Text-Based Tanya Class—Week #44

all right welcome back weekly Tanya text based inside every single word of the Holy text of Tanya we started over a year ago we're continuing we are in the middle of chapter 27. interesting we've been spending a few weeks on chapter 27. I think this is the third maybe even the fourth week of chapter 20 so I'm not sure really yeah yeah yeah but there's a lot of good stuff in chapter 27 very often I'll just tell you something when people ask me to give a one-off time this year for people who never study Tanya and they say give them one chapter as like their Taste of Tanya I think ninety percent of the time I do chapter 27. yeah I just feel like chapter 27 is like a little microcosm of Tanya there's so much in there so many ideas there's emotional well-being and there's the struggle of the vanity and the inherent value of the struggle and so many of the main themes of Tanya and our power our uh our leverage that we have beyond our own personal struggle and how we affect the world for the good so many great Concepts okay so just to review in chapter 27 we've been speaking about uh cherishing the fact that Hashem placed us in a situation where we have to struggle to be good people he gave us internal resistance otherwise known as an animal cell and uh the the need to overcome that is not a bug it's a feature there is value in the struggle we spoke about the fact that every time we overcome that struggle it weakens the forces of negativity in the universe we spoke about the fact that um Hashem gets a unique Delight from our struggle remember the metaphor of the one chip challenge yes the Pocky chips the one chip Jones thank you somebody else the habanero yeah yeah remember I told you I ate the ghost pepper chips yes but by the way the one chip challenge is not ghost pepper it is Carolina Reaper pepper which is even hotter it's from the Carolinas what no I'm not sure I think yeah anyways um so sometimes Hashem is in the mood for some sweet yummy chocolates and that's called The Sweet yummy service that the perfectly righteous are able to muster by by Dent of their completely pure uh purified animal Soul which has become for all intents and purposes a second Godly Soul so they have no struggle and their service of Hashem is delightful to Hashem like like sweetness but then Hashem also gets pleasure from the spicy treat of the pain and knee struggling against his unrefined animal assault okay he gets more pleasure from that you think it's got more pleasure okay I mean we didn't say what she gets more pleasure from we said he gets pleasure from both but sure why not okay I mean could you prove that no you couldn't prove one oh maybe maybe there's more of us than yeah yeah yeah okay it's possible majority yeah okay that that is a Torah concept we go after the majority okay at any rate so somebody asked a few weeks ago and I was like just wait just wait just wait if this thing is so powerful remember what you said the ramifications of your overcoming your internal struggle has like a positive effect on the whole universe if this is such a powerful thing could we generalize this technique and start to apply it even in areas that don't necessarily inherently require a struggle in other words I understand if something is forbidden according to Torah law then it requires a struggle because I'm obligated to try to overcome it but what about something that's not a clear-cut black and white Torah prohibition what if it's something neutral would I be able to get the same bang for my buck so to speak overcoming a struggle in something that was optional and neutral do you remember that question I'm going to give you many examples because that's the entire focus of today but you understand the premise yeah that was your question remember from like you were sitting over there okay that's remarkable when people move seats it was like two weeks ago and you're sitting on the couch okay so let's see we are at the text of a light Aid we are at the line in the text of the late and furthermore even when dealing with perfectly permissible things okay so now we've switched until now we were speaking about the need to struggle to overcome the urge God forbid to transgress a Torah prohibition now we're not talking about prohibitions we're talking about totally neutral stuff stuff that you're allowed to do you're allowed to do it it's permissible so furthermore Village means like I'll tell you even more a bigger a bigger novelty that even when it comes to things that are perfectly permissible foreign every little bit that a person can sacrifice his inclination and here's the second bombshell even for a moment he says means even for a brief fleeting moment um but he does so with deliberate intent of subjugating the negative forces in his left ventricle I'm not going to explain that that's back back from chapter one when we spoke about how the animal soul is in the oxygenated blood that's pumped from the left ventricle if you want to find out more about that go back to the recordings chapter one so even if for a moment he is able to master his desire his desire for a perfectly permissible thing once he gives in he's not doing anything wrong it's not a transgression but what he does is he pushes it off having not just he pushes it off because you know uh he got busy he got distracted he had something else to do no he says here specifically having in mind that right now what I'm doing is I am subjugating the forces of negativity by mastering my own desires it happens to be that this particular desire is a permissible one so there's nothing wrong with giving into it but the cool thing is exerting some self-control even over this perfectly permissible desire will have the same positive effect in the universe as resisting the desire for a transgression yes that is a Biblical principle sanctify yourself even in that which I'm adding the word even even in that which is permissible right act like a mensch even when you're doing things that you're allowed to do yeah very good and now he gets into examples let's look at an example good going for example he wants to eat um but he delays his meal for an hour or even less so he pushes off his meal he's ready to eat and he pushes off his meal for an hour it's not because it's intermittent fasting remember he said he's doing it for an intention he's doing it for a purpose he has in mind that he's doing this in order to subjugate the forces of negativity by locally subjugating his own desires the Isaac and instead he learns Torah during that time see that's part yeah that's part of it because it's not just like oh uh I'm not going to eat I want to eat right now but instead I'm going to watch a movie well that's not really self-mastery is it self-mastery oh thank you thank you so much everybody okay um self-mastery is I could be doing something neutral permissible totally acceptable there's nothing wrong with it it's not a sin God forbid it's fine it's not a Mitzvah either but it's there's nothing wrong with it in fact eventually I'm gonna do it I gotta eat eventually gonna eat but to exert some control over my desires I'm going to eat an hour later than I wanted to and during that time I'm gonna I'm gonna I'm gonna study Torah yeah so the reason that it's similar to being able to stop yourself from doing something bad because it's like the prep work to stop yourself from doing something bad it's like exercise no no no that's a great question but the answer is no you're saying oh maybe I'll learn self-mastery in cases where nothing really prohibits at stake so even when I lose I when even when I give in eventually I'm not sinning and then eventually I'll work up to no that's not what it's saying it's saying something much more powerful than that it's saying that there's such value to this struggle and the Dynamics of the struggle and the cosmic ripple effect of the struggle that it will that will work even when your struggle isn't against anything that's wrong to give in to just delaying gratification alone has value delaying gratification alone has value even when that gratification is a permissible form of gratification even when that form of gratification is inevitable meaning eventually you will give in to it but just delaying it with with intention yeah yeah very good has power the intention is like we said I'm subjugating the forces of negativity in the universe by locally controlling my own urges another way to see that subjugating negative forces of energy making the world a better Holier godlier place for everybody doesn't that's the whole point that's the whole point that doesn't again can I give an example he just gave an example right that's why I'm having an issue well I guess it all comes to intent deleting so that I can learn soda which no no no no no he's not saying I'm gonna eat so that I can learn to the contract right right maybe I'll eat in order to learn Torah instead of right you need the strength yeah maybe I should go eat and then learn yeah but it's not that he's doing in order to learn to the contrary maybe you should eat first and then he'll be able to learn better he's going to explain actually let's let's go inside because he explains this let's let's look at the let's look at the actual archetypical example from our from our tradition says in the gamada the fourth hour is the normal meal time for normal people if you're talking about a let's take a typical day or not a typical day but an average day the easiest day mathematically to work with because as you know halachic hours are not 60 Minute hours they're relative hours they're seasonal hours so imagine like it's the equinox and you have sunrise at 6 a.m and sunset at 6 p.m so the fourth hour would be the first hours at 6 a.m second hours at 7 A.M third hours at 8 A.M so the fourth hour is 9 A.M so he doesn't eat until 9 A.M these people got up at dawn or before even and they didn't eat until nine that's normal people would eat at nine but the sixth hour the hour going into noon meaning 11 a.m till 12 P.M Michael talmire is the scholars meal time that's what the gamada says the regular people would eat between nine and ten they would you know they would break their fast we call break fast and breakfast and um the sages would not eat until a couple hours later analyzes this and he says they would starve themselves obviously Starve is probably a clumsy translation even though that's the literal translation but I don't think they're starving it was an extra two hours okay they would starve themselves for two extra hours with this intention with this how do you know they did it with this intention maybe they were just busy maybe they just didn't get around to it maybe they were waiting for The Omelette station to be set up maybe okay so he proves it basically he says because after their meal they would learn all day long we're talking about the scholars who used to study all day so don't tell me oh they would eat breakfast later so they could learn more Torah that's not true because they would learn Toyota after eating breakfast as well so it's not like oh I can only learn until my meal and then after my meal I can't learn anymore they would learn before they ate they would learn after they ate so this the same net amount of minutes of Torah study is going on so eating later doesn't make more Torah study quantitatively so then what was the point of pushing off the meal time it was entirely for this purpose of exerting some degree of self-mastery over something that's perfectly permissible because you're allowed to eat and in fact you must eat and in fact eventually they did eat just two hours later and in those two hours there's a degree of self-mastery that is happening that you cannot achieve if you just tend to the desire immediately when it occurs now if you do tend to the desire immediately win a curse you're not doing a sin there's nothing sinful here but if you have the opportunity to make yourself more of a mensch to make the world the nicer Kinder gentler place just by exerting some self-control why not seize that opportunity and that's what we're describing here if you don't have if you have the intent way back and you forget and then you forgot why you were doing it did like one of those you know you remind me of by the way that's only a question that a mother would ask I remember I saw a meme I like Mommy memes the I I almost get them yeah I kind of get them like come vicariously I get them one of my favorites was instructions for making iced coffee was um get pregnant have a baby make coffee forget you made coffee drink iced coffee so you had an intention yesterday I'm going to delay my breakfast two hours for this for chapter 27 of Tanya and then you end up delaying it for three hours and not even remembering why yeah okay what are you gonna say in what way does it make the world a better place why are you questioning your axioms don't question okay what the same way that last week it makes the same way that last week did so she's going to say well how did last week work okay all right fine it's a fair question it's a fair question yeah and did you see where that's for us but she's asking how does the mystical part of it work yeah on a societal level it's clear that more self-control will have benefits but you're asking that mystical thing where we're saying that it's not just helping you to become a mensch it's actually making the world a better place okay so remember what he said last week he said that basically every time you overcome your urges what happens is it triggers a reciprocal response your uh you're engaging with your personal struggle down here elicits a reciprocal response from on high from Hashem who then brings down the forces of negativity remember the little metaphor we had from the prophet evadja Obadiah yeah he swats God swats It Down Like an Eagle like this haughty eagle flying up and then God swaps it swaps it down and says not so fast mister I guess that's what he says at any rate so there's this reciprocity set up it's called an arousal From Below an arousal from above there's a dynamic interplay between us and Hashem so things that we do become mirrored from on high Therefore your little struggle little is not so little after all because Hashem then mirrors it on the grand scale on the macro scale and then it benefits the entire world the bombshell news of this part of the chapter that we're learning today is that you don't have to wait for your animal soul to be drawn to something that's inappropriate to have this opportunity you can have this opportunity even when you are desirous of something that's completely permissible and in fact something that you are going to allow yourself to have eventually but you're simply going to delay when you give in to it and it will have this impact on yourself and on the world yeah okay so um I used to love um Kirkland's potato chips Kirkland potato chips Kirkland in general is I just wanted so everyone should know people laugh at Kirkland oh Kirkland okay I know it's a brand it's the Costco brand it's a very good brand Kirkland quality control they test their product against the leading a competitor or the name brand and they make sure that their quality is 150 percent that means one and a half times as good so Kirkland is good stuff don't laugh at Kirkland okay every time I see this bag in the stores so but some people say you're never allowed to eat Fishel but is that's not visual okay so this is a wonderful question that very few people relate to but those who do relate to it will find it profound so here's the moral dilemma Kirkland potato chips are wonderful but they're not bishel ISRO now there are Orthodox rabbis who will tell you that the potato what special you throw well be sure you throw let's get into a little bit I actually had to study these salakas to become a rabbi that perfectly kosher food that was cooked by non-jews can be prohibited um just because there's this additional rabbinic enactment that we're supposed to eat food that was uh cooked by Jews and like yeah he didn't even know about this bishop okay so I'm just what about Caterers what about Caterers yeah that's why you'll notice that by the caterer yeah well that's why okay now we're getting a fascinating discussion and that's how you're gonna notice so there's something called there's something called turning on the flame or turning up the flame of it okay at any rate so we're getting a fascinating discussion of visual Israel at any rate but the foods that have to be cooked by Jews are only foods that would be served at a state dinner something that would be fit for the table of Kings so the question guys don't chat among yourself while I'm talking about something that you find not relevant that's not fair okay so here's the thing by the way I'll tell you about him since you got me started on a tangent now I love tangents okay you know it was always known that this is before the Advent of such ubiquitous kosher options that a Jew wherever you were you could find a box of manishevitz matzah and you can find a can of sardines and the sardines that was like that was your protein that was it okay and the bottle of gefiltevus yeah yeah but even in yeah the jelly jelly broth felt the fish but even in places where they didn't have the jelly breath filter fish you could find a can of sardines and then somebody started saying uh uh uh you can't eat the sardines because there's a brand of sardines called King Oscar sardines King Oscar was the king of Sweden and therefore it means that sardines they are fit for a king's table because King Oscar is a king and therefore you can no longer eat the sardines because they have to be Bishop you throw and sorry so what's the answer actually King Oscar it's a branding it's a branding there's no King Oscar no there was a king oscar but he didn't make sardines someone someone you're right yeah yeah um it's called merchandising by the way what is the most profitable brand in all of merchandising in the history of the world just guess all seasons no merchandising means you sell your little image and other people make products with it on it just guess what Nike is a brand in and of itself I'm talking about people who don't make their own stuff they just don't think we know you don't know Pokemon go look it up Pokemon huge Pokemon yeah yeah okay I'm just telling you I'm just telling you okay you want to get me started on tangents I will punish you with the most irrelevant tangents okay at any rate so King Oscar would only eat the sardines on his hunting trips no because they store well you can bring them on your hunting trips and then have refrigerators in the hunting trip so he didn't serve them at State dinners and therefore sardines are not served on a king's table and sardines do not have to be visual use at all but the jury is still out about potato chips and there are Orthodox or rabbis who will tell you the potato chips do have to be misfully installed and there are Orthodox will tell you they do not and then don't get me started on the Pringles the Pringles could be better the Pringles could be worse the Pringles because I want to but that's not King's table I want to tell you about the but well here's the whole debate is it about the form or is it about the original thing because potatoes like a baked potato would be served on a king's table maybe not in a potato chip form but does it go by the food or does it go by the form like a hamburger wouldn't be served on a king's table but beef would so if you take the steak and grind it in a hamburger does it no longer oh this is so confusing at any rate so the answer is you are surely doing the world of favor when you control yourself and do not eat the Kirkland potato chips thank you thank you for your service what it doesn't matter because if it's prohibited then you're surely like the model of how we learned this thing was to avoid prohibited things and then if it's not even prohibited you're still doing it so either way you're making the world a better place by not eating the Kirkland potato chips is it just the just the communities do I have already for potato chips okay so let's let's continue uh yeah and so too watch this guys the cane and so too milit if you if you hold back your mouth from speaking words mundane words that you really want to say now are we talking about Lush and Hara no how do you know we're not talking about nothing right very good because after all the Pokemon and everything you guys still are sharp that's good I thought I distracted you so much you would not even remember what we're learning today so you're right because if it were Lush and harder then obviously you're not allowed to speak Russian heart I mean slander is gossip you're not allowed to speak that but we're talking about things that you could speak about there's nothing wrong with speaking about it hey did you watch the Oscars I don't know maybe that's prohibited but well I'm just thinking about inane conversation people try to have with me so oh how's the weather oh did you watch that sports game last night with the local team that kind of stuff yeah well you told us that when we go to the net you know to the next world yeah that's open to hear the back of our heads what chapter little voice what chapter know what's just gas just gas just gas just it was about hell yes what chapter guess I don't like how I never learned about how until Rabbi time was okay I'm the first person to tell you about Johanna okay so I'm glad that I exposed you to that concert it's a Jewish concept what chapter of Tanya was okay I open it up to everyone what chapter of time did we talk about it no no no it's much earlier much earlier close to 10 yeah okay it was eight okay and at any rate so you want to say something it's not a prohibited thing to say it's just inane stuff it's just inane stuff that really has no purpose but it's fun to talk about and uh you say to yourself you know what no no I'm not going to do it do you realize the power you have at that moment when you refrain from having this inane conversation not prohibited conversation totally permissible but valueless conversation when you were afraid from having that conversation you actually decrease the negativity in the world and you increase the positivity in the world yeah yeah when women have valueless conversation they're really connecting you know it's interesting it speaks about whether you're allowed to speak about mundane things on Shabbos because Shabbos is a holy day and it actually says if you're talking to an Amma audits who's incapable of speaking about Torah study then you can give him oinig Shabbos by talking to him about mundane things so maybe I'm just saying maybe the argument is if it's for the sake of bonding right and then it's accomplishing something right so then it has a purpose and I want to tell you something I have forced myself to have those ridiculous conversations no no Pokemon I wanted to speak about Pokemon I wanted to speak about Pokemon but not everyone could have like sometimes you'll be in a conversation with someone you want to go to the next level but they just they're not ready or that's just them and you're like it's like almost like painful to talk about but they need that so how thing that could come off itself it's like oh I can't speak up mundane thing but this person right in front of me okay that's very important obviously that this is not supposed to be weaponized as like uh oh sorry I can't talk to you about this inane subject I'm not going to speak to you about what yeah politics I was going to go even more inane like your uh green apple scented shampoo I'm really not interested to hear about it and that you have a coupon for it I really don't want to hear about it because I'm trying to subjugate forces of negativity in the universe as per chapter 27 of Tanya so that would probably be um what do you call it yatsa Scott you'd be yeah you'd be undercutting the whole purpose of it because you like insult somebody and yeah it would yeah that's so that's up that's not what we're talking about obviously yeah we've all had moments where you really want to say something and you hold back right that's what right but we're not talking about something prohibited where it's like you know this could be Russian harda I better skip it that's not what we're talking about here here we're talking about something I know it's not lotion yeah okay he gives another example wow guys don't get scared when I'm gonna read this no don't get scared no no the rain begin thoughts yes you can let's frame this in a positive in a positive way because this whole chapter has been about framing this as an advantage as an opportunity remember the whole chapter is about this is an opportunity the fact that you're distracted by things is not it's not a problem it's it's a great opportunity to to serve Hashem by overcoming that that challenge so even on a thought level if you have the desire to think about something and you say to yourself nope nope not going to go there that also triggers that Universal ripple effect of subjugating negativity in the entire world this I do all the time it's all done I don't think about that yeah but we do think about it is he says even a little bit can you imagine that even a little bit [Music] the original thought is not in our control surely not surely not but what we're saying is are you going to entertain it are you going to open the door for it and say come on in put on a pair of slippers I'll bring you some tea so we're going to say no we're not going to give into it when you don't give in to entertaining that fantasy you are subjugating the negativity down here and then my reciprocal effect is causes an abundance of Holiness to be elevated throughout the world in other words just makes the world a better place yeah okay that sounds great no I don't think so I think that sounds positive negative thought or even something neutral ity you never thought you never sat and wasted time thinking about stuff that's totally not prohibited but it's just a waste of time you sit there be like hmm what should I wear to the wedding should I wear and I'll wear the mauve shoes no the taupe shoes so then you think about it but to think about it for five hours maybe it's excessive because I have tonight will I am I going to get the sushi or am I going to get the I didn't think about that you didn't think about that it's like obsessed are they obsessive things obsessive thoughts no no no yeah we're not talking about a health issue no no we're talking about normal stuff okay so it says it has this reciprocal effects this reciprocal effect that you're triggering that's causing Holiness to flow in the world we spoke about how it affects the world obviously it'll affect you in a positive way as well because you're the cause of it you triggered it so it's going to make your life better as well and what form will it make you will it make you win the lottery no that's not what it'll do let's say yes it's going to give you a boost in your service of Hashem sorry to disappoint you but that's what it's going to do that when you exert self-mastery rather in pushing off your meal or not speaking permissible stuff that has no content or value or by not indulging in a fantasy that's a harmless innocent fantasy but it's just not productive when you do that it has a cosmic ripple effect and it will specifically boost you up and make you stronger in serving Hashem yeah okay we know this stuff now can we should we have like a mutual like we see each other but like okay let's set an intention that we're not gonna say hello yet we're going to like delay it for the sake of breaking no no I don't like that idea no no in fact what I would yeah what I would say is if you're in a the question was when we come to Tanya class should we all like delay saying hello to each other and indulging in the social niceties because we're so what I would tell you is this room and this place and the people here are rare people forget about connection I don't care about connection there's rare there are not that many people in the world who are capable of having the kind of conversation that the students of this class are capable of having so if I were you from the second I walked in the door even from the second I saw somebody on Central Avenue I would start having a meaningful conversation with them because how many other people in the world are capable of discussing things with this depth and this this level of of appreciation of what life is really all about so like yeah I would talk probably more here and then less in other places where all people want to talk about is the the green apple scented shampoo I probably speak Less in those places but over here where people are capable of speaking about uh uh all types of deep stuff yeah just I'll just jump into the conversation yes it is a Mitzvah to greet everybody with a happy countenance with a smile that's true too yes okay and this is what the sages say all the mechanics when a person sanctifies himself a little bit down here and now we know what does it mean the sanctification is one of those vague terms what does it mean he puts on robes what does it mean he sanctifies himself elevates himself what does it mean he elevates that's also vague Master self he exhibits some self-mastery yes so sanctifies himself means that he shows that he's a balabas that he is not a victim to whatever his urges are even permissible urges he has the ability to say you know what not now not now I'm not going to let my internal toddler tell me that we're putting this in the shopping cart and we're buying this no no we're not no we have shop of cereal already put it back that's right you know there's an age that every Jewish person reaches where you realize that you can eat Shabbos cereal oh wait so when you sanctify yourself a little bit down here mikachu they who's they you know they they it's because it says the plural they sanctify you a lot from above what it means is the rich get richer the poor get poorer that if you act a little bit holy down here and again holy what does holy mean holy means show some self-mastery even a little bit down here the ripple effect is going to be that it comes back to you with compounded interest so act a little bit like you're in self-control and it will come back to you and you'll have even more self-control wow the VOD ma what yeah in real life yeah down here physical embodied soul yeah in day-to-day life with your soul in your body yes yes yes yes yes oh then it's then it's like the virtuous circle the more you do it the more you can do it and then the more you can do it and the more you can do it because you're getting a spiritual boost no it's not just your anything any skill you can get better at well hold on there's a lot of stuff going on one at a time one at a time the self-control for the purpose of glorifying Hashem not self-control like I said it's not intermittent fasting it's not self-control for a neutral goal okay it's it's self-control for the purpose of glorifying Hashem so you do a little bit down here even a little bit you push off the meal half an hour then it causes a ripple effect in the world makes the world a better place but also that comes back to you makes you more holy and now you're more holy oh you have more self-control so it's a virtuous circle where you can you get better and better and better at it and more and more powerful yeah yeah food and all of it how does make us how does it make the world better world well we said this we said this when when you exert self-control when you show that you are not at the mercy of your desires even if they are perfectly permissible desires so eating and you right whatever it is you show that you are in control you as a let's say a servant of Hashem and therefore it becomes more and more evident how Hashem is in control in this world it's a it's a it's a reciprocal effect Hashem set it up that way that when you push the button down here it's like a Rube Goldberg machine it triggers these effects Way Beyond you so there's like a micro and a macro going on the micro and the macro yeah and the micro the macro and the micro again because then it comes back to you it would reward you in this lot like you're almost you're feeling the energy of it right but then as you get stronger depression may be challenges oh don't think I'll cut I can't take that today okay it's true but I'm just not strong enough to take it yes it's true okay let's talk about for five seconds yes as you get stronger Hashem tests you more but I don't yeah let's not I don't want to talk about it but it's true I'm not gonna pretend it's not true but I don't want to think about it right now okay yes foreign [Applause] just as hard as they've always been if when you whatever no but like that's always the answer no I mean it is relevant to my like if if why should something get harder if we have if once you have self Mastery Hashem actually does this like I said where he actually makes it easier for you to master so I'll tell you that I would feel oh it's easier who remembers chapter 13. I'll go back what was it about who knows just to know by heart chapter 13 we said that your animal Soul even if you're abandoning and you exhibit perfect Behavior your animal soul is actually going to get stronger through your lifetime of course yeah even if you do nothing to improperly indulge it it will automatically get stronger per se through your lifetime so you don't starve whatever so you yep there's always that balance that's right yeah okay let's continue because I would love to finish this chapter today foreign so aside from the fact that you are performing you're fulfilling a positive commandment of sanctify yourselves that was your line right when you sanctify yourself in permissible matters it's a mitzvah you shall make yourselves holy make yourselves holy in other words act as if that's how I would translate that make yourselves holy means you're not really so holy oh so why should I act that Holy trust me act that Holy claim I that is to say even though the truth is that you're not totally above the negativity meaning it still has a foothold in your life it still does speak to you it still does speak compellingly to you you do have those urges it very much is a part of your conscious experience because it's still in its full force and like I mentioned from chapter 13 maybe even a little stronger keeping up with you when you work out in the gym you put more weight on the bar right okay Rock but however you overcome that Visa then you will become actually holy claymark you will ultimately become truly holy that means above having these problems because of that reciprocal effect which is disproportionate you remember we said do it a little bit down here Hashem does it a lot from up there it's a disproportionate reciprocal effect it's Reaganomics trickle-down effect clay merciful yes and they will help him meaning the the good guys the forces from above to slowly or incrementally get that negativity out of your heart so you do what you can do even if it's inauthentic that's our Point here even if it's inauthentic meaning to say I know good and well that if I push off my meal I'm still going to ultimately I'm going to eat shop of cereal for dinner on a Wednesday okay I'm going to but you know what maybe I'll sit down and I'll go to soulwords.org and I'll listen to a class first leg and then and then I'll have my my Cocoa Pebbles right and so even though I know that to a certain effect to a certain extent that's faking it because who am I fooling I do like Cocoa Pebbles but you don't have to eat the whole box yeah yeah okay um whatever amount to whatever degree you can exert some self-mastery this is not binary it's not all or nothing black and white like either you are you're not cherish every moment of it cherish every amount of it so now if we're talking about things that are prohibited obviously what what you're not allowed to do you're not allowed to do okay that's and obviously we also know that we're not perfect and sometimes we do things that we're not allowed to do but we can't sanction that we can't even pretend that that's okay it's not okay but we're talking about in the realm of things that are okay that are not prohibited but it would just be a Holier thing to outgrow it to not really be so interested in it anymore now the reality is I haven't outgrown it and I am still interested in it but if I can just push it off even just delay it even just do a little less of it again these are permissible things if it's something prohibited you gotta you can't do any of it I'm non-negotiable but we're talking about permissible things things you're allowed to do and eventually I am going to do it I am going to give in but I'm gonna exert some self-mastery for a little while and we have to understand that has power it affects the world in a positive way and it will come back to you and it'll affect you in a positive way yes and that's what it means it'll affect you in a positive way but that's what he's saying what does it mean it'll affect you in a positive way affect you in a positive way I said doesn't mean you win the lottery effect in a positive way means those acts of self-mastery which were perhaps inauthentic will become more authenticity same concept maybe the identical concept yeah okay and that's the end of chapter 27. buy a lottery ticket