The 3 Names of Pesach Reflect the 3 Steps to Freedom

the yeshiva.net the name pesak has really three names in our tradition we all call it P but if you go back to Kish it has a very different name four times in KES and the name of this holiday is not called P it's called then there's a second name for the holiday that was coined 22 Generations later by the an the an the men of the great assembly this includes the group of 120 great sages and spiritual leaders who rebuilt CL after the destruction of the bik in the beginning of the era of the second bik including we say in the beginning of he was from the last ones of the they were the ones who instituted the texts of the text of including for the and in the prayer for they coined a new phrase the season of our freedom the season of our Liberation our emancipation that's name number two and then there's the third name that is the name that's frequently used in gar in the talm in MN and gar and it became the name that's used by by the Jewish people the holiday of P why do we need three names what's wrong with one name why three names for and finally P when we talk about this holiday I say did you already get ready foras do I say did you get ready foras what are you doing for are you all ready for is the family coming to you are you going away are you going away from very few people use that term the term that we use is p are you ready for p did you finish cleaning for PES are you going away for PES who's coming for PES are you stressed about PES are you excited about PES that's the name we use what's the significance of this you might say well it's just three names but in everything is precise everything is Meaningful everything is purposeful the fact that this yam doesn't have one name but three names is profoundly meaningful but what is the meaning of it and also why in this order this order is also meaningful the name that Hashem gives this holiday the first name is that's step one later in history the an give it another dimension another flavor the season of our freedom and then later in Jewish history the third name emerges and that's of course the holiday of PES now in you have the name PES but that's only on the carbon PES the Passover over offering that was brought in the afternoon is called p and those days are also called P but as a holiday that defines all the eight days calling it P that's only a later development in Jewish history what's the significance of the three names and in this particular order in his he points out the meaning of the first two names and he says that in a very powerful loving relationship this is what he writes when a husband speaks about his spouse he loves to extol the virtues of his spouse what an unbelievable person his wife is and it's not just words but it's a real internal feeling we in a good marriage a special marriage a husband feels how lucky am I how privileged am I how content and special I feel that Hashem has given me the gift of this person in my life and conversely the same is the sentiment of the wife towards the husband in such a marriage so says that's why the to calls it mat and the Jewish people call it because when the husband wants to speak about the marriage he says Ah look what a wife I have it is incredible who can have even entertained the idea possibility of being married to such a spouse and when she speaks about her husband she's like wow can you imagine what a bliss what Bliss I am in to be married to such a person so when Hashem speaks about the holiday he calls it look at what the Jewish people do for this holiday they clean up their house from allets and they dedicate the H they dedicate their time to bake matah and the matah is uh is liberated from every last Speck of Leaven of K so he brings out the virtue the greatness of the Jewish people and as we say they followed me into a desert into a Wilderness without anything and all they went there was such a rush all they can take is as it says in the PK the dough on their uh on their shoulders and had to bake it swiftly without allowing the dough to ferment and become leaven and become ketz now you're going out with a family you're going out hundreds of thousands and millions of people you need prepar a you need time you need to make sure you have a a am of food but their faith their was so powerful they just rushed out which is why they had mat and not as the says and thus it represents the greatness of the Jewish people when the Jewish people want to talk about PES what do they they call it P PES represents what Hashem did it says the hasem Hashem leaped over the homes of the Jewish people on the night of the Exodus so Hashem calls it mat CU he wants to extol the virtues of his spouse and the Jewish people called it P because they want to extol the virtues and the greatness of what the did for the Jewish people on this holiday that's why there's the two names he does not get into the third name which is in the middle between these two names so here we're going to develop another angle another perspective in these three names we know that when the Jewish people were liberated from Egypt it's considered really like a birth the in which we read in the there's a whole chapter in chapter 16 where he Compares gas to pregnancy and the Gula the Redemption both the past and the future to the birth of a child the birth of a child is a whole new beginning because in Exile the Jewish people were enslaved they were subjugated and as the N says came he extracted a nation from among another Nation till then the Jewish people were completely slaves in other words subordinate subjugated surrendered to the abuse and the genocide and the persecution and the Savage suffering that the Egyptians par imposed upon them and was really the like extracting extracting a nation that was embedded that was concealed that was downtrodden that was rejected that was held down in Chains and shackles literally and configurative by their oppressors and allowing them to emerge as an independent Free Nation a nation that can choose and Forge its Destiny and its mandate a new people was born the says also in was like a conversion conversion is like a a a child is born it's like a newus a new entity so that was and it's not just because they became a nation yes till they were not really a nation they were a family they kept together they were targeted in terms of the fact that they were Jews pyate targeted them for persecution but they didn't have the identity of a Nation they couldn't without freedom without Liberty without being emancipated independent other people other other your oppressors your Masters Define who you are and what you are individually and collectively so is when they're liberated on every level physically spiritually geographically emotionally psychologically so now there is a new entity that's born there's something called am there's something called a nation of is that can begin its Journey that can that can embark on its uh on its Voyage so to speak both physically from it and Also spiritually the destiny of the Jewish people that's true on one level but it's not just they're a new entity because they were born that's true they were born they became a people they became a free people they were born it's also its culmination was M as the says buts when you take the Jewish people out of Egypt you will come to this mountain in other words the ultimate culmination of leaving MIT was which happened seven weeks later and that's the reason that the only holiday in Judaism that doesn't have a date is every other H holid has a date PES is the 15th of niss sukus is the 15th of TI is the 10th of TI KH is the 25th of k p is 14th of other every holiday has a date sh doesn't have a date sh in fact the gor says it could be H and V and Z it's the 50th day after you count 49 days from the second day of PES so that we're times in the past that could be one day in the month or another day of the month or another today there's already a fixed calendar so is always on Z but it's not essentially how the holiday was set up in the time when R can fluctuate between one day and another day sh could be another day in the month because Shu doesn't have a fixed day shu is always relative to pesak you count from the second day of pesak 49 days the 50th day is always that's why there's always an interesting question about if somebody passes the International Date Line line between PES and let's say you fly through the Pacific to Australia after pesak or you fly back so you either lose a day or you gain a day so the question is when do you do Shu do you do Shu like everybody else or perhaps your 49 days may not be over yet because you have to count another day so then your sh would start only a day later or the other way around you gained the day so your 50th day is earlier so your sh was what happened a day earlier it's a very fascinating question and and it's all because doesn't have a fixed date why is sh the only one that doesn't have a fixed date because p is not complete till was the completion of P it's not a separate holiday in Med it's called it's the culmination of PES like is the end of sukus is the end of PES why is the end of PES because it's not just the Jewish people were freed you could be free but towards what what what type of identity do you have who are you in order to be free you have to know who you are because if not there's a new form of slavery and that is I could become a slave to various instincts within myself so I may be free from my oppressor but the oppressor inside of me I may not be free of so shu is really the culmination of because it's what crafted the identity of the Jewish people and it transformed them not just into a people but what you would call a to Nation an to a to folk a nation of to this mountain so that is the identity of the Jewish people it's a nation of writes and he lived in the eth in the 10th Century the 9th century in Ra was one of the of the time in Babylonia present day Iraq and he writes in his philosophical work our nation is not a nation only do and through the T in other words the very identity what connects a Jew from Australia to a Jew from Moscow to a Jew from adessa the Jews who are still in Odessa to a Jew from South America to a Jew from Mexico City to a Jew from New York what's the connection for thousands of years Jews were not always in the same country so what connects a Jew from one nation to another nation and the answer is both historically and spiritually and the mitzvas this identity this mandate turned the Jewish people into a nation because in terms of history and in terms of a political identity the Jewish people most of our history weren't in the same land Americans are Americans because we live in the United States of America and Australians are Australians because they live on the soil of Australia but most of our history unfortunately we didn't live together in our homeland and yet Jews still felt like Jews we were connected we're one people what makes us a people if you don't have a Homeland and you're not United by that Homeland what makes you a people so gave the answer if you're going to use the traditional definition of nationhood you're not going to be able to find the identity of the Jewish people it's going to fall apart so the answer is that's Ra's very very powerful historical answer in the Middle Ages when Jews were dispersed all over the world and today even more than then so as the Jewish people are born they're literally born a new from a nation of slaves to a people destined to be chosen by Hashem to change the world as they're born into a new identity as they emerge into a new ident literally like a baby emerging from the womb now you have a new person the baby was there before also the baby was as the says a fetus is considered part of the mother later of course defeated the child still needs the mother but the child is a person is a self-contained human being and sooner or later we're going to see how self-contained they are in terms of personality and disposition and physiological identity and spiritual identity psychological identity and so forth the Jewish people become a people a newborn people and independent people and also a people that's transformed into a new entity which is is the entity of T both as an individual every Jew as an individual and every Jew as part of the collective this is an a nation of the says that when you teach somebody it's like you have given them you have birthed them that's why mha students are considered his children why the PK says because when you teach somebody tell it's like you birth them you birth them into a new entity because the Jewish people are a very nation of T now all births all transformations consist of three stages every birth whether literal or figuratively involve three phases and those are the three names of this holiday the three names are not just incidental there's three names why not give it three names the three names represent the three phases of every true transformation from one entity into a completely new entity what would be called a m a new entity there's three phases probably in English the best way to describe them is self the first would be surrender the second would be uh self-actualization and the third would be self-transcendence or maybe self-abnegation self-actualization and self-transcendence and I think to understand this with pesak it would be helpful to give an idea from the world of ideas when a true teacher a true Master a true Mentor a true pedagogue wants to inculcate or wants to impart to a real authentic disciple student talmid tala child pupil a really new idea not just repeating you know as they say same old same old but really a new idea you want to impart a new Consciousness what we call today a paradigm shift a new way of thinking a new way of looking at something a real new idea which is a form of birth it's a form of birth we call it you know an epiphany I I birthed a new idea this this biological birth which requires shouldn't I don't have to lecture here about this which requires a lot of effort and is very painful as tells but there's so many different types of birth a birth of a new idea of a new Consciousness is is a very serious process and it's not a simple process and when the teacher wants to do that for the student there's going to be three phases Albert Einstein once made a very profound comment and I quote quote a problem cannot be solved from the same level of thinking in which it was created you got that a problem cannot be solved from the same level of thinking in which it was created and yet do I have any other way of thinking now I often want to solve a problem the problem is to solve a problem I have to get out of the mode which created a problem or which allows for the problem to continue I may have not created it but I'm allowing it to be maintained and that shift is anything but simple because for a person to discover or comprehend a completely new idea I often have to make a radical departure for my previous way of thinking about things for me to experience a really New Vision again I'm not talking about just repeating the same old idea but to experience a new vision A New Perspective a new depth a new level of Consciousness intellectually viscerally emotionally on any level I need to really be humble and humility is one of the harder things in the world humility doesn't just mean that I don't come across as Hoy and arrogant and narcissistic and Bloated and inflated or any other word you want to use for an ego that's out of whack I may behave nicely I may be a gentleman or a gentle woman gentle as gentle man or gentle woman as two words gentle which is where gentleman comes from of course but I'm talking about internally you know there is external humility person is humble they behave nicely behave respectfully but that doesn't mean that internally I'm really humble internal humility could be much much harder CU internal humility is really saying goodbye to what I'm familiar with in terms of who I am it's what we spoke before PM if you remember about y everybody processes their own identity through the tools that they have which tell them who they are and for me to embrace a new eye that I'm unfamiliar with is very risky it's it's very scary that's what real humility is it's it's a it's a very serious process for me to really be able to put aside previous conceptions itating a certain part of myself that I'm so familiar with in fact there's voices in me that say that's dangerous don't do that what is it going to be replaced with which is why you cannot really be humble without deep deep reassurance without a deep deep sense of confidence that this humility is going to lead to real growth to Healthy Growth rather than real obliteration that's why some people are very scared to be humble there is a fear to be really humble because if I open myself up on that level if I empty out my vessel from everything will it be filled with something meaningful or will it be filled with something that's going to hurt me so maybe it's much safer to keep my vessel full and not empty it for anybody or anything at least at least I know what's there and there's no space for anything else if you want to turn me into what's called in gar clay reikon an an open womb so to speak speak a vessel a container that could contain a new vision a new idea a new experience it's going to take a lot of Courage from me because if not my old way of thinking is going to interfere with my assimilation with my integration of a new idea there's a famous expression in garas an empty vessel can contain can receive a full vessel can't receive they tell a story that there was a student he was a spiritual seeker and he traveled the world to come to his master and he comes to his master and he sits down and he says I'm ready to give everything to learn from you teach me teach me what I don't know teach me about life teach me about myself teach me about purpose teach me about authenticity teach me everything and the teacher says of course but before we begin would you like a cup of tea he says of course I would appreciate a cup of tea I journeyed very far so he takes the cup and he fills it up with tea and it's filled to the top and the teacher continues to pour from the kettle he's pouring and pouring and pouring and at this point the cup is just overflowing and this and the floor starts flooding and he says my teacher stop stop stop and he just continues until the whole Kettle is empty there's nothing to pour anymore he says what are you doing he say says well that's the problem we have the problem we have is that your cup is very full your cup this cup not just this cup there's two cups right is very very full which is beautiful which is wonderful but you're not ready for any new water a you're not ready for it you're going to have to empty out your cup to be able to receive new water cuz if not the water I pour is just going to go right over right over the cup and it's completely not going to be internalized you know sometimes you see a person says you know I want to learn let's learn something teach me something and and the person is sincere but they don't know that they're insincere not because they're insincere but they're simply not capable so whatever I learn whatever I hear I'm just going to put into my previous paradigms I already have my filing you know when you have filing cabinets you remember those days and now you get an invoice or you get a bill and you have to find the right folder right about the right theme and the right topic and you put it in the right place and you close the filing cabinet and it's safe well our brain is made up of lots and lots of filing cabinets in fact a 100 billion of them they're called neurons we have 100 billion filing cabinets more organized than any system that any human being has created it's God's filing cabinet but we're the ones who manage it and we're the ones who format it and we do it every day of our lives and we call it neural pathways and we connect the filing cabinets so very often I hear something I find the right filing cabinet and I put it in but I'm always putting it in to a preexisting filing cabinet to a pre-existing folder to a pre-existing theme and that way nothing is really challenging me I can't become a new person I can't develop a new sense of Consciousness why I'm just fitting it into the previous K that exists which is already full my brother told me that somebody once came to ask his advice about something and it was a very personal matter my brother said you know that people have blind spots you know when we drive even if you have a clean and good rearview mirror there there are blind spots that you do not notice so he says you know it's even more so emotionally we have blind spots things we don't see the mishna says this week's par all leprosy aen is allowed to examine and see if he's t or besides his own so there's a famous interpretation homolytically people can see the the blemishes the leprosy everywhere besides my own and not because I'm dishonest and not because I'm trying to lie that's also possible but simply because I am I say a prisoner cannot liberate themselves from prison if I'm wearing the the the Cuffs the chains I can't liberate myself so my brother said you know that people have blind spots is it possible that you may also have a blind spot and he says of course I know but I know where my blind spots are I know what my blind spots are so of course right so that's even a worse blind spot because I'm even aware of my blind spots I am so sophisticated I'm aware of my problems oh now we have the real problem at least if I wasn't aware somebody made me aware I can be aware but if I'm aware of everything then what am I not what am I not aware of so a big psychiatrist I know in Connecticut so he once told me that he had a patient who came to his first session and started to speak and he took out his notebook he's a psychiatrist and a psychotherapist and a psychologist all and this person takes out his pad or his notebook and he starts taking notes so he says why you taking notes he said I want to retain what you said he said no no no no don't take notes just listen he says but I'm going to forget he said if 1% just goes in organically it will be better than all the notes notes that you take because the notes that you're taking is again you're trying to organize the material into your pre-existing uh pads into your preexisting notebooks into your pre-existing filing cabinets but can you allow yourself just to be open to be vulnerable and this is not an external process it's a very very deep internal process there's a famous metaphor that Heisenberg gave Einstein it's about physics but the metaphor is very powerful he said that there was a fisherman who wanted to ascertain the size of fish in the world so he lowered a net in the Pacific for a few months and he lifted up the net and he came to the conclusion and he made an announcement that there are no fish in the world smaller than 10 in he was the laughing stock of the scientific Community but he really wasn't lying because the holes in the net were 10 in so there were no fish smaller than 10 in so from his perspective he was very honest and he was intellectually accurate too he just never thought that the holes in the net we're just not capable of acknowledging that there are other fish that are smaller than this how often does this happen the way everyone experiences the world through their own net through their own tools my intellectual emotional visceral tools my upbringing my genetic makeup my cerebral makeup my life experiences my neural Pathways and what happens if my Net has serious Gap gaps and serious holes in them they will reach certain conclusions not because I'm trying to lie because I'm simply incapable of seeing things significantly in a different way there are really no fish that are smaller because those are the holes in my net but very few of us will take the time or have the courage or even sometimes know how to revisit the net I come to conclusions but am I ready to revisit the instruments I'm using in order to Define reality because the instruments I'm using to Define reality will determine the nature of reality that I Define it's clear what I'm saying right but it's harder to implement the reason it's hard to is not because I don't want I may want to I simply may not be capable of it I'm too invested emotionally and sometimes subconsciously I'm too invested I can't really hear anything new and therefore I just go back back to the same information I'll reduce whatever you tell me into things I know it may enhance my filing cabinets but it's not ready I'm not ready to create real real new neural Pathways and therefore I'm not ready for anything new so the first stage in birthing a new idea a a new child a new Consciousness a new identity is really profound humility what we call profound B profound self-abnegation in a very deep way uh some time ago after one of these classes somebody came over to speak to me and uh she was discussing with me the terrible that her daughter is displaying towards her and towards her husband and towards the other children of the family and she says you know I don't know about this generation but I come from a generation where was just not tolerated and she started to tell me what this girl tells her and tells her father and tells her siblings and I'm not not going to tolerate and I don't care what anybody tells me I have the vision and the values of T and is not allowed and you cannot live in my house if you have and she really described this with a lot of drama now I I happen to know this you know the family from another angle from another perspective and I knew that this girl is suffering very very severely emotionally she's internally broken so what this mother is calling kah which it certainly sounds likeah I understood that very well from a different perspective not only is it notah it's basically an outcry of of dispear of of resignation of life that feels so worthless and meaningless so I told her I said is it may be possible that it's notah maybe it's just this girl is so emotionally broken why should she be broken I'm a good mother I'm a good mother and my husband has worked so hard and then I realized that she will not be able to hear huh she won't and it's not her fault she became so defensive to tell her that her daughter was emotionally broken meant that she was a horrible person now that's a lot that's a lot she couldn't even hear maybe it's not it's really not about you because her daughter she was so intertwined with the fate of her daughter and in her mind she meant so well she meant so well and she's like you know at some point she just thought it to C what do I want I want my daughter should be a a good daughter what are you what are you saying and I just don't want her to have we have to all realize these things because we all do it to ourselves in our own way I become so defensive because I'm trying to protect what I think is noble and holy and good and and if I don't everything is going to be destroyed and I have to say I give people who can go beyond this a lot a lot of credit because it takes a lot of emotional courage to be able to say you know I don't have to be defensive this is not a verdict about me this is not a verdict even about my child this is really just tuning in to what is happening and asking myself what God wants for me at this moment what is my SCH what is my opportunity what is my gift it's a different way of thinking but it takes a lot of lot of humility and sometimes people don't acquire this humility until they try everything else huh too late hopefully it's not too late but uh sometimes things progress progress very dramatically now frankly the greatest obstacle to humility is not arrogance fear the greatest obstacle to humility is fear because again if I empty my vessel what's going to replace it you know who's going to replace it will it be any better than the first idea will it be any better that's why you have to know who you're abnegating yourself too because really just to create an open space for any mishas to fill that's not good humility that's humility you should be afraid of sometimes when people suffered deep wounds their brains are not ready to hear anything new I'm not going there I created a coping mechanism of safety and I'm not ready to open myself up to a new Consciousness it's too dangerous remember coping mechanisms took months or years to develop my brain has its filing cabinets it's now safe I may be miserable but I'm safe at least in my own perception and now you really want to you really want to uh challenge that you want to shake things up you want me to empty out my filing C cabinets we call it I'm not ready for that this could this can be so overwhelming and so scary and that's why a person really really needs to be able to come from a place of of deep courage and strength and compassion to know that through this type of humility real growth will happen real transformation will happen I have a friend and he Shar with me it was something very moving he had a very very difficult marriage for many years and he didn't know why he's a good person and she's a good person and they tried hard and they're really wonderful people and he was just sharing with me how difficult his marriage was for many many years and he said one day he was talking to a marriage therapist who he trusted he's a very very good person and in Middle the therapist looks at him and says You must be so Ang angry you must be so angry at your spouse at your wife you must be burning up with so much anger and fury in Hebrew there's an expression he had an epiphany The Epiphany was that it was true but he could never tell himself that he was angry because he's a gentleman and he he couldn't acknowledge that such a base and negative and toxic emotion would be eating up at his Mar on would be eating up at his marriage and eating up at his heart and eating up at his identity he simply couldn't acknowledge it so it was there it was driving his reactions to his wife it was driving his conversations it was driving his behavior it was driving his relationships but he couldn't have any control over it cuz he did not allow himself to have awareness of it because it was too strange too base it's all this we speak so much against anger could it really be that that's what I'm suffering from it can't be intellectual I'm cerebral I'm a gentleman I'm a thought out person I'm a nice guy ask my friends nobody thinks I'm angry and he told me he turned to this he say how do you know it's almost like you know you hit the spot he never knew how did you know therapist says I didn't know but you understand everything I explained to you you're trying hard and it's not working there must be terrible repressed anger that is playing itself out and is jeopardizing everything we're trying to do and he told me that common changed his life because he could acknowledge it in other words you could speak to somebody for three years and tell them wonderful and they're trying to understand they don't understand a word you're saying intellectually they understand it but in a in a visceral way they don't get it they can't get it it's not their fault I cannot absorb this I cannot allow it to impact me there is too much fear my coping mechanism has canceled out any of these ideas I have to to live according to this modality and it could be completely subconscious this person's anger is what Justified his his survival it was justified his behavior it was absolutely A coping mechanism how many people have such types of coping mechanisms you don't have to raise your hands here in this room but just think about it and what if I have it and I don't even know I have it but I see the impact I see how things are contaminated in my relationship I think I see how things are toxic I see how people who love me are hurting me at least in my imagination people I love and I'm hurting them at least the way they're experiencing it what's going on what's the Trap I'm in this is the first step of all growth and without this complete humility this complete surrender this complete self-abnegation which is dangerous from a certain perspective there's never any real New Birth any new idea any any real transformation now I do have to say that this is really all in gamar the gamar says that when the students it's shabas when the students sit in front of a Reb in front of their teacher the opening is they sit with with a with reverence the lips drip with a sense of deep deep a a and reverence what is this a and reverence about or and reverence is not afraid that you're going to punish me or and reverence means when somebody is AED by something my ego is out of the way when there's reverences I'm not trying to Give opinions you know why children remember things so well and adults don't you ever have your child remind you something you said to them when they were 4 years old like 20 years later and you like I don't remember what happened yesterday right the reason is because children actually listen adults have a very hard time listening even when you're listening to something are you listening to it or you having opinions about it so sometimes I'll be sitting at a lecture right I'm not listening I'm saying wow this is good this I heard already this is boring I'm going to use this I'm not listening I'm having opinions about it in other words I'm introducing I'm asserting my own ideas into what's being said children are like wet sponges that absorb everything they really and that's why they remember it cuz the tool the prerequisite for memory is to empty my mind and just become a complete complete humble humble vessel without any any opinions that's very difficult to do the older we get the more established we get why would I even want to go there especially if my life is working quote unquote if my life is not working I'm forced to go there but if my life is working it becomes even harder and yet that's the real prerequisite for everything however theor also says that before you would begin this year he would say a joke everybody would laugh and then they would sit with awe and he would begin the shear because before the humility has to always come trust if I have trauma I can't be humble I can't listen to something new it's too dangerous first I have trust and that's what the anecdote represented it put the teacher in a position what does umor do why is humor such an effective method in communication you know why not just because people like to laugh it's because psychologically it shows the student that the teacher and the student are connected we can laugh at the same jokes we can cry at the same experiences there's a sense of humanness that's shared there's a sense of camaraderie there's a sense of kinship before I can really humble myself self abnegation empty out my cup of tea to be open I have to trust that you're going to put a d not you're not going to put a dagger there if this is my coping mechanism how can I let go of it what happens if I let go of it and what happens now I'm like my life is so threatened so there always has to be that sense of kinship trust before the communication that's but after it's all about humility after that I have to be able to open myself up completely without trust I'm just not going to do it because it's too scary it's too dangerous that's why the says in that once the process starts the left Rejects and the right Embraces and the gar says it even about our children with a child the ram says you have to motivate them positively that's true you need the trust you need the kinship but then when I want to teach something really the first thing is there's the left arm which rejects not rejects the person rejects the need to be able to block any new information rejects the need for me to be able to control my information the ability to really really be able to surrender that's an art and it's a great gift and it's a gift when somebody can do this continuously in their life so the birthing of one idea can yet lead to the birthing of yet another idea the gar says I think P or that was making alah from B to and before he did he fasted 40 fasts and according to one version 100 in order to forget talmud B so that he could learn talmi which is very strange the idea is that he understood that the two ways of learning gar were different ways and as long as he was in the old Paradigm he wouldn't be able to absorb the new one it's not just different books and texts nobody says I'm going to forget the old books I could learn the new book on the contrary by remembering the old you'll have a better understanding of the new but that's only if I'm learning text if it's a new paradigm if it's a new way of looking at the world if it's a new Consciousness I actually have to forget so imagine ABA fasts a 100 fasts to forget talud B so that he should be able to absorb absorb t but this teaches you about what it means to go through that metamorphosis intellectually emotionally spiritually it's like the seed that decomposes in the earth in order to murf from a seed into a tree you could have a seed it's a wonderful to have a seed but it's never going to transform into a splendid tree or bush or flower shrub or plant whatever it is Legume vegetable without first decomposing in the ground decomposition is all about humility that's the first name of PES as we will see H but that's not where education stops I'm humble I'm empty I'm just like this container this empathetic witness raim which is the Hebrew word for the womb that contains the child that absolute ability to be able to be OD to be to experience that reverence not the need to interfere with my static with my ego with my blind spots to be able to really open up my net or close the holes in my net and be truly open to what the other person is saying which in relationships is what real listening is about you know real listening as you know is not easy real listening means I listen to what you are saying I don't listen to what your words are doing to me which is how many of us listen I'm not listening to you I'm listening to what's happening I like how do you say that it's not true what you just said it's not true I wasn't listening to you I was listening to me which is good but listening to you is a whole different process and it's it's hard because my triggers take over and I have to argue and I have to convince you and I have to prove you wrong this is this is like it's it's real emotional work this is inner this is real AV it's real emotional work to be able to go into that space we now come to the next stage the next stage is if all a person has is absolute humility in a way it really means that at the moment I don't exist I'm just completely open to something new but I it can't remain there I have to be able now to approach it with my identity I have to be able to absorb it within my vessel within my K yes I have to empty my cup my cup and my cups that the tea should come in but if my cup is broken if there's a hole in my cup what's going to happen with the new tea the new tea is just going to pour out so yes I have to empty my cup but my cup also has to be a cup it has to be a clay sh and has to be a complete vessel if somebody perforates it it's not holding on to any beverage any liquid so if the entire Paradigm of a person is I know nothing I just want to learn I'm humble it's the prerequisite it's the Baseline it's the foundation it's that a it's that B it's that self-abnegation but one needs to now come to the second stage and that is I want to be able to absorb it for this I need to use my tools I have my mind and my heart and my body and my nervous system and my brain to be able to absorb it and I have to use those tools I have to use my net true I had to humble myself I had to empty it out to be able to absorb something new but if it's just I am not here which is stage one I am not here okay but now the eye needs to resurface itself and absorb the idea absorb the Consciousness really bring it into my vessel bring it into my cup bring it into my heart bring it into my body it's the humility that allows me to hear something that transcended me to hear something that I didn't know to open myself up to a new Consciousness but now is the process of internalizing it of making it part of me that's stage two too in the process so this is where the K is raikon the K is empty but the kosa has to be a k sh a complete vessel a whole vessel if you have a nek if a person for example starts feeling I'm worthless I didn't know anything I'm so stupid where does that leave me I won't be able to grow it just leaves me becoming a humble shata a doormat a valueless person so there's no growth so it's great you have this great humility I acknowledged my ignorance so I acknowledge my ignorance I know nothing what that often leads to is terrible guilt terrible shame terrible self-loathing terrible self-hatred self-abnegation that undermines me it doesn't make me conducive to growth it's like if that seed decomposes in the earth and there's nothing else then it's just decomposition so you become Earth we say in at the end of my soul should be like offer like Earth like dust for everybody open my heart in your soes Earth is something that's indestructible and it's something that always promotes growth so doesn't mean I become offer just step step step on me that's it I'm offer no it's the humility that then allows me to grow to turn into a tree is not leading to the my heart is becoming more open to your then this seed it's like somebody buries a seed and then they just disregard her or they destroy it you need the rain the water and the soil and the photosynthesis the sunlight in order to take this seed and give it the nutrients that now really allow it to grow to metamorphosize itself to transform itself so I need to integrate the new truth into my system into my system to just break a system that's not going to lead you anywhere yes humility again it's always the Baseline because if not there's no growth there's no new Consciousness but now I need to learn how to grow into this how to change my Outlook how to develop myself how to challenge my behaviors my habits I need to believe not only that I was wrong I also have to believe that I can get it right it's hard to believe it's hard to achieve this step to really think that maybe my perception was very narrow that's that's a big that's a big that's very courageous for be able to that for that mother to graduate the conception of I'm not going to tolerate it it to the perception of what does this girl really really need it takes a lot it takes a lot of courage and just in parenthesis I know you understand this because you hear me enough but this is not condoning or saying that is a beautiful and wonderful thing it's just trying to identify what is going on and not just see words as Hollow but seeing them as symptoms of what's happening in a person's soul that's of course my point and understanding the difference between that's coming from deliberate display of arrogance toah that's coming from an outcry of real Despair and resignation never mind depression or mood disorder and help and and and and and outcry for help so yes I need to believe that my perceptions have to be challenged but now I have to be able to embrace it if I remain humble and attentive I can grow into this I can develop new neural Pathways my net can close up the gaps the holes can become smaller I can pick up the other fish I can identify the blind spots and therefore the blind spots don't have to control me I could see what's going on in my brain I can observe what's going on in my nervous system and therefore they don't have to control me so step one absolute humility surrender of my ego on every level including my fear including surrender of the fear to believe that I have fear including surrender of the idea that I have to believe that there may be a new idea that I don't know about I have to surrender that that's like I know nothing I'm an empty vessel it's like complete B there's a self- nullification there but which is a very healthy one it's a very very good one I'm like a blank what do they call it a blank slate right like a blank slate in the P it's called you know new fresh parchment it says in in per Elisha says if you teach a child it's ink written on Fresh paper if you teach an older person it's it's like a paper you know it's been erased already many times and you write again and again and again it's different that's what it says in P the obvious question is first of all what's thees everybody knows children are so fertile you know you could teach them languages you teach them so many things because they're young and impressionable like wet sponges and the older you get it's harder to learn new languages you can't teach an old whatever New Tricks so that's that's how it is I mean you really need to pickas for this and also why would re why would why would the Tana want to denigrate somebody who's already older you know there are Jews who didn't have an opportunity to learn when they were young RAB AA was 40 and he didn't know anything there are people in our generation they're 30 and 40 and 50 and they discover things like why tell them oh it's just ER it's an erased piece of paper it's been written and Rewritten and Rewritten you could say it's so important to teach little children bring out the positive but it's almost like denigrating if you're old you know fine an alar whatever you know over the hill you're not really going to absorb it like why would the Pras want to do that it's a beautiful interpretation that La once shared on this and he said very something very powerful it's not talking about biological years it's talking about an attitude I could be 60 years old and learn like a child and I could be a youngster and learn like an old person it's an attitude do I approach t with a n with a new piece of paper fresh Blank Slate or no I approach it with a I already have a lot of information here I'll erase it a little bit so you could write new things but I don't have that freshness that openness that's what the pr is trying to teach trying to teach the real way of obser inra the real way of not just learning an idea but transforming yourself becoming a person that embodies the True Values of what T is in a very deep internalized and eternal way I have to become that child no matter my age I have to be that Nash to open myself up that gutted landscape it's like building a house you ever tried building a new house without gutting and people do it cuz it's cheaper but what happened s all the alter problems all the old problems right it's cheaper it's easier but it's the short long ways not the long short way sometimes I have to gut everything I need a beer canvas to be able to create a beautiful piece of art but if I'm already older I don't have a beer canvas my brain already has its filing cabinets that's why it's the step two step one step two I engage my intellectual faculties to absorb and digest the new idea I can't throw the canvas I can't turn the canvas into something that doesn't exist on the contrary I want to get out of my confinements and believe that I have potential to absorb this new information this new Consciousness which brings on to step three and step three is the actual full-fledged transformation the gar says inar till 40 years a person doesn't really master and internalize the true wisdom of their because told the Jewish people after 40 years has not given you a heart to know eyes to see and ears to hear until this day 40 years in so the G says inar in the beginning page five that it takes sometimes 40 years to be able to really understand what you you learned 40 years ago which is an incredible Insight I could sit by my Reb 40 years ago and hear things and I understood them or I think I did I grasp them I appreciated them I internalized them based on my tools but sometimes the chalant has to cook for 40 years I don't mean the physical Chen that shouldn't cook for 40 years the wine you know the wine needs to age you take it out before 40 years it's just it's lacking that element 40 Years of something simmering on the on the on the stove you know 40 years that you're uh what's the word uh 40 Years of uh of being submerged in the waters of wisdom and going deeper and peeling off yet another layer of the onion yet another layer of the onion and then 40 years later ah now the teacher really really got to the core he really got to the EMS he really he really really mastered the the real profound idea here why why can't I learn it the first day I was a good student and the answer is because transformation is a process and these are the three phases of the process and in phase three the student really not only absorbs the idea of the teacher but he or she becomes a form of a teacher themselves there's an expression it's not just I absorb the information but my very identity becomes new it's like there's there's there's a new birth there's a real Recreation it's almost like the person was recreated in a completely new fashion in physics when you put pressure on something so pressure pressure pressure pressure it breaks breaks on an atomic level there's a certain form of pressure where actually the atomic structure can change the atomic structure actually changes there's like a whole numus you think pressure pressure will break it break it and then on on atomic level there's a type of pressure where it literally you become a new msus a new reality there's there's a new identity so it's where the student grows in to become like a replica Continuum of the teacher himself or herself it's a leader that doesn't only create students or followers but a leader that creates other leaders they themselves take responsibility you become that person you become an embodiment of that cont I an embodiment of that Vision the person really becomes a completely transformed human being so as I say goodbye to the old and I emerge into the new slowly does a transformation where the person becomes a new matsus a new person somebody who who operates thinks functions and lives in a different mode from a different vantage point from a much deeper more expansive infinite perspective we always talk about the fact that the person could actually become an amb I see myself as an ambassador of in this world I'm not anymore a cup where things get stuck but I become a channel we once spoke about the difference between a k a vessel and a channel a Seine in a vessel a vessel is always contained I may have seven ounces I may have 9 ounces I may have 16 ounces I may have a gallon I may have a 40 but still contained a channel doesn't have a limit because it's a channel Hashem is infinite when I become a channel for Hashem there's no container there's no cup anymore I'm a channel as long as the channel doesn't get plugged as long as a seiling doesn't get plugged and it's interesting in a clay an earn wear vessel is susceptible to Tuma a SE a pipe is not susceptible to T why even though it contains water because it's not made to contain it's made to transmit a person is made from Earth we Sayer we are wear vessels when a earth vessel is a cup it's a k it could become T when it's a channel it can't become tmy because I'm a channel for Infinity I'm an ambassador of Hashem so I'm an ambassador of infinite love Infinite light infinite wisdom infinite healing infinite authenticity but that's a transformation that happens in a person going from one stage to another stage to third stage so stage number one is saying goodbye humility stage number two is humility doesn't mean I don't exist I'm a just get rid of me I'm I'm garbage that's not going to go anywhere it's bringing my reality into this new idea appreciating it integrating it and then allowing myself to really become one with it internalizing it to the point that I can become redefined as a person so my very identity now becomes a channel and that growth is infinite because Infinity doesn't stop growing so it's not like Oh I'm a channel tomorrow I can yet be a deeper Channel and yet a deeper Channel that's what Ain is that's what real Infinity is so now we understand beautifully the three names of the holiday of of Liberation the Yum when the Jewish people emerged into a new entity as individuals and as a collective they were born literally born born as a people and born as a numus as a nation of hasem a nation of T so we have three names and the three names evolve in a process the first name the second name is and the third name pesak because these three names really capture what the Yum of p and here again I used one name because that's the name we use what this holiday really represents in Jewish history the Jewish people went through these three phases every year we can go through these three phases and historically these are the three phases that represent all real growth all real Liberation all real birth all real transformation matah of course as has explained in many represents egolessness because mat is the unleavened bread it symbolizes physically that B that humility that self-abnegation and that's why the first thing the Jews had to do were in order to become a free people it's not easy to become a free people remember slavery exists on many levels and once it's a coping mechanism I don't want to leave we have in P MIM the concept of a who says I don't want to go it's not easy to be free I grew up in a particular neighborhood there was a particular guy he would walk around he would break cars of Windows and they would take him to prison and he would come out and he said I don't have nowhere to stay and I don't have anybody to feed me so he would break another window so he can go back to prison this was for him his copy mechanism now I assume most of us don't have exactly that type of craving or inclination but I may have much more sophisticated prisons more sophisticated prisons that keep me safe the bottom line is the common denominator is I'm Shackled I'm isolated I'm in solitary confinement for some people it's anger anger is their coping mechanism I promise you I see it all the time so they don't know what it is not to get angry because if I get angry at you it means I'm the good person you're the bad person I could feel righteous and I could say God really ruined my life with this person in my life and that's it wonderful I don't have to face my own trauma another person their coping mechanism is depression isolation now it it doesn't say It's A coping mechanism it says it's reality of course I'm angry how can I not be angry at such a horrible person I don't realize that it's my own coping mechanism to be able to feel like I'm a good person I'm safe I'm fine and I could continue in my Gus so therefore the first step is matah matah is flat matah is very humble I have to abnegate my previous self-de that takes a lot of humility I have to surrender completely because if I don't become a flat matah if I'm not ready to become deflated if I'm not ready to become egoless and sometimes people call matah tasteless relative to other forms of uh of food mat sometimes called it's called the bread of poverty there's a tastelessness to it I know when you're eating the matah everybody says this year the matah is delicious but still at your daughter's wedding you don't serve matah as the main dish there's a reason for it why because that's exactly what mat is humility is not supposed to be tasteful it's not about oh I really enjoy this concept that's not humility that's me enjoying it that's me having an opinion real humility is it's not about my enjoyment on the contrary if I'm enjoying it too much it's probably not a new idea if it's disturbing me if it's challenging me if you don't agree with me ah I said something if it's sitting so well inside of me if it resonates so comfortably it fits my comfort zones if it's too tasteful I don't know if it's matah is the bread of poverty there's a sense of poverty there's a sense of Yearning of pining I don't have it I can't control it it's something that's shocking me yes it's startling me it's overwhelming me that's not a bad thing even though we're not used to it it's the ultimate beginning of of of growth and let's face it some of us will fight till our last breath to hold on to our insecurities to our fears to our anger to our egos to our fakeness to our superficiality to our vanity I don't want to let it go because I will need to justify my dysfunction my narcissism my addictions my bad behaviors consciously and more often subconsciously why subconsciously because I'm trying to be a good person and I don't realize how I'm justifying it all so the first step is ham that's the name for this the first step of G is mat now we go to the second step and the second step is means the time of my Liberty the time of my ANP emancipation suddenly I discovered this is the ultimate Freedom the humility is not making me now a slave to somebody new I have now a new par in my life this is the ultimate form of self-actualization and that's humility that's good humility it's not dangerous humility it's the seed that turns into a tree it's the seed that's celebrating the fact that it can decompose so it can become a tree that's step step two the ability for a person to realize wow there's so much growth available my marriage can be so much happier and more peaceful my relationship with my children could be extraordinary my relationship with myself my relationship with my family my relationship with my parents with my siblings my relationship with my relationship with anybody and anything can be so much more broad so much more expansive I don't have to be a prison to my own blind spots a prison to my own biases a prison to my own net suddenly I become free my true eye can be emancipated because the true eye of a person is not a slaved eye it's not a depressed eye it's not an eye that has to cope it's an eye that's full of potential and full of creativity and full of love and full of Holiness and full of godliness and full of joy surrender doesn't destroy me it's all about setting me free and that's why there's a surrender that's dangerous and there's a surrender that's fulfilling a surrender that's dangerous is a surrender where somebody indeed can manipulate me and exploit me and that's why people are so afraid of surrender and for good reason especially if I've been used a manipulated before but in a real surrender a surrender that allows me ultimately to go out of my blind spots and touch the infinite this is the ultimate form of emancipation of of fulfillment so imagine when a person could reach a space where I'm not governed anymore by my Insanity by my addictions by my wounds by my traumas by my by my fears by my insecurities or any type of shackles they don't have to govern my life even if they exist I can become aware of them and then choose a different response I could respond rather than react I can actually begin to taste freedom and that's the second idea of what happens which is fulfilled by and that's why the G said the Mish says again which means the only person who's really free is somebody who's engaged in the learning of T now you might say you know in Yiddish when you say somebody is fry what does it mean fry means free in Yiddish and what does it mean somebody who NE who abandons T fry means I abandon and I'm free but in it says the opposite somebody once asked me he said really that's Freedom there's 630 Mitzvah every day there's obligations and there's limitations that's not free free means you're free you have no obligations nothing nobody imposes anything upon you you're a really emancipated person begins with means acceptance of a yoke in yish a y is a it sounds even better than a yoke a and a is heavy you know when they use a yoke they use on a yoke on an ax to plow there's a yoke that's called Freedom having a yoke on me having a washing machine on one shoulder and a washing machine and another shoulder what's the Yoke but the truth is that a person really needs to understand fundamentally what are saying when they say imagine a fish would say I want to be free so you tell the fish what do you want the fish says I want to tour the world do me a favor take me out of the water and allow me to tore the world or imagine a violin says I want to be free so he asked the violin how the violin says do me a favor untie all the cords untie all the strings so they can soar freely cuz I want to really be free or imagine a leaf on a tree says please allow me to be free cut me off the tree so I can fly away in Freedom I can roam the atmosphere of our planet freely or imagine a human limb that says do me a favor I want to be free I don't want to be confined and limited and have the Yoke of this brain controlling me why don't you sever me from the dictatorship of the brain running the organism so I can be free at last free at last we all laugh right why the leaf is going to die the limb is going to die and the rest of the body will suffer the fish is going to die free and mitz for a Jew means living a life that is consistent with my truest eye it's the ultimate self-actualization imagine somebody who suffers from serious depression but they have an A if they exercise every morning for an hour and a half even if you don't suffer from depression but this person really suffers from acute depression and when they exercise for an hour and I know such people they exercise for an hour and a half it really changes their day they're upbeat they're positive they're optimistic you all know these people and each of us even those of us that don't suffer from acute depression know how true this is with various things that we can do for ourselves now this person says no I need to be free don't tell me what to do I'm not exercising and their day is miserable they're angry at themselves they're angry at their kids they're angry at their spouse they're angry at in their job they're angry at the world or you say you know why don't you create a schedule for yourself every day do this for an hour and a half and you will be a free person you will be a free person because you will be able to be truly you you'll be able to live out your dreams your potentials you'll know who you are you'll feel your happiness your love your your your inner space for a Jew is not a yoke that destroys me that represses me when you really appreciate what mitv are whatever it is it's really if you understand your soul if you understand your body you know that this is a path it's a life to bring out the best in a person so that you could live the fullest life the most actualized life and if indeed a person feels that is repressing them it's destroying their marriage destroying their home it's destroying their attitude we have to ask what net are we using to define t which exists very often sometimes people their interpretation is skewed and it's misconstrued which is very tragic that's why the second name is man I had a student once who came to Yeshiva I was teaching in a Yeshiva in Brooklyn and there was a student who came he was a top student in NYU New York University and he decided to come learn Tyra and uh he was valid dictorian he was a very very very smart smart young man today he heads a Yesa Riva so I once asked him I said his name ISU Manuel I said what uh motivated you to leave behind you know he was he graduated top high top grades in high school valoran and got scholarship full scholarship in the NYU University becoming a psychologist comes from a conservative Jewish Family conservative as in conservative versus Orthodox I said what felt why did he come here his parents were not pro it at least in the beginning so he told me that when he was four years old his mother asked him what do you want for a birthday he said I want a goldfish so she bought him a tank with a goldfish and put it in the dining room and he told me I would watch this goldfish all day when I came home from school and I always found it to be so bored and depressed it would stay in one place for hours and then like after 6 hours it would swim to the other side and remain in a depression there for 12 hours and I felt so bad and I decided that the goldfish needs a friend he told this to me he says I put my hands into the water I opened the tank I put my hand in I took out the Goldfish and sure enough the Goldfish started to jump up and down with so much excitement and I realized wow the fish is so excited to have a friend to have a comrade and I put it down on the ground to go tell my mother how brilliant I am and he say I put it down on the ground and it's flapping up and down aink Mama sh it's dancing and I go to the kitchen I say mommy you have to see how excited the goldfish is to have a friend she says what happened I took it out and it's jumping all over the place she said oh no and she took me back into the dining room as the Goldfish gave one more sprung one more leap and then it was yal it was dead it was done done and he looked at me and he said and then I learned one of the important lessons of my life you could sometimes look at two people and one person is jumping all over the place every night they're somewhere else every day they're somewhere else their life is always changing they're traveling they're running here and they're running there geographically emotionally psychologically look at another person they're like in the same spot in the water for days maybe for years and you assume one person is Bored numb lifeless depressed the other person is so vibrant and happy but really in his words one of them is jumping all over the place because he's busy dying and the other person could be in one place because they're busy living and he says that's why I came here to Yeshiva it was such a profound observ this happened out many years ago two decades ago and I still remember when he told me those words he says that's why I'm here that fish was not depressed that fish was fully aligned with its own source of water says in Jew is like a fish and to is like water holds that in a mikah fish are not a the is not like him but the idea is fascinating because fish are so completely connected to water they are like the water about a certain they like about another concept this is the idea of that when the Jew enters into the newus of T the Divine calling for my life it's like the fish the water and me become one to the point it's not a this is my Essence and there's nothing as liberating as living a life that expresses your essence and there's nothing as enslaving as torturous as living a life that's alien to my Essence I would say that one of the hardest things in the world is trying to be who I'm not isn't that very hard probably one of the hardest things in life it requires so much mental space so much mental energy it takes up so much of my of my life of my energy trying to convince myself that I am somebody else especially if I have to do it subconsciously behaving in a way that allows me to make believe that I am somebody else it's very difficult the gar says that aidas per in Egypt what made AAS what's called per per means uh crushing labor that par used to give women's work to men and men's work to women so the MAF say one second but one of them work hard than the other one you'll decide who so the other gender should have been happy wow I get your job it's so much easier the answer is easy and hard is not about how hard I'm working it's about if the work is expressing who I really am if the work is not expressing who I really am you could put me on a couch and say do nothing you're a free person but it's the most depressing thing for me trying to behave like the person I'm not trying to be the person I'm not trying to fit into another system that's not really me means to live a life in which I'm fully aligned with me it brings out the best in me you'll take away a piano for Mozart and say you're free not to play piano anymore we'll give you all the money you need you can also take a person and put him in a Corral what is it called where they put horses uh a Corral and you have all the food in the world I have all the hay or whatever I call hay and I just stay there for the for the horse it's giden it's paradise and for the person it could be the worst fate in the world why my life is easier a is when I'm forced sometimes by myself or by social pressure or by my addictions or by my instincts or by my pain to be somebody I'm not so therefore is the second stage where the humility the B allows me to integrate it and realize this is who I am this is my msus this is the best this is the best which then brings a person to the third stage and that's P so you go from to where I experience this as my Liberty to P what does p mean p means to leap over jumped over he leaped over Rashi says the whole of P everything should be done like jumping over leaping oopsie exactly and they even stayed intact wow I'm glad my glasses didn't have to go through the three stages sometimes they do after Stage B I can come to P because stage two is really integration where I start integrating the new msas the new Consciousness the new identity it should be able to I should realize that this is My ultimate calling this is my ultimate Destiny there's a teenager who once told me that he's struggling with because it has so many limits on a person's life i d in the morning and I D in the afternoon I D in the evening and there shabas and there yam I said listen there's only two ways of looking at it imagine you come to a nutritionist and the nutritionist tells you this you can eat and this is really toxic for your body and you come out of the appointment and you say you know this nutritionist is a dictator he's a tyrant he's a cruel person he's trying to limit my life or you could say this nutritionist is trying to optimize my health trying to make sure that I have more energy trying to maximize my time my mental space so I should feel better I should operate on the highest level of energy the diet of yides I told this teenager it's a diet it's here to allow you to operate on your maximum level of energy to live your life to the fullest to suck the marrow out of life to suck the marrow out of every day knowing your blood type your nutritionist tells you what works and what's really toxic well God knows your blood type in fact he created your blood type and your brain he knows your brain he knows your soul your mind your body so it's a system that allows you to be aligned with your Chemistry physical chemistry and spiritual chemistry this is self-actualization this is self-expression if one sees it as a system to to crush to stifle to keep everybody humble in the negative sense you're just AATA you have to be controlled then we really lost the plot and it's not means trying to become my best and happiest self then we can come to pesak pesak is after the Festival of Matas after the season of our emancipations I now come to PES which we translate in English usually as Passover Passover because God Hashem passed over or he leaped over or he jumped over the homes once said what's this idea of Hashem jumping over the Jewish homes so he says that when Hashem came to a Jewish Home he started to dance and jump you know when you when you dance you start jumping he says here lives a Jew here lives a Jew he's jumping over the house when he comes to that house he starts dancing and jumping here a Jew lives that's the idea of PES the full celebration of the intimacy the full celebration of the kinship as Jews leave Egypt and ultimately they come to Har they receive T they internalize these truth truths they internalize this life in such a profound way that a new people is born and a new person is born a person who leaps over always leaps over a life of constrains a life of finiteness a life of a limited existence into a relationship a life which is defined by a relationship with that which is undefined A Life That's defined by a relationship with ultimate Infinity with ultimate truth and that's exactly what leaping over means what am I leaping over a person walks when a person jumps over I'm jumping over anything that you say jump over the fence jump over the obstacle jump over the challenge leap over this place jump over it what does this mean after stage one and after stage two the person can leap over everything that limits them everything that turns me into a finite container because I allow myself to become a channel for Infinity a channel that's open on both sides so it's not limited anymore not by S ounces not even by 100 ounces not even by a million ounces as the person becomes one with the source when you identify yourself your very self as a channel for Hashem in this world then the very eye transcends finiteness the very eye becomes a channel for hashem's Infinity so as I embark on my journey from exile to Freedom From Slavery to emancipation and I go through these phases the person then reaches P where the experience of the new Consciousness is so internalized like 40 years after the teacher becomes after the student becomes one with the teacher that a person starts living a life that's completely one with Hashem every moment I experience that relationship with Hashem every moment is a life in which I live with Hashem a small finite flimsy self is transformed into a channel for absolute infinity or as hem says we say I have said I have planned to see you as elim which obviously means to see you as channels for Hashem to see you as one children of of the sual one and yet sometimes people degrade themselves believing that they're just destined to despar and resignation and decline not really allowing themselves to ever fully integrate what true freedom is from to and ultimately to have a wonderful week a a thank you I want to thank oh here you are I wanted to give you a special thank you for coming today and I wanted to dedicate the class to your grandmother whose funeral was just today and may she remain an eternal source of inspiration and blessing for you you and the entire mishak and all of CLA this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at ww.the yeshiva.net donate