The Secret Life of Queen Esther - Women's Purim Class

the yeshiva dotnet names and Judaism entire are always significant the Gomorrah tells us a masochist humor a mayor dyad Bhishma Ramaiya would even tune in and focus on the name of a person but generally names are considered meaningful and insightful the Megillah that is read on Purim is called enmesh niacin and gomorrah among the Hazael and in the works of halacha until today we call it McGillis Esther the scroll of Esther that name though requires explanation obviously Esther is one of the key characters in the entire story but nonetheless as the Megillah puts it as Mimer Mordecai Esther I saw Esther followed the instructions of Martha hi when the Megillah introduces first the Jewish angle into the story of a hash wash it starts off issue who di abou shushanna bearish my Martha hi there was a Jewish man a yahoodi who lived in shushanna beer in the capital of the Persian Empire which my Martha hi Ben Yair and shimmy been quiche is she Minnie and then the Megillah continues saying how Martha hi nurtured and took Esther into his home since she was an orphan she had no father she had no mother and therefore when they took Esther to the palace Mordecai felt personal responsibility for her bacala in VO him everyday Marduk I walked in the courtyard of the King to find out la das Aslam Esther to inquire on the welfare of Esther and generally as the Megillah describes Esther remained loyal to the instructions the guidance the mentorship of Mordecai both before this event before she was taken as a queen to the Persian king and afterwards of course it's Martha hi who's the one who notified Esther first about the evil edict against her people and pleaded with her to go speak Turkish Irish and the way the Megillah sums it up is as Miami Murdock is Teresa cashiers Eva Alomar daca Esther was following the mentorship the guidance of martha hi thus one would expect perhaps the Megillah to be called McGillis mordecai or McGillis Mordecai the Esther the Megillah of Mordecai and Esther Martha hi being such an instrumental part in the story as Esther was or maybe McGillis Esther Oh Martha hi since it's Esther who was the actual Queen but that's not the name the name of the Megillah is exclusively McGillis Esther it's the story of Esther now Hanukkah we have a megillah' it's called McGillis Antiochus it's called McGillis Antiochus it's read till today and it's not about everywhere but it's read in some communities on Hanukkah McGillis Antiochus it just never made it into what's called Caesarea coitus one of the books of Tanith the Megillah of Purim you would expect maybe to be called McGillis Akash parish he was the one who was the king maybe McGillis home on Rockhouse ravish but you want to focus not on the Gentile enemies of the Jewish people huh menorah Harish those who brought the salvation could have been called McGillis Purim it could have been given another name representing the miracle it could have been called in the name of Martha sorry the name of the salvation of the Jewish people ultimately the name that was chosen by Tara was and the name employed by house Allah throughout all of the generations till today is McGillis Esther it's the book the scroll of Esther the Gemara Nagila tracted Magilla the tractate and Talmud dedicated to poor him on page seven design I'm at Olive 7 a tells the following story shawl column Esther comin Esther after the story of Purim sent a message to the sages the sages of the time with the request the request consisted of two words Cavani ladoris establish me for generations what did she mean Rashi explains she asked them to take the events of Purim and turn it into a young to turn it into a holiday let it become a day of Thanksgiving a day of gratitude a day of celebration a day of telling the story and this was a message to the spiritual leaders of the Jewish people at the time the hakama is there knowing the sages the wise men or sometimes we'll call them Camejo Sanhedrin the sages of the Sun hadn't at that time Clouser all the Jewish nation was governed by a body of 71 members which you would might call the Jewish Supreme Court we call them the Sanhedrin ordained ordained by a by each one had to be ordained person-to-person all the way back to my sharavino so there was a direct unbroken link from Masha Rubino which is what always gave Jewish tradition its vibrancy and its sense of intimacy and reality because you can always point to the previous generation there was an unbroken Messiah an unbroken tradition moisture himself appointed seventy sages to work with him in Parsons balalaika and then for each generation one of these 71 had to ordain others yahushua and then throughout the generations including in the days of Mordecai and Esther which is the end of the 70 years of the Babylonian exile the first temple was destroyed by Nebuchadnezzar 586 before the Common Era according to the general calendar and approximately seven decades later when the Jews are in Iran under the persian/farsi Empire which defeated the Babylonian Empire when the VUCA Nets are the monarch destroyed the first-base emitters but seven decades later Babylonia was defeated by bolonia present-day Iraq was defeated by Iran by a hush virus who was now the Persian Emperor person monarch and in that era that were also son hadron the chief the leader was Martha hi you had personalities like a guy Sariah Malathi who are the last profits of the Tanakh people like Ezra Nehemia Zubov L who would be the people making the first the second Aliyah from exile from Babylonia back there it's a stroll to rebuild the second base some English Esther sends a message to all of these sages with a request Kovu nila dyrus established my story as a timeless Jewish holiday and you know what their response was absolutely not why why their words kena at my rarest Elena Batum asylum you will you will trigger you will arouse the fires of anti-semitism you will fan the embers you will fan the flames of Jew hatred kena at Marisol a no you will bring our jealousy zealousness negativity animosity among the nations of the world towards the Jewish people it's better if Purim is hush hush hush and as Rashi explains what's this celebration going to be about Harmon hung ten children of hummin hung all of the enemies of the Jewish people killed during the wars on the 13th day of other Irish various appointing martyr hires as Prime Minister Martha Hayat symbol of whoosh male host why you hood am i sorry of a simple composition recur what do we needed for key not Marisol a no this is not the way we're happy it happened and now let's move on interesting response tester and Esther responded back and said you got it wrong how like farc sue varney bc frame al k mother you pour us in their books the whole story is written you all know the story let that least the Jewish people know the story they know this story you're trying to hide from people you can't tie they know everything they're aware of everything in your mind they may not be aware but they know everything it's all written down it's all transcribed in their chronicles at least let the Jewish world understand the story and then the Gemara continues Esther's asked them for something else Kosovo Neela Doris don't only celebrate for him as a holiday I want you to write down the story and it will become part of the sacred what we call canonized text of the Tanakh and once again they said absolutely not and their source their source was a verse from michl a chelation Valeri bei him that the story of blotting out Amalek and hominid ascendant of Amalek is to be three times in the Tanakh and the three are taken up parsha especially partially saints a which is partial sucker we just read this up as before Purim and finally Shmuel Aleph patient peyrac tests above small 1 samuel 1 chapter 15 the after departures after the story of King Saul Saul hemella being commanded to go blot out a bowl lake but he asked compassion he leaves the King alive agog alive and as the Gomora says ha man ha Gogi hummin is called an alga guy because he was a descendant of a gog the king of our Malik in the Midrash says it was that night when Schmoyer allowed when Sheol allowed a gog to live that he had ultimately he had ultimately had relations which caused the seed of Amun to be born generations later three times Bashar marquisate say and the haftorah and then the Gomorrah says the Sun Hedren inquired and researched and investigated and they realized that Esther was right from the SU command parses mashaallah sighs I see car the safer serves Oh easy Cara be safer that ultimately the Megillah the story of Purim should be written and written doesn't only mean written physically documented but written means that the text becomes a sacred text the writing itself is becomes holy and significant we read the Megillah and and we get less to be written on parchment and you have to hear every word of the Megillah it's not just a story of Purim the written story assumes tremendous significance that concrete writing on the wall or writing on the parchment is what Esther accomplished Kosovo nila Daris which would explain why the Megillah would be called McGillis Esther because it's not just a story about her soso about other people but really she is the one who is responsible for the Megillah for the fact that we have this scroll of Esther and it's sacred significance as a member of the Tanakh but which only brings us to the next question why did Esther go out so much on a limb for this to the point that she had to stand up to great great people great men who initially rejected both of her requests they acquiesced they realized that Esther was right but why did Esther from all people feel so compelled to the point that she is the one who asked for the Megillah to happen the fact that she asked for the Megillah to happen is because there's something about the Megillah that is uniquely connected to her and that's why the name is McGillis Esther allow me to change the subject for a moment but not completely everybody knows that the day before Purim the 13th day of other is a unique day and its name from time and memorial is highness Esther literally the fast of Esther throughout the Jewish calendar we have different fasts we have Yom Kippur a fast of Yom Kippur we have the fast coltish above which is the date the ninth of of Shiva Sabha Thomas we have a fast called Sangha Dahlia day after a Shoshanna it commemorates the assassination of a Jew named gundalia the son of a Hickam who was appointed by the Babylonian monarch before the Purim story to be the head of the Jewish community in Judea now it's his shot after the destruction and his assassination was really a terrible blow and a new current in Jewish history we of course have the other fasts sorry but Avis 10th of tavis this fast which this year like always is a day before Purim this year Wednesday tomorrow is not cool Thainess you'd gimel other consistent with the other fast church the motion of awesome a Thomas or choice yesterday by other choice also by the 13th of other it has a name kindness Esther the fast of Esther if every name is significant as we mentioned before McGillis Esther let's think for a moment about the name - Esther why is the fast given the name Thainess Esther at first glance most people who have read the Megillah will answer the question and it seems like a no-brainer when Martha hi begged Esther to go in to her husband Akash parish and plead with them for the Jewish people Esther finally acquiesced and said I will go over Haines over Alamelu a shallow hadass I will enter into the King not according to the regulations and the laws which are share of oddity of oddity but before that Esther tells Mordecai Lake noises Kaleo them go gather all the Jews but sooo more lie I want you to fast don't eat and don't drink for three consecutive days and I mean days of 24-hour period sly love ahem gamma Nev and IO you say oh it's okay we shall oh so fast me and the young women who helped me my assistants will oh so fast by Heba I'm Ashley she on the third day but till Bosh Esther malkos Esther dresses up in royalty and she enters into the King jeopardy her very life and she told Martha if he doesn't stretch out the golden scepter I come out of this audience with a head shorter a COS dose illumise Esther thus is the one who initiated the fast she is the one who told Martha hi go gather all of the Jews in Isis coli or them all the Jews on him sorry mr. Shah all the Jews over ProQuest weak at length like niacin I'm sorry I'm assertion on the whole the not with who the transformation so we understand who is the one who conceived of the fast it was Esther Martin if I had to implement it he was the leader on the ground Esther was in the palace but it was her idea she conceived the ideas she instructed Martha try to do it and he went and he did it she also said I almost gonna fast this would then explain why it's called Tinus Esther it's really Esther's fast it's her baby it's her idea she came up with it we're fasting because of her yet as many of the commentators explained this is really a very problematic explanation and I'll explain to you why who knows when tynus this time is this fast of Esther when did it happen it happened on Pesach it has nothing to do with the day before poor let's remember the history Harmon shows through a lot the thirteenth day the 13th day of Adar as the designated day monoliths lana for genocide the day in which every Jew in the Persian Empire which means every Jew would be Halil exterminated lahar Schmitt Valera this call are you who didn't mean I've adds up of inertia children older people men women every age every stripe every blue conceivable on the face of the planet which who was under the provinces under the governance of a frustration at the time because of the massive Persian Empire you had no Jews yet in the United States of America you had notes before Christopher Columbus you had no Jews yet in Australia you had no Jews yet in New Zealand you had no Jews in Japan or China the Jews were concentrated in the provinces the 127 provinces under Aakash Mary wishes rule one day designated to murder each and every one of them hi Alicia this is the 13th day of other designated when was the decree signed when did the king sign this edict and the answer is the Megillah says on the 13th day of Nissen which means 11 months earlier so on the 13th day of Nissen an edict came out from the king that in eleven months exactly 11 months round exactly 11 months 13th of listen to the 13th of other you with me the Jews should be exterminated on that day Mordecai hears about the decree and what happens he rents his garments he sends a message to the Queen to Esther but to sell her Malcolm I Esther was overwhelmed from trepidation when she hears this she sends back the message I can't go in without permission I'll be killed Martha she responds and says rather Hatzolah this is your responsibility me I'd am lays cause I see got Lamaze perhaps this is the reason you became the queen bee a day Esther sends back a message okay go gather all the Jews and fast for three days I will also fast on the third day she goes into the king when were these fast days if the decree came out on the 13th of Anacin so the fast days were the next three nights and days so it was the 14th of Nisan the 15th of Nisan and the 16th of necen Erev Pesach the first day of Pesach of the second day of pace some of the sages argue that the fast actually happened right away that day which means the fast was you'd give a listen your Dollard miss and entice Roughness two days before pacer in the first day of pace to the point that Mordecai sent back a message the Damaris says how could we fast on pacer you know what a fast on pace I'm paced if there's a mitzvah to eat matzah I'm pacer pace of kazaar yom tov we make kiddush we eat matzah we have meals there's a seder pace even though it was an excellent they couldn't bring a carbon pacer but there's still a biblical mince routine Matt's on pace there are bhinneka mitzvot to drink four cups of wine to eat it when you recline to eat more etc etc how can you suggest this and Esther responds to Martha thigh in a nice Rolla Molly Pesach without Jews what are you gonna do with your Pesach there's no Pesach if you're not gonna have Jews in the world there's no pay so who's gonna celebrate Pesach now we have to focus on saving the Jews and that's why the Megillah continues via very modified which literally means Mordecai transgressed asks the gomorrah withered Mordecai transgress he instituted a fast on Pesach for all of the Jewish people including for himself and this was the idea of Esther so when was this fast as fast was not on the 13th of order this fast was a pacer you'd given this in your Dollard miss and test of all venison or your Dollard miss and testimo Venus anti-zionist which by the way the third day of the fast Esther goes into her king - the king he of course accepts her with grace he says what do you want Esther I'll do anything for you advocacy I'm Alice and she invites him to a party which is why it's broad in halakha employ skip that on the second day of pacer that's a very interesting haha you should add something extra to the meal why save her commemoration to the meal that Esther threw the party that Esther threw for a flesh parish in Hama because if the fast happened you'd gimel you'd Allah tests evolve so tests love was the third day she went in on the first day of pacer she invited a fresh very wish to a meal that evening and of course there was a lot of drinking of wine and Esther of course made sure there should be a lot of wine she wanted to drink four cups of wine by the say that had he supposed to drink four cups of wine in the palace maca Spanish so she made sure there's a lot of wine so our Spanish could drink and Harmon should drink and she can also drink her four cups of wine ah yeah yes she brought rabbi Landau in the bodice to supervise the party it was at night it was after the fast she broke hers she broke her fast she broke her fast the second night of basic human obscene he shall go deus in persia doesn't say at the party to his comments a fresh Spanish can he come at some pace so how much can he come at some pace not a problem so hurry up to dieter I hate him she can they can have other couples but it anyway who says there was humus it was all gluten-free what do you think and and then during the meal a fresh Raider says what do you want now she says I want a second party when is the second party what we call the second thing which sorry the second day of pace because I that's the second party so either Tusayan was the first party if the fast was you dollar to self-designed that was the first party with the second party that's why it says in a locker that on the second day of Pesach you make a commemoration for the mr. Shah sister Esther we do something special at the second meal in order to commemorate that but this opinion or that opinion it's obvious that the three days of fasting we're not here to give milada the 13th of other so the Tinus esther that we are celebrating is not that fast we're fasting before porter that fast happened a year before the events important and the month of Missa sorry the fact that we fast one day and that fast for three days so you can explain what we don't want to fast three days it's difficult one day is also difficult for people but three days and three nights I don't have to elaborate on what that means it was like a unique moment in Jewish history so we can't do it for three days and three nights it would be something that the Khazar would not Institute but besides the fact that it's a change from three to one even if you want to rationalize that it's a completely different date than the calendar if they want to make us safer for the fast of Esther they're probably not going to commemorate it in the month of Nissen and on Pesach cause we don't have a right to cancel out to say that to commemorate a fast but you can make it at another date and generally the Gomorrah says when you want to make a fast and you can't make it on that day you always delay you don't make it earlier you delay it to do it somehow time in the month of year after the month of miss so tightness Esther can't mean that fast it's a completely different fast that fast I understand why it's called Esther's fast but I'll fast the day before put him in London with Esther Weissach Alton assess it's even interesting the Messiah's safe from says that some people used to have a commemoration for Esther's fast and after Purim they fast on a Thursday on a Monday and on a Thursday to commemorate the three days of estrus fast so there was actually a special commemoration for that fast that was done after pouring which also requires explanation why it's done before and not later usually we say fasts usually fast let's say tisha buffers on Shabbos you don't fast before you fast after and the reason is the Kamara says that peroneus negative things you don't make them earlier you delay them later with kindness Esther you sometimes do it earlier if put him is Sunday you can't fast on Shabbos because you can't push it off a day later because it's gonna be pouring so you do it earlier but here according to the Messiah decide for him when they commemorate the three-day fast they don't do it after Nissen they do it before Nissen they do it in other but they do it after Purim and that's why thou who draw Hamra Baynard Ovid of order ham and many of their other of the greater logical theories explain that tiniest Esther is a completely different type of fast it has nothing to do with the three day fast and Esther instituted because that wasn't connected to the 13th of other it has to do with something else completely remember when Hamid was killed the edict was not over hummons death was a nice event in the sense that a woman was killed such an arch enemy of the Jewish people it was a cause for celebration but not for ultimate celebration to give a simple and tragic example if in middle of the Holocaust an iseman would have been shot or a himmler would have been shot or a Mengele would have been shot or a bubbles would have been shot in maximum it wouldn't have altered the Holocaust one of its key architects or implementers would have been eliminated the edict was out hummons edict was out on the 13th of other every Jews should be exterminated this was an edict of the king every man woman and child hummin is gone but the decree was there which is why in chapter 8 of the Megillah but toys if Esther Esther comes back but his scan and the Freya melody she pleads before the king she falls by his feet but temple if near Adam and she begs him to cancel and obliterate the scheme of hominid gonggi Mojave destroys maximus I'm gonna go give why astronomic is dead but the decree is still there and what's the response of the king he says I can't change the decree it's already signed and I cannot cancel a decree that was issued for it by the King what does he agree on you know what he agreed on he agreed on that the Jews could stand up in self-defense people don't realize they think that with purium who was all over wasn't over when Haman was hung for the next year Jews had to prepare for war because on the 13th day of other there was a royal edict to go kill Jews what a hush virus gave in while he gave in to Esther is he allowed the Jews to stand up against their enemies you could kill back you could defend yourself and come back which is what the Jews did on the thirteenth of other so eleven months later when the thirteenth of other came it wasn't an easy day there was a very serious day because old arm Allah kites and all the Jew haters rose to kill this was their prerogative from the king the difference was over the year with Marta high as a prime minister and Esther as a queen and a hush virus turned favorably to the Jewish people so many people backed out there was a general or and respect for the Jewish people the regime the government was assisting any more than mullah kites and the jeweler is with the murder but the Jew still had to defend themselves says that wood rom something very interesting based on our shelters which is we have a hollow ha interceptor moussaka Steines when Jews went to war a day when Jews went to war they used to be geyser Thainess they used to make a fast on that day because a time this is an a Surratt site it's a day that special suitable for prayer and powerful blessings and achievements and therefore when they went to warn they needed extra success hats lock Abraha success and blessings in their endeavor they used to always issue forth at inés they would make a fast too fast on that very day to pray and fast that the war should the victor victory should come they should triumph over their enemies since the thirteenth of other was a day of war of battle the Jews as the passage says nickyloo the armored an option they gathered together to stand up for their soul so it became a day of a fast as the gomorrah says you'd give most manky he lola coil he was a time of gathering what type of gathering one of the interpretations is gathering for war that to prepare for battle and another interpretation is they gathered oh so key gila it was a time of gathering was a time of special prayer special benedictions and as the foudre ham quotes from the shelters and the tie self there would have been a young kindness a day of fasting oh if that's the case we understand why the thirteenth of other is a day of fasting because the day before Purim was a day when they fasted just like we commemorate the celebration we also commemorate the serious moments before the celebration the time of fasting as you'd Gimbel other was a day of war and as the Megillah describes on the 13th of other they fought back their enemies who came to kill them and they triumphed and on the fourteenth of order they could rest because now the day was over there was no permission to kill anymore now anybody who would try to kill a Jew would be penalized by death perhaps and therefore you dollar they can go home and relax and celebrate which is why Purim is on your dollar and the fast is on you'd get moe on the 13th they fasted the day of the war and the day after the war they relaxed in Shushan with the war continued for two days because there were so many are mullah kites there Esther felt that the Jews will not be safe because so many murderers remained intact and they will find every reason an excuse to kill Jews the King extended the right for self-defence another day and they only rested when on the fifteenth day they only rested on the fifteenth day therefore they celebrate Purim on the day fifteen Shushan Purim this is the reason that vu drama and many of the commentators give for the fast of Esther why don't we fast in the 13th they have other because it was a day when the Jewish people fasted because it was a day of battle it was a day of danger it was a day of self-defense which brings us back to the question so wise occult ina sister was a disaster what does it have to do with Esther it has to do if it's the first interpretation which we refuted I understand why it's Esther because she initiated the plan but we explained that it has nothing to do with that that happened by pacer this is a faster day before Purim that's why it's dinner you'd give all other why is it called time assess to the fast of Esther so some superficially would say what why not Magilla says that is Esther you know Russian rifle Ellucian but it doesn't work that way cuz McGillis antennas there are two separate creatures and McGillis Esther has to do tackle with Esther cause she's the one who initiated the project of the Megillah as we explained before the gomorrah says a megillah' Thainess Esther has absolutely nothing to do with her nothing the Jews had to gather together in battle it was a day of prayer it was a day of benediction it was a tightness and because it was a tightness it's a day that you fast in Yadav and Hashem and you asked our name - I share mine a know every single Jew and yet till today the essential the day the name of the day is - s - the faster Vesta to fight but the fastest nothing to do her she's got the permission to fight 100% I'm going to share with you an insight an answer that was given by the laboratory rabbit to this question he said it pulled him out of a break-in at a gathering of poor him and he said that a few days Zermatt admit the Shila part egg I struggled with this question a few days and he said put him is my Anglophile an utterance I'm poor in an answer came into my mind and this was the answer that the Lubavitcher ever gave the same toy after a massacre Steines and it's broad initial Senora IRA Higham and the laws of fasts tough go Simon - Simon tough cuff I and Oliver I think which tells us that on a day of fasting you have to make a fat on a day of war you make a fast day to increase prayers and benedictions because it's an ace Rutzen and a fast day has a very special power the same tie scepter says who is supposed to fast not the people who go to war because the people who go to war need to be as strong as possible to quote the words of the hazael there now letter fast because they cannot allow Severus kokum if they fast that may cause the Chabert column it may weaken their energy and their stamina and their vigor and therefore they're not allowed to fast they have to eat they have to drink they have to be as healthy as possible soldiers in war need to be fed well according to their capacity because they have to have all the strength they need according to tether to it so who's supposed to fast in a day of war those who stay behind the front lines whether it's older people younger people people who can't go to war women who are not due to not go to war or men who wouldn't go to war for whatever reason they would stay behind and fast what about the soldiers themselves those who went to battle so the halacha tells us intercept a tiny quarter-inch o'connor of what they're supposed to do is make a resolution that when they come back from or they're going too fast and since when a person makes a resolution moksha vltava when a person makes a positive revolution it's considered as though you did it already even though you didn't do it yet so the fact that they commit themselves too fast it's considered as though they fasted but they can't physically actually implement it when they come back from war then they could fast so everybody else who doesn't go to war they fast and they davon but those who go to war they obviously can't go to show sadly they have to go to war and they're now out of fast they have to eat and drink and those who stay behind will fast and those who go to work commit themselves to fast at a time when they can when the war is over hopefully they'll triumph and be victorious and that thought and resolution that I'm going to fast suffice is as though they fasted already now said they're ever let's think about it if this is the truth of every war those who go to war can't fast those who stay behind can fast it's based on the principle that there are those who go to war and are those who stay behind but in this particular war on the 13th day of other we were the frontlines we were the front lines of the battle that hummin initiated for the 13th day of other we were the frontlines who was targeted in this war la Hache middle era will I be this color you would mean nerve rods up in tavern usher a one day old baby in a crib was targeted a two year old girl in her room was targeted a hundred year old a hundred year old Jew frail weak in bed was targeted every man every woman and child we were the front lines bedrooms kitchens dining rooms basements couches beds outside inside indoors outdoors wherever there was a Jew of any age he or she became the target so now there's a question on the day of war you're supposed to fast but was anybody allowed to fast on that day was there even one Jew who was allowed to fast if every woman in the kitchen knows she has to pick up an axe she has to pick up a hammer she has to pick up a knife she has to fight for herself in her her little ones every kid six-year-old is a target every 12 year old is a target every 50 year-old is if everybody's a target every 80 year old manuals a turn is anybody a lot of fast the answer is no you have to eat you have to drink you have to be as strong as you need because you're a target which means that the fast of your Gimbel are there essentially was only theoretical what we say it's a fast day it's only that they committed themselves to fast because in reality nobody is a lot of the best usually when there's a war there is a battlefield front lines and there's back lines you mobilize the soldiers or you mobile the reservists they go to war but others stay behind they stay behind and they could organize life as much as possible they can assist the war in other ways but here there were no front lines and other lines there was no demarcation every bedroom was a front line which means not one Jew could practically actually fast on you gimel other everyone could only make a commitment that the Azer Hashem when we win we will then fast besides worn Jew there was only one Jew who was allowed to fast on that day who Esther the only one she was the only Jew in the entire empire after Spanish who could fast why because she was the only one who was not a target nobody would come into the palace and murder the queen of a harish who he was so enamored by but he saw hane professedly fond of and the one who he told at katsuyama house a year before and months before I'll do anything for you and for her he hung her mom and hung the ten sons of homeland and gave the Jews a right to self-defense nobody would touch her so on the 13th day of other who fasted one person so it's called - Esther said now you understand why it's called the fast of Esther she's the only one of clientele who fasted nobody else was allowed to everybody else when they finished the war they celebrated purium they took another day then they fasted and that's why that makes sense the Maseca Sorum says that they established three fast days after pouring to commemorate the fast of pace off because many Jews actually had to fast after put him there Tiny Esther was after pour it not many all so the miss after safe Moroni said they put together the too fast that fast and the three days of Esther and they have it after poor him Thursday Monday Thursday but the fast that we commemorated in the thirteenth day of our their we're commemorating the fast of Esther she's the only one who fasted everybody else fasted in theory faster than mine faster than resolution so the name kindness s is actually the most appropriate name for the day it captures the day more than any other day because it was really the faster Vestas not just she planned it she thought of it she conceived it she told mortified to do it she said I'll also fast that means she was behind it here it's much more this fast she wasn't only behind she was the only one within it she could be the only one to implement it nobody else everybody else was a legitimate target remembering again that the edict was never canceled every drew was a target they were just given a right for self-defense and when anybody is in a position of self-defense you have to be strong you couldn't tell a boy about Mitzvah boy don't worry you fast you know a lot of fast you're a woman you taking care of the babies fast I can't fast I can't fast I have to protect me and my babies everyone has to be protected besides Esther alone in the palace chic fast of heart ah Bhishma hurt the children faster than the three day fast that's where the children fasted now we're talking the fast eleven months later on the day that they had to defend themselves you're not out of fast anything that could compromise your full stamina and vigor you're not engaging because because nefesh trumps everything so therefore to say don't drink a cup of water you have to drink a cup of water you have to drink a cup of water it's very hard to battle when a person is starving and thoroughly thirsty and dehydrated etc they have to drink even if they don't have to eat a lot but they have to drink because if it could even minimize their strengths a little bit there now lotto but Esther didn't have anything to worry she and nobody was attacking her so she and her palace could fast alone which now brings us to the next to the next level to the next step I mean the next phase it is in this very insight that we could begin to appreciate the distinction between Martha hi all of the other Jewish people and Esther and I think the best way to describe it is somebody once asked me a question and it made me think this person told me was a woman said to me I have a hard time celebrating Purim I thought she would tell me because of the shallowness nightmare the pressure and stress that people put on themselves with the types of Salah commonness I said why you know Sherlock Manas you can give to one friend you can give an orange and a hamantaschen you don't have to stress yourself out you want to give to a few friends give out that she said no that's not why I have a problem with Purim I said what's your problem with poor him she said I always every year poor him I cry for Esther said why do you cry faster she says the war is over everybody goes home while you heard them I saw IRA of a simcha Vasavi car with a zest ago she stuck with a customary Anna Glick everybody is drinking and partying my life negate some of components my mother's love unit and she stuck with us Raiders I should get going from Persia an inebriated monarch he said what a tragedy what a sad story I cry fast every year it was an interesting observation but her question is also her answer the question gives us insight into Esther and this is the key difference between Martha and all the Jews versus Esther indeed Mordecai was Esther's parent in many ways mentor guy relative he took her in after she was orphaned from her father and mother according to some opinions in castle they even got married by he Lola basaltic rule abbas al allah bias not only a daughter initially but also ultimately a life's partner which is why when Esther had to go into the King without permission she says - murder - a share of oddity of oddity and we read it with the tune of a huh the car share of oddity of oddity why is this such a sad moment in the Megillah what does Esther mean sera she explained something very very very very sensitive and Rashi says that till this point every time Esther was together with a Farish it was against her will she had no choice Vaati laka Esther Alamelu she was taken to the king this would be the first time she would initiate a relationship the first art every other time she remained passive she did what she did and her life were saved but she remained passive this is the first time as Rashi says Sheila bonus acts of Bharat say it's the first time she is initiating a relationship which would of course mean that she could not go back to Marduk I towards because since it wouldn't be by coercion it would be willingly and voluntarily the harsh air of oddity of oddity she wouldn't be able to go back to Martha hi it would also mean that she's not only forfeiting physical sacrifices she's forfeiting a spiritual spiritual gift she's forfeiting as you would say not only something in this world but something very precious to her soul focaccia of oddity of oddity Esther is the one who goes into the palace who stays in the palace who lives in the palace and who influences our heritage from within the palace this is a completely different experience than Martha hi and now we have to ask ourselves this question if there was a Jewish woman a graduate from Saresh sneers base Jakov in nineteen she founded by jacques of in 1917 or 1918 and krakow and within a few years the movement blossomed it was quite a historic phenomenon to have schools for girls in the turn of the 20th century and our valedictorian graduate of a base Jakov in Cracow or enlarge in 1938 in 1938 would be summoned to the Berghoff to the residence of Adolf Hitler Maxima in Bavaria and she would know she would know that as a result of her work her impact her influence her intervening the Holocaust would not take place the war September 1 1939 Uzziah Nell Otto Frisch Sadiq tests would be avoided and the six million Jews sent to their gas chambers including one and a half million children all of their lives would have been rescued you see when we look at history we never asked the question what if things would have turned out differently all of history is a focus of what happened not what might have happened but Azzo Holcomb Harrison island a wise person sees the future doesn't only see what happened but also sees what might happen and what I could have do to avoid it and then when they avoid it nobody knows the story and him well there's nothing to write home about nothing happened but that's the real story that's the real story Esther left her people left her nation remained in the palace but till her last breath Esther knew that because of her every single Jew of her generation was rescued and the Jewish people will remain on eternal people is this a tragic story or is it a joyous story on one level there was sadness in the story Esther herself doesn't understand how she ended up in this place where do I come here the Midrash says very famous medicine to hilum capital Hough Bay's 22 and to hilum l'm not say a lie Ellis a shocker Miz Marla dove it Kayle Kayle lamar's of tony and our sages say who said this poem of theorem Esther Homolka my God my God why did you abandon me and the way the metrics puts it the way the Med which puts it is when Esther was taken to our hush where is the first time and she entered a Palace full of pagan deities called base at slummin says before Christianity but I'll excuse me excuse my powder a house full of deities Tichina left Esther the Divine Presence left Esther because she was in this place what does she say Kayle Kayle Lama Asif Tony my God my God why did you abandon me ha dong shy gate Khmer Zedd Verona's Korat sign something was forced upon me you're looking at it as though I did this willingly as though I embraced this life for myself and the matters continues the first day she said Cayley the second day she said Cayley the third day she screamed out on the top of her lungs Kayle Kayle Lamar Asif Tony and the meddra says Cayley on the red sea Cayley on Mount Sinai and now you abandon me Esther felt it's a new error in Jewish history the Gomorrah says Esther salesman on Evora st represents the end of prophecy l'm not saith allah ellis hasha fire it's dawn before dawn is the strongest of darkness the era of prophecy comes to an end in the time of Esther the word Esther means concealment a noisy hast there a stir pond I by Yamaha who I will conceal my face that day and the mattress continues my God my God why did you abandon me why has the world collapsed on me miss Donna allies situation Euler it's not the way the world is supposed to go this is not what I planned as a teenager I was supposed to graduate school move on build a future in the Jewish world build a home built a family build an identity this was not part of my resume I never asked for this I didn't sign up for this life they stand on my city shillelagh and then she adds they stand no lies Cinderella Moyes the jewish matriarchs didn't have to deal with what i have to deal with why Sarah was also abducted by para and Pyrrha held her in his palace for one night and he and his entire family were struck with leprosy and infections and diseases they didn't know what hit them and para let Sarah go she says and I have been for years in the bosom of this Russia Marusia the a not to isolate listen no miracles for me they entire system of the matriarchs is gone Kayle Kayle llamas of Tony why did you abandon me and the Madras continues she says the word Kayle three times Kayle Kayle llamas Afton Amy Betten Amy Kaylee otter from the womb you have been my god and now you have abandoned me amra Esther Xiaohua Schmitz voice his heart Alisha my God my God my God my God has given me three mitzvahs three opportunities for a powerful relationship number one as the madrix puts it neither kala and had Lucas had Lucas an heir the acronym of Hana kala which represents the whole system of Castro's in the house hot Lucas on a which is the lighting of the candles before Shabbos which represents the whole ambience and atmosphere of Shabbos and the ability to create light in the house and the third Mitzvah the noon which is neither which represents the entire foundation of a family and a marriage and family purity and intimacy and relationships permeated with an ambiance of closeness and sacredness and holiness Klum of volatile a Kozma and Lamas of Tony have I transgressed even one my God my God my God have been loyal in all three why did you abandon me this struggle only Esther went through nobody else went through Martha joy was a great and holy man he gave the instructions but he didn't end up where Esther ended up Mordecai could never look and say Kayle Kayle lamaze off Tony Martha had remained in a cocoon of holiness Martha she remained in a cocoon of spirituality Martha she remained with his brothers and sisters he had to struggle he had to stand up he rent his garments he cries he weeps he issues forth a fast he gathers all the Jewish people the Metis describes how he gathered 22,000 children and learned to them it's incredible but who experience the Hester who experienced the Aster asked upon 9 the real concealment life who went into the lion's den who went into a palace of a various who himself was to put it mildly an inebriated intoxicated spineless immoral promiscuous party animal who went into that place and had to play the game and had to fulfil her role and when point when push came to shove in a moment of crisis shroom our decide is the one who said go and she said how can I go I'm gonna die and murders I said this is why you're there but once that happened who is the one who went who is the one who jeopardized her lie his life not Martha it was Esther who went and it was Esther who at that point takes the initiative and she tells Martha hi go gather the Jews fast for three days and I will go into the King at this point Mordecai's influence comes to a halt that now Esther tells more than I what to do and she goes into the King and she makes one party and she makes another party nobody gave her these ideas this was estrous own creativity of going into that place and ultimately emerging with a victory for her people that's why the Megillah has the name of Esther because herb role here is of a completely different caliber and of a completely different nature than anybody else even people like Martha High of such great power and such important influence even on Esther's life the fact that Esther is the only one who could fast on your gimble other is because she's only the only one who was actually in the palace she is the one who's there so now when you think about this on one level it's a stir it's such a concealment it interrupted her whole life flow she turns to God and said what did I do am i such a bad girl am I such a evil person that I asked for this tell me what I did to be four years and let's remember the poor a miracle didn't happen a day after Esther became a queen she became a queen on the seventh year of his kingship the story of Purim happens approximately five or six years later what those five six years look like people think Esther went into the palace the next day there was a party like who them I said no no no we read it in 25 minutes I Micaiah from my eben matter we go through 12 13 years and and if it's a fast ball career 11 minutes I'll give me give me 22 minutes and I'll give you the Persian Empire okay I don't know what type of ball Curtis you have I know some ball carriers they do it in seven eight minutes I know how you're supposed to hear the Megillah but tried it didn't happen in seven eight minutes it didn't even happen in 35 minutes it happened over more than a decade a decade and a half for many years that's why she says sorrow was one night by pyro and the whole universe changed and I'm there in his bosom for years there was no climax and Esther didn't know what's coming nobody knew what's coming and one would think one would think in such a moment in such a position Esther would do one of two things either she would at some point surrender surrender her old identity just to be able to integrate and have somewhat of a normal life or Esther would become amazingly stubborn defiant bitter miserable stone like the uniqueness of Esther is that Esther understood that she may not understand how she may not understand why but that she's no victim she was sent into a place where very few people were sent Sarah did not experience such concealment that's true Sarah comes from the word SAR SAR means Sarah a princess a leaders the words are common with shara shara means leadership rulership Sarah comes lured Sarah like yeah previous royal key sorry similar convey Menasha Botelho Esther is the word concealment who has a baby and names them concealment we all take for granted the name Esther it's a beautiful name because we have right and I know what a beautiful name Esther is for personal reasons as well however think about the first author of the name what would your therapist say what's your girl's name concealment or better dark secrets wow that's a great boost for self-confidence cover-ups better what's your name cover-ups isn't that great psychologically and yet we continue to name our daughters Esther concealment and the Gemara says this what's the source of Esther and Tyra Hoss their Astor pond a biome oh my face is concealed because that is the whole beauty and the power of Esther Esther goes into a place will you pick up your hands and you say Kayle Kayle Lama Asif Tony why did you abandon me I feel abandoned the course of my life that rejection that sure Chapter II of my life is completely off balance this was not part of it I'm a broad person but this was not part this was not part of it right as Tevye says God I know we're the chosen people but can't you choose somebody else once in a while or as Elie Wiesel used to say chosen but not always for benefits so Esther says maybe for somebody else this is a great privilege Kayle Kayle lamas of tony with wool the explanations of them Andres and yet what Esther knows at this moment is she's talking to God she calls him my God my God my God why did you abandon me I may not understand how I may not understand why but Esther never ever becomes a victim to her circumstances Esther understand that she was sent into a place of Hester she was sent into a place of concealment there is a mission here there was a divine mission near a divine opportunity and therefore every moment she remains open and when she's convinced by Martha high that this is the moment Esther says over Hayne over Alamelu Hashem hadass Oh me a day aimless because I say got Lamaze and the words of Martha hi are me idea who knows as we spoke in a previous year Martha if I should have not said who knows when you say who knows it sounds like you're ambivalent who knows maybe yes maybe not I'm gonna tell you jump into the fire maybe maybe maybe not why me I deal with Martha I was telling Esther is there comes a point in life we have to open yourself up to that which is beyond the dass if you go with your rational calculations this whole thing doesn't make sense I can't explain why a lovely graduate of one of our best girls schools in Muncie or in Shushan ended up in this place I don't know me or idea it's beyond us which is why we celebrate Purim through odd de loyola beyond us we spoke about the eight sadhus you go beyond us Esther with das with with regular rationality what is this you abandoned me Esther understands that here the relationship is a completely different type of relationship it's a relationship if you look at it from a surface point of view you feel neglected abandoned but she has to dig much much deeper and realize that the relationship must be elevated to a place that is etched in the core of her soul in a place that's even beyond your rational consciousness and she remains open to that and as she remains open to that she says over LML Akash alloy shadows it's not according to the structure murder if I said me idea and it triggers within her the ability to go beyond her das and she knows God is there even if it's completely master I can't see it I can't touch it I can't feel it I can't smell it and from all calculations and perspectives this whole thing doesn't make sense and in that space she's now acting as a classical Persian queen we're making a party with hormone with a horseradish and the Gemara says it was so bad that the Jews looked at Esther as the ultimate trader who does she invite to a party may work estranged Hummer imagine an influential woman in 1943 has a feast and who does she write she invites her husband and naturally and who's the guest of honor to celebrate at the party she invites a Hitler that was hormone he marched that was harm on a maxim oh mr shalom maybe it's the same thing the gomorrah says the jews looked at esther in either's as an expression alpharetta you know what a father is so though you - huh I forget there a trader I began in Hebrew beget of the worst degree maybe you're in the palace he is now your guest Esther has to endure a concealment on many levels nobody understands what she's doing this is her brilliant strategy she completely goes into the role she doesn't run away but in that place of absolute concealment of absolute spiritual paralysis a place that looks like the epitome of spiritual death Esther is holding on to a secret knowing that she is on a mission even if she can't understand how and why and this she could share with nobody Mordecai could wink but he stays on the outside he never goes in Esther goes into the Hester she's the one who goes in there and when she emerges from it what happens all of the Jewish people are saved until the end of generations everybody looks at Esther and knows she sacrificed everything her life turned out completely different than she imagined as a youngster and this is after the trauma of not having a father not having a mother she's been through enough before this story it was almost like trauma after trauma after trauma and yet in that place in Esther she reveals that our note II asked her asked upon a by Emma who I am present in the Hester you never ever a victim to any darkness you were sent into the darkest places to be able to bring a unique light to the world and when Esther breathed her last breath and she looked at her life what could she tell herself she could tell herself that the cause of her every single Jew in the Persian Empire has survived not only for that generation but today 2600 years later we could sit here in a tent in 2019 era of Thainess Esther Thompson I intense because of the one woman so I told this woman remember in the middle of a conversation with a woman who's having a hard time celebrate poor him I gave her the brief reversion I told her I understand what you're saying and I can't really answer your question but I just want to give you another perspective and I asked her how would have you felt if you your whole course of your life was transformed but you knew that from 1939 to 1945 not one Jew would have been murdered because of you and because of you doing crazy stuff and strange stuff not according to the course of the life that you designated for yourself would you look at yourself in the mirror and say I'm a tragedy I'm a victim of tragedy or you would look at yourself and be thankful I said you don't have to answer me the question and this doesn't mean that Esther didn't have a pocket of sadness over certain opportunities that other people had that she did not have that maybe it may be true but at the end of the day when Esther looks at herself what does she see she sees a person literally who saved the entire Jewish world in a story that we would have never known what it looked like because Esther avoided it so when Purim is over Esther comes to the hakumen and she says Cavani ladoris I want you to establish this day as a holiday they say now anti-semitism next assess don't talk to me about anti-semitism I have been there they know everything about the Jews let the Jews know about the Jews the only one who thinks that Jews are normal or Jews the only state that thinks it's a regular state is Israel nobody else thinks that Israel is a regular country but he knows Israel is different the Jewish people are different the Jews Redden's a sign that with cosmetic surgery psychologically we'll be able to out Gentile the Gentiles so he dr. tour he tells the famous story or they say from him that it was once on an airplane and he was wearing his Casa de garde round black hat square white beard long frat long black coat and a woman turns to him in unison says you are the cause for anti-semitism if you would only dress normally and be normal and behave normal and speak normal and integrate and assembly there would be no anti-semitism anymore and after torski in a perfect oxford english asks the Yiddish speaking woman what language are you communicating and I fail to comprehend the verbiage of your dialect what language are you conversing in she says Yiddish he says oh that's so sweet but I don't really understand you because I am Amish and she looks at him and she says wow I love the Amish and he says why and she says because you're a minority but you maintain your heritage with such dignity and pride I really respect you kudos to the Amish and now it's his turn to respond in Yiddish and he says a high before give an Amish custom if lib yest as it's been I eat some stirs a Smith mirror if I would have been Amish you'd love me now that I'm Jewish I'm one of your own you're embarrassed by me I bless you to be able to appreciate in your own people that which you can appreciate in other people so Esther is here saying a message that reverberates to this very day Jews are always blaming anti-semitism if we would only be different be normal have longer noses shorter noses more money less money more assimilated more integrated more compromises they would love as Esther says you're reading the map wrong you don't know what's going on how like super neither mouthed him are their parts let Jews understand what happened but that's not enough for Esther Esther ones Kosovo nila tires the Megillah should be written at first glance you could say why does Esther needed so much why does Esther needed so much at the surface when I say Esther wants to be famous she wants that for the rest of our lives we should all read about Esther Esther Esther Esther's life was a very different life the reason Esther wanted it written down is because Esther wanted to teach the Jewish people two major lessons many major lessons but two of the major lessons is this number one she wanted to teach every Jewish woman and every Jewish girl for the remainder of history that they should understand that they have the ability to change the world and they have the ability to impact their entire people and they have the ability to transform situations from darkness into light sometimes a person looks at themselves and underestimates who they are Esther wants Kosovo nila dirties write a document that people a woman and a girl should understand what type of light she can have in the world what type of impact she can have in the world and what type of influence and transformation would not be who she can create to the point that she could save single-handedly the entire Jewish people that's why I still wanted to be written now she wanted a Jewish woman to understand what lay what potential what creativity what atomic spiritual nuclear power and energy lay in her neshama lay in her soul but Esther wanted her to understand us her and us to understand one more thing and that is that sometimes when a person looks at life and all they can see is ha stare a stare cover-ups concealments confusion uncertainty and sometimes a person is throwing into a place they didn't ask for they didn't expect it at all they can say is Kayle Kayle llamas aft Oni why did you abandon me why did you neglect me people sometimes end up in circumstances physical or emotional or psychological or physical or spiritual and all they can say is llamas of taani if you're my god why did you abandon me and people often say the same words holla I did neither I did that Lucas and there I did I'm a fine person nest and all I see Jerusalem the world collapsed on me sometimes people face situations in the past or in the present of such adversity of such incomprehensible pain and trauma that they feel they ended up literally in base at slummin and the stream is gone there's no glimmer of hope I'm abducted and it's not even by choice I didn't choose this I didn't want this and to the point that the results say it's Hester to the point that in the whole Megillah you won't find god's name mentioned even once strange phenomenon it's a safer of tomorrow there's not one book of Tanith that doesn't have a Seamus name it's all ultimately about the God's plan for the world even should I Sheeran the poem about love and relationships has a famous name ruch a fairy she shall have us you Takei besides one McGillis Esther the whole story is a story of our shikaka practice a story of divine providence why after the story doesn't matter if I say Baruch Hashem Esther Baraka thank that Norfolk garnished they make a young tiff with mana Smetana Slavia and with mischievous simcha three chapters we have to hear about the party in this party in Shushan are doing this and there's enough not one word God did thank God no think nothing Weezer fisherman's name mentioned so that result says if you do the acronyms if you do the acronyms you'll see for example assess a turistic refresh and say yo voy remember the harm on her ohm youth cave of let the King together with home on come to the party your voice hi melis film on high and as you'd give up good that's where God is as esta invites hummin to the party and the Jews look at her as a traitor that's where our son is but the truth is that's the whole story of McGillis Esther that there's a situation in which you don't see shame our son you don't see a divine plan you don't see the vine revelation you don't see a divine name you don't see the vine province all you see is Caylee Caylee your God Lamas of Tommy the kiddush the revolution of Esther was going into that place knowing that a Jewish woman and a Jewish girl and by extension every single Jew has that ability that sometimes you're sent into a situation it's unfathomable it's incomprehensible I don't get it I don't understand it I don't know how I don't know why the last thing you do at that moment is you see yourself as a depressed and despondent victim rather there is a concealed and very powerful opportunity and mission here that you were sent on to the point that going into that place you don't have to run you don't have to deny you don't deal ejido my's yourself you don't have to enter into depression or despondency but appreciate the fact that in this place it may require your prayer may require fasting I may require tears and may require a thought but in this very place you were sent and you were sent in order to transform it and to create while you heard them I saw IRA for simcha visage and Vic are a Fralick Emporium to each and every one of you you still don't understand you know let me let me put it differently I'm gonna give you the answer that they ran rabbi known is some gifts around I'm a sucker son had one of the greatest showing him this is what he tells us he says you're asking how was Astra allowed to go to the king yeah you have to choose death instead of adultery it's not like you have a situation yeah a cafe which puts a gun to her head and says either you kill this person either you murder this drew or I kill you so that look is you can't choose murdering somebody over death you have to choose death there so you're saying my parents put a gun to her head says either you choose death or you choose adultery instead of choosing death she chose adultery you wonder why she chose adultery no she didn't choose anything everything was forced Chris Wragge is the king he's a dictator he's a tyrant he takes her there's nothing she could do the Gomorrah asks the question your question the Gomorrah asks you could look it up Talmud tractate Sanhedrin page 74 beef defyin dollar diamond vase why did esther not sacrifice her life why did esther go along with this and the gomorrah gives two answers one of abaya and one rather robber says Kaka eylem hyah which some explained it to mean that esther was completely passive she was not actively involved in this relationship but - Vera did what he did but she was passive before she was passive she's not obligated to forfeit his life that's one explanation there's the other explanation explanation I just said earlier from there Ron remain innocent and he basically says that the idea is that she wasn't given a choice between adultery and death she was basically she basically had no choice a fresh marriage is the king he's a tyrant he's a dictator he could do he could do what he wants he basically made a decree that every woman that he wants could come and he forced the Hershberger's to come he forced Esther to come so wasn't like he said either you do this or I kill you and now the question is why did she choose this over - she should have chosen death there wasn't about a choice there was no choice given to her she was taken by the king and that was it that was the issue to say that she has to go commit why should she not commit suicide well the commentators disgust us that could be Esther felt perhaps you don't just commit suicide if this if you have to kill yourself you kill yourself but if not you don't then and maybe Esther felt there was a to a submission here there was a mysterious plan here there's another explanation in Gemara the explanation of raava who says that since Akash Rajesh was doing this for his own benefit he wasn't trying to have her violate Yiddish gite transgressed Judaism it was called lejano Scotsman's for his benefit is completely his own enjoyment there was no other agenda he didn't even know she's Jewish so then there's also no obligation for her to forfeit her life but in any case this is a very large discussion in allaha what Esther was thinking as far as the issue of average if if she ever came back well as I said before the harsh air of oddity of oddity that she understood that once she's engaging in a relation for the Irish willingly she won't be able to go back to Marduk I usually the Gamora says she could be by a hush vanish and then she could go back to Martha how in fact the governor says interactive Magilla page 13 that that Esther spent time with the King and then tavella's she would submerged in water she would go to the mikveh she would bathe and then she would go back but hagar shalmar the fish she would go to the bosom of martha hi but once she's going and willingly that would end now the interesting question is did that indeed happen in other words could Esther go back to Martha's hi oh no she had relations with our country marriage the story is not clear that I can trade her just stretch out the scepter and after the Marcia over there massages Magilla page 13 clearly learns that Esther was together with a hush very willingly and therefore she couldn't go back to Martha high right with their children well that's a big discussion yeah according to some sources a restoration and and an Esther had a baby right there you've Ishtar your wish or Kyrie ratio Cyrus there's different perspectives it's not so clear there's a big debate about it but it's accepted by many many commentators that they had a child Theriot fish well that's my point my whole point was that Esther may have not had children of her own that she could call Jewish children whom she's raising in a Jewish community as part of the Jewish people that's true but let's remember every Jewish child forever is really Esther's child every Jewish child is her child because she sacrificed her whole life and she JEP jeopardized her life that the Jewish people should remain alive and she was successful so for the rest of generations every child in a way is Esther's child and when Esther breathed her last she knew that she could look at her life and say the Jewish people are alive they have survived they are thriving they will be here forever and every child she could take credit for this is also the explanation that damaris says that like per diem is like a second month and Tyra there was the first month on terror and then there was a new math entire like what's the meaning of this because it was a new era the first time there was revelation everything was revealed now it's Hester it's concealment Esther goes into a palace Kayle Kayle la maza Hani and yet she discovers that there is a covenant there's a relationship there's a mission and in many ways that's the powerful new math entire new covenant that's created in the times the times of Purim yeah the fast of Esther the two explanations well there's really two ways of looking at - Esther one explanation is that we fast because over the three days that Esther said we should fast that would make sense then the name would make sense however many of them are sham explained that that cannot be the reason we fast need Gilmore are there because that has to do with the tightness that happen in the month of Pitt Nissen in a month of by the time of Pesach so you could say you could answer you could say that they made it a month earlier hooked era of Purim but as I said thou foudre Hamra been odometer Bodrum in history lacy has died as a sinner in his seder of Phyllis and tiniest he explains and he says that it's not connected to that it's not connected to the fast of Esther which happened on Pesach where they fasted for three this is also discussed in the basis of the miss Joseph discusses this the bath discusses this this isn't or Irish I am in Samantha fresh pain valve this is discussed at length and the point that all of these great hwacha commentators make is that the reason we fastened your demo audit is because on that day it was nickel over on my damn ashram the Jewish people gathered to beseech a Shem for their victory because they had to fight a war of self-defense and they made a time as they had to make a tightness because when we go to war and make a famous and this says clearly in matter it is a matters time Houma and parshas voracious voracious chapter gimel you could look it up addressed on home it says that they created create a fast on you'd Gimmelwald i mentioned also the shelters the shelters comes from the Ghanim from your bhai goin and the shelters chapter 67 sama Sian her bhai going says that they made a fast on the 13th day of other yes in fact the shelters even tells us that this fast continued even during the time of the base are mukesh it's fascinating during the time of the base i make this the second base i make theirs they used to fast on your gimel on their because in the time of Esther they made a fast on that day it's fascinating yet which which is a Kaval to Kadesh because it means that it was not instituted later it was instituted much much much much earlier as I mentioned the Gemara Magilla of base says that youth gimel are there is monkey he lola coil it's a time for the gathering of koalas also one interpretation is they gathered to war they gathered to battle nickel who they came they mobilized for battle but another explanation and choices remain of tom says no they gathered together was a day of of Tiny's of prayer of sleepless of a fasting of beseeching are shem to be victorious to be victorious and yet it's cold thymus ester the FASTA Mester when apparently it's not really connected to Esther I mean Esther is the one who got commission from a cash wage that the Jews should be able to fight the wars but ultimately dis fast has nothing to do with Esther it has to do with Claudia struggle came together too fast because that's what we do we fast on a day of war in order to besiege Hashem and that's always a slick ice and we we give sadaqa and we gathered to our sham for success so this was this was the the the the big finish that based on the toys EFT and tightness when I mentioned their self designers in chapter 2 and the Schalke nor Osiris hi I'm Simon tough go fine olive I think that those who actually have to fight and go to war there now lot of fast sure Loyola Shabri come they don't want to weaken their vigor and their stamina and therefore since every single Jew had to defend himself or herself so therefore nobody was a lot of fast on yet gimel ah there it was oh wait bye everybody was only a commitment it was potential it was theoretical it was not actual besides one Jew or one Jewish and that is Esther who was a lot of fast you understand that yeah so this is a big this is a big discussion and after I name and there is shine and why exactly do we why exactly do we fast no well the question is why is it called tynus Esther why is it called kindness Esther the faster faster yeah well if well let's listen it's very interesting because if you look you know you know we why was Esther protected well it says it in the Megillah Martin chapter for Mordecai tells Esther alte dami been officially male based on MELAS Nikolai you hood them don't think you're going to escape to the palace and you will avoid the fate of all of the Jewish people in other words what is Mordecai clearly saying that if st remains in the palace she will not be targeted she will remain alive and she may think oh let me stay in the palace I'm gonna stay alive so Martha's I said no no no if you remain silent the Jewish people are gonna be saved anyway but what do we see here clearly from Martha's words that in the palace was a place of refuge nobody's walking into the palace and murdering Esther that means Esther did not have to defend herself on you'd get Malad there so therefore she was the one who fasted so this is like a malt liquor cuz that means that on the actual day of you'd get Moe other the Jewish people davon for victory but who was a lot of fast and who can actually spend the day in brayer and in fasting only one drew Esther she represented the whole cloudiest role as the MK HeLa where all the other Jews can only fast after poor him after they came back from war and they celebrated then they could make up and compensate for their resolution on the day of war and they can actually fast right this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net / donate