The Purpose of Gehinom (Hell)

foreign good morning okay good morning everybody it was a little bit of a misunderstanding here about the place of the spider dick of a second minion hence the confusion and timing so I apologize it wasn't my fault but I'm sorry because it was just I guess a miscommunication with the minion but God willing well be on top of it today also 9 30 there's a class for women here so you could share with your wives or friends or relatives that's 9 30 like every Tuesday right here in this place okay so please open up your Toyota hours to uh page where are we we are 16 on the bottom column four all the way on the left on the bottom and not on the bottom of the second column one two three four five five lines from the top of the second column so in the previous class we began the member of Mayim rabbit by the balatanya and the main point that was made was that the Waters of the flood are called the Waters of Nayak even though Nayak is the one who saved the world from the flood because the ultimate purpose of the marble was not just to destroy if you read the story actually it seems like the elimination of the people who were filled with violence and Corruption that happened but that wasn't the the only focus or even the primary focus and he says practically that could have happened in one moment without the need for this whole long story the real point of the marble was a Mikvah to serve as a Mikvah as a cosmic Mikvah that continued for 40 days similar to a regular Mikvah which contains 40s that could contain the totality of a body of a person when he or she goes into the Mikvah and calls in completely to the water and so the Earth was also submerged completely in the water like a Mikvah which is why it needed 40 days like the 40s saw that even the top mountains could be under the Mikvah so-called Mikvah and the Earth that emerges is a new Earth it's a new planet it's a different type of planet it's not the same planet that was pre the Mikvah because the Earth itself as the pastor keeps on talking about the fact that it's the Earth the Earth itself that was transformed through the violence and immorality and the Earth itself therefore went through a cleansing process in the process obviously those who couldn't be saved because there was no hope were not saved besides and his family who were in the table why is this relevant because now we can understand that the waters are not just Waters of Destruction the way we would see it at the surface but it's actually it's Waters that create a certain noise from the word of serenity which is all the theme that he began developing in the smimer that the soul comes into a world with Maya mirabum where it's flooded by a flood of Raging Waters which is a metaphor for Stress and Anxiety and various types of thoughts that flood the human mind and flood the human heart nonetheless nothing can extinguish the innate love but not only that as a result of emerging in these Waters the soul reaches a much deeper place and for that he explained that it's called which means Serenity because the marble is a source for New York for for a new microphone for a new cleansing is not so uh to be I guess to be Serene is not so simple sometimes as I said yesterday when we go into a Mikvah there's actually the potentiality that it's the bridge between life and the opposite of life because underwater a person can't live we're not fish so going into the Mikvah is really the beginning of a process that represents something that challenges life itself foreign in that process which requires so much surrender emerged the Mayim of noyak which means so now we go now we continue this theme again it's page 16 the left column five lines from the from the from the top but it's already in New York so it's a left calm the second now so I understand when you're talking about a marble the flood but here we're not talking about the physical flood we're talking about he started over the Miami talking about the ship of the paranasa meaning the stress and the anxiety that people have when it comes to making a living when it comes to managing life when it comes to navigating life so he says the shibud the enslavement connected with livelihood is also called foreign was given a choice for his himself and his descendants one choice is gehenem called Purgatory another cause was shibud is a certain form of enslavement in this world over of again that's what it says in Madras 44 but of ramadanu's choice what does this mean take take both both not say both not those why do you need either why do you need one of them what is it for so most people interpret you can hand them as a place of cleansing negativity so instead of Ramadan who said let it happen in this world through enslavement through Shippuden this world [Music] balatonya says there's a much deeper element here is foreign it's not just pain in this world pain in the next world who needs the whole thing you're a good father get me out of the process completely Miss we look at gehenna often just as a negative punishment [Music] and sometimes it's seen as very vengeful and and you know horrible thing and people get the little queasy from it especially if your whole education revolves exclusively around gehenna and the only value that either Sky really has is that without it you're going to get them which for some people maybe works for some people work superficially and for some people I won't finish the sentence but you know who they are so but really since you have to understand something else that's not the vort he says gehennam is essentially a part of grenade the the summer can't come into Canadian until it goes through gehenna why why not why not you have to be tortured in order to get cotton candy you can't just give me the cotton candy without the negativity the idea is because what's gonna you have to start with Canadians what the enemies he says you're wondering to come to Grenada to be able to bask in the radiance of the for this I can't have blockages that don't allow me to experience and be open to the Infinity of life there's even a Canadian in this world that says about the others that the others experienced the lamhab and this was it's not even a geography place it's a state of mind it's a state of consciousness just like a simple example taken a person if somebody has terrible terrible emotional blockages they can't experience love they can't give love not it may not be their fault they're just scarred to the point that they can't receive it if a person deep down feels then you're completely completely undeserving of any love you're just worthless deep down it may even be subconscious it's not like you tell yourself consciously maybe pre-verbal experiences that have become ingrained in my psyche and this becomes my Paradigm so then my entire life is defined by this blockage and you may be in a relationship with somebody who's trying to give you the most love in the world but naturally but not naturally but because of this wound the person just completely can't experience it they reject it and the results are sometimes emotionally catastrophic for anybody who understands this so you know this from your personal life or people around you person certainly also can't give can't give love they have to go through a process which is similar to gehennam what's I have to be able to go and work through that pain that feeling of unworthiness which is very very scary and really spit it out or at least identify it and be able to see it and say I'm not going to be defined by it the ultimate Bliss in the world the ultimate pleasure in the world is it's a relationship with ain't safe but if I'm completely in a survival mode in a protective mode I can't be in I can't experience it I could be there you could be in a maiden and it could be gehenem are very relative terms two people could be sitting around the Shoppers table around the center with all their children one person is in grenaden you could see it on their face and another person is again [Music] two couples can go out for their anniversary one set is in Canadian and one centers in Gahanna and sometimes the same set one isn't gonna eat in the ones again depends who you're married to and who they married what is it it's not the fact the circumstances it's where my soul is where my heart is how open I am so that's something I want to be open but sometimes I don't even know how so I have to go through a process which is painful it's painful in the sense because I'm identifying wounds that I didn't identify but only then can I identify it and say wow I have defined my entire life based on these wounds this has become the trajectory of my life these are my neural Pathways can I now choose so it's not Gahanna Miss I'm going to torture you and once I torture you now you get cotton candy now you can go to Six Flags for 20 years for free and if you get tortured out a little more you get some more roller coasters that's a very uh it's it's a very demeaning way of explaining it right and certainly hard to appeal to a sophisticated person which is why so many you know people when it comes to religion and the whole idea of reward and Punishment they become queasy and then like keep me far far away from this like in tuvia they ask him what's the blessing you make on the czar right so he said keep us far away from him that's the blessing so just keep me far away from this but the truth is it's it's I'm not going to call gehenna my beautiful concept I don't know that's the right word but I I really would call it it's a type of of a very deep spiritual genuine therapy now is therapy painful one of the therapists say is therapy painful huh if it's effective it's painful right if the guy's just telling you a share on the parachute it's probably not very painful if it's effective it's been by the way it's not only painful for the patient if it's a real therapist it's equally painful for the therapist and if he's a real therapist it may be more painful for him than through the patient because he hopefully has a little less blockages if he's if he worked it through I once heard from a doctor the Gamora says in conditions the best of doctors goes to gehennam man it's not a very nice thing to say when you're talking to doctors I once said it at a dinner honoring the doctors I said it so they wanted to kill me because they were honoring this big doctor and that's how I started so I said that it says 17. time should be right from a doctor who only believes in 17 blessings because he gets rid of Rafael because he's the guy who does everything so then he goes look at him so this doctor got up and he said don't be afraid of this kimara when you speak to doctors I'll tell you what it means from my experience he says a good actor is look at him and ghost again I'm not in the next world he goes to get him in this world because he's not the detached physician he empathizes with a patient so he says the gehandam is in this world it was a beautiful interpretation right so what does this really mean this really means whenever you're going through a process of healing you're experiencing some of that right the balship once said it says in Mr son of the mishna says it's the end of who's not obligated in a Mitzvah can't dispense the people in this for example if I want to Blow shuffle for everybody I have to be somebody who's obligated in shift I want to read the Magilla if I'm not obligated to read the Magilla then you who are obligated you can't be yours through me means guilty she said you don't become you're not guilty in it in other words you're not experiencing the pain of what the people are going through amen you can never extract the people from their pain because you're sitting in an ivory Tower gazing from above and giving Aces oh it was a panel not long ago it was with two therapists two very big therapists in the Orthodox Jewish world one of them is a scholar he knows his information the other one is also a scholar but he has empathy and the contrast was unbelievable Wonder was so hard to listen to because it was the facts were fine but it was just detached and the other person at ibigalept so you open up you open up why why can't I have why do I need empathy why can't I just tell you the facts I'll just tell you I'm a sugar man you're dysfunctional why is empathy important why did the bosemite say that there won't be empathy it's fact it's about facts right you know people I'm just tell you the facts the answer is if you're talking about you know a mathematical equation so Factor you have to empathize with a mathematical equation somebody asked Richard Russell how he teaches ethics when he's not ethical so he said I also teach math and trigonometry and algebra and I'm not a circle and I'm not a square and I'm not a triangle were you teaching about circles and triangles you thought you don't have to be a circle and a triangle better if you're not stay a person right but if you want to open up the heart of somebody then you have to you have to have an open heart there was a man his name was Carol Jung he said we only change people to the extent that we're ready to change ourselves we will only change people to the extent that we're ready to change ourselves if you don't get that truth I can't really change people I could preach but change people the only to the extent that you're ready to change yourself so when you talk about the hand and what is really a very deep process of opening up the soul so that can release all the blockages so now it could become in touch with its own Infinity like he said in the beginning of the minor that a soul is but that Oneness with infinity could be completely blocked that's the purpose we talk about fires of gehennam fires of gehennam people think it's physical they think there's like a barbecue and God throws you into fire and they even warn people that you're gonna get burned here and burnt there it's all metaphorical the arizo says so one person God says okay it's going to snow on you for 40 years and you're going to be in fire for 40 years it's really different types of healing there's a healing that feels like fire and there's a healing that feels like snow emotionally speaking there's different models through which you can extricate the blockages of a person now you could say but I don't want to do that it's like somebody's saying I want to remain black for the rest of my life and completely not feel myself the pain of that is much worse the pain of disassociation is much worse than the pain of getting rid of this Association because that's really going back to yourself was like okay I'll take this torture chamber instead of that torture chamber no to be able to be because every time a person goes through life and I allow those blockages to be reinforced and reinforced and reinforced my soul knows it my soul experiences it I can't fool my soul It soul goes into exile and now I want to eliminate the protectors or the blockages what we call Clippers shells and husks so he says shibud it's because Shibu is the same process the stress in this world shouldn't be seen as a process of ramadanu said where people are just stressed out it should be seen as the beginning of Canadian that's what he asked for you understand that through Shibu Lawless that's the marble that there shouldn't be just a flood in life the flood is the big is the Waters of serenity what does she would mean so you might learn means he says now remember this is 1806. the mind is being said 1806. you're talking about tsarist Russia under the reign of Alexander Paul the first was assassinated 1801. so 1806 is the rule of Alexander just to give the historical context you understand Shiba doesn't mean that we happen to have the Czar we happen to have the Czar his name was Tsar Alexander and he's our King in in in in Russia the Bible was said in liadi in Belarus and he takes taxes we got to pay taxes there was no 501c3 in Cyrus Russia you got to pay taxes I'll guess guess what daughter says I have news for you even tell me the best there was a king and taxes were much worse he says you have to give a holocaust City a tenth everybody had to give so that's what she would Malachi says who chose golus over gehennim instead of going to get him they'll go to gallus he says that's what it means that we're paying taxes and we have a malach and everything that a king came with the monarchy in Russia was a very serious it wasn't the monarchy in England which is a ceremonial a constitutional monarchy through serious dictators these czars she says but that's not the nakuda of shibud that was even the base it was a Malik and you pay taxes was there there was a flow of tremendous blessing our charity so Allah said his office to the point where things defied nature as the gamara explains in the suggests Mazel Tov to all those who are finishing safe masectic Services wasn't planned that the monument should uh quote the end of service he usually doesn't give them out of my kindness right in the middle of the minor but the whole suite at the end of service is the blessings of Heritage Israel in the past and in the future so even though people have to make a living and have to pay taxes but the stress daggers anxiety I have to make a living I have to make a living you know sometimes you have to do something but the pressure kills you the stress around it everybody has pressures in life the question is the attitude sometimes a person has a to-do list and fine you go from one thing to another thing another thing but then there's the emotional anxiety that's involved that's not about the actual responsibility it's about my attitude to the responsibility you all know what I'm talking about right it's the digits the tear that's the anxiety involved the actor today he says every person has this need to exert themselves and the stress that's connected to living whether it's paranasal earning a livelihood in terms of financially or whatever other responsibilities you have in life it's a marriage it could be raising a family it could be a relationship with yourself relationship with your children your relationship with your job whatever it is in a broad sense it's not just to bring homophone says living in a world where you could be successful and make a living and do what you have to do in order to be able to live and it comes he says every single person has an anxiety involved Dr never didn't know how right he was about anxiety in 1806 there was also a lot of anxiety but you were thinking 2022 when people got much more money than they had in 1806 in Belarus trust me and bigger houses even people who are struggling you would think would be an anxiety-free generation right with so much time washing machines industrial revolutions cars unbelievable huh hot water ability to go on vacation but he says this is the ship that everyone was talking about not just that there's a government there's a king I have to pay taxes that's not the substitute again is interesting the anxiety inside of me that's the substitute of Ghana so the question is how do you look at it you just look at it as annoyance it's just annoyance so he says no if ramadanu said you have to see it as the beginning of grenade that's the shot that's called that's why it's the marble it's called that's the Prince that's what we're talking about with the Raging Waters the Mayan mirabum the Raging Waters it's not that there's a flow of water sometimes you have a river flowing beautifully a canal a pond a stream it's beautiful to look at right the ocean the waves are calm is a tsunami a hurricane [Music] huh when you know Waters which are talking about flooding flooding right drill right you feel like you're gonna drown you're overwhelmed oh so what happens in that model that's the question what happened to that marble so the humanity didn't survive went into a table because that's going to be the continuation of the nightmare how the Maya mirabum not only they don't extinguish the love they bring out more love that's that's the naked of the smimer that the anxiety I have in life also has to be qualified we talk about anxiety it's such a big word and sometimes a person needs different you know a support system and interventions to be able to deal with it it's not ah right but I'm saying you know sometimes there's also physical you know whether it's vitamins or sometimes America you have to be very sensitive and careful because every person you know you have to know what the person's situation is the point here he's giving a spiritual perspective on how we look at the marbles in our own life that that flood us [Music] the serenity of the spirit is because through this the soul is elevated to a place that's even deeper than the soul before it came down into the world how can that be before the soul came into this world it was enjoying the glory the ray of the shin so how can there be something higher she says one hour of chuva of return and good deeds in this world is superior is nicer is more beautiful says the mission of prickly office then all of how can that be so most people would say because here you know over there you got to show receipts the only place you can actually get the ticket is here so you're for sure but still the whole purpose is how could you say one hour of truth is over there it says that one hour of pleasure map is like a contradiction explains these are the key words foreign yes sir that wisdom is better than stupidity like light is better than Darkness that's what he says I've seen and the question is really you want a Nobel Prize for that you came up with a givaldica revelation wisdom is better than stupidity then I cannot understand not everybody understands that Einstein said two things are infinite the universe and stupidity and I'm not sure about the former so I could understand means when he says like light is better than Darkness okay what's the the balatanya says you have to listen to his words like everybody learns like the superiority of light over Darkness he says no can you sing like the superiority of light that comes from Darkness light over Darkness light is better than Darkness wisdom is better than stupidity [Music] is better than Darkness he says no the greatest letter comes there is light that comes from light light is light it's bright there's a different type of light in the world the light that's born from the opposite of light is the language it's from this is when which means the other side the side of unholiness is subdued or even more Darkness gets transformed metamorphosized into light that's a whole different caliber of light and with that is not an is a place of light of brightness it's in this world where you have so in this world we have like he said before daigus stress we have anxiety it's this world where I can get so stuck in my own Darkness so what happens now avram avinu says I want Shibu this is the Shibu he's talking about this type of anxiety and that's instead of ganimous it's just like your hand and brings you to grenadin this ship would brings the nashama to a much deeper place even than it was before why because here is the light that's born from the darkness and what does this mean practically yeah a person sometimes is immersed a whole day in material realities whatever they look like whatever you're involved in and there is a lot of stress tear this again is you're consumed it's like a tsunami and that's called Darkness Darkness it doesn't necessarily mean that the sun set and it's dark outside Darkness means that I'm in a state where I don't feel light I don't feel Clarity when it's dark outside and there's no light and there's a hole I could stumble I could fall into a ditch I can trip why because I don't see my path in life when I'm in a state of light I see clearly my path I know where I'm going where I'm heading I know what to avoid when I'm in a place of Darkness I don't know what to avoid like physically right I don't know where to go I don't have a GPS it's dark it's dark outside what does that mean inside a person a person is involved in darkness so there's a state of confusion and who doesn't have that so when a person is experiencing that [Music] um and then comes a moment of fill of davony and the same person is Miss boiling the same person is by them means contemplates from the word Bina is right lahoven to understand Miss Bain and he meditates misbane is like you meditate you focus until now he goes through a whole process of what a person becomes aware of each person according to their capacity there's it says no grass down here it doesn't have a Mazel up there that tells it to grow which means this world is not just an isolated Planet even a blade of grass has a spiritual life force and today we basically know even in science you know what we thought was they used to think that a cell is simple and therefore it's not a Kiddush that it just emerged spontaneously today the complexity of a cell we know is so beyond the imagination that the most sophisticated super computer program in the world pales in comparison to the information that's organized to create one cell remember that a human body has 70 trillion cells or 50 trillion cells I'm talking about one son so every great even a grass has a whole a whole life force and that comes from a spiritual life force it's called a muzzle that tells it to grow it's not don't take a piece of blade for grass for granted you're looking at a grass you're looking at a miracle a scientific Miracle no light boxes even a blade of grass that everybody's steps on just one blade of grass if it's analyzed you could appreciate the intricacy of it the Brilliance of it and these are the masolas which represent the various galaxies and planets in heaven which give life to this world commercials the sweetness of grain that comes from the sun and the sweetness of the produce that comes from the Moon meaning the Heavenly constellations like the Sun and the Moon how they affect all vegetation and produce because nothing can grow without Sun without photosynthesis without the light without the Heat everything is affected but those planets themselves all the planets and all the galaxies and all the stars they themselves hey macabreland may iron Sodom they receive their energy from what's known as the iron serum just like the 70 Nations there's the 70 spiritual guardian angels of the nation they're called in Kabbalah and sarim the 70 spiritual rulers of the 70 Nations they're called sorum Sir like the word minister so you talk about galaxies and today they just put up a new telescope you know they sent a new telescope up it's called the James Webb's telescope and for the first time in history they have now pictures from stars and galaxies that are 4.6 billion light years away I don't know if you know what that means a light travels 186 000 miles per second okay so how long does it take for light to travel from the Sun to Earth eight minutes so eight minutes of light is the distance from here to the Sun eight minutes now think about that the sun is pretty far now how think how much is eight years of light now think of 8 000 years of light okay 800 000 years of light eight million years of light now go to 4.6 billion light years away we have we have pictures of it everyone has a spiritual Source everyone has a spiritual design it makes you quite humble they just brought pictures last week they got pictures this is only six thousand light years away [Music] six thousand light years yeah what is that right of three they call the Three Pillars of Creation there's an image of certain you saw it it looks literally looks like Three Pillars of Creation I said it's three pillars of light each one each one is like six thousand light years tall which is literally three pillars that hold up creation every nakoda and you're talking about trillions and trillions and trillions of stars trillions and and everybody knows that that's only a fraction of the universe what we could see now 4.6 billion light years away so he says when a person meditates on this Allah I found him as the lowest level of angels and found them is the sediments of the fun Academy there's a whole process of evolution from the spiritual to the physical until everybody receives from hashem's commercials it's the kingship that pervades all the worlds from Harvest it brings in all the worlds it creates all from nothingness to somethingness but this is only the radiance of the um it's on the array relative to the essence itself which is pure Infinity was is will be without any change like we're saying in the morning your pre-creation or your post-creation and you're in the same state that ain't sofas the same ain't safe so he says when a person really toots into this but tunes into it with with imakadas with meaning with maturity with sincerity with depth when a person tunes into it is foreign yeah when a person tunes into us a person wants to connect to the truth of the world to the reality of the world I don't want to connect to concealments and to blockages I want to connect to the truth of the world I want to go out of darkness and concealment and connect them commission says until about it who do I have in heaven and with you I desire nothing on Earth so literally the meaning is to hillamayan gimmel well who do I have in heaven mili by Shaman what do I have in heaven and with you I desire nothing on Earth so balatonya says the person says I don't want Heaven I don't want Earth meaning I don't want even grenaden the lower grenade the higher grenade why not because that's a ray of the shrina says and they dwell in the zivas I want to be subsumed in the essence itself to be swept away to be absorbed list and the body in the core of the king itself because it comes from the darkness where the person was submerged in vanities of the world because the greatest light comes from Darkness which is Darkness as the passage says imperations says the last day this Friday Hashem saw everything he made it was very good so there's a fascinating medrish here in the gracious rabbit says as follows foreign through the opposite through the animal soul that allows you to reach the the love of which is which is infinite mamash precisely through the mind what does this mean what is the balatonya saying um yeah you mind thank you [Music] foreign negative energy is exploited to become a source for positive energy the positive energy is always much much more profound than it would have been without it in other words if I have a natural inclination to be positive to do positive things fine it's beautiful it's amazing there's nothing like the motivation and the inspiration that comes from tasting the exact opposite when the darkness is harnessed when the darkness becomes fuel when it becomes gasoline that that generates your spaceship to go up the momentum the push is so much more powerful because here the darkness itself becomes the springboard for growth so it's a different type of growth it's a different level of growth it's of a completely different caliber because here the very resistance the very opposite became the source of rebirth so it's a whole different it's a whole different type of quality I'll give an example for this so you'll see how it works it works in many areas in life you can see it sometimes in a relationship say for example in a marriage you have a marriage that goes smooth it goes smooth you know civil everybody's nice and fine Dandy ah sit down [Music] huh Lafayette relatively speaking but the relationship is somewhat superficial in other words you show your good parts to me I show my good parts to you remember for the first one saw the story that there was going to Israel and he didn't afford he couldn't afford a coach so he walked so he walked City cities took him weeks and he would stay over in towns and he would continue walking one day he's walking and there's a beautiful coach on the road and the Man in the coach is another Jew and he stops his weed going he's going to this he's almost going there I'll give you a ride he puts him on the coach it's a comfortable coach a nice bench you're sitting and the Wagoneer is like the coach of the Wagoneer would sit by the horses and and harness and lead the horses and this guy was sitting in the back of his comfortable coach so he says where you going to does it happen and this and the stunt and then they introduce each other they introduce themselves to each other what are you he says I'm a big doctor I'm one of the big doctors and I have to travel there for a medical help somebody medically fine she starts telling the house and he says I don't know if you know but I'm an extremely prominent doctor and uh very very respected and but I'm happy to give you a lift and he tells the cross that I want to tell you how I run my shop if there's somebody who doesn't have enough money I treat them for free so the house it says I also do that he was surprised what he does okay and then he says not only that if there's somebody can't come to my house because they're too sick I visit their house he says I also do that okay he says if it's a widow or an orphan and I know they don't have money I don't even charge them I give them everything for free he says I also do that he's looking at him what this guy does he was a captain I snotted he didn't have a penny to his name what does he do and he says then he continues in the system somebody doesn't have money for medicine I pay for the medicine also I pay for the pharmacy I pay for the medicine he says I also do that he then he says he says not only that I follow up with them I think about them constantly and I find out how they're doing he says I also do the same thing so finally he plots he says what do you do he says I do just like you I only say the positive things about myself I do just like you I meet people I only tell them the good things about myself right I do just like you do it's funny but it's a deep vault our relationship I say the good things about myself you say the good things about yourself but we know there's a superficiality there what sometimes happens and this is very very deep and I'm not telling anybody to try this at home but what sometimes happens is we have to detach in order to attach it's almost like subconsciously one party is driven to do something that undermines the relationship whether it's small or big and now it's about to be destroyed because now they're going this way instead of this one and what happens so two things can happen either they attack they drift away or something deeper happens what happens they ReDiscover themselves from a much deeper place from their Darkness from the negativity you ReDiscover yourself if you could rebuild from that place it's going to be much more real simply put if I could talk to you yeah not like the doctor right if I could talk to you about everything not about the nice things I do and that becomes part of the relationship then there's nothing that can destroy it because you took the very the very negativity the very thing I was embarrassed of the very thing that tears me away from you the very thing that makes me lonely and I you bring that into a relationship so when I when the negativity is harnessed into a force for positivity it's a different caliber of the relationship you understand what I'm saying the Halo corrosion I once said the illusionary once said when a Jew sins a very very powerful when a Jew sins what he's really trying to do is he's trying to create a new path of to God that was never created before what does that mean he's creating A New Path he just went away so there's a famous poem right I run away from you to you later says he should have said you rebelled against God he says no no ma'am Hashem you rebelled with God even when your mom remem I'm just looking for a deeper relationship subconsciously subconsciously foreign I don't wanna I don't want the mediocre relationship I want the relationship that includes all my darkness so sometimes when that relationship breaks down and we become disconnected what happens now we're disconnected if that but the relationship is deeper than the darkness so now if the darkness becomes a source of new awareness it's an unbelievably powerful Bond nothing can destroy it itself produced the light this light is being fueled by darkness when light is fueled by Darkness it's a different caliber of light because all the negativity becomes part of it everything you were embarrassed of everything you resisted everything that pulled you away now becomes part of that toys the angel of life is good but how do you reach how do you reach them life how do you find how do you find Infinity I'm finite how do I find Infinity Infinity I always find through the opposite foreign what does this mean in a person's life when I'm facing [Music] that which apparently undermines my life over there lay the potentiality for the deepest type of connection when it's re-harnessed into a connection and it becomes from finite it becomes infinite it becomes [Music] that was you're asking about your schluckers that was the power of rishlockish in that sense that's why the gemara says what makes the mouth sugar greater than the sadik it's the yes it's the light that's born from the darkness because that has a power in it that's very very intense it's the intensity of the darkness the light doesn't have it and when that is re is re-channel it's retract it's transformed it's a whole different type of light so when when I don't have to be afraid of my anxiety when I use everyone has Dark Places what happens with those dark places that's the question if I'm afraid of my darkness or I get angry at it or I just run away from it or I repress it then I never had the opportunity to reach my old I only want to stick to Malachi means can you face your own Angel of Death we're not talking about the big Malachi Mavis he should stay far away we're talking about the angel that speaks of death your own angels of death the angels that want to kill that I feel want to kill me I feel they're going to kill me right your own Malachi Mavis can you face them can you really look at them and the more death they speak about the more scary they are because if this becomes my source of healing you become Unstoppable does anybody know what I'm talking about or not really huh it's it's a it's a hard concept experience to do but it's not a hard concept it's really a very liberating concept what's more other than right that was easy in this moment but it that's that that's the key what's more or the only thing that's more light than light is darkness and that's why it's not light because it's infinite you hear light is light because it's not infinite how do you get to the infinite light you're not going to get it through light the only thing that's more light than light is it's so light that it's dark it's like when you look at the sun it's blinding it's so light that it's not even defined as structure of light it's defined as the opposite it comes in the you know the black hole in science there's a black hole what's a black hole black hole doesn't mean it doesn't have light it means the power of gravity is so deep that it pulls all the light inwards and it doesn't allow any light to escape so it becomes a black hole everything in the world emits light but the black hole the gravity is so deep that it pulls it pulls all the light inside so the light can't escape so it has so much light that becomes a black hole you understand why it's called a black hole because it has too much light no light escapes so is there more light than the black holed as much why is it called a black hole because the light doesn't escape so it's okay yeah where is it hidden it's hidden in the Darkness in other words everything is light the question is what form of is it is it does it come across as light that's one level of light there's a deeper level of light that doesn't come across light it comes across as Darkness but it contains much more light the question you'll ask is why does it have to be that way why can't light just be infinite that's going to be the next piece in the minor how that happened it has to do with Spirit he's going to explain that in the next piece he's not explaining yet why there's a y here but he's explaining the idea that this has something that's much deeper so when it's channeled into light it's a different type of light when you bring your darkest places into the relationship with yourself and with God and with another person the relationship has an Infinity the love knows no bounds it's an explosive love is it means very how much what's very very what's very very rich how much is very rich a million 10 million the answer is wherever it is it's more right very very very so what's with your veryness how do you get to your veryness I know I made up a word v e r y hyphen n e s s how do you love God with variness and the answer is when I confront Darkness how do you love with your veryness how do you get into your mouth you only get into when you confront because Infinity is fueled from the opposite so he says this doesn't happen in Allah everything is beautiful but an Islam has a he's involved in darkness and then he gets up he davins and there is this the anxiety creates a new love it's like get me get me to a place of clarity get me to a place of light I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired you ever said that to yourself I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired right that allows you to do things that you could never do if you're not sick and tired if you're not thinking that fine you're a good guy that's cavaldek foreign he's not romanticizing Darkness here that's not what he's doing he's not romanticizing struggle and anxiety that's not the work you have to you understand he's explaining the opportunity that a person has not to be afraid of any part on the contrary when something is scaring you it's a Malachi Mavis we stay far from the malachimavas MS you're bigger than the malachim office he looks very scary and all his bark is bigger than his bite he looks like a scary guy so you he's hiding something and the scariness is because he's hiding something very deep and he himself doesn't know what it is he's scared so it's scary the reason that Darkness drives us crazy is because it has Divine Insanity in it because it has bleakable you have to be toughest the reason it's so dark is because it has too much positivity to be normal you understand light is structured light is beautiful this is two it's too intense it's so intense it's infinite so it comes across as the opposite it's hidden in the opposite the main thing is you don't be afraid of it because when that few when when that itself can fuel me to a new awareness it unleashes it's a it's a different momentum it's a different energy foreign [Music] this is pretty heavy stuff and it's a new stuff it's it's it's uh that's why I need to go through again to get to grenade to get rid of the anxiety you understand so he says the shiba that's the main it creates a different type of Manuka different type of serenity on a very practical level it means that which drives you most crazy that's what makes you hate yourself most that which really sits in the depth of your chest and eats up at you let's call it your Darkness your Malachi mothers your angel of death your lowest angel over there lay the opportunity for the deepest form of renewal and the love and attachment you say no no no no no no no no no no no no no not there not there just cut it out it's not the tragedy of your life it's the gift of your life it's hard to say this because it's at the moment but that's what he's saying Hashem so two things he saw to even when he looked at the angel of Life what did he see toif when he created the malacha mothers what was he creating don't look at your Darkness from an Earthly perspective look at your Darkness from the Divine perspective from the Divine perspective it's an opportunity for mind [Music] okay we'll take a break here a good everybody it should be a good month base Hashem will continue Thursday morning 7 45. I'll arrange with the minions so we could start on time 9 30 we have our women's class let's lock it up everybody I hear you you feel overwhelmed you feel overwhelmed the body you don't even have a body that's wrong to bury I think you're totally dank yeah somewhere else [Music] I came from uh from Woodmere oh wow Alan one yeah yeah um what's the yeah even in Islam Harper there's a Helen that's uh why is it held at all right okay pleasure thank you for coming yeah yeah