The Last Letter

It's important to to like, what did you say? It's it's It's always important to nail the time, where you're holding, what you're holding. Hey. And it's before slices of Allah, so the typical thing today, we'll learn it together would be to focus on force. Would be to sit in this today and I just was able to come from the base Jacob and here certainly we learned the issue of us. Like like regards from Miriam, Miriam was there. So it it's normal to focus on on the thing where on the thing where and we were holding and that's the right thing. Sometimes though something for all different reasons could be on your mind and and go there. That's what's on your mind, that's what you're thinking about, that's what's so and it's always funny when to do what, when do you say this is this is the season, why are you talking about that and when do you say but this is on my mind. I'm very very into like accepting of a sham if I'm literally have had times going up to a speech and a certain thing like like over like that's what I was thinking so I switched the speech and it could be no shyness like what do you do? I feel there's a shocker in that. So I want to speak about something that is not specifically related to us at all. I want to read a letter to the ever here that I it means a lot to me this letter. It start I've I've known about this letter for years and it's for some reason it like talks much more things alike that I've read this letter years ago and it did not mean much to me being honest. And I read it now and it's like I feel it. I've gone through my own story. So it could be going through that the letter means more. Even early in the year of Aveilus, I reread the letter. I've read it recently and I was like, "Wow." It like hit. So, I want to learn this with my friends, if you don't mind. It's in Alei Shur. Alei Shur is a safer of Rav Wolbe just to tell you who Rav Wolbe is. The Mashgiach of the Mir Yeshiva. Rav Wolbe understood people. I say the Mashgiach, he spoke, he wasn't formally called Rav Ezriel Wolbe. Making a face. I'm sorry. He was not a I should be exact. He was not formally called the Mashgiach of the Mir Yeshiva. I call him the Mashgiach cuz he spoke in the slot for the Mashgiach every other week. He rotated. >> from personal experience? >> Yeah. Okay. Of sorts. No, of sorts he was Mashgiach. He was not It's important It's important Rav Ezriel Truth is truth. He was never formally called the Mashgiach of the Mir Yeshiva. I only call him They had him speak and say shmuessen in the Mir, so I call him the Mashgiach of the Mir. He was not formally given that title. He spoke. He was the Mashgiach of the Yeshiva Bnei Brak. Yes, who was who was the Rosh Yeshiva. Now, Rav Wolbe was somebody who knew people very, very well. He saw you, he knew you to the core of your being. His understanding of people was way was like legit, like very extreme. We had what are they guys who would have a vaad in his house. He was already very old. He sh- tickle was part of their vaad. They would meet in his house and learn. He would join sometimes. It was already the end of his life. He was somebody who understood people incredibly well. And his sforim are very powerful. Alei Shur is a very important and powerful safer. His shmuessen were very well received. His his speeches his shmuessen. So, that's that's Rav Wolbe. I I I want to read to you a letter. It's in It's in that's two volumes to say for Ali sure. This is in the first volume. It's on page Shin Gimmel. If anybody ever has the desire to read on their own, it's a letter I'm I don't know if it will hit you. I have no idea. I could tell you that reading this letter of recent and when I learned it years ago, it meant almost nothing to me. It was okay, nice. Today it's something I hope to give over maybe because it's hit me. It will I'll give it over better. Let's try. So it's Shin Gimmel in this thing. He says as follows. He says Hinenu Lahavikan. I want to bring here. He's talking about the topic of death. In Ali sure, he talks about a lot of topics of life and this chapter's about death. And he says, I want to bring a letter Hinenu Lahavikan Mikhtav. I'd like to bring a letter Shinufali Yadenu that fell in our hand, the royal we. It fell into our hand. He said, I got a hold of this letter from one of the students of Adonenu Moreinu of Admor. Of Is Rebbe Yisrael Rucham is talking about. It's from one of the Talmidim of Rebbe Rucham this letter Zel Shinai and the following is the letter. Serevalva says about this letter Nafali Yadenu, it fell into my hand. I got a hold of it. Very mysterious. He doesn't say who wrote the letter. He doesn't say how he got a hold of the letter. He said one of the students of Rebbe Rucham. Rebbe Rucham was Rebbe Valva's beloved Rebbe. Rebbe Rucham was the Mashgiach of Mir at Taka. And and Rebbe Rucham Levovitz who we have in Yeshiva Simcha Levovitz Israel Levovitz, they are great great grandchildren. I think so. I think so, right? They are. So Rebbe Rucham Lovitz, the great Mashgiach of the Mir Yeshiva, going, tremendously brilliant, charismatic, tzaddik. So, one of his students wrote a letter that Rebbi Lovitz said I got a hold of. Listen to this letter. Bnei u'bnai sayeeg korim v'ahuvim. So, whatever this student was, this tzaddik, one of the students of Rebbi Rucham, wrote a letter and he says, "My sons and daughters that are precious and beloved." He wrote a letter to his children. Okay? So, this tzaddik, Rebbi Lovitz says one of the students of Rebbi Rucham wrote a letter to his children. And it says like this, Hineni koisev lachem mikhtav zeh. I am writing you this letter, a letter to his children. V'tikvosi im ayai chovev. She'tikre'u rak b'chanam rabbos. I hope you don't read this for many years. It's a letter that he wants his kids to read when he dies. And he says, "I hope you don't read this letter for many years." So, I'm writing the letter now, but I certainly hope that you don't read this letter for many, many years. B'irtzoni, my will, b'zeh, with this letter, l'nachaim eschem, I want to comfort you. I'm writing you a letter of comfort, al kein anoo ois, cuz I have left, I've departed. While he's writing a letter to his children on his own death, he wants to comfort his kids about his own departure. My Rebbi used to freak me out, Yehuda. And I've started seeing it as I get older. I'm bugging that guy's already next year, bugging. All our bugging. I'm bugging that Aaron's leaving already. Like, I promise I feel it already. And I can't stop. I'm here. And to Aaron, even though a guy a guy now says, "I can't believe I'm leaving." A typical guy when you're younger two months later is like a different lifetime. It's just the way it is. To guys to the typical 12th, 13th grader, he's not leaving. It's not It's not happening. Leaving. He's not. I in a month I now now it's less than a month, he is. You don't see long periods of time. You're You're in the now. As we get older like you just tend to really yes and no. Like you like feel It's like here already. I have this one guys applied to the Yeshiva. A bocher will apply and I'll tell him I had somebody call me today. Can my son come to Yeshiva now? So I told the father, there's there's there's there's there's a few weeks left and I dishearten my staff. It's very hard on the staff. And it literally makes it hard to staff members have complained. If people keep coming, it feels like we just Like I need to get what's in front of me and and meet the people and help. It's disheartening when people just come come come like it feels like you never get done what you need to get done, create the relationship. Just whenever you get in a him If I don't relate to him, I'm ignoring. If I relate to him, I'm spreading I'm spreading out further. It's disheartening. So I told the father, let him come for a day or two. We'll meet and we'll give him chizuk and then he'll come in September. To the father, it's a good solution. September have a solution. We'll figure out the summer together. Then September. To the kid, coming in September is like telling a guy in 60 years, I'll help you. The nature of youngsters, September is like a different lifetime. You're not even comforting him telling him September you have a school. To the father, it's true just truth. To the If you know kids, to the father it's like oh baruch Hashem. I hear. Baruch Hashem, in September he has a place. The father's like happy. To the kid, it's not he have to figure out what to do. Cuz to the kid I told him nothing. It's not even a little comfort. I told the father we'll get him here for a Shabbos or three. Like let's let's like somehow incorporate I don't want to overwhelm the staff, so it will be a visit, maybe a long visit. I will figure it out. But but but but to the father, the fact that he's coming the bottom line is is my rebbe would talk to me about 50 years in the future. It would freak me. He would tell me things. My rebbe sat me down. He once called me in the office and in detail described to me the Yeshiva I'm going to build. I promised the craziest thing. It's like a promise I wasn't thinking about building a Yeshiva in my rebbe in detail sat me down in his office and described the Yeshiva he's going to make. Since I promised my rebbe sat me down, it was freaky to the point that two years before my rebbe was nifter, I get a call from I don't know. He says, "I need to speak to you." He said, "Rebbe called me in the Yeshiva and described the Yeshiva I'm going to build." I'm going to freak out and somebody told me, "You're the last one he did that with." Who's the guy? I don't remember was I didn't know the person. I spoke to him on the phone. I just He wanted it He He was like freaking. What does it mean? I said, "I have no idea." Like I'm no I spoke to the guy briefly. I don't remember many details. I wish it would be cool to say. I don't remember many details. No no I don't I honestly don't remember many things he said. I wish I did. >> [laughter] >> I would tell you I would tell you But there many there many I don't remember I wish I did. I honestly wish I remember. Today it's funny that the main thing I remember is that he called me and then asked and that's good. The bottom line is he would do this. He would talk about after his death, which I didn't like at all, but he would do this. This Yid remarkably wrote a letter to his children and the letter is to comfort them upon his own death, which is wild. It's also just how forward-thinking. There's also an element you'll see I want to read the letter and we're going to come back to another point that I have that he did this. It's it's remarkable. It's remarkable. It's also thinking about others past himself. It's so cool. Rabbi Yisrael Salanter, famously, it's a true story, at the moments before he was being nifter, he had an attendant who was in the room and he said that don't be scared of my body when I depart, it might move a little bit. He started talking to the guy. It's incredible. First of all, the calmness, the yishuv hadaas, and the thinking about somebody else. He's about to depart to the olam haba. And Yisrael explained to the guy that after I depart, my body might move. It's not a scary thing. Yisrael explained physically why that happens, not to be afraid, not to be spooked out. It's just a true story. The thoughts about another person. This father >> [laughter] >> said you're going to meet this friend who's going to be an angel, who's going to be in your You're going to mamash give shiur together for years. And >> [laughter] >> I wish I remember what my wish was. You always lose. >> [laughter] >> The kids are his. That this year What's funny is I was fighting Joshua. No, not wrestling. He's really winning. He's >> [laughter] >> So, in this letter, this year, this tzaddik writes a letter to his children and he says, "I want to comfort you on my own departure." And he says, "I hope you don't read this letter for many, many years." And he says like this, "A person doesn't know when his time comes. You have a yam. There's going to come a day Hashem is for Hashem should give US LONG YEARS." I WAS WONDERING. >> [applause] >> WOW. >> [applause] >> OH MY GOODNESS. WOW. >> [applause] >> I WAS A GOOD BASEBALL PLAYER. ONE OF THE shining moments, I don't know, I just came to my mind. I'm going to show off. There was I for many years to the base madrash and Rabbi Schailer, my Schailer shear, we were parallel first year shear in the base madrash. We were very close friends and there was like a rivalry the two shear. We played sports. We played baseball against each other. And I made with bases love like a diving catch. It's one of like my shining moments. I just felt like that catch. >> [laughter] >> And we I remember remember we used to play we played football against each other shear. We played baseball, but anyway. To have Simon home, what a dream. What a dream. With the whole Yeshiva, I'm excited you're back. When did you come back? Yesterday at night. Welcome home. Beautiful. I missed you so much. The whole Yeshiva ALL MISSED [applause] YOU. >> [applause] >> WE'RE GOING TO DO MUSIC FOR YOU, GABE. READY? GABE, let's go. Wow. Amazing signing. Tell me, how's Yisha? How are the guys doing? Elio? Rafi? He's going to go to medrish, right? He's in Mexico now? Good. Good. Good. And Elio? Beautiful. They're doing well? Did they gain from being here? Did they go lower higher from being here? Which one? Him, Yalu? Good. I think so. Thank you. Thank you, Simon. Wow. >> [snorts] >> What did you say? So happy to see you. Really happy. So like this. So let's continue on. I do [clears throat] want to do music with Simon, but we'll get there. We'll get there. So happy you're back. So Rebbe Volbe writes like this. So this sadik in this letter says there's going to time Hashem should give me long years, but he said I'm going to be called to to my to my resting place. He said I'm going to go be base lenetsach. I'm going to get a place in oilam haba. Va'atem yesaimen. And you, my kids, this person says will be a sign. He may have a fee. Behold my beloved. He's talking to his children. They're reading this letter after he after his departure. It's a letter he only wants them to read after his death. He said I have seen many of you Simon. Most of them their world goes dark for them. They they don't see eight of the sick for he says most don't see an eight sub plan and hope. He said the young you Simon are planning young you Simon are full of jealousy. Everybody has a father of a lie and I don't have a father. Everybody else has a father and I don't have one. The young you Simon by good day the older ones miss you Simon have him they're also shaken. He said their world has shook on them. His might take the lay him I love him. Their world has shook this is like you took but I was saying that I'm learning like before a shoe is you're learning something out of place. Now I'm like fired up excited that Simon's home and I'm learning this like serious heavy topic. I'm just excited Simon is here. I'm extremely it's like you bring light to the Yeshiva. I asked we're learning like a heavy topic you're here this is the session. He said the older ones are also shaken up. Their world has smoked it I lay him I love him. Their world has shaken. Rock my Adam only a few right easy they carried their you Simon hood their yes miss they even got elevated. I only see a certain amount that in their you Simon hood I see they carry it in a beautiful way and it even elevated them. He said when I think about this this letter writer this find me bizarre a marty believe me. I decided in my heart before you menachem you Simon, before you comfort you Simon, you have to teach them how to carry you Simon hood. And he said hallelujah a sham should give me siesta de schmear that I could teach you this and you'll think about these words and it will make a big light for you. So I want to teach you about you Simon hood before I before you get comforted I want you to learn about it and it you'll understand it and it will be a light for you. He says how much the key to the secret of life the key the master yacht the key to the to the mystery of life is the amuna in eternity. Hashem the Hashem gives us to everything in the world. Every blade of grass everything has a a stick of power that says to it God grow. Call Adam every person The thing which is giving us life is the anchor. The main of a person is the natural. The main thing of a person is his and his is not the physical body. He may my beloved children take from my hope he's a little less than a luna. I hope I raised you in ways of a luna. This will be a luna grab hold of a luna and know that this is the secret of death. If the would leave would mean bitzuar the person that the no longer is there would be no comfort that they will scheme Shaka the things no longer I would like came who it's not true how good miss battle it's true the body is no longer the other guy the person is very much alive Admar Zay our Abby Yurokham writes in a letter of comfort as follows we should not understand death key m only what's death attic may eerily ear somebody moved it's no more Yurokham described death somebody moved no more it's the truest truth your father has not died Yurokham wrote to a town when your father didn't die came how you he's absolutely alive the aim rocket mom can he moved somebody who understands subtlety your maybe I was just opposite he's closer to you and he's with you in a way more than when he was alive she ain't the fun of there's no hot seat sir I am testifying in this room I say a dose when my father was alive if I would share Morty I want this I'm saying a dose when my father was alive Martha if I would share to a friend a hardship I had in my relationship to my dad I would not find I'm sharing somebody I'm a letter share with a friend I loved father and we were close. He was a hero of my life. He's everything I have is from my dad. If I would share something I was grappling with a friend, it's fine. Today, I promise I am not hearing my father's listening. When I'm talking to a friend, it's with that card that my father's listening. He's listening and I share it's a whole I'm saying things about my own journey. I talk to my wife about my journey. My father's listening. I feel that way. I feel that way. I manage I think it through. I'm talking my father's manage here. Revolber writes Revolber writes that in a certain way he's not going to be pretend. He's going to talk about the hardships in a minute. But he says Shaka Ace, he's writing from his Rebbe, Rebbe Yerucham. He says to a maven, to a discerning person, and a person who knows doc on Yanim, subtleties, they know and understand from fire care. Ace who you are calm. Today, the person's closer. The name see may new guy they're with us in a way they weren't when they were alive. Shame Shaka Ace was no more hot Ace. There's no more distance of space, of time. Ace a double God loser. What a crazy thing to say. Only an Adam God over the cottage, a great person and holy. Who say tugging on a lane who is who should protect us who you are the guy who want to govern if look at that could reveal such a crazy things. Cain who it's the MS. A Mona ain't a yay does me Mesa. A Mona doesn't know from death. The zoo here MS says this letter writer. It's the truth he says to his children. A nifter how you the departed alive. Who you are the day you are magic Ace. he knows and feels everything. He knows what's going on by you the curve curve tournament and he's closer than ever. He's mom is close. He's mom is close. He's the curve of he's close to his craving always he's mom is with you. This is the first thing this revolving brings this letter from the student who wants to tell his children this fact that the departed knows knows what's going on is close and caring and watching and observing. It's wild to say this it didn't have to be this way. So writes about the departed you could say there who said this is these are the greats of our people who know who know Tyro no life. He says that the person is is more with us than ever. There's no there's no there's no boundaries. There's no there's no boundaries. The person mom is with you mom is this is the who he knows and feels and he's his craving he's always close to his relatives. That's step one that this letter says but but even with this parent but they're still not a comfort from the loss. He said it sounds amazing but he says not a comfort hello you want to we want to see. To hear his advice look at one to get receive his help began even children that are no longer the upon their father in that way and the son of they still lean on him and give and they gain strength beyond them they know should sell your is right nearby he's a phone call away he's a car right away me and malice who could fill this this loss. After we know my beloved in my half them see but if you love me and truth as you did be beneath when I was amongst you I lie wasn't a shallow love is a deep love talk to me you always could see your father in front of your eyes and you could know what I would advise you you know what I'm about. It was a very painful thing to my father didn't leave it seven and leave a will I was hoping that they would show up some will some will there's no will and it's something I grapple with I grapple like I would love such a letter but when I think about it I'm like Daniel you know everything he stood for there's no mystery and he like a letter let me tell you really everything you mind you know what he stood for you know what he would say you know what he does say and this letter this person says to his children he says you know what I would tell you and he says learn from what say and that's attic he was cuz he saw the most beautiful of his father he knew what his father would say each one of you he says carries the the most beautiful of a lover believer you carry me the father says me in your heart you could be through that the of a person is his and my is continues on so that's his second thing Now his third thing. So far we have two things he very much wants his kids to know. One is that the mace is still around. The rookness around. The mace cares about you, is with you, in a certain way is close never is margish your day a call is is we say be a male is being a defendant for you in heavens pulling strings that they can. They have tremendous powers. Whatever a father in your life time was doing for you could do more. He's doing a lot and pulling every string he can. Second thing he wants them to know is you know what I hold, you know my is hear my advice still cuz you know what I would say. He said I have a third thing. He said when I lost my own parents this letter writer says a sure gosh to when I was in the sea empty may hurry. Every person feels at the time is a veil loose a push to mix for some ice and type in many people even people who are distant from Yados orphan will say Kaddish. They even put on a tall as in filling. We understand this like push to rookness come. Says this letter writer there's a time I'm up there's a very deep deep reason. Kazal say Schloischer should to me age bottom we have three partners. Tata, mama, and God. A yellowed child sees Tata and mama. The third partner they don't see. When his parents leave and they go to their worlds his heart tell him. His heart says let me put my faith in the third partner. He said somebody knows that it's the past what David I'm a luck says key of even in me as a Vony. When my parents leave me a sham you say for me a sham takes me in. And people turn that we turn to Hashem. The third partner becomes we lean on. He says it's the truth. This I say I'm miss her other guffney, our physical father is a shliach from her other meaty she bashamayim. Is a shliach the love we feel from a tata. The love we feel from a mama is Hashem's love for us. As reals tata is coming today and wants to come to give a hug, that's a hug from God. I love my children, that's a love from God, right? Russ has loved his children is from Hashem. Our father, our physical father is a shliach from God, the other I meet the shabbashamayim. Over time shliach I am when the shliach ends shall I have a guffney of the physical father mishkasha rabbin because I am it's the child gets a strong cash with other shabbashamayim. The tight laughs I special talk to them. He said I felt this in the days of my availous of my parents, and I want to give this to you. He said each person's, every person, I carry current the I carry the whole other of the whole deal for every person at every age, and specifically for you Simon is to be miss I can I am owner to feel and experience I shall I shall I am. And to say I shall I am leads us, brings us where we need to go, takes care of our needs because of the road. And prepares our footsteps, make sure we have what we need. Grab this I am owner. And he says somebody who lives with this I am owner could be comforted. That's his third message, the third partner is the third message of this letter. Then he says when a person is is looking for an achama they lean on the people in their surroundings. It's base of his own family, his and his friends. They help him to to to to to give some of that support that he no longer has. Said if somebody gets one of his our family, our parents, friends are supporters. When we lose a certain support, so we're missing our rustic situation is closer. Said a person could be comforted when they find the time and a master guy say they find support and encouragement to keep their magic from people alive. He describes that he brings that brings to his house into his life. He was comforted from his mother. Rashi writes that Rifka became his mother Sarah, explains this letter writer. When Sarah was alive and there was dull of the Shabbos, there was on the dough, there was a cloud above. When Sarah died, it ended. When Rifka came, it all came back and had a comfort. He was so he asked his children that be close to each other. Take and sadness from your heart. Let your friends be people who have like you and lovers of Torah. And and help each other, he says. And certainly says I shall come for you and give you the path to keep going forward to have a Mona and to build beautiful homes and through this I'm going to be built also. Like it says Ben Kodesh if you leave a Ben Kodesh you didn't die. This is my advice and my request and my last request of you be my meaning. With love your father. This is a letter of all the rights and all the sure. On the day of all the death, the day he was leaving this world, he gathered his children and all the said this letter and all the sure I wrote it to you. He revealed the secret this children that this letter, incredible letter, that all the rights that I found the letter all the himself wrote the letter and he wrote it 50 years before he passed. I believe 50 years, I believe. He wrote it he wrote it when he was about 40. He lived about 90. I don't know exactly. And all the I think wrote it 40 of I think 50 years before he was and it's a letter that he wrote for his children. And on the day of his death he told his kids look in all the sure page page and I have a letter there. It's my letter to you. This is all the letter to his children. Incredible letter. It it it touches places and it hits it. To me it hits. I wanted to share this with the heaven. And and incredible incredible letter. There's there's what for all of us for all of us we should have our parents for long long long long years. And we should know good things. This of the I think is something everybody could get a lot from. I want to express this that in today's generation there's an incredible amount of loneliness. Parents are remarkable and love their children. There's There's a generation that's feeling and in certain places that parents aren't necessarily used to going. And I want to say that all those spaces of loneliness, a person could say, "I'll be with me as a lonely where my parents leave me alone." could find God. Mamish Mamish the third shot of who does understand who does understand who does understand. The song that that Gabe has been singing and I've been I asked Mahila. I don't want to kill a song for anybody the least of which is for Gabe. We're talking about Mavis. I don't want to kill a song. And my kids say my kids tell me that you kill songs. My kids know I I get on a song and I just listen and that's how I get. I want to explain it a little bit. I want to explain I don't know if I'm going to escape to the song. I don't know. I want to explain I want to tell the camera I'm very into this. If I'm davening and certain words hit me, I like hanging out there. I hang out there. I Too many people pass Everybody's running. We're life. We're running running. We in life here. Something hits you and it means something to you. Stop there. Stop. I'm very into that. I'm very into that. We've had many singers come to you. You know what separates the good from the great? Do they feel if a song hits the camera, it hits? I watch big singers. It was a good song and you never hear it again the rest of the night. It was like a minute. The big ones Matt Leven if the camera likes a song, he keeps going back to it the whole night. It's intelligent. It's intelligent. I don't know like they like it. Where you going? To me hang out there for an hour or six. I like that. So to me if a song hits me, I don't try to hurt any I just like I get the song we we sit on it for a while. We we sit on it. I'm not trying to I asked Machila when a song hits, it hits. I like the song that gave the song that gave the words hit me very hard. The song that gave sang the song Heaven Knows My Name. It's just true. It's just true. Hashem's with us. Tamid may know he's with us. He's It hits. Heaven Knows My Name. Hashem sees my pain. I see it as like safer till him. My coming alive. Hashem is with us. K'ilu may know Hashem's with us. He may know knows he knows with us. There's an emunah. There's an emunah that strikes deep. This letter to me it's it's I want to tell you everybody here pieces of Torah even s'varim Rebbe Nachman if you learn a safer and you it didn't hit, don't don't be afraid. Don't assume in 16 years on. I beg you. My own life there's s'varim I read certain times. I tell you this letter I saw before. Nice. Nice. I read it now it like it's a fire. I can't believe it. I can't believe it. I can't believe I it I I I never called Rebbe Nachman Rebbe not in me I heard him. He's my Rebbe today. This letter Rebbe Nachman is my Rebbe. Cuz the letter is like it hits what it hits. It hits in a in a tremendous way. I want to say to the chevre about pieces of Torah. What will hit you one day if if you learn the certain safer and it didn't hit, don't assume in 10 years you Keep keep living. Keep going back. You'll see even amsukim things you learn. By the way a pasuk will hit. It hits different. Learn the parsha again. I I my wife and I tried it we tried to learn we're trying as much as we can to be m'vased read the parsha. Hits different different years different amsukim. Bump off the page you see a pasuk and you're like woah. It hits you. Read it again. Read it different. Read it openly. Read it Hear it again. Different soaking will hit. Different soaking will hit. Will be will will You know what I mean, Avram? You ever saw this letter? What do you hold? So let Avram You ever heard this letter? To be born for such unlike Right, Ross. You've seen this letter. It's different. It's different today. It's not It's not like anything. It's different, yeah. Powerful. Powerful. I experience that I'm that I'm close I want my father back that I'm closer and I feel closer to him than ever cuz it's true. Cuz it's true. And there's And I was It's different. It's different. It's different. This I could say it reflects if I share something in my relationship I like talking to him. It's like a different thing. This this letter wrote by Goldberg So if anybody wants to see it, they could sit with it. It's on page It's on page shin gimmel. The story is not known by so many people. I don't think some people know it cuz in the in the safer it just says a letter he found. Just if you know the secret of his life on the last day of his life he said it's my letter that he wrote for his children. Yeah. One of his sons lives in Houston, Texas. By us it's like one of the centers of the world. One of his sons lives in Houston. It's a It's a rav. They want to say his grandson. The father was a giant of a person. I close this.