Text-Based Tanya—Week #58

okay all right so this is the weekly text-based Tanya what chapter are we up to 35 35 very good this is somewhat of a milestone as we explained in our very first class and those who weren't with us from the very beginning um either those who join us in person here at the Olivia's library on Central Avenue every week or those who watch online you can go back to class one and you can yeah just go back to class number one I think this class number 50 six or seven or I don't remember I lost track but um we explained the first class that Tanya has a structure the altaraba gave chapter numbers to different chapters he didn't give them chapter titles which would have given you a bigger hint as to what they're about but we have to do some of the work so we have to give our own chapter titles to the chapters to figure out what they're about and then in addition to the chapter titles what we've done and we pray that this is somewhat helpful and somewhat correct is given informal titles to groups of chapters and I speak about this at length in the first class you can go back and watch class number one whenever what was that a year or two ago whatever that was okay but if you remember I said that in Tanya there are obvious discernible themes where there are groups of chapters that explore one theme and then they finish and then another group of chapters explores another theme spoke about that kind of if you were here for class number one you kind of remember it's kind of kind of sounds familiar okay so why October 11 2021 okay so that's when that was you have your notes very good excellent okay in chapter 26 we began the theme of joy and we've been doing that since uh 26 until till last week when we finished chapter 34. now maybe I'll review very very quickly what we've done since chapter one hmm very briefly chapter one through eight is what I call the the uh lexicon of Tanya it's to teach you all the major Concepts that we're going to need to know the two Souls the ten Soul Powers the three Soul garments and if you're listening to this you're like what are these you're hitting me too fast with all these different numbers and words that means it's fine you're not a dumb person you just don't know those terms go back to lesson one that's it that's all that means you're not in on the lingo and by the way that's why the altebra put all that stuff in the beginning of Tanya so that you would be in on that Lego because if you don't if you never taught those terms then it's not that you're a dumb person it's just you weren't uh taught what you know with those it's a it's a it's a technical language that is specific Italian in fact even if you've learned other Panini you might have to relearn this because the author of it doesn't necessarily use these terms the same way it's used in other swatham it's an internal system it's internally consistent it's interesting even in some of the outfit of his own slottom other than Tanya uh he says that the usage of language is different the the Tanya has a very specific way of using these terms um okay at any rate so one through eight we learned about the the whole all the big ideas that we're gonna need to know and it was predicated upon the premise I should I guess I should mention that the the title page was brought a verse do you remember which verse was on the title page of Tanya on the title page yeah there's a verse from the Torah that the Tanya's title page says the whole book okay let's say say it slowly together key code lasso very good okay this thing meaning Torah observance is very near to you meaning accessible attainable in your mouth in your heart that you may do it okay and he says we're going to explain how it is accessible all right it's enough to know that it's successful I guess that kind of you have a total reverse that says it's successful I guess it's kind of encouraging but it's also kind of frustrating because I don't know how it is accessible so the title page says that the purpose of the book is to explain how it is accessible okay okay this is going to come up later today very soon actually just follow me chapter 9 we introduced the two kings fighting over the city that little metaphor over there denizens yeah very good remember the word denizens yeah okay and then we started talking about Tyler gross obeying to chapter 10 with Sadiq in chapter 11 was Russia and 12 was bainini 13 News 10 with sadik 11 was Russia so I was mainly 13 was baitany 14 was Bane 15 was been the book is about the mainly yeah yeah and we said that the main thing he does is he controls himself inhibition you don't have to do everything feel like doing control yourself okay then we gave another tool chapter 16-17 we said oh but by the way there is a way to slowly change your emotions it's called meditation that was 16 and 17. slowly change your emotions through meditation then 18 to 25 was well what if you need to quickly change your emotions okay we have something called Obama sites the hidden love it's already there it was Factory install just you have to trigger it and we spoke about how to trigger it and it's basically the idea of the the power that the Jewish Soul has to sacrifice everything to preserve its connection to God okay how do you trigger that usually it comes out in very intense life or death situations so he teaches us how you know a little life hack how to trigger it was 18 through 25. okay 26-34 he comes in he says joy we got to have joy we know why because if we don't have joy we're not going to be able to do the things that we were taught how to do because everything that you do joyfully you do well and if you don't do it joyfully you don't do it well so 26 34 we focused on Joy at this point we have our methods for for being being abandonedly pretty clearly laid out and we have the emotional Tools in order to implement those methods follow what I'm saying it's like he tells us how to be a baby here's what you got to do oh and in order that you should be able to do that stuff here's how to stay emotionally healthy so he gave us all of that in the first 34 chapters you follow okay so now what's now what's happening at this point at this point remember I told in class one to kind of imagine it like every chapter is another because the the rabbit shahb said anyone who learns Tanya has this as a personal audience with the altered so why are you coming back why are you bothering the outside again you have to have a new issue a new question that had not Arisen earlier if it's a good question if it's a good problem the best problems are problems that you wouldn't have had before you had your previous solution good Solutions lead to new problems so now I have a new question see my original question when I came into the outlet of it to begin with before chapter one even started what was my problem my problem was a lot of I was so confused I didn't even know about the two Souls I didn't know about any of that stuff and I was just like what's wrong with me and am I a hypocrite am I a liar am I a faker what I just want to serve Hashem but then I don't want to serve a sham so the first thing he did for me is just give me clarity he explained to me my dichotomy okay then I was like okay what do I do about this he said focus on Behavior okay great how do I focus on behavior and he told me the first kind of my account to our life you can do things that you don't feel like doing wow I know that but that that counts of course that counts of course that's what you're going to do all right and then he told me a new tool after that you could actually kind of slowly and directly change your emotions through meditation oh amazing what about while I'm waiting for that to kick in oh you could quickly change your emotions temporarily through triggering the the latent love okay if you guys follow what I'm doing I'm going through the whole time okay oh but by the way I had a bad day now I don't feel like doing any of the things you've told me to do already okay great we're going to deal with how to overcome your emotional issues so that you can always be joyful and you can always implement the tools that we've learned so far great does this resemble the Tanya that you've been learning okay since October 11 2021 okay fine so now I have a new problem here's my problem my problem is I'm questioning the entire method of Tanya in fact I'm questioning the entire meaning of life because I've been rolling with it so far I've been just rolling with it and I can't deny that it makes a lot of sense but now I have a question a burning question that is sort of going to poke a hole in the entire system the whole Tanya and my entire understanding of of life itself and that is okay I don't want to say I don't want to sound disrespectful but it sounds like what the altaraba has done is he just moved the goal posts you know that expression basically I came in with a complaint about my ability to serve God and then he dazzled me and Confused me and and made me think that something was the goal and it really wasn't the goal don't want to sound cynical I don't want to sound skeptical but here's what I'm thinking and forgive me for saying this I still can't perfect my insides my emotions are still a Battleground I still have a very active animal soul on an internal level even if I've successfully implemented everything he's told me to do and I'm now abandon me which means I have behavioral Perfection okay I have behavioral Perfection but on the inside I still have all types of unwholesome urges that I'm dealing with on a constant basis no no no no you're good you're good you're good because as long as you focus on behavioral Perfection you're good well I'm sorry but with all due respect isn't that just changing the goal post what you did is you gave me a manageable goal called behavioral perfection okay I'm laughing to myself because I'm like behavioral Perfection is a manageable goal but but yeah I mean sure that's what we're talking about but behavioral Perfection is a manageable goal as opposed to emotional Perfection which is like we already said that's the realm of the Sadiq only at Sadiq is going to only ever feel holy things okay but basically here's what I'm saying I'm questioning the Tanya and I'm questioning if if Tonya is correct and I'm questioning all of life requesting the purpose of life because questioning the Tanya because basically all it did was give me this modified version of Yiddish kite where you just focus on your behaviors oh yeah I know you meditate and change your emotions a little but you'll never fully get there because you're never going to be a tadiq right so I'm questioning that and then I'm questioning if Tanya is correct then I'm questioning the purpose of life because so then that's what I came here for God took my soul put it in a body and now the best that I can with a lot of hard work the best I'll ever achieve is behavioral Perfection but I'll never I'll never be rid of that internal emotional conflict it's always going to be there so and that's what that's what it's all about Alfie that's what it's all about you guys don't get any references for baccarat he's still alive but it does get better yeah because yeah it gets better but I'm gonna put and it's up and down and let me let me push back that even when you're doing your Aveda panimus which means your inner work and your emotions are becoming more refined but at the end of the day you're ever going to become a tonic no no okay so then I never arrive always striving never arriving and that's my complaint okay okay maybe not everybody well I I don't I don't I don't know you say but you knew that from the beginning I was rolling with it because I didn't have any better plan but now we're up to chapter 35 and I'm saying hold on a second can I question the premise of this entire approach of course of course you're entitled to question the premise well that's what we're doing that's what we're doing so the outer ebb and now is going to address these basic questions what's it all about okay um pediglometer chapter 35 vehicle say now we're going to explain a little bit more the word La assay say to do it remember where that word is yeah in the possible which appears first where in Tanya on the title page very good okay and he keeps revisiting that Posse if you remember he Revisited in fact he Revisited the word different he revisits different words but he already Revisited the word uh last say so that's why he says beer to explain even more because he already explained the word to do it you remember when he said to do it is an explanation of in your heart that your heart will only be refined enough to be able to manage doing what you've got to do that that was that was earlier okay now we're going to look at this word to do it from another angle so that's one thing the gam also Allah we wanted we want to understand a little bit the purpose of the creation of abandoning why did God make such people if you read this why did their souls come to this world to be invested within an animal Soul right there Godly Soul gets invested within an animal Soul which comes from clip and Sutra why would that happen I mean they'll never be able to to banish the animal Soul their whole life and they'll never dislodge it from their left ventricle is they'll never manage to quiet it down so that they won't have inappropriate impulses arise to their brain because the power of their animal Soul has remained as strong as it ever was since they were born has not gotten weaker even with all this Tanya work that they've been doing all they've managed to do these Main in him is to make sure that the lavushim that technical language from chapter four that the modes of behavior behavioral expression of the animal Soul are not allowed to have free reign but internally on an emotional level they're still fraught with all of that conflict the incaine if so I ask you why did their souls come down to this world to toil in vain God forbid why were they given a life which is inherently this this torture of of being engaged in a task that they will never finish to fight the evil inclination their whole lifetime but they'll never defeat it why why would somebody's purpose be that why would somebody come down just for that will there never be resolution the best you're offering me is behavioral perfection so that's the question the burning question okay all right I wonder how many books question their own premise right in the middle of the book wow right yeah I mean it shows a certain confidence that the altadab is not worried to start poking holes in the whole premise but here's the thing if if the outdated didn't ask it we would still eventually think it and we'd be left with that we'd be left with that doubt so to my understanding of the purpose of Tanya that's where the outlet is bringing it up because he knows that we have this question like the whole Tanya has been him trying to stay one step ahead of us and ask our questions before we do right before we do but not too early that's to me what the whole Tanya is it's an it's an organic process it's the it's the questions that you have as you implement the system okay so if you understand where we're where we're up to okay all right well see he's ice nakamasam let this be their comfort I like that word comfort to comfort them doubly and to Gladden their heart regarding Hashem who dwells with them during their Torah study and their service so we're going to comfort and glad in the heart of the person who just really realized I mean he I know he realized before because it said it said it in Chapter 13 that even if you're obeying the year nephewbamus is getting stronger your whole life but he didn't really register it fully till now and now he's like what this is what I signed up for and I didn't even sign up for it they just threw me into it okay all right all right now put on your seat belts we're gonna do a little okay he says I want to teach you a little thing from the Zohar means the little kid there was a weird little kid in the Zion who was going around saying eerily precocious things are precociously Eerie things I'm not sure which one he was some little I don't know spiritual kid and some this particular thing he says is not even that weird but there are stories where he says more uncanny things at any rate so the yanuka from the zayat he says an explanation which is a posic from mishley from the Proverbs of King Solomon a wise person's eyes are in his head okay so the yanuka this this little kid he says Vicky is there any other place it sounds like a Jewish comedian is there any other place where you're you keep your eyes I also keep my eyes in my head where else do you keep your eyes not in your head in your head over yeah in your head yeah Ella Crow but here's the here's certainly the proper way to read the verse a person should not go four cubits with an uncovered hat my time or what's the reason the shinta Sharia because the divine presence is hovering on his head um so every wise person he keeps his eyes on his head not visually but meaning he's focused on his head behold this in other words he's monitoring that which is hovering on his head meaning the shin of the divine presence while he's monitoring it he's keeping his eye on the fuel on the uh what do you call the fuel gauge to make sure that that shrina on his head that divine presence on his head has enough fuel he calls it Mishka which is oil burns on oil runs on oil begin to go for The baranashihub Silo because after all his body is awake nahida adlik lay law and the flame is burning up above you should never lack oil on your head that means the flame on your head needs oil these are the good deeds and that's what it means that the wise person's eyes are not in his head but on his head that is the end of the quote from the eunucha in other words follow there's a complex allegory with different parts there is the wick there is the oil there is the flame now the whole package wick oil and Flame is you you are with oil and flight the wick is the body the wick is the body the oil are the good deeds mitzvahs the flame is the light of the divine presence so he says King Solomon says the wise person is keeping his eyes in his head it really means he keeps his eyes on his head meaning he's monitoring he's checking he's constantly watching and making sure that this Shina flame that is on his head is getting enough fuel pumped to it so that it can keep going which means he's making sure that he's doing enough Mitzvahs Good Deeds that will keep pumping fuel to that light okay follow all right oil the wick deflate all right so we got it what is the wick the body okay what is the oil mixes and what is the flame okay excellent now you want to become part of the top point zero zero one percent of people who learn Tanya okay we're not there already no no no you're no you're not but you're about to you're part of the 0.001 I'm Gonna Make You part of the point 0001 most people who learn Tanya a lot of Tanya a lot of time you'll ask them what is the wick and they know the body and the oil The Good Deeds what is the flame oh the soul no that was in chapter 19 there and they forget here the flame is the shrina and in fact he makes a big point about the fact that the soul doesn't help in this equation here I'm not going to get into it yet right now but he makes a big point about the fact that having a soul is not going to help with any of this stuff what what matters here is the body and the body's actions in other words the mitzvah's Mitzvahs are all bodily actions in fact let me just say that again because it's really super important for this chapter in the next three chapters Mitzvahs are all physical actions that you do with your body okay continuing there let's explain this muscle this allegory by which the light of the screen as compared to the flame of a candle mayor of the nahi shaman which will not take hold of the wick without oil you can't light a dry Wick you can't get the light of the shrinath to dwell on your body if you're not doing Mitzvahs thank you foreign except through physical acts of kindness it is not enough that he has an ashama you're going to say Divine Light Of course Divine Light I have an ashama the Divine Light will follow my neshama well maybe in heaven that would work but down here no that's not how it works the Divine Light is not produced by your neshama the Divine Light is produced by your body doing mitzvahs now the soul is a portion of God above you would think that it's got everything it needs but it it won't lease he it cannot serve as fuel for the wick move forward moving look cool moscule this will be understood by any intelligent person all right let's try to do this let's explain to you why you're innate Holiness is not enough specifically in regards to spreading shrinolite in the world why isn't it enough why do I need to do Mitzvahs in order to have the schna light settle upon me and radiate from me he'll explain Adam the soul even if it's the soul of it Sadiq you can't get more pure than that a soul and it's a soul of a Sadiq wow who's serving Hashem with on with love in fact not just love but delightful love it's a very high level of love what's it called life beloved yeah yeah in a very high level of love Alpha PK nevertheless even though this soul is a soul of its Sadiq and serving Hashem with loving on all that good stuff ain't a bit Taylor but Matthias she does not totally nullified out of existence to become subsumed within God liaise to become totally United with a complete Oneness it remains an entity unto itself which is in awe of God and loves him in other words a subjective relationship the soul has so much love of God has so much awe of god wow amazing yes that's precisely the issue the soul has an experience of God all of God love of God but what that means is it's the soul Experiencing God oh the soul is having an experience the soul is like they're saying quantum physics the conscious Observer right so that sounds really lofty it's amazing you have this entity which is able to have such awe of God and love of God it and it is lofty but you're describing a lofty subjective experience you know what I mean by a subjective experience it it's the soul having its perspective of God in other words it's beholding God it's seeing God as opposed to being God it's very lofty but it's not Unity it's a subject object relationship two entities you're following okay so if you're smart you're probably already thinking ahead and you're like okay so she's contrasting the soul with the body and why we need the body and its Good Deeds and he's saying that the deficiency of the soul that even the lofty of soul the soul of itsadiq is intrinsically by definition incapable of melding into that Oneness with God precisely because it's subjective experience of God Is So lofty so I'm thinking I don't know if I'm right yet he didn't say it yet but I'm thinking he's about to tell me soon something about the body that what the body is capable of what achieving Unity get the solid sink forget about the soul the Soul's incapable of having them yeah yeah the goal is to bring the screen yeah yes yes but why can't the soul accomplish that because the soul doesn't get consumed in the process the soul is observing the process it doesn't become one with with with the light of the shrina until it until it's in the body no no the soul doesn't do it ever okay I thought you guys were way ahead of where you are so I'll spell it out the soul is incapable of serving misfunction because precisely due to its lofty sensitive capacity to love God and to to to fear God it will never become one with God it will have the loftiest possible subjective experience but it will not become one with God because it's you want to talk about being an observer there's no greater Observer than the soul the soul has such sensitivity it is the greatest Observer any soul he just said even said Deacon that was what he said look three lines above he just said that he said never never never never never never never a soul can't do this a soul can't do it if you want to know about God you ask a soul because Souls have incredible insight about God but they'll never be God stop a second follow that soak that in the soul will always have incred and if you talk about high Souls solomonic which he said clearly on the page will have incredible insight about God but it can't become one with God yeah you know I doubted him and knows that he used those words himself because they just hey look at me mouth yeah it's a Godly being it's a Godly being so a baby at static are very similar well now that's that's the best thing you said all year okay no no that is that is no because [Laughter] that is an Insight wow you always said it again very similar okay so follow let's let's sit on that for a second I'm gonna come back to I'm gonna I'm not abandoning you I want hold on hold on we finished the Zohar part you could you could take off the seat belt listen listen hear what you said did a bank we're going to come back to I just she said abatement very similar in this context yeah he's about to tell you says listen buddy you're complaining you're the main you're complaining saying all I'll ever achieve at best is behavioral perfection and I'll never achieve the the I'll never resolve the internal struggle so he says okay you want to talk about that a little bit I've got another patient who I see regularly who's exotic eternal battle and he does we have perfectly holy emotions and you want to know something when he wants to be one with God you know what he has to do action the same thing I've been telling you to do you got it exactly exactly that's right that's the whole thing that's the entire point so the end of the day the baby's been bemoaning the fact that he's not exotic okay listen I know a guy who's exotic and when he wants to be one with God his soul doesn't get him there his body gets him there so that's what I've been telling you I've been saying focus on your body focus on doing the right thing same thing together that's it you once you're in this world there's only one way to become one with God and that's your physical action no yeah so yes the soul can never become one with God Soul means a lot of different things but in the present context when we're talking about the soul that has come down into this world well even in heaven because you don't have a body yeah I know but this but it but but it's gonna have a body and it did have a body it's not about the place it's about okay that's not becoming one I'm just explaining this to you follow me here this is precisely what I'm telling you that the soul for sure when it's in a body but even when it's in heaven that's not called uniting with God that's called observing God that's not becoming one with God that's observing God that's having no your eyes and your head is different your eyes in your head no that's when you're down here already and you're monitoring your physical activity the soul is incapable precisely because of its sensitivity and it's heightened consciousness all it can achieve is consciousness of God it's consciousness of God is that which inherently prevents it from becoming nullified into God it will have the loftiest level of a subjective relationship but it will not become subsumed within God's Oneness and lose that Consciousness because if it would become one with God it would lose its subjective experience of God and what is a soul a soul is the subjective experience of God it is the goal and that Soul can't achieve it about it without the body right but isn't that where I was sent down that's what so we're explaining how remember we said what's the point you took this precious soul that loves Garden is in awe of God and you plunge it into a physical body now it's trapped down here and for most of us who are not Sadiq in what that's going to mean is that the best will ever be able to hope for is behavioral Perfection and we're going to be constantly struggling with the internal emotional conflicts and what's the point of it all so he says you want to know the point of it all the point of it all is what okay it's a fuel the Irish which we didn't explain what does that mean by the way why is that the objective but yes okay you know we should keep going so we can find out why fueling that other screener is the purpose of life the purpose of all creation actually okay let's keep going all right all right [Applause] so the soul in heaven even the loftiest Soul on the loftiest level will never become one with God it'll just be observing God saying however in contrast the Mitzvahs The Good Deeds are God's will tennis God's will is the source of all existence foreign in his will predicated this whole system of concealment concealment after concealment until there was a world that could exist in a way that appears to be separate and not nullified to its creator Chinese but the Mitzvahs do not suffer from that concealment the energy of the Mitzvahs remain completely unfiltered they Remain the original will Allah the Mitzvahs remained completely one with God so follow what we're saying everything's one with God but some of it's very very concealed how it's one With God all of creation is one with God but some of that's very very concealed creation is a process by creation I don't judgment creation of the physical world I mean creation of all the spiritual planes that were part of the process to get to the net results of having a physical world all of that was basically a series of concealment after concealment after concealment now it's all hashem's will if he didn't want it it wouldn't be there so it's all his will but that will is very very hidden to the to the point where you even have clippers which fights Hashem which would appear to be against his will now it's really not against his will or it wouldn't exist obviously he wants it or wouldn't exist but his will is now very very very very very very hidden so we're going through an existence where God's will is hidden the Mitzvahs however are his unfiltered will that's what I want don't mix wool and linen I don't like it okay that's just his his unfiltered unconcealed will you following this so far okay fine let's go a little bit further well can we get to a okay I think we can go a few more lines and get to a good resting place for today all right haha Virginia the the shrina dwelling on something basically means godliness being revealed on something or in something is that that thing becomes one with God and then the Oneness of God God who is all one dwells upon it and is revealed within it is but anything that's not totally nullified to God Hashem is Gala Bay the light of God can't dwell on it so listen so counter-intuitive so counterintuitive in the more spiritual you are the more you're going to Grapple with this who's cleaving to Hashem with with with love his thoughts cannot grasp God so he's so super sensitive he's so super god conscious but it won't bring him into Oneness with God impossible you want to know the real the real God the real God is Oneness if you're experiencing him on a conscious level that's not Oneness because if you're still there to experience it that's not Oneness the incaine if so there I have this one who's loving God right now we're talking about the soul of this Sadiq who's loving God who yes he's something not a nothing he's a something he's a something that's loving God and he's loving God excellently might I add Ed late Feast of big cloud but his thoughts cannot grasp God if they ain't under Hashem is the light of God will not dwell on him or be revealed with him with him in him it was the only way is through Mitzvahs upon him because our hashems on hidden unfiltered will so listen to this the soul can't do it even the soul of the Sadiq the irony is the loftier the soul and the more profound its experience of God the more it's locked into an experience of God it's seeing God as opposed to being God the body however has no conscious experience it's a Golem has no conscious experience has no sensitivity no love of God no awe of God perfect it can just purely Channel God in a totally surrendered manner and not get in the way the soul is actually getting in the way the soul is getting in the way because it's filtering everything through its experience the soul is like the frustration why the frustration That's The Human Experience because we're back and forth and the soul is feeling one thing our body's feeling another so what he's saying here is that the real Ultimate objective can never be achieved through the soul okay let let's wrap it up he says I learned from my teacher from the from them as Richa Magid that the ironsov cannot become one even in the world of adilis the highest world except by being invested first in mushrooms the real ainsov is is Oneness and that can only uh without getting the whole explanation of different spheroids but that could only happen on the level of but any lower than that even in nazillus it can't happen in other words it has to be total surrender and the soul is incapable of that surrender yeah the soul is in Cape of the part they don't worry about the Hawkman Park is isma it is the power of what meaning the the nothing the surrender and therefore it is capable of channeling the infinite anything else even spheroes othersilos can't do it because they're too much of an entity they're too much of an entity and the soul is also too much of an entity yeah is Beto like we explained earlier the point he's making is you want to you want a soul to accomplish this even the spirit of its healers can't accomplish it the next potato let's wrap up here when a person learns you know what actually that's a good spot right there at that Virginia so let's wrap it up okay for now we're going to come back next week we'll start from vahina okay no no I'm going to start from the beginning of that sentence next week okay so here we go just to wrap up you're coming to the outlet you're saying hold on a second you're giving me a goal to become in control of my behaviors okay but you're admitting I'll never completely settle the internal emotional battle he said yeah I told you that okay so I'm questioning a that's really a valid goal like that's the goal and B if that is the goal then what's the point of my life so he says to you I want to explain to you you are coveting the kind of spiritual path that the Sadiq is on I want you to understand something the tadiq has that which you will never have and yet ultimately must resort to the exact same thing that I've been telling you to do the action exactly so you're bemoting the fact that your whole Yiddish kite is focused on Behavior or primarily emphasizes behavior and you're feeling like well what's the point and what I'm telling you is that is the point that's the point for everyone the soul cannot get us there even if you would have the soul of itsadiq it can't get us there now we haven't explained yet we're still in the middle of the chapter why there is there in other words why is that the goal we haven't explained that we haven't explained why uniting and becoming one with God through surrendering our behaviors to his will as embodied in the Mitzvahs why that is the whole point of creation we didn't explain that yet but we will and once you understand that then you will be comforted because you'll realize that the kind of Yiddish kite has been coaching you to do for the past 34 chapters is the only kind of Yiddish kite that will ultimately accomplish the purpose of creation and that Sadiq has to do the same thing and what the Sadiq is doing that you're jealous of you're not missing out on anything as far as accomplishing the purpose of creation if anything when the Sadiq is trying to purpose accomplish the purpose of creation the title is emulating more of your style of serving Hashem