what we wouldn't do for another few minutes. The love that we felt, the wisdom, the Tyra, you could see the Tyra that was learned coming alive. Everything was real. Everything was learned by words that came from the heart. It didn't matter who you were. The conversation was done with the same respect. Brother apparently felt the same as he needed you back. That's what happened. He needed you back. And having me mis after y which you every you took and inspired the kahila you inspired people all over every was different was its own experience its own growing in a certain way and then after a which you had tremendous for which you brought to life for so many people And she had terrorists says when there couldn't take him want to leave such a pure pure go such a pure body gave an amaze cried. Who's gonna fill his place? Who can do what did you're beyond? You're perfect in so many ways to you grew up in a home from your parents from Sabah and full of reality. You grew and you fulfilled these ideas to the tea. Your wisdom, your mid, everything, your selflessness, your effort, you didn't rest for one minute. No, you didn't rest. You didn't waste a second. Whether it was, whether it was being together with family, anything you did, you were doing it 100%. You had tremendous. You were blessed from birth with tremendous, but you used each and every one of them to the absolute maximum. Aba as a gar in Yuma, which you're very fond of, which was describes you more more accurately than anything I could imagine. And the garra says in the says it says you should loveem. What does that mean? You should create love forem should become love through what you do. person should learn and study and learn from great from great Torah scholars. I was always looking to learn from people. Always looking to taken from a different You're gentle. You speak gently people who spoke more to love. What do people say about him? of his shalom. Fortunately, wanted to be like him. He was such a image of Tyra, of good of someone who personified greatness. You wanted to be like him. He was learned. You wanted to learn Tyra plainly. Shalom. This person learned. Look how great his pass. Look at what he does. Look how perfect he is in everything. In everything in every every aspect of his life. Hashem says you're my You are the person who I dreamed of. You are the one who I glorify myself through you. You are why I created the world. And who better fits that description than Aba? And how could we even come? We're grasping. We're grasping. We can't even think of coming to such levels. I want to speak just a focus on a few of his values. A few values that we could take away. A few values that we could cling to. A few values of the a few values that he passed on to us. Abba was Abba Cisero whether it was for the community for the cloud both the Baltimore community the community as a whole and the world United States everything it's my last my last conversation we were talking my fault we were talking about politics and things that were going on you much I much prefer you much prefer to talk in learning and I said a and you didn't disagree but he said don't be matur don't vocalize it might be an issue I don't disagree with you but you can't vocalize things against don't do that you can't say things like that about the Jewish people whether it was the the individuals who even after you were so busy you were busy here you were very communally involved even before you began and for sure afterwards you were completely involved but you took care of, you took care of individuals, not just with your great wisdom, but phone calls every all the time. How you doing? How are you? Phone calls that someone else could make, but you did it because you treasured it. You did it because that's what mattered to you. That's what you're here in this world for. Whenever you talked to Abba, Abba, you listened. You listened. You respected. You would never reject anything out of hand. You respected anything that people told you. You respected the person in front of you. You just you were willing to listen and you you always used to say if only people would just sit in the room and listen to each other. Don't talk over each other. Talk to each other. Listen to the other person is saying be in a different place. That's what caused them sar when people were just not come on respect the other person. Talk you don't have to agree but just look at the person next to you. Respect them. Love them. Aba you lived a life for others but not a life life of sacrifice there wasn't a sacrifice there was no ms that's what who you were you frequently quoted what's written in the in the introduction to the from the son of who writes that his father always used to say that a person was not created for himself a person was created did it for others. That's why you're here and that's how you lived. You were humble. You were unbelievably humble because you didn't exist. You were like Misha was existing for others. That was it. There was nothing else there. You knew when you had a conversation with other people, you knew what to say. You knew how to say it because the only person in the room was was the other person. You weren't there. You didn't exist. You weren't trying to show anything. You didn't talk if you didn't need to talk. You said whatever was necessary to be said because you weren't there. You weren't there. You're always learning. You're always growing. You were always willing to change. I would have done it this way. I'm going to change. I said that I'm going to change. Always growing. Never stop. And your love for others by your love for family for the abs said the primary measure of a person the way to judge a person is how he acts in his home. Aba you didn't have time for anything. You didn't have time for anything. You had to be so busy but you always had time for us. You would be in New York at the meetings one day you would travel back just to be home for the night and then come back to be together with the family at night. Friday night when you'd be le shabas you would be completely wiped out the suda was fine you would come after the suda instead of going to sleep you would go to the couch you put on a safer and within usually 10 seconds you'd be asleep but you didn't want to leave the misha you didn't want to say okay I'm tired I worked incredibly hard I want to be together everyone's in the kitchen I'm going to be together with them and even when it took it was the expense or potential expense of other things it didn't matter You've traveled to for for my son Yoseph semi three and a half hours each way little short of is significant but traveling with all that you're busy with back and forth within a few hours you gave everything to us you were our father you were our teacher you filmed every possible role we could meet you did Everything new no bails your was incredible not just for the for your involvement in was real when you would get when you would go up for the and it would speak about being amazed without being able to go in there you would cry it was real it was real terra Your your was incomparable. Always with a safer, always learning, always living. Everything, all of your ashkavas, all of your approaches to life were coming from a were coming from Tyra. The Tyra was alive. And you were alive with the Tyra. You held everything. The Tyra has something about everything. And you lived it and you personified it. And you could see it. You could see it on everything. You could see it in everything. We We can't be messing with you. Anything good could be said about you. Anything and everything. You leave us, we're losing so much, but you leave us with so much to learn from that's going to stay with us. Abu go to the gay and for us for for the entire for the beautiful beautiful here which you love any love you see it we saw it not at an expense he loved every single person was here with the for the city which you took care of and you loved so much for and that for the thing that was most important to you that we live in a world which was really that was what mattered that was the only thing that mattered for us and for everyone out the bottom. I'm trying to make the flight to Israel. We need to pause the spadium here. Haspedum will continue for a week, for a month, for a year. I want to ask please as we carry the ar out to the back parking lot please everyone can make space so we can go straight to the parking lot without delay as the family follows into the car and hopefully it'll be time to drive for all of us to follow the hour as it drives out of the parking lot down towards Park Heights the at the airport in JFK at 1:30 75 North Hanger Road Jamaica Queens there will be a gathering in New York for those who want to be there to pay their respects the inim tomorrow afternoon at 1:30 in the bay of kilusim on the family will sit sha two of two of the daughters and Mrs. Newberger will sit shiva here at his house beginning later today until 9:00 tonight and again tomorrow until 3. the rest of the family going to travel to Shiva beginning on Shabas in the U offices in we'll update the rest of the schedule as we know the travel plans we'll ask the members of the to come forward to be the politics Good.