The Baal Shem Tov’s Revolution on Love

the yeshiva.net [Music] good morning everybody so we'll continue page 80. on top it should say we started the mime around the sachem right the parches and we learned peric aleph and yesterday part of patrick base so now we're middle of patrick base again page 80 the first column or daf mem column gimmel close to the top of the page let's see around 10 lines from the but from the top are krishna so the balatanya yesterday we learned made this uh quite astounding statement that the amount a lot of to somebody's life is what determines how long i live basically how many times i have to say shma i'm just putting it very succinctly how many times i have to say shma maybe more accurately would be how many times i have to experience it's probably a little more accurately set yeah very good you said that yesterday too they avoided twice a day yet and he says because the the amount of years allotted to a person as he puts it almost in and how logic terminology is based on the shear that's the words he says on the shear and you would think like you're talking about a casayas or akabaitsa but he says the shear that the human being the person ought to sublimate call caches of resources of faculties of personality traits of of experiences of elements particles so to speak or waves of the nephesh of the biological soul the question now is and this explains why it's krishna why the gemara in brachas compared krishna to the carbon the fire that eats up the fire that's the key word a fire can only be consumed by fire fire won't be consumed by by water water will destroy fire it won't consume it you can also pour water on fire and that's how you destroy the fire but alternate doesn't give that advice you have a fire in the nephisha bahamas poor water he doesn't say that he says because water will ext because water will extinguish a flame it won't sublimate the flame it won't be my little flame it's not my flame it's more powerful than the flame i'll i'll destroy you if you have enough water you'll destroy the fire you'll extinguish the flames when you eat something you don't destroy it you make it part of yourself we think we destroy it you know you're not destroying anything whatever you're eating you're not destroying it you're making it part of you food doesn't get destroyed in the body on the contrary but come it becomes the body and it contributes to the body and it affects your personality we all know you eat certain things you uncles certain things you're a different person right your church you eat certain things in the morning you're in a bad mood you eat certain things in the morning you're in a good mood that was in your honor swiss chocolate not for me but pagealista if i eat carbs or sugar in the morning i go in straight to a depression within 20 minutes takes 20 minutes i could see it on the clock so when you eat have reserves unfortunately so i don't need but the bottom line is that when you eat something it becomes part of you that's the kiddish it's not that the issue of the nephew should get extinguished it should be nikhil it should be this allah the only way to do that is you need fire fire speaks to fire right fired like i said yesterday fire fabric fire fire speaks to fire fire understands fire fire attracts fire fire appeals to fire fire understands the language of fire water is a different force there's different voices which are made in the world like he said before the ay shema's so it's the age that's the asia of the never shall it is that can be oil it can be mild it can be sublimated and it works both ways as he says if i indulge one fire the other fire won't be available to me because where's my passion on the other hand if i have the other fire it could sublime it could be my little fire like that was that was the nakuda that we discussed so amelia krishna is that carbon why is it the carbon because what's the carbon the carbon is the fire consumed the fire the fire consumed the animal which is from fire the high is inside and that's that of krishna what's the connection to krishna it's just words so that's what the vilnigan writes that the gemara compares shema to a carbon she says the acronym of shema and echad if you remember shema he says it's all the categories of carbonus which has four minim of khalas that's what he says so all the categories of the gummara says that shema is like a carbon and zevach and filin is like so he says that shema echad the first and last word the acronym includes all the categories the vilna gonzas slammim minha ayla asham khattas and dallad minim of taida because you don't carbanas has a certain certain categories of carbonus when we say categories it means that carbonates the only five types of animal only three types of animals you could use for carbonace you could use an ox or a cow you can use a sheep or a ram and you can use a goat that's it nothing else can use a chicken for a carbonace and then you have two types of birds turtle doves and young pigeons that's it five living creatures that could be used for cabanas now what you do with that that's uh gets intricate so you have types of carbonace you have the ila that's what he says so you have the shin is the shlomim that's one genre of carbonus you have the mem is the minha so actually that's not animals mineka is always meal offerings which means comes from grain always from grain usually wheat sometimes barley usually wheat and then you have iron is what did i say einstein and then you have the other ones okay stamps it's very interesting how it works even with the the the the duke in the words i just wanted to mention that because somebody's so somebody wrote a comment from the villenegon the indian of christmas is really an experience of his boynin his bannon of course is the term he always uses for his binderness which is contemplation or meditation or internalization the yamagshaft is that the thought immerses itself deeply into it to become in tune to it you could think about something but you're distracted by a million things means that it goes into the depth of my makshava in tanya he associates that with das lee island that the heart should remember the heart should recall israel she now explains what that means peters what do i mean you could say i mean that he's eternal that's not what we mean that's a more simple layer of interpretation he was he is he will be he's eternal like we say barak sham he says whenever it says pirush it's like when rashid shash writes kalima kalema means it's not just how you would interpret it it's more than that whenever it says peter it's like this there's a peter i'm not just giving you the english translation of the hebrew church we learn he was he is he will be you know like a bystander i was before the play existed i'm during the play and i'll be there when the play is over that's not the vart that's true but it's much more than that everything is won is in the same state of reality he alone is one in singular vein there's no change between was is and will be commissioned kosov in malachi the malachi was the last prophet who lived in the beginning of the second base amiktus and malachi is the last safer of tanakh from the 21st farm omar and he has the famous expression and here also it's a touch literally it means i god have not changed meaning nobody got rid of me and you oh so nobody will get rid of you here he's saying leishanisi which often is brought to one of the most frequent sukkah in the torah and hashem doesn't mean nobody got rid of me and nietzsche means the true reality has not been changed even after creation this is what we say in the morning you were here before creation you hear after creation but there's a word who could have said attached to this elbow in that this is in the morning in carbonus you know that piece so the bellatania's if it's just to say that you're always around right you're there before you're there after you know you didn't die in the process you know people one of the first questions kid that one of the first good questions kids asked ask a lot of them but one of the first ones who made hashem right everybody had one child who asked you that question yeah some parents i sometimes get emails my son is not because he's six years old he wants to know who made hashem is this a sign that he's you know he's going a heresy and i said no he's sunday's a normal intelligent kid so atahumashin obviously the creator was not created because creation is something that's necessary for matter time space it transcends it but here we're saying something more at all it's the same who the same who before why that already needs hazard that needs explanation pre-creation was a state of oneness post-creation is anything but oneness that's the hidden krishna havaya alaikena always puts it in the context of this understanding means that everything in his presence doesn't have a separate significance of it doesn't have a significance that would make it separate outside of oneness that's him so he says no the next step is that is alicano he himself that is our strength or today you would call it our consciousness our identity the powerful ones of the land he took lotion so when you say havaya kim or havaya keno it means el cano our strength we all have eloquent you have your strength you have your consciousness your life what is that that is hayah the heinous stop the separation that is that is my flow of life that is my consciousness the last thing you're allowed to believe about yourself is that you're finite that's the last thing you want to believe that that's my social mighty souls you have to know who who not just who god is god is one he has this perception of reality that i don't have because of the hate maybe one day i'll understand and i won't understand it that's not the void of shema that's the first of art that the organic state of reality is enormous but you could say fine that's in his in his perception with his microscope what's up to with me we always just look like it's just another word for god right in the english they'll always say i am the lord your god and now i got it i am the what's the difference between the lord and your god i don't know figure it out they need another word shema you saw hero israel the lord is our god the lord is one fine now and now it's very clear you're missing the whole point like just say his name again again and again right here again you should love the lord your god so these the the in in lush and quite dish it's a whole different creature like means reality the way i perceive it alike is my consciousness my every person feels alive there's an eye that i that i'm i'm dealing with that eye includes of course first and foremost my life force it includes my thoughts it includes my experiences it includes my emotions it includes my sensations it includes my awareness that's koichi you see this is my flow of life i reckon there's something i'm dealing with whatever you call the i call haddad from sure delay that's called your kayak and yours and that's why they came as i said champis is the only name of hashem that's pliable it's a flexible name there's elecai there's a laykenu hem there's a it is what it is it never lends itself to become custom-made to individuation the only name that does this is ali kim ah ah no we say about people even i thought they had one god you ever thought about this the god of avraham the god of eats of the god of yaakov i thought they had one god shouldn't it say alike it's a viagra i once said lubavitcher was once talking about this just the way he said it she said is take it but it's it's there's the way of rum experience experience divinity is the way yitzhak experienced the godliness or yakov experience godliness it's not the same hashem is the same but a person is not the same my tools are not your tools hashem it says yeah my dads can't be your dogs because my self-awareness is different than your self-awareness so my divine awareness is definitely your divine awareness it can never be the same that's why everybody has something to teach somebody else everybody has one very good everybody has their own calendar calentricity electricity is milosh and kale that's what he means finite means limited mukbal like finite means something that has a measurement and has a time it has a space it has a beginning it has an end yeah that's generally what finite means infinite is ainseif alikaynu is always subject to change because it's my experience of it it's where i am is my god and there's the god of my father not the same and they came over the cave was saying or didn't we have the same god no i know i'm saying it's the same god but l.a cain was all about your experience it's the same god but it's your experience my father is not me was not me it's not me i should say he taught to me but he's not me huh you have to get to know yourself i can't describe it if i describe it i'm going to talk about me you got to get to know yourself for that and the more you know yourself the more you know ella kim because that is eli kim al-akim is your kayak two words yeah that's why ella kim is associated with symptom always because what's simpson symptom is infinity allowing itself to be experienced you understand that's why the kim is always associated with simpson because it's symptom that was necessary to be able to allow infinity to be experienced we perceive like we learned in the previous mimer the name and the concept of a name shame right hara the light the ray of the sun comes strolling says now go one step deeper you know what this alikaynu is in other words what your experience is is really infinity and it goes back to the suggest of course of simpson that simpson is real and yet what what it's what is its truth it's truth is that yut kevothe that is alike no hashem the two are not separate and the reason is because hashem so that's what the balatanga is saying so there's two there's two concepts and each one is is a world is a universe or beyond them the first element is what is what does it mean that the true state of reality is pre-creation and post-creation the same he's not saying there was no creation it says shema is not saying oh god never created the world it's an illusion that's not the description god never created the world it's another it's a delusion it's a column and what about that column itself the question is what's the definition he says the reality of the universe doesn't create a khatsitsa it doesn't create a separateness like we learned in the previous miami about yeshua and remember why the world gets recreated every moment i gave the martial of a daydream right if i have 30 000 people in my daydream i'm not less alone you say oh you feel lonely don't worry just daydream up 10 000 friends that's all me it's not separate yeah you want to have something oh yeah you're saying time itself is a creation and before there was time there was no before before before was created before before was created you see even how you have over here is already good yeah it's a good order but we said that in the previous year you remember allah is the divine thought who what is that i what is that eye that eye is the it's the thought of hashem now a person really has to meditate on this this is not an easy this is not just like a vart you know shalom you know say nice things to your wife or to your mother which you should you should say nice things to your wife and to your mother but i'm saying he's asking her for a complete paradigm shift in terms of of experience he doesn't only know your state he's uh he is your state yeah it's the deepest definition of identity that's that's what he's saying this is it and it's not any this is it's a process it's going from you know the most earthly earthy mundane definition of identity to to appreciate deeper what that eye is like we spoke in the previous mimer you know the yesh coming from the iron and what that means in a person's experience because that's what alicano was a la cana was my experience of it and to really appreciate if the neshama is mahshava just like makshava we learned earlier it does not leave it's not dibur mahshava remains completely one with you and makshava doesn't seize in other words when there is you there is marshava so that's the unity the kinship between mahashava and hashem in complete oneness and that's the the source of their life comes from what's called malchus right after shema um now his rules everything even the highest worlds thou come from it's your mouth that ultimately pervades all the worlds even the highest remedies and even though nothing is separate he's saying who is the rest of the world is he says but nothing is separate everything is from you hashem whoever have you eliminated is a type of animal or insect or wrote into a reptile some say it's a turtle that the levush is mine it comes from it itself so the levush of elykim also comes from so it's not a real concealment that samosa comes from him if you remember we learned via daita he gives a muscle from it's brought that he can't cover if i want to say abracad i want to cover my head you can't cover your head with your hand why not because the hand and the head are one atom that's a master alexa cardboard is fine yamaka is fine i can use my coat my jacket but the nakuda is the body itself my hand can't cover my head why not it covers it physically covers it physically but it's the same like the head ain't that's a master alexa since eli kim comes from avaya so it can't really be mastered practically the head is covered i can't see my head when my hand you can't see what's on my here on my my scalp my scope my head is covering but it's not called a cover because the cover is from the same reality that is being covered so male it's not a real cover that's the idea that simpson was not kept that's what he says but nonetheless the entire universe is like a ray that extends the afghans in a very diminished ray commandment the whole illumina was created through a second what it's trying to bring out is that it's a ray and what type of ray a very diminished ray and the muscle for that is a youth why are you why not a base why not a dalit he says dude is the smallest letter it's like a seminal point in a person's makshava in a person's experience it's like my nitsuits echad cotton it's a metaphor for one tiny little spark of amelia of course the whole world is elokim and therefore the whole world is and you say like we explained many times that even what your identity is the whole universe is also a manifestation of a lacus everything is divine energy but it be nivea it's like kahara a ray the ray comes from that source and the ray is a manifestation an articulation of the source the hidden is he says so we say in halal yeah hashem kinisgo that the intimate kid of the intimate kid of that he says that a neshama is connected to the source to the life of life to the ain's life itself that's the experience of the neshama it's one mamish with the core itself and that's what the nisham is sensitive to rabbihood in the kosari says there's the diamonds and then there's a fifth then it's not nibrated in the shade and it happens to be pure he says no no it's pure before you created it before it becomes a bria it's terri it's it's part of boire yeah that's preach that's that's rooted in a pre-some reality so there's the state of unity of the entire universe which is very profound very profound that state of unity and the state of unity one can experience at least to some degree through the meditation of the of the of the awareness that precedes the eye which is divine awareness the neshama though is rooted not only in malchus not only in the heart and not only in its the experience the intimacy the care of with the premiums of enzyme with the atmosphere itself that's deeper than baroque your very identity islam in complete oneness the summer's pre-creation experience it says when other methods sorry finally i found my atom adam was in kinship with everything everybody he gave names to everybody he met harvey said and that's why her name is because she's taken from ish it's a different relationship with adam and cova which is a metaphor for the relationship of classes israel and the bible they didn't need but i'll say that he had to connect you know it says rashi brings shabbal khal however you touch it the morale says that a person has a kinship with every single animal there's a connection but it's not like why because he saws now here there's a huge long parenthesis that i think that samadhik wrote because he wrote hagas footnotes under my modem a long parenthesis there was a lying a long pilbal and kabbalah with makotis and sources and discussions but let's go to the end of the parentheses when the parentheses there's a whole the next column second column close to the end of pedic base like six lines before the end of pedigrees you see the line starts doesn't only mean here it means gather commodivaisma soul shall gathered the nation to fight amalek she says shema means to hear but it also means to gather gather what va'inyon a person is so fragmented and compartmentalized so shema is we're going to gather everything we're bringing everything imagine you sit down and say bring in everything and put everything right here else no no no certain things are off limits then it's not shema bring everything in everything in contemporary language you say bring in every fear every thought every trauma every desire else bring it all in bring it all in bring it all on as they say schmuck gather lester for the cabbage call that saunas bring together just identify it even all the kaijus all the crisis means every faculty every every every energy or its soreness every desire but you say the aisha tv rooted in the natural element of a person's fire my passion what am i passionate about what am i scared of what am i jealous of like we learned yesterday who am i angry at what do i hate can you bring it all into the you want to make a pile here bring it all in you have to have somebody to contain the pile huh tv yeah yeah bring it all in shma that's that's the void of shema and what what is it akira's you gather them to what so he's going to say now ultimately the person uproots his desire from them we'll see what that means in a moment it will ultimately manifest in remorse for the past and resolution for the future not to live foolishly not to return to foolishness and here's the key sometimes a person regrets something because of fear or because of terrible guilt or because of social pressure because of a different pressure but he says that's not the verb that's what that that's where remorse comes from knowing who you are understanding who you are understanding that yes understanding that who have is always one and you are that oneness and that's what creates the fire there's a voider that comes with seeing how negative you are you're a negative person you're bad anybody ever heard this you're going to burn you're you're a sick person you're you're a degenerate you're a bahama gossip you're worse than a behemoth doesn't have you have to be said all the words of muslim but what was the vert the void is because you understand that you are hashem the moment you get that so then you look at the pile of all that it's saying this i want it to be a reflection of that echad that's the nakuda of sana you understand what i'm trying to say here ah you don't know what i'm trying to say so look at the last line that's why the next line after shema israel remember doesn't say barak shame was added by the khazal right it's a kiddish that we put in barak shame because it's it's literally an interruption of khumas and the kumari sakha wonders why like why are you putting it in and that's why we say it quietly that there was a basmalek you know the gemara and i think there was a bass melody there was a princess hey richard she went to the kitchen and she saw you know the bottom of the trolling pot the fat and the black stuff yeah some people like it you ever peel it off and eat it sorry shabbos huh so she smelled it and she loved it so the gamora says the person that said i can't give it to you because a passness you're a princess she said i need it so i'll give it to you quietly. so she ate it quietly like when your wife is not looking basically so the gemara says that's borussia that's why we say it quietly now it's one of these gemaras like what explains they said what do i need what do i need this i go from shema straight to vahafta ghazal didn't like that because you can't amputate the worldly you can't amputate it's seeking data at the bottom of the charlotte it exists if you get rid of it you could fall but you say it quietly yum kipper everything is one so you could say it loud so what's right after shema is over what's the connection is your evil negative inclination what is that really it's your natural passion you're passionate about something it's part of this fire it's part of the oneness because hashem and ali kenu are one and what is hashem so there's nothing that's not part of it so therefore once you said shmaisto of course with your heart now the words are words the experience of it is the experience of it i'm saying i keep on saying words but you have to the experience of it as he says this is this is a life this is the life long awaiters hashem ah mama's life long yeah but but you have to be tough as the raymonds of the vart this is where you can have the same vert but what's behind it what makes akira saratsan he uses the akita saratsu kabbalah these are strong words of chuva of of uprooting the will bringing everything you know what is it you have akira saratsu a person feels so miserable about themselves that when you're miserable you don't want anything including not bad things that's not diverter the var tears can you recognize who you are and what you really want what your real passion is can you recognize in other words the language of the mimer that your elekinu is utkavovka and utkavafke hashem is echoed so shema israel is a whole shir shema first of all listen second of all bring everything into the pile my friend okay and he says in the parentheses i didn't we didn't learn it israel is yahshua kale what's yahshua kale kale is a direct continuum of yutakevka yoshi yoshi yakuza it doesn't divert it's the same yeah sure so shma israel yoshikail bring everything in now let's talk hashem is a liqueno i relate to what i identify my passion my fire what is it what is it the emma's it's not separate from you to keep off because you are actors because your only son is allah and your body is an embodiment of that nashamah and it's even deeper than malachi because the mallet is one dimensional in the mall never comes into a guff that's already the beginning of the miami the neshama comes into a gopher nefer younis but it still rules it could still rule and what's its perspective what's its experience its experiences the whole universe and the whole identity is kamai kaidum shinira islam in other words you're always in a state of actus mamesh of absolute oneness and if the doors of your perception were cleansed everything would appear it would appear as is which is the infinite reality of hashem and that's my ultimate aish so that hashem which is alike no then hashem is echad so everything that's going on in that pile all the retinas that i brought in all the kaikas my jealousy my hatred my anger all the h that i brought in that's what he said make a pile of it make a pile of it now shine a light on it and if you could shine a real light on it you'll see that there was just an interruption in the way you perceived your flow of consciousness so that interruption once you really see that there's no interruption you're like you want me to go live in that garbage can when i have infinity in front of me would you want me to live where do you want my passion should be you what my passion should be in uh in in that which is a complete uh convolution and uh uh a betrayal of uh of who i am of what i really want that's that's where you want me to be it's like you come to your son's wedding or your daughter's wedding right and in the middle of the cooper you know in the middle of the bad deck and somebody sends you a clip and that's where you go to uh really yeah you understand it's like it it's guilt it's guilty you're not going to watch the clip because of guilty if you're a cross and you're putting on the ring on your collar codeciously wait somebody just sent me a whatsapp going to scare you with the punishment it's like who are you where are you that's the vart it's not how bad you are do you see your glory do you see your your actors and that's the key difference this different rahman avoided in the void of musser a lot of it is about putting down the person showing how how how disgusting you became you see that today that's usually very very counterproductive even though it's an holy sphere it's not uh it's either divided but you see that today not only does it not uplift people it makes them much more addicted to the schmutz i mean i see it all the time i hear from people i went this this is what i heard this is what i read why why it's old vladimir mitim but because sometimes they can have mammage the opposite people always tell the bhakram have problem they tell them the gemara therapist he know this well everything will go away if it works might a dick but you have to be very careful because sometimes it's very counterproductive because the reason why the reason the person is going to these things is because they don't know who they are they feel so bad about themselves they're broken and this is a way of compensating they're not bad they're broken when you tell them how horrible they are you really break them now the person they came to to give them hope also thinks i'm a sick person so now they need the addiction even more anybody relates to what i'm saying ah you need to begin to help the person detox from their brokenness or to put it differently if i'm broken up my core even information about my greatness is processed through my brokenness like somebody once told me that he was learning siddhis actually and it wasn't helping at all i said of course you're trying to uh to fill the void of brokenness with information that's going to help you feel less guilty but not dealing with the fact that it's talking about you it's talking about you in other words if i'm processing everything through my trauma so even this i process through my trauma so if i process it through my traumas this is going to save me from my horrible state of being but at the core the sahara is still there the only way to touch the eight sahara at the core is to exit this the only way why because siddha says it's tinushkin sahara it's hashem it looked like a sahara it's not a sahara it's hashem you don't have a really sahara that's where you everything else it could be good things but the eight sahara remains a monster and the monster we have to do something with him so either we repress him or we scare the living daylights out of him or we make him feel so miserable that he does dare to show up fine stay in the closet i don't care but when he does show up oigevald oh is it going to be scary and another method is you become taka fake fetch the person you become a very depressed person because you know that if the real self comes out the clown comes out it's going to be a disaster although it says the whole the side of the you gather everything into the pile i'm not afraid of alike we're not afraid of your consciousness of any emotion because it's all havaya elekin you have to reveal it you have to be megalith you have to see that the real fire is one fire and that fire could consume every other fire so that void is never obliteration the void is always sublimation now sometimes i have to abstain from certain things if i'm addicted to something right as much as you learn this if you're addicted to something you're just gonna keep on falling into it so sometimes this work where i have to abstain i have to say no that's obvious but the question is what's behind it now behind the no is an absolute embrace of the full self not because of arrogance on the contrary because that's the ultimate antidote to arrogance the the arrogance is coming because the sahara is completely split up from the aids of tafe but you cannot process this information through the tools of trauma because if you do it's completely opposite of what he's saying did you understand what i just said if i am emotionally traumatized and i'm learning this it could feed the trauma it's like you're such an idiot that you don't get the truth you understand you're such an idiot because you don't get the truth what's the truth what's the truth you're such an idiot you're such a sick person you're such a horrible person your nephew bahamas is so sick because you don't get this and what's this what's this that your nephesha bahamas is holy you see the issue so if emotionally there's no integration it's what's this what's this what's this that you're not getting your very approach to getting it is undermining the ability to get it this is a blockage by many people the tools you're using to get it is opposite of what you're trying to get so you're trying to learn this right but the tools i'm using are undermining the information because the tools i'm using are tools that are based on alienation based on negativity based on toxicity and it's very deep this goes very deep because the tools precede the information because the tools are primal the tools have become entrenched so you have to have to gain to this with a lot of aedelkaite if you don't feel the infinite flow of love in the mind this moment other my modern it's because my tools are compromised it's not my fault if i have tinted glasses i'm going to see everything in a certain color i'll hear this and all i'll hear is again how horrible i am i'm so horrible i've been saying shema for 49 years and i don't know any what what you saw god is one next no let's finish the whole nukuda of shema is you could gather everything in you i hope you your toughest what i'm saying him just not accept your vedas [Applause] that's what you took that's how you talk to your vaders you don't accept any aveda but why don't you accept an aveda why don't you accept the navena because you're going to burn for eternity why don't you accept naveda because you're such a sick person to accept an aveda because you're the worst creature ever existed you're just one big gluttonous ego a narcissist who has been a narcissist all these years and now listen to what i'm saying so the very regret it's a derek i'm always it is this is is not the first safer that was written about serving god there's a lot of swann before but i'm trying to figure out you could see citrus one you feel the energy the point is there's a derek there but but what the nakuda is that core regret right is often based on an underlying paradigm of that deep dow that exists and that creates fragmentation creates compartmentalization and the reason it's so ineffective today is one is a bad reason i want is a good reason the bad reason is because if my eight sahara is coming from brokenness not from ego the more you break me the more my sahara becomes big the more you break me the more i have the problem you're trying to help me but you're not helping me you're breaking me the khatsuki rebel one said when you break a taiva now you have two it's one of the better best lines when you break a taivo you have two so if you break that now you have four if you break that you have 18 right you know what it says about that fardaya marcus verdeja yeah ah from the stipe the stipela gun yeah he spoke about anger it says that paris got this fight there the big frog right so what did he do he hit the sword there so what happened more came out so what did he do he hit it again some more came out so who's the one who created makaswa they apparently not god so sometimes in life yet there's more frogs that's one reason it doesn't work the second reason it doesn't work is because the closer we come to goula the closer we come to goolula the vision of yiddishkait is ultimately the vision of of gula of enoid mulvade it's the vision of tikkun of everything being part of it so people wonder why can't musa work today like it used to work so what apparently it worked magically i don't know i the answer is it's not only because you read the sardiaris it's because the milos are there let's say i could scare you in to have an amazing marriage you're going to be the most obedient husband in the world you're always going to be nice and you'll never say a bad word again and there's one reason for it because the punishments are going to be horrible i could do that let's say we can do that is that called a success story today no why not everyone will be miserable why because it's not me very good it's not me how do you know whenever you hear a sheer how do you know that it's the energy of siddhis it's the energy of the belgentive you always feel this is me always it's me it's who i am that's the cloud and the koi tai club deep down you feel it's always integrated it's me it's it's who i really am it resonates on all levels it's who i really am i'm not giving up i'm not repressing i'm not cutting i'm not doing surgery on me it's it's me why is it me because hashem alike it's fully me i may not be fully ready i may not be emotionally ready i may have resistance i got it it's challenging me it's scaring me a little but you feel it it's me it's fully me every part of you is is in that's how you right away know it's the energy of terrorist abortion that's the energy of google it's the energy of of of the scholars of inclusivity and you can't fool in it you can't fool anybody with this you're sitting you want to meditate a little better sometimes a distance is tricking around the ocean it's very dry sometimes you have to go a little far you're saying you're forced to love well the whole vert is here it's not force it's it's knowing who you are i mean if somebody could tell you uh you don't have to be a father anymore i'll take in all your children and i'll support them and you don't have to be a father anymore just kiss them goodbye and move to new zealand and become a biker and just live there for the rest of your life and i'll take care of your kids i'll pay tuition i'll pay the mortgage i'll feed them i'll even send them to therapy when they ask where their father ran away to i'll pay for the therapy too right so you're good right but it's not exactly going to be what i'm going to choose why [Laughter] and the answer is you won't have a day of peace you won't have a day of peace right i told this story publicly about a father who was advised to throw his child out of the house and uh he met me he spoke to i gave a lecture and he asked me i spoke about this in you and he asked me where were you 35 years ago i said what happened 35 years ago he said he threw his kid out of his house he was 16. he was advised to change the locks if his kid doesn't shape up i said what happened he says 35 years i haven't heard from him and a few years ago he married out he married a non-jew he has non-jewish children and he says i'm very respected in this community but nobody knows that i have not had one night of sleep in 35 years he was advised by somebody to throw his kids out throw his care change the lock and not let him come back he said i haven't had one night of sleep for 35 years so whenever i do something and deep down i know that this is not who i am this is not what i want the whole world could say you're at sadhaka but you won't sleep for 35 years the guy going to new zealand because somebody else has taken care of his kids he's not going to have a night sleep why because he's betraying himself so that's the question in life the question in life was when it says is that a betrayal of myself or was that the real real me when i say i'm going to challenge myself to do something if that something is an expression of who i am then those are the challenges i want those are the challenges you want you get what i'm saying that's always the question if i'm forcing myself simply because i'm tired i may be lazy i may be having a bad day that that that's life that's how life works we're not always in the mood of everything good you typhus what i'm saying that's the vat says more than a mitzvah it's a result it's like means you should it also means you will in another mind without ever say after means lush and lush and have taka in in dictu when you say after it can mean you shall love it could also mean when you say tao hov right it means you should but it's actually used more often as you will you will love why it's not a stitter every mitzvah it says on the kota toyota every mitzvah is also a prediction it's a maida deck of art every mitzvah in toyota is not a mitzvah it's not only a command it's a prediction you will because you will therefore you should it's a whole different word you understand you will why will you because it's who you are when when everything gets cleared up you will love so maybe you should that's the only thing you should why should i allow myself to inhale oxygen why should i not uh go like this and the answer is because the body is gonna is gonna go crazy should do it now why should you eat huh that's tickling yet it's not it's not here you will you will come to this place why will you come not because i'm telling you you will you're gonna come there so if you're coming there so so so so embrace it today if this is who you are ah yeah if if your toef is strong the way he explains it so after you will i'm not going to get it i'm not going to hijack it i'm not going to abduct it i'm not going to destroy it that's who it is i i see him for who he is i don't get afraid of its fire i'm not afraid of its fire its fire is just the real fire of the eight's odd is the fire of the nephili kiss hashem now again i may not feel this i may now have a fire that's very very animalistic i'm jealous i'm angry i'm addicted i'm a binger i'm a drinker i'm an alcoholic whatever it is i hate you okay so this is why you need shema this is why he says this is why you need to say twice a day i'm recalling this truth i'm recalling this truth now we all have levels how much i process it how much i get it how much i feel it how much i experience it but this is the truth i want to recall every single day that you ate sahara is not as bad as you think it is it's actually very good it's not separate the separateness is my perception based on my life experiences based on my education based on my habits but there's no real separateness the islam for statements this section is very quiet today the passion is excellent the passion is divine the passion is holy it's i just want to know where to harness my passion the passion may appear to be sinister or destructive or negative but that's just a facade it's a mask you don't judge things based on a mask i'm not going to look at you and say oh i your face i'll take a picture of your mask that's not how it works even in the airports they tell you to take off your mask even in the meshugna airports where the masks are asari put on a mask even in the airports they understand atkan so why can't i understand it with myself so my passion has a lot of masks okay so take over the mask i want this i want this i have a crush on you i have a crush on a woman have a crush on this woman have a crush on this thing i have a crush that's the mask you have a crush ms but if you understand hashem melikeno so then you could bring everything in all your crushes and you'll see it's hashem that's what you'll see when a person experiences love towards a woman any woman the bolshev says it's really hashem talking to the person hashem says i'm crazy about you i love you but he says but the person at that moment is not capable of feeling god's love so what does hashem do so he sends you this love towards this woman or to this person so you experience that passion but really this woman also is a knit really you're looking for a la cos you're not looking for anything else no i'm looking for this woman go deeper what are you really looking for you're looking for for oneness you're looking for attachment you're looking for love you're looking for connection you're looking for beauty i'm looking for beauty okay what are you really looking for what what's the beauty you're looking for oh solacos the market once said the mighty dick of earth that yak yosef came home and the wife of patiphar said you know shikhwa imme lay with me by salazar one day he came there was nobody there so hazal said that joseph was raven shmuel he was ready to go be with patifa's wife what happened [Music] he saw jacob in the window the image and he told her no he ran away so he says well he didn't know what jacob looked like before well what did he see exactly the market of ms which says the mauryan iron brings it gracious the market says the wife of paitifah was dazzling in her beauty and joseph too yosef was your faith however your faith and he saw asia's patipha he saw the beauty and he was extremely touched by it it really it really grabbed him and then the musdelic of bachelor yakov is midosatiferas so he saw the beauty and he said what am i looking for i'm looking for beauty he says of hashem so he looked and he saw what i'm really searching for is tifares beauty fayones vaietse why am i going to reduce myself to the small beauty of asians i want the infinite beauty so he ran out that's a vert of tikkun that's that's avert that's not a vert of repression you understand you see the difference it's not joseph so i'm such a sick kid i'm going to destroy myself and burning ahenum forever that says in spot him i'm not i'm not movatlet because anything that could stop you from doing the wrong thing is also good if it stops you is it's a myla but it's not the ultimate tickle the ultimate ticket is not if you do it you're just a sick sick person the ultimate tikkun is no you're not looking for it you're not looking for asian specifier yosef was looking for a father and he had a father you don't have a father you don't have a father you need a specific that's what happens with so many teenagers you don't have a father you don't have a mother so you go to asia's patio fire what's asian specifically going to give you what's footsteps going to give you what's asia's patipha going to give you you don't have a father you go there joseph knew it yosef knew he needs a father he needs tiffany's that's what he needs anxious but if he's a married woman what's she going to give him she's married so it's going to be a fake thing it's going to be a five minute thing and then tomorrow again tomorrow again tomorrow again you destroy everybody in the process how's that going to help anybody that's what you're looking for you're looking for real companionship she can't give you real companionship she's married to somebody so you could say i'm a lost case you're not a lost case you're looking for tifares so get to ferris you have to find the ferris in you well pile he married party for his daughter so [Laughter] it wasn't he was he wasn't so far off it says rashid says that she saw that joseph is going to be in the meshbacher she had ups a vision yeah she says her name was [Music] it says he married paris gave him it's also a hidden people don't realize paitifah threw him into prison for 12 years aesh's patifur accused him of of doing horrible things which he never did and he ended up marrying their daughter what did it look like when he came home friday night to be with the schwellen district sra threw him into prison for 12 years it tells you something about joseph people are not typhus he married their daughter and they had a good marriage joseph he was a happy person the shiver threw him into prison because he believed the shriger who was a filthy liar how did joseph work that out at the hassan i just want to know anybody ever thought about it people think joseph had to forgive his brothers and his sweat and trigger everybody in his life tried to destroy this man his closest relationships your brothers your shaver and yeshua right the closest relationships everybody tried to destroy him he should have told panda i'm not marrying their daughter it's the sickest family in the world we avoid them and joseph went straight into it the most obvious question yeah that's a problem that's a problem that's all part of the that you amputate you don't think you don't feel it's an amazing vert and how did asthma's grow up to be such a fine rabbitson there's a there's a getter of art there's a voice from the playman the previous rebbe it's a polish accident it's a pilot he said that his wife grabbed on to joseph's cloak right and he and he ran out so she had the clock so he said in yiddish joseph sartok the bhagavatsadic is so powerful that it made us into uh you hear the sartok the that's why osnos became but i'm bringing out from here that you see joseph went into places he wasn't afraid in in english you'd say his self-confidence was so good he was so healthy emotionally he could look at the schwein de schweger and say traumatize people paitifa is traumatized by his wife his wife is traumatized by the love she never got yeah i'm fine i'm good like he told his brothers you didn't sell me what you're my sis you have your trauma killer i work for god i don't work for anybody else no i'm not a victim of you i'm not a victim of him hashem wanted me in prison you know what he wanted me in prison he wanted me in prison i should become the missional if i wouldn't have been in prison paris dreams would not be interpreted by me so you threw me in prison swear but who really threw me in prison hashem why kill you gave me an opportunity to go to te faires i'm not a victim that's joseph teaches you how to live huh but people don't realize this nakuda in the story how we have to deal with the shrinker his own shiver tried to destroy his life so you could you could all be fine with your figures she's much better than asians by tiffany i know people have swiggers and this maestrikas are zadehkus but even if your shrieker has stuff sinister asian spitfire you don't have to tell this to you shriger my name i'm just telling this to you she's listening online so it's fine anyway what's my voice again it's tikkun yosef didn't amputate his uh his his his his tight his trucker so the bashamtv says when you're feeling love shunter says this it's not my vart you ever saw this man you're feeling love to anisha he says also fear you get afraid of somebody hashem is trying to be with to be communicate with the sahir but he can't you don't know what yes hashem is so he sends you this fear from the pleas fear from your father fear from your father-in-law of fear from you this it's just a way saying now come now come and he gives a marshal but there was a melo who wanted to invite the one of the people to his house to be with him but he knew that if he shows up in the person's house the guy will die from fear so he sent a letter with a shliyak and in the letter it said please come to me he said hashem wants to show up in your life he knows it's going to be overwhelming you're not be a caylee she sends a letter what's the letter the letter is you start feeling love to somebody you feel a crush you feel fear it's a letter it's a letter and you have to ah you have a son it's in kashmir open up the letter and then it's come come come what what does this mean psychologically it's not naive it's very very deep it means if you'll go deeper into what you're looking for you'll see you're looking for god that's what you're looking for you're looking for oneness you're looking for actors there's no exception no i'm looking for chocolate you're not looking for chocolate i promise you you're looking for god i'm looking for alcohol you're not i'm looking for porn you're not looking for porn you're lonely you're broken you're not i'm looking for a woman i need a woman you're not looking for a woman now you have to be careful with this vart why it says if you're in the middle of a taiva it's very strong so if you're going to start with these kajbanas you could fall very easily you understand you have to know where you are in this mime is the ms lamite but when you're in the middle of a taiva it could be so strong that you're going to lose the plot if you start you say i'm not looking for the woman i'm looking for okay fine just come to me and i'll give you god sometimes when you're in a crazy intense tyver all you have to do is sorry not now tomorrow we'll learn the maima will understand in the middle of the fire you have to call the firemen you can't just say oh it's a beautiful fire anything anything hashem keno that's my iso bring everything into the pile i'm not afraid of anything bring in every ratsu and every tive everything tell me everything it's fine write a list everything you're afraid of bring it all in bring it on hashem and what is hashem came down to the world to say twice a day amount of years i live is the amount of times i say i have to say shma the amount of times that zeishmat to work through my nephew until it becomes one with uh hashem next week monday we're going to start peter gimmel and peter gimmel the mimer shifts kedarkoi how do you know that how do you how do you see the emma's here the m is how do you see the emma's painted gimbal is going to say that everything we learned is not the ultimate in aveda sasha you would think madregas peter gimeli says everything we just learned doesn't islam that's what the miraglum thought the helicon but the way this hashem is something else pay the gimbal the whole mimer shifts huh is going to show that this was the the big mistake of the miragulum was that they learned to pay the aleph and bays of the miami they didn't even pay to come i'm just preparing you mime is going to make a very sharp turn not as tid it's all also part of actors altera always is ratze and shuv and you go up and you go down and close it was a flow i don't remember what i said but if i learn it through trauma i'm learning good stuff but what i'm processing is yeah what i'm processing is that um a sick unworthy person right needs to learn how they're one but what i'm learning is being undermined by what i'm feeling because i'm experiencing the opposite of this you understand the whole message here is that you're not traumatized if i'm experiencing that through trauma so my experience is undermining what i'm learning it's going to manip it's going to distort it it's i'm telling my sick self how good i am you're good sicko no no no explain to it that it's not sick that's very different don't you sicko i'm good he can't hear that he's sick you understand what i'm saying it gets filtered like tinted glasses so everything it gets you put water into a green cup it's green the water is not green but i see green water huh i think we have to be aware of it we have to be aware of these things of of how we process it and how we respond and and how we react to it it's a commandment because it's who you are prediction it's a prediction this is who you will be so it's who you are a mitzvah because it's who you are yeah it's it's it's it's organic why does a bird build a nest in a tree it works for two weeks you ever see birds building the nest you know how hard it works people don't realize not delilah all day you know what i'm saying a burden but it's they don't know it's a struggle it's about bees bees live for 30 days why because they work 12 hours a day bringing honey nectar back to their arm and they get exhausted they die so what is this it's a nobody gave them a mitzvah it's genetically embedded in them this is who i am they don't call it a struggle i do this is what i do until i die we by us instead of it being in the genes it's in the title but it's the same thing in everything people knock the generation for carrot it's it's the myla the myla today you could speak to an audience and then you see it right away that's it so so share the link with your friends you have a what's up group your family your friends nothing so why you complain you come here you're complaining nobody knows about it so do something about that everybody's ready everybody's ready it's ms you don't understand if something is not ms you have to be careful when something is ms you don't have to be afraid what i feel is what i feel is once everybody is getting comfortable that's when it's going to be appreciated that's where we're now don't wait don't wait no no it's aarov this is our job the mashiach told about [Applause] you never heard this writes a letter to his brother-in-law rosh hashanah of zion what does elias and hashamah mean we learned in the previous minds i mean flew up to mars ali means he saw the world in a clearer way right like we learned about shabbos and i went to the hecho mashiach and i asked him amo sai kasima veng vesta kimi so he answered three words futsu my name shouldn't stay by you in your chest or even in your basement it should spread to the most furthest space where is that now it doesn't only mean geographically it also means further space means in my toes in my it's a further space doesn't only mean in australia that too means in me and outside of me means monroe and lakewood and muncie and i feel like crown heights and williamsburg and australia too this is not sometimes your message you're going to infiltrate you have to infiltrate this is just epinemius it's everybody's ms it doesn't belong this doesn't belong to the altar this is not a bad laboratory campaign [Laughter] that everyone said the last thing he wants is that should become a party a party it's color war we're going to win over them the siddha will win over the misnakadam then it's not siddhas my rep is better than you're there but we won color war the blue team won the satmawan one bells one vision it's one our building is bigger it's all nice everybody should build their cahillas and beautiful buildings that's not that's not siddhas if one group won over another group it's not siddhis it's color war and it's good it's not the you build your building i build my building the vile everything goes up because i support because you have to support your families but my friend that's nothing wrong you ever your business have might be creativity is not for kids but that's not in the code of us because you're not gonna have one school for the whole class so you never have one show for the whole class so people shouldn't build should be one building for every jew shiners for everybody [Laughter] and they came exactly that's not the vart that's not a stitter there's a husband as a wife they have two different opinions it's not the issue that's not the problem that's not the issue and every minute minute you saw tara who they have their drachem and their mercedes that's something i could have said the moment it's about me versus you and i'm going to get them and we're going to win them and that's not this is that means if it's winning satmar or this one winning that one or the little sydney winning the literature it's not siddhas so this is the pinemius of everything the primous of everything so if it's my group infiltrating into your group and hijacking your group it's not it's missing the point you're wrong first of all there's innovating but everybody has a brother and a sister and a nephew and a niece and a brother-in-law and a what's-up group and a family and a responsa so the moment the moment it becomes a party the moment it becomes versus you're my flag it's not siddhis it's like you say the rambam belongs to svardham i can't learn rambam arashi it's for ashkenazim sorry foreign huh fine but nobody but nobody's going to say the rambam is not ours the rashi is not ours because i'm a swardy i can't learn nashi i can't learn abhinav gershom and gomorrah's because babylonians it doesn't work that way that's not the color war so i'm saying that this is not for a certain segment it's the founder of khabar so it's of the world so if it is this competition we're going to win over them it's not this you're missing the vert it's not the it's not it's not the altarebes information that he owns it's a frequency it's it's it's the frequency of ain't so if that resonates within the jew and the thirst for it is very obvious and this is the tikkun and it doesn't compete with anybody the moment it starts competing i'm i'll literally derek i'm a brisket i'm a mattel i'm a fine so what this is the frequency of ain't so if it's uh when you get to the nikuda of hashem who elecanor hashema keno then there's no competition ever went to get married so the madrid says right it actually brings that uh so the stone started to fight yeah who gets the head so hashem made it one stone so it says it measures there was 12 stones that got into a fight because kanegade based so far says when yahweh was going to to to get married so the first fight was which shave it is the right data right is it satmeh or is it cloisenberg is it the literature everybody else is you know fake juice so the banana shalom said this is not going to work the stones if you're in that space you're not going to be able to build a nation it has to be one heaven but one second where does the head go even if you have a mattress one mattress the head is only in one place yeah so the shot is there's still about what you never once said he says as miss ain't staying artnish with the coppers you understand if it's one rock if it's one man i don't care where the head is because exactly it's at some it's a natsume so the word is this is the nakuda is the evan the heaven it's the ancient it's not the belongs to me it belongs to you it belongs to him and if it belongs to me and i'm gonna get it into you then it's not then i'm not teaching the right thing belongs to every jew as much as it belongs to me revealed it he revealed it in the world it's not his bittle to ain't so if he became a conduit for it there was a but that's not that's not hatred but shaman basil didn't hate each other abaya and nova didn't hate each other they were very close friends a husband and a wife who disagree don't have to hate each other if i can't they can expand each other mahloykas in yiddishkai does never hate i'm going to start hating somebody because i should hate him says you shouldn't save hashamru friday nights i should start hating everybody who says he put it in the cinder what's in the sin and he says don't say it but he put it he says whoever says it yes that's how it works it's not he had a different my hello in other words on every indian he showed how you could say 49 ways that it's tommy and 49 ways that it's tired okay till next time have a beautiful day this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyshiva.net donate