"I don't know what to do on Tisha B'Av"

I normally you get up to the podium you say it's nice to be here it's not I don't know if you say that in tissue it's nice to be I don't know I'll I'll just honestly I'll tell you Tish above is a difficult day I'm not even really sure what to do with it I mean there's the halacha you can follow what it says in but I'm saying how to feel about it I'm not comfortable with the day I'm kind of hoping that we get rid of it as soon as possible even mashiach could come today and we don't even have to Finish dish above or actually we could really have the real tissue above as we know Tish above is called the moyade it's called the yamt of the rambam says and end of his tightness that when Sheikh comes the fast days are not only going to be no longer sad they're going to become they're going to become happy days so we'll have the real we'll have the real tissue above um I says the time of the Corbin was the time of the birth of mashir so that's really this weird thing we're doing for 2000 years is very awkward for a Jew and I guess what I'm saying is sooner the better we get the awkwardness behind us we get to the real dish above I think we'll be more comfortable and the screening will be more comfortable and the world will be more comfortable and yeah um you know along these lines there's a story I'm saying along the lines of not knowing really even how to deal with the Tish above because it's not a normal thing it's a weird thing I mean golus is not normal it's it's an aberration it's abnormal it's not how the world's supposed to be it's not supposed to be suffering there's not supposed to be uh not even supposed to be death or the mauritian was created to live forever mashiach comes people can live forever again below he says in the end of uh Mike cotton so uh this whole thing is just awkward there's a see them the cloud they didn't know what to do with Toshiba because you have the halacha you have the you have the obligations but in the end on the other hand where they said it is that even though is like so you have to have the tissue above his tissue but then at the same time you can't fall so you can't become depressed and used to have these things like the a lot of I'm talking about not uh simple people talking about very lofty spiritual people used to have uh and Tish above they have conduct that maybe we would look at is a little bit funny they would like uh play pranks and jokes so there's a story happened by the Illusions he was the great grandson of the messenger maggot he have said him and Tisha Bob I'm talking about grown men I'm not talking about little kids in order that shouldn't fall into atvos they would like play pranks and sure and and one of the pranks is they set up a booby trap by a skylight basically there's a skylight and show and they lowered ropes under the floor and it's you know the Shula's dark tissue buff and you the ropes were on the floor so you couldn't really see the ropes and then when somebody would walk into Shoal the guys they had discovered standing up on the on the roof by the sky standing around the Skylight when somebody would walk into Shore they'd tug on the ropes they'd pull the ropes like a net and pull the guy up basically imagine that you walk in the shore all of a sudden the floor comes up and they pull them up to the ceiling and the guy would be up there by the Skylight and then the guys on the roof would look at him and laugh this is what this is what the original we're doing so one time somebody walks in the show and Tish above and uh they felt uh somebody stepped into the net so the guy's standing up on the roof they tugged up on the ropes and they pulled up the net and they pulled the guy up to the skylight and they looked down and who did they see who did they just catch in their in their little trap it was their rabbit so they were shocked they were horrified he just froze they didn't know what to do they're they're up on the roof they're holding their debit in this in this silly Contraption and he's he's suspended there by the ceiling and they couldn't even move they couldn't speak and at that moment the Russian air looks up through the skyline he looks past these guys he just looks heavenward says if your children don't even know how to behave on tishabov take it away from them forever so that's what I'm saying I guess it's like good at Tish above I don't want to figure out how to excel at tishop I I want it to be awkward and I want Hashem to take it away from us forever or give us the real Tisch above which is where we can celebrate the gula but none I don't want to get good at this you know many Eden finally Eden after tissue above they would take the Sheamus say that I want to get very good practice at keeping this book around there's a story in the gamot of the the CM of Marcus a weird story it's a famous story I'm sure you all know about Rabia Kiva the other tanayam when they saw the the sight of the destruction of the the Besame they cried about laughed foreign how do you make sense of a story like this they're coming to the place where the base of English was destroyed if I told you afromagid was laughing dish above not just a Rabbi not just Tish above at the place where the basement was destroyed he saw the he saw the the foundation in Ruins and I told you such a person's laughing it's like it's very strange what do you make of this and they asked him he said why are you laughing so why are you crying so he told them he said there's a navoa says in mirka that seeing means the place of the the temple is going to be plowed like a field like Assad it's gonna be plowed like a field so as I see now the base I mean this is plowed like a field I mean I knew it was destroyed they lived in the time of the Corbin he knew there was a Corbin obviously but now he sees the extent of it it's not just that the building's broken up or smashed up no it's literally it's plowed like you don't understand what I mean it's plowed like a Philippines down to the foundation down to the foundation so he says now I see that this prophecy is true so then all the good prophecies are true too that's why I'm laughing Ruby Akiva didn't know he wasn't sure that there was going to be a gaula until he saw the extent of the Corbin it doesn't even make sense hear my question the fact that there's going to be opinions is going to be a good this is came long before the rambam he didn't need the Rama to tell them there's a basic Judaism was the one he was such a Believer mashiach could come remember he held uh armor for barquasiva he was hoping he would be Messiah soch is a reality until he saw the horban plowed like a field that was when it made sense to him oh now now there's going to be a good hula it's a funny story there was a year in Russia in Soviet Russia he was in prison forever anti what they called the anti-revolutionary activities counter-revolutionary activities which was basically what being being Jewish so as Jews in Soviet prison and he's writing to his wife his wife is writing to him officially they have the freedom to write and they could write whatever they want but they know everything's being read They're reading all the mail so uh his wife writes him a letter she says Yanko it's time to plant the potatoes and the ground is so hard it's so tough I can't break you have to break the dirt in order to plant the potatoes she says I'm I'm not strong enough to do this myself I always relied on you my husband to come and break up the ground and then we would plant the potatoes and I can't do it I don't know what to do she writes him a letter in prison so the husband yankally writes back to his wife he says do not try to break up the ground in our yard leave it alone because that is where I hid all of my weapons she gets the letter she reads the letter as she's reading the letter a truck full of soldiers pull up with shovels and with axes and they start smashing up the yard and they're turning over all the soil and they're looking for these weapons right that they read about in the ladder they turn over everything can't find anything they leave she writes back yankel I don't know what happened the soldiers came they tore up the whole yard with the shovels with the axes they turned up all the soil they turned it all over and they left he writes back to his wife now plant the potatoes you hear what I'm saying plowing is a productive activity right something 39 forms of prohibited labor on Shabbos only things that are productive so smashing up the ground tearing up the Earth is a destruction or is it growth huh if you take a snapshot you look at it frozen in time you say it's destruction they're destroying the Earth the soldiers are coming with their shovels and their accident we're tearing up the ground and in their mind by the way the soldiers do think they're destroying the ground but if you look at the whole movie if you look at it as part of a process so the tearing up the ground wasn't destruction it was plowing plowing makes the ground fertile and the more you plow the more things grow that's why plowing is one of the Llama test malagas actually forbidden I Travis because it's productive it's not destruction it's productive so this this is the vault of course there'll be Akiva knew that there's something called the Corbin and of course Rebecca knew that there's something called the gaula that comes after that of course he knew that and he knew that long before he saw the Corbin he didn't need to see the Corbin to know that there's going to be a gurulla and there's going to be a Binion base he knew that but see he didn't know how bad the Corbin was he didn't know the extent how thoroughly destroyed he didn't know he hadn't seen it there were no pictures people don't post it and send around on WhatsApp even though it happened in his lifetime until he saw literally like the navor says you know a negative prophecy can be averted or mitigated so he wasn't sure if the negative prophecy came true to the fullest he saw seeing no the base of Magnus was plowed plowed deep thoroughly the destruction was all the way down then he laughed he said wow such plowing is going to lead proportionately to such great growth that's why he laughed not because that was the first moment that he believed in the Gula he always knew there was going to be a Gula but the ghoula is not a monolithic thing it's not it's not just this one concept called Gula there are levels of there are levels of how great the revelation of godliness can be in this world and what does it depend on the level of revelation how thorough how great godliness will be revealed in the world people with their fleshly eyes will see that Hashem is creating the world but there's degrees to that the degree of that Revelation the intensity of that Revelation is proportionate to foreign [Applause] the intensity of the gullus the intensity of the Corbin at that moment you consult us Akiva you consoled us twice why they repeat it why they say twice he didn't hear the first time why'd they say it twice so husband sitting in the kitchen reading the newspaper and he says to his wife this newspaper article says the women speak twice as many words as men she says because their husbands don't hear them the first time he said what hey I told you I don't know I'm probably not telling jokes on tissue but I thought you don't know how to handle tissue why did they say it twice foreign [Music] was it's going to be okay there's going to be a Gullah but that they knew already he was just reassuring them of something they knew then there was a second and the Gula that's coming greater than I if the Corbin is this thorough when you Plow That deeply things grow proportionately that much more the Gaul is going to be proportionately a greater Gola that was the second Karma one of the Shabbos after Jesus says twice why twice not just that the is going to come and put an end to the goddess thank you so you tortured me and now you stopped no the second nakama which is much more important than the first one is that golus will be transformed into gaula that the plowing the destruction will prove to have been all part of the process of growth and what that means is all of the pain that we've been through collectively as a nation through our history and also individually you and your personal life all the pain that you've been through not only there'll come a time where it'll end it'll be gone but we will be able to see how everything that happened to us that felt like breaking and it felt like destruction it was really plowing it was making it possible for there to be greater growth we don't see it now because we're in the middle of the process and that's why Tish above is still this awkward day where we're just we only have the pain but very soon we're going to see the real tissue above that mashiach was born like the rashami says on Tish above and specifically one Tish above afternoon we're going to see the Tish above us we're going to see that all of the pain we went through was part of a process of Greater growth and by the way why was it only Rabbi Akiva who sought the other to know him couldn't see it so I'll tell you why who are the other to know him he was with from Gamaliel but Allah Yeshua kosher Eden but I'll tell you something that was their problem they were so harsh of they came from such illustrious from the mauchus he's from the kingship and he was the Nasi he was a family of niseum leaders descended from Yeshua was a lady these guys these were the ffbs they grew up they never went to public school but we're hearing about what hazak does getting these kids from public school and bringing them to a real Jewish you know no they never went to public school they went to the best yeshivas they were the best in their class in the best yeshivas in fact their fathers were the rabbis in shul these guys had a straight path the Torah greatness who's gonna be Akiva Shepherd illiterate public school kid couldn't read all of Base Ben gatom descended from converts to Judaism what a story Rebecca not the guy you would expect to become in his time like May should have been to live to 120 of Akiva lived to 120 and he was made sure to pay you in his time he had a weird life 40 years illiterate 40 years as a talmud and then 40 years as the teacher of Clans throw a very strange trajectory of a life that's why Rebecca was able to cop what the other to know him couldn't because I became understood sometimes things happen in a straight line you grow and you grow more and you grow more and you grow more and that's great that's nice but sometimes things happen in a weird way where there's detours and deviations and they're setbacks and there's falling down and it looks like you're getting farther and farther away from your goal but if you can look at the big picture you realize all of the things that happened that I thought were destruction and breakage we're really an essential part of the process of becoming who I need to become today and reaching my full potential and that really nothing's a setback nothing's a deviation these are just different paths to making the ultimate Redemption more complete we could have had a straight path practice of Wisconsin is coming they should have been a wanted that he should go straight into erits Israel he should build that base says if Masha would have built a base on mikdosh it would have stood forever there would have never been a Corbin after but that wasn't hashem's plan hashem's plan was that our story should be a lot more interesting than that think about your own life now I hope you're sitting there and you're listening right now and saying I cannot relate to this whatsoever because my life has been good the whole time I never had a setback I never suffered I never experienced loss my life's been comfortable and good materially spiritually I hope that is the case and you're staring at me like I'm speaking Martian but if you have had an interesting life the Jewish people have certainly had an interesting history I can tell you that I want you to understand what Gula means doesn't just mean an end to the pain means where we can see how the painful moments were not destruction but they were plowing they were part of the growth process to bring about an even greater gaula the understanding of elocus of godliness that we are going to have when mashiach comes is going to be greater because of what we've been through well Obama wrote a letter once in 1956 to the president of Israel to the Nasi you know they have the Russia the Prime Minister and they have the Nasi Nazi I would say in my accent and the Nasi was Yitzhak Benz v he was the first president and longest serving president of Israel and the Never writes to Ben's fee and apologizes for not using his proper governmental title he doesn't call him Nasi and the devil says I hear that you're a real guy you're a sincere person and you wouldn't want flattery and you wouldn't want me to be a faker so I'm not going to use the term Nasi on you and the rabbit explains because the word Nasi for me has very very personal meaning then the rabbit gives a very rare glimpse into his personal life and says the word Nasi is a total word it's not a secular word it's not a governmental position anasi means a true leader of the Jewish people over whom there's no greater Authority than Hashem alone he's directly answerable to Hashem a Malik and ultimately the real Nazi will be malach hamashiach so the rabbit says since I was three years old from the day I went to Haider and even before you imagine a little child and I don't know if you know anything about his life but you know his childhood they were when he was a little kid they were hiding from the Cossacks there were raids there were pogroms in his town his mother wrote Robertson Khan and she writes in her diary by the way Robertson Khan is also you can visit her cave or is also here in Queens queens of the holiest Borough you have the oil and you have the Bible should have his mother if it's in Khanna writes in her diary that when there there was a program and the Cossacks were raiding the town she said her little son he was a little kid himself he was soothing the other children from crying because if they would cry the Cossacks would find them and kill everybody he was giving out candies and he was calming the other children so that they shouldn't cry and be discovered so you're talking about somebody the Bible grew up with that and then came the Communist Revolution his father was sent into Exile ultimately died that was Father's yard said coming up than the Holocaust and his brother was murdered and his his wife's family was uh her sister and husband were murdered did not have an easy life I'm saying on a personal level and then I was writing to yitzhog Ben's fee and he's saying my whole life I'm imagining the gula since I'm a little kid since I'm a baby I'm imagining the gula and this word Nasi has a very specific connection to gaola because Nazi really means and I just can't use that word to talk about a secular governmental title whatever says do you know what it means when Gula comes it'll be like the navi says that we're going to turn to Hashem and after everything that the Jewish people went through for two thousand years of the most horrifying brutality the navi says we're going to turn to Hashem when mashiach comes we're going to say enough to be Hashem I'm going to thank you for the pain how is it possible to thank Hashem for the faith maybe you'll thank Hashem for stopping the pain maybe you think a chef that we're no longer in Godless how are we going to thank him for the Godless does it make sense I understand you thank Hashem that we're no longer in pain why would you thank Hashem for all the pain why would I think Hashem for the worst day of my life why would I say Hashem I remember the moment when I was in the greatest pain thank you I cherished the moment why would I ever say that there's only one possible explanation when mashiach comes it's not just an end to the pain that our people have went through that each of us individuals have gone through is not just an end of the pain when Sheikh comes all of a sudden we look back and we see the whole story and we see that the moments of Destruction were plowing they were plowing and they were making greater growth possible whatever you've gone through you're a hero like the Jewish people we are all heroes and you're surviving and you're thriving and you're looking forward to the moment when mashiach will be here and finally you'll be able to look at your moment of devastation and cherish that moment see the possibilities that it led to I only say one other thing which is I told you already it's very awkward for a year on Tish above because we are not built for gulless we're built we're built for gula golis is not a home for a year literally it's not we're not home we're not at home in gullies we don't know how to understand we don't know how to deal with this above it's not a normal day give us some normalcy nobody should die ever again that's how all them in Chicago were created to never die the ABC should get rid of death there should be no war there should be no famine there should be no children and parents who don't talk to each other there should be no Jews who don't know what Shabbos is who don't know what it means to be Jewish to put on filling every day these things are not normal and we're not comfortable with it we're not comfortable with tissue buff because the siba of all this dysfunction is the Corbin Hashem we want normalcy we want to be restored to normalcy and that means that we live forever that God is something we see with our eyes I don't want to hear any more of people telling us hilarious fantasies you're imagining our flesh should be able to see that's normal that's normal but I want you to understand that whatever you went through up until now whatever you went through up until now not only is it coming to an very an end very soon and the comfort is coming but it's a double comfort you're going to see how everything you went through and you did it so gracefully and you did it so beautifully and you're here we're all here everything we went through gave us the ability to see Hashem with greater clarity it wasn't destruction it was plowing for greater growth you