My Worst Gambling Moment: A Painful Lesson Learned

The worst moment for me, fortunately, was the last time I ever gambled. >> Wow. And it was so bad and so painful that and this is where you I can now go back and see Hashem's hand in everything. So, it was Presidents' Day, 2017. For whatever reason, at the last second, the manager text everyone in the office, "We're closed today." At that point, I was gambling like crazy and my wife didn't know. And I told my wife, you know, "It's Presidents' Day, they're giving us off. She had work and my kids at school." And as far as my wife knew, I hadn't gambled in a year. So, I'm like, "Maybe I'll go to the casino today." She's like, "Oh, but you don't have money cuz we just moved to a new place and we had to pay rent and we saved up all our money to pay." I should have turned around and went home. But I couldn't. Within 2 hours, I was done. All the money. And now I was petrified because I can't replace that in by the time when my rent is due.