TBC - Day 29 - 'Back to your source' - Rabbi Alon Anava | Atzmut.org

[Music] [Applause] [Music] so since we are focusing on juba and really that's the one of the main things that we need to focus all of our life yeah i know now hello we're doing our cuba boot camp we want to focus on chuba but you need to focus on juva all your life and you know what our sages say there are many a few times when one can do chuva but you know what's the most suspicious time to do juva is the second after you did the sin you can do chuba shabbat but the ultimate time to do is the second of you did the sin to catch yourself right away do the triva now let's define quickly what it means to because in hebrew you can read it return hey means to go back what is chuva is that you have to go back to the place where you started that's what it means tashoo because if it wouldn't mean that you know what it would say it wouldn't say la shuv it would say la leche go to a different place but it says come back tashoov to exactly where you started which means that i drifted off and now i have to go back to where i started other than that it wouldn't tell me you would tell me go go to a different place ascend to a higher place and rather that you the torah chose to say return to the point where you took off how many times you drive on a highway you miss the exit you have to go off turn around and go back and then start from where you messed up and in many cases now where do you have to go back to if you tell me i have to go back to so where do i have to go back to our sages tell you lets mo go back to yourself what does that mean to your place the that is most natural for you now how do i fan what is it fine what is the most natural place for me and you tell me go back to yourself means to go back to the original me or one can say go back to where it's most natural for you to be i don't know maybe it's natural for me to be on the beach right now with a beer no i don't know what's natural for me so the teachings of kabbalah explains to us that we have three stages in our existence the first stage is when i'm glued to my source every morning we say hashem the soul that you give me is pure and our sages explain that our soul was carved off from somewhere from the master of the universe our soul is a peace of god so the first stage in my existence is when i'm glued to my source that's the first stage when i'm part of the master of the universe now what is the status when i'm in that stage it says adam battello you are complete and nullified to the master of the universe because you're part of the master of the universe and hebrew would say enlarge you don't have a desire or will of yourself because you're attached to the master of the universe now i'll give you an example what it means that you don't have the will of yourself if you hunger right now then you have a will to eat right some type of a desire is being arousing you i'm hungry i need to eat i don't know many people who say i'm hungry let me fast for a day usually it will be i'm hungry let me eat i'm tired let me sleep how do i fulfill the hunger to become full and satisfy is that i pleasure the body with food it is pleasure whether you like it or not unless you eat the horrible food but i'm just saying in the the technical part of it how do you cancel the desire is because i gave the body what it needed and this is food and the kabbalistic term to that is no pleasure you gave your body what it needs now the desire stopped if you are not angry means i don't have any desire to eat right now because the body is satisfied and this can be done in almost anything a person desires a woman he has a spiritual or not a spiritual a physical hunger he does what he does that's it that hunger come down why because you got you you satisfied the hunger you satisfied the desire how with pleasure so the pleasure can be married to the relations the pleasure can be fooled the pleasure can be sleeping that's how you satisfy the desire so what do we learn from that kaanug me with the pleasure cancels over the deficiency so when i lack something i give it some pleasure that's it i'm done so this is the first stage of the soul's uh journey the next one is that when the soul is in a body so the first line the first type of existence the soul is attached to the master of the universe it doesn't have a will of its own because it's connected to the master of the universe the second stage of the soul's life is when the soul is in the body this is right what's going on right now my soul is in the body now why am i in my body because i came to do tikkun i came to do some type of a rectification i didn't come here to enjoy logo luck and coffee i came here to do a tikkun if i get here 80 years you have 80 years to do tikkun tikun means the rectification and the third stage of the journey goes back to its original part how it's glued to the master of the universe so stage one i'm attached to god in a complete nullification i don't have a desire or will or thoughts of myself number two i'm in a body to do a rectification number three back to my source now it seems that number one and number three are the exact same thing right i'm attached to my source only number two is separate i'm in a body so one might say one and three are the exact same thing the the difference is that one and three is one is before atikun three is after atikun one are you following when i'm saying one one it means the way you start you start attached to hashem but that's before rectification number three i'm back attached to my source but after a rectification after atikun now when the prophet hoshea says this can be found in the book of chapter 14 verse 2 the verse says return o israel to the lord your god for you have stumbled in your iniquity that's what the prophet tells us so when i do a sin i told you before you damage your vessel what's the result from damaging your vessel you don't receive the spiritual light what do you need to do you need to do chuva you have to do an action of chuva of returning back how do you do that you have to reach to a place of what's called slicha forgiveness i wanted to teach today we're not gonna have time we'll do it tomorrow there are three levels what you need to reach forgiveness atonement and pardon stole three things it's important to know now especially before yom kippur because you need all three of them i'll say it again whole different things is forgiveness says forgiveness stole three things but then we'll learn in a different class how do i gizza i have to reach to a level of slikhaar of forgiveness what is the three things that i need to do and if i do that i will be reaching to a level of atonement first i need slicha forgiveness if i do three actions well i will reach to a level of atonement what are these three things first thing is regret what you did and you have to do it in your heart heart or your thought vidui then you have to do confession with your mouth and that's dibu and then you have to have kabbalah it means that you stop doing what you did and that's action so you have to activate three levels of thought speech and action thought is that i regret what i did i wish i didn't do it but real hard the second one is we do it confess i have sinned i've spoken i've stolen i have embezzled i lied etc i'm not talking necessarily also on hashem and the last one is apply action i'm not doing it ever again you do all these three things then what happens is that you reach the level of forgiveness the same says i will forgive you great i'm happy you forgive me but i steal all the money aye so you need an atonement you need capac so do the three things that i told you you'll reach an atonement and how do you do all this i mean i'm talking very quick and very oh my what's the big deal well i'm just going to say sorry and everything will be fine right how do i reach to this level of atonement i have to acknowledge that i was the one who was wrong not like what i told you last week that radamel says the woman that you gave to me made me sin you're not going to get atonement from that you might get forgiveness but you're not going to reach kapara you have to accept i was wrong not the circumstances not the woman who was half-naked not she not he i was the problem therefore i confess i regret and well the order is regret confess and then i'm not going to do it again but you can only do it when you accept that you are the problem when you don't throw the the fault on somebody else when you do that you are able to go back to the source back to where you started therefore the term is chuva tashoo la mako mimeno etralta go to the place where you started the advantage of the chuva is that it's after atikun i already go back to my source in a much higher level [Music] you