The Flax, the Window and the Rope: The Story of Rachav - By Rabbi YY Jacobson

the yeshiva dotnet they tell an anecdote about a guy mr. Jones who bought a new fridge aboard a new refrigerator for his home he wanted to get rid of his old fridge so he put it out in his front garden and he hangs a sign on the refrigerator saying free to use in good condition you want it you take it for three weeks the refrigerator is there without even one person looking twice at it so he decided that people were probably too untrusting of this deal they just looked too good to be true so he changes the sign and the sign reads refrigerator for sale $400 the next day someone stole it so you have to understand people's psychology we're going to explore today what is a very perplexing enigmatic fascinating disturbing and really strange story the story is from the VM from the profits from the opening of safer yahushua The Book of Joshua the first book of the prophets which is always studied and read as the mouth to the haftorah of partial sloth 40 long years have passed JooJoo the Jewish trek through the wilderness is coming to an end moysha Aaron and Miriam when the Gemara describes as the three shepherds who shepherded the people for forty years have all passed on the entire adult generation that has experienced the Exodus and Sinai firsthand are all gone a new generation emerged and they are POI they're ready to enter into their promised land into the Holy Land their new leader is of course yahushua be known or joshua the son of nun just before they are about to enter yahushua decides to emulate his master and his teacher and to send again spies to scout the land he doesn't send 12 he sends to tradition has it that the two people he sent work olive and Pintus khaliv was the son of you funa from the tribe of you who de who was a good friend of his in fact one of the first spies who went with him 40 years ago to check out the land and the other one was Pintus who was much younger he was a grandson of aaron and a great nephew of moisture a bay knew his father was a loser who was the high priest whose father was aaron Hokkien as they are about to enter into the land from the eastern border they're going to cross the Jordan River the yarding and enter through the east into the Land of Israel they base he basically sends two spies to once again look at the land particularly they are to enter from the city of Eureka or Jericho in English which is basically at the south eastern border of the Land of Israel the two spies the Prophet tells us and yahushua and the opening of yeshua arrived in jericho in you richly and they go to the home of a woman who is defined in the Tanakh as rocof hezonia her name or her name is rocof and she is defined as as i know what does a Zona mean some translated as an innkeeper she basically owned a better Breck and bed-and-breakfast a motel 6 zona from the word tis una mas ein nutrition food it was basically a home where she fed people there was like a bed-and-breakfast you came to eat breakfast long dinner you had a good night's sleep and you moved on that is one interpretation in the commentators and that's why they went to her home because this was a this was a bed and breakfast this is with tourists or spies sleep the night but there's another interpretation which of course gives the story a whole different twist and that's the interpretation of the Radek Dara Dhaka was one of the great commentators on the Tanaka in the name of the Gomorrah MSF is welcome DAF kufa Zion this is a clear gamora's welcome page 116 translate zona not as an innkeeper but as a promiscuous woman who was involved in promiscuous immoral relationships zona from the words nurse which is immoral relationships that is who rocof is two interpretations in the words the king of Eureka is informed about the presence of two spies in his domain of course he sends messengers to the woman who knows it all and that is of course Rockoff because whatever interpretation you choose for a cough she is well-connected in more than one way and therefore he sends messengers to Rocco particularly they have been seeing in her home so for practical purposes she is the one who knows their whereabouts surprisingly we expect at this point of the story she would give them up but instead of giving the spies up she hides them on the roof of her home on the roof of her in under flax plants under as the paws success plants of piston a flax FL ax that's where she hides them under these plants and she tells them she tells the messengers of the king it's true two men came to me I don't know from where they are but I want to tell you that right before dark when the gates of Jericho were about to close they left the city they went out of the sea right before the gates closed for the night I don't know where they went but what I suggest this pursue them quickly so you can find them and overtake them rocof cents the King's messengers away now it's her turn to go up to the roof she encounters the hidden spies and she shares with them the information they craved to hear and the puss success and I'm going to translate it into English before they were asleep she came up to the roof she says to them I know that Hashem the Lord has given you the land your all your dread has fallen upon us all the inhabitants of the land have melted away because of you because of the Jews we have heard how I Shem dried up the water of the Red Sea when you came out of Egypt we heard about the events and our hearts melted nor did they remain any more spirit in any man because of you like calm rubbish there's no man who has you ah who has spirit because the Lord your God the God in heaven above and and the earth below because of that and what he's done for you nobody has Rua anymore she makes a stipulation with them a condition with them that when the Jews conquer Jericho she and her family even if they remain would remain unharmed she then fetches a rope a heavily rope and she lowers them out of the window of her home since the wall of her home is part of the fortress of Jericho in other words one wall of her house is actually part of the hema the fortress of eurasia so when she lowers them outside of the window down the hall they are now in the outskirts of the city outside of the wall she tells them exactly which direction to go where to hide out for a few days until the search stops and then they can go back down into the wilderness what we call today Jordan on the other side of the Jordan River and go back to her people the Gemara asks the question a Messiah's welcome Cove to Zion how can rocof speak on behalf of the whole country she says the whole country is in awe of you your dread has befallen all of inhabitants of the land what was she and was she the editor-in-chief of the Kanaan times did she have reports of everybody in the country how did everybody know about it how did she know what everybody is experiencing she could speak for herself she could speak for her family she could speak for the people who go through her in she could speak for many people but how could she speak for the entire country the answer of the Gemara is a pretty loaded one and because it's so loaded I'm gonna quote it word for word and this time I'm gonna quote it in Hebrew and translate massages welcomed of kufta Zion that tractates welcome page 116 a and it continues on side B the Africa hezonia I'm relish luca yahushua key Shimano Acera Hashem Esme am Soph will I come I drew a beautiful luxury anomaly up show me no Yoda rocof can speak and say that no man in this whole country has any war anymore as any as the gomorrah says masculine vigorous creative energy they are all somewhat numb how did she know how did she know the on my mark a nicole sahrvin augured shall I Barack of Ozona I'm room bass Yoochun my second shot sir you saw me Mitzrayim va's Inzamam Shana Shahi Rob amid bar the answer is from the young age of 10 years old rock observed as a joiner as a promiscuous young woman as a harlot this was her profession for 40 years from when the Jews left Egypt she was 10 years old for the next 40 years meaning till the age of 50 this was rock of occupation and the cause all our sages tell us that during this period there was not a single prince or ruler in the area not a siren uh 'get who did not come to seek the services of rough exhibit number one that's why she could say what is happening in the land she knows what's going on she knows the spirit or the lack of it when she says will a comma or Iraqi ish she knows what she's talking about another Gomorrah mis'ess Megillah daftest valve tractate Magilla page 15 I quote again Tony Robin on our barn awesome yeah Fifi is how you buy eylem saara of Eagle Rock of an ester this is tractate Magilla page 15 the rabbi's taught there were four exquisite women in history Sahra avi guile who would later become a wife of dove in hemella rocof and Esther granted the Gomorrah goes so far to say and describe a moussaka Stein is page 5 the powerful and dazzling appeal of ruff so now at this point when they meet rock off because I'll tell us she's 50 years old and then the Gomorrah continues vaca-oom 1:16 a car commissioned Shannon is ghayra after 50 years of age she decided to convert to Judaism amra she says yay hey maka Lee buscar' Havel Cologne a piston let all I've done been Frigg be forgiven as a reward for the rope the window and the flax says Rashi what does this mean and he quotes a medley she quotes him a Hilton ruff spoke to Hashem and she said rabbinical olam begin old varam courtesy begin william ahem I have sinned through three items let me be forgiven through the same three items a rope flax and a window that's how I sinned the same three items I want to use to be forgiven what does this mean what Rashi is saying is that for 40 years rocof used these three items in order to engage all of her guests why she had to have three devices in order to be able to secretly bring her customers her customers in and out of her residence the Rope the window and the flax plants you see the many dignitaries who came to visit her couldn't afford of course to have their picture the next day on the front pages of the newspaper so what happened everybody had to do it in secrecy so therefore she had a rope with the rope they can climb into her window and with the rope they can climb out of the window and suddenly they're at the outskirts of the city there's taiga and there's good flow again nobody saw nobody heard a messiah nobody observed it no pictures for years and years that window and that rope really was for 40 years the two main items that allow druk of to continue her work but sometimes people come into a house unexpected there was a third item she had flax plants always gathered in a particular place that people can always go under those plants and hide if necessary now when she's 50 she uses the same three items for the messengers of Yeshua be known for the two spies she lowers them out of her window through the rope but first she hides them on the roof under the flax plants when the messengers of the King come so she tells God I want to be forgiven for the inappropriate use of these three items by virtue of the fact that now I used the same three items the devil and the Cologne and the Piston what is perhaps most fascinating is another statement in the Gemara Magilla page 14 de gaia Venice VII schewe rocof converted and who married her yahushua B Newton marries Ralph yahushua who was the one who sent the spies who was one of the first set of spies of moisture who is the successor of my ship who is considered the new leader of the Jewish people chosen by Hashem through moisha to be their pneumonic their new mela he is the one who marries roth and the gomorrah tells us in the name of rabbi yehuda eight of our prophets including and all of them work i am him came out of raha including holden anivia in fact we say eight of our prophets and three of them were our greatest prophets yet Haskell year Mia and holdeth the prophetess they are all descendants of Roth the Al Kut remain he says in by mid bar that yes Cole Ezekiel was a great prophet but people used to mock him why did they mock him they said your Haskell who was your LT Baba uh-huh real SATs ker-rah vaseline how did you become such a cost of a profits you know how JEWS are all right even before Google we have a file and everybody we know there if there's any family I mentioned I remember here before the war - give or deny guns it Sudeikis today he became the chief rabbi Robin charcoal-burner gala I remember him in the good old days but the main thing is now my God sits out the car door we love those files and we have it Baruch Hashem on everybody they had it on the prophets - it has : RV hey let's remember his Baraka Vezina and that's why the pasta has to emphasize the you--this the lineage of your Haskell bamboo Xia coin at the beginning of your testicle to explain the dignity of a Haskell there's an extraordinary magician ton of the valley all chapter 22 and I'm gonna quote it David silver yo Simon at villa true ver repentance is greater than prayer Shameka lotfullah sorry miss Powell memo Moshe remain aloneness Kabam a manual as necessary to draw a Baraka Visayan and his kabbalah over this madras basically Pitt puts rocof in a superior position to Moses rocof is greater than moisture moisture devant many many prayers to enter into the Holy Land was not accepted rocof repents and a repentance is absolutely embraced only living in the holy land she's saved in the Holy Land she marries Yeshua by noon and then the sages add Lamoni Karishma Rajas why was her named Rahab she Nasus recover bouzouki 'us Razak associates am a man who Shyvana via because rocof became broad raka from the word broadness wide she became large exceeding in her merits and seven prophets seven male prophets and Huda the female prophet all came out of her these are cysts some of the background material I want to focus on but particularly on two major questions rocof repents rock of converts after a 40-year let's say glorious career in her field she decides that it was really inappropriate and she wants to open a new chapter in her life granted and Ayla Cordova I'm at the furniture but nothing stands in the way of a person changing their life but don't you agree with me that between that and marrying the leader of the Jewish people there is somewhat of a stretch I mean imagine today right if the shopkin would call you and tell you about ruffs career and tell you that after 40 years she mamas became something special would you also consider it you all know the answer now imagine the rumors about your issue or be known at that vort can you imagine what was going on let's get just characters get yeah you're sure as mother should have said surpass nations loose Whitman zillion what do you say around here buzz Gottman's ugh what are people gonna say I forget about if it's right or wrong but as you know real Jews don't live that way yo you sure be known Mary's rocker but I'm not talking about what people are gonna say what you're sure himself was thinking it's quite interesting was this really the right shouldn't a good sure that within her shoe a rock of it's like interesting she didn't only convert and do Trish like when what right to the top that's number one oh wow that's amazing that's amazing I'm looking for a rope and a window to get out of here no rope no window I know air conditioned okay I want to understand something else when you read this you know we read these things we learn these things maybe some of us learnt a few of these things in school we gloss over it now okay sorry so you learnt it now we gloss over it we don't really appreciate the depth there why does the rope the window and the flak suddenly become the issue here it happens to be that these items incidentally played a role here but that's not the story they were just things that rock have used in order to be able to do her work and then she used the same items later when she wanted to save the spies but no cuz I'll tell us that she turns to Hashem and she says Bashar keval Cologne and pushed him it's these three items that I use now that should forgive me for using these three items all the way all the war throughout all the years Immokalee be shrill misc archival cologne Oh piston he should forgive me as a reward for the rope the window and the flax that's what he should forgive you for you should forgive you for saving the spies for helping the Jewish people for being part of the divine plan for his people I got it you happen to you as a window flax or hope great beautiful no these three items become the central focus now most people would say okay it's just a madrassa way of saying I should be forgiving because of the noble thing I'm doing but why would then hazael mentioned these three items these three items now being used for a positive purpose should forgive for the three items being used for so many is for immoral behavior what's the connection repentance is always possible but why not focus on the fact that she's repenting I have remorse I have regrets I regret my past I'm changing my future that's what forgiveness is if I hurt you I come over to you and I have what's called an Aloha Hara Tolliver Kabbalah ABBA remorse for the past I apologize for what I did or what I said and I make a resolution for the future I've herbally communicate confession this is what the mechanism of truth is not that I say I'm gonna use the same rope that I use then the behavior of rocof is what's important not the three completely incidental items the flax in the rope in the window and it's here that we are introduced today to an astounding teaching of the Muharram the morale was Rabbi Yehuda livre the rabbi of Prague he was born in 1520 approximately 1520 and he passed away 1609 as you know he was one of the great sages and rabbis and thinkers and authors of his time known as the morale Rebbe who deliverer of Prague he has a commentary on the Gemara called fiducia a goddess morale on this piece of gomorrah is welcome 1:16 that i've been quoting in this class he offers us an extraordinary insight his words however are usually very abstract their philosophical their abstract and they're somewhat cryptic not concise but cryptic he doesn't write so brief he writes pretty elaborative ly but hard to understand and therefore his words sometimes lend themselves to different perspectives and interpretations and it's probably the reason he wrote in a more abstract way so I'm going to however focus in on one dimension of what he's saying at least the way I understood it now you have to understand that this is an interpretation written more than 500 years ago nonetheless it seems like he is transcribing a condition that we are very well familiar with today and not only that modern day studies of psychology and work of therapy really revolve around some of ideas that the morale is presenting here in this Gomorrah the flax the window and the rope are not three incidental items they represent three aspects of life they represent three aspects of identity and they represent three experiences that people experience internally that lead us to make different choices in our life they lead us to one form of behavior or another form of behavior these three items can transform our lives and guide us in directions that are either extremely constructive productive meaningful and wholesome or the other way let's go through them what is unique about the flax plant I don't know how many of you grow flax on a regular basis but the truth is the Taira describes garments that are made of linen which is produced from flax they are called big day VAD big David the term bad or VAD vase doll adorn base dollar in Hebrew is related to the work term Levada which means alone boy toy hey I saw Adam Lovato Levada annoyed malvada live at means alone or bothered aha Yasha bothered but that means along lonely beady dirt but they do it is loneliness why would linen why would garments of flax be called lonely what is the reason for that for this you have to know a little bit of the world of botany so the camera tells us of moussaka Zuma page 71 and it relates to Yom Kippur because Yom Kippur the Kohen Gadol had to wear four garments made exclusively of linen flax a whole year he wore eight garments which were woven with gold but not on Yom Kippur in Kippur was only for garments simple white linen made of flax big day bad coda Sheila she had to wear Gotham of bad asks the Gemara why is it called bad so the Casal explained annachi explains it that basically flax like hemp like canvas like hemp Gomorrah calls hemp canvas is a type of plant that basically does not divide into branches like most bushes plants and of course trees rather it grows from the ground in stalks each stalk stands alone linen is made from the inner stalk of the plant and each one of the seed capsules of the flax plant emerge and grow individually so the flax is a lonely plant that's flax next is a window what is a window a window is what allows us to peer out of our own home or the room where we are and search outside of our own environment what is a rope a rope is of course that item which allows us to connect to separate entities so if I want to climb up to the roof but I'm all the way on the bottom the Rope is what links the bottom the earth about the ground floor to the to the to the roof or when I connect something when I tie a rope to something I'm basically saying take taking two separate entities and connecting them perhaps with a third entity but a rope is actually the mechanism of linkage it's what I use to create links a rope is a link of heaven three items the lonely plant of bad bud flax from all plants and all bushes the loneliest plant in terms of it retains its own individual properties without mixing the window allows me to see outside and the Rope allows me to connect do you see what these three items represent in life the morale says for 40 years you could look at rocof and you could just say you could label rocof as a simple promiscuous woman involved in heinous immoral transgressions and sins that's one perspective there is a deeper perspective which doesn't negate the first perspective but puts it in count the morale asks what is it that motivated ruff what is it that motivates so many people to engage in a certain type of lifestyle and let me make it clear rocof is only a model for a certain existential angst that we're going to be addressing but the way people deal with it could be like rocof or could be in another million ways and they may look in the mirror and say I'm much better off than raka but nonetheless we each have our outlets that we have to examine and see what is their root says the morale it all begins from the fact that we are flax we feel only many of us feel like lonely creatures we crave attachment we crave love camaraderie connectedness some of us in the deepest place of our existence feel alone I am really really alone in this world alone does not mean that I don't have social acquaintances it doesn't mean that I don't have 9,000 friends on Facebook but usually the more friends on Facebook the more alone there was a teenage girl who took her life and at her funeral the mother says where is everybody she had 3,000 friends on Facebook why is nobody here so a person could be very social a person could have a hundred Bar Mitzvah Slick AIIMS voor its awesomeness of roofs to go to and they dress up for each one of them as though it's their own Carson or their own wedding and so forth but what we're talking here about is an internal sense of atha yahshua baaaad where a person is really really alone there's a deep loneliness they could smile on the outside they could socialize on the outside but they're alone what's the next step the next step is I look out the window I don't want to be alone I look out the window the window represents a view of life based on my loneliness my loneliness develops into a perspective a perspective about how I see the people around me the world around me the events around me I open a window in my own heart to peek out and search for something that I can connect with to alleviate the anxiety the pain the boredom the trauma and the torment of my solitariness and then comes stage 3 I throw out a rope I actually connect because I need to alleviate that loneliness but I don't begin with a rope I begin with flax and I hide under the flax because I'm alone and then I look out the window I'm still in my own world but I created a window based on my loneliness I look out searching to ease that anxiousness to ease that deep deep pain of loneliness of really not being connected to anybody or anything really not even being connected to myself really not having the ability to trust certainly I can't trust anybody this is especially true with young people who have been betrayed at a very early age physically or emotionally especially if there was abuse especially of the abuse focused on very deep places of their being physically or emotionally all of abuse is very deep but then what how often happens is you have an abandoned person literally a solitary person they may be tall and handsome functional talented creative and brilliant at some point even straight A's in the class and everything looks picture-perfect but out of the blue one day all the pain and all that shoroma emerges and if you're sensitive you encounter a profound loneliness and mistrust I am but light a very Sodom Levada man can't be alone but what if I am alone at least in my perception I am alone I have no God I have no self I don't feel I have parents I don't feel I have siblings I have no friend in the world I am truly existentially alone and sometimes people decide to trust and then they're betrayed and then it's worse than everything because when I already choose to trust for a second time as an adult and I'm betrayed again now it's almost over this is always the flax now it exists again on many levels these are just models that people can apply to their own lives what type of loneliness loneliness itself doesn't come in one shade loneliness itself is pretty complex but the common denominator of loneliness is the concept of Latoya sodom Levada to a ha yo Shiva bothered her ear rebus iam sorrow Seba Medina's atheist rabid her ear abbas iam hosaka mana that's how your me o Hanavi opens up the book of acre of lamentations so I open windows I look out through windows I check out the scene through windows but remember my windows are often tainted my off my windows are often colored my off my windows are often designed in a way that it could suit the eyes the perspective that I presently have and then I throw out my rope and when I throw out my rope i connect I connect with people I connect with objects I connect with things how do you respond to the flax in you the morale says that's the question what do I do with my loneliness what do you do with your loneliness what do you do do you eat that's what I do among other things what do you do with your sense of that's from the better things what do you do with your loneliness it's one of the most important questions in life first of all do you acknowledge loneliness do you even know that you have it or it's so painful that you can't sit with that pain and therefore you have to run away from it which means you don't even know that you're responding to it 24 hours a day seven days a week it is so much part of who I am that it completely defines me to the point that I'm not even aware of its I can't even put it in context because it puts me in its own context that's the first level so there is a level where I'm aware and I'm responding to it there's a level I'm not even aware that I am completely driven by it cause I can't afford to acknowledge it so I'm so distracted I can't even be bothered by the fact that I'm gonna tell myself that I'm bothered because that itself may become too powerful too vulnerable so what do I do to get love what do I do to feel important what do I do to get connected what do I do to feel validated how do I deal with my existential loneliness anybody wants to answer you don't have to all answer at once yes nice yeah yes ah boom ah Wow you have been reading start a you're French you have been reading sautee Kierkegaard's okay the French existentialist we know them been Kaku Levada okay point well-taken point well-taken point well taken and then there's the great Jewish mystic by the name of Woody Allen who once said life is full of loneliness misery and suffering and it's all over much too soon or as one woman was sitting in a kosher restaurant and she says the portions are so horrible and so small I said what Hashem leave Elora yeah gam kala so let's see how rocof dealt with it how did Rock of respond to her loneliness she worked hard forty years to distract herself that's a long time remember forty years in those days was a life span at least for many all of us open windows and some of us search for easy fast and shallow ways to connect ways that will eclipse the profound sense of loneliness we search for connections that demand no loyalty no inner work no profound discipline no deep transcendence and no deep spiritual and emotional labor and toil with our own fears our own pain our own insecurities and our own relationships we look for relationships and connections that require no vision no commitment we don't think of long-term consequences or long-term truths what we're searching is for instant gratification and have that illusionary sense that I have value I'm connected and I'm loved somebody wants to explain to me not from this community why he joined a gang you know some youth joined gangs very dangerous gang would have to prove themselves in very sadistic and brutal ways he needed to feel value we needed to feel connection some people sell their bodies to the devil of immoral relationships not just for money but for value for fake value some of us become addicted we get involved in all types of addictions to escape just for a few moments from our loneliness and it becomes such a need and the more we do it the more we need because the more we do it the more we need in order to up the stakes and increase the volume and the quality and the quantity in order to run away from that we all have impulses and urges that are directed towards particular people particular things particular behaviors particular experiences from infatuation to crushes from instincts and kleh nations to addictions from all types of attachments ropes in our mind we tell ourselves if I can only have this person or this thing or this item all my problems will be solved they represent to us that magical pill that will fill all of our voids they become the idols that substitute for what we're really searching for because it's an easy fix it's an external fix now here's the key these impulses and inclinations you don't have to run away from they are not as negative as they seem they are all representing a loneliness that is behind it and the loneliness you actually have to address not that there's an easy solution for it that I have to be able to contain it I have to be able to look at it I have to be able to experience sense sometimes people will have cravings and really the cravings may be destructive but what they're expressing is a pure and deep sometimes childlike an innocent yearning for something that they never had sometimes they outlet will be the opposite of what they're really searching for so one has to be able to search the penis the fruit inside the shell the payee inside the clipper be able to go through the husk and see what is really going on so therefore behind many habits and behind many addictions there is a yearning to receive or give love which is why you will see that sometimes very deep and sensitive people fall very low into the abyss of addiction not because they're superficial the other way around because they're deep I once heard dr. torski give a speech at her Shabbos Recovery weekend in Boca Raton Florida Rabbi Abraham dr. Abraham torski and he said these words he said 60 years I've been treating addiction and if you ask me is there a common denominator between all addicts and I will tell you yes the most spiritual sensitive souls I have ever encountered on the globe that's a profound observation when I am deeply spiritual and sensitive I feel things that other people don't feel I feel relationships in a way that other people don't feel I'm sensitive to dysfunction - lies - hypocrisy - deception - superficiality - fakeness - a family or a home that looks picture-perfect but inside it is rotten decomposed to the core other people make loss over it they somehow find refuge in all types of other stuff but some people can't they need the truth and the whole truth and where they don't have it the pain is so profound and the rest of their life they find themselves running from it escaping from it all they're doing is trying to relax their pain if only they would know that there was another way and that is try to fill the value that they're yearning for the void that they want to fill because of something that is truly meaningful to them rocof becomes as owner she becomes a harlot but what does her name mean Rockoff what does her name mean broadness big if rocof wasn't a big soul rocof wouldn't have to do this for 40 years it was because that's what the Kazaa was saying because she had such a heart cover her soul was so huge when her soul could not be satisfied with what it really needed the pain was so much more acute than anybody else and therefore she had to run much further she had to throw herself off much steeper clips than at Cliff's than anybody else she had to numb herself in a much more profound way than anybody else the anesthesia or she uses is far more intense than anybody as I remember every day you need something new because yesterday's pills don't work for today's anxiety I'm done because I never really filled anything I thought I filled it but I never filled it so now I always have to up and up and up and up this is true with almost all external substances that are trying to fill an inner void the bigger you are the bigger your sense of loneliness the deeper you are the deeper your void quite literally the void goes very very deep yosef das Yosef my faith King Solomon and proverbs says the more perception the more pain ignorance is bliss is not only a cliche it exists on many levels people who are deeply perceptive of truth Canon mom-ish Meshuga vet and in their veldt if you don't have the right mentorship if you're not exposed to true wisdom you could go crazy and some of you in this room know exactly what I am talking about and you find yourself running from one guru to another guru from one shear to another shear from one rabbi to another rabbits in from one stick to another stick from one homra to another Qumran from one obsession to another obsession from one remedy to another remedy from one's gula to another's gula for one caver to another caver from one book to another book and every book has this glittering title that tells you this is gonna solve all your problems you buy this book you read it now you're gonna become a new person only to figure out that nobody could turn you into a new person it's only you and your own perspective that can channel how you see yourself in the eyes of God and how God sees you but it's the dust that creates such massive rocof was big broad gigantic she had a huge soul imagine as I once gave you a metaphor Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart growing up in a home without a piano what would happen the genius of Mozart would have to come out somewhere butwe're I don't know and I dread to think what the outlet would have been thank God he had a piano and all his creative ingenuity could come out in the piano well every soul in its own way is a little Mozart every Jewish soul is a little Mozart the Gomorra says in Shabbos al Teague even mushy joy Hashem says don't touch my mushiya's my anointed ones ugh the Gemara a Latino crystal bass Robin these are the children why are children called mushiya's the answer is because every little child growing up in his or her dreams is gonna change the world and his or her dream is gonna be a messiah who are gonna bring Machir we're gonna do something is gonna have an impact but as we grow up there are plenty of people who tell us verbally or other ways cut out just cut it out graduate get a job and be quiet and let's move on just be a good girl be a good boy and stop giving me your headaches Zog tomorrow I'll t go a bit mischief I don't touch don't destroy that energy in people a lieutenant kou shall be Robin don't destroy the child that remains even in the adults even in that 20 30 40 50 60 70 80 90 etc your old adult or senior citizen there's a little child a little mushiya who is still very very optimistic confident idealistic happy joyous free-spirited uninhibited you recognize any of these qualities that can really change the world but we damaged we don't believe in it LTE don't touch it let it be don't destroy it with your cynicism because that cynicism is what allowed you to destroy your own little spark don't destroy that spark and other people some of us are very good in destroying that spark and all the people to deal with our own trauma of our own spark being destroyed so you see Raghav had an image of self that was very expensive but nobody could fill it nobody can embrace it there were no arms to contain it and nobody taught her that she can contain her own broadness you are powerful enough to contain all of your trauma and all of your pain it's one of the most important things people ought to know you are more powerful than all your pain doesn't mean your pain is not pain or your trauma is not schrum and your past is not difficult and challenging but it means you your eye your soul is more powerful than all of it it's the ultimate rocof that could contain it meet Akash zero asylum the past success in Vizag Sbrocco below the world there are arms meet Akash zero asylum what an image below the world you have a globe in your house imagine below that globe there are arms Sohrab not repressed love says in Lakota Maharana there are people who feel stable in the world you know those people you could even see how they walk when they walk both their feet get planted into the earth and they like don't budge and then there are people who never feel firm on the earth they always feel like they're falling off the world what are those people supposed to do so my sure Boehner says herb Nachman says me cos causes joy asylum under the world to our arms the arms are there for those who fall off who fall over the globe they can fall in to the cosmic divine arms to contain them but here's the catch if you feel comfortable on the planet you'll never feel those arms you don't have them it's only those who actually feel that they fall off planet Earth they have no place for themselves they don't know where they're going they can allow themselves to be embraced by the 0s by the container that is rock off it's big and broad enough to contain all of your experiences so when we look at our life there's so many experiences right now you're having experiences right now your thoughts are going through so many experiences that's just the nature of the beast we don't stop thinking and you haven't stopped thinking from the day you were born you know how many thoughts went through that poor brain that poor brain with a hundred million neurons who do we keep it busy give it vacation once in a while never you're entitled to vacation your brain is not entitled for vacation somehow nobody tells the brain my dear brain Allah you also deserve vacation because right away what is vacation I don't know how to take a vacation I'm too anxious I was blah blah I'll do me a favor relax I don't know how to do that that brain contains a lot and the soul can contain it all me taka zero asylum Roth so for 40 years Cazale are saying rocof was involved with every Minister with every aristocrat with every handsome man in the country because her heart was aching and aching very deeply she couldn't be satisfied with one person remember in a shallow non genuine relationship you always need more and more and more because you never feel you really have anything no relationship is real a bottomless pits continues to persist in the depth of your psyche the connections that she cultivates the ropes that rocof throughout of her own soul to connect to other people were good for one night the next night she needs a new rope a kyon yes yes yes she was adultery is not for non-jews either everyday she was connected to someone she had robes for 40 years but she knew that she was really connected to no one hence a desire that is insatiable so basically rocof was the first user of Facebook Instagram and social media she had three hundred and ninety-nine thousand friends it could be she had 3.4 million friends everyone had like like like like like like like but no real relationships no introspection there are people that you could follow every emotion they have during the day we know when they go shopping and if there's traffic and if there's a line but we know nothing about them because they know nothing about themselves all their inner energy they crush and repress to live a completely superficial shallow life it's hard for me to understand how people can substitute genuine living with absolute fake living you should understand even from a psychological point of view using any of these tools to cultivate relationships that are deep is futile and a grave mistake relationships that are genuine you cultivate person-to-person soul to soul heart to heart these things are blessings yeah a shear can go out to twenty five thousand people use these items Millar is dais a Shem a person could motivate an ideal can spread a message can make be successful in business but to make it a replacement for individual journeys for individual relationships it is a pity when fifteen-year-old girls 16 year old girls 17 year old girls 30 40 year old mothers don't know better than to live life on such a external level and feel accomplished through it it's almost one of the greatest sins to the self a betrayal of anything valuable that exists in your soul and dignity and so rocof lives for 40 years what does rocof discover one day she discovers two messengers of yahushua and she will end up marrying yahushua why will she end up marrying her shoe we now go to the next step there's a safer called gill Gulen usamos reincarnations of souls written by Robina Menachem Azaria Fano a student of Rabbi Shmuel shrug a student of the students of the ariza he says yahushua be known we know came from which tribe a frien who was the son of Yosef Yaakov was a non Jew who converted yahushua was a reincarnation of Yosef his soul was a gilgul of Yosef Sol rock of soul was a reincarnation of Potiphar's wife Sol party for his wife wanted you so very very much and she was a deep lady in fact hazael Salish aim shamayim miss Kavanagh she saw astrologically that she's connected to you so her connection to him was very deep it wasn't simple she also was lonely here she also had a window and she also threw out a rope and Yosef rejected her rope by Janos vak Hudson but the gomorrah says it wasn't simple for Youssef via via by selasa smell after he came home one day and there was nobody home so cuz I'll say a miss SOT Ravan Shmuel lasses truck of nearness he finally surrendered party for his wife was incessant understand if she was lonely how lonely was he how lonely was Yosef at the age of nine he lost his mother his beloved mother Rocco who lived for him she was gone he had a father who loved him but then one day his own brothers snatched him from his father threw him into a pit sold him into slavery for life he had not a brother not a sister not a father not a friend not a comrade not a lawyer for heaven's sake he didn't even have a lawyer to defend them in court he's in a pit before that he's a slave a slave for life and he's 17 years old he's not 57 years old he's 17 years old a teenager and he's well groomed he's royal he's aristocratic he's a prince he's dreaming of changing the world this man dreamed that all the sheaves are bowing down to him the Sun the Moon the Stars and now he's a slave for a life a slave and his master's wife asks him to do something for a few minutes and she threatens him if not I will destroy you I will poke out your eyes I will amputate your legs I will torture you to death and she does well on her warning she puts him in prison for life do you understand the level of loneliness that this kid is it the level of pain he's in he was in a pit not just physically and a pit with scorpions do you know 17 year olds in a pit and their life is not as tragic as Joseph's life and the Gomorrah says he was about to surrender and what stopped him where did he see the image in his father you remember what it says where in the window the Moose do I shall Aviv raba Helene in the window he saw the image of his father what window what window will do there was seeing and playing in the window and they had a picture of Yaakov in heaven they interviewed him what window he's in the depth of Egypt input t4 his wife's house nobody is home he wants to surrender he can't contain it anymore it's before McIntyre remember his family will not be ruined as a result there won't be signs I viavoice October 7 its shaft and some sugar you want to translate it won't it won't damage their marriage and the family marriage prospects on the family in fact an this is what everybody does it's Elvis orit's it's a morally depraved society if you don't do it you meshuggah this is the culture he won't ruin his father's brother he's alone for heaven's sake how does he abstain he sees in his father's image in a window the loneliness was there but it's the window that changes everything in the window he saw his father's image and when he saw his father's image in the window he ran by Janos vak hood saw rocof came from the wife of Potiphar that was her soul Yahshua was a gilgul of Yosef at this point they can actually come together at this point yoshua could marry Rockoff but now I want to understand what is it that Yosef saw in that window when a person is in such isolation what do you see in your window when you are in such isolation and pain and torment what do you see out of your window perhaps what else when it says that yes have saw the image of Yaakov he knew what Yaakov looked like before he was 17 years old he grew up with this man he knew what he looked like a day before two days before he didn't forget what his father looked like what is it that he saw one of the interpretations is the Meuse the yoke inertia Yaakov raba helene means he saw his own image from the perspective of his father not only his father's image that he saw he saw his image from his father's point of view he saw himself the way his father Yaakov Aveeno sees him when everybody told Yaakov to relax and get over his son's death Yaakov said I will never get over his death because I'll say why not cuz you can only find comfort for somebody who's dead not for somebody who's living you don't forget somebody who's living even somebody who's dead you don't forget but there's a certain mechanism of moving on when somebody is alive you're in limbo you can't move on because they're alive Yaakov sensed that he's alive even though he thought he was dead but he sensed he was alive he couldn't be confident what does this mean spiritually spiritually it means that often people will say about a certain child get over him move on he's dead don't you have another 11 kids you have 11 kids come on and Yaakov had another 11 girls to sober Akash on Shabbos was guns leba dick without the ice if there's a black sheep in the family what did Jakov say you don't know my boy he's not dead he's alive via my English not him he refused to be comforted why did he refuse via mine comes from the word Eamon and Munna he had trust and faith in his child he knew who was childís hundreds of miles away or far away somewhere in Egypt is a boy alone in the world but he has a vision through the window he see himself from the vantage point of his father he has a father who believes in him who trusts him who always empowered him a father who made him know at the core of his being that he is a prince of God a ray of infinity a fragment of heaven a deeply powerful and wholesome person ashlee akka messenger an ambassador of love light and hope and thus via Montaigne it says he refused Potiphar's demands he had a father who refused via money and a father who refused to give up on him there was a ripple effect it shre it within himself the power to refuse to surrender his dignity his morality his soul his life and his future to this person not that the loneliness was gone not that the pain was gone but the window gave his loneliness a perspective that this was his mission and he could contain it and he can hold on to it and he will not throw the rope to connect himself to things or people that ultimately will betray his truest existence his deepest values his relationship with truth his relationship with God his relationship with his own soul and ultimately his relationship with his father and his mother as well a few hundred years later yoshua will marry rocof rocof was that soul she was brought she was a good student for sure they were both broad people Yosef was very what does Yosef mean increase her hover to add just like rocof means to add and pointy fairy you know what that means Priya you know what priya means of Paris rosacea openness exposure disclosure revelation Priya me lotion Priya so now rock of 40 years is responding to her loneliness and one day one way her window sees a lot of things but it doesn't have a Yaakov Aveeno it doesn't have a Yaakov Aveeno to be able to mirror back to rock of who she really is and what she could be so she throws out the rope for whoever she throws out the rope after 50 years of age Rocko's decides to change her life but what happens when she changes her life she doesn't repress her personality rocof takes with all her loneliness all her pain all her anxiety all of her experiences and she brings it all as a gift to God Yaakov doesn't run from her past if she would run from her past she would tell God forget about the Rope forget about the window forget about the flax she doesn't say forget about it she says I want those three things to be redefined I want to redefine my past I don't want to run from my past that's what real chuhwa means I don't run for my past I go back into my past and I redefine it from a divine perspective I see my paths I see my journeys and I say I know I had flax I know I had a window I know I had a rope but look what I did now with my flax I hid the spies of your Ashura look what I did now with my window I let them go out of the window look what I did now with my rope I set them on a course of freedom to be able to save them as a result of them to help the entire nation build an era to stroll the Holy Land here and there for when that happens rock of Earth to go into your shoe or tomorrow Yahshua because her broadness because of her expansiveness because of her extraordinary magnitude and greatness and grandeur so therefore rocof at 50 years Mary's the greatest drew of the generation yahushua be known and it all began because she contemplated her own wall her own flax her own window and her own rope she realized at that point that all of life is basically a play that consists of three scenes there is a flax there's a window and there's a rope take a look at your life and what do they say life is a play right that play consists of three scenes the flax the window and the rope the flax is my internal sense of loneliness the window is the perspectives I create based on it the paradigms and the things I see and I want to see the ropes are the relationships that I make with people there were things these three exist in every life how we allow these three scenes to play themselves out in our life to determine whether we live one way or another way that's the choice we all make the three I can't change but do I live based on a result of that as a result of that a life of emptiness and falsehood or a life of true value true dignity and true MS that's the choice I have to make every person has to make it but those three things exist come back now to another Livadia Yosef so Yaakov in the window light oh hey I saw Adam Levada it's not good for man to be alone but there was one man who was alone do you remember who Yaakov remember the PASOK by Eva sir Yaakov Levada it was the middle of the night nobody was there Yaakov remained alone and you know what happens by a avec ischemia the voice of Shankar a man wrestles with him till dawn break Yaakov was lavada he knew what it means to be alone he had a family he had rock helmet lay amid bill amid Zilpah with some severy roofing Shimon leave you that could take down a city there were guns every was labid dick don't worry but he was Levada because everybody is levanta the middle of the night especially they all went over the Yaak River but in the middle of his night in middle of his own night till dawn breaks he is alone and when you are alone somebody tries to kill you and if they can't kill you they make you limp you walk for the rest of your life but you don't have stature maybe not physical and worse no emotional stature no stature I'm doc I'm caved in forever I can't lift my head up I'm limping so lay out your a try my sciatica my sciatica nerve is dislocated Maggie Natasha Yakov lovato Yosef is alone and he looks out the window and what does he see he sees his father who was also alone and then the mattress comes on that pasta Kiev hace yakovlev a day and says harder Hudak sieve this is the meaning of the pasta when mrs. Goff Hashem Levada by OMA who on that day God will be exalted alone what's the connection so when slim Allah made his song he brought the two together you ever realized witness Govan is go Vashem Levada right by evil sent what's the connection because he knew the Madras okay what's the yaker remains alone God will be exalted alone ah you see loneliness is part of the reality of existence there's a part of me that only I know there's a part of you that only you know that sense of loneliness can bring us to two places one is I become a victim I become bitter I become cynical there's another way I connect it with God being alone me and God or God and I Venise go Hashem Levada by i'ma ho meaning when you could connect your aloneness to God's aloneness the dead lahmacun Ephraim says that every person has an akuna a contribution to make in the world that nobody else can make there is something that is connected to you which Gomorrah says be shy of a dilemma but really never alone every person has to say the world was created for me now that sounds pretty pompous imagine a person walking around the world was created for me the world was created for me my name is actually not Jacobsen we come from Georgia Russia our name was yeah kibosh really Yacouba shrilly which means jacobson and Georgians really means a son so where I grew up there was somebody in sugar always like to build my self-confidence so you used to tell me you know why your name is Shri Lee because your philosophy is be surely never a Harlem the world was created for me doesn't sound very good cuz I'll say everyone has to say that the world isn't that like real Marsa system tell your husband the whole world was created for me your husband says no for me greats a great marriage right the answer is it's really humility it's not arrogance because what it means is that there's something in me that the whole world needs there's something at stake in your life that the whole world depends on nobody before you nobody after you can fulfill that mission there is something in each person that is Levada it's indispensable and it's completely unique to this boy to this girl to this man to this woman to this person and in that sense you're completely alone you carry the whole world on your shoulders just like God does venes Graham Levada by emmawho when Yosef looks into that window he could see two things he could see emptiness he could see a bottomless pit he could see an endless void or he gets to see his father's image not only a father who believed in him a father who taught him that there's a place of Levada there's something in your own journey that is unique to you nobody will ever understand it there is something about your soul that nobody will ever get not because they don't want to not because you don't have people close to you but the past success in to heal them I need aa Tiki God Oh wash em I know that God is great I there's something that I know that nobody else knows there's something that you know that nobody else knows it's something that you know that nobody else knows if I ask every person tell me who God is every person has a different experience on me it's supposed to be that way every person is different every saw every Muong is different we each have our own ballad to sing in the cosmic symphony and we are each an indispensable note than that divine symphony here I take my aloneness and I connect it to an aloneness that doesn't crush me and destroy me to one alone is that empowers me and tells me that I am an expression of a noite malvada of God's aloneness when I could connect my aloneness with Hashem salonist then my aloneness allows me to become a messenger of infinity an ambassador of the vine and thus my rope is completely transformed have a wonderful week this class is brought to you by the acheive Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot AUC vinet slash donate