TBC - Day 10 - 'Teshuvah takes time' - Rabbi Alon Anava | Atzmut.org

[Music] [Applause] [Music] so i have heard from many people and not only heard from any people i can testify that i experienced it myself too the second that you come to duchova and you are excited about doing chuva and you're all hyped up and you're saying this time i'm going to do it i know i'm going to do it this time and you prepare yourself and you got all your books and you registered to the chuva boot camp on smooth.com and you did everything you're like you know what this is gonna be the law that goes down in history that i did shiva and two weeks into the excitement excuse me for the sound effect but all the air goes out and not because you want the air to go out because the yetzera gave you such a knockout or maybe not a knockout but it gave you an uppercut or some punch into your face and knocked you down and suddenly you're not so focused as you were 10 days ago aren't you well you're not the only one here so the law is not so happy when you get your act together when you you know on your sinning path he's fine you provide him your sins everything is well you're under control but when you suddenly get a little bit of fresh air and you decide you know what i'm gonna really get my act together you know what i agree with every word the rabbi said in the class he's on the money he's like he's like talking to me unbelievable were you talking to me because it seems like you were talking directly to me yeah we always have the same the same path we walk on but nevertheless you for a whole week you got up you pray shakharit like a like a lion and every time that i came to tell you something shoot him off like but then the etzera says listen khabib i'm much more stronger than you he gave you one punch boom boom you brought you down to your knees suddenly the chuva wait a minute i was so excited and the yetzer was able to break me before i even started and usually when you're not really prepared for that so really what i want to tell you that it's totally natural and you're not the only one and uh the point to take from that is that means you're doing something good the yetzera doesn't bother you if you're not doing something good positive he starts bothering you when you are doing something positive when you want to initiate a change when you want to to chuva finally when you want to apply everything that you learn then the xray is going to come and say oh you think i'm just going to let you do chuva like that so this is called resistance now we need that because if it comes too easy then there's no development if you go now to the gym and you just sit there like this nothing's going to happen you need to move now let's say you already said you know i will move and you sit on the bench and you go like that if there's no weight there's not going to be any development in your muscle has to be weighted that you push then you start developing the muscles so the essential says oh you want to grow then i'll put some pressure that you're going to have to push if not it's not going to work the problem is that when we get that push from the headset like as if i right away give up so what you need to take from that is that when you do chuva it's not going to come easy and not because something wrong with you because that is how to do chuba you cannot get in good shape in a gym if there's not going to be hard work sweat tears and mainly resistance something needs to push you you can't just think you're going to develop muscles without pushing heavy weights so they had some eyes the heavyweights now you woke him up because he said i want to do chubas this is no problem i'll wake up with you too when are you waking up before i wake up at 3 58. so i'll be awake when you wake up to give you a slap to your face and tell you click that snooze button you don't need to wake up so early are you out of your mind go back to sleep everybody else is going to be late to the minion anyways so you can go to sleep another 10 minutes so listen you're not by yourself we all experience the same that's a lot it's like as if our yetzera's consult with each other but the point to take from that there's nothing wrong with you don't give up so easy no the chuva has to come with a fight chuva will not come easy there's no person that ever did you uh in the history of mankind and it came easy shiva comes with a lot of resistance a lot of hard work a lot of tears and sweat that's the nature of the etc what you need to internalize is just don't give up you might failed one day two days go back go back and continue what you were doing because the et cetera doesn't want you to grow so fast and he wants to put that resistance main the main message you need to take from that so he might have the upper hand for a day or two but come back to the fight and don't right away go into some type of a psychological barrier by saying i can't do it it's too strong it's too hard i will never be able to do it that's what they say is making you believe and think that it's a mountain that you can climb but really that's the nature of the et cetera you have to completely ignore it and continue the fight because that's the only way you're going to be able to do shiva and it doesn't mean that you're going to fight now and in a week or two you'll win some times the chuva you'll not win for 40 years that's why people fall into despair i'll never be able to do it okay let me let me be stuck in my sin because i'll never be able to do it down the line i'm gonna give more methods and i don't like using the word remedies but more methods and system how to apply specifically what act to give you more power to fight certain desires and now we have to first get just the the the tools and the system aligned up so don't don't fall to despair don't give up don't think the battle is over the battle is not over it has just begun and you continue like as if nothing happened with your mind frame that this is going to be a war i will knock down the it's there too he will punch me back i will do an uh an act he will knock me down that's part of the chuva the point is that the winning score is not if you actually won is the the effort that you put on the path hashem is not looking to see you crushing the yetzera we don't have the power to do that in the yet serra puts the gauge of the power of the it's wrong no man on earth can fight the yetzer because hashem sends him but you have to understand that the victory is your effort and how much on the path you are fighting and not if you actually had success even if you sin over and over and over don't give up that's part of the fight and the victory is when you don't give up and when you're going to continue fighting and you don't lose hope and that's the nature of the answer so i know we're in the middle of the way don't uh we're not even in the middle of the way just uh two weeks in but that's part it's a normal thing that when you try to do good then it's uh what's your gauge is you're doing well it's uh it's gonna come full force at you so you just keep your mind on the target the path is long and the tuba doesn't come so easy [Music] you