Teshuva and free choice | Q&A from Rabbi Alon Anava's Lecture Amazing information - Part 6

if you don't feel sorrow when you do too well the true way is not 100% you have to have Hirata if you just stop doing the violets very nice but to have a complete revoir dissolve explains this true batata a low-level chuva chavalla higher level to a solute explains to Matata is chuva from fear chavalla is chuhwa from love he in order for you to really wipe everything off and walk into an alien like as if nothing happened you have to reach true viola you have to completely delete all these oldest paths and your tumor has to be perfect and you have to have holotype you don't have have a dad then you chew it's not a 100% you have to feel bad and if you don't feel this hahaha then one you know what are you doing it for we're doing it from theory where is it coming from so on it's not so simple to put you to do chew up you have to yeah you have to reflect the back on your path and remember what I did Hatta a retainer Bianca Schilling hold on she's waiting a long time yes no no no the girl in the back no look well okay the general answer this has no look the more I don't want to get too much into it but the neshamah kind of gets the look of the body the same way if you take like a clown I dough or mad or anything and you put your hand in you leave an impression so the neshamah goes into the goo for 60 70 80 years it gets some type of an impression but that's not really the neshamah that's the nefesh so inertia by itself doesn't have a look but the neshamah has five levels of the neshamah we know the highest level is quote it's called if Heda that has nothing to do with us at this point of the world in the lower level of the neshamah is called higher then a lower levels it is the actual neshama then walk in a fish in our body we have nefesh walk in a Shama and they get dressed one inside the other like you put cups one instead of the other most of what we do here corresponds to the net fish not to the neshamah barrel if you're lucky you go do you get elevated and you get promoted to start dealing with the war but the nefesh is the one who gets kind of the molding of the goof that's why the nefesh stays next to the cave where next to the grave and when people come people who died come to people in their dream it's because the this impression of the nefesh is still in this world so an Amit comes to somebody in a dream the person in the dream sees the the image but then a Shama it's so far removed that has no shape no size no color no nothing but it's something that we can't even understand in my mind it's almost like asking does a smell a scent does it how does it look I smell a beautiful perfume but it's not tangible you can hold it you can define it you don't know if the smells from here to here or from here to there it's oh honey me died so the Sharma is like something what's called move shots it's if shot you can't define it has no shape color size or anything huh yeah but she's asking if it has a look the look has no look and also all the senses the hashim everything is a very low level of their corresponding to the nefesh in the wah that's more like a metaphor that means that the that the Torah comes and tells us so we can picture in our mind how something is it's almost like saying you know it's talking the Torah is talking about you know Yad Hashem Hashem doesn't have a yard or a nay Hashem Hashem doesn't have eyes it's like kind of a Michelle for us in our mind to picture how it give you whole looks the cloud a lot of people have some type of a misconception with Lena of free choice it doesn't mean that you wake up in the morning and if you choose a white shirt or a blue shirt that's not a shrimp doesn't care if your Shem knows that's not your pile of your free choice of Shem that everybody's talking about the free choice corresponds to when you coming to a crossroad and you have the opportunity to do the Mitzvah or not to do the Mitzvah or you have the opportunity to do the sin or not to do the sin here's the free choice now if you're going to eat eggs for breakfast or toast that's not a free choice that's you know whatever that's not the free choice kicks in that when you walk in the street a person turns here and tells you can you help me I need you to help me push the car cut now comes the free choice will you help that person or will you tell him oh I'm in a rush or you go down the street and you were about to do hospital maneuver ah will you do it or will you say no I don't want to do it this is where the free choice is really measured so here I had no intervening what I saw things in my life you know it really didn't okay maybe I had a still small advantage so when I saw my wife was like okay it's my wife but regardless to that three four dates I was like you know it's a perfect match besides that she looks like the girl the match is perfect so I did three dates before I proposed instead of seven dates like other people so maybe maybe in a few things I had choice but I didn't see what job I'm gonna have where I'll leave things like this that I could say oh I remember seeing this oh okay let me do this that I don't have that's why most of what I remember is see things that has nothing to do with it really choosing it's like you going on a train train ride your choice is to get down on this stop but the view you see on the train that's not your choice it's the view so what I saw is kind of the view you know my kids my wife you know like a train you look through out the window you see things so it didn't affected all the free choice the free choice is still there the thing is that first of all it doesn't mean let's say for the sake of the example I saw five kids it doesn't mean comes the fifth kid and that's it a name I'd say my wife I'm done for now let's go home you still have to do more because a person can do an extra Mitzvah and get us hoots to get a bonus so it doesn't mean let's say miss your mom they were telling me okay you're gonna have Excel on the kids you know if I reach that capacity doesn't mean I'm now gonna stop okay let me continue maybe I'm going to do more no no for sure no because even let's say in the example of the kids not New York like I told you let's say they told me okay you're gonna have five kids so now have five kids mom I'm gonna stop no I want to continue doing the Mitzvah maybe I'll have a merit maybe a Sherman will give me another kid it doesn't say ah no Han then I'll have 50 kids sheesh Mackerras the hot hold on there's someone in the back