The Longing to Transcend all Separation, and the Celebration of the Present

[Music] thank you had to sh okay I sent him to get the lookas h [Music] din [Music] welcome [Music] good morning [Music] yeah yeah yeah welcome in person the first time you're here no [Music] M good let's see the [Music] we good to go [Music] okay why I'll speak loud [Music] okay good morning everybody we're going to begin today a new M from from the AL bat on next week's para which is it's a longer M so it's going to be a few but we'll start today so go [Music] to the begins and it's page [Music] 11 111 you'll see on top it says First Column on the right column in the Hebrew it's NV column One D nun column one today's class is dedicated anonymously by Mr Anonymous so thank you very much with heartfelt appreciation to the yeshiva.net for the invaluable learning Spiritual Development inspiration offered to our Jewish Community worldwide may we all go from strength to strength amen and you too I also want to dedicate the class to Theon b s foru Anda Aon fan one of the pillars of this she unfortunately hasn't been here recently and we wish him a complete and speedy recovery the B you know the B yeah our very own caropractor okay but he's with us virtually he's with us virtually but not physically yet okay this mare from the Al he said would be in the secular calendar 1805 so he begins with the opening [Music] of speaks to and he [Music] says this is the law of the T that hasem commanded and he gives them the famous law of this is the law of what we call the red cow or the red heer that they should bring to you a par a cow which is Duma it has to be read T complete no blemish no yoke nobody ever worked with this with this cow to plow or put any yolk on it and this par is then ultimately slaughtered and it's burnt and the ashes are mixed with the water of a spring and the to goes through the whole procedure of how that's done and ultimately there'll be a mixture of Ashes from the cow with water and this will be sprinkled on anybody who has come in contact with a corpse which we call Tas the impurity that comes from contact with a corpse and it's done in a process of seven days on day number three and day number seven following which this person goes to the Mikvah and can experience full Purity that's basically the which occupies the whole first section of Paras hukas because there's quite a few intricate and detailed laws [Music] he begins with what seems like a grammatical difficulty starts off the starts the par starts off speaks could you bring me a the blue blue the blue one of the blue uh he starts [Music] hasem is the one speaking to M right so it's like it's like like much of the says the is written like the say spoke to so who's writing it someone else it's like a it's like a a narrator like a third narrator on the outside who's watching you never thought about this but if God dictated the T so it should have all been said I said to m i did doesn't speak like that usually [Music] so who's writing it there's like a third third party who's watching everything and he's saying oh you knowen spoke to shim right Ley spoke to Yehuda so hasem spoke to M so that's how it starts off here to spoke to then he says this is the law of the right says once the conversation begins yeah so he's talking about himself so he [Music] said this is part of the conversation he say spoke to shim and he said this is what I want to tell you this is not what is going to tell you so he starts but then the next commanded [Music] rather also to understand a little bit of this whole concept of a red cow and only here does it say there's a lot of in the he doesn't usually say this is the law of the T this is one of the laws of the T there's 613 of them but here he says this is the law of the T it's an introduction that is unique to the the explanation is the he generally is called that's what we call it what does that mean the [Music] written and the way it's understood this is how explained it the r discusses this at length God dictates he says and M writes so it's called because it was the that was relegated to writing to be put on paper on parchment on pap then we have another section which we call the oral T the T that comes through the mouth also came through the mouth but wrote it so it's called and then this div which we call the words the words of the of the scribes of the sages this is called because it was transmitted not in a way that it was initially written down but rather communicated verbally gener through the generations so we have two types we have part of that but here we're going to learn about a third thing here the word is so usually is translated as a law like but the word comes from the word means [Music] engraved he says in this week a law I engraved from the word which is not written it's engraved like we learned in a previous M where he brings the about what does this represent the way the is in its [Music] source over there it's called letter it's like letters that are engraved this is a higher state of the way it's manifested on a level where it's called becomes letters of of writing in other words it's not just a technical thing you have letters that are written you have letters that are engraved he said this is the m this is the source of it's a state where everything is in a in a more Sublime state in a higher madrea this means when it's that are engraved it's in a different type of level then the way it's mlab the way it's manifested or the way it's enclothed the way it comes down in a level that we call letters of [Music] writing to understand the difference it's it's let's use the physical difference what's the [Music] physical if you take the you take a metaphor for this physically there's a big difference letters that are written on white parchment like we write a the letters are ink which are essentially a distinct and separate entity from the parchment there was no connection before there was no there was no connection between the ink and the parchment earlier afterwards afterwards it takes the parchment and takes a quill a pen and put dips the quill the feather and ink and now writes the letters on the parchment so now they become now they become United now you look at the parchment and you could see the the ink on the parchment they become one because now it's on the [Music] parchment and therefore you can also erase it when you write something it's t a one the two become one it's not like there's paper and there's ink somewhere else no the ink is now on the paper on the parchment on the cloth as he says but because essentially talking about two entities that were brought together so then you can also separate [Music] them when you have letters that are engraved means it comes from it itself not a separate entity how do you engrave letters when you have a you engrave a stone's say tomb Stone or anything where you engrave letters it's not you're bringing another entity and you're introducing it and you're connecting the two it's it's from the stone itself you engraved those letters in the [Music] stone so it's it's not it becomes connected it's one thing Mish with the stone in which it's connected as he said the he referenced which we learned a few weeks ago where he discusses this the difference of and you had it in you had three parts you had Theus Theus it says right the were engraved wasn't written it was Stone and the letters of the Ten Commandments were engraved in the tablets you which is and then you have which comes through the mouth which is [Music] verbal this is the deeper meaning when he says it's not just this is the law of the this is one of the laws it means [Music] that this Mitzvah of the red he the red count which is called a it's called the law and a particular category of Mitzvah called this will allow you to access and communicate and and and you're going to be you're going to communicate which aspect of engraved letters that the state of of of consciousness of of reality that is felt in the letters of Engraving should be communicated and experienced within the letters that are written and from there come out in the letters that are said that are verbally communicated so from and from [Music] into because touches on something that represents the Claus the collective theme and point of TOA as will be [Music] explained and for this the soul comes down from its place of Glory in ganaden in paradise and it comes into a physical body in order to fulfill the like we say commanded us to do all of these in order to have we say at the end of you should see the you should do them so the says there's no there's no vows in so you can also read you're G to make them not you should do them you will make them or there's another again you could translate it the person does them he fulfills them or he makes them the person makes them into because the person accesses a link from the State of Consciousness where it's engraved to where it's written and then once this now you could live in them whaty live in them the soul comes down into the gof which this descent is for the sake of an Ascent in order to create this from which is the arousal from a below with all your heart and then the result is the arousal from above which is all these words that I command you should be on your heart or will be on your heart so he's saying here big something very intense very profound that there's three states in engraved is written and this represents that this is connected to the level of to get in touch with that you'll get in touch with it through this Mitzvah of par because somehow this touches something that is very essential to T and the Soul comes down in order to make the T what's try to make the T not lasses to to fulfill that's literal you came down to make it actually to turn it into it's a whole different whole different not to do the in other words just to do what I'm telling you to actually make the you're the one who has a tremendous impact on what is what makes it is going to be your journey of your soul in here and that's what he brings all [Music] these not just lassus as an obey fulfill what I'm telling you lassus actually to make it you're going to turn turn it into because you're going to access into you're the one making it [Music] a know this is a very creative process it's not just you're a passive obedient creature who's doing what I'm telling you to do there's something much deeper happening here there's a very deep relationship you are actually a co-creator you're the one who and then and that's why it always says and this is how the soul experiences its Al its ultimate descent from coming down into this world that's that's why it says so there's a parentheses that gives references and footnotes after the parentheses three lines from the bottom to understand all of this what does this mean and how do how do they the Jewish people have the capacity to tune into this state of make the into [Music] make here by the red cow what we saying that something general here about the whole that's connected to the that here it says could have said by other MIT it doesn't it says only here so here he starts the explanation [Music] elsewhere the general theme of mitv is that it accesses it gives a person a state of consciousness which says about means the holy animals but this is a reference to the angels like we say in the morning and daving [Music] it's the Angelic beings talks about them in his famous Vision known as he says the the living beings are R comes from the word r they're yearning they're running they're longing and Sh they're returning they're retreating so the AL says that the whole concept of Mitzvah is that it gives a person access to this beat to this heartbeat of life it's allowing the person to tune into this rhythm of and that's what he's saying interesting words the whole of a general concept of [Music] that is what's called the heartbeat of creation not just as the living animals the Angels but also the is the whole source of life the flow of life is and that's how it goes it's constantly state of R which is ascending upward and then sh which is returning tension resolution it's a dance Yin and Yan of going up and coming down R is always a sense of discontentment of of going back to something looking for something and Sh is making peace complacent complacency not in a sense of paralysis but complacency with coming back embracing what is [Music] huh could be I mean I didn't I hear mean I didn't think of it that way but more R like from the word rutz right rut means to run or the word r r is a pining a yearning a desire desire is always I'm looking for something I'm seeking I'm looking to connect I'm looking for something and then there sh which is coming back returning don't run away come back here so mitzvas are all founded on that Rhythm tuning into that space of because this is the heartbeat of life always [Music] says he was always [Music] traveling you have it in this is one of the first texts of if your heart is racing return to to on so he says [Music] what's says in what does it mean your heart is racing connected to the heart like we say in the morning of give our heart perceptiveness is associated [Music] with through meditation and means the Infinity [Music] of was created with a the letter and this world with the letter he so the says created this world which means which's infinite Bliss that his students said it would be good for him to go through all of the purging of purgatory that he should be able to experience Gade why because it's infinite Bliss so it's worth it to go through whatever he has to go through to extricate all the unnecessary filth that is has attached to his soul in order to be able to go to Gade because the Theiss makes it worthwhile so all of this saying it comes from one letter A what's the metaphor of a letter the metaphor of a letter is what is the space of one letter in the totality of the human soul so the letter is there we have the letter inside but it's subsumed in the core in the Infinity of a person so you say the is like one letter subsumed in Atmos in the core of even though that one letter already creates infinite Bliss but it's still experiencing Bliss so it's only one letter that's extracted so to speak it's a flow it's a filtered flow of Consciousness that can only be described as one letter in the totality of the of the Soul experience what is that letter it's a letter it's there it has energy but that's the that's the idea of this is the the says with you is the source of life so literally it means with you is the source of Life The Source of Life comes from you the source of life has an identifiable address but he says it's a deeper [Music] the whole source of life that we identify which includes it's only it's with you it's when you say he goes with him IM right IM means it's with something it's with you in other words that whole source of life is completely subservient and subsumed in [Music] you it's subsumed it's like it would be nullified in the sense that it's like like he always gives a mush of the Solar Ray in the Solar core the essence there's nothing profounder that creates a it creates a longing it creates a longing that I want to have the essence I want to have the ultimate truth I want to be subsumed in in in the EM itself like it say who do I have in heaven and with you I desire nothing in Earth so literally it means who do I have in heaven besides you and with you I don't need anything else on Earth he says it mean something deeper even in heaven which is G even that I'm not going to get stuck over there anything that's with you but it's not you that's not going to become the core the core of my goal it's the famous story that says that he used to hear in middle of daving he would say this and you hear how he Tes it here in the but during he would [Music] say that means even on Earth and even in to stay connected to to you to the that's that's so now he puts the two together he's putting the two that which is which is even though it's it's it's it's not bad it's it's he says it's it's infinite Bliss but it's still a distraction it's not the it's not the core it's the way it's processed and filtered and experienced and really it's the one letter of yud even though that one letter yud has enough to generate the sorts of all [Music] life this is what the means the heart is racing represents the element of fire in the heart which represents the thirst the yearning the the human longing for deeper connection for more Truth for more attachment for more authenticity and even when a person has reached a very very deep and authentic place there's even a deeper Ru of course this trickles down into every state of consciousness where there's a longing there's a yearning there's something I'm missing and I want more of it that's [Music] theu of course not everybody translates every longing as this but Al is saying I'm going to give you the secret that ultimately all longing is connected to this all longing of a person not everybody's is is when they're having a longing or desire this is exactly how they're going to describe it but he's saying if you sit for years and you'll go through everything go go through you can go through the whole process you'll take away all the layers you'll find that this is the the this is [Music] the the deepest pain of a person is that they miss God that's the deepest pain that's what he said existence even G is a form of subtle separateness sometimes subtle and sometimes much more than subtle and the the soul that is sensitive to this truth it's longing it's yearning it wants attachment it doesn't want to be separated that's the deepest longing of the person now I may not know that this is my longing I just know I have a void so I I want this I want this I want that this one is looking for attention this one is looking for validation this one is looking for a little honor this one is looking for a little money this one is looking for a little power this one is looking for a little influence this one is looking for a little quiet this one is looking that his kid should stop bugging him this one is looking at her husband or wife should stop bugging him this one is looking to get away this one is looking to come back whatever this one is looking to binge and this one is looking for alcohol this one is looking for another tatka but the longing at the core of everything the lack of contentment why are you not content why is the squirrel much more content than most people even though it has a miserable life here in M it's coming from your porch to my porch to your porch to my porch to your porch to my porch but he's not in depression the same is true with the deer they can't even get a house for themselves because they know who they are and they live what they are but the person is not sure who he is this is what R means R is the yearning to touch to touch who I am and because the soul is extremely sensitive and you'll see therefore that someone who's more sensitive the r is always much deeper right people who who are more sensitive the soul feels more the separateness the moment you feel more separateness it's like in a marriage right when people are less sensitive they don't notice the subtle disconnections but when one one one person in the relationship is sensitive usually the woman but the man is pretty sensitive if he's not in denial of uh himself and doesn't have to be become uh too detached in life the more sensitive a soul is the more we sense the pain and the anxiety of separateness the origin of all separateness happens in what we call creation creation is this process of exist as we know it it's like a letter extra ated from the core of infinity to be filtered into a letter that becomes the source of ganen or of this world now here you're talking about ganaden which infinite Bliss so what else can you have he says and even there even someone who understands what ganaden is and Al who understood what G is who felt what G is and he said even that creates a frustration why cuz I want you what he calls him is cuz that's the nature of the soul the nature of the soul is that that's what it's looking for it's looking pure pure Oneness pure pure Unity nothing diluted no compromises not second best not a little connected complete complete connection without any any disconnection even this most subtle disconnection and it's not even going to be ready to sell this fora what we [Music] call you relate to [Music] this if all the layers are peeled away you relate to this if not you don't relate to it so this is called R this is the essence of R again it trickles down on into billions and and and and trillions and endless levels wherever a person is but this is the this is the core of the heartbeat of life that a soul that is alive experiences this this is called it's an element of fire it's a discontentment but a very powerful discontentment not not a discontentment in a miserable way a discontentment because of its openness to truth and because of its openness to truth it's driven by this and and other things are a distraction what happens often in in in life is everybody's looking for contentment so we get stuck and we sell ourselves yeah you Short Circuit the the fire of the soul for less than what it's really looking for and then there's this always disappointment always because it was never this those who have been suffering from addiction know this right what is all addiction really there's a r in the soul what's the r the is the soul misses God it's like a child missing its mother missing its father I may not know that I miss but that's only because I miss it so much and then when I know that I miss you I'm already much closer when I miss you and I don't know that I miss you I'm already much further it's not like when you don't know that you miss me you don't miss me it just means that you don't even process what's happening you don't you're not aware of what's happening and therefore you're not even sensitive and respectful to the to the energy but the soul is but I can't even process it or do anything to help it cuz I'm in denial of it you know when somebody misses their mother or misses their spouse Etc and they know it so there's already a deep relationship I want you I'm looking for you I know it's bothering me and therefore I know that something else won't do that but if the sep sear ation is so deep that I don't even know that I I miss you but I do so now it's a much more tragic separation cuz now I think I'm going to satisfy my longing through other distractions when that's not what I was ever looking [Music] for of course we get lost and one of the coping mechanisms is that I want to be happy and comfortable and therefore there's an attachment that I was looking for and I can't get I will create counterfeit attachments that will at least allow me to survive but it's not what I need but they allow me to survive and those are all the different attachments that we create in the Life which could be very promising but for a very short time and then ultimately they all [Music] plot you learn that's how you pursue real attachments that's how you pursue real attachments every day you learn so you know who you are and who you're not and what you're looking for but it's not just learning as he always understands it's not just learning it's it's the living it's the breathing it's the internalizing not philosophy h [Music] he wants to know if there's one person that I know who healed addiction through [Music] L you say just psychedelics [Music] addi ad addicted you're saying those of us who are not addicted after to feel bad about ourselves it's like neb like what world you living in are you not addicted neb but yeah I don't think that's the idea it's not the idea the idea is that the addict needs to know that what he's looking for at the end of the day he'll only find in God in hasem that's true that's true that's you're right you're right people whose happiness comes from getting attention or being celebrities or money it it fails them miserably you're right you're right we use the word Addiction for a very limited form in life I'm using the word Addiction as a very broad term wherever I become attached emotionally to things that ultimately it's not the ultimate truth of what my soul wants and needs and therefore it's not constant and that's why I always need more and therefore afterwards it's never as good as before afterwards it's never as good as before cuz before you have the expectation the dream you know that's how you know when it's touching something real and touching something not real when you touching something real afterwards it's much better of course meditation of course meditation yeah he says here is B us that's how he started off the whole R always requires his b us the word his b comes the word but it's meditation but not just meditation as abstract meditation of internalization so this is the of the [Music] Soul H okay you don't have to P I appreciate your questions and comments very much they don't have to everybody can share exactly where they are it's [Music] fine there's a lot of things in life that bring a lot of awareness especially today everybody knows that one of the most powerful things that people don't understand is that without integration all awareness is not going to bring the healing that it needs to heal I could become aware of every issue I have and it's amazing it's a tremendous gift but the work of integration is a different type of work so now I have all the awareness but my template is damaged there's a lot of wounds what does actual healing look like so when I have that awareness it looks like I'm Healed because I have but that's not true because after 3 weeks I mean whoever is involved in these stuff of healing knows this after 6 months 7 months 8 months remember if my body has responded to life already for 50 years in this way so the awareness is incredible and sometimes it could change a lot a lot of things but very very often one of the greatest traps is we think awareness is the beginning and the end of redemption but there's the deep and profound aoid of integration and integration is very different integration is actually working with the boring self without escaping it that's what Integra integration means bringing it into my life bringing it into my house to my kitchen to my bedroom to my job to my routine to my habits to my regular conversations that integration sometimes creates a deeper challenge than anything else that's why you have people that have tremendous awareness they come back to regular life and then a month later boom next now I go again I don't want to take the time and the space for integration I understand why who needs integration let's just go straight to Gade and stay there awarness is a Mitzvah Airness is not a Mitzvah awareness is awareness is listen this is not awareness is the foundation of all growth without awareness I'm just stuck in a prison thinking it's it's it's it's emancipation awareness opens me up to the fact that I may have been my operating system may have been so wounded and maybe for 50 years I was living in this little bubble and peeking out and not even seeing reality I couldn't live with reality I didn't even know what reality looks like I was completely in prison couldn't even trust one emotion so that's incredible but now to integrate that into daily [Music] life yeah exactly awareness is the interface awareness is the interface to a higher real it to a true reality to more transparent reality but now what about your nervous system the nervous system has already been working in a certain way for decades the whole somatic experience how my body is reacting to life there's a whole universe there and you can't fool it huh so integration always always requires a daily work where you need a support system for Integra and we need ways of Translating that awareness right into into daily life and that's where the learning has such a powerful effect the integration of it that's number one number two even when it comes to awarness yeah somebody once told me if you you can go to Hawaii you can go to the most beautiful place in the world if you don't know what an ocean is you never heard what about an ocean so you see it but you don't have words for it so you see it it's like wow but you don't even know what you're seeing in all your Journeys to really know what you're seeing that's people come to amazing places with this Bliss they don't know what they're seeing and they when they don't know what they're seeing they don't know what to take with them tomorrow what did you just see I felt amazing what did you see what did you see you have to have a vocabulary of the Soul you have to have a vocabulary of it was incredible amazing I never felt I I got it it's amazing you know the Riviera is incredible the Moon is even more incredible not as comfortable the vocabulary of the soul is a vocabulary one needs to know this is the vocabulary of the soul and I'm just pointing out some other points but your points are well taken so this is afterward the line starts after it comes what's is return return to [Music] where comes from another meditation not another but tuning into to what we call means the Infinity of the Divine energy that encompasses it means surrounds but here doesn't mean surround as around like from the outside surrounds mean it encompasses it saturates all the world of there's no higher and lower by just like in a circle where's the beginning where's the middle where's the end where's High where's low I don't any point what do you say this is the beginning and this is the end this is close to him and this is further from him when you have not a circle you have let's say a Cava line you say this is the beginning this is the middle this is the end in a circle I don't know so the so the highest worlds and the most physical concrete Universe what we call it's identical so then the whole term running he's here just like he's there that's sh sh is the recognition that right here you have everything it's not a process it's an event it's not a process this is [Music] it the term and is our terms which is a spiritually sensitive term how could you compare the state of consciousness here is like says in in actually that the state of consciousness of relative is like a relative to you ever saw you ever saw an ant crawling right that ant also has a brain you have a brain the ant has a brain and in the ant's brain he's also figuring out life what do you think the ant is doing he also has philosophy he doesn't call it philosophy whatever he calls it we we have sophisticated words yeah I once heard from Ellie wiel he said that Jews love fighting by Nature he says they're just Jewish so they gave their fighting sophisticated words so he says we fight with the whole world and we give it a name it's called sociology so then we fight with God so we also give it a name it's called theology then we fight with ourselves and we call it psychology so we give it terms the ant also has a state of w the ant doesn't have Consciousness it has a whole world it has it figured out this is what I got to do today you know ants work very very hard they don't take off on July 4th there's no July [Music] 4th but everybody says what's that State of Consciousness and how do you compare it to your State of Consciousness okay now go from an end go to a blade of grass there Consciousness in Grass too and now go from a grass go to a mineral go to a rock yeah it's called so says the state of consciousness of is like the state of consciousness of a rock relative to a human being and you see this you know when sometimes a person goes on a deeper spiritual journey and sometimes you say oh wow for 40 years I was like blind like my state of consciousness was literally like the state of consciousness of a squirrel I thought I had it figured out I was like sophisticated and ahead of my game M like a squirrel and you open yourself up but you have to realize that with all my gal Journeys my state of consciousness today is only what my brain access to you going to you going to Bri going to it's a whole different state of consciousness that's what he says G is infinite Bliss that's what creates r that creates a longing a yearning I'm looking and what am I looking for I'm looking for truth I'm looking for connection and it doesn't stop in G I want Atmos that's R what's is [Music] excellent question so the difference of higher and lower is only relative to the way the energy is filtered into the Consciousness that's experienced by the creation and then you can't compare a higher state of consciousness to a lower State of Consciousness and there's that longing and once by the way you touch a higher state of consciousness there's no going back you know it's like once you hear a certain piece of music you know you can make believe you didn't but you did and all the music you're going to get afterwards you're going to be comparing you know once you read a good piece of literature you know you [Music] from the B you know that it says what does that [Music] mean I place Hashem before me [Music] constantly they say that you know the the Jerusalem Jews are L and they know how to make a good joke they have a cynicism to them you know so they said it was once yeah they're very good at this they said it was once a they say that he knew the whole TI M the whole TI he had a photographic memory and he learned his whole life so he knew for knew everything and he would sit and learn literally all day and all night and in front of him he had this so once came in and said you remember this P you can't remember this P you can't get into your head the cup what happened you can't put this into your head so the said that the word it's actually a from the that his students wrote and this is the first TI first title the word will you say a place he says the word comes the word equal identical like you say every everybody is the same everything by me in life is the same you know why cuem Summit since God is always right here so everything is the same that's Sur from the one line it captures everything that he taught what is he saying there's no such a thing good days bad days now my relationship is good now my relationship is bad those are all judgments based on definitions that we impose on reality and then we call it reality the says well one second maybe you could liberate yourself from all the judgments everything is B says everything is B how could you say everything is Bash it's not this is a good day this is a miserable day I'm successful today I'm unsuccessful today that's all if I'm bringing in my vocabulary to Define reality the saying this is exactly where you are capable of being today with the tools you have and this is exactly what your mission is so what's the problem that this is the source of sh this is the source of sh but Al doesn't start with he always starts with because if you start with SH you know what happens huh yeah just complacent like yeah it's a form of there's a longing there's a yearning there's a lack of satisfaction and then sh is but there's something deeper and the deeper is what makes this low and this High who says this is G and this is G [Music] huh it's our definition it doesn't feel good to me based on my expectations but those expectations are all egoic expectations it's a very profound way of living my life is falling apart what you decided what it means that life doesn't fall apart and now your life is falling apart [Music] maybe your life is unraveling and allowing you to become a humble curious human being so that you can actually become a normal person maybe that's what's happening that's what I would argue maybe your life is not falling about maybe your life is coming together in order to come together it has to get rid of all the toxicity and all the stupidity so that's what's falling apart I don't know but that's what shiv means sh means don't give definitions be open there's a flow of Consciousness there's a flow of life don't get don't go out of the flow and become an objective journalist who defines what's good and what's bad I don't know that's sh [Music] that's we do that's a very good question you're saying all of religion and Judaism gives definitions and all of our definitions are really just Titus definitions so this is that that last line is what we have to deal that that's where the toxicity comes in all our definitions are not ta's definitions we use the TAA to justify all our stereotypes all our egotistical mishas all our traumas all our wounds our inability to be flexible and to be open to Infinity we use religion I don't like quoting Carol marks but I will we use it as an opium to numb our own pain and we have religion to back us up so now we have God on our side so we take God and reduce him to our traumas but that doesn't nothing to do with God nothing do with t and this is the whole we're going to be learning yeah all definitions of T only come after the experience of infinity those are different definitions you understand what I'm saying all the definitions of are definitions that follow the vocabulary of infinity which is not really a vocabulary those are different definitions there are definitions that channel infinity and there are definitions that imprison Infinity that was actually said beautifully that didn't come for me so I could give it credit had nothing to do with me nothing to do with me I promise you huh you want me not to say it again Ask the who said it to say it again you're talking to the wrong [Music] guy but I'll say it again there are definitions that channel Infinity there are definitions that imprison Infinity this Shu doesn't imprison Infinity it channels Infinity this Shu means this moment right now is the greatest moment in your life I'm in the dumps well who calls it dumps God says I'm here G is not the dumps and this is the dumps why because your brain has been challenged now because it took you out of a comfort zone back to Uncle mem is here hem is there up up down down up up down down so what makes this down and that up what makes this down and that up perception so of tells you maybe you have to transcend perception and say no wherever you are this is perfection what does Perfection look like what does I don't know what Perfection looks like the answer is perfection doesn't look like anything you know what Perfection looks like wherever you are right now and whatever you're dealing with right now that is perfection so you'll say really oh woe to that level of perfection that woe again is taking me out it's bringing me back into an egoic mind right with with which is constantly making definitions and saying this is good this bad this we're always judging judging judging stop the Judgment it's hard to stop the Judgment because we live in our brains and when we live in our brains we're always analyzing and dissecting especially if you're a good ashkenazic Jew you would train that that's what all religion is just analyze and dissect and the more you judge the better it is especially if it's somebody else but even yourself we judge others because we judge ourselves we're always busy it's good it's bad it's good I'm bad I'm depressed I'm almost depressed I'm happy I'm I'm a I'm aad I'm a rash there was never a Russ like me in history there was never a sadic like me in history the problem is not if you're a sadic or a Russ it's really not the issue the problem is that you're in your brain For Heaven's Sake you're not this you're not that get out of the brain the brain has loves loves loves it needs everything controlling [Music] controlling stop controlling this is it so this is exactly this is everything in an hour it'll be something else that's going to be [Music] everything this is a very deep place of alignment you understand this is not a philosophy this is an experiential way of living but it has to be very honest because if it's not honest you can become cuckoo you understand if your child falls and breaks his arm and you just say sh it's perfect then now I'm going to judge you in other words you understand what sh everything could be used in in in crazy ways when a person uses it at another Escape another Escape yeah you once spoke about I think the difference between woring God and ReliOn yeah I always talk about that may a little bit in this context of filters and what it means actually to worship hasem verus yeah perfect typ of Jews that we are so I think worshiping religion is like somebody once said you know we create institutions to facilitate our dreams and then we become prisoners to those institutions you know like sometimes you'll have a school the school was created to be there for the children but then the school becomes an objective in and of itself divorced from the children so if a child if a mother says you know my child really needs this this is the school policy the whole school was created for to help these children but then we become prisoners to those institutions now I know it could be complicated and you have to be sensitive and it's not always black and white but I'm just bringing out the concepts that's what happens also in religion like religion becomes divorced from a it it like becomes a self-contained reality and that's a subtle form of aara right what does aara mean I take a statue and I reduce God to that statue God isn't the statue we're not afraid of statues we're not afraid of trees what's the problem with worshiping a tree there's an incredible from he writes this and he says he brings it from a interesting thing you let it bow down to aad that's what he says why because Hashem is everywhere the only thing that blocks it is the ego when somebody realizes that there's no ego so then I'm just a channel for Oneness so the problem is not a tree or the Sun or the moon it's all representation of God it's when I reduce God to the Sun to the Moon to the tree to the Statue to my perception so then definitions are not channeling Infinity definitions become imprisons of infinity and that's where judgment is born where is Judgment born judgment is born I'm better than you you're better than him I have to be better I'm going to be better it's all a form of being stuck in a place where I'm not transcending the egoic mind and by the way this can also become a trap in the opposite way talking about traps what's the opposite trap the opposite trap is people who love saying I don't judge anybody ever and there's no right and wrong in other words I I somebody sent me a podcast of somebody and he explained like any form of Judaism you want to practice is fine don't tell me how to do it and I won't tell you how to do it right it sounds very liberal and and open-minded but this was his excuse of never ever ever God forbid curtailing his Yahara and talking about God's will because everything is just open and infinite infinite with infinity this is becomes your is I have no spine I have space for everything always I have no positions I have no opinions I have no experience all moral relativism everybody is equal everything is equal shivi but it's the opposite of shivi so everything that that's why it's there's so many traps that people we all fall into and we understand why you know this one's comfort zone has be become rigid and judgmental and this one's comfort zone is I don't even have any standard it's another way of dealing with pain it's another way of dealing with pain if I have no standard then there's no pain there's no challenge there's no stimulation there's nothing to look forward to I don't have to sacrifice anything H there's no R everything is good this is where becomes a corrupt concept it's like I'm in a super system I'm in a Cess pool I'm sick I'm toxic and I'm poison and I'm blaming that also on God that's why R and is the only Rhythm that means you're alive R without is not life because you're always disengaging you're always frustrated you never accept you never celebrate without is death CU all it means is smugness complacency paralysis you tus did I answer your question I tried to at least [Music] so he's not bowing down to the tree if he's bowing down to the tree as a tree right so now we're getting into the problems with Spinosa and pantheism and all that you're right if he if he's bowing down to a tree it's a problem if he's you could say when a Jew bows down in sh yeah he's bowing down to a stender the answer is yeah if he's bowing down to the stender it's a big problem if he red es God to a stender whatever that looks like that's an issue and this is what pliability means pliability means I'm I'm a pliable person the brain neuroplasticity is also spirituality neuroplasticity means our neurons get stuck in defining what reality is and all growth happens through neuroplasticity through opening ourselves up to Al natives to different perceptions to the fact that maybe the way I see it doesn't capture the full truth yeah you create new neural Pathways yeah so that's the N of these two steps and and in every every that's why the heartbeat is essential to life right the doctor checks the pulse what what does he checking if you listen to the P Al says this that's the heart cont what creates the heartbeat the heart contracts and the Heart expands and when it contracts that allows the blood to go out and to begin this circulatory Journey the circulatory system of bringing nutrients and oxygen to every cell throughout the entire organism of the person and then it expands so that that's the concept of constantly there's going back to the source and then there's bringing the life force [Music] back take the respiratory system is built the same way the inhaling and the exhaling one without the other the whole Rhythm of Life is interrupted these are not just biological realities they're spiritual realities that are represented in biology everything is connected everything is one so I inhale right so now I brought in the life for into myself and then I exhale and now I need a new a new to come into me and that's what I I inhale that's why breath work is so powerful there's from Al he explains that breath right it's tuning into this whole R thing today a lot of people discover the power of breath work but you having cab you have a lot about it because Thea the is connected to this rhythm of R [Music] and and all R and R brings you closer to your Source it opens you up to that to higher Consciousness which creates a lot of longing and a lot of Tears a lot of Tears because what are the tears it's tears both of remorse and regret of seeing truth and also of gratitude to see such truth and then there Shu and shu is bringing it back to my reality right here right now one is rooted in one is rooted in which is even deeper so sh in a way has a depth that doesn't have because TR says come back to what's come back to realize that everything is so the lowest is not any lower than the [Music] highest h and we have to honor both rhythms you have to honor it it's like a rhythm it says in every niggan has both right a good niggan right a niggan has R and A niggan has you ever noticed what makes a song a powerful song there's tension and there's resolution always tension is the song is telling you there's a search there's a yearning there's a there's a thirst take [Music] you see that's you hear say then what does he go that's a of then what happens [Music] afterwards that's now [Music] the sh could only come after the why if the sh comes without I'm settling for very small stuff the power of the sh is that it integrates the so it has in it the entire longing the entire thirst the sh doesn't say that you're not longing for anything the says everything you're longing for don't divorce it from your present reality it's all right here right now on a level of of we don't truth is not there it's here it's right here if this is what I'm facing this is reality this is it there's nothing better you're not going to get to a better place but I'm anxious but I'm dealing with it fine so this is so this is the journey right now to work through your anxiety great we think God is afraid of anxiety he's afraid of your anxiety why you running away we to run away yeah but I'm having this negative feeling okay so this negative feeling is a door to awareness this is what you got to work on but I'm not in the mood of daving today okay you think God is afraid of your moods I'm not afraid of your moods you think God is afraid of your moods you don't have to be afraid of your moods so you're out of the mood so right now you'll connect from this place there's a truth here there's a truth here that you could touch sh sometimes it's easier said than done like when you're in a really bad mood you know I'm not interested in CHC and that's also sh you understand what I'm not interested that's also sh We're Not Afraid so you're not interested but I'm really not interested okay like I'm not joking I'm really not interested I'm like dead [Music] okay like could you honor that it's to believe that God is deep than death understand what I'm saying you understand under your under your blah feeling you know what blah is I don't know how they say that in yish huh just blah blah like I'm not interested in anything under that there's an energy there's a soul there too blah is protecting something you said it's it's not reducing reality to the experience of what you're feeling there's more so if you can stay with that and realize everything is here right now and be curious and be open under all of this emotional apathy and indifference there's a life [Music] force blah doesn't come from thin air it's protected It's A coping mechanism people think when they're lazy real thing when I'm having a Passion to something destructive It's A coping mechanism when I'm angry or jealous It's A coping mechanism when I'm lazy and indifferent it's not a coping mean of course it's the biggest coping mechanism in fact it's the most sophisticated one CU it's not confrontation one of the best coping mechanisms is I'm not interested really there's no such a thing you're not interested no soul was ever not interested even monkeys are interested mosquitoes are interested bees are interested you ever saw a bee saying I'm not interested so you think you're not interested the sun is interested the Moon is everybody's interested every leaf is interested look at them they're all interested they're all curious they're all working you think you're the only creature in this whole universe I'm not interested I it's like the teenage thing to do I'm not [Music] interested it's it's a coping mechanism It's A coping mechanism it's a way of deal of of of eclipsing the pain that I'm dealing with or I dealt with and this is a wonderful way of doing it I'm tired I'm exhausted I'm depressed so shivi means right here right now you have all the truth right here in this inside of this you have all the truth don't get your aspal that's what shu is shu is the the celebration of what is in a very profound way yeah make space for it have empathy for it not because we worship laziness or indifference again that's where that's where the Trap is because don't be afraid of it it's hiding something there's a treasure here be behind every coping mechanism is truth under every trauma is light and that's what it's hiding so if you can make space for it it will unravel and open up yeah don't look there look here like the famous story you know y from Kaka you know the dream the treasure you know that Timeless Story the treasure is under your own oven so we're going to see this m is going to show how the whole paruma the ashes and the water is basically this Rhythm and that's where cleansing comes from that's what he's going to continue in the m so this is an introduction to explain the whole idea of because life it's so easy to go to to go to to go to one of the two all is really negotiating the rhythm of essentially all but is always the learning the implementing the so the value of the rhythm of Y is when it's in tuned with the and the and that's the difference between definitions being channels or definitions being [Music] traps yeah every Mitzvah the whole Mitzvah is tuning in it's living by the rhythm of R And so there's always a yearning there's a longing there's a lack of complacency there's a lack of smugness which is what keeps a person alive and there's then there's always two into the fact that right here right now is where everything is and don't allow yourself to get distracted from that which then brings you to another Ru which brings you to another brings you another and just like when the person doesn't say I'm I want my heart to stop beating for a couple of hours or I'm going to stop breathing for a day I already breathed yesterday we're going to stop breathing for a day we'll resume breathing tomorrow we we all understand the joke but spiritually it's the same thing detaching from the Rhythm of Life is a death sentence for the soul the soul needs to be alive 24/7 and being alive is that's what life [Music] is I'll conclude this sh with a story there was a Jew I knew he was already much older when I knew him his name was Rend futas Rend futas was a Soviet Jew from the Communist Russia and uh in 1946 after the war many Jews left Russia with false documentations that they were polish citizens because Stalin allowed polish citizens who escaped the front into the Soviet Union to leave so hundreds and hundreds of families falsify documents and that's how they got out of Russia my father's family my mother's family they all got out of Russia with false papers that they were not Russian citizens it was a lie but that was the only way you could leave Russia if not you stayed there until uh you know Garb or maybe a little earlier if you were lucky soel FAS his wife and child left already and he was about to leave and they caught him and he actually helped Forge passports and he was involved in spreading yish kite so he was sent to the gulag he was sent to the gulag I believe he was there for 10 years nine or 10 years Siberia and then Stalin died in 1953 and think became a little easier not much easier but a little easier and ultimately he was liberated he got out and he stayed in Russia till the 60s and the mid 60s he came he came he was freed he came uh he came to England America Isel he moved toel after many not many people survived Siberia you couldn't first of all the malnutrition and the coldness you're talking about it could be places 70 below zero in the winter 70 below zero and you have enough food you didn't have heated homes they were in barracks and it was slave labor so tens of millions died in the gulag tens of millions but some survived and he survived at Mendel now in the gulag you had a lot of very very interesting people he had intelligencia it wasn't a group of criminals Petty criminals remember that Stalin who did he Exile Anyone Who Had a Brain that thought and said something sensible you were either dead or Siberia so you had professors and actors and essayists and and and doctors and and mathematicians and professors interesting people were there and criminals too you know but there was a lot of uh sort of menal fas he liked telling stories he was a very smart man he was like a he liked telling stories from his gulak years and he had a lot of stories cuz what do you do for 10 years in N all you could do is hear stories and but there's nothing else to do yeah but think about it you know so he would share very interesting story he once shared a story said in his barck there were a Soviet that nobody would start up with because you know they could he said they can destroy you you with their thing with their pinky one of the guys over there can just uh crumble you one of the most forbidden things in the gulag was to play cards to play cards was a crime and you could end up in solitary confinement but in his Barrack at night they would play cards cuz they needed some entertainment they would play cards the nalik Nik is like the the warden yeah the prison Warden would come do inspections and whenever he would come somehow the cards would disappear and when he would leave the cards would come back out so he never caught anybody theend says one day one night they were playing cards between themselves and then a that comes and he does this sudden inspection and the door comes open and he wants to catch them and the cards are gone and uh he says I know you guys are playing cards and this time I'm going to bust you and he begins a thorough search through the Barrack to find the cards now it's not like you had safes and closets and drawers it was a Siberian Barrack so there was nowhere to put anything nowhere and you didn't even have pockets cuz you were wearing the uniform of prisoners there were no pockets he searches everywhere there's no cards he's upset he's angry I'm going to catch you guys and he leaves a moment later the cards come back out they start playing Mendel had to understand what's this Kish here what's this magic of these guys he goes over to one of the the next day you know one of the there and he says you have to explain to me how do you guys do this tell me you never get caught but yesterday he searched everywhere how did he not F the cards what's your secret so the man tells him I'm going to tell this to you because I like you and I trust you and you're not one of us but I'm telling you that if even one person hears this story from you with my beer hands you will be a dead [Music] man the mendal when he came to America he told the story already there he didn't dare to tell the story so the man told him like this we have in our Barrack a man from Moscow and he's the best pickpocketer in Russia there's nobody like him he galic the moment we hear the footsteps from the Nik we know what it sounds like so we have a system everybody puts their car down this man takes it within a second and when the N comes in he puts it into the pocket of the prison [Music] Warden he slips it into his pocket this man searches everywhere there's only one place he doesn't search in his own pocket why would it be in my pocket so he never finds it right before he leaves the pacet takes it out and we continue playing that's what he told him so the mendal he was a wise man he turned to the B and he says this is a story of Life everybody is looking for their happiness in other people's pockets and nobody thinks that it's in your pocket it's in my pocket I can't be in my pocket it's here there there there there where where am I going to find it I'm looking at you I'm looking at you I'm looking at you I'm comparing myself to this one to that one I'm comparing myself to me yesterday tomorrow it's all in your pocket he says open up your own pocket that's where you'll find the cards that's what she means okay everybody have a beautiful day we'll continue B this mare on Monday morning [Music] 7:45 men thank you for coming would say I knew him very well I mean yeah thank you thank [Music] you his name was mleo menal I bought the book after The R told the story a while ago there's a book on it's a little it's a little like children story they have the story no yeah from oh yeah how are you my dear [Music] what yeah thank you for coming thank you for coming the ad for the morning we're visiting from Miami so we have to go in okay gaval gaval thank you for gracing us let me ask you a question you said that part of is learning Ro too right it doesn't necessarily have classes available you're the one who sent me a message a while ago a woman who doesn't necessarily have access to beautiful sheo all the time you have any advice for something like that everything is online that's what you heard everything 100% okay but listen the truth is everyone has to integrate it in their own way you know one person needs maybe to take some walks or exercise or focus on their nutrition or their daving or their learning or their exercise or their relationships I mean you know you know life has to be tailor made so I think everyone has to you know figure out what what's suited and what brings out the best obviously there's things that you know we're all the same but but then there's the unique you know the uniqueid of every person oh yeah yeah just shabus yeah oh you here shabus yeah yeah [Music] yeah thank you thank you Gathering of intense was very intense creat yeah yeah you very fast back and today happens like this it's not like a m say took one year should have took another year [Music] today so the minute you say think wait [Music] let me just shut this one second a minute okay [Music]