TBC - Day 34 - 'Use your brain' - Rabbi Alon Anava | Atzmut.org

[Music] [Applause] [Music] so since we're speaking about and acts of kindness and righteousness and versus sins and acts of evil then we all need to do specially nowadays that moments before mashiach is coming and the storm is about to hit us the spiritual storm of course which will be included in it the physical storm but we all need to do chuba because as it says as our sages say in the in the talmud interacted with if a person wants to be saved from goku magog the coming war and it's irrelevant right now if the war is physical spiritual because as of now the war is spiritual as we speak and there's also the physical war is uh cooking up as we speak but the talmud says if you want to be saved from this war you have to ya asakbatora means that you have to make your torah your business that doesn't mean that you have to become a scribe or a shoheid a slaughter or a mohail a person that does with milan that's that doesn't mean that you have to make your business something that has to do with dura rather means that the same way that you are immersed in your business 24 7 in order to make sure that the business is making money so make sure that your entire life is you you don't rise like a business that you're there from uh from dust to dawn uh an act of kindness which means that you have to be involved in learning torah and as i said not not once and not twice minimum two hours a day less than two hours a day this is not learning torah and watching videos on youtube is also i know people are not happy when i say that especially that i put videos on youtube and some people they don't have anything else some people live in uh in places that they they're hours away from a show a synagogue yeshiva but the ones who can watching a video is not really learning to ah of course you get your reward for torah learning but it's uh it's not the same thing it's filtered through a screen that the screen is already infected with a clipper with a spiritual energy that filters the the holiness learning to rise from a book and when you need to use the wheels in your brain and put some oil there so they're not going to be squeaking and to understand it yourself if i chew on it and i hand it out to you so okay so you understood what the torah says but you didn't do it yourself the real learning torah is that you do it and again not trying to put anybody on the spot but one needs to have at least two hours a day of learning torah and may not have acts of kindness with that said of course we all in the level of we need to do chuva really the way to do chuva is to understand in a very deep and profound way the the mistake that i did if you do not understand the severity of the mistake that you did then you can't do chuba why because the first thing you need to do in july is to have remorse and to regret what you did now if you don't really understand the severity you're really not going to regret it so if i had a real juicy tasty ham and cheese sandwich and then i understood that it's pork and i'm not allowed to eat it and definitely not to mix the meat and the dairy but i say excuse my language to hell with it it was yummy i'm just not going to do it ever again that's not real chuva because you don't regret that you did it you said it was tasty okay i'm not gonna do it again that's how i was when i became observant i was like okay listen i enjoy it but i'll i'll i'll i'll just listen to the master of the universe and i'm not gonna do it again so this is not real chewbacca cause the regret is you saying i wish i never did that that's real harata the next thing that you need to do is call kabbalah you have to accept in yourself from today i'm changing how hard is going to be it's irrelevant how fast it's going to happen it's important but not for that moment that you say okay i'm changing so these two first steps remorse and regret and accepting this is the level that is called thoughts i'm just thinking in my mind i don't need to tell you or don't need to tell it to anybody then the third stage is we doing that i have to confess how do you confess you tell hashem i'm sorry i messed up i didn't mean to so either you confess with your own words or you read from the sidoo three times a day and you say hashem no no no and so forth what the text tells but you have to say it with your mouth you're confessing and this is with the level that is called the bull speaking then comes the last stage stage number four that is called the zivat leaving the action the actual sin and you stop and this is a level of action so thought is i'm regretting and i'm not gonna do it again speech i'm confessing action i'm not doing it ever again this is really the levels that i need to focus on now when i'm doing that doesn't matter if in the back of my mind that's the problem of most people in the back of the mind they're saying what am i kidding tomorrow i'm back to the sin now i'm doing chuma but i know it will take two three days i'm going back to the sin it doesn't matter if your chiva is authentic in that moment in that moment you did shiva and it's called now what's the word shav what's the word shuva tashiva is not an answer people think it's an answer because in hebrew is an answer means that you went back from your evil doing even if you know in your back of your mind that moment that you're going to do it again it's not a perfect chuba but it's still a tuba and then of course comes the problem and a lot of people think that with this they corrected everything it's not so simple but that's where you start so what you need to understand is a few things first of all when you mess up and when you sin hashem is angry don't think for one second and don't believe anybody who tells you hashem is not angry hashem is angry he's angry at you why did you listen i also get angry at my kids now i don't hate them i love them just the same but i'm angry because they didn't listen or they did something bad same thing with hashem he's angry he doesn't stop loving you in that moment he's just angry for the act that you did but what we need to do is bring ourselves to a point that i understand the severity of the sin that i did how do you get to that point that we're going to have to learn in length in other classes but you can by yourself start developing the thought and the method how to realize that you need to bring yourself to a point that you understand the severity of it and i told you once that there was a person who bought a lottery ticket for one dollar and then somebody came to him and told him i'm gonna buy that lottery ticket for a thousand dollars really go ahead here's the lottery ticket and next week the lottery ticket won the mega jackpot 350 million dollars can you imagine the regrets and the sorrow of the person who sold it for a thousand dollars that's the level of regret you need to re reach that you feel in the depth of your soul i wish i could have gotten rid of this sin of this act not so easy to do but at least when you start developing the thought then you somehow will get to it when i became observant i had to develop systems how to get rid of things how to control things but first you have to come to the realization so first step what we're gonna uh what we're talking about today come to the realization that if you're not a hundred percent regretting what you did your chuva is is is not real chuva you need to meditate on it take a minute a day five minutes a day to bring yourself to understand this i regret this i regret when you regret then you're able to get let go one of the ways of learning understanding the regret to get to a point of regret since it's in the level of thought then you have to work on the level of thoughts in your mind to be able to kind of balance it and the only way to understand anything that's in the level of thought is as i said before is when you learn torah and you crack the code then you're activating the level that kabulistic term to that is a garment the garment of thought so if you're just sitting and again don't take me the wrong way i i i know a lot of people they they don't have much options but when you're sitting in a class and the teacher just gives you the information you're not really activating your level of thoughts you understand you're listening but when you're sitting with yourself to try to understand the problem in the quran the sugiya or some concept and you're breaking your brain and you're working hard that's when you're exercising the muscle the spiritual muscle of thought and you're slowly slowly developing that level by that you're able to come to the realization by yourself where you regret what you did so the step we need to take is to really work on our garments i will call it now the spiritual muscle like an exercise if your muscle has not been worked on you can't do much you have to work on this level of thought how by learning torah in a way that you need to understand it that's what i always tell my kids don't come and listen to me my son always tells me you explain it to me no we learn torah he tells me explain it to me i told him no you read it 20 times and then you explain it to me you can explain it to me it means you understood it and that's really the way to learn torah you explained it to me now when you're able to do that you're cracking the code so to say that your makshava is starting to become much more activated then by default you'll be able to start realizing where you messed up and start developing the real regret for the horrible things that we did [Music] [Applause] [Music] you