Text-Based Tanya—Week #72

okay weekly text-based Tanya we're in the middle of Which chapter 41 Nimitz Hashem yeah yes 41 is a long chapter that is correct um God willing will finish chapter 41 today and you know I was just how did this come up the other day as someone was discussing with me I don't even remember where this happened but it wasn't in a class it was like in a normal everyday social interaction which probably means with one of my family members because I don't really socialize outside of that but I can't remember where this took place I think maybe it was on Shabbos and I S and I was extremely different from being up and I was saying that you know oh oh yeah yeah yeah so yeah my yeah we were talking about someone mentioned men are like waffles whom women are like spaghetti and no I'm not going to get into the ridiculous pop psychology books but so I said you know hochma which is masculine thinking is uh more oh I I guess you could stop when we call it more structured whereas bino which is feminine thinking it has the advantage of being free association one thought leads to another thought leads to another thought yeah so I I shared that with men when you're learning with men it's very hard to get their reaction they're like okay yeah that's good yeah okay next yeah you can't get a reaction out of them with women it's very easy to get a reaction and a reaction to the reaction and a reaction to the reaction to the reaction to the reaction to the reaction and they don't care they will be totally happy getting completely off topic or so they think and that's the problem women think they're happy getting off topic but women at the end of the day do have a sense of accomplishment and when you come to a class staff today and it's just coffee talk and schmoozing then you lose the excitement because you're like what are we doing there we're just schmoozing so women do appreciate this is my characterization of women students of the Torah the women do appreciate having some resistance to their incredible Bina Powers placed upon them and being told okay that's great we're not going to talk about that we're not going to talk about that let's stay focused and then you actually end up learning chapter after chapter and then you're like wow I'm actually accomplishing something in this class it's not just a schmooze so um yeah why am I telling you this not because of free association but because I said we're gonna God willing to finish chapter 41 today if we don't get off topic and if I do my job as teacher then we will not get off topic anyone want to try you want to test me like in the Jiu Jitsu where they like have the guy come at the instructor and he has to like do I want to try to distract me go ahead try no you won't all right so by the way you see how how easily we could just if we didn't structure it and keep moving we could just be on chapter one still and be yeah yeah why not no one would come to it because they would be like we don't accomplish anything but we could just spend two years learning chapter one why not okay we're not off top but we're never off topic yeah oh wow extra pressure we have new students okay so welcome all right I don't think I want to go we'll meet after class okay so since you're new we'll tell you like this this is a class of very very brilliant people very spiritual it is it is it really is it really is and they ask incredible questions all of the questions are good not all of their questions are on topic and my job is to keep things moving and in the end I think people feel good about it they feel like yeah we're we're accomplishing and you see we're on chapter 41 and God willing will finish chapter 41 today okay fine so this is going to be tough if you're here for the first time there's a lot of new stuff this whole world of new stuff I can't explain everything but I'll give you a little bit of context just a little bit from the beginning of chapter 41 we're speaking about awe that you need to serve Hashem with awe or as a Feeling serving Hashem with awe means a feeling of surrender of of submission submissiveness and the way that we muster up that feelings through meditation we spoke about meditating on Hashem in in all of his Grandeur focusing on us specifically and that fills us with awe that as someone was mentioning oh this is such a long chapter we're still in chapter 41. yeah it is because chapter 41 goes through multiple themes it almost feels like at one point it should be done but it's not um because then it moves on from the theme of on it's like oh by the way uh you know just like you can't serve Hashem without all you have to have awe even if you have love it's not enough you have to have all uh and then it's like oh by the way you can't surface I'm only with all you also need love remember when it did that little pivot okay yeah so then I spoke about you need to serve a shame with love and remember it said you have to be the servant and the son the Abbott and the Ben the evid serves with all the Ben serves with love okay um but then we've pivoted into a third subject which was what I'll call altruistic motivation so we had all we had love and now we have like a third type of motivation called altruistic motivation or or Mitzvah schmuff or for the mitzvah for its own sake which we're describing as your motivation being the unification of the shrina that occurs when you do a Mitzvah in other words the healing effect of your Mitzvah on the world on hashem's presence on the Jewish people and that your motivation is to that you be a catalyst to bring that about that's where that's actually where we left off we were talking about that um the unification of the Holy One and his indwelling presence that occurs every time you do a mitzvah okay um and that's where we left off we right by that like [Music] okay I'm gonna try this is some kabbalistic stuff coming up I'm going to try to go through it quickly so he says when you do a mitzvah you're you so your your mind should be on the fact what are you causing when you do a Mitzvah you're causing this unification of of of of the Holy One in his indwelling presence and and you're causing this this unification of the source of the Jewish souls and Hashem and now he says also at the same time what does it cause it causes the sweetening of the judgments the sweetening of the gurus the gurus means the is restraint which is a good thing restraint is good and it's holy but when Hashem restrains himself too much it's like well where is God when Hashem is too hidden then it's scary so we sometimes say yeah you know what uh it's okay if you do it's okay it's okay if you go heavy on the hasid don't go too heavy on the Vera so sometimes we want to sweeten The Grotto we want to mellow out the gruda so what happens is when you cause all this unification follow me here when you cause this stem cell uh treatment you cause the unification where everything becomes one again so the good ice can become sweet because why not because ultimately all the Divine attributes are one with each other you follow what I'm saying follow laser focus all of divine attributes are one with each other so why is it it's not so when you cause that unification to come forth what happens is you can bring out the sweetness even though it's seemingly the opposite quality of you bring out the inherent sweetness of the gruda did you all follow that don't tell me you didn't follow it you dead somebody say it to me someone who did follow it did anyone follow it it's not 13 attributes but if they're attributes yeah 100 that's correct yes did everyone understand that yeah okay do you understand it yeah so even though the characteristic of gruda is its judgment and its harshness but because it's ultimately one with all the other Godly attributes including cassid so why can't it be sweet too it's like the Paradox but the the Infinity of these Divine attributes transcends Paradox but that's that's in potential when we do the Mitzvah we bring that out and we sweeten the judgments which basically bottom line means makes the world a Kinder gentler place okay yeah did we says basically when you do a Mitzvah you arouse From Below cause and arousal from below and recip it triggers a reciprocal arousal from above retainer you spot it so when you're down here doing Mitzvahs learning Torah which is hashem's will and you're causing a revelation of hashem's will Which is higher than all of the attributes then you cause unification with the attributes and then Divine toughness can become Divine sweetness that's why I called the stem cell treatment because when it's the stem cell anything can become anything right it's unarticulated so there's all the potential there just to become whatever you needed to become you guys following the idea okay then life gets then life is easier life is sweeter commercials and like it says he quotes two kabbalistic sources and uh that's very kabbalistic which is the oh the supernal will which is the source of hasid in other words when you're doing hashem's will and you're aligned with that attribute which is the loftiest attribute that's why it's called the the whiteness of the skull the skull the point is it's a very high level it's above the normal system which is normally compared to the rest of the body this is above the body or the top of the body the penthouse the skull um when you're connected to the the the will which is the highest of the attributes then the other attributes sort of reveal aspects of themselves that they don't normally reveal and the judgments get sweetened that's why I call it the stem cell treatment okay now although this cavana remember the whole point here we're talking about cavana we're talking about your intent what you're thinking about the point of this chapter is not to tell you what phenomenon is occurring when you're doing Mitzvahs the point of the chapter is to tell you what phenomena is occurring when you're doing this is that you should be thinking about before you do them as motivation to do the mitzvah Okay so you're you're truly getting inspired by this thought this thought that my Mitzvah is about to cause this unification oh my goodness it's so amazing at the same time he says you need to have in your heartbeat abundant love exclusively over for Hashem in your heart in other words to give Hashem gratification and not to satiate your own spiritual thirst you follow that it's an aspect of the leshma because this intense thing is happening and you know that it's happening and you're getting all excited about the fact you're about to make it happen through your learning Toyota or doing Mitzvahs we give a little warning and say hey don't get too excited it's not about your spiritual experience it's about the gratification you're causing for Hashem like a son who works hard who strives for his father and mother whom he loves more than himself more than his own life commission is like it was explained above in the name of that I will give a hundred dollars is that condescending to give monetary prizes to anyone who could tell me he says we mentioned earlier in Tanya who could tell me which chapter so as we mentioned it earlier a number one through 40. Ryan Muhammad is a portion of Zohar but I'm not asking you where in Zora it says I'm asking you where in Tanya he says we've mentioned it previously in Tanya no but that's not a bad guess but that's not what it is everything's with hashems like what does say fat where did it mention kibrodistado no but that's also a good guess but no Tanya board game which he said we mentioned this already earlier in Tanya so we're in chapter 41. I want to know which chapter 1 through 40 did you mention it in what is this the idea it's called it's it's an Aramaic term because it's from zaihar so that's in in Aramaic called kibra like a sand ishtado who strives who he loves more than himself it's it's a it's a description it's a metaphorical description of a type of love where the Jew is totally selflessly dedicating himself to Hashem with no personal interest like a loyal child who is totally devoted to his parents happiness okay I'm taking away the hundred dollars and if no not 36. [Music] okay I'm taking them I'm taking the prize off the table and now I'll start hinting more because if I hint and it's not fair to win the prize all right I'll give you a hint it was when it was describing something that normally we don't even try to become in Tanya him means the person who has perfect behavioral control but he still experiences an inner conflict and it's Sadiq doesn't even have an inner conflict and in fact there are two levels of Sadiq yeah which is it's a year and a half ago which is in chapter close I think yes there was a whole chapter inside the gym yes no not between one and seven it's after seven uh you're close 11 is about the Russia you're going you know 12 is already the beginning [Music] so in chapter 10 it spoke about the Sadiq and spoke about two levels of Sadiq remember within it's means somebody who has no internal conflict Sadiq is someone who has no internal conflict he has no attempt well you found it did you find it in your notes can you read it to me we have evidence that we actually learned this that's amazing that's amazing yes correct can I show your notes on the camera so people yeah can we bring it to me can I show her I just want to show everyone at home that we really learn over here we really hold on we have a tiny rep in the wall in the old room where we used to learn oh we need one in this room okay where right here oh okay let's see ah so it says here is an act of intimacy like pleasing your parents do it because it's their it's the right thing to do to bring them pleasure okay amazing so that was the definition of not just any yeah why not please [Applause] that was the definition of not just any sadik but of the higher level tadiq yeah it's out of Gummer also known as the also known as in chapter 10 which we're just reading notes from the binay Aaliyah the men of ascent and they one of the reasons they're called man of ascent is because they serve Hashem completely altruistically only for hashem's pleasure not for their own so listen to this this is this is wild foreign to serve Hashem with the motivation of a selfless child is in chapter 10 he told me that's the level not just of itsadiq but of the higher level tadiq now in chapter 41 he's saying it as something for anyone any bainini meaning all regular people is basically just the best version of a normal person it's nothing categorically beyond what a normal person can achieve yeah it's a very high level but it's still it's attainable it's not like a tadiq where he's completely rid of any uh internal conflict obeying the experience is internal conflict we just flawlessly deals with it and yet here in chapter 41 he's saying that that's that's something that the banani should strive for that he should try to have that level of motivation I always I don't know I don't say always because I don't think I noticed the first time I learned Tanya but for it's been a long time that I'm very moved by this idea that an idea that in chapter 10 was considered to be a Sadiq idea by chapter it's presented as a obeying idea meaning something that's accessible for regular people the idea of selflessness and I got to tell you you know this is the altad but this is seven generations ago but after the altarebo was the middle of and after the middle of the time when you seven generations when you learned that Abba's teachings you see a lot of this of like really stating it as a given that any Jew is capable of achieving that level of altruism of serving Hashem Way Beyond personal gratification and I don't mean be just beyond like reward and Punishment uh personal gratification I mean even beyond the loftiest the loftiest spiritual motives like being able to Delight in Hashem like the way that ABBA speaks about motivation you could even get past that and you could totally just do the right thing because Hashem is gratified by it and that's what he's saying here in chapter 41 when we're talking about motivation so first we spoke about all all has to be your motivation now we pivoted we said but love love also has to be your motivation and then the third part of chapter 41 you have to make sure that altruism that's what I'm calling it Divine altruism is your is your motivation okay so that's what he's describing here yeah he said that the benoni is the best level of a normal person what's the worst level of a normal person no I don't want to talk about anything negative is there such a thing yes of course but yeah it's called the Russia but let's not talk about that we don't need a book how to do that yeah wow so now you figured out a hack you're like but could I get pleasure from the fact that I know that I'm selflessly providing Hashem pleasure and you want to know the secret I think the answer is yes but here's the thing you know what I think I think the decisive factor is is that your motive in other words right it's after the fact in other words you don't think that it's Sadiq experiences incredible pleasure from closeness to Hashem of whatever I'm able to get out of a chocolate cake on the best day whatever I think a chocolate cake is going to do for me at the perfect moment when I'm not my stomach's not too not too empty because then you get the Sugar Rush and not too full because then you can't really enjoy it whatever my most perfect chocolate cake moment and my whole life was at Sadiq is from a from a cup from a capital telum is getting infinitely more pleasure right so we're not saying that doesn't get pleasured what we're saying is he does get pleasure but it's not his motivation hashem's pleasure hashem's pleasure is his motivation so how do you get to that but what I'm telling you when you especially when you learn the deba's teachings he really states that it's like a given that that is ultimately what you're wired for that is what the nashama wants you want hashem's pleasure pleasure just understand yeah well maybe you need to skip that process you're saying you're still trying to figure out a sham how can you get to hashem's pleasure maybe skip trying to figure him out and just go to his pleasure it's like marriage you're like trying to figure this person out forget it just connect and just be loving and yeah okay well let's keep moving let's keep moving all right remember I said at the beginning I want to finish so let's keep moving okay so he says nevertheless meaning nevertheless notwithstanding that this is a very high level everybody should accustom himself to this kavana to this intent so when you're doing a Mitzvah you should think to yourself oh Hashem likes this so much this is so pleasing to Hashem and that should be part of your conscious motivation because even though this speaks to your question it may not be entirely consistent with your conscious feelings in your heart meaning you're not entirely congruent with this level of motivation Macomb welcome nevertheless to some extent you truly do want it says because of the natural love that every Jewish heart possesses to do hashem's will and it is your true will to bring about this unification so even though you're going to claim I'm not congruent with this this is such a lofty motivation I'm not really feeling it well stop a second to some extent you are feeling it because deep down this is the true desire of the Jewish heart what is this unification that you're bringing about it is the unification that occurs in at Silas in the highest world that is triggered through your doing mitzvah's learning Tata that cause that ultimately the the Divine Light is invested within the Toyota that you're learning in the midst that you're doing and you're causing a unification of that with Hashem and then you bring out you cause true Oneness from that is what you're doing is we alluded to this earlier causing a unification of the lava called the Holy One holy means aloof separate removed and the aspect of divinity called shrina which is indwelling imminent so you're causing a unification between those two aspects of divinity Torah corresponds to the the bank of souls corresponds to the srina aspect so you're uniting the Jewish people in the Torah you're United uniting the Transcendent with the imminent all of that's happening because you're learning tone and doing mixes even without kavana the whole point is that your kavana is that you're doing this I said this earlier I'm going to say it again the point of this chapter is not to tell you what happens when you do a Mitzvah the point of the chapter is to tell you to think about the fact that this is what happens when you do a Mitzvah and to think about it before you do the Mitzvah as motivation for doing the mitzvah another way of describing this unification is the unification of mammalian is the filling light so if it is the Transcendent light at any rate we have a few different paradigms for this we have a few different paradigms for discussing the same phenomenon it's a unification of the Torah and the Jewish people it's unification of kuch unification of Mali the point is your Mitzvahs are causing this unification and why is that important why is it important for you to know this as a motivator that's it deep down this is what you want this is your true motivation so don't say oh I'm not so lofty I'm not so holy activism because you have that hidden love that latent love hardwired into your heart to Cleveland and you do not want in any way whatsoever God forbid to be separate from Hashem in fact to the extent that you would give up your life in martyrdom and we spoke about that remember chapter 18. that the yeah the Jewish Soul has this instinctive inability to separate itself from Hashem okay great so now we're just talking about the fact that you have that instinctive ability and one of the features of it is that yes you can serve Hashem altruistically and in fact to some extent you do serve Hashem altruistically and so let's let that be more of our conscious motivation yeah he uses both terms avatives we use we've been using both terms yeah okay the Asics he says by the way learning Toyota and doing Mitzvahs and davening is a form of martyrdom the form of giving up your life just no blood um yeah but it's uh when you he called he calls it like you die at the end of your lifespan so when you do a Mitzvah you learn Toyota are you diving it's a little a little form of death it's a little release it's ego death yeah correct correct yeah yeah listen how he describes he describes in very practical terms he's going to describe it now listen listen listen listen focus in he's going to describe it in very practical terms it's not it's not going to elude you if you just listen when you do this Mitzvah you learn the story or you Davin at that moment you're not thinking about he says if you're not thinking about your bodily needs Ella Marshalls your thought is united with the letters of thought and now your thought is becoming one with his thought so you're surrendering your normal pedestrian mundane thoughts of self-preservation and you're thinking about Hashem that's considered a form of death in a good way except the difference is over there they're getting extreme Delight from what they're able to understand and they're able to become one with this is in fact what we say at the beginning of the morning uh my God the nashama that he gave me is pure you blew it into me and in the end you will take it away from me climate what does that mean what is that we have a new understanding of this uh prayer Allah that means to say since you blew it into me and you're going to take it from me so therefore I'm the whole time I have it I'm just going to keep giving it to you and uniting it with you commission like it says to you Hashem I lift my soul in other words oh I get it the soul is really not mine it's from a higher place it's from Hashem he's putting it in me for now and then he takes it back so even while I have it I'm not supposed to keep it down here I'm supposed to keep on you know it's a racquetball just keep hitting it back that's no fun imagine he gives it to you and you're like you hold on to it no you just keep on knocking it back to him okay how do I knock it back to you through connecting my thoughts to your thoughts in my speech to your speech which means the letters of Toyota foreign the second person when you speak to Hashem in the second person when you say blessed are you and and You Begin your your morning with all the birkasa chakra where you say blessed are you are you or you or you so you're speaking directly that's considered an act of direct surrender yeah and then also with this same kavana this same intent you go and you learn a portion of Torah after you finished now in the middle of the day what if you start learning again you need to do that preparation again the main preparation to get yourself into the Shema frame of mind is at the beginning of the learning session for abandoning why does he say that as opposed to needing to keep the intention the entire time it's good enough to just do it at the beginning when you log in can maybe get the safer Tata like the rules the halachas of writing a gat a bill of divorce or a safer Terror Taurus girl those need to be written you're not allowed to just write them generically and keep them in your warehouse and then just bust them out whenever you need to you have to have specific intent when you write them beforehand but over there how what constitutes writing at Le Shema that at the beginning of the writing you say Harare I'm hereby writing this for the if you're writing as Taurus girl I'm hereby writing this for the intent of this being the Holiness of a civil Terror I of your writing God forbid you're writing again but sometimes I have to write again you're saying I'm writing this for this man and for this woman Okay so what he says is you want to have the Le Shema intent but you're not going to necessarily be able to maintain it the entire time so when you get up in the morning the second person you're gonna get into that frame of mind pretty easily and if you roll with that and after you finish diving you go and learn some Toyota you're going to still have that frame of mind then you're going to go out out and about and start doing your stuff and then you're going to lose that intent okay so just get it back re refocus yourself on on this uh selfless intent and he says just do it at the beginning of Learning when you get started learning okay now here's a problem yeah that's why um the rest of it not so important but the first phrase that's the exact same idea you prepare for the whole 20. okay yeah yeah I see the the similarity yeah so what yeah what do you confused yes you already had a motivation that led say oh I'm about to die maybe we're gonna do it just because it's your habit or maybe we're going to do it with a cavana but a lower level cavana he wants you to tap into a higher level cavana right before you do it now I'm doing a fresh arms pleasure now what do you do when you have the problem some of us have that you learn many many hours of Torah consecutively without without stop like some of you do on Mondays when you come here and you just sit here all day long yeah Chalet made choice what if you learn many consecutive hours at least once an hour you should have this deliberate thought once an hour why once an hour because we said it's good enough to do it at the beginning and then if you forget about it or it recedes to the back of your mind afterwards it's still okay because from the beginning from the outset you had the right intent but if you're learning for many hours then you have to refresh the intent at least once every hour why because every hour there's a new elicitation of life force from the higher worlds to enliven the lower worlds every hour there's a new energy in the in the universe the energy from the previous hour goes back up back up to heaven in the manner that the Civil Utah describes as running and returning the pulsation of the life force and when all that life force from the previous hour that enliven the Universe for that hour goes back to its source it brings with it all of the Torah and the Good Deeds that were done down here during that hour Shaw Charlottesville because during the 12 hours of the day every hour is a different combination of the four letters of yud kevke and during the 12 hours of night every hour is a different combination of the four letters of so every hour is a distinct energy therefore at least once every hour you need to realign your conscious intent that you are doing this Torah study for hashem's sake Story Time when the outer rabbit was in prison they tried to mess with him and they put him in a room without a window and they used to tried to feed him at sporadic times and they would lie to him about the time to try to break him down psychologically and one point he was diving because he had his towels in filling and they said why are you praying the morning prayer it's like it's the night time and he said no I know what time it is and he said the time and they were marveling how they could never throw him off of his his uh internal clock he always knew what time it was so how did the Altadena know what time it was because he was sensitive to this that every hour there's a different combination of the four letters letters of in the daytime and every hour in the night there's a different combination of four letters and somebody who's sensitive to that knows exactly what time it is energies come down what kind of energy is just it's something that's distinct each hour is its own hour do we know yeah and I mean he doesn't yeah every hour on the hour they're halachic hours the holoca hours they're not the clock hours yeah that's a good question I don't know maybe what maybe someday we'll have a class on uh I know that uh 3 A.M is called the narasha you just learned this different astrology for each hour every hour yeah 12 to 1 A.M well 12 12 P.M to 1pm okay okay um let's finish the chapter can we finish the chapter let's finish the chapter okay uh well I don't know if I'll take more questions but uh let's see let's finish the chapter and then we'll see okay okay yeah [Music] so the person's entire cavana we called it a Snapfish surrender martyrdom he's really giving himself up to elevate The Godly spark which is within him he's thinking about it in those terms that there's a Godly spark within him that's animating him and by devoting himself to Torah and Fila and to Mitzvahs he's surrendering that and giving it back to Hashem and this is his conscious motivation and this is totally unilateral you're just doing this for Hashem satisfaction commercials like we had before anyone remember the chapter the metaphor of the joy of the father whose only child was released from prison you remember the chapter wasn't 30. you have the English Tanya right the bilingual Tanya yeah okay so they have good footnotes there see if it's chapter 30. when it says as mentioned above where it says the metaphor of the father's Joy 31. okay so again he's saying your motivation should I tell you a real story a guy comes up to me in Dubai you know I was in Dubai last week or the week before yeah and it was but with 150 college students and this college kid comes over to me and he's holding um I forgot which say for which maybe uh it could be that Hashem yeah but it was it comes over to me and he says to me I'm becoming aware that there's a tension between the safer you guys are laughing I'm so blown away that you're even in on this joke I'm really impressed because I was blown away that he was getting I said you're right I said you're right he said I'm really sensing that there are very different ways of understanding things I said yeah I'm not going to lie to you you're right uh he says is there any way to deal with it I said this yeah sure there's I mean it's all total you'll find context for everything what I told them of ultimately as I said look you can always if you're dealing with real legitimate Torah ideas there's a context for everything sometimes the question is for you at least what becomes your context and what do you have to contextualize in other words you have your main way of looking at things and then you have other things that you can sort of integrate within that or the reverse another person might have the thing that you're contextualizing might be their context if you follow what I'm saying so he totally got it though he's like it occurs to me that is speaking about a motivation for serving Hashem which does not Place emphasis on on the personal gratification of the Soul whereas the other World Views especially especially as espoused by Byram Khal and Hashem and he explains very much the idea of tynog and Hashem wants this Hashem is good so what is the good that he wants he wants your good and he wants you to have pleasure and it's all true it's just the question is is this our underlying motivation the balotanya would say no our underlying motivation is is hashem's pleasure to be like the selfless son um so where did I leave this kid because I'm not probably not going to see him again he's going back to campus I just told him keep learning both and ultimately you got to be honest you got to find where your soul route is I'm not too you know I'm not too worried about pushing an agenda but I was really impressed that he identified that tension yeah and he's right you know I wasn't going to make it go away for him I wasn't yeah but no there's so many different yeah well the difference that's true too okay we have like a couple lines here let's finish off the chapter okay okay so let's finish off the chapter can we finish okay all right there is no one way let me say because I'm a contrarian I'm gonna say there is one way but yeah because you kind of forced me to do it by because I saw you're pleading with me to not say there's one way so now I have to say this one way but let me explain why yeah [Music] what I'll say is like this you can't say there's one way that's just too black and white but I think what you can say is that definitely for each of us at the time that we live and who we are and specific to the circumstances that we were born into and our calling in life there's going to be a path that's most effective more than all others it doesn't lessen the truth of other approaches but what it means is you know you've got to find your basharit you got to marry your other half you gotta do your thing which means you have to find your dad okay fine let's finish off this chapter is so he says this intention really is truly the intention of every Jew that ever really doubles down on this even more so but uh Levin makes this like a foundational concept that this is your true intention the loftiest intention that you're doing Mitzvahs just to give give Hashem pleasure that's your true intention where do you get it from it's from the natural love that we inherited from our forefathers I saw something very cool in meimer that I was learning on Shabbos on my birthday it was and that thank you the devil was saying Toyota is Bittle right when we accept Torah and we do hashem's will we I'm a vital ourselves we nullify nullify ourselves to Hashem but then the devil says hold on but the soul is also Bittle the soul is also in it's it's a it's a surrendered being it doesn't it's not doesn't have its own agenda okay so which is it in other words is our surrender to Hashem innate because of the Soul or is it something that is catalyzed through interacting with the mitzvahs okay that's an interesting answer so listen to what he says he says it's clear that there's a certain degree of innate surrender that the soul already has without Torah as evidenced by this this was very cool to me when Hashem offered the Torah we said NASA venishma which was a an expression of submissiveness so clearly we have submissiveness before we got the Torah because our response to whether we wanted to receive the Torah was a submissive response so there's a certain amount of bittel of surrender to Hashem we already had before the Torah which we were expressing when we said we will do and then we will hear however there's a further degree of bittel that can only be achieved through the mitzvahs because then you are channeling hashem's will and you are setting yourself completely aside in just being an extension of his will so at any rate back on the point here is tough shin Lama tests it was the baluska mimer from Shabbos 1969. okay so he says this intent is true it's real this is what you really want because you inherited from your forefathers this selflessness however don't lie back on the fact that you inherited this spiritual trust fund you have to set times to meditate on the greatness of God so that you can also develop intellectual gender intellectually generated love and awe cooler and maybe just maybe dot dot dot like like mentioned above and I think what he's referring to I think see if it says in the English there but it feels like he's referring back to the end of chapter . doesn't have anything maybe or maybe it's just not referring back to any particular chapter although it says like mentioned above I think what he's saying is he's recognizing ultimately this is more of the domain of asadic nevertheless he's giving you a hint that it's a it is approachable and ultimately it's congruent with your deepest desire so here's what he says look you have this desire to do what Hashem wants and just doing it only because it pleases a chef okay uh set times to consciously think about the greatness of God to try to make that a conscious motivation and it'll have whatever effect it has and maybe just maybe if you do it often enough at some point it'll click and then it'll become completely your only motivation okay but anyway that's the end of chapter 41 remember what we're doing now 41 through 50 every chapter is going to be another type of love another type of awe different meditations that elicit the different love and the different law that's what we're doing we're going to be doing for many weeks to come God willing