The Love of the World and the Love Beyond the World - Between Me and a Chimpanzee

the yeshiva dotnet okay where 84 first column Amish a middle over the page the line starts ain't I ain't I my mission middle of this page aina Ella you see nal is if his parched asada mmm probably like 20 logs from the bottom 25 lines from the bottom you see the next line of a penis save of column I will clintus save of column and the next line after that the line starts the next line starts almond almond la Theo's survival book in a cervical ah there's two types of love there's the Alvin that comes from what's called my molecule almond and there's the love that comes from what we call save of collab the first Ave discussed moisture says moisture de venise is lava Sasha Malacca kaki who kya ho the love because he's your life that's the classic summation of mamala Kalama a person loves their own energy right it's a good thing to love your energy I don't only mean your energy you know that your energy as we say you know I like I like your energy you love your energy you love your life you love your heels you love your soul I don't know if it sounds good to say you love your electricity just is usually not the lovable item we appreciate electricity but a person loves life I love life I love my life I cherish it you love your energy your love you your he okay yeah what is that Cleo's what is this life the truth of it is and Lucas that's godliness like he says the lotion is ooh who is bara who apps my hockey you shall be care by he said earlier those are the the key word that is the fierce it's not two separate things as he puts it with high of mama SH this is mama she's life it's not a separate it's not a separate thing because Hashem is Calle hominem attack Damian he is the life the consciousness the reality the core the the energy of all of the world's highest in the lowest and of course it includes the person's individual life foresters the collective life force there's the individual life was every person has their own unique you know that unique DNA so to speak that is unique to you which is suitable to your body and suitable to your mind and suitable to your soul and suitable to your mission so he's hi LM him on a general but also very detailed very individual that's called man male mamala means he fills male male it's it's automatic but this could be so many cover-ups you know depression apathy indifference laziness cynicism right right I think naturally we love our life but but he says it's unavoidable god--all so so it's a big work because of the many cover-ups that can be yeah I think more awareness like you know perceptiveness thoughtfulness mindfulness his bonus contemplation because sometimes there could be a lot of things that you know disturb that that's a and B also to be able to make the association from my life to the devar because that's also concealed I like my electricity but as we know you can be a biologist and deny that you know if you want if you people do it all the time the ability to be able to also appreciate the fact that the fuse the life force that is divine that is godly it's not a separate thing it also requires his bananas so that's what the word my mother Kalama means mamala means he fills the world's what is filling me the word fill I told you many times in gosh Mia's in physicality you say my cup is filled with coffee oh my closet is filled with SH mattes well my drawers filled with paper yeah so it's two separate things you have the item that fills another item the water fills the cup so the cup is filled with the water till the top it's full it's not empty it's not half empty its full but it's ultimately two separate things when you say in spirituality something fill something else you're not dealing with physical properties two separate items it means that they're really one thing if this is filled with this it means this is the token type the word type Tyson comes from the word type which means the inside you say this is the token of this this is the very it fills this means this is the the premise of it this is the truth of it this is the core of it this is the inside of it this is the reality of it you know you may look at something from the outside when you look at that which fills it it means you're looking what is what is its true essence so when you say ma'am I love kawaman doesn't just mean you know God is the hand and wear the glove and the hand goes into the glove or wear the coat and it puts on the coat you know so I'm now or what I'm the cup and he fills that yeah I mean that's when we say my malik lemony fills the worlds but it really it really means something much deeper it means that that is the world in in gosh means it's two separate things there's the draw and that which is in the draw and you could take it out from the draw then I tease my drawer doesn't have to have paper Welsh mattes it can have something else yeah I could put in pens or keep it empty yeah the treadmill doesn't have to have hangers on it I mean that's the mini egg but you can also put yourself on it if you're a little disciplined so you can also keep hangers there I don't mind but especially there's no closet space but once he doesn't have that problem more efficient so in other words you say the cup is filled with water but it can be filled with coffee can be filled with 7up it can be filled with wine it could be empty so there's ultimately two separate things and one fills the other of course there's a relationship I can't pour coffee on the table if I'm gonna do me well or in the tissue box or on the book the cup is made to hold the coffee but ultimately we understand it's two separate entities if they could be separated when you say my mouth--i Kalama you have to just look at it as always these metaphors if to look at it in a more abstract and authentic way he fills the worlds so that he fills the world when you're talking about dilution e is something fill something else uh-huh yeah it is it is that that is its plumies that is it's totally that's what he says who adds my highest super care boy this is the theist it's not two separate things this is the world in other words if you look at the world superficially it's all material I just have a body and the body happens to be alive but if you have a little his bonus a little awareness a little meditation especially a lot of awareness and a lot of meditation you'll come to the conclusion and to the realization that it's all little costs the whole heus in your body just like in the whole body our body is a microcosm of the cosmos right it says Island cotton z'ha'dum Bostick says in Kahala scam asylum mustn't believe I'm human is a microcosm of the macro of the whole world we are a universe in Rennert miniature everybody is a little cosmos so our body is called a goof cotton small body and the world is called a goof goggle but you know it really operates in the same level if you ever studied a little chemistry or science and you saw how an atom works and you look at it right now look at the solar system the solar system it's unbelievable it's the same picture just yuge yuge you know millions and hundreds of millions of miles or more but it's the same picture but but here it's tiny without a microscope you can't even begin to see and even with a microscope what can you see it ready but it's it's a big off of a small goof Souma molecule allman really means that the core of it all is that VAR Hashem the Ruach if we called it the God's Word God's energy which fills what do we mean fills it gives substance it creates it sustains it vitalizes it vivifies it gives content designed purpose and life to every single being existence every single creature beginning with the human being himself or herself so moisture says la vez a sham a la casa he who - who - doesn't just mean he he can give you life you should love him because he can give you good things in your life no Hugh caca means that he is your life you you have the deepest relationship with Hashem that can be because it's not two separate things we are the electricity we're not separate we are the electricity we are an aspect of it new this is Alma Malik Allah says this is still finite its spatial it's it's powerful it's big its intense but he still is still finite it's still spatial its McCullen our chakra then there's behold my death how my desk is called the love from cervical Alma what's the love from size of Kalama so he explained the ballot Anya explained the deposit says 'but VAR hashem sha - over rock cave cults form the heaven was made with VAR Hashem the word of Russia and everything else all of its legions cult serve arm was made by rock bees what's rock bees literally the spirit that comes from his mouth or the breath that comes from his mouth what's the meaning of that metaphor he says by a person a word or rock give the the spirit that comes from my mouth that means their breath that comes to my mouth which is sometimes called the Hevel it comes from inside of you comes from inside of you that's where your breath comes from words they come through the vocal cords they emerge outward they merge outside of me but they come from my toy feeis as he puts it from my previous from my inside but everybody understands that you can't say that the breath or the word constitutes the very core the very essence it's what you call as if it's like a ray of the Sun a ray of light the ray of light comes from the Sun a light wave comes from the solar core but to say that the light wave encapsulate sand captures the entire solar core the entire Sun then we wouldn't be able to relate to it it would be too intense would be too big it would be too hot it would be too bright no spaceship is getting close to the Sun at least in the next few days so man male represents the heavily the breath the DeBoer let's total speaking the ray of light that's mammalian yeah if I put my cup under Niagara Falls if I'm gonna be such a good idea I need a restricted flow a trickle a trickle right in order to fill the cup and in order to fill every cup cuz the cup is seven ounces or eight ounces it has to have a limited and then it can relate to it the feeis of every being is a limited one based on its chemistry its design I don't have the DNA of an angel I have to I am me you are you the salamander is the salamandra the Frog is the Frog and the caterpillar or the moss the butterfly is the butterfly they have their heels they have their personality so to speak but it's based on their chemistry so even though it's it's extraordinary what is revealed and the truth is that in truth everything is one but what is revealed what I can contain and my consciousness is that which I can contain in my consciousness which is my finite experience of life that itself is endless there's one layer and a deeper layer and a deeper layer you know every day you can grow and open yourself up more to yourself you know how much percent of our brain do we use and that itself it's mamala colombian ain't no small thing we still haven't figured out the secrets of a cell so you know the ball of tiny jumps as a smoothly for mammalian saver really my momma Kalama you know you could sit for a life on it you know if to jump ahead of yourself and it's not shot after all the research it's like there used to be a feeling in science there was a famous in the early 1900 in 1903 there was a very famous scientists who wrote wrote a telegram I think or an article and he's everything that we had to discover was already discovered there's not gonna be any the head of the Patent Office right yeah I think 1903 1904 he said there's not now you know there'll be a couple of details but the real things and and you can't blame him understand the changes that happened from 100 years earlier after the Industrial Revolution electricity machinery automobiles cars in my aha akarsha the Wright brothers figured out the plain aviation flying here to serve the folk time he did not say he's 90 years old but nothing's it said it said you're gonna see people on the move today so you would think today 100 years later 2019 people today nobody will say such a thing because they saw what happened everybody knows 50 is gonna be a new world from now and it's not like we know what the shock is gonna nobody even knows how shocked were gonna be they know at least that there are haratz to know a duvet snitched that's a big thing that's itself as a to Norville of course it's already a sense of ain't safe infinity you can't wrap your brain around you just have to sit and marvel I'm like okay what else do you got up your sleeve what's the next so I'm saying even the Moloch almond is pretty infinite that's my point he says it's Google and mock him and this don't it's all relative yeah exactly what I'm saying by Malecha Wellman is mr. a cup of coffee and even a cup of coffee stirrers can cup of coffee you know what's in a caffeine in a coffee seat every new could of Google is so it's divine so it's infinite but no molecule almond means the way the divine energy is restricted into a form and into a formula actually that works into a foreman into a formula that sustained this particular object or item or being or organism or brain etc so there's that love that is directed on that it's very individual it's very personal it's me it's like my identity but what's the relationship between the array and the core the solar core the light wave comes from the solar core the ray of the Sun that comes into our home comes from the Sun but nobody's going to say that the Ray captures the Sun came in it's just a very very limited and finite expression that we appreciate that we cherish that is still incredible it lightens up our brightens up our earth what would we do without you saw in that itself there's many ways of looking at it right yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah right so you're saying there was a debate among Kabbalists if that symptom and the aura is kept short oh yeah yeah the item I'm on if the symptom in the oil which we call my male and we speak about that symptom the restrictive nests of it the restriction of it the filtering if it's a literal one if it's not a literal one but certainly from a place of perception that's what allows finiteness to exist yeah paradoxical light is a wave and a particle but when I try to observe it it collapses into one state right in other words my observation of it my experience of it imposes itself on its reality yeah because I don't think in paradoxes my to the tool that I'm using to figure out reality will define the reality and if I'm not aware of this I think this is all the reality because that's my tool so that becomes reality that's another fascinating item was you say usually and when yeah i'ma let's look at the Taylor and why you think your are the retina plays games in this cycle doesn't play games there's always play games worst games the eye at least is not distorted the sacral coming Michigan maka now what we see is basically the marriage right of the say the light the the light waves that come out from the reality the way it's perceived by our retina by a part of our eye and interpreted by the brain and if the retina doesn't have the Kayle the tools to be able to perceive it well the brain doesn't have the ability to interpret it it doesn't stand back and say oh wow there's so much that I don't know it doesn't recognize it or changes it into the reality that it wants you know blind spots work that way it's very interesting there's a part of the eye right the part of everything that the eye doesn't cap catch but the brain looks at the environment and says I think that this blind spot you gotta fill in with this based on my calculations cynosure mentions but i've listened shaft glides on us if the tree falls in the forest and i'm not there what's the sound that it makes what is a sound the sound is the vibrations of the tree falling the way they're experienced right by my ear and order your processing interpreted by the brain so it's always a marriage of two realities now as long as we all agree who cares if it's fiction or real you could sell it you'll tell me that the colors in the painting are not real right but if everybody agrees that that's what it looks like so and so Sabbath yeah but what's Peru a cave called swamp Rock pave means it's a rock pit so rock cave comes from the premise of course it comes in the premier's but yet as he puts it you can't define it as Musa Musa and you'll say that the Atmos the core has changed from before the breath came out from after the breath came on the breath is inside of me it's part of me it's included in me it submerged in me but you can't say that is me what's why is this so important since you have to understand this that the tighter describes creation as Ruach bathe as his deep or as roast beef in other words so let's see now inside the vehicle he is color aluminum at the sternum a new alloy see see the line anal anal as if his spatula saw Dunham chef as man and say but a hotel's Kalama Marcius the whole life that we spoke about which is divine of all the world's highest and lowest not only the even the highest what is it it's as if it's light it's a ray of light it's splashed tesora Herrara is like array a reflection a glimmer his sparseness means it extends it expands which comes from the ire of aint Southborough who that itself comes from light but that light is ain't safe it's the light that's infinite and then there's a horror from the oil so you have array of the Ray right a reflection of the reflection toyco alman and this was what infuses all the worlds again tight toys means it's there this is what infuses the worlds were serious with life and remember life it doesn't only mean the electricity of the refrigerator it means the refrigerator itself - that is also electricity the physical matter - is he us ah sorry the form and the content the content is also formed in in its core I echo often max-planck a famous quantum physicists it was a Nobel Prize winner see once said it's just a very powerful line consciousness is not a derivative of matter matter is a derivative of consciousness yeah so tell Kalman Lakia some that's my male I hope in a save of Kalama no machinery oculus loppers - common Livius what is soviet why is it called sovath around why can't it be in the answer is it can't enclose itself within the world's to give them fears so goodness that's mostly a moose a mama SH this is the X M X it really means the bone but the reason it's called the bonus because it's the core right at some is like the bone you say the bone of something the core of it not the covers your penis X mu say it's the core Oh Musa Musa comes in the word ma ma who what is it like give me what it is ma who not the expression not a ray not to form the essence of it that the quintessence of it is called the hosts of something that's mostly mostly ma which means his core is essence that's what we call save of Kalama alice eve of Kalama what does save of me so doesn't mean it surrounded it make Hawk office it means my little motto shoving mamas here the highest universe and the lowest are gonna be identical why Shan um type Sam welcome clown negative hospital because they don't occupy any space any separate space in the presence of save of Cologne men for Lehane XIV the passage says we same Socrates Imre hoy de el Eretz with shamayim his hide the hider is the glory hoid a win cicadas Emery hallo a shame are some canoes comes from allah wahda hoid a a LightSwitch amaya and he says first earth then heaven even though it's the other way around say Titus cleanest air it's little obscene assume I because in this new khuda Eretz is just like Samantha for the cooler Khmer who lead an expression in from possibly near the cooler Khmer like he always is cooler chemical Akasha everything in his presence doesn't occupy any separate space in other words what do we mean Cola chemical inertial imagine the light wave in the solar core the light wave when it expands when it leaves when it's emitted the ray of this Sun is very very significant lights of the planet what is the data she boasts the significance of the of one light wave in inside that solar core it's there like the breath when it's inside of me the word when it's inside a means there the potential is there it's coming from somewhere but it's completely subsumed it's completely subsumed in the essence yeah right you can't say that lagaa Bhima Molly column and the world doesn't occupy space of course it does the homo molecule almond is electricity that that that gives here's to the world you could say that the matsyas of the world as a Lukas Simon Kalam and the finishes that ain't have some welcome clown that did the hospital and Eretz and shamayim over there I'm Amish the same because even the highest worlds and it said their consciousness are not a Cayley for the pure infinite core mamala Calallen is all about the distinctiveness individuality diversity inside of Eretz is awesome I am that's called the light it doesn't fill it it encompasses it but when we say encompasses doesn't mean it's just not in it that's not it we're calling its serve of Calallen because it's not the light that is trickles down and is limited to become absorbed within the parameters of the universe this is ex-muslim also that the world can't contain because if it would contain it wouldn't be a world it would just all dissolve an absolute infinity anoxmous of course it's one it's ultimately it's really one yeah mammalian save are not two separate things hashem echad it's Molly is the percent the way we experience the divine and every creature experiences it differently but santosha of course it's one yeah yeah my mom is also bitter but it's a different yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah all the world is bitl no universe with hot beetles child is what bitl does the bittleman side mammal in the bittleman side serveth ma'am a local almond you find yourself in god save of kalam and you lose yourself in god I was once learning with our a brisk ibaka big London a younger man he was he learned to brisk for like forever so he says he says mamala Kalman is a Dean in the Mensch on cyber kilometres Arden in the Irish then in his Shirish a terminology right well my little almond is a description of the world and several kilometers are the speakers a description from her Shems perspective what do you mean and I'm saying maybe it's one way just to you know give it some Isis finding myself and something means it's my ultimate what do you mean I find myself in it I find my voice I self actualize the first average lavas are similar carefully who kayaker God equal self-actualization living out your life living your soul feeling the pulse of your energy that is a locus the ultimate finding yourself is the ultimate self discovery in a relationship taking a relationship just to give him some muscle there's have a relationship with you it's a beautiful relationship what is at the core of the relationship my own self-realization my own self-actualization you allow me to become the best person I can be that's a tremendous relationship a spouse a friend a mentor you bring out the best in me you can call it selfish but I'm not it's not selfish its itself oriented but it's not selfish in a negative sense isn't that what you want for each of your children to be able to find a partner in life who will bring out their beauty their smile their grace their their talents their resources their love somebody who brings out the best in you and others my relationship with you helps me become Who I am who I could be that's an incredible relationship don't take it for granted I'm using that as a muscle well a visage Sharmila Kazuki whoo hi echo you want to be in touch with your ultimate skills your ultimate resources the ultimate life that is what a relationship with Hashem means legible - a means a the ultimate relationship with your ultimate self your most awesome self as the slang goes today your most awesome self you could sell yourself a cheap you can just relate to yourself in a primitive way but if you want to exercise all of your muscles physical and spiritual and all else so he says cuca Yasha this is the core go to the core and in a relationship that's very important that I could feel that really talking to you being with you being in your presence having a relationship brings out the best you know something a relationship with some of they bring out the worst in you they trigger the worst things sometimes you have to work that through to get to the to get through to the to a deeper level of course it's tremendous sometimes in a marriage the to bring out the worst in each other because they trigger each other in crazy ways but that means that if they work it through they'll be able to heal and then trigger each other in very powerful ways but that takes a lot of work that takes a lot of work because superficially you become my enemy because you're triggering where suddenly Alem zarkovia Veck sullen bias fearsome asa my malice so you absolutely don't know what I'm talking about triggers trauma relationships right therapy session guys time for therapy 742 a.m. the therapists office opens but despite my jokes it's true right superficially you you drive me crazy but you know what if you could tell that to the person it's guns good and they could stay say what drives you crazy about me oh good wonderful psychoanalysis ten thousand about ten thousand dollars later you're a new man what drives you crazy why do I drive you crazy let's hear and of course you will figure out what's driving you crazy and then if we can do that together and remain present and not run away and just say that's it I'm done with you a lot of good things could come out now we all know that's not always possible we all know that it doesn't always happen that way for so many different reasons and our mission our lives journey takes us to different places and nobody exactly knows how and why and you know in camp we would go tubing so they always said is level 1 and level 2 and level 3 and level 4 you know level 1 is you just sit in the tube and you cruise through the water and two hours later you're on the other side you take pictures level two you'll hit a rock or waterfall level four who strong Rapids currents so it's different life different levels of life's you know some people just tube through life cruise sink I don't know too many today but you have those a few days ago the perhaps but sometimes it brings us into you know this is strong currents and strong waterfalls and the tube flips over and you got to make sure that your head doesn't hit a rock that's the main thing your legs are gonna hit some rocks get some scratches but you have to make sure your head is in the right place so there's different types of journeys but when we can work out that superficial resistance which may not be so superficial we can come to a deeper awareness then it's precisely you who could bring the best to me just like one once you brought out the worst in me you know sometimes they have it with a father and a son your son is very uncomfortable with you and you become uncomfortable with them because there's so much baggage there but the reason he's uncomfortable with you is because you're his father if you would have been a stranger he would be very comfortable with you not because he's closer to that person because he's further than that person very easy to be very comfortable with strangers you don't bring out anything in me it's the people who are closest to us who become furthest from us you heard that line and that's the pain of life and it's the beauty of life if I can if I can stay in the relationship the depth of hate to sometimes just a reflection of the depth of love there's nobody you have issues with like your mother because who are you closer with them with your mother tell me oh and who's and whose womb did you hang out for nine months grow Sakinaka whose food did you eat for years who's your own you know we have to recognize that but I have to work it through after work it through yeah of course yeah sometimes it's harder but yeah hope is never lost hope is never lost of course of course of course of course yeah yeah um and this is all a Marshall fraction like the ballot and he said the first relationship takes an avoider sometimes there's deep Sh rigors I have to work them through I have to work them through but this is the path of a relationship it's a relationship as a path to the ultimate self-realization you know all these gurus advertise these weekends come for a weekend and then new you you'll discover the new you yeah you ever see those stuff you ever try them out they knew you who's the new you that's what we want to I wouldn't a new you we want the real you the ultimate you her Aeneas Mariah Hashmi Nia Skylar Nikolas or even Irish mother that's Alma molecule almond now this ain't bad this good starts the good stuff that's the relationship as a path for self-realization but that's all the way you're defined by me right the relationship back to that brisker and you see which expression it's add in in me it's a gather in me but that's what I'm looking for I want to live my ultimate life so it's how do you impacts me how the U is defined by me either you benefits me and I'm not talking here as narcissism or some person who can't see the other person in a relationship and it's just about me because then it's not gonna be about you it's gonna be about your narcissistic self right there's the old anecdote of the girl of the woman who says she's stopping to date because at the last date this fellow spoke three hours about himself just me me me me you know you have some people all my did this and I did this and by the way and then after three hours he turned to her and he said you know enough of me talking about myself she got excited Wow thank God a little humility and he's you know let's hear what do you have to say about me so we're not talking about that because that's not bringing out your awesome self bringing out a very impoverished and scared self narcissism is usually a symptom of the greatest fear in the world there's no place that's safe outside of myself so therefore have to remain there within my narcissism all my life we're talking here about of a relationship that of course there is there was deep respect for the other person and part of that respect is is what we would call bit builders bit Allah through him I said I'm a leaders bit ball but part of that respect what does it accomplishes the self-actualization of me that relationship and that given and that openness and that vulnerability but then there's a hole deeper element in a relationship the deeper element in a relationship you usually can't get to without step one because if you get to step two without step one it's going to be something missing what's the deeper element of a relationship and this is you know truth be told if relationships would have the first step they would be pretty powerful so here already going to step two I feel a little awkward because like step one or you know vu life's T we running but but step two is something much deeper that's the metaphor for save of Kalama I don't find myself in you I lose myself in you that's what I said I meant in other words it's not about me it's about you the relationship is not about me me finding my ultimate potential which is beautiful but that's all still the way I'm limiting your energy to me then I could of save of kalam in is that it's not a love of me it's a love of truth it's the love of truth that completely transcends me and I can't find myself there because in the ultimate truth I won't find myself because the light wave will not find itself in the solar core if it looks for itself in the solar core it's missing the point here what's the truth who are you in your truth you're in the solar core the breath when it comes outside of the mouth it becomes a gun some a hit then it occupies its own space it's like the light wave it's like the Ray that comes into the room it's very significant but when you're in the solar core what's your truth what's the truth of the light wave I'm gonna start taking pictures of itself it's bottle by matsyas bottle doesn't mean it's not there if the ray of light is outside of the Sun it's also into the Sun it's actually there in a more powerful way it's not that you're not being you there but the you is completely aligned and one with the ultimate source that is beyond the you it's a different type of love that's a love that's beyond Macias it's also the ultimate self because the ultimate self is when the self is in its core but that you're reaching not through finding it but through losing it as I type for something so mysterious nephesh that quality of mr. snuff which is often an expression of this real mysterious nefesh you saying is it relatable every day I mean that depends always you know who the person is what what's the Matt service and this love as he says never exchanges it never gets interrupted because it's not about consciousness the first love is about the consciousness of ki ku ke ko it's all about consciousness when my consciousness is is operating on a low frequency I'm tired I'm exhausted I'm it's gonna affect the love the loyalty that comes from the oneness that transcends the self by definition nothing can interrupt it yeah because it's it's it's right cuz it transcends it it transcends the consult sense of consciousness and that's that's why there has that quality of infinity it's not it's not defined by consciousness it could be conscious but it's not defined by it it's not initiated by a consciousness it's not precipitated by consciousness it flows through it it's not defined by it so therefore it's not limited by it so therefore it can't it can't be altered by it or seized now you understand because I said the word precipitate it flows through it that's the words flows through it consciousness becomes a conduit for it the cop the cop you think I've done what this cop I'm time of this cop well trauma doesn't allow me to be aligned with my source of life what is trauma trauma is that which takes me away from my own life I'm traumatized I'm living in the trauma I'm responding to life from a place of trauma not from a place of life from a place of danger from a place of suspicion I met a person who suffered a lot of trauma on Tuesday so I asked them you know about their life the person said you know before I'm always hiding expression I'm always hiding I could never before I come out I peek out of the closet you know it's constant can I say it can I not say it who's here who's not here better not say anything I mean there's so many different types of trauma but I'm just giving you an example so it's like the person isn't is in a terrible bubble and it has to be punctured and asked it has to be a rapture yeah it could be very defensive very scared very insecure it's very unnatural I'm sorry what does he have free will I don't think so when a person is in a state of trauma their freedom is so compromised there is a place that is always beyond trauma right there's the Shayla Kelly calm email that is always beyond trauma nobody can traumatize it because it's divine and people don't have access to it and if I can tune into that so there's a part of me that can overcome the trauma in other words there's always a voice of sanity there's a voice of fearlessness there's a voice of confidence even in a traumatized victim but I have to be able to be vulnerable and allow myself to open up to that place because if not I'm stuck in the trauma I have to trust that that exists in me because the trauma tells me that without it I'm gonna die because the trauma is also protecting me it's it's my it's my it's my bulletproof vest if I come out of it I'll be shot I'll be stabbed you don't come out of a bulletproof vest vest when you're in in Kabul Afghanistan or or in the battlefields of Syria this kid grew up in Syria Civil War maybe Borough Park on the surface but internally was civil war wherever it was right so how can you come out of your hiding place you lock the door you stay behind locked doors but if the person could know that is a place that is deeper than the trauma and they can trust it so they can come out and allow themselves to take over rather than a trauma takeover but it's a scary process much more much more unconscious than conscious and for this actually save of kawaman is very helpful because save of kawaman is not defined by consciousness so it can't be destroyed by consciousness you understand my conscious appreciation of life is beautiful it's powerful but it's also limited and it can be played with it can be altered because consciousness can be manipulated in so many different ways and then my consciousness of life can be compromised and sometimes can be traumatized but the part of self that is rooted in size of kalam and is never filtered filtered through any filters so it always remains in its full infinite beauty and intensity nothing can ever obliterate it nothing and everything in the divine is reflected in the person there's them a male of the person and there's the sight of the of the person there are male of the person is the self that is filtered through the vessels that the self can experience the same above the person is the core that is unchangeable and it encompasses all over the person the highest and the lowest and it retains its pure infinity always it never limits itself so it's never subject to any form of manipulation how do you tap into that yeah so by an animal it's just programmed in other words an animal as far as we know today we may be surprised but as far as we know today and the animal you know we're the only ones who asked questions these types of questions the animal is also a reflection of our shams life everything as a blade of grass to every shrub every Bush every tree every plant every insect every reptile but they don't have the consciousness I'm talking in a revealed way the consciousness to become aware of the big picture and the role that they play in the universe and the choice is to make their pre-programmed by a divine energy and they just march to the beat they march to the beat with and that's it that's what they do the human being is the is the person as the organism that asks questions that no animal will ask including questions of identity Who am I where am i from what's my destiny what's my mission what's my purpose how do i tap into myself sheep don't stop and wake up in the morning Who am I Who am I not how do i tap into my sheep today they also don't go to classes yeah you ever see how they eat they eat they chew for hours they bring that's where they get all their information well they haven't they have they have an instinctive awareness of what to do how to do self preservation self gratification they have that instinctive awareness it's a mechanism that exists within them it's the brain signals and electricity that allows them to function and survive which we also have but the human brain from a Jewish perspective has that soul and the soul is an existential creature that asks questions that the liberates that wanders that is inquisitive it's curious it wants to understand what and why and it also confuses us we have so many choices most animals know exactly who they are and what they're supposed to do every morning there you know bees don't have an identity crisis why am i a bee why am I not a cat to piddle or not that is the question they know they are it's obvious it's clear that's part of the march of creation that's part of the beat and they all dance to the beat and then we say who says there's a beat with only ones who say that and I don't like dancing anywhere you decided it's a beat it's your problem not my problem right that's the human soul the human soul is always choosing and the true the real reason is because the human being is the one who's supposed to bring it all together were the one who we are the ones who are consciously consciously dance to the beat and complete the symphony the only one who can have an impact on reality because we choose they are symptoms of reality we have the ability to choose so something can be created they're pre-programmed so they're just living out a program so nothing new happens it's the program ah they have moods of course no listen part of the system is to have moods it's part of their system they get tired they can be depressed of course yeah yeah listen you know elephants mourn for their dad and there's loyalty of course keller of is cool a lathe there's a lot of emotion but that itself is pre-programmed which we also have we're also pre-programmed we also get into bad moods at least some of us but the human being also has that our higher consciousness let's call it a higher consciousness of reason of of the liberation of transcendence of spirituality that puts him and her in a different league and therefore we can also be lower than an animal as the Gomorrah says and higher than an animal what Dick Morris is Yiddish code mock sometimes you have to look at a mosquito and say this mosquito is doing much better than I you know he's living out his purpose he knows exactly what he needs now he needs your blood for lunch comes to your hand gives you a kiss eats lunch and says bye-bye and get cut outs yeah I think it could add yeah it's due crops so you look at the mosquito mosquito knows exactly what it's doing the bee flies to the nectar to the plants to the flowers absorbs the nectar goes back to the Beehive feeds the queen creates honey combs allows the newbies to hatch dyes 30 days later does the Beast sit down and say I'm out you think I'm living a fulfilled life and who is this queen anyway to control me and why am i a be and who curry and I don't like making honey I'm not as sweet as as the honey in Wu and why am i a servant there not a master right you know the bee is the peak it fulfills its purpose naturally instinctively pre-programmed that has the code and it lives out that code by the way there's a lot of studies of trauma that were done on rats you know that they separated rats from their mothers and their family environment and they were traumatized and then they see how the rats live in trauma so this trauma in animals is trauma and rats a lot of research of trauma was done with rats I've read some of it ah yeah of course deduced is this despair and frustration and angst you take away a calf from its mother right then there are tears and of course there's a lot of emotion like it isn't know it but it teaches us teachers the biological process of the brain how do we respond how do I respond when my survival is is questioned when that security that the little the little baby monkey the little baby chimpanzee right experience is in the bosom of its mother and then it's it's torn away or the rat is torn away what does my brain do what did my brain do right I cry I want to go back and that teaches us a lot about children a lot about adults that's where the similarities are very very powerful we learn a lot about human nature but this is human nature how do we respond how there's the same brain that is brilliant in survival and all of the instincts that it needs and it knows how to eat and it knows how to digest and it knows how to go to sleep and it knows what it needs right and how does it respond when those essential needs are taken away and what does it do to me practically what does it do to me internally they also did a lot of studies when the traumatized rat comes back to the family how the trauma gets undone it's just a very interesting thing stamp I read once an essay in the New York Times about it and the researchers discovered that when the family reaccept s-- the rat in full pleasantness and joy the effects of the trauma were almost minimal a few days later was back to normal and the researchers showed based on it I don't know that if it's conclusive it's very powerful idea that more than the effects of the trauma is the way the closest people deal with it when I come back do you look at me as this crazy weirdo who's like never case in the and you know walking on eggshells around me and we can't talk about this we can't talk about that or you could really embrace me with everything in a very natural way and that allows me to embrace myself when you don't embrace me because I'm the weird one unbelievable what they did they did research again and again and they saw different types of how they welcome them back sometimes the rats were very like you know you don't belong here anymore and then they never made peace they could never make peace with themselves so this is incredible stuff where we could see so many similarities and that's why scientists do it they have so many different types of dispositions you know the people who have dogs will always tell you this type of dog that type of dog horse trainers horses you know whatever every animal has its own fears it's on its own mr. garcin within every species every every creature has its own fears and even plants and trees they don't speak and they don't show emotion but they all have an inbuilt mechanism how do they deal with danger what does a tree do when there's no water it doesn't sit down and die those roots go searching yeah yeah what is winter the tree knows that a difficult season is coming and I'm not gonna expend energy there's a lot of energy keeping my Leafs on and keeping them Green it's not easy what does the what does the tree this is amazing the tree basically gets rid of anything that it's not essential for survival because I don't have the energy I need I don't get the sunlight I'd hate I don't got the sugar I need because the sunlight becomes glucose becomes sugar so the tree says okay that's it we're gonna live with essentials boom bye-bye Leafs I'll see you later it's basically sir it's a tremendous survival skill and it allows the tree to live without expending energy that it doesn't have it's not per here it it's it's the it's the built-in but it's incredible how does it reno to do this who which classes did it go to botanists it for 10 years and write PhDs to figure out 1/2 of a tree how did the tree know this without the PhD and I wouldn't survive yeah they say well the trees learnt this after billions of years what they learn after billions E is what they learn after billions is they looked at the other trees are the trees died so they learned we have a game in chemistry classes we called the laws of nature somehow when you use the word laws of nature you don't have to explain anything else but that's the greatest forest will be the laws of nature what our laws of nature what are the laws of nature what do you mean laws of nature who taught nature to have these laws why this nature abide by these laws what kept my teenager have laws of nature I was talking to somebody there have a question you have a teenage daughter yeah her room is messy or clean greatest mess in the world yeah do you ever come back to the house and expect to come into the room and just see it organized this is absolutely not she has to organize it I say why can't you imagine that one day you'll come back into down and just after all these years of this room being here yeah it's an old house just somehow the yeah the blanket comes on the bed instead of going off the bed like like why would I get out of bed and I throw the blanket maybe just one day it'll just end up exactly the way it was before I went to bed and when I throw off my socks they'll just go into the hamper but somehow it doesn't happen without effort and you know how long it takes to clean up six and a half minutes but somehow a world that is complex beyond beyond beyond beyond beyond just boom boom the trees figured it out they just figured it out but it's not per serie and that's the point is that the genetic code it literally follows a code like my computer my computer is brilliant by the way you know that my calculators Evo so brilliant so my computer is programmed and the writers of that code programmed the computer and the computer lives up to that program unless there's a virus trauma which is also a code yes you have to program the computer with a program to learn from its mistakes to from his virus to write artificial intelligence it's unbelievable so I'm gonna run the world I don't know probably 80% of the workforce I don't know danger everybody will come learn what why danger but sorry shop is you want Pete so you're not gonna call up a guy in Pomona to deliver pizza you know say meat of course yep Yankel pizza and remember robots don't need vacation you know what I mean they don't get grouchy they don't negotiate about salaries there's no egos who needs people to run the world mishegoss as long as yeah as long as all the people that spend in that society gets yeah so animals in that sense animals have tremendous consciousness tremendous abilities profound trauma and the spear but it is no clear it's pre-programmed it's the code and the code allows for viruses yeah it allows for all types of viruses just like our code allows for viruses and our bodies also are programmed to respond to the viruses with antibodies and the viruses are programmed to mutate and reattach the body and get rid of those antibodies and shock them and then our bodies are programmed to fight back and that we could learn a lot from the animal kingdom and that's why the study of animals is so valuable in terms of this type of research Oh what it fails to capture is that I mentioned that is unique to the human to the human being now they don't like them out of them don't like that they like to call us Homo sapiens because remember if essentially we are chimpanzees who just went through a cognitive revolution and an agricultural revolution and we learned how to use Spears and and swords and then plant wheat right and then somehow stand on two feet whatever there is a great benefit to that the benefit of that is there's no responsibility and whatever your nature dictates is right there's no such a thing as right or wrong there's no you can't use the word responsibility you can use the word and you could use the word instinctively what people a lot of people want to do in other words what Max Planck was saying is that the reason the table exists is because I believe it exists even physical what if you don't observe the table that disintegrates that collapses into its you don't see the table and there's an expression I once read of a physicist once wrote a big one a secular physicist he said when you leave your house doesn't exist I'm still trying to tell it to the telephone company but they don't buy it they don't buy it electronically well cuz that's I I still see your house but you don't live in it yeah that's something else that's something else everything is a relationship of two things it's the reality and it's my observation of the reality and my observation defines what it is you have to understand that so that's true with everything in the world what what is it without my observation of it you put this table under a microscope you look at it under a microscope look at an ant on a microscope anything in the world a different reality will be revealed no you can't even touch it you can't touch an atom just like the eyes effect the reality the hand also ok mitad sites they work together yeah yeah pleasure to have you we actually here today or just so you say we you here was just my observation you weren't a mask an economy the dust of Minaj with those tough monogamous the stuff no malice discrimination is now lost your shining tactless idea shall i needa right so what do you have to know she just don't know so tactless idea shall in ada to ultimate knowledge the ultimate knowledge is that i don't know but that's the ultimate knowledge so if that's a closer idea then just don't know anything a baby also doesn't know or maybe a baby does know but there's not knowing and there's not knowing there is ignorant ignorance and there is enlightened ignorance it's a different ignorance you know what you don't know you know why you don't know so you already know much more even though you don't know yes this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they ueshiba net / donate